#im so sad lately and i hate it

[tortademaracuya]

Lalala im just venting in the tags

#im so sad lately and i hate it #wanting to cry out of nowhere. being unable to even take care of myself or others #i just want to lay down and rot while these feelings of loneliness overwhelm me #i know i should ask for help and part of me wants to. but the one i reached out didnt turn out okay #i dont want to be the type of friend that only asks for stuff #and iknow i mustnot be very fun like this. soasking for people to keep me company feels selfish #not only that but. admitting how i am...feels pathetic everytime myfriends ask how im doing #its pathetic to admit ican barely take care of myself because ima little sad. that i cant find joy in anything or do the things i have to do #everything feels so tiring and wrong and lonely. eachday that passes i feel worse #even in a group of friends i feel so lonely and thats unfair to the. who havent done no wrong #my head is just broken and i feel like i should just disappear so everyone dont have to worry about me #haunted.txt

[lesbaurinkos]

yknow no one ever gives long distance love her flowers. people are always posting about the trio of songs… always 2009 2012 and 2022… but never including long distance love in their posts… but iiiii will. i love and respect her. she’s my second favorite, even. after the legendary 2009 of course. can we give long distance love her flowers!!!!!

#literally i want to be there so you don’t have to be brave in a cold world of hate your arms feel safe #we can stay up late with bowls of ice cream three hour breakfasts more of those please!!! bitch!!!!!! #if u even cared!!!!!! #sorry it’s 3 am im hitting a state of delirium. #honestly i consider 2009 2022 and long distance love My trinity #2012 made me too sad growing up to listen to. i couldnt do it. i frequently listened to the other three however #and frankly. ive been in a state of late. the amount of times ive gone to pull them up this semester…… it’s dire. #Anyhow. none of this is the point. #for our beautiful efforts anyhow -> #phan

[starfables]

opens the door to my limo, drops this on the red carpet, and immediently speeds away.

#things have been kinda dogwater lately but now that im on spring break and a lot less sad hopefully i'll get back in the habit of posting #art more often :)) #outer wilds #unfortunelty my tumblr website is being stupid so I've been banished to the app for now.... I hate u phone keyboard #outer wilds fanart #outer wilds echoes of the eye #i could not come up with a more creative top text bottom text for this. sorry gang u can all go home #echoes of the eye #echoes of the eye spoilers #fanart #meme #outer wilds meme #outer wilds owlk #starfables art

[sad-leon]

Actually, Y'all can see these as well

Based off @/xinrouska's dtiys on Instagram (i dont know if they're chill being tagged over here)

I am obsessed with their villain Leo (and artstyle in general) and am going slightly feral for it lol

#sad•leonart #rottmnt #rise of the tmnt #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #rise donatello #rise donnie #rise leo #rise leonardo #i think... i might put that 2al animatic i have cooking to the side for a bit #...... maybe...... #ive just been so tired and angry and i dont know why but i hate ut #actually scratxh that #i do know why but im not giving in #anyways- take these goofy guys and im gonna go read and sleep before i vent and overshare on tumblr dot com #it was very experimentive for me #i dont think thats the word i was looking for but itll do #i was gonna do greyscale like the origin but i wanted to add colors #i did a stupid layer thing that got rid of the colors in their clothes but oh well #by the time i notuced it was too late to fix it

[akechi-if-he-slayed]

liking south park (and having a BLOG or other account for it thereby engaging in fan art and fanfic) and then acting like you’re on a moral high ground for openly proclaiming your hatred of kyman and its shippers is like being in hell and saying well im better than that guy because he did something worse than me to get here!! like. who gives a shit we’re all in the same hellscape can we please play NICE with each other??? good god i know our favs are fourth graders but that doesn’t mean we have to act like literal children too

#like!!! #you’re just lame and sad :( #and lowkey a loser because why do people keep wanting to start kyman discourse on tumblr dot net #like YES it’s an iffy ship for a lot of people NO kyman shippers are not inherently antisemitic or racist?? #get a life pls #kyman discourse is a horse beaten well beyond death can we please just accept it’s not for everyone and stop shaming those who like it #pls #kymans get behind me #kyman #south park #kyman is not my fav ship #u guys know im a style girlie through and through #but i ain’t gonna lie i look at some kyman art and enjoy it from time to time!! #also ive been this lately and it’s been driving me mad: #KYMAN HATERS ARE NOT OPPRESSED #HATING KYMAN IS THE MOST POPULAR OPINION IN THIS FANDOM #IT IS NOT UNPOPULAR #if u hate it so much either only use the following tab or just block kyman. #u are not woke u like South Park. Please remember this.

[deltaruiner]

AGHGFCCV LISTEN.

I have a theory-----

So it always bothered ne how despite there being so many witches in Mitakihara, there only seem to be Mami (and kinda Homura) as magical girls in the city at the start of the show, like surely these witches come from an equivalent amount of magical girls right???

Welll what if- magical girls and witches cone in some sort of "waves" of despair- basically, kind of like highs and lows in stuff like market economics

Heres how i think it might work- Kyubey reveals himself to a girl, and there are 2 options-

1- She is a lonely person and has therefore a higher likelyhood of witching out or dying without a support network, or-

2- She has, to some kind of degree, close friends she can talk to about stuff like being a magical girl.

If option 2 happens, then even if the girl herself is the only one out of her friend group (or out of whoever is eligible in it anyway) who becomes a magical girl, then eventually when she inevitably enters into a dangerous situation, Kyubey will manipulate any eligible friends she has into making a wish for her (which constantly happens in the show)

Then, if a wish wasn't made, a new witch or at least dead magical girl wouldve been created without any friends joining as magical girls

The more likely situation i suspect though, is that a wish DOES get made, and then, when one of the friends gets into a dangerous situation again and none is there to make a wish to save them (which will inevitably happen because being meguca is suffering)-

One of them will die or witch out, starting a chain reaction because well, your friend just died in front of you, probably brutally, or instead went the non gorey (if nothing else) way of becoming a witch- both highlighting the futility of your cause AND making you use energy to defeat a new witch in an already bad for you situation.

Both cases are highly likely to make the entire friend group witch out this way, because of the collective downward spiral.

And again, lonely girls are known to be preyed on because they do not last long.

In short i suspect the show takes place right after these kind of "chain witchification" happened to many magical girls in Mitakihara, which Mami was not affected by because she is a lone veteran (despite her efforts)

Basically, I think Gertrude, H.N. Elly, Elsa Maria, and maybe one of the other less significant witches (not Charlotte tho we know what happened There...) were part of a magical girl squad that fell to despair

Heck, this chain reaction is even shown to happen in alternate tinelines the Quintet was together, Sayaka witches out, Mami breaks down bc of it and kills Kyouko and then dies (to Madoka), and then Madoka becomes a witch, and so too would have Homura if she could not time travel most likely, resulting in net 0 magical girls and only witches for a short amount of time.

Mitakihara could also just actually be really small and all the witches immigrate from Kazumino or something. idk. that would be boring though

#pmmm #puella magi madoka magica #sorry for the repeating wall of text i really got into it #anyway its really sad. magical girls fall together so much we just dont see them sometimes at all. insane #also the implications if this is true on the shows exploitation themes with mgs being subject to market highs and lows like a commodity. ag #i hate that i thought of a way to make the show sadder somehow #sorry mutuals this probably doesnt make sense its late and im tired n stressied #my posts #deltaruins tags #aghhhhh #also reread the last line now im imaginging the wings of magius platforming against witch immigrants using a barrier (wall) #like some magical girl trump #anyway i am become sleepy again. will see notifications on the morrow. good eve

[kosmogrl]

not feeling my best today, my nose is runny, my throat is so sore and I don't have a fever but my temperature isn't normal and I barely want to move....

#i hate feeling sick its the worst #and im not used to being like this a lot thankfully so it gets me really down #and adding to my sadness lately this is the cherry on top #anyways happy sunday mutuals ❤️‍🩹

[dayurno]

i usually think it's bullshit when people say 'if you like x character it's because you're like them' but lately in case anyone was wondering i have been listening to videos on marxist history while single-mindedly making a self-sufficient high profit farm on stardew valley without having talked to a single romanceable character. hopefully this says nothing about me nor kevin day

#autism gang we'll blow your eardrums out #sorry ihavent been answering asks my farm you see. my farm. #the petite bourgeoisie simulator got to me #i named my chickens andrew jean and neil but lately i have not been able to afford hay for them so they hate me #because i spent all my time fishing and i left them to starve mostly #but in better news my cat is kevin and he is well loved and i never forget to pet him <3 #i love kevin and non-kevins equally #this is where kevin and i part ways because he wouldnt let jeandreil starve....... but its not my fault i ran out of grass for my silo #sad! #i need some cows next but i'm waiting for fall to come around #i'm on summer 27? so just waiting really to terraform my farm #also no one asked but im going to romance penny. kevin im also doing this for us. older women <3 #txt #kevin

[starlooove]

Duke should have a chain with a lil bat on it and that’s all I can really say about fashion

#he got it from luke who made it for Jace #to me luke is like a handy sim #there’s no specific thing he’s centered on he can tinker with anything tbh #he does NOT thing jason should wear a red durag instead of that nasty ass hood so Duke can never give him a 10 #tiff demanded her own with her own customized r for Robin #she could’ve got one at those lil mall kiosks however she can use her custom made one as a birdarang. yes she needs new ones every night #it’s just too cool #if ur black u already know she’s got her own initial necklace in civilian life #uhm anyways #Duke is mad bc he got to Jace too light 💔 #a few years ago Jace as Batman would’ve been extremely irresponsible and let Duke do whatever the hell he wanted #however after the accident he’s super strict now sad #Duke can’t even cuss around him before he’s yapping about proper communication in uniform #Duke asks tiff how she deals with it and tiff says it’s either this or working with those yt ppl again in Gotham and she’s good 👍🏾 #if the batgirls are there she’ll pull up but she’s NAWT dealing with Bruce and em #the relationship between tiff and Damian I made up in my head 💔 #‘I hate that bitch’ 5 min later ‘me and the bestieeee’ #unrelated well slightly but thinking about luke lately and gritting my teeth at the tim parallels #maybe I’ll talk about it next month but I’ve been too nice to tim this year im sick

[jessiesjaded]

random picture dump :)

#cat update: theyre good #clancy update: he just ate roast chicken so hes also good #jess update: Im good #im happier rn than anytime since 2020 i think #still up and down but way less up and down- if that makes sense? #its nice its good- its autumn now and i always look forward to winter #suffice to say: i hope you guys are well too #i saw in an email i have messages on discord but last time i attempted to log in it wouldnt allow me so... if you msged there and i never #responded its bc i cant get in to respond and tbh #i think discord was maybe terrible for my mental health #which is a little sad bc that was the main way i talked to people but also... idk #jury is currently out on that front we'll see maybe i'll download it again #but regardless i miss you but im well and i hope youre well and i hope one day coming back wont feel so daunting #relationships are hard arent they? i hate things changing and ending more than anything else in the world #side effect of my dad dying when i was little i think #but the main thing thats been making me feel guilty and uneasy lately is feeling guilt about disappearing from people so again! #im trying and we'll see ! #yeah :)

[waterlogged-corpse]

i really wished someone loved me and i could love someone ans we can go run away and live together and ill say that itll all be okay and he'll say he loves me and ill love him back and id hold him and hug him

#ill delete this later #i dont know why im very emotional lately this isnt good #im just so sad i hate everything i hate my life

[luck-of-the-drawings]

"You'll never drown if you keep swimming.." very nice words to hear after the stressful ordeal of making a deal with the devil! I REALLY LOVE JAY FERIN. when shes not carrying the team in battle shes very much carrying more emotional luggage than others seem to give her credit for. im cheering for her! go girl, go get the team together!

#jrwi fanart #jrwi riptide #jrwi show #jrwi riptide spoilers #BWUHH SO I FINISHED THIS ONE RECENTLY ACTUALLY #IT WAS ROTTIN IN MY WIPS FOREEEVERRRRR GWUHHH IM SO HAPPY TO SET IT FREE #I HAD SUUUCH A HARD TIME WITH THE GODDAMN HANDS HERE.... #IF U THINK THAT LOOKS GOOD THEN U BETTER BELIEEEEVE I BLED FOR IT!!!! #IN other news tho #chips sad boy arc!! i loooved seeing him get all sad n self hating. sayin hes not a good friend or a good pirate or AAAA #baby gorl..... i think its neat to see characters that normally try their best to build themself up soo much finally crumble #i liked seeing the Bastard Title finally get to him. and i like how hes acting after getting thru that arc! #like on one hand hes actin like sooo much more of a baby lately but its like. thats just how he stands up for himself. yknow? #the HEY. BE NICE! sorta stuff. LOVE that for chippy like yeeeess baby girl tell ur friends that they hurt ur feelings #what else can i say here.... NIKLAUS. OUH. OUHH MY GOD NIKLAUS I LOVE HIM SOOO MUCH #I LOVE HOW HE TALKS TO JAY I HOPE THEY CAN TALK MORE IN THE FUTURE... godddd i jus wanna see him again.......... #anywyay thats all my thoughts im gonna go obsess over prime defenders again baaaaiiiiiii #IF YOU SAW A TYPO NO U FUCKIN DIDNT

[chatblancofficial]

Tfw you invite someone to the friend group and their immediately better than you at everything and they're mildly condescending and kinda bulldoze you but you're too shy and wanna get along with them so you just leave and say you have a stomach ache instead of telling the truth 😅

#ooc #im very competitive but i also suck at everything so i get upset easily #:) #i feel stupid rn #like its just a game but why am i so upset over it #im a sore loser and i hate it #haha #hahahaha #haaaaha #wanna cry #it's stupid but i do #idk #i cant be held accountable for anything i post after 10:30pm #because when i stay up too late i get sad easily #idkk #felt sad might delete later #im typing so much #i should stop #vent #tw vent #ugh its literally a game i made up and i suck #uuughhh #sorry

[amrv-5]

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#somebody should design a hormone cycle that does not make you soooo sad one day a month #it’s so manageable cause I know it’s not Real and it’s predictable + easy to anticipate and mitigate #but cld we pleaaase lighten up on the biologically mediated despair rn #ohh so sad my back hurts i wld like to pass out in somebody’s lap for the evening. helpful biochemical state of affairs thanks #unfortunately will be bucking up finishing some writing and having a tea. stupidddddd #also hate admitting to experiencing an Emotional Woman Stereotype. Im Butch. #Nobody Percieve Me Tearing Up In Class Cause The Prof Mentioned Keeping Voicemail From His Late Father

[beedreamscape]

I think what is missing with 4-sided Dive that Talks Machina had was a third party to have those character discussions with. It's not the same with a fellow PC. Also someone with interviewing abilities, sometimes I feel like they meander so much.

And I do like to watch them talk, I do watch old episodes of AWNP, fireside chat, etc, but for discussing the game/campaign I think the mechanics of it muddles with the flow.

I personally feel no value is added from the tower of inquiry or the cup questions, though I don't mind the game playing at the end since at this point who had their curiosity satisfied can simply leave, but answering while playing which they tried doing at least once I watched didn't work at all.

Edit: Btw when I say no value is added I mean the format (being in a cup, pulling from the tower) and not the questions themselves.

#and. idk about y'all. but the broom bit just goes over my head #does anyone actually find that funny? #i can see some of them either don't want or don't like 'hosting' #them reading off the teleprompter also ruins the mood #i wish there was someone prepared to guide them through these conversations #maybe not dani bc she's prone to adding her own insights. which i like! but not in a host #SOMEONE TO CONTROL SAM #i *love* him but he derails so much #anyway. I'm not saying 4sided dive is doomed. but I think it has a *long* way to go before it's on TM level #unless you hated brian then all I'm saying must sound like bs xD #AND btw i have no nostalgia for TM. I hopped on this train in c3 and I haven't watched c2 #i just really enjoyed their conversations #talks machina #4-sided dive #critical role #cr stuff #4 sided dive #(late addendum: this was written b4 the shitty dude's debacle. im really sad he ruined to show for everyone that admired him in the past #BUT i still recognize the value it had. not just from his hosting but from the format. the questions submitted #while my opinion remains. my admiration for him does not. i still wish for a host for the new show. obviously someone different)

[im-smart-i-swear]

eeneks sister having a fuck ton of scars, but later most of them being revealed as just from her childhood/from mundane accidents is so fucking funny to me for some reason.........

#like of course a lot of her scars ARE blade of marmora -related #but a significant part of em are just. eens scratches n bites & the results of mundane fuck ups #god. i hate calling her 'eeneks sister' all the time. i NEED to find a good name for her asap!!!!!! #constantly calling one of your only female characters '[someone]s sister/daughter/etc' feels wrong and this woman deserves better than that #also. ignore the scar placement. it WILL change #i am incapable of drawing scars consistently #and im still figuring out her design #my funky guys #my art #im a little bit obsessed with her. shes like a sad wet cat to me #shes so cool and cringe at the same time<333 #20 something who spent her entire adult life as a marmora solider and is now trying very hard to learn how to be Normal(its not going well) #girl has issues #love that for her<3 #ive been on an eenek kick lately. thinking about this fucked up family 24/7. i love them #theyre all so funny to me. this family of three has so much drama its like a fuckin soap opera in here. its ridicoulus #also #taks thinks this woman is soooo cool and badass. i mean she is but shes also a wreck. #taks takes after eenek and idolises their sister. paralells ig??? #this girl sees a purple alien and asks 'is anyone gonna use this guy as their role model for the next couple of years??' #and doesnt wait for an answer