#im finally making fucking progress

[parallasso]

FUCKING FINALLY!!! i have been referred to a surgeon and hopefully insurance will approve it otherwise i explode and die

#apparently this surgeon is a tertiary level provider whatever that means #but if theres someone else then they might just redirect me to them #which would suck cause i kind of like being able to choose who tf im going to but whatever idk #im finally making fucking progress #anyways heres the update for everyone whos definitely so intently following the horrible story that is my attempt at getting top surgery

[humanmorph]

"[high pitched and tinny] Let’s dive in. Let’s dive in. It’s time to dive in. Get ready to [audio distorts and slows] dive. Diiive. Diiiiie…" (The Road to PALISADE 20: City Planning Department)

so that's what i've been working on for the past 2 weeks! i wanted to draw something for this intro ever since i first listened to it (as a companion piece to my other gur drawing, though it of course ended up being way bigger in scale), but it only really gripped me about halfway through PALISADE ep 18. the next morning after that i listened to this narration on repeat for about 45 minutes and then made a big sketch on 4 sheets of paper at my desk at work.

anyways, i haven't listened to the new episode yet but i think i'm probably ready for whatever they're gonna throw at us with the next sortie. i'm gonna believe, against it all, in millennium break. for gur

(i recommend listening along while scrolling! + transcript btw. if anything is hard to read)

#road to palisade #road to palisade spoilers #palisade #fatt #friends at the table #gur sevraq #<- yuore everything btw. #long post #and good god. it sure as fuck is #rosa art #the full file for this? that i had to split up? its 30000 pixel tall. thats 218cm #im so proud of this & it was a ton of fun. ooohhh my free floating panels i love them #i posted about my progress (theres some earlier sketches n lineart too) on cohost to be like well. #maybe i wont talk so fucking much on the actual post but noooo i cant shut up #love that for me.shoutout if you read all this #if you find a typo please. dont even mention it #a fun thing about this is that i almost know the intro by heart now. theres like 3 lines i get stuck on but mostly. its all there #ill link the cohost if i reblog this again. personally i think its interesting stuff but i love to hear myself talk abt shit i make soooo #anyways i have art class tomorrow & should sleep soon : ) but im happy im finally able to show this off. it rules sooo much

[cashmere-caveman]

sometimes someone will reblog my "silver lied in the finale no idea abt what tho" post and their tags all full of #flinthamilton angst and i just really am forcefully reminded that even though we all watched the same show . we did not in fact watch the same show. like yes their affair is basically what set the whole plot in motion and i really love thomas as a plot device but i do have to confess that idc abt thomas as a person at all lmfao

#like i wont stop u from making the finale abt flinthamilton thats ur right go crasy go silly etc but to me that is just not whats happening #thomas being there or not is abt whether or not silver is lying about this particular detail it is not abt unburying ur gays #like. to me at least #idk how else to put it but thomas being there is not abt thomas. it is abt flint and madi and silver and The Narrative #it is abt silver trying to pay off flint with the same thing he sold this war for: a partner #and he is telling this to madi who did not want this about flint who also did not want this #so theyre both making eye contact and are waiting for the other to either flinch or turn back into a person who loves them #its driving me insane. like ur taking a moment as fucked up and genius as this and u decide this is abt colonizer romance #like im not even getting into the fact that imo flint has progressed so far in his ideological journey that they wouldnt see eye to eye #bc woodes rogers is flints mirror but wr is also what thomas mightve become and ur telling me hed happily settle for That? #ok no i'll stop here i need to go say the litany against getting mad online 10x (getting mad online is the mind killer) #black sails #cavetext #once again. live ur truth!!! more power to u!!! but if u do that on my post where i can see it i will inevitably have opinions i fear

[intertexts]

didnt have time for a lot of art this year but there was some fun stuff! :]

#i HATEEE taking photos of any of my analog work its soo annoying. the real reason i never posted like finals frm print & stuff -___- #anyway. didnt make as much progress as id like this year but so much fucking stuff happened so its ok i think... im really happy w the lino #print + some of the colors ive been playin with :) #mine

[compacflt]

wip wednesday (thursday edition)

1. scene from slider one-shot that may/may-not get cut

2. ice/Mav flirting over “how good a technical demonstration ought to be when your adversaries are in attendance”

3. proposed edit insert scene for “debriefing” actually going into mavericks tour in bosnia

4. proposed edit insert scene for wwgattai ch 8, filling in those vacant yrs with postcards of airplanes & stupid shit

#note these are all really in progress wips #haven’t gotten the wording/pacing down right yet #one more final exam Friday then a couple big projects & then i have a month to work on fics #idk #fuck it we ball #top gun #top gun maverick #icemav #pete maverick mitchell #when we get around to talking about it #tom iceman kazansky #ron slider kerner #thinking about it and all these one shots/edits im writing #are literally just to make up for how poorly written the original wwgattai ch 8 was #just an absolute dearth of knowledge of how those emotional circumstances would play out #which i am now/have been exploring in all these new one-shots/edits #the post-rooster-papers-pulling situation is always so difficult to wrestle with #just no idea how it would go with these characters #anyway

[belphieslilcow]

fuck wait i forgot the last nb event was like a dream thing was it belphie centric fuck

#if i think about it too long i'll get overwhelmed and have a meltdown so i shant #hopefully #but uhh idk for sure cause i Didn;t Log In #i havent properly played in forever cause #im so far behind in terms of the story #like i think im still on asmo's part?? #maybe? #the power creep is just so fucking awful in nightbringer #or whatever the term would be #you need stupid high level cards in every type to even pass the ruri tunes levels #and it's so frustrating cause ruri tunes isn't hard in the slightest especially on normal it's actually frustratingly easy #because of how slow it is #but i have to use so many support items just to literally get a c at the last note #so i can finally read things #and idk it just makes me feel bad that i'm not caught up (it makes him feel like a failure) #so i get into the loop of feeling bad cause im far behind and then i dont play but then i cant make progress and the story continues which #means im even FURTHER behind #ohh i think i got it i think i scrounged in my brain i think i feel left out (has issues with that)

[lemongogo]

so if timeskip stampede s2 is fr are u telling me we can possibly get millie and eriks + og vash designs . ..

#YEAAAAHOOOOOOO #i hope so at least😭 man the timeskip thing is such a trip fr because like #did the fifth moon incident happen ?? in stampede . bc if not then theyd be looking at another 2 yr timeskip After the lost july that theyre #(i assume) setting up for in the finale #but then again ig that also assumes tht any semblance of the og plot remains #i literally have so many questions. ik theyd be answered if i just watched the show but i want to finish the manga first #ANNOYING I KNOWW😭💔😋 sorry HAHAGA #but it just confuses me soo much bc i dont know how u can get any forward progression #when theyre taking elements from way late in the series and introducing them in this prequel-esque s1 setup #ok anyaays . ANYWAYS im interested 2 know if we will see these changes #bc j want to see vash actually be and look like vash so bad its driving me crazy #and i want millie in the series soo fucking bad . loled at roberto dying ❤️ MAKE WAY OLD MAN #fr hated that guy.. i think he was intended to be used as this narrator for the audience to guide us into the series #but the whole reporter-know-all thing was annoying 😭😭😭 #anyways . millie be mine❤️ eriks!vash be mine ❤️ #hopefully manga/98-esque looking wolfwood be mine ❤️ #also idk wt the hell they did to livio (did they kill him or is it a fakeout for tripunisher return HELP) #or to legato . but they shld make themm all beefy again❤️ and cool❤️ for ME!!!!❤️❤️❤️ #trigun spoilers #trigun stampede #trigun #also yah someone else wondering if his bounty jumps from $$6 billion to $$60 billion #its such a small detail but i was so sad when stamp only put the $$6 on his head HAHACAHAHAHAGAGA #that one 98 clip thats like ‘the man who will slaughter the innocent.does the most evil of evil deeds- #-with the bounty of 60 mil double dollars on his head? YES I AM THAT MAN👹👍’

[jopzer]

sorry i thought about what they did to roy kent in season three of ted lasso and now i have to lie down for a week

#beebles #ted lasso #roy kent #take this as positive or negative im not your mom #but. my god #what if in the final season of our show we took one of the most beloved characters and we took all the development we'd given him over #three seasons and we fucked it and we didnt make it better #even though we keep reminding you every two episodes that he's critically insecure and he's incredibly guilt ridden and he's been doing #everything in his power to be better #backsliding is fine. i love a good backslide. bitches should be backsliding more often #but to put him on that path in the final season of your series and then not resolve it #like. one of the last things we see him do that isnt like. debatably a dream sequence. #is beat the fuck out of his friend who hes spent two seasons making and then demean the fuck out of his exgirlfriend who he wanted to marry #in the Last Episode. #of the whole show. #again i love a good backslide but what in god's name was THAAAAT!!!!! #we know roy's a violent guy we know he struggles with emotional intelligence we've seen all this happen #but to fuck up all the progress he's made and then not resolve it in any way by the time the show ended. ugh #truly feels like they spat in roy's face by the end of the show #like roy's trying to be better for keeley and he ends up being better for himself and then he ends up fucking everything up. Again. #at the very end of the show. what was the reason. #he's fighting with himself for the whole season and then its over. embarrassing really #he's got bright shining moments where that development does shine through but most of it is just painful to watch. #silly. silly shit.

[dbphantom]

maybe i should have gone into practical effects instead of computer science...

#when i was in middle school i used to use red and black pens + spit for blending to make it look like the backs of my hands were torn open #i can't believe it's almost 4am. i just spent 5 hours typing up an essay about MM's erik that i just fuckin privated bc i was embarrassed #AND I STILL NEVER SPELL HIS NAME RIGHT THE FIRST TIME AAAAAAAA #i was right but im going to save all my points for the fanfic im currently planning out and promptly NEVER GOING TO ACTUALLY WRITE #I say shoving my plans for my h2o s3 rewrite off the table #yes i skipped from s2 to s3 i had a BRILLIANT idea [season 3 h2o spoilers ahead be wary my mutuals who are still watching] #okay so you know how lewis goes to the american institute of marine bio in the middle of 3? since this is tied to my s2 rewrite fic i wante #to actually finally reasonably re-introduced dr denman to the story because i never liked that she just fucked off at the end of s1 #despite WITNESSING the moon pool magic. so i made it so she runs into lewis while doing a presentation for the college and they have a chat #(because her JAW paper plays an important part in my s2 rewrite bc i imagine lewis is the kind of guy who SAYS he deleted every copy of #it... but ACTUALLY he secretly printed himself out a copy to study in private to compare to his own notes bc #[lewis voice] come *on* guys just THINK of the progress that he could make with this! [grabby hands in front of chest]) #so yeah they have a chat and Linda kind of gives Lewis the opposite dilemma in s3 that Louise gives him in s1 about science and magic #since SHE knows about the moon pool and has been biding her time and she knows Lewis knows and Lewis is like ah... uh oh. #it will eventually tie into the idea it's not about forcing science and magic together or separating them #its abt respectfully and responsibly utilizing both to see their fullest potential. which lewis learned in s2 and Linda has... not. #BUT #later on she gets a call from 1 (one) ryan who is like 'hey so i heard u did environmental studies on mako for dr bennett a couple years ag #and i was wondering if you've seen anything weird there as im currently doing a-' and she's immediately like 'YOU SON OF A BITCH IM IN' #and he's like 'wha-' and she's like 'i have already booked my plane tickets we're going to have a great time we have lots to talk about :)' #and wheeee now they have someone who knows about mermaids on their team and it's the perfect way to bring lewis back to relevancy in s3 :D #it also gives me reason to have two bad bitches (linda and sophie) meet and get to know each other which is not a dynamic ive seen in #any of the H2O fics i've ever read so im very hyped to delve into how they'll play off each other #also charlotte is there so technically three bad bitches (only in my au Charlotte never lost her tail and is part of the gang she just move #because she felt like she needed to leave to really be able to find herself without being in her grandmother's shadow but she comes back bc #well... it's season 3 mako is sounding the fucking emergency alarms everyone is showing up sdkghkfjhg) #im also so so so hyped to show u guys who's coming back in the s2 rewrite because it ISNT denman and i think everyone thinks it will be :3c #(i said she when telling ppl to look forward to a familiar face... but can u blame me for getting hype she's one of my favorite characters! #i love u H2O #cruddy rambles

[spacebugarts]

Finally started working on my werewolf Lawrusso fic again last night and these are the first two hints on the daily crossword are you fucking kidding me NYT???

#nyt is fucking psychic ig #anyways im back on my karate boy bullshit :) #brain has decided to focus on the karate husbands #finally making progress yay! #lawrusso #karate kid fanfiction #karate kid #cobra kai #werewolf johnny my beloved <3 #werewolf au #anyways I just thought this was funny agsjsgs #like the first one was a lil funny and i paused for a bit to appreciate it #then i clicked the next one and i needed to stop bc holy fucking shit what the hell #so i lost like a minute on the timer just recovering from the psychic damage #my fbi agent is apparently the one writing the nyt mini crossword who knew #tkk

[tfshouldidohere]

u know what fuck it, i did so much alr, im going to bed

#tbf i did NO academic progress today #but i did alr make majority of the drafts for most of these last week #i can finalize them tmrw #theyre all due next week tf #[i got that extension btw :3] #so ill fucking REST cuz im SICK #tfshouldirambles

[zouisalmightie]

.

#im going to use these tags as a way to beat my soul about my job so if you come at me you’re a bitch and i hope you stub each individual to #i finally realized why im unhappy being a teacher and it’s because i don’t care about the future of these kids more than the cursory #‘I hope theyre ok’ you would feel for any stranger in the world #like i want to harm to come to them but i truly don’t care about them #like the kid that sleeps in class ? my thought is finally he’s fucking quiet the kid that’s got a 2% and doesn’t pay attention im like #whatever like im not motivated to get them motivated and if I wasn’t the kind of person that cared about her work id give them worksheets #for the rest of the year making them silently work while I r ead books all day #like I feel like at the beginning I did the calling home and the tutoring and the flipping over backwards to get as many of the kids to #their reading level and ensure they’re getting a great history lesson that’s going to reach every student and now im like #this is the lesson and if you like it great if you don’t idc you can pay attention or fail it’s on you #and part of me feels bad like I should want to dress up like x figure and get them engaged by doing xyz and like I just don’t want to #it’s like what’s the point im going to engage the same 9 kids in each class while the other 21 pretend to #pay attention while they’re texting under their desk and then they’re going to try to google or use ai the answers #and im like…. whatever i dont care turn it in don’t turn it in whatever #ik too young to feel this apathetic about teaching and it suck but also oof I don’t care #I want to quit at the end of the year before my apathy turns into hatred I’ve seen teachers that hate hate the kids and that can’t be me #like even if I stayed for 30 years it wouldn’t be me but the idea of it scares me #I don’t want this job to change who I am as a person but it’s taking away my care for the younger generation #I don’t hate them or wish them ill but I just genuinely don’t care about them or their progress or anything #it’s scary #anyways im rambling idk im just having a bad day ill see this tomorrow and be like wow girl get a snickers cuz this isn’t you #but rn that’s how im feeling

[skinnymeanfaggot]

also

#im making huge huge changes in my life and i think the next logical step would be to cut off jamie. ive already been ghosting him but thats #just me avoiding the problem. i just like. it feels fucked to be like hey i told you i was ok with what you did but i Changed my mind #i just think like. i have next to no contact with him and i feel fucking fantastic. we talk like every couple months on the rare occurrence #he can text and then i answer in vague short sentences and ghost. and now that i finally have firm boundaries with him and havent engaged #with him sexually its like. i feel like basically all my ties are cut. and i feel like im ready to let go for the first time. like ive #always felt like i just wasnt ready but now i like i Am ready its just a matter of like. doing it. thats difficult. even though i know hell #accept it because hes matured. and like. idk. i think its fine like this #and idk i think its fine like this. being the absolute barest form of acquaintances. i cannot stress how little we interact and how little #affect he has on my life at this point outside of what happened in the past. like i am in a good place he is 99% cut off i just need to do #the last bit. but like also fuck. you know. its hard to kinda finish it off. and its also like ooh it would hurt his feelings but now i #fucking. dont care lol. after everything. with blue i realize every day just how much more respected i feel and less gross and shitty #even with being jamies friend which we never were because whenever i was single we were sexual. i just felt bad. i never wanted to fuck #either. and he would say he loved me and id be like hahaha yeahhhh and now that ive finally drawn that boundary and said he cant do that #anymore i feel so much lighter and i just feel so happy and safe with blue in a way ive never felt with jamie and its like. im almost there #i feel like i might be able to cut him off by the end of the year. and thats crazy to me. i just also have a lot of like shit to unpack #in general too also. with what he did. and i just have a lot. but i feel like im progressing

[theshireisburningg]

one like and ill write the steve and eddie meet You Belong With Me by taylor swift fic

#i have so many thoughts #eddie and steve are friends outside of school #but in school steve is still the asshole basketball captain #whos constantly with the cheerleaders #and he puts on such an ACT and it drives eddie crazy bc he knows steve isnt like that #but he has friends and parents he feels the need to impress #and eddie can tells hes MISERABLE all the time #and eddie thinks hes making progress because he shows up to steves game wearing his letterman jacket #and he feels SPECIAL but then steves asshole dad sees him and is furious its not one of the cheerleaders wearing it #and they FIGHT bc steve ignores eddie out of fear for like 3 days and eddie calls him out for being a douche #and they finally makeup in time for the championship game #which eddie goes to in the jacket again bc fuck steves dad #and when steve scores he only hears eddie cheering even tho the cheerleaders are literally spelling his name #and he just stops dead in the middle of the court like #holy shit. im in love with eddie munson #and after eddie is like. yeah. youre an idiot steve harrington #ill stop now

[snailfen]

the gourmand experience thus far: rotundness

#rain world downpour spoilers #rain world spoilers #FINALLY MADE A DENT OF PROGRESS IN DIRECTION. holy shit #but um most of my grocery list is done! a lot of stuff i needed was in shoreline. i also ran into an orange lizard in shaded citadel..??? #im guessing it was a lineage step. cus i killed and ate a mole lizard for the list a cycle earlier. iirc orange lizards dont normally spawn #in shaded #ALSO MIRAHEZE UPDATED. thankfully you dont HAVE to kill a red centipede for the list! its either that or an aquapede. whew #so anyways i just went for that in shoreline #got a cyan in industrial #decided to make a quick stop at sky islands before heading to fp??? for some reason. took forever to find an eggbug jesus #its so funny what pebs says to gourmand. Gluttonous Beast..... rotundness. hehe #anyways i unlocked slugpups early through the cheats menu but never found any on survivor/monk. i ran into one at a karma gate shelter help #ITS FUNNY CUS I SAW PIPE LIGHTS INDICATING THAT SOMETHING LEFT WHEN I ENTERED THE SHELTER. IM AT THE TOP OF CANOPY #fucking NOTHING gets up there. so i popped back out. saw nothing. figured it was just a batfly. went back in. boom. baby jumpscare #so um. i have a baby now!!! im on my way to subterranean and i have two items left. so smooth sailing from here #still need to come up with a name for the little guy.... i wanna do a title like the campaign slugcats? theyre a white slugpup #oh god i have to be responsible for them the entire way. if i run into another one ill cry cus i wont be able to leave it there #but dear god the difficulty will Not be Fun. why am i like this. #mossball.txt #nebi gaming moment #the gourmand

[timegears-moved]

me 99% of the time: man the sun and moon series was so amazing. it's my comfort show because it's so feel-good and heartwarming.

the remaining 1% when i think about how dirty lana's primarina was done:

#bwark #why do the writer always do this to my favourites!!! #like everything that happened as popplio was perfect. the characters were literally praising her just for existing #and i was like bitch me too the fuck #and i was so excited for it evolve!! i was so excited to see her develop further and get stronger #but it spent a grand total of 14 episodes as brionne with absolutely no training in between to show its progress #if she had just evolved into her middle stage earlier in the series like torracat did then this wouldn't have been an issue #and then after her first evolution she's not shown as much on screen anymore and is p much replaced by eevee as lana's cute mascot pokemon #like alolan marowak is more popular than turtonator but you still see both of them chilling with kiawe so literally what gives??? #and then there's the fucking guzma battle. great fight to show how much of a threat guzma was but like #making primarina's last major moment in the series so fucking brutal and uncomfortable to watch was rlly upsetting #like it's just a repeat of dawn's ambipom bc they made ambipom lose her final contest before being booted off #except i don't think primarina's case is that bad because at least she's still hanging around but it's still bad #and i know this isn't abt lana's primarina or even abt sm but the jn episode about the blue enthusiasts was another salt in the wound #like brionne and primarina's major return for journeys.......was in a scene where a human dude fantisized abt brionne/primarina falling in #love with him. cool. thanks. i want to fucking die. #sorry this is so wordy and is probably a ridiculous thing to get mad about im just really autistic about these pokemon