#im aiming for awe

[bluebeetle]

revealing that the nashville shooter is supposedly transgender, without revealing what gender they id as or any other information other than that, being a former student, and a name... absolutely evil, because it allows people to construct their own narratives and this is going to mean so many awful people blaming the entire trans community (and assuming the shooter is a trans woman bc transmisogyny)

(edit: i wrote this rly early in the morning when reading the news, see tags and notes for more thoughts ig cuz im making this unrebloggable bc transphobes r annoying)

#txt #like the fact that every article is raving to mention that theyre trans.... #this is definitely going to be used to fuel anti-trans hate at a time where its already rampant #shooting tw #ive seen claims the shooter is a trans man but i still feel like transmisogyny will lead to most people assuming trans woman. i see that a #ot where thats the assumption #its fucking disgusting. and ive already seen people trying to say not to misgender the shooter being told theyre terrrible people #and that clearly they care more about pronouns than children dying and its like no. #the shooters dead misgendering them does nothing but harm other trans people #it shows that their rights and respect for them is conditional. step out of line #and suddenly its ok to be misgendered. ugh. #its frustrating bc what this person did (im refusing to use their dead name or the one they went by) #is abosulutely awful. no one is actually defending him #but that doesnt excuse transphobia. and yet if you try to point out someone is being transphobic suddenly your defending a mass murderer #transphobia effects all trans people. not just the ones youre aiming it at

[bunnymedley]

buying plants vs zombies garden warfare 2 on steam for like 75p rn cus i fucking loved that game as a teenager

#no idea if my laptop will be able to run it cus it struggles a lot nowadays #but man #i was mostly a cactus main btw im not good at aiming like i was awful at sniper in tf2 #but for some reason i was a fucking good cactus

[roaringheat]

just took my first dose of testosterone wheres my dick

#vark posts #exciting #it burnt the hell out of my throat just from breathin this shit in #similar to how inhaling rubbing alcohol feels #i can only imagine what it smells like #wouldve taken this 2 days ago but im pretty sure i have to take it in the morning #and with my fuckin luck i had 2 back to back before noon shifts and i didnt trust myself to make it to work on time lmao #i cant remember if ive said this before but im aiming for androgyny thats leanin more masc #im gonna be so hot its unreal #im yappin a little im just still kinda in awe that i actually fuckin got this now #with virtually barely any effort too #im winning

[kirnet]

i keep trying to start re 2 and i keep immediately getting too scared lol. still in that gas station

#not that its like actually scary but i cant aim!!!! #ramblings #i enjoyed the re1 remaster so so much it was so awful to play #now that im trying to play an actual big budget recent game i cant do it. where are my fixed camera angles

[hakaieve]

i respect milgram's writer so much for making fuuta such a stubborn and awful asshole. genuinely how do i do that

#fuuta doesnt feel like a one dimensional strawman evil guy #but he does also genuinely think cyberbullying is epic and cool #i remember seeing the writer talk about how he doesnt want to sacrifice character for cuteness or coolness factor #which i just think is really powerful #i guess its because im a fanfic writer but i always end up wanting to make my faves appealing #but at the same time i think milgram characters are so fun precisely bc they do awful things that someone out there will hate #something something the writer saying that he and harukas va aimed to make haruka as creepy as possible even if weakness got 0 views #i think i tend to make fuuta too kind so ive been slowly adjusting for it but every single time fuuta shows me he can be even more awful #i can never truly imitate how yamanaka portrays my faves (said incredibly positively) #my posts

[tenrose]

I've been under hormonal contraception for two months now and I can say the pill I'm taking right now is absolutely not the one for me. I've been developing atrocious migraines, this one ha been here for days now... I just took a nap and had a fever dream, I was suffering in my dream and had a block of ice on my head, woke and it's here IRL 🙃

Obviously I didn't expect to miraculously have the one pill that works for me on first try but my next appointment is in November so it's gonna be so long till I can change it... Not sure if I will be able to take it till then...

#misc #first month i had one violent migtaine like the moment my period came #i usually already had headaches the day before #but this time it was something much more violent #and this time it's going for days #sometimes it's running in background so it's not debilitating too much #just mentally and physically draining when working #but then it has peaks and it's awful #i have flashes in my vision #and the feeling of having a knife plunged in my forehead #also i still have the usual cramps #and im aiming for hormonal contraception ONLY to stop that shit #not the contraception part #so i would like it to do its job #not add me more problems #i shared with some people around me #and apparently it could be the molecule acting as progesterone that's responsible #lot of them can't tolerate #mine is micro dosed #but it has more of the progestative molecule #anyway my gynecologist would know better #the only bright side is that i've had a clear skin for the entire week for the first time in my life since ly teenage years #but you know what #i take back the awful skin to get rid of the rest #can't wait to have my blood check and see on the top of that if it doesn't fuck my entire body more #actually can't I just get rid of this bitch of a uterus #I don't need him and I hate him

[lazybakerart]

“What’s your issue?”

“Everything. You.”

Steph walks her back to the other side of their slice of school to corner Billie right where she wanted to be in the first place. The alcove above them tings with rainfall.

“I thought we had a deal. Isn’t that your thing? A guaranteed A for cash?” Steph pushes at her. Scrapes her across the bricks. Scowl so ugly Billie wants to drop to her knees. “Who pissed you off because I know it wasn’t me.”

“Yeah, it was just some other uppity cunt who looks just like you. My bad.”

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#harringrove #fem harringrove #my stories #across the board billy/billie is awful adgjkhjdsfg #was aiming to post this for valentine's day and totally did not do that #can you tell im trying to clear out my wip fic before s4 drops???

[hella1975]

my maths exam is on tuesday and i still only really know two topics of the massive amounts that could possibly be on the test. am i revising? no. am i listening to ewan mcgregor devour el tango de roxanne? yeah

#me: there's a possibility that the exam will only be on matrix algebra and extrema/saddle points right?? right??? #at least ive finally figured out differentiation #my toxic trait is thinking i can bullshit my way through a maths exam like girlie this is not english you aren't good at this #and im one of the few people who went into this degree without a maths a-level so i dont even have that foundation #like most of my course does #whoever looked at maths and went 'calculus would make this better' needs to die an awful horrific death #why does the violin in this song go so hard sorry not to change the subject but fuck me they went hard with this #ROXAAAAAAAAAANEEEEEEE- WHYYYYYY DOES MY HEARRRRRTTT CRYYYYYYY #anyway ive got my semester 1 grade average and i did coursework worth 20% in semester 2 for maths #so im literally just aiming to pass this tuesday exam and i should be fine #so honestly i might actually be fine if i just have a couple topic i know really well #bc a pass at degree is literally 40% which is really misleading bc it just means the content is so fucking hard #but each question is worth like 12/15 marks so as long as i get minimum THREE right #i acc should be golden #see im planning im being strategic #god it just did the quiet bit after the french section into the violin again im going mental #hella goes to uni

[cursedskull-666]

The nights are getting too hot again...and so my Suffering Season begins...

#I really need to invest in some proper curtains and also like 20 fans to aim directly at me at all times #Living in the south of england during increasingly unbearable summers of heatwaves is bloody awful #Theres no bloody reprieve #Im gonna have to switch to sheet blanket...adios my beloved weighted blanket #Personal #Just let me complain okay i hate being too hot

[nose-coffee]

nothing even happened!!!

#vent post #don't reblog #do not open tags if you dont want to know abt the Everything #fuck off lou #my post #guess whose fucking prescription expired #and also whose period just started again. six days after it ended. again. #and also who didnt even have a difficult day but is still feeling exhausted and overwhelmed and awful #my roommate it watching tiktoks w no headphones on in the bathroom next door to my room #and it makes me want to scream #i even had a productive writing day #so why! do! i! feel! like! shit! #it's probably the burnout #and the looming two-to-five days im going to have to go without my meds #+ looming threat of having to move back in w my parents until i can find a one bedroom within my price range #(hahahahaha) #while aiming to work part time bc of the burn out (ahahahahaha) #god just keeps nerfing me over and over and over #like bro i am so sorry i was cocky af two years ago but i am not she anymore i know my limits pls stop

[smelling-fishy]

i love playing squiffer because i get to hunt people for sport and die onebillion times but i've been trying to learn e-liter also. and i feel like squiffer's whole thing has given me the worst habits ever for any other type of charger...... i cant hop around and hurl myself off platforms while charging or firing anymore. i am going to die instantly if i superjump to the middle of the map. and if i get a death count of like 8 or 10 at the end of matches my teammates are going to kill me also ☹️

#^ splatoonpost #im so sorry teammates. im trying my best i am taking good long range charger positions..... #i wish i had point sensor. it would be awful to be honest because then you couldnt combo with ink mine when youre ambushed. #but my aim is a lot better when theres a big circle around everybody 👍 #im getting better ^-^ i really do need to stop jumping while firing its a bad habit. the only charger that works with is squiffer !!!

[homemade-potato]

I hate how sometimes I'll be minding my own business admiring the scenery and forcing Joel to live his best life with his favourite surrogate daughter when all of a sudden I hear the nasty, grating sound of the clickers and I'll suddenly be thrust back into this silly zombie survival game with the reminder that this isn't just some sweet slightly angsty slice of life game about coming to terms with unresolved traumas and the reminded that I'm literally going to get my head torn off if I don't do something

#it also doesnt help that im awful at killing the infected even on easy mode with lock on aiming turned on #the last of us #tlou #tbf tho. it is actually just a coordination problem #like i walk into doorframes and gates and bins at the best of times in real life and now you expect me to be able to aim and shoot a gun #WITH moderate accuracy??? give me a break

[bloodanddiscoballs]

hey how do you get better at aiming in video games asking to try and get rid of my awful aim that I've had for as long as I've been playing video games

#when i paint i think of literally anything and everything but painting #and obviously im obsessing over those damn mercs of the fortress of the two right now #and i suuuuck at aiming #its awful #i usually go with characters who i dont need to be great at aiming or pick guns that are more or less shotguns #but like i wanna play as sniper more cause i like him but ive never been good at him ever ever ever #the bow is better tbh but while its fun and i can befriend the team pyro to light those up #i wanna get better with the rifles #hewp

[ghastbutlikegay]

yo why is it so hard to find good bedding for mice

#im working on setting up my cage so i can get pet mice (hopefully 2-3 girls) #and one of the things i still need is bedding #im looking for aspen shavings specificaly since i heard cedar and pine can be unsafe for mice (delicate respiratory systems) #and paper based bedding can be expensive for small amounts #and i just cant find any hemp bedding in the us #im looking at apsen bedding aimed at horses for a mega cost effective bedding but #i wanna make sure it's a brand that mouse owners have confirmed is safe for mice #i heard horses have delicate respiratory systems too (and that their owners treat them like delicate little princesses) #so im assuming dust extracted and kiln dried horse bedding will be fine #but i wanna do more research first #apparently you can get 7 cu. ft at tractor supply co for like $7.50 #or like $14 for the stuff aimed at small pets in smaller quantities (like 5 cu. ft) #i just cant seem to figure out if the brands they sell are actually safe #like some small pet bedding can be really dusty and awful bc it's cheaply made bc rodents are seen as like #'easy' 'starter' basically disposable pets #(can literally get mice for like $6 at a chain petstore) #(do NOT do that. do NOT support chain petstores selling live animals. plus the mice will probably be pregnant and sick so do NOT) #anyway ive been looking at bedding too long #i just wanna spoil my mice and have them be the most pampered and well cared for animals in the world

[lighthouseborna]

wait no actually y. yeah. that exactly, actually, especially given the way most of fandom treats this man who made his own (most of the time) fully informed decisions and only “““swapped sides”““ when it came down specifically to potentially losing the woman he had one-sided feelings for.  respectfully he “didn’t know” beckett killed weatherby (or really, had him killed) because it was convenient not to like idk he’s always seemed very self involved to me idk idk

#like the man is described ''royal navy to the core'' and Yes he is portrayed sympathetically by the end but like #eh. #i dunno i still don't Get™ the norrington obsession in a lot of fans is really the whole point here #i've defended him a time or two from some really wacky takes and his place in the narrative is both important and makes #the story more rich i wouldn't call him useless or pointless i just. he sure is There #................................................not but actually im not even convinced his attraction to elizabeth is what he thinks it is #you could argue its genuine because he more or less sticks to his guns after her deviancy but you could also argue #that what makes her attractive to him is the ''good match'' perception because SO MUCH of what he aims himself toward #is what society says he should want. what society says Success Is #and he keeps to it through all of DMC. all of it. #and most of AWE has him back on his path but admittedly appearing to question if its what he wants #but is he losing faith in society or in Beckett? #because also Weatherby is Society as HELL and beckett killed weatherby- #because beckett is neither for society or the opposition of it he is for Good Business which knows no god and fears no devil (only debt) #anyway #hannah get out of the tags challenge

[branmer]

the way my mum's cat runs away from me as soon as he sees the bathroom scales appear because he knows he's about to be picked up ;A;

#i feel awful #but on the bright side he is holding steady at 6.7kg at the moment #the vet is like 'he should be a 5kg cat' but i just can't see how he could get down to that #so im like just aiming for 6 - 6.5kg tbh #what's important to me is his mobility #in other news i need to GAIN weight myself ;A; #i lost a lot of weight during november and im close to being underweight so i gotta make some gains #tw weight