#im a bit emotional today

[maareyas]

Greeting a new dawn

decided to do something for the new year at the last minute kkkhkdkh. this was supposed to be a quick one. wadda hell

here's to another year of existing and silverposting. I want to hope that things will become better for all of us.

#sonic #sth #sonic the hedgehog #sonic fanart #silver the hedgehog #digital #artists on tumblr #clip studio paint #my art #this started as something careless (you can see it in the pose lmao) but it became a lil bit emotional for me #damn #anyways tysm to toni infante's skyward sword art which inspired the look of the sunrise #it's already 7pm in my timezone as i post this lmaoooo #idek. im feeling weirdly hopeful today despite Everything Still Happening

[unluckyprime]

GOD YOU GUYS . WHAT AN EPISODE !!!!!

#I AM YELLING SO MUCH FUCKING HAPPENED #im incredibly emotional about normal rn . GOD . the pride layer was everything #ALSO TAYLOR AND LINC FRIENDSHIP SO REALLLL THEIR MATH ROASTS 😭😭😭 #also lincoln li Wilson kill shot today . get ‘em king #FUCK SUCH A GOOD EP #dndads #dndads spoilers #dungeons and daddies #lincoln li wilson #normal oak #oakworthy #scary marlowe #i love her guys . I missed her im so glad she’s back and being awful <33 my girl #Taylor swift dndads #hermie unworthy #hermie the unworthy #jodie foster dndads #sorry this is a bit late i was trapped in the academic system (3 hour college class)

[iamhereonlytobeanunstableshipper]

Cherik is such a gorgeous love story I often forget it's not canon.

Like, objective proof aside, imagine a love so undying it has persisted after so many fights, betrayals and wars in every universe and will continue to do so even if the earth stops spinning, even when everything is reduced to the ground. The love will persist, because it feels older than the universe itself, and it will do so no matter how much either of them tries to bury it or stop it. Its a love that has changed their lives, the lives of so many, it has changed the world in each and every reality where it's born. It may not actually be what makes the world spin, but it sure is what makes each other spin, because Charles Francis Xavier is not Charles Francis Xavier without Erik Magnus Lehnsherr, and Erik Magnus Lehnsherr is not Erik Magnus Lehnsherr without Charles Francis Xavier.

And this. This. Is NOT canonigally romantic love. WHAT THE FUCK.

Never forget what heterinormativity stole from us

#can yall tell im feeling a bit emotional abt them today #like what the fuck #their live has CHANGED the WORLD. MORE THAN ONCE. WAAAAY MORE THAN ONCE. #i feel sick #cherik #charles xavier #erik lehnsherr #erik lehnsherr x charles xavier #charles xavier x erik lehnsherr #mutant husbands #james mcavoy #michael fassbender #cherik headcanons #professor x #magneto #charles x erik #erik x charles

[thespermdonorstorylineisstupid]

we all want to keep seeing queer representation on our favorite show (yes it has been queer the whole time but its nice to see bisexual rep). we don't have to be dicks when buck kisses one boy instead of the other. we can still want buck to be with eddie more than tommy without being dicks. like i want buddie. i see what they could be should be. what they already are to each other (buckley diaz family forever). but i also like tommy as a character and lou is a fucking dork i love him.

#lets just be less dickish #911 abc #buddie #bucktommy #i dont know this is a bit of a ramble #im just feeling my emotions today and want peace on my dash

[moeblob]

Deacon loves two things: Ymber and digging himself a grave.

Fulj hates one thing: Deacon.

#my characters #waiting on some info on the next commission so i indulged in ocs today bc i doubt i will have as much time for lil comics for a bit #deacon is so devoted hes like yeah i would kill for a deity that could easily kill anything himself but yknow teehee #and fulj just did you tell him you needed therapy also does he even know youd murder in his name #deacon caught red handed haha no of course i havent told him it should be obvious enough haha.... and its in his defense not his name :c #man really does have some issues but i love him so much and hes so devoted but like. unhealthily after a while #he does in fact need a chill pill and therapy but to be fair #ymber has needed therapy for centuries and yet he just bottles it all up and suffers so #its pretty unhealthy until they yell at each other one (1) time bc they are so insecure about things and get mad over very valid reasons #but then theyre like you know what that was necessary and i still want to stay by your side if you let me #and then fulj is like dude hey sorry you seem really happy did you fu- and ymber is like no please stop there we have not #fulj just squinting cause have not is very different than will not but whatever she doesnt wanna think about that with deacon involved ew #and eventually fulj is like hey ymber im sorry to say but i really do hate deacon and i dont even know why but he makes me uncomfortable #while deacon is just. in the room. hearing this and thinking how he knows she thinks hes weird but wow that wording hurts #and ymber doesnt wanna fill in memories better forgotten by fulj which she had forcefully removed #so he just says oh well his hair and clothing are black and you had someone in the past that you might see in him and its not a pleasant en #so you know maybe its that idk #and fulj is then WHATST i was rude to him for someone i cant even remember? lame im gonna try SO HARD to be nice to him now #and deacon just still sitting there with some food like this is v awkward and i wish i could not be here for it #and later he asks ymber about who he resembled and as ymber is descibing her it clicks in deacons head and he gets really sad #that he might somehow remind fulj of the woman she loved before she was punished for loving a mortal #and he feels kinda bad pestering her so much with his curiosities about deities and he kinda gets it #the fact hes close to ymber might remind her at the core that she was once that close with a mortal if not closer #anyway story time in the tags again #im so obsessed with these peeps and i have made them suffer so much but they do all end on a happy note #its still funny and nice to me that while fulj is creeped out by deacon and doesnt like talking to him #he still expresses the most emotions to her - he tries hard to remain serious around ymber and collected and obedient at all times #and when out and about with ymber he has to be intimidating and refuses smiling but fulj?? all sunshine and smiles and emotions easy to rea #and she is just that is so weird go away i hate you

[vulturedimension]

listen i know it's cringy or whatever to be an adult that is deeply invested in the romantic and sexual lives of fictional characters. that being said, i dont think it's unreasonable to say that if i watch the series finale of succession and i haven't seen matthew macfadyen and nicholas braun kiss with tongue, i'm never trusting anyone ever again

#FULL DISCLOSURE i did get my period today so my emotions are a bit off #that may have something to do with this #but im pretty sure i'll still stand by this in a week #mine #succession #tomgreg

[skitskatdacat63]

Boy King Seb :D

#thank you to Grace for the idea of making his chivarly collar red bull instead <33333 #he was gonna have both collars but then making that one made me suffer so no not today #this was a lot of fun but also made me suffer. but i keep looking at it and being like AAAHHHHH BABY!!! BABY BOY!!!!!!! #can you believe i tried to do this in one night? i cant #i stopped and came back to it and was like 'no way you could do this in one sitting at 1 am' #this is kinda the ascended form of that very first sketch i made for this au! concentrated boy king sebby!!! #i say to myself i need to take a break from drawing complicated things but youll prob see a nando version of this in less than a week ;;; #okay about the drawing(i wrote good tags and then tumblr deleted them so these are a bit inferior AGH): #this is typical pouty seb but is also referenced off a specific pic from AD 2009(beloved) #its very important to me how emotionally open Seb is. im not sure the specific context of this. maybe after a triumph? #but instead of being that typical stoic serious detached kind of ruler; i like him being openly emotional(think AD 2010) #its important as well for his dichotomy with nando and how they choose to portray themselves #seb is very assured in himself and his rule vs. nando who is more insecure and bitter about his #so nando takes strides to portray himself in that more stoic calculating way bcs he feels like it helps him legitimize himself better #whereas seb has absolutely no care for outward public image and shows how he feels and is loved for it(nando hates it but loves it) #not that nando cant be fun and whimsical!! but to me he always seems a bit more mysterious; like i can never tell his true thoughts tbh #anyways i feel like ill finish 10 more drawings before i end up posting the lore pt 2 LMAO #its just a lot harder to organize and layout compared to part 1 which was just an explanation #pt2 would be a mix of more world building/characterization/anecdotes ive talked about with mutuals(LOVE YOU GUYS!!!) #i have a *lot* of ideas (gotta whip out my notes app every once in a while to write down stuff abt it) just hard to put into a coherent pos #sebastian vettel #f1 #formula 1 #f1 art #formula 1 art #f1 fanart #formula 1 fanart #catie.art. #*ill prob make a process post later if anyone is curious!! its fun to write abt my process and influences and such #boy king au

[nikothebookdragon]

fuck, bears in trees were right. i stayed for tea and you know what? it did do wonders for me. and my friends? they do keep me safe.

#its been a rough few weeks #but today my friend invited me over for tea bc she noticed i hadnt been to lectures in a while #and it was the best hour ive had in a while #i felt so safe and warm and loved with her #id forgotten what that felt like outside me dreams #and then when i got home another friend messaged me asking if i was okay bc she hadnt seen me in a few days #and though i said id just fallen behind a bit and didnt go into mental health details #she said to let her know if theres anything she could do #im so emotional rn #love is inevitable even when you dont believe youre deserving of it #listening to my BiT playlist and crying of everything at once #damn #musicposting #bears in trees #*outside my dreans

[cowboy-robooty]

see i do believe germany has sadist bdsm blood in his dna but i do NOT believe it gets executed because of his Germanyisms. first of all he thinks sex n stuff is dirty so hes a fucking prude virgin to the max and second of all he gets very overwhelmed with the emotional aspect of sex because #sex with love is different than reading porn mags and its a very very special and sacred thing. third of all he has an intense guilt and shame thing about hurting the people he loves since he thinks hes a really bad guy subconciously (legoshi complex) and that he constantly needs to protect the people he loves. combine all that shit together and THATS why i think if anything his inherent draw to sadism just makes him feel more ashamed of himself and think hes an evil guy by nature instead of making him a kinky bastard in bed (bc hes too scared of ever doing that shit and in fact probably doesnt want to at this point since he really doesnt want to be a "bad guy" by giving in to his urges)

#i believe that if germany ever made italy wince during sex he would immediately stop and apologize profusely and attempt seppuku #because hes a bit of a virgin in love and we even saw in the manga in general he coddles italy a lot more when he thinks theyre dating #hes like italy.... you ran a single lap today are you okay? here buy any drink you like i hope youre okay #so if anything during sex which is an incredibly emotional event he would def be like ITALY ARE YOU OKAY IM SORRY I HURT YOU #then cut to training when theyre hanging out as bros and he squeezes italys head no mercy for drawing on his car again

[truthundressing]

day 1 of harry being a tour wife😁

#rip love on tour but im kinda glad ur done so baby can get a well earned break <33 #i didnt even like stay online for the show last night just caught up on a few bits after bc it felt too emotional idk #yesterday was just a bad day 4 me personally so idk i just didnt wanna be online n had lots n lots of bunny snuggles instead :) #n e way we move😎. onwards and upwards. peace and love on planet earth. i WILL make today better <3

[adhdheather]

shout out to my geography prof for giving me a 72.67% on possibly the worst presentation ive ever done, nearly cried from relief opening up that email w my grade and seeing i didnt fail it (i prob wouldve given myself a 40-50% on it)

#today is an emotional roller coaster of a day for me. my final in my geography class is in a bit less than 2hrs and i think im okay #update: i am crying on campus now that its hitting me i didnt fail that major presentation #p

[barkingangelbaby]

I feel like such a broken fucking person lol

I talked way too much in the tags don't read them

#fighting off the ideation like my life depends on it!! bc it does!!! #been good about not thinking certain phrases but F U C K am i feeling it. i want to turn into a pile of dust #i am so desperately trying to work on myself and change my patterns and bad habits and perspective but it feels like i always fall short #i try not to talk about it online but I'm just. having a very hard day with N because we experience our feelings in different ways #i isolate myself bc i struggle with regulating my reactions and tones when im having an episode but she needs me to talk through things and #i sometimes just. can't. bc I'm not done experiencing the negativity and am not in a place to have a productive convo bc shame spirals etc #we just spent a long time talking and being patient and i thought i was understanding and explaining myself well but i just. idk. #i don't know how to explain that of course i love her even if I'm isolating myself. of course i love her although I'm nonverbal today. i jus #t can't *make* myself talk when I'm like this i don't want to be nonverbal i don't want to isolate i don't want to be a distant partner i do #n't want to fall back into these patterns related to my grief i want to be better i am trying to be better i am working so fucking hard on #being better. i just feel so defeated bc this all spiraled from me not wanting to decide what to get for lunch n using a poor tone about it #I'm about to talk with her some more but I just. kinda don't want to exist right now. fuck dude. it feels so fucking awful when i upset her #like i love her so much she is so important to me and it breaks my heart that our entire day is shot bc i was tired and cranky #i just don't understand how that equates to me not loving her bc she is my whole world dude. I'm going to throw up #i also don't know how to explain to her that scrolling on tumblr is comfortable to me I'm not ignoring her it's just the SM that i scroll on #like we're hanging out watching tv together I'm gonna scroll a little bit. it's just not insta or anything #idk my mind is scrambled I'm crying I just want to be a better person who can calmly communicate my thoughts and emotions #today has just beat my fucking ass dude. i isolate so those feelings don't get translated into my interactions with others #i don't even know what i typed in these tags I just don't want to off myself or think about it I'm fighting myself so much 2day #rAMbles

[celestialtrolls]

some aelynn expression + arm posing sketches i did in between Struggling with drawing something else and now i go to bed

the middle one is supposed to look more like suppressing anxiety but it just kind of looks mildly concerned about something annoying

#i was thinking today a bit about how her eyes havent done the thing with the ring glow for a while #but actually i think it's just because that level of emotions leads her to lose control of the disguise keeping her sclera Not Dark #so instead the threshold for getting the glow is higher and she hasn't been like LOSING IT stressed about things that cause that for a whil #it could definitely still happen though #anyway BEDTIME im so tired it's 10am i hope i just fall asleep instantly #ooc

[skitskatdacat63]

2023 Saudi Arabian Grand Prix - Fernando Alonso(aka me ignoring the penalty)(*edit, I successfully willed away his penalty)

#for my sake just pretend that i made this post before the penalty happened and we're all still living blissfully unaware #yeah thats right 2 fernando posts today what are you gonna do? penalize me? *bursts into tears* #sry im being very dramatic today but its just cause i drank a red bull and then this race gave me emotional whiplash #well anyways look at the bright side of things: #he got to lead the first lap for the first time in like over a decade #this whole situation is very on brand for him(istg we seriously almost had crashgate pt 2 for a sec) #we still got to see him on the podium #he still 3rd in the standings #i can peacefully conclude this race in my mind having been able to make a gifpost- #(my dad was also so pissed abt the penalty he keeps asking me 'theyre gonna appeal it right???') #fernando alonso #fa14 #f1 #formula 1 #formula one #we do a little bit of f1 #2023 saudi arabian grand prix #2023 saudi arabian gp #(2023: 2/23 races watched)

[basaltbutch]

sorry im so. i forget how much being on testosterone keeps me from slipping into a depressive spiral this genuinely sucks so bad. sorry if i sound a bit different on here/in dms.

#it speaks #my emotions were sooo beautifully regulated on t and now i feel a tad bit like im going to die #id gotten so used to it that i forgot #for those not on the server. bc of various trips and fighting for my life with the nurse's clinic where i get my shots #it has now been over a month (sept 12th) since my last dose of t #and i just went in to try and get a prescription of it today so i can start doing it at home #but they DIDN'T HAVE IT and WON'T HAVE IT until monday #explodes everything with my mind

[the-cookie-of-doom]

I've been in nursing school for a year now, and the stress of everything has been seriously wearing me down. After nearly 4 months in clinical being made to feel like an idiot, I find myself doubting my choices more often than not. But then I'll have an interaction with a patient at just the right time to remind me exactly why I'm here, suffering through his god-awful program.

A few weeks ago, a patient my age came in, massive trauma victim. She'd been camping in the mountains for a few days when she crashed an ATV. Honestly, she's lucky to be alive. Her friends had to run 2 miles through the wilderness to get to a payphone and call for help. She'd spent a week in the hospital by the time I met her, when she'd finally asked someone if there was any way we could wash her hair.

The normal system we use is these shower caps that have soap in them, and they're awful. Especially when you have thick, curly hair that's almost down to your waist. Walking into that room, seeing this poor kid who could barely move due to her injuries, my heart just broke. Her hair was so dirty after almost 2 weeks without a proper shower that it looked wet from where I was standing in the door.

Together with another nurse tech, we managed to improvise and figure out how to get her hair washed. The beds aren't made for it, we don't have the equipment for it, and like I said she could barely move. But we made it work. I spent probably an hour and a half carefully washing and combing through her hair with nothing more than a regular barber's comb, until it was completely clean and tangle free, and braided it after so it could stay that way.

Just this week I was able to help another young woman that I wasn't assigned to. I didn't know anything about her situation, but I overheard another of my classmates (her assigned student) tell the nurse tech that she needed help and didn't want him to do it. The nurse tech essentially told him it wasn't her responsibility to accommodate that, she was too busy, and the patient needed to either accept his help or get over it. I overhead, and stepped in to see what was wrong.

When I got to the room, the patient was crying and hyperventilating, couldn't tell me what was going on, and looked overall distraught. I was able to just sit with her for a few minutes to calm her down, find out what was wrong. She was hot and sweaty, needed a new gown/sheets. Understandable, no problem. I went and got the stuff, brought her a cold drink and a fan, got her changed, etc. The whole time she kept apologizing because she didn't know what was wrong with her, she wasn't usually like that, she didn't have anything against the guys it was just too much...

The whole time, that nurse tech from before was with me, too. Despite telling my classmate she didn't have time to deal with it, she almost immediately followed me into the room, kept trying to take over what I was doing, all while looking incredibly frustrated with the patient. Making her feel even worse. Once we were done I got the tech to leave so I could talk with the patient, let her know it's okay, that she was just overwhelmed and it's understandable. I reassured her that we're there to take care of her, she deserves to feel safe and taken care of in the hospital. The whole time, she didn't feel comfortable asking for anything else because of how she was treated before me.

Nursing school focuses on building a therapeutic relationship with patients. We need them to trust us and believe they'll be taken care of. It's easy to say you chose health care because you want to help people, but it's also really easy to lose that compassion. Sometimes you don't realize you're doing it. I don't blame that nurse tech, she really was busy. And when you're a working nurse with multiple patients to care for, you don't always have the time to spend an hour or two washing someone's hair, or handling their emotional breakdown with patience. But I think too often, people don't even try.

These relationship's with patients are exactly what's getting me through the misery of nursing school. I'm not out there curing anyone right now, but I know I'm having a positive impact in people's lives. I'm doing my best to show that you can still trust that when you're in the hospital, during one of the most vulnerable times in your life, someone will be there to take care of you and care for you.

I've worked in health care for two and a half years now. My philosophy has always been to maintain patient dignity above all else. It's so easy to forget the person lying in that bed is still a person, and not just a patient, or a set of tasks that have to get done at a certain time. You can't let yourself forget the care in healthcare.

#cookie speaks #im feeling emotional today #i truly do love nursing #it's hard and unglamorous and at times disgusting #but it's such an important job #just extending a little bit of kindness can change someone's life #it's not only about making sure someone stays live #you have to help them thrive too #and that's the best part of my work #THAT is how i want to help people #I don't care how shitty of a day I've had #the second I walk into that room it's sunshine and rainbows #i spent most of my last clinical trying not to cry over my breakup #but like hell was that going to impact my patient care #when you go into healthcare you agree to leave your personal issues at the door