#ill prolly delete this later

[nodope]

been feeling super insecure lately cause I've gained a lot of weight this year not doing all the dugs or whatever...

. hoping some attention from strangers on the internet will help me feel less disgusting I guess lol

#me #drug blog #not sober yet just not actively killing myself anymore #ill prolly delete this later #please be nice #its fine #drug addiction #i guess #girls who do drugs #spun nation #spun #blowing clouds #girls who tweak

[ghosty-enderian]

ik this is my ran/ghostboo blog, but im havin a philza kin moment(tm) and i care my family so bad. wilburs, tommys, kristins, and technos, i care yall so bad. yall are all welcome into the nest <3 be warned tho that i Can and Will hand you Many gapples and blankets and various trinkets :]c

(^^ heres a gapple for the road :]!)

#ghosty speaks #ill prolly delete this later #my brains just goin 'brrr love n protect family #n give them many trinkets n stuff' rn lmao

[clambuoyance]

this may be silly but i really really miss the feeling of being able to draw whatever i wanted without any stress at all T^T i spend hours thinking about what i want to draw and then i get stressed because it shouldn't be my focus and then i end up doing neither what i should be doing (school, work, being a functional member of civilization) or want to be doing (hunched over my drawing tablet scribbling my faves) and it sucks so bad </3

#with each passing year and the more professional or academic responsibilities i gain the more i struggle </3 #and its not like i can avoid it. avoiding these responsibilities would have real consequences and sometimes not even the fear of that is #enough to spur me to action T-T even though i have the foresight to realize i should get a headstart #i dont have any patience but also no sense of punctuality #which is why i rely on to do lists with every hr planned or else ill die fr #UGH ill prolly delete this later i randomly was overtaken by the overwhelming need to Rant.

[veilkeeper]

why do i only ever wanna write fanfiction for small dead fandoms/pairings

not me looking at the <100 fics for my fave rarepair for an old as fuck video game and thinking "maybe its time to start that longfic"

not me looking at the <100 fics for all of boyfriend dungeon and thinking "idk man i have 37k worth of interconnected drabbles what if i-"

as it is everything ive posted on ao3 is like…. no one on earth is looking at this. i always write fic for fandoms like, at least 5 years after it had aaaaaany eyes on it. why do i do this.

#me writing fic is roughly equivalent to writing a message in a bottle #like i post and basically hope SOMEONE gets a hankering for a pairing they cared about 6 years ago and looks for it #bc otherwise nooooboooodddddyyyyyy is lookin #and YES i KNOW the whole point of writing is to do it for yourself #and i do. trust me. im doing self indulgent shit you couldnt even imagine. #but there is something frustrating about never getting that Sweet Sweet Validation #im literally involved in an active fandom. i could get hits on a fic if i just wrote for THAT instead!!! #but the only bg3 thing ive managed to write was the ONLY BG3 THING NO ONE WANTS TO CLICK ON!!!! #ill uhh #delete later #prolly #ugggggggggh #happy new year i guess lol

[scatterbrainedbot]

hey, question

so i just finished the first character introduction sheet for my rat sons au. buuut i havent even started on the next ones yet (im working on like six other comics/responses/rat sons content tho dont worry, just not the intro sheets) -- it'll def be a hot minute until the next sheet is done. like probably a week or two at the absolute earliest. as of right now, im planning on making about ten character intro sheets in total.

like im really excited to share more rat sons content with yall but also it feels weird to post something thats basically part of a series and not have the next part almost ready waiting in the wings?

also before anyone gets too excited, this first sheet is for a very minor background character :)

(whos story ive revamped pretty hardcore from her canon counterpart and also fallen completely in love with but, irrelevant)

#help im being indecisive #which means ill prolly default to waiting unless people start screaming #rat sons #tmnt au #delete later

[popcornsalty]

the mutual of my mutual is my blocked blog number 3939933

#poke post #bro i wake up and i see the most fucking insufferable take and i just cant take it anymore man. i just cant take it. its really easy to #shut the fuck up if you dont watch someones pov #anyhow. sorry ill prolly delete this later I'm just at the end of my rope here

[cantdanceflynn]

IK I HAVENT DRAWN IN FOREVER BTW IM WORKING ON CATCHING UP

#ITS JUST. BEEN SHIT TO GET MOTIVATED LATELY #ESPECIALLY WHEN IK NONE OF U CARE #LIKE WHY AM I BOTHERING POSTING THIS??? NO ONE GIVES A SHIT??? NO ONE LOOKS AT MY ART FOR MORE THAN A SECOND NO ONE CARES #WHEN THEY DO CARE ITS ONLY BC ITS A GIFT FOR THEM OR I SENT IT TO EM N THEY DONT WANNA BE RUDE #LIKE WHY FUCKIN BOTHER LATELY YA KNOW. LIFE IS JUST GETTING WORSE AND ANYTHING I COULD DO WITH THESE SKILLS I LOVE SO MUCH IS GOING #WELL UP IN FLAMES IF YOU DONT MIND THE WORDPLAY #N IK IT EATS YOU ALIVE TO CARE ABOUT WHO SEES YOUR WORK. IK ITS BAD N I SHOULDN'T DO IT. #BUT IF NOT EVEN ANY IF MY FRIENDS(BARRING MY BF XOXO LOVE U PYXE BUT LIKE I DO SEND U EVERYTHING STILL LOL) CAN EVEN BOTHER #JJST. EVEN LOOKING AT MY STUFF #WHATS THE POINT?? #THE ONLY ART OF MINE THATS GOTTEN THE SLIGHTEST BIT OF ATTENTION LATELY HAS BEEN THE ISAT AU N THATS BC THATS A COMMUNITY STARVING FOR STUF #LIKE HOW MANY NOTES MY WANDERSONG STUFF GOT DESPITE BEING SO BAD #BUT IVE IMPROVED SO MUCH AND POURED SM INTO A COMMUNITY THAT DOESNT FUCKING GIVE A SHIT ABOUT ME????? #WHAT AM I DOING WRONG??!?!!?! SOMEONE TELL ME ID DO ANYTHING JUST TO KNOW WHY I CANT GET ANYONE EVEN THE PERSON WHO LOVES ME THE MOST #TO GIVE A SHIT JSUT ONCE #ill prolly delete this later. Im sry.

[stuffedsand]

Why do some milgran songs make me so unreasonably sad

#i look at the lyrics and go “oh. concerning” bt also like. auhfjsbsu #this is about both of shidous songs and generally kazuis whole deal #id say purgemarxh but i. dknt listen to it (bell sound hirts my ears) magic can make me sad every nownthen tho #like ahT the fuck why do the old men make me the saddest. waht the fkck #sand speaks #misssplelling is somwhat purposeful i dont want this in the tags but like. also im eepy #it may be like 3 in the afternoon but im eepy ok #and im listening to triagenthrowdown on looop #probably deleting this later ahajaksb #someone tell me im not just tired n emotional thses songs can be so. concerning and sad #oh context im looping songs to write translyrics for myself #if i get a good mic ill record em as covers maybe. prolly not

[arinmoss]

tried to draw a cat from memory then gave up and thot id make u guys look at em

#lol #I I wanted 2 actually try and draw normal cute cats but then I gave up and made these guys #because I have a headache rn #anyways ill prolly delete these later but 4 nyow u will see am

[getobaby]

me today <3

i deleted it lol sawry :'D

#prolly delete later ^___^ #but i felt like saurrr . . . cool?? #n also someone complimented m n said i gave of 'that girl' vibes #lolz lil does she know i m literally ill 24/7 😢😢 #oh oh oh ! ! ! btw these pants were saur cool n had smiley (?) patterns all over 'em

[arkos404]

its funny seeing a post that the creator of it was genuinely thinking ‘ah yes, an informative and logical post meant to show something with an unbiased point of view’ but they obviously have a prefered side and just barely tries to hide it

#this is abt that post about pro vs anti ship #where the pros are described as 'normal person' #that was so biased lmaoo #like my brother you cant just write something in an infographic template and expect to sound more rational than any other twitter rant #ok rant over ill prolly delete this later

[possiblytracker]

god grant me the serenity to not say a bunch of shit ill regret at 2am the wisdom to not say a bunch of shit ill regret at 2am and the courage to not say a bunch of shit ill regret at 2am

#anxiety has me in a chokehold and bottling shit up for mmmaybe months is biting me in the ass so hard but dear fucking god #not NOW of all the stupid ass times to experience thoughts #i need to go to bed i can deal with whatever this is tomorrow #it is all very very stupid and i feel both very hypocritical and very selfish but its Fine ill deal with it some time that is not now gsbSD #got into a bad mood in general earlier and its just made me think abt a bunch of other shit that usually isnt so bad gDSJ for the record #like nothing big happened recently and im not upset with people its chill. just myself #but MAN i feel like dumbass supreme rn #posting this on tumblr specifically so i Dont run my mouth in the homies' dms and regret it immediately dhSDGSDB #ily but i promise this is a mercy/j #delete later prolly #vent/ #if its still in my brain tomorrow i. well i will figure it out then

[todays-lessons-if]

I FINALLY HAVE INTERNET!!!!!

So good news is that i finally have internet!!!!! So now i can actually post stuff again!!!!! Askbox is super open!!!!!!

#aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa #ill probably post a sneak peek of the student intro pics #delete later prolly #maybe not lmaoo

[roachclit]

literally what the fuck is wrong with me. wanting to do something, NEEDING to do something, and i just. can't. the shit i have due tomorrow is the difference between passing and failing this class and im just SITTING here. It's like im physically paralyzed. its not from anxiety and depression or whatever, i WANT to do this, the motivation is there. i'd say its my adhd but this feels deeper than that. I don't know. I used to be fine?? i used to be a straight A student and get my shit done and somewhere along the line i just became completely fucking useless. all i do is just sit and think. i think about doing things but i dont do them it's like im in the fucking sunken place or whatever just watching my body from far away. And therapy hasnt done shit. "Just do it!" thanks, why didnt i fucking think of that?? "break it into small steps, just one step at a time" i am literally sitting here with a to do list broken down into the smallest most manageable steps imaginable and i have yet to check a single fucking thing off that list.

and pervading ALL of this is the fear that if i dont fix this i literally cannot function as an adult. How am i supposed to hold a job in a field infamous for its fast pace and crunches and hard deadlines and overtime if i can't handle a single assignment. it's too late for me to change my major, I need to just finish this degree and leave school forever but ive already delayed my graduation by three years because of this bullshit. how much longer is it gonna take. will i ever be able to move out of my parents place? will i ever be able to afford my own housing and actually live with dignity? im so afraid and im so fucking tired and im tired of hating myself

#its whatever ill prolly delete this later idk #im just so sick of living like this

[ricksanchez-z420]

on this boob day id like to have a moment of silence for my former tiddies

though i was never really fond of either of you, you were always quite nice, sometimes i miss holding you in my hands

r.i.p. in peace tiddies

#just stoner rick things; text #def just shitposting lol #happy tiddie day #this is so stupid ill prolly delete this later lmao