#ill never recover from them

[deadhoneybee]

Hot Take:

Remus and sirius work so well because at their core they both believe they’re, in their own ways, Monsters. That they are truly the worst of the worst with no hope of redemption.

And still, they look at each other and see such beautiful people. People that love their friends and would do anything for those they care for. They dont see a monster, They See Each Other.

Even after learning these horrible and vile things about each other they still think they are good people, they still support and love each other and its that unconditional love that allows them to think “Maybe I really am capable of good.”

But of course,, they are never really allowed to have that, are they? Not after the prank, or after oct 81, not even 12 years later when things finally start looking up and then suddenly Remus is kneeling infront of The Veil trying so hard to hold it together because Damnit He’d Just Gotten Him Back.

#if i had to really boil it down anyway #ill never recover from them #i just dont think it’s possible #My Boys T-T #remus lupin #sirius black #wolfstar #the marauders #marauders era #marauders #dead gay wizards #dead gay wizards from the 70s #i didnt mean to make this upsetting #honestly #i just couldnt help it

[kinardscoffee]

Guys.

Sometimes, when I think about how one day Buck is going to tell Tommy that he loves him for the first time (because he'll be too excited to hold it in anymore) and that Tommy will just smile at him, eyes never leaving Buck's when he says that he loves him too...

Well I just...

#like ill never emotionally recover from them #and ive accepted this #911 abc #evan buckley #911 fandom #bucktommy #tommy kinard #911 speculation #tevan #kinley

[hairlessgoblin]

GALE IS THE TYPE OF GUY TO HOLD YOUR FACE WITH HIS WARM HAND AND THAT THOUGHT KEEPS ME BREATHING

#im not over it #gale x reader #ill never recover from this #why isnt he real #we dont deserve them #im crying

[koumeowkami]

COZMEZ *EXPLOSION SFX*

#GUYS I'M JUSTFBEBFJENDK NOT OKAY #WHO MADE THEM DRESS LIKE THAT I'M SCREAMING #the crop top........ and the shorts...... god #how can they be so fucking attractive and cute at the same time. this is not possible #they're SERVING. literally #i am so so ill for this pic ......... literally never recovering from it #paralive #paradox live #cozmez

[purplepixel]

Since you are a fan of rise and you do like that Raph. What’s your opinion on 03 Raph and 12 Raph?

Oh ho ho!! I'm actually glad you asked this bc I've been thinking about it a lot lately.

2003 raph is prob one of my favorite turtles in 03. I've only watched the first two seasons of the show, but I love his snark. He has some of the best comeback lines and his dynamic with Mikey is one of my favorite aspects of the show. His "yo mama" line is something I think about a lot haha.

Now 2012 raph. Ohhhh boy him. Having gotten through the first three seasons of 2012, my perception of him has changed drastically. If you showed me just the first two episodes of 2012 (and like...first half of season 1) I would've told you raph is a horrible brother who is nothing more than a bully. But I've watched three seasons of 2012 now and SOMEHOW he's become one of my favorites. Maybe it's bc they soften him a bit in later seasons. Maybe it's bc sometimes I'd sit there and be like...damn he has a right to be angry (I will actually never forgive splinter's "lesson" in s1ep3). Maybe I like really flawed characters? Idk. But as someone whos first introduction of the character was rise/2012 fics, I've now since grown an appreciation for him. 2012 had an extremely rough start with his character, since ya. He was a bully and oftentimes extremely out of pocket with insults. (but honestly all the 2012 turtles were. Raph was just the biggest offender). But like all raphs he's secretly a big softie that's masked by a rough exterior. 2012 raph is what happens if that softness is made fun of and seen as a weakness instead of strength. (Also if the writers don't understand the difference between banter and bullying until like season 2 coughcough) So ya, he's one of my favs now. I have way too much to say about him

#I'll never forget mikey walking in on him playing with his action figures #or him taking over as leader when leo was recovering from a coma #that has some of the most wholesome raph moments #he cares he just doesnt know how to show it #all the 2012 boys need therapy #bc damn nobody told them to process their feelings properly #SPLINTER #again #ill never forgive him for telling his other brothers to gang up on him with insults as a lesson #i didnt even like the character when i saw that and went what the actual fuck #i have so many thoughts about 2012 #2003 tmnt #2012 tmnt #pixel replies

[hopeworth]

season 11 is only about daryl and judith actually nothing else

#daryl & judith #judith grimes #daryl dixon #twd #IM DEVASTATED #‘hey lil asskicker’ ‘hey big asskicker’ ‘damn straight’ #I WILL NEVER RECOVER FROM THIS #HIM CARRYING HER AFTER SHES SHOT AND GIVING HER BLOOD LIKE RICK DID FOR CARL #him becoming their guardian her asking for allowance him buying her a record player and chinhands-ing while she plays it #s11 is about them and them only idc IDC IDC IDC #i’m insane about this daryl is a dad to actually every kid not his own #BUT THATS HIS KIDS NOW IM DEVASTATED #he went liam neeson taken on them ‘WHERE ARE MY KIDS’ HIS KIDS!!! HIS!!! #every other plot line is background to their father daughter moments actually #HER DELIRIOUS AND ACCIDENTALLY CALLING HIM DADDY ILL DIE ACTUALLY DECEASED DEAD

[fancifulflora]

in the mood for angst! how would the LIs in atoc react to the crown sacrificing themselves for them (during or after ur choice!) ty! group crying session after this lol

hehehe, I've been writing a lot of fluff lately and semi angst so now it's high time I destroy people a little on the inside

also since its a sunday and i have a lot of extra time to write I'm posting this as a nice bonus on top of the 1 daily post

Azad/Ashti

Perhaps they weren't too unlike their father after all.

Both lead their country to ruin, to chaos, in one way or another.

The only problem was that the Royal Protector didn't lose their mind. Their body wasn't frail. Paranoia had not taken them the way it did their parent.

They were healthy, as healthy as one could be. Still young, strong. Capable and with agency.

Yet they were still alive. A Royal Protector now without their Crown.

A failure.

It still was fresh in their mind, a sharp ache filling up their head whenever they let their mind drift to you. The guilt robbed their lungs of air.

They think of the trust you had given them, they trust the two of you shared.

You knew full well that this was their purpose- their duty to lay their life down for your safety.

So why did you do it? Why go so far for them?

It hurts to not be able to hold you in your final moments, to be able to ask- demand to know why you were so damn selfless. Why you cared for them so. Why your eyes looked so resigned, so at peace the moment you shoved your entire body against theirs- your eyes meeting for the last time.

Your head rolling across the stones ended all hope for answers.

Leaving behind a country in chaos, a failure in desperate need of answers they'll never get.

Dara/Delal

Somehow, despite all odds, despite everything they did in their power to get stronger, to grow- they did it again.

They've killed another Crown.

It had to be a cruel trick played on them by the very Spirits themselves. Had to be. There was no way that they were deserving of such sacrifice.

No way a single, insignificant soldier was worth not one, but two Crowns.

Void take them, there was no way their life could ever be worth yours alone.

Not when they knew you, knew your character, knew your potential.

The armor they wore that day still sits in their office, the golden scales stained with a crimson that they may never wash off.

Their own hands are still stained with blood every time they dare look down at them, stained with your blood- no matter how many times they try to wash it off. Try to put it in the back of their mind.

They can't even stop to think of the consequences this will have on their family, they can barely think as is.

The only thing they can do is harden themselves and let the earth itself swallow their misery, their heart.

And their chances of redemption along with it.

Rozerîn/Rêzan

Not a soul blamed them for the Crown's passing.

A part of the sorcerer wished they would.

It's only right that they do.

Though they knew the blame would come later, when the nights of mourning- crying, ended.

It would come when the sorcerer could eat and drink once more when they could get back to brushing their long hair- leaving the darkness of their chambers.

And for once, they'd welcome it.

They'd happily take the looks from the nobles, the snide- even accusatory comments.

It wasn't like they were incorrect in their sentiment. The sorcerer did turn out to be unfit for their position. Unworthy of the faith placed in them by those around the magus.

They'd deserve no less for failing their mentor, for failing their Crown.

For failing you.

Void take them, they'd deserve more criticism if anything.

All their insecurities were brought to life that day, the same day life left yours. They still remember it now, remember the tears in your eyes as you cupped the side of their face, your weak voice telling them that it wasn't their fault. The way you clutched at their silk dress, your blood pooling on the ground.

No amount of healing magic could have healed the deep stabs you had sustained.

Spirits, to think that in your final moments, you'd be thinking of them. It ate away at the sorcerer's heart.

To think that they'd have no choice but to move on from your death - their task now set to finding the next Crown once more. To see the hard work the two of you put into Arsur washed away by time itself.

It was a weight the sorcerer wasn't sure they were worthy of taking, a burden they doubted- no, knew, they could not carry.

Not after watching their very hope fade from your eyes.

Xelara/Xelef

They had their doubts about you when they first stumbled across the long-lost Crown of Arsur.

Their own past with Crowns was a bloody one- one that had them contemplating whether or not they'd even help you in the first place when they first got a glance at your golden eyes.

They still remember holding you in your final moments, seeing the beautiful shades of the sun fade away.

Taking you with them.

Early on, they'd wonder what they might do- should do, if you turned out like Crown Piruz, whether they'd regret not being the one to run a blade through you- kill you where you stood in that clearing.

They certainly never expected to ever actually do it.

Not like this anyway.

Granted, they didn't actually kill you with their own two hands. In fact, most of the songs and tales being spun around Arsur have been about the affection they held for you.

A love that brought about their end.

All because of an arrow you had stolen from them- taking it through the heart instead of the mercenary.

No. They couldn't lie to themselves, not this time.

They knew better. Anyone would sense would.

It wasn't the arrow that killed you.

It was them.

#A Tale of Crowns #azad/ashti #xelara/xelef #dara/delal #rozerîn/rêzan #Angst #SFW #Headcanons #It's been a long while since i actually tried to go for angst lmao #i learned that the gold leaves the crown's eyes when they died and now ill never be able to not think about it #hopefully this fact will be stuck in your minds too #Also I just love how R and X's flaws are just turned up to 100 with your death- they're all destroyed but I take pride w those 2 #X loves hard and mourns harder #no amount of drinking and sex are gonna be able to distract them this time #there's also no way D can recover from their survivors guilt now lmao #not many might know about how they killed the first crown but they sure are gonna know about how you died #A most def loses their Royal Protector position after this too- so gl on their search #also its fucked that the rest see you get stabbed or take an arrow but A gets to see you get your head chopped off lmao #atoc

[skitskatdacat63]

this video makes me want to sob and throw up and scream and cry and collapse onto the floor

#actually like sobbing through it this is going to kill me genuinely #god ive not cried these kind of tears in a while LOL #i cry a lot but not whete it makes my chest hurt like this #everyone should watch Get Back. best docu ever made actually :) #but no theres smth about getting a beatles song in the year 2023 #like its not smth i ever imagined but now that it exists its like wow. its truly over. its a fucking solid conclusion and it hurts so badly #im going to rip up my pillow the emotional pain this is bringing me is actually heart wrenching #my one brother one time was like the Beatles are so mid and overrated and i wanted to leap up and strangle him across the table #THEYRE LIFE CHANGING OKAY 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 #idk its just so much my childhood :/ #and this song is ripping my heart out </3 #and hearing them talk about this being the last beatles track ever. like yeah i KNOW but god fuck ouch #the way they talk about george and john im going to bang my head into a wall #mayne i shoulf rewatch get back and have a mental breakdown #i told my friend about that docu when it came out and hes like wow that sounds incredibly boring #how dare you how fucking dare you. 8 hours of content????? fucking...great #but no seriously to listen to this song released now and it sounds exactly like their original work. im gonna throw up i feel so ill #never recovering from this actually 😊 #catie.rambling.txt #Youtube

[chidoroki]

September 9th - Happy Birthday Isabella

(with almost all panels of her as Grandma)

#the promised neverland #tpn manga #tpn isabella #mother isabella #my edits #debated on placing them all in chronological order instead of by chapter but i wanted to end on her best ch rather than her highly #unfortunate and upsetting fate that ill never emotionally recover from. so yeah. said i was gonna do this back on mothers day & i kept my #word so NOW i wont do this again. at least im not currently planning on doing so for anyone else..anyways i love her tons & she's fantastic!

[relicsongmel]

Currently crying in the club on a Wednesday afternoon over this journal entry from my mom’s camera roll

#mel’s musings #this is from my 15th birthday i think #and it fucks me up every time i read it. genuinely one of the most beautiful expressions of love i’ve ever seen put to words #our relationship was pretty tumultuous back then. it’s my main source of inspiration for how i write the conflict b/w denise and jen #of course the circumstances aren’t quite the same. for us it was my mom being ill-equipped to handle my executive dysfunction #on top of the usual teenage obstinacy. whereas for them they’re contending with the grief of their husband/dad’s disappearance #and their wildly different ways of responding to it is the primary source of conflict #but regardless. this really reads like a jen quote to me #and giving her and dena the resolution they deserve is even more cathartic now that my mom’s gone #our relationship recovered during my last semester of high school but it never really got to blossom #and giving them that chance where i lost it is a big source of healing for me. my beautiful resilient ladies they mean the world to me 🥺 #forest for the tree

[mostesteemedgingeroverlord]

I watched Scrubs for the first time in college, when I knew nothing about hospital culture or the weight of working in medicine. I liked it, I laughed, I cried, but I didn’t fully get it.

I’m rewatching it on the other side of the covid pandemic and three and half years of nursing later. Now it’s like therapy. It may lean more towards satire and be pretty silly at times, but it captures hospital dynamics and the emotionality and trauma of working in healthcare in a way that makes me feel seen.

#Im crying more this time around #i jsut watched the episode where JD Turk and Elliot all lose a patient after emotionally bonding with them #and it reminding me of the first patient I lost who I really had a connection with #i had worked so hard to recover him from septicemia #and he was getting better and crashed out of nowhere #I’d never cried like that before #my charge nurse and another nurse literally envolver me while I sobbed #anyways that’s a lot but this episode made me feel understood #tw death #tw illness #cw death #cw illness #tw medical #cw medical #scrubs

[dent-de-leon]

My heart's still breaking over what the Tombtaker fight looked like from Lucien/Molly's perspective. Lucien experiencing a rush of nauseating guilt and regret when he hurts Beau, Mollymauk's voice pleading with her to live. And when he goes after Caleb, for that brief, terrifying moment when he's about to strike--it causes Molly visceral, physical pain. As if his spirit was "scratching to get out," clawing away at Lucien's prison in a desperate attempt to save his family.

Mollymauk just loves them so much--

#mollymauk tealeaf #lucien tavelle #caleb widogast #beauregard lionett #it literally hurt molly to see them in pain and ill never recover from that

[carry-on-every-neverland-magic]

Guardians of the galaxy 3 initial review:

DO NOT TOUCH ME

#gotg spoilers #guardians of the galaxy #guardians of the galaxy spoilers #THE INTERNET IS A LYING FUCK aside from one scene I had spoiled #it didn't ruin that entire scene #plus the thing I was worried about happening didn't #although now its kinda sadder and gives me war flashbacks to toy story 4 #I AM NEVER RECOVERING #ill do a proper review later but fuck gotg 3 was fucking perfect #beautiful hilarious sad as fuck and epic as fuck and its the reason why I love films and the movie theatres exist #also Id die for Cosmo and tbh the whole insane lot of them #I MISS THEM ALREADY #im overwhelmed what a fucking fun adventure that was #dont wanna be in real life I wanna be there

[calowlmitygoddess]

i've had a small freak out on twitter after deciding to read ahead on Stormcaster and finding out Han eventually started to use the sul'Alger tittle/last name

#GDHSFJGSJFHKSDF I'VE SO MANY FEELINGS ABOUT THIS #AND THEN I PROCEEDED TO RE-READ ALL SCENES OF THEM IN THE FIRST SERIES AND GO EVEN MORE INSANE #ILL NEVER RECOVER FROM THIS #MRS CHIMA HOW DARE YOU JUST DROP THIS ON ME WITHOUT EXPANDING ON IT FURTHER #LIKE GODFUCKING DAMNIT #IN THE FIRST SERIES ALGER WAS SYNOMIN WITH THE PUREST OF EVIL AND NOW HAN CAN CLAIM TO BE HIS DESCENDANT FREELY AND LITERALLY BE- #NAMED HAN SON OF ALGER #AND NO ONE EVER COMMENTS ON THIS OR THEIR BOND OR ANYTHING????? #I AM GOING INSANE YOU UNDERSTAND #seven realms series #han alister #alger waterlow #cinda williams chima

[mwagneto]

ppl will literally hold my face in both hands and look me in the eyes and say im the most perfect person they know and that im important to them and they want to be there for me. and ill still be like uhm what if they're just saying it to be nice but secretly hate my guts

#not rly true coz i feel more secure w this friend group than i ever have #partly bc forcing myself to recover from mento illness is going great and #partly because well. they hold my face in both hands and tell me they'd kill for me #i dont think they hate me im just always worried im annoying which is kinda new #not even annoying im just scared they'll get sick of me if im too.... too everything ig #and im desperately trying not to think about the fact that im going to move to a #different country and leave all of them and it's gonna be miserable #it's crazyyyy how fast time is moving. i need to enjoy every second coz man... #at least the work we have to do means we're gonna be traveling and living together basically all summer #and a bit in spring too #im literally winning life tbh and it's only the 2nd semester #we'll see. and the bad thing is i have no idea how i got such a big friend group so quickly and i #knowww that if i change majors or move away im never gonna have anything like this again #i literally like going to uni coz i miss them when im home that's so fucked up. like wtf. #im so not used to missing ppl like this and to ppl wanting to be around me it's crazy. hi #barking

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#sometimes i feel like my brain is disintegrating in my head. coming apart like a lump of paper in a pool of water #it comes with this weird feeling of vertigo. like i turn my head and my thoughts are spinning too fast. they keep going despite my standing #still. its also a but when you start drinking something and when u stop your thoughts r hazy and ur breathing is heavy #maybe thats not a universal experience. sometimes when i stop i realize ive slipped half out of my body #and now im stumbling from day to day trying desperately to remember all the things im supposed to be managing #but there are these big holes in my brain. like im missing chunks of grey matter. the bits that would let me stop and start things #i dunno. when im taking measurements i have this image of myself on my knees holding the fragrance pieces of my life together as they #crumble thru my fingers and my insides shrivle away from the walls that contain them. i go hollow like a gord #and ppl say oh ur so passionate abt what u do. and i go brittle bc it doesnt feel like passion it feels like the symptom of an illness #i dont care. im just trying to burn the hours away. make time vanish. and for what? what am i building toward? i have an answer that i give #interviewers but i dunno i never thought id make it this far. but here we r. unhappy and lacking in purpose. its just that this last year #was so weird bc about a year ago i burned out so hard that i never recovered and it just got worse and worse. i feel now that ive stopped #the bleeding at least but the bitterness is still there. still infecting my words and curving my spine around the injury #and in theory i understand the path to healing but its hard when im just so. i dont even kno. angry? im not mad but the word feels right #but i dunno what id be angry about. maybe im just sick of empty tasks and not caring. i used to have passion and enthusiasm now i just feel #fragile and hurt. bracing for pain. and that makes me so sad. i wish i could go out into the woods and wander. just breathe #but no. instead ill start another day identical to 100 others and hope to keep my head above the surface bc im sick of swallowing sea water #anyway. itll b fine. hopefully this week i can commit to a program. hopefully. another program halfway across the country. this time #vertically. landing me still 2 time zones from home. but hopefully there i can breathe a little. maybe. hopefully. well see #unrelated