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moonexile · 2 years

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every day there’s new discourse about luther’s powers and it is just people thinking of his powers as so black and white and not even trying to figure out who he is as an actual person beyond his powers and i’m tired 🤺

‘how does he have super strength but gets beat up by a bunch of boxers’ his boss was literally exploiting him to hustle his clients, he was making him let people beat him up so that he could come back in the end and beat them; that was his job, he was supposed to look like he was losing so that ruby got paid.

'how did d/iego hurt him with a knife' he did not. he cut his coat and it exposed his hair and he was ashamed so he ran away. he did not want his siblings to see what their father had turned him into. he was scared.

'how did he get knocked out by the boxer' because he wanted to. he literally begged to feel pain and did not put up a fight against that boxer. he wanted to be hurt.

'how did m/arcus beat him' they literally both have super strength, so what’s the point of this question?? also they fought for a long time before m/arcus landed the final blow? and the whole point is that the s/parrows were Better and more prepared than them????

'why did h/azel beat him up, he’s just some guy' luther was living on the moon for 4 years in a very tight space station with no room to even exist or to move around, while being starved by his father and self harming AND right after his body had been altered and he literally never had the chance to adjust to his body before he was forced into that tightly contained space for years. his weapon is literally his body and his body had been through hell for 4+ years before season 1 so forgive him if he isn’t some magical fighting machine now!! also h/azel is a highly trained assassin who was literally afraid of luther before and even after the fight.

all of that to say, also, that he is not a violent person? he is someone who has been violent in certain cases but does not actively seek violence for fun / out of nowhere. and when violence does arise, he doesn’t want it. he doesn’t want to fight people. he spent all of season 3 begging his family to not fight the s/parrows because he didn’t see the point in it. and when he is in a fight, he uses his super strength as defense rather than offense, it’s what he’s more comfortable with. he doesn’t like striking first, but he can gladly use his body as a shield against his siblings with no question.

#dont reblog /#i wrote one sentence and then ranted about the rest in the tags but #realized that was just not digestible so fsdkafjdskl i am writing it out #me: ill rant at a later date. also me: no <3 #i'm sure i'm forgetting so many things people have pointed out but these are the ones i hear the most and i get So Heated #'why dont we see his powers more often' frankly Why Would We. he just wants to be a normal guy. please #anyway. <3 #hc.#forgot to say i dont really see this on tumblr but i also dont go into his tag for a Reason #self harm /#self harm tw

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amethystcove · 2 years

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incoherent ramblings ahead !

#who am i kidding im going to be back for whenever the first irl stream/gn.f birthday/gn.f vlog comes out #im trying so hard to be normal and decisive about having less of a mc.yt presence and the resulting blogging in my life #BUT these demons are strong and ive been addicted to this coping mechanism for years so. uh #we’ll see #even though ive been out and coping with irl stuff my mind still drifts back to here at the end of the day #(literally at the end of the day i keep writing out my thoughts)#yeah im not sure where we’re going with this #dtblr (from what i still follow) is uhhh mostly shattered (i either unfollowed ppl i wasnt close to or they stopped participating)#and hopefully thats a good enough deterrent to keep me offline for most of it #but im so serious i cannot get my mind off the content so like. ill still be here enjoying that #whether or not im publicly blogging about it or not #also another thing: i had a lot of ideas and wips for mc.yt art but like. i dont have the motivation At All to do them #as much as i’m thankful for the impact mc.yt had positively on my art skills #i didnt actually make it that often in my pre-mc.yt life tbh- and thats probably how it will be again #and last thing (thanks if u made it this far lmao)#im mostly going to run this blog on a queue so that’ll be pretty consistent #and the occasional reblogs when im online and the few mc.yt mutuals are around and active fro whatever event is happening #uhm. yeah i think thats it smile #brave.txt

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am-i-the-asshole-official · 2 months

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aita for dividing up my sideblogs by fandom and not being clear about the fact that theyre all the same person?

this has never landed me in any kind of drama or arguments yet, but its been on my mind for a long time so i want some second opinions. basically, i have a good handful of sideblogs and each one is for one specific fandom (or sometimes a few interconnected fandoms). the reason is not only for categorization (i really like keeping things categorized) but also because… i dont want to get called problematic and for every single sideblog to get that label too.

i dont think id get called out for the stuff i ship, because none of it is that uncommon or problematic. but its the fandoms im in specifically. there are some fandoms im in that some people really, really hate, most often because of rumors/assumptions about certain contents of the source being problematic, or a generalized annoyance at the people in the fandom. if i like someones art or writing in one fandom, i dont want them to have to know im in a fandom they hate for a stupid reason. im not guilty about that.

what ive been considering though is that some of the fandoms im in people hate or cant stand for pretty valid reasons. like, some of the fandoms im in do have actual racism, misogyny, and other shitty ideals in their sources, and while i understand how these things are harmful and dont agree with or tolerate these ideals in my fandom experience, i understand that there are some people who just dont ever want to be near that fandom or someone in it for those reasons. i understand that some people have had shitty experiences with certain fanbases and cant tolerate interacting with someone in those fanbases.

i think its reasonable to say that i shouldnt be interacting with people if they say they dont want to be interacted with by certain fandoms. theres no fandoms im personally uncomfortable with, but if there were, i dont know if id necessarily be okay with being circumvented without my knowledge just so people could look at my posts. and, despite saying earlier that im not guilty about interacting with people who hate fandoms im in for stupid reasons, i also dont know if im qualified to judge what a stupid reason is or not! someone saying they hate a certain fandom and not saying why isnt "not a good enough reason".

but also… what they dont know wont hurt them?? its not like im befriending any of these people. i barely talk to people directly online (its just not my thing, im not a very social person), i basically just reblog and leave compliments on art and writing. its not block evading, because ive never been in a situation where someone tells me on one sideblog to not interact with them and then i interact with them from a different sideblog. since the sideblogs all only interact with the same fandom, nobody from other fandoms even knows they exist.

sidenote that this is purely about fandoms themselves, not about shipping problematic things or specifically engaging with problematic fandom content, because thats really not my thing.

tl;dr i have a lot of sideblogs, and sometimes ill interact with someone who says they hate a certain fandom despite being in that fandom. they never know im in that fandom and im not befriending them. aita?

What are these acronyms?

#aita #am i the asshole

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bibberbang · 11 months

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i dont reblog those posts about how hard it is to have moralizing ocd in online spaces, even though i deeply resonate with them. ironically, i can only talk to 2 people about my ocd, because one of my obsessions is that other people will assume im using my mental health as a shield against criticism if i talk about it. therefore, if i talk about my ocd in any circumstance, my brain believes that i'm already doing something immoral

basically, most of my obsessions resolve around people assuming bad faith of me or that i'm somehow secretly an irredeemably bad person, no matter how hard i try to be good. i am a bad person if i dont reblog posts about serious topics, spend every waking moment thinking about extremely serious topics, or make any social mistakes whatsoever (which is scary because i'm also autistic). i believe that i am irredeemable if i make a small mistake, and i often think all my friends are waiting for me to make a mistake so that they can attack me, and that my life will be ruined if i fuck up. im constantly scanning all my interests (and people i know) for the tiniest imperfections (far beyond healthy amounts of criticism in your interests) out of fear that liking anything or anyone makes me a horrible person. if you dont take a side on this lgbt label discourse, then youre a bigot! im ALWAYS mentally preparing responses and apologies to totally theoretical situations of people being upset with me. i have intrusive thoughts about doing the immoral things that scare me most.

the problem is, *talking about* any of these thoughts invites people who will actually bad faith me. "if youre so worried about this stuff, then you must have something to hide! you just want to avoid accountability!" they make your obsession a reality by accusing you of the exact thing you fear most. none of these thoughts are reasonable or realistic, and i know that. i know that i'm mentally ill. i know logically that i'm as good a person as anyone else. when i actually do make a mistake, i stay level-headed and apologize, acknowledge what i did wrong, and change my behavior

but there is a large part of me that does not want to heal from my ocd, because i believe constant self-monitoring and self-critique is the only thing preventing me from becoming a horrible person

there is nothing i want more in this world than to be a good altruistic human being who is capable of growth, but spending weeks trapped in thought loops analyzing all my behaviors for the smallest signs of a mistake will not help me be a better person. it makes me a worse friend. it drains my energy so that i dont have the mental capacity to actually spend time being kind to others. i reread this post many times while writing it to make sure i didnt accidentally write 6 different slurs. but i can't figure out how to heal. what the fuck do i do about this

this is incredibly hard for me to write about. i'm fighting the urge to delete this post as you read it. i cant stress how debilitating this is for me, it is the biggest hurdle in my life and it sucks away days worth of my time and energy. i will become trapped in thought-loops THE SECOND im not kept sufficiently busy and stimulated by tv/music/my bf/being out of the house somewhere/etc. so much of my life is wasted wanting to be good, that i dont get a chance to actually live the life of a good person

i really hope this post resonates with someone. ive only met a few other people who have this particular kind of ocd, and its extremely isolating. but i want to try to heal from it, and i know the first step to healing is talking about it

#have you ever noticed how i'll add addendums in the tags of my posts where i'll clarify EXACTLY what the post was about?#i do that bc of my obsession that some1 will screenshot something i say out of context and make me look horrible #this is not just a Go Outside problem btw. i know a lot of the examples i gave were internet related #but ive had ocd since i was a child. the other half of my symptoms are health related #like obsessions about emetophobia. or food being contaminated or making me sick. or other physical illness #ppl assume ocd is just washing your hands and not wanting to be touched. naur. i wash my hands a normal amount and i love being touched #so i didnt believe i could have ocd for a long time cuz i didnt fit the stereotype. even though it was incredibly obvious and debilitating #amygdalae #ocd #actually ocd

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choconotfound · 1 year

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this is so random and very late to the discussion from the other day: if youre a lurker/someone who wants to get Into Dtblr but you dont know where to start, speaking from experience (aka someone who lurked april 2021 -> june 2022) the Number One best way to Break In (imo) is through tags.

posting art or writing fics are also great ways, but not all of us are built like that 😭😭 and massive MASSIVE kudos to those who are (I definitely am NOT). writers and artists keep fandoms alive, so if you want to start, start now!

howeverr tags are so fucking essential and often extremely underrated! they give life to your reblogs!! they give your followers insight into your personality, interests, humour, etc. otherwise your URL will just be another undifferentiated note in a post* plus!!! not only do tags show up in the OP’s activity, anyone can poke around a post’s notes and read the tags. I definitely look at them, dtblr is funny af! sometimes if i see a funny or poignant tag in someone else’s notes, ill check out their blog and give them a follow!

not to mention some of the funniest, most poetic and wholesome posts on dtblr have been anon asks or submissions. so i know you guys have it in you!!!! if youre thinking about it, just do it. it might feel super weird to start posting or rbing out of the blue .. but all you really need is a pinned post (state your interests, the CCs you like, etc) and then its go time!

*im not saying you dont have a personality if you dont write in the tags 😭 but its objectively harder to get to know someone’s style of blogging without knowing What They Think, especially if theyre just starting out

#sorr y this is rlly random but i wanted to post this before but didnt have enough time to write it all out :/

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mitsuristoleme · 3 months

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Ayo it's me !

SO uhhh

Damn that's my first time requesting something and I'm actually nervous, so it's about that nightmare thing I talked about, so maybe I thought you could write something (like anything it can be very short), IF you can write for Choso (if you don't i get it) comforting reader after a very realistic nightmare and reader is still scared after waking up because it was basically taking place in that same room and still feels like they're in the nightmare (I don't know if it's clear, but basically waking up still scared and having trouble calming down and feeling reassured because what if it's real)

Rereading this I'm realizing it's confusing, but hopefully with that post you answered to you understand a bit ;; and if you don't write for Choso maybe you can do it with any other (adult) JJK character, I'd be fine with it!

hihi! sorry this took so long D:

i really hope i managed to write what you described

this is my first time writing choso (and anything nightmare related in general) so forgive me if he’s ooc😭😭 and im also sorry this is a bit short, ive been pretty swamped with finals

cw: nothing particularly??? reader has a nightmare, no pronouns used, not proofread

you shot up in bed scrambling for your glasses, your blanket pooling around your knees as cursed energy rushed to your raised fists, ready to fight.

“sweetheart?” came a rumbling voice from next to you, making you flinch.

“hey, hey, its just me. just choso. whats wrong honey?” your boyfriend’s words were followed by a warm hand gently tugging you back into a sleeping position.

he pulled your face into his chest, careful to not smoosh your glasses, a soothing hand running across your back.

“nightmare?”

you nodded, letting yourself fall limp in his hold, trusting choso enough to take care of any threat.

“you wanna talk about it baby?” he asked, as he leant back to look at you in the dim lighting provided by the barely cracked open door of the bathroom.

“not really.”

he hummed, gently taking your glasses off to rest them on the dresser on his side of the bed, switching on the lamp while he was at it.

“the light make you feel safer?”

“yeah”

you could tell he wanted to say something else, but you really didnt want to talk about the horror plaguing your dreams.

your bedroom was supposed to be your sanctuary and the stupid nightmare had ruined every ounce of safety you felt in your bed.

you tugged your boyfriend closer, hand reaching up to tangle in his hair, that he’d started letting down from his ponytails while slept.

he draped his arms around your waist protectively, something he did often, especially in public (you’d come to learn that he was incredibly protective of people he held close to his heart)

“i gotchu,” he mumbled into your hair.

you sighed shakily against the crook of his neck, a few tears escaping your eyes as the adrenaline wore off.

before you could register the loss of his warm hands from your waist, his thumb was gently wiping away the tears from your face and pressing a kiss to your forehead.

he held your face, thumbs catching the wetness as it fell, kissing you gently, and staying there until you stopped crying.

“cmere,” he said, rolling you over his chest to his side of the bed, further away from the door, “no facing the door tonight, ‘kay? we’ll keep the lamp on so its less scary for you, yeah sweetheart? and if you still cant fall asleep, ill stay up with you.”

you began to protest, but he cut you off.

“aht, aht. i dont need to sleep, and even if i did you’re more important. so shush and cuddle me.”

you smiled softly at him, making your way into his waiting arms.

“thank you choso.”

“anytime, love.”

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thoughtsonhurtandcomfort · 10 months

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do u by any chance know of any lab whump prompt lists with like... ideas for experiments to do on the whumpee? i've been dying to write some good lab whump but dont actually know what to Do to my character other than inject with painful things and like... vivisections LMAO

Hi, sorry for the late response! I wanted to be able to properly respond~

If anyone else has ideas feel free to reblog + add them on!

Use them as a test subject for products - skin products, foods, cleaning supplies, makeup...anything we've ever tested on animals, have whumper test on whumpee.

Make them a test subject for medications, with all the potential illness and side effects that could come in the early stages of that.

Have a whumper who is trying to find a cure or a vaccine, something where their intentions are good but at the expense of whumpee.

Push whumpee to the brink of death again and again, but always bring them back.

Drop or throw them into different things.

Use them as a crash test dummy.

Put them out in the wilderness and monitor their attempts to survive.

Leave them out in extreme heat, cold, or inclement weather.

Make them do exercises, stretches, strenuous positions, or other physical tasks to the point of exhaustion.

Withdraw too much blood or take blood samples too often.

See how little food/water whumpee can live on.

Break some bones. For science.

Extreme isolation.

Psychological experiments that leave whumpee a mental and emotional wreck.

Ultimately I think the key is WHY the lab whump is happening. Is whumper a well-meaning scientist, a sadistic scientist, of another species, just curious, working for someone else, doesn't see whumpee as human, etc. Then you can think "what would someone experimenting for that reason do?"

#lab whump #whump prompts #prompt lists #asks #anon

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jess--posting · 3 months

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this post will be back soon i prommy :)

hi hi im jess and im that one rescue corp guy you miiiightve seen bouncin around pnf-404? they/them but im a girl. i made friends with weird little plant guys and now im stuck doing everyones job... sad! oh well im having fun with it. kinda. please get me away from the green one

(rules and other info under the cut, last updated 5/19/24) (interacts from @kirbytripledeluxe)

IMPORTANT NOTES 🌿

so there are now technically four characters on this blog (even if i dont exist in pikposting) so the tagging system may be a bit confusing! stuff may get mixed up! heres a quick guide including how i color code their posts:

🍄: jess, they/them, 24 (currently unavailable) (usually the default)

🐟: me! toast or kirby, it/any, 17

🌼: oatchi, he/him, idk!!

💮: hope or beep, she/they, not even one years old

ive beaten pikmin 4 as of 4/26/24!!! spoilers are fine!

inactivity spikes may happen due to plurality, disability, and ,, my generally exhausting existence. sorry about that!! as a side note if i overstep or act weird or flood the tags TELL ME.

jess is NOT a sona or a self-insert, just my avatar in pik4, though i do project onto them quite a bit 👍

RULES 🌿

1. obviously no nsfw. while jess is 24 and technically allowed to do that, im not 18 yet at the time of writing this and am just not comfortable with it!

2. please dont get me involved in em/eto topics . i have a severe phobia of that

TAGS 🌿

3. other rookies are completely fine to interact!

4. if i slip and misgender jess (i sometimes accidentally use she/her) let me know please!!! ill do the same!

5. please no alcohol/drug abuse stuff outside of jokes (i.e. the scary weed), other characters using it is fine

6. ask before doing wizard stuff ok ?

ic 🍄/🌼/💮: posts by a character

ic answer 🍄/🌼/💮: answered asks by a character

putting them in situations 🍄: rp (←feel free to mute, i use the long post tag once they start getting long but i have a list of the finished ones at the end of this anyway)

jess images 🍄: self explanatory, often reblogs from my art account! i love drawing them!

about jess 🍄: info i share sometimes

ooc 🐟: posts by me

ooc answer 🐟: answers by me

and if you need anything trigger tagged tell me! ill tag it as "tw ___" (flashing lights will just be tagged as "flashing lights")

RP LIST 🌿

3/21/24-3/23/24 🍄 — puddle going through it

3/23/24 🍄 — taking amalgam home

3/24/24-3/26/24 🍄 — lumiknoll moment

3/31/24 🍄 — super mario shaky tower hell

4/22/24 💮 — cherry brings hope and oatchi back to the base!

5/14/24-5/16/24 🍄 — (MAJOR WARNING FOR BODY HORROR + GORE) great job everyone we killed jess

OTHER BLOGS 🌿

@heroleaf-posting

@pudle-blogging (not to be confused with puddle)

@groovylonglegs-blogging

@eyewraith-posting

@fritz-posting

#pikmin #pikmin rp #pikmin 4 #im not adding more tags rn im new to this #pikposting #intro 🍄#about jess 🍄

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zebulontheplanet · 8 months

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do you ever hate those "is it okay to reblog?" asks? personally i find them so offensive. theyre so scared of accidentally speaking over you that they dont even treat you like a normal person over the internet, the most equal of all playing fields. it's so infantilizing... this isnt ragebait btw im genuinely curious how you feel when people ask permission to interact with you online. to me it comes across like they arent treating you like an equal & think that mentioning your borderline ID is like saying a slur, so they have to ask the person who can say the slur if it's okay beforehand. like your borderline ID is a dirty topic that shouldnt be talked about. that's how to looks to me when people ask before reblogging posts about borderline ID. how do you feel about it? sorry im rambling im not good at writing coherently.

Hi! No hate at all. I get where you’re coming from. I think when people are interacting with my blog, they just want to be respectful, and not overstep any boundaries. They’re curious. Especially as someone with a small, but still quite big blog with a decent follower base.

I don’t think people have ill intentions, however I could be wrong. People are curious when it comes to borderline ID and intellectual disabilities. It’s something they don’t hear about everyday, it’s something that IS talked about like it’s a slur. People are afraid of it and that’s why I talk about it so much.

I know people don’t see me as a equal, and I’m learning to accept that to an extent. Sometimes, I get upset about it and sometimes I learn to accept it because there is nothing I can do and I honestly don’t want to waste my already very limited energy.

For me, I try and see the best in people. That includes online, so when people are asking me if they have permission, my first thought Is that they’re just making sure. However, I do understand where you’re coming from.

People are overly careful when it comes to interacting with me. They see me as fragile almost, like someone they have to care for or make sure they’re not offending like I might break. It’s like in real life, people will often talk to my sister or mother first before talking to me because they assume I can’t talk for myself, or think I’m not able too.

This is tumblr, I try not to be to offended by things on here because it’s such a SMALL thing in my life. I do this because I enjoy it, I enjoy educating and telling people about my story.

I get what you mean, and I think a lot of times, this might be the case. However, sometimes it’s not. We can’t be for certain because I don’t know the person. I’ll probably never know the person. I can’t know what someone’s true intentions are, and I’m ok with that.

#long post #conflicting emotions #borderline id #borderline intellectual disability #zebrambles

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savannahsdeath · 9 months

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1K APPRECIATION POST

ohmygod. first of all HUUGE thank yous to everyone that ever interacted with my posts. even if it was a single heart, every little interaction is superrr important to me!! the support i got from everyone encouraged me to continue writing so im not the only one to credit for my fics. every nice comment/reblog/ask also played a big role in it!! im writing this post breathless n jumping around my room cuz !?!! im so grateful i dont even know how to thank you. im sending kisses and good energy for every nice person 🩷🔮✨✨ manifesting an ellie coded girlfriend for everyone🤭(its me im the ellie coded girlfriend) if u guys have any special ideas or just want to chat my inbox is always open !!

❁્᭄͜͡people i often get notification from (read: i love you babes);

@aouiaa UH. UHHH.. HELLO?? my biggest supporter fr. im telling u im only waiting for your comment everytime i post!! you were there since the start (well.. almost) and i dont think ill ever forget you 😮‍💨

@pick-me-up-im-scared of course big thank you to one of my biggest supporters (also my first one) and friend. i still believe ill be able to make you read my abby fics one day .. let a girl have dreams

@coff1nn you and aouiaa are the real ones fr !! always commenting on my posts and all like damn just ask me out already;(( no jkjk but your comments make me so happy awjajznsj love u

@lesbiantothemoonandback you reblogging my posts. when i tell you im on my knees. the kind of motivation i didnt know i needed.. i be rushing to write next fics after seeing your reblogs 😓😓

@dinoastronaut i also see you really often in my notifs (maybe im just delulu idk) and i wanna kiss you everytime you comment 🤗 ima do it now mwah mwah

@skylerwhitwyo sometning about you made you stay in my mind ?? you know what i mean ?? i think its the pfp that makes me scream 'omg skylerwhitwyo liked my post!!' everytime i see it cuz its just so pretty (also yes i call you by your username in my head. i refuse to believe your name isnt really skylerwhitwyo)

and to the 994 pookies left, thank you too. seriously. like, i want to hold hands and go on a picnic with every single one of you☹️☹️💞💞

#reqs open #ellie williams #1k celebration #abby the last of us #abby anderson #abby tlou #ellie tlou #ellie the last of us

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wygolvillage · 5 months

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a new year's resolution

well, as of 2024 i’ve decided i will no longer be posting on tumblr... this shouldnt be the hugest surprise since ive been pretty critical of staff, the over-monetization of the website, the site culture, and the user experience for the past year and gradually reducing my time spent scrolling the ol’ dashboard- ive even mentioned my intent to eventually leave; well, that eventually is now! gradually ive found myself analyzing the effect that using tumblr for 7+ years has had on me, and the effects of social media in general.

ive never had to write a goodbye letter like this before. while ive joined and left several online platforms over the years, its always been a gradual fade in interest rather than a conscious decision to stop. never have i used a platform as long as ive used tumblr, over 1/3 of my life. ive grown up with tumblr, for better or worse. how do you write a goodbye for that? i guess ill have to try my best. because as important as tumblr was for me, ive recognized the way its hurt me too.

finding other avenues of online self-expression particularly has made me think a lot about this. when i edit my website i feel accomplished, happy, and content, feeling i have put something of myself out into the world, my seed to grow and garden to tend. when i scroll through tumblr i feel as if my brain is mostly idle, and when i do emotionally respond its often out of anger or annoyance, because anger = engagement and social media sites like tumblr WANT engagement. particularly because i have OCD ive found myself upset by certain aspects of tumblr discourse culture, as well- it is basically the Scrupulosity Website and much of the way i react to and interact with media has been colored by my years spent absorbing the viewpoints of said Scrupulosity Website! i even used to look up discourse topics on tumblr just to anger myself on purpose, which is a dangerous road to go down, to build up Enemies and Factions in your mind- this is how discourse culture works. the culture of tumblr teaches you to see the world in black and white, and to feel like youre always in danger of compromising your moral purity or being attacked by the morally impure. If You Don’t Reblog This You Are A Bad Person. even as someone who nowadays tries to stay away from discourse entirely, its still there in the back of my mind, because the way we interact on this website is colored by this. when im online i dont actually want to be angry all the time! in fact i like putting my effort towards more positive stuff. but additionally: tumblr made me unhappy but it also made me an addict

and yeah social media addiction sounds like a silly boomer thing to complain about but one thing i noticed when i started trying to curb my time spent on tumblr was that opening the site was damn near compulsive. we all know those “open tumblr, close tumblr, open tumblr again immediately after” memes but that did describe my behavior pretty accurately. the draw and allure of social media feeds is powerful, if i accidentally click the youtubes short tab ill find myself a half hour later scrolling through random shit i don't care about and asking well how the hell did i get here? i dont even like that stuff! tumblr is no different no matter how much the site tries to coast on the reputation of being the last social media that's a “remnant of the old web” and “has no algorithm”. i like my chronological dash but it is equally as addicting to scroll through the thousands of people ive followed over the years, as it is to scroll through the algorithmic feeds of youtube shorts, because that's just social media!

and kicking addiction is pretty damn hard. before 2023, i made two separate attempts at reducing my tumblr usage and both fell through within a week due to that addiction. for reference this current bought of thoughts about reducing my tumblr usage and making my online/irl balance more healthy, around the start of 2023 when i began working on my website and its taken me an entire year to wean myself off of the hellsite, bit by bit. theres a point where it stopped being a conscious act, and even as i was carefully whittling down how often i use tumblr with extensions like leechblock i still had that compulsion go off multiple times every day, its a really strange feeling. but now that ive found so many more ways to express myself online, i just feel more whole now... i guess what im saying is that when i post on tumblr my first instinct is to complain or wallow about something, when i post on my own handmade blog on my website i always want to talk about things that excite me or make me happy! and its been such a tangible change in the way i think and act and im certain its because of the way social media and tumblr have their own “societal expectations” and structure that is built to feed on this negativity loop.

and a lot of the biggest shifts happened when i began immersing myself in the ideals of the web revival, while creating my own website. finding things that genuinely interested me and niches i want to occupy made me so much happier. i know we make a lot of jokes about having mutuals we never talk to that mean the world to us and i do think that is indicative of something. like, when i post on a forum full of strangers i am engaging with more “face to face” (or the digital equivalent) communication than i do with years-long mutuals. how genuine are these connections, this dashboard, the enjoyment i got from that meme post ill forget in 10 minutes? (not to say that i don’t genuinely care abt my followers and mutuals. ykwim?) i can still get all the things i enjoy out of tumblr in a more curated form via rss feeds; ive been so much more proud of what i post and create and code on my website. what am i here for? i gradually realized that i am losing absolutely nothing when i “miss out” or block tumblr on my phone or what have you.

since starting working on my neocities site ive felt so much creative drive. ive created whole interactive essays and worlds and games and writings and so many things i could never host on social media. my website is a place of my very own, and ive been learning the value of focusing on what i put out into the net compared to what i take from it. its made me feel so much more fulfilled when i spend time online.

and let's not forget about staff. i have broader issues with how automattic in particular has gone about running the site. the ads only took up more and more of the dashboard, and every month it felt like there was some new paid feature doomed to never take off. all while the user experience gradually degraded. using the site without browser extensions to fix the ui and block the ads and tumblr live and all the other shit they threw all over the place makes it look like its ridden with viruses, and i think the fact that its become so normalized to feel like we have to stay in spaces that become increasingly hostile to us, even while the internet is so vast, is really strange (i mean, i also thought that way at first). but Anyway. so much time and effort was spent on features no one liked or wanted in some desperate attempt to get a little extra money, while staff members get in public fights with users who complain about getting monetization shoved down their throat. its so openly pathetic. the merch store had mostly mediocre designs and the digital tumblrmart is absolutely full of useless digital goods with free alternatives. considering this is a userbase that gladly donates to other sites donation drives for hosting costs (i.e. ao3, wikipedia, internet archive), i am shocked that staff never considered the obvious answer of a fucking donation drive once a year or so! the ceo telling people with concerns about the ads being unsafe for epilepsy to “just pay the ad free subscription” is one of the most disgusting things ive ever heard from someone officially representing such a platform. do not be fooled by the reputation tumblr has cultivated: all that it cares about is making money from you. tumblr is “in danger” because it can't turn a profit- because a profit is all they care about!

so why stay here when im happier elsewhere, apart from the addictive compulsion? that's what ive been thinking through for nearly a year, realizing that i have no reason to, and that weaning myself off of the addiction is in my best interest. i can create and blog and have fun online and connect with others and follow other peoples work all without the need for tumblr anymore! and i think id be all the healthier for it.

over the past year ive truly fallen in love with the internet again and ive loved putting myself out there, unrestrained in ways i havent felt since i was very young. but nonetheless ive learned a lot on tumblr, ive had some of the worst and best experiences of my online life, and i dont doubt that i would be a much different person if i had never been a tumblr user for as long as i was. but i had to break out of this shell eventually.

i keep going over this wondering how i can express every feeling in my head, how i can word everything just a little better, how i can make the perfect goodbye. but i think this will have to suffice.

you can still keep up with me online here:

-explore my website: i keep it consistently updated and im always adding new things and writing new posts on my blog! you can even speak to me directly on the site! if you sign my guestbook or use my chatbox ill try to respond :) if theres anything on this list you do id like it to be this one! i worked hard on it! you can even send me chat messages on my homepage! just keep in mind it may not display everything right on most mobile browsers, but it should be mostly navigable...

you can also subscribe to my rss feed. if you don't know what rss is, it allows you to use a feed reader to keep up with updates from sites all over the internet! my rss feed will notify you whenever ive made a new post on my blog or made an interesting edit on my site id like you to take a peek at :0 convenient, right?

you can also email me at [email protected] to message me directly. if you prefer im also “wygolvillage” on discord

thank you and happy new years :) thanks for seeing me off as i sail to a new sunrise <3

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my dear t !! for the ask game ❤️ 📚 & 🎨 !!

i hope you’re having a lovely day so far btw ily 🫶🏻

❤️: what is your favourite line that you've written in a fic?

ooh . i have a few that i think r decent :’) it’s not often i like the things i put out but these r the ones that stuck out to me !! theyre all fluff lmfoaoojj

“by the gods, i’m sure they’re all talking about you in the love songs they write.” is what he whispers against your lips, a soft breath of words that make your heart flutter and skin burn. that’s what the present is with suguru. “but if you ask me, a lone man, to write something, i’d do it with a million and one songs, poems, reveries. more than i can count.” — from an untitled on my old blog “it’s like hearing aphrodite sing, and yet you cross her by miles both in beauty and voice. surely, he shouldn’t mention that out loud, but eros can’t possibly help the arrow puncturing his heart, and looking at his psyche now, he thinks you look absolutely flawless.” — from oversized never looked this good “the words are caught in his throat when you fingers go over the 悟 of his name, three syllables packaged into a single character. he didn’t expect you to remember, but it breathes some life back into him when you do it over his heart. he can’t remember the last time he let someone trace his name so intimately. with one last lingering kiss, you both succumb to slumber in peace, with gojo satoru’s first name in the palm of your hand, and his last name aching to take its place in front of your own.” — from 悟; “gojo satoru learns more and more about himself through the lens of your eyes — a love letter sealed with the saccharine strawberry you apply every morning and your whispered confessions that hold a multitude of suns to leave his fingertips blazing and heart soaring.” — from the drabble about gojo’s dimples “he treats you like painters do to their muse: gentle, delicate, a million memories of your anatomy seared into his brain from how long he’s stared at you.” — from late night drift w/ megumi

📚: is there a fanfic or fanfic writer you recommend?

SO. MANY. literally ALL my moots omg ill link my mutual page and you can go crazy from there !!!! theyre all such talented people ! @kazushawty, @hoshigray ELLIE ! the lovely person who sent this ask, @crysugu, @jabamin, @getousex, @slttygeto, @preciousamethyst, @seeingivy, @rlvsmegumi, @zarihaaa, @etherealxmaya, @sluut4toji, @lov3rbody, @cybercandy1, @papersirens, @omgeto, @heavenlyevil (im so sorry if i missed u out im absolutely sleepy rn 😓🥹)

others include @shotorus, @saetoru, @sugurini @prettyboykatsuki @suget @satohruu ahh those are at the top of my head rn! pls pls follow them and give them ur love @ whoever sees this !!!

as for fanfics i dont save fanfics often apart from the reblogs on my pagebgnfjf and im not that good of a gauge for good fanfic cause i like EVERYTHING but i love gojo drabbles by saintobio, pixellated starboy by karma, geto’s fix it fic, what if you’re someone i just want around by saetoru, love alarm by ellie !!! one of his girls by empress (omgeto), nanami’s cariño, boy it’s you i desire by dilly (crysugu), just let me love you by anya / jabamin AAAAHHAHANI REQUESTED THIS I LOVE IT SM!!!! i have lots and lots of favourites im sorrryyy 😭😭😭

🎨: if someone were to make fanart of your work, what fic or scene would you hope to see?

i mentioned once anything from the racer au would be so cool!! seeing them as racers would be soooo nic or maybe a scene from clementines involved geto peeling an orange for you 🥹 but tbh anything would be good ngl i would love even if it was a simply sketch 😭

ask game 💒

#i am having a not so slay day im afraid but i love you too 🩷#i hope YOU r having a swell day!!!#but thank you for the ask omg i love youuuu #satoruhour's mutuals #asks #hyomagiri

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Hey there, hope you’re well! Love your work, it’s amazing. Hope you don’t mind me asking, but was really interested in how you started writing BTS wg fics and which member of youe favourite to write about? always love your work and excited for whatever comes next :)

omg hiii!! ⸜( *ˊᵕˋ* )⸝ first of all, thank you soso much for the support?!!?!? it always makes me happy to see likes/reblogs/ao3 comments from blogs i recognize (ಥ﹏ಥ) and this ask,,, youre making my day.

i got inot a ramble so ill put one of these hehe sorry (ง ื▿ ื)ว

i dont mind the question at all!! even if i was a deep lurker in feedism communities of most of my fandoms. looking "chubby draco malfoy " into google images since 2012 (￣▽￣*)ゞ and later religiously following wg-writers of whatever fandom i migrated through. i would always send so many asks, and when i got into BTS i was older, and properly aware of what feedism was, and actively looking for it on tumblr. back then it was a handful of people with now deactivated blogs and @bangtanstummies (who as im writing this blog see has a deactivated blog as well :,) , i swear going through my dms is like going through a cementary) . i try to stay in touch with as many of the people now as i can!! but everyone will know im the suckiest at texts (@cookiesuga55 will know ) but id love to chat more and be more present

anyway back to the community in 2018, i really loved their stuff, and i felt like there was still room to add new ideas (which was hard in a fandom with as much fanficiton as BTS's) , thats what inspired to make my blog!! back then it was claled bangtangchub, and i didnt know how to activate my asks, bangtanstummies was the one to let me know and we even got into a discord all of us together!!! crazy times ( ◡‿◡ *) i remember being the oldest of the group👴 i was 15 at the time, some coudl argue it wasn't my place to be writing fetish fanfiction, maybe theyre right. but i found such a happy place in my fics. not only have i met some of my closest friends through here; (people ive met in real life!?!? ) but its helped me so much to find a safe place to explore my emotions, sexuality, and craft a hobby that was all my own. i dont think im that good of a writer, but i am really so proud of having stuck to something for so long, and having worked on it all by myself.

often times i feel like i lack the motivation to do anything with my life, and just all-around consider myself someone who lacks the strength and backbone to really do hard things. and i like to think of this blog, and my journey in it, as a place that proof i can... idk,, be good at things i worked hard on.

ANYWAY!! that was a long rant. As for the character i like writing the most about!! welli role play as jungkook almost daily! so i do feel a lot of myself in him. but i love writing all characters, over the years i really made an effort to not fall into a comfortable ship, because i really do think you could spin a wheel and whatever combination of bts members ahs their own unique loving dynamic.

as for things to come!! im working on a fic inspired by some art i saw recently by @gigichingado , jikook, im really liking how its turning out, and ofc because its me, its stretching out more and more in the build up ( _ _ ") . but i want it done over this week!! ps, i saw your obese tae requests, and i can definetly get something out after that (｡•̀ᴗ-)✧

thank you for asking and giving me a place to rant!!

#big rant!!!#i love getting questions like these

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