#if you mean by other people.... im not sure honestly

[plantboiart]

Assigning. Greek gods to jrwi pcs. Because special interests go brr

(Clarification for nobody: gods that i think just like. Fit them. Their vibes. Some of these are more obvious than others in their reasonings. Some barely have any reasonings. I’m just in a fun mood.)

Gillion: poseidon would be the easy choice. But. No. Selene. The goddess of the moon. Because moon mom :)

Jay: there’s a lot of good contenders i think. But to me its definitely either artemis or apollo. Both are archers, artemis obviously has the whole huntress thing which fits with her being a ranger, while apollo has the sun thing (lets not get into that convo rn) and prophesies which obviously works with every riptide pc, honestly not sure which one i would go with

Chip: hermes!! God of travelers and thieves and all that fun stuff so perfect for our pirate boy. Also a trickster, and his job as a psycophomp works with the like. Chips connection to the hole in the sea and all that fun mystery stuff

William: the wispy boy himself… now you might be tempted to say hades or thanatos because. You know. Death. But no. Dionysus. Especially in season two. I mean hes the god of madness! The greyscale arc!! Also he’s got his whole weird rebirth thing going on with his mom dying and zeus having to carry the pregnancy to term and all that stuff (id recommend watching overly sarcastic production’s video on dionysus its very interesting)

Dakota: now running into the problem of almost none of the greek gods and goddesses being explicitly heroic. However i have found a fitting answer: Prometheus. Stealing fire for humanity and just the overall care for people? Pretty fitting i think

Vyncent: Athena is a pretty good fit i would say! Clearly capable in battle, he is actually pretty smart once you get past the whole ‘from another world and therefore has no idea how things work’ thing, and just. Idk. Vibes!

Thanatos: well. Uh. Thanatos..? But also i feel like either Zeus or Kronos could fit since they both did the whole overthrowing gods thing! Idk really

Peter: PSYCHE. So immediately psyche. A human who became a goddess, was brought back from the dead by her lover, the goddess of the human soul?? She’s perfect for peter

Rumi: working off of peter! Eros! God of love brought psyche back from the dead just wow now i kinda wanna write a fic thats just the myth of psyche and eros but its peter and rumi instead

Rolan: kinda feel like hades is a good fit. Generally just a chill guy who also just so happens to be the god of the underworld and so people just kinda. Assume hes a bad guy. Rolan is just a chill lawyer who also just so happens to be a bug monster

Kian: now sure i could go apollo because music and blah blah blah or i could go persephone to satiate my shipper brain but. Aphrodite. Goddess of beauty, love, and sexuality? Being a rockstar is just the front he puts on, but beyond that his entire thing is just love. And since eros already went to Rumi Kian gets his mom (sometimes) instead ((also im biased because kian is my fave and i worship aphrodite lol))

Rand: Rand could definitely also have Dionysus but Will already got that so instead! Demeter. Both because Rand obviously has the whole plant thing (yes its a weed plant but its still a plant) and also losing those he loves and then holing up inside and refusing to do anything until he gets them back… rand absolutely would let the entire world starve because he was upset if he had the power to do so

Now for the suckening please keep in mind that im not actually caught up on the series, im still in the like first hour of episode 11 because i am bad at listening to things. But.

Emizel: Ares! Good fighter? Check. Very aggressive? Check. Uh. Honestly idk too much about Ares. But well i still think it fits

Shilo: Persephone. Sweet pretty spring goddess? Yes. Also the queen of the underworld and definitely terrifying if you anger her? Also yes. Fits shilo’s whole ‘oh im just a small innocent boy whos never done anything wrong anyways let me shh this person so they cant scream while theyre being diseccted’

Arthur: …i somehow genuinely cant think of anything. Uh. If anyone has suggestions please tell me? My brain just stopped working

#jrwi show #just roll with it #jrwi #jrwi spoilers #jrwi riptide #jrwi riptide spoilers #jrwi prime defenders #prime defenders spoilers #jrwi apotheosis #jrwi apotheosis spoilers #jrwi blood in the bayou #jrwi bitb spoilers #jrwi the suckening #the suckening spoilers

[isogenderskitty]

tw suicide mention

this is extremely dark, but like... hear me out. what would steph even do with herself if she had ended up killing pete? she has no family to go home to, no clear aspirations... and i'm sure she doesn't even want to think about the possibility of someday getting over pete and finding someone else. i can't get the idea out of my head that she would've just... hung around long enough to see the lords in black make good on their end of the deal, and then... created a parallel to romeo & juliet, if you catch my drift.

#tw suicide #PLEASE dont reblog this without some kind of tw thank you #honestly? it's fucked up but... part of me would rather she got to be with pete on the other side than see her go home to that empty house #just devoid of any hopes or dreams #and try and find Something to cling to #the worst part is that i can't even really think of anything on her behalf #the press would probably not help either. they'd swarm her for information on her dad's disappearance #they'd make up insane rumour after insane rumour #what does she have to move on to???? #hatchetfield #npmd #stephanie lauter #steph lauter #lautski #... kinda sorta. sorry #god this sucks but i cant get it out of my head now #i mean yes given enough time her grief would fade and she could find Something to work towards im sure #but how long would that take and who would even be there to help her?? grace?? she isnt gonna listen to grace for anything ever again #my real hope would be that she somehow ends up at miss retros and miss holloway can help her i guess. #i like the idea of people ending up there in times of crisis #like it's a little oasis in hatchetfield

[jonny-b-meowborn]

look I am fully aware that I'm the weird guy here for being into whatever Jarod has going on but honestly I sometimes wonder. Did the developers do it on purpose. Did they know that they're making him kinda. Y'know. Like I'm sorry for being a lil freak but some of his lines are just like. It feels like they knew what they were doing

#i just almost died in that scene where you give him a ride #never happened to me before i alway managed to keep him calm #but like. when the anger meter is full and hes about to kill you hes like 'say 'i want to die'. go on say it' #and i mean???? thats some freak shit #not to mention when he pulls out the gun hes like 'i had a bad day and need some cheering up. so thats what youre gonna do. cheer me up' #like im sorry but it cant be just me #hes just the perfect wet little meow meow. hes literally standing in the rain in that scene waiting for someone to help him #idk man im sure there's a lot of other people in the fandom who are into the 'creepy murderer' trope #but i genuinely wonder if that was at least a lil bit intentional #anyway i survived that encounter #at the end there was one of those lil dice rolls and i succeeded that so he let me live #and gave me a ride. every single time i get that scene i accept his offer to give me a ride #its honestly insane that its even an option. even after you lose that event and almost die the game still allows you to stay with him #anyway gonna continue playing #road 96 #jarod road 96 #bee buzz

[skrunksthatwunk]

i just finished saw v and i don't have high hopes for the rest of the franchise (based on what ive heard) but im in too deep to stop now

#no i haven't enjoyed the last two no i don't expect to get much out of the next five or so movies. but i need to know. #i guess saw v mightve suffered bc i watched it basically immediately after iv #something i didnt do with any of the others #but i was told v was one of the good ones so i was looking forward to it. i dont think it was burnout yknow #but uh. i didn't like it. i think i liked iv more honestly. strahm and hoffman do absolutely nothing for me #i liked the traps. that was it though #it felt so pointless and empty. it was the first one where i genuinely wondered why they made it. why did they decide to keep going with #this. i think ii and iv both function more/better as setup for their following films but like. at least iii was pretty good yknow #like both amanda and hoffman's accomplicing feels kinda retconned in but at least amanda's an interesting character #what does hoffman have. what does strahm have. nothing. and no i don't think they have much in the way of homoeroticism either. #i don't tend to be so negative and im sorry if someone goes in the saw tags and feels bad about me talking shit about something they like #because i know that doesn't feel good. honestly i'd love to hear why people like v. maybe it'll change my opinion of it if i look at it a #different way yknow? but for now im just annoyed by it. iv was engaging in the moment but very forgettable #i liked riggs well enough but we barely learned a thing about him. he wasn't a deep character at all and i think that's a shame #but v was just a paperwork-based cat and mouse chase. 90 minutes and it still felt like they were wasting my time #why did strahm go to the old trap locations? i don't think he found anything out there. likr it was just a framing device for the flashback #but he didn't actually have a reason to go there. waste of my time #not an original critique im sure but saw ii on seems to be more focused on scale and layers of shit (i.e. having two games going at once) #than using the traps to examine the characters. i mean you go from two guys in a bathroom for a couple hours #learning about who they are gradually at a slow pace vs like 8 people in a house plus cop stuff plus 90 second traps of dubious fairness #hoffman has no real relationship with kramer (unlike amanda) and basically everyone who'd been following jigsaw is dead and so are jigsaw #and (presumably) amanda. what am i supposed to be here for? the vague outline of a saw trap? the type of torture happening? #im not even opposed to that per se but frankly the more they focus on the cops surrounding this shit the less fun it is #why are you making all the traps like 15 seconds long and tied to characters who aren't the primary focus. it's saw #ughh i miss adam. i miss amanda. hell i miss kramer and he was pretty present in this one (flashbackwise) #whateverrr. anyway that poll comparing chainshippng shotgunnshippng and coffinshippng where shotgun was last? lesbophobic. #im only half joking about that. im sure ppl have their reasons for coffin but i also think it's the tendency fandom bias for “two white guy #ships. but hey maybe vi and onwards will add more context to that that'll make me reconsider. i mean i wouldn't have liked the amanda #accomplice thing That much if i'd only seen ii. i think iii really makes it mesh better and it leads to fun character stuff #(though i still think i would've liked it more bc like. amanda was always grateful to jigsaw right? again hoffman comes outta nowhere)

[kineticallyanywhere]

This is just a hunch, but is Henry your favorite dndads character?

...

maybe-- yeah

at the start it was Ron, because. Ron. but then Henry turned out to have this whole backstory and on relistens I'm just like "he's just a sweetheart trying his best but actual kinda just needs to go feral on something and that's relatable as hell to me. he's basically a well written shonen protagonist who grew up without finishing his plot line and ended up in a different genre. he's cringy as all get out. he's a disaster. he's supportive of his friends and more of an extrovert than I could ever be. his kids were already my favorite kids.

basically he slow-burned his way into being a handful of tropes I very much enjoy, including "if not for my morals I would slap you senseless"

#me drawing him hot was an accident that honestly ive just kinda leaned into #i want to get better at letting my favorite characters look like something other than primetime actors #for henry though i think its fun #the whiplash when people come over to their house for acts i could not attend #first they hear about him and be like #sounds weird but okay #but then they see him and go but then they smell him and go and hear him and go #mmmmmm #oh... #OH HELLO #but then we all know how that night ends #ANYWAY i like him cause he loves his friends even when he doesnt like glen--i mean them. #im sure he gives great hugs and also healing magic and he turns into animals #YOU CAN DRAW HIM IN FANTASY CLOTHES #hes just prime blorbo material #dndads #dungeons and daddies #henry oak #ask ka #me talking

[todayisafridaynight]

me and my sister went to the mall today and we ran into hot topic so fucking fast it was unbelievable. me and my sister are literal opposites when it comes to fashion. she picked pink, pastel shit like she was trying to be all uwu kawaii meanwhile im just standing here with my arms full of emo and goth shit, i legit felt like daigo and masato with all this emo drip i had walked out with. (p.s. they should put yakuza stuff in hot topic if they havent already because i have yet to have any yakuza related things in my room </3 also hot topic is like the only store i will shop at)

im so sorry to say these words to you but reading this reminded me of my immortal

#snap chats #I ALSO HAVE NO ROOM TO TALK THOUGH CAUSE I LITERALLY JUST GOT BACK FROM HOT TOPIC AND SPENCERSLKEAKVJA #rubbing off my fucking eyeliner as we speak im no better than a goffick and im sure the stuff you got was actually real fire and im jealous #i actually wore my hakuho pin out today- i pinned it on my back jean jacket. not to flex on you or anything 🥴 #i remember the day my college friend said something about me being goth and i looked like a dumbass saying 'im not goth...' #when all i ever did was wear black. and tbf i toned it down a LOT while i was at school. i wanted to be normal-passing 😭😭 #that aside i only went in to get jewelry and a new belt chain. also a kirby keychain and nail polish #but like it was that Blackheart brand so you know i just wanted it for the skull container and the name. also i was running out #my hot topic really doesnt have any clothes- or at least clothes i fuck with like its mostly skirts and puffy-sleeved shirts #and yeah those are epic and awesome but they're not my style yk. love it on other people just not on me #i usually get my clothes from like. express or skate shops. very different fashions as you can see LMAOOO #like today i got this really pretty crane shirt and then like. i got a black-and-white striped long sleeve with a skeleton hand patch LMAO #UGH im pissed i didnt get the red and black variant too but i didnt think bout it til i already left #i want to get new boots- the ones i have now are great and i love them but i want something chunkier #my 'goth' fashion is really lowkey honestly like i hardly consider myself goth cause of it- its very casual ig #ignore the fuck-you amount of rings i wear ok. theyre pretty..... also they have certain meanings sometimes #like i wear an owl ring cause it reminds me of my sis since she loved owls growing up and went to a uni with an owl mascot #i wear a dragon ring sometimes cause dragons remind me of my dad. for whatever reason. #idk its cause he tried to convince me i was born year of the dragon when i wasnt ?? idk funny guy lmao #and then i already said i wore snake stuff and crosses cause I Hate My Mom. also i was born a snake #also my dads a christian so :] i will wear two cross rings and a cross necklace tyvm love you pops i wish you were around more #uhhh did i want to say anything else. idk im just dumping about my emo bullshit thanks for reading ☠️☠️ #if this wasnt my yakuza blog id actually just show the haul i got today BUT i will spare you lot from my emo bullshit #ok ill kill the tags here now im SILLY

[meowsercat]

DO NOT GET INFORMATION FROM RANDOM TUMBLR AND TIKTOK USERS I AM BEING SO FUCKING SERIOUS GET OFF OF TUMBLR GET OFF OF TIKTOK AND GET YOUR INFORMSTION FROM CREDIBLE SOURCES

#im crumbling #i hate scrolling through these fucking tags #these people just repeat what they have heard in any leftist's tumblr post #TUMBLR IS NO MORE RELIABLE THAN ANY OTHER SOCIAL MEDIA. #I'M SURE IT'S TEMPTING TO THINK SO BECAUSE TOU SEE PEOPLE ON TUMBLR AS PEOPLE IN YOUR INGROUP #BUT THAT DOES NOT MEAN SHIT! #i'm honestly just ranting to the void sorry to my moots who have to see this #i'm hust so frustrated seeing people say stupid shit ohhhh my goddddd #don't talk about ANYTHING publically as if you know what you're talking about when you don't #unless you WANT to spread misinformation or sound stupid as fuck

[toytulini]

honestly sounds like an unwise choice of dog(young high energy likely due to breed temperament and lineage to to have a higher reactivity and distrust of strangers?) have in that environment and im glad hes apparently living with family friends now, hope that helps w the behavioral issues

#toy txt post #im shocked hes gotten 11 bites in tbh thats insane? if nothing else. it sounds like that environment was not great for him stresswise if hes #biting that often #i dont buy into that dogs always have good character judgement thing but i do think there is probably some overlap with #commanders vibe checking and the general temperament of your average secret service agent being a disasterous combo of #commander not digging their vibe and the energy they bring to interactions with him. ESPECIALLY now that he has such an extensive history of #bad interactions w agents that like. for sure affects how they approach interacting w him #and like. probably some overlap w the agents hes biting and the agents who might have some unhinged politics of their own #that doesnt mean hes Aware or that his general Judge Of Character should be taken at face value #hes just a breed that is gonna be be pretty distrustful of strangers who is constantly having strangers in his space #that are probably asserting themselves in his space and close to his ppl in ways he doesnt like but that is basically part of their job #which he doesnt understand that. all he sees is Some Random Guy with annoying vibes thats probably giving him sideeye and #exuding vibes of 'god i hope this stupid fucking dog that bites secret service agents doesnt bite me' and the dog that bites secret service #agents is like hey bro whats with the attitude. why are you so close to my ppl. why are you tensing up when im near you? are you gonna #go after me bro? not if i get you first. and the cycle continues. fuckin oof #11 times is insane but honestly. honestly. if i had a bunch of assholes following me around with a tense aggro energy and shit #i feel like moxie might start biting. shes not bitten anyone yet so far despite her high level of distrust towards strangers but like. #i think if their was someone with fuckin. Cop Vibes getting all up in the space of her people she might give it a go. idk #maybe not. shes mostly more confrontational towards other animals than to ppl. w ppl she cowers and trembles. but idk sometimes when we're #trying to convince her she doesnt need to have an anxiety attack about every new person she'll sometimes like sit on one of us and then get #a little growly when someone comes close not just cos shes scared but also cos shes being protective. but also its funny bc she is also like #trying to hide between our legs like a baby penguin. she is simultaneously trying to Protecc and Be Proteccted

[feywildfox]

Mm i left bandom space a long long time ago. I mean I'm not that old but ten years ago is still pretty long. And frankly if i overstep lemme know.

Honestly at this point i shouldnt be surprised so many people are actually still inherently racist towards Ray, but also i think, i should be. Because i genuinely expected better from mcr bandom, but again, left bandom spaces a decade ago...

It's pretty sad? Like. I'll admit, I didn't realize Ray was actually a man of colour when i was younger. I think i realized right around the time i left at 15 or so. Which also really goes to show that racism towards him and making him seem as white as possible which definitely i think was a thing. Like in comparison, I knew pete wentz was mixed long before i figured out Ray was a poc. It says a lot about the space at the time and i had honestly thought it'd be better now.

I've loved mcr for years, but i havent been IN love with them for a while. It happens, relationships and feeling wax and wane. But this tour, the excitement and love recently ignited in not just Gerard with all their gender fuckery, but the whole band, has brought a love and joy back into my life for music that hit me in the heart as a preteen and teenager.

And none of that would be possible without Ray Toro putting his all into the feelings and conveying of in his music. Mikey made the band, but ray MAKES the band. He is absolutely fucking integral and it is disgusting & disheartening to see him treated such a way. What the fuck even, hearing that streamers are zooming in on frank during Rays solos?? Like do the fuck better? I'm honestly disappointed as fuck in that shit. Like I know this whole thing is a little disjointed stream of consciousness type post but really. White people do better challenge! Its literally SO fucking easy. The real camera guys are RIGHT THERE showing what to fucking do!

You can love the others as much as you want but jesus fuck give Ray the same fucking courtesy. Stop ignoring your racism, start recognizing the issues that plague you from being white and growing up in white privilege. I sure as fuck still have plenty of shit to work on but at least i can say i can do the bare fucking MINIMUM of giving Ray Toro the respect and attention he absolutely fucking deserves.

Like I do hope this is understood I am not trying to speak over anyone but simply say from one white to another: you need to do better. If that's how you treat a member of supposedly one of your fav bands, i genuinely fear for the poc you encounter in your life. The harm you cause by staying blind may be incremental but it builds up until it's a mountain. Do fucking better.

#not the picturesque emo #fans #its 1 am so this is not. the modt coherent thing but i hope it gets the point across as someone who has been outside of bandom space #i mever realized how big an issue it was but honestly i should have known #im not going point at myself as a pure example of what to do because honestly ive loved mcr from a distance for a while #i have always loved them all but literally its ridiculous coming back ten years later #and finding out that yeah no. rays apparently or whatever the fuck #like uh what. emo is a style #its a sounds a love language a voice for people an expression #sure there are certain clothes or jewelry or makeup that can play into it but NONE of that actually means shit #because it can be turned corpo and ripped up and spat back all sanatized. ray is emo. ray is a man of colour. he's a rock god on the guitar #NONE of that is mutally fucking exclusive! ray toro is just as important as anyone else in the band #ray toro deserves SO much respect and he does NOT deserve to have people claim they are of mcr then treat him like that #you are not an mcr fan you are a pretentious racist asshole who needs to check ther privileges at the fucking gate thank you #fox squawks #im tired and angry now and im sorry to all the poc in the fandom who have to deal w this on a constant basis you all deserve a lot better #im sure yall feel way worse than i do and i genuinely hope people can realize the shit theyve been doing. #i am always happy to go toe to toe w other dumbass white ppl and call them out on their bs #i dont see it because i curate my dash to the point drama is usually a mild breeze at best but i am more than willing to #weaponize my whiteness to force other white ppl to think. if you gotta point me at em do it idc. like a lil attack chihuahua or something. #idk #im lagging now but my fingers dont want to stop typing bc i am nervous abt posting this but yknow. whatever if i fuck up i learn & move on! #we Do Not succumb to white guilt we gracefully say im sorry for that thank you for pointing it out even though you didnt have to i know its #exhausting to do constantly i will keep that in mind and then we do! and we modify our behavior! and we DO. BETTER

[orcelito]

I love how there r certain kinds of art / fic where u see it and ur like . "Ah. You are Mentally Ill"

#speculation nation #yes im counting my own fic in this. of course im counting my own fic in this. #and i mean ultimately you cant TRULY know bc theres more to ppl than what they put out #but theres just. a certain fascination with the morose that i find is typical for Mentally Ill Creators. #but yes i look at my fics. see the hurt/comfort. and every fic tagged with self harm. #and it's just like. yuuuup. yup yup yup. this sure is a manifestation of Something. #and like yea im just channeling the akechi BUT honestly i feel like majority of goroboys r kinda fucked up like no matter what lmfao #NOT ALWAYS of course. some ppl may just think hes cool or whatever #but it's in the like. recognition through the other. seeing the ugliest parts of yourself reflected in this character. #and feeling the pain. the sympathy. the fascination with it all. #you want to see him given something better because you want something better for yourself too #.....OR you want to see him utterly destroyed bc of Uhhhh totally harmless fascination with destruction obviously. #idk a lot of fandom rly isnt that deep. just people enjoying fiction together. #but when you scrounge around areas of Pain and mental illness like this. it really is kinda a lot. #there's a reason why im still here in this fandom. aside from my dedication to completing discacc and my continued like of p5 #& it's bc i see myself reflected in him. a younger me perhaps. back when i really was as raw and angry and scared as he is #so it's kinda therapeutic. to make him go through hell and then see him come out running. #and thus: this creator is Obviously Mentally Ill. #ive never tried to deny it lol #self harm ment/

[apothecarywormcrud]

celtic grey sea salt :)

celtic grey sea salt - what's an unpopular headcanon you have about your f/o?

he is GAY he is TRANS he is AUTISTIC and he is ASEXUAL

#idk that the gay part was unpopular before but it sure feels like it now #considering that every woman on tumblr now wants to jump this mans bones #and the only explicitly gay (and trans) hcs ive seen have been coming from other gay trans people #thats another thing that ticks me off actually that like. yes trans hcs have become more acceptable and widespread #but i still occasionally see people talking about them in the context of an AU #like it's this thing you can just try on and off as a means of character exploration #instead of smth that people fundamentally Are #honestly i dont even consider trans viktor a hc bc u cant hand me this man entrenched in a transhumanist narrative and tell me hes cis #i try not to get annoyed abt ppl having wrong blorbo opinions on the internet but i will let myself have this one :) as a treat :) #if im being honest this whole gamut of hcs is just me going oh hes just like me fr fr but personally i think thats very cool and sexy of me #also i think ppl avoid the ace hc bc. as previously noted. everybody wants to fuck this man so bad #i am not excluded from Everybody but like. im also ace. #idk its just like. the way that i am. directly influences the way that i think nd write abt viktor as a character #which is true for everybody i suppose but. u know what i fucking mean #these tags are a mess lol #i got attached to the mentally ill robot man and now im gonna make it everybody elses problem #yellin #ass memes

[nexttothelamp]

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#oh god its actually been a year and a half im almost done transitioning 🤣 #if this chinstrap neckbeard combo doesnt fix itself in the next six months im peeling off my skin and just growing a new face #trans shit #pecks are really startin to shape up tho #i make a sexy ass fat guy 😎 #mightve settled firmly on nonbinary now too; not sure still mostly dont care #easiest i can explain is im a nonbinary lesbian #also im attracted to everyone but cismen? idk what that is but assholes can pry the lesbian label from my cold dead hands #i didnt fuckin claw my way outta backwoods wv wife in hand to lose that now lmao #...i just had my bloodwork done at the queer center thats whats happening #my old coworker from the center was on the cover of a magazine #theyre labeled ''our hero of pride'' #really proud of them. all theyve ever done is give to others #sigh. anyway goin home #also tumblr friends i miss you. im sorry im crap at talking to online friends #autism is what i wanna blame for it but honestly im just too tired to maintain more relationships rn #i got like 5 people i rly care about and thats too many 🤣 #i mean like. obvs i care about everyone in general but i mean like. 5 people i know care the same amount about me and that i love yunno? #damn im out of it and not evem high maybe they took too much blood this time 🤣✌️ #id say delete later but i wont

[guubiiz]

im excited for the next chapter of tokyo debunker

#the game definitely isn't the best mechanic wise #but the story and va is really good #i prefer the silly moments over the serious ones #ALSO I REALLY WANT THESE LIKE DOVES TO BECOME A BIGGER THING ALREADY #IT IS SO FRUSTRATING TRYING TO FIGURE IT OUT #first we saw one with kaito and luka... does one of them (or both) like us? #then when we were with sho leo and alan... so does that mean one (or ALL) of them like us?? #AND THEN CH 3 WE SAW ANOTHER AT THE END! #with towa and uh the captain (im sorry i forgot your name i love you) #i don't remember if ren was with us when it happened #but like... I DON'T UNDERSTAND! #ARE THEY EVEN GONNA PLAY A BIGGER / ACTUAL ROLE? #i don't think the game is otome or has a dating feature but i honestly don't know for sure #cause i see people referring to the guys as 'romanceable candidates' #but then other people will say it doesn't have those features #but there's also an intimacy (or whatever it's called i forget) system #and the chars have lots of dialogues that refer and talk abt romance #idk maybe something will happen #the story has been really good so far though #the only fucking problem is the inability to beat these cases #Oh Well

[be-good-to-bugs]

DONT stay up for 21 hours its a horrible idea

#the bin #especially when you spend nearly all if those hours working. everything hurts. #i hope there isnt people at my apartment when i get back #blehg this shift was really something. it woulda been nice if i wasnt in so much pain. it wasnt BAD but i couldnt sit down much #i opened with someone else. i knew id be working with her but she was supposed to be the 3rd oerson for support later on #there was no 3rd person tho. bc of the storm it never got super busy but it wasnt dead either. i mean. it was kinda nice tho #i relaly pike tjis coworker. i hardky ever get to work with her but shes so nice. i can add her to my list of favs to work with 4 sure #all 4 of which are older women bc apparently thats just who i get along with best. its who i am at heart i think. bc of the having to be a #mom probs. it was honestly a really good shift besides the immense physical pain. and im so sleepy #regardless of the fact im sleep deprived i did my job good so. i doing anyone would know i was in horrendous pain and exhausted besides #the person i was working with cause of the frequent whincing and yawning. and i told her i hadnt slept that night just as a heads up that i #migjt be kinda put of it a tad. its good i wasnt tho for her sake since it was just us 2. i really wish someone woulda like. told me tho #there was 3 ppl scheduled but it was decided at some point that they only needed 2. the other person who was supposed to be there lived far #away so i wouldnt expect her to make the drive in tnis weather or anything. but i wish i had a heads up that things had changed. #im not upset with any of them tho. its just frustrating but it worked out fine. we probs coulda asked someone to come in but we #didnt really need anyone and ut was nice to be able to talk. u really only get 2 ppl shifts at closing which i hate the tadks for but i do #like to chat with coworkers 1 on 1. its nice. maybe im just lonely

[snekdood]

until a lot of wemen stop ghosting ppl over the dumbest shit i dont think imma be able to trust any of them, ever

#which i hate to say seriously but some of yall are unhinged in a BAD way #and no babe i dont mean 'bad' in the way black ppl use it i mean actually shitty #ya ruin dating for everyone involved. im sure theres some normal women out there that arent like this but the vocal catty ones #are so loud and insufferable and idk how ppl are gonna act when i interact with them regardless that its honestly not worth the #possible rejection over something so very fucking stupid. #i get that you have issues and trust issues too- trust me- i literally grew up like you did- its why i also have trust issues #(+ the negative experiences ive had with cis women who have more social power than me as a trans person) #but its really not an excuse to ghost people for. going to fucking starbucks???????????? hs bully behavior. none of yall should date. #it'd make it a lot easier to find the normally hinged women out there if you stayed tf away from other humans forever.

[miallurk]

Damn. One thing going wrong and I'm going full mental breakdown huh.

#probably because of bottling my feelings up #honestly at this point i'm considering giving up but some people were really sweet to me and that's really been helping #and that one anon in my other blog who almost got me to cry just because they said “i love your writing” #shit i am legit tearing up #people are so nice sometimes i just. fucking hell i love when people are caring but i have feelings that are kept in a bottle from before #i was even like. in 3rd grade. #i want to keep reaching out i do #but i feel so insignificant when i do some stupid shit and. people want to talk to me. they care. and they listen. #i feel so. bad for taking up their time. surely they have something better to do than waste their time on me im a failure. i cant do anythi #g. but. they do. and that fucks me up so badly. those people do not know how much i appreciate even a brief chat. #i am starving for humanity and its connections. #i am also struggling #and living in times of war is so fucking hard when no one cares about you. it was so hard to come to terms with that i'm a war child. #a child of war. fathered by a soldier who had seen horrors of it beforehand. and who has not spoken of them despite screaming in the dead #of night. i am. having a full on breakdown huh. apparently. it's just. fucking insane. i really need to talk to someone about this. and hav #a ten hour nap preferably. #looks at crow bubbles miss detective log and hannah and my old old mutuals. i love you all still no matter how brief or insignificant our #interactions were. i love you. you mean the world to me. you made me who i am like an amateur makes a silly clay figure never meant for muc #it is so hard to go on with old memories as bugs in my brain #this.. started as a drawing program error vent and became me pouring my feelings here. same as always ig. #i love you humanity i love you reaching out i love you desire to care and ve cared about i love you yearning i love you helping without a #need to ask i love you human emotions i love you people #it feels like i'm not one myself honestly. humans are so.. so horrifyingly endearing to me i am suffocating with unspoken love #fucking my love is mine all mine and poison and ghosting and oleander fuck you songs you make me emotional too. humans are so humans.