#if u know me irl dont look at me

[doodleodds]

Happy Valentines, Akira. Happy Valentines, Asshole.

If you can’t read what Akechi’s secondary inner-dialogue says cause I obscured it too much behind his regular dialogue, here’s a transcription in panel order: Hello, you fucking- Ah- Hello, Akira! Fuck off, why should I tell you- Just a soda- there’s a new flavor.

I don’t want your shitty gift. Oh- haha! You’re so sweet.

I hope I choke. They’re lovely, thank you.

Like hell. Likewise. There’s no way it’s just a coincidence. Still though, it’s a funny coincidence.

#p5 #akeshu #akechi goro #kurusu akira #wow- me?? posting a valentines comic... actually on?? valentines????? wack. absolutely wack #it's a short one! I purposefully tried to keep it short. it was a challenge and it still ended up being 3 pages. but i blame my canvas size #also in case u can't see what akira is holding out to akechi: theyre chocolate covered strawberries on sticks! #i saw them irl and was like oh god i want those. i am going to project that feeling on my favorite characters so help me god #and now! here we are! but my shitty-ass coloring & line quality make it hard to discern them so. sorry about that lmaooooo #ANYWAY i don't do enough post-maruki stuff so. i made this one a little bittersweet. :) #why did i put akechi's scarf in a bow? honestly i dont know! i think i saw some art a while ago that did that too and i thought it was cute #well. plus i guess there's the symbolism of 'akechi being alive and reciprocating your feelings (however involuntarily) IS a gift' part #hence that hes wrapped up in a bow. like a present. :) #also god. the first panel is supposed to be akechi's reflection in a vending machine window. I could NOT get it to look right #so for reference!!! just so you guys understand!!!!!! thats what that panel is supposed to be!!! he is NOT in fact a ghost. (sigh) #hope you enjoyed and had a lovely valentines!! for my part i have eaten nothing but sweets today and hoo boy will that have been a mistake #ALSO in terms of the audience-participation comic...hopefully coming soon. if i can ever gain the will to draw it. #but at least tumblr has polls now so i can do the audience-choose-y bit without needing to use a separate website! so thats good i guess #anyway anyway anway thanks for listening to me ramble if you made it this far! have a lovely rest of your day and hopefully see u again soon

[bitchdafuqyousay]

ON G O D if anyone ever hears me say “ooh i’ll draw König in his ghillie suit again” fucking punch me in the gut i’m never drawing that bitch ass grass getup ever again

#like bffr könig means king n that’s what he is to me #könig #cod mw2 #my own art #cod #my art #cod mw2 könig #könig fanart #don’t go sloth hunting #homeboy looks like a tree fr #well call me a squirrel cause ima climb that tree to get a N U T #if you know me irl no you dont #do NOT repost without permission thanks :)

[ragingbullmode]

some liner looks i remembered to save… watermelon is from today 🍉💚

(they/them only)

#me #sorry theyre all hella filtered… without it the colors dont show up as bright as they look irl 😭 #1 lady said she didnt like my watermelon look bc of the meaning behind it & i was like idgaf if u complain one more time im invoking my #right to refuse u service for harassing me for my beliefs in store & she shut right up lol #probably bc her cart was huge af & she told me she was in a rush… loser !!! #also… if anyone knows if any place sells liner pencils in bright purple that isnt run by pos… pls lemme know lol 😭

[pineappical]

it genuinely makes me laugh at how much ted has a grip on my brain its EMBARRASSINGGGG how many drawings i have of him (finished and unfinished) and yet im loving every single second of it

anyhoo how do any of yall feel about another babygirl drawing

#I DONTKNOWW I DONT KNOW WHAT TO SAYYYY UAHHH ERMMM..... #i know some of u are probably gripping me to draw something else but SORRY... HAVING A CATEGORY 7 AUTISM EVENT RN..... i genuinely cant #tell you how long this will last LMFAOOO #i joked with a friend (hi mail) about filling a sketchpad with drawings of him that progressively gets ...... hornier each page AND. #ITS STARTING TO SLOWLY BECOME A REALITY JUST IN DIGITAL I AM SO SORRY HJAGKHJAGHJDGHJAGJ #ITS JUST MAKING ME GIGGLEEEE this is so embarrassing but i just had to say it #I KEEP ON SAYING THIS BUT I REALLY DO WANT TO DRAW SOMETHING ELSE but you know....... everytime i open a canvas i go insane #like rn. i dont even know if i can call this a pin up but its..... Fruity...! #<- HOMOSEXUAL #I DONT KNOW. DONT LOOK AT ME. #having a moment and all the girlies on discord are offline so im rattling my cage rn #pn.txt #LIKE YALL RLY FOLLOW ME FOR THESE.....?? HELP!!!!! #ITS JUST SO FUNNY. GOD. ANYWAYS #PRAY TO FUCKIN GOD MY IRLS NEVER CHECKS BACK ON MY BLOG ID SHIT MYSELF IF THEY DO

[luvring]

just complained about my group to my irls and i'm pretty sure this has genuinely motivated me to speak in class because i Cannot let my prof think my critical thinking abilities are the same as theirs

#💬nia.rambles #rant fr// #guys im srsly sick thinking about it #LIKE THERE WERE SO MANY MOMENTS WHERE I WAS JUST ?? #'im not saying to beat your kid black and blue but discipline is different across cultures and #i just dont think this should be an area of exploration like its worked for hundreds of years' #? YOU AS A WOMAN OF COLOUR HAVE NEVER HEARD OF INTERGENERATIONAL TRAUMA? #like why are you implying you dont like gentle parenting why are you making a strawman DONT PISS ME OFF #then white guy speaking way too loud to my right is throwing in words he DOESNT understand and saying the same things over and over #'from a Sociological Contemporary perspective' be serious. 'it comes back to nature vs nurture again' Can you Stop Tlalkingplapewmj #and i bring up gender and he goes smth smth gender is just such a sensitive topic then the 2 other girls Agree #and they wouldnt let me talk and even if i did they obviously wouldnt know what i was talking about #because why are you asking what post structuralism is THAT WAS A MAIN TOPIC AND DEFINITION OF LAST CLASS??? 😭😭 #they wouldnt answer the question properly and repeat the same basic vaguely connected ideas the Entire time #like do i look like i gaf abt different body standards/expectations for football players MOVE ON ITS BEEN 10 MINUTES #like i want to talk about enforced binaries in queer spaces and Oh my god i just remembered #they were like. lgbt studies/discussion is just so recent and i was like. Its literally discussed In the reading. but None of u finished it #OHH IM PISSED OFF. IM SO PISSED OFF #and im so mad bc the discussion q's were Good and if i was w my irls wed have such a good convo but NO!!!! #whatever. Whatever im going to start raising my hand in class im so fr i got lightheaded complaining about this IMSOMADBSJF

[verthu]

😎

#if u dont know how i look like just imagine fem him but less hot #he is me i am him he literally has the same piercings as me and i even snuck in some of my irl tats for him #2 of his mole placements r the same as me too #ts4 #the sims 4 #ts4 render #sims #my sim jay

[silenthillbunni]

ig i just personally dont rlly vibe w ppl who think that merely saying 'i wish they died' just to lighten the heavy weight of their overwhelming emotions (that they cant control may i add) is the same thing as actively actually murdering someone 💀

#did u know that venting can actually make someone feel a bit better and less inclined to act on thoughts..... #when u create environment in society where u force everyone to supress and hide all their ugly thoughts and emotions #those feelings will grow stronger and stronger and poison you #and that's why ppl eventually explode when it cant be contained anymore #ppl expressing things - that they prob dont even mean or want to be true or a reality #is nowhere near the same thing as ppl acting on it or causing others harm #but then also i am of the opinion that *everyone* deserves help and treatment. ppl shouldnt be discarded and labeled as broken or crazy #sm ppl have overwhelming emotions they cant control bc all of our brains are different. there should be *quality* help available for everyo #instead we live in a society that shames ppl. that push ppl into boxes and say #if u dont fit into this tiny neat little square u are ugly broken disgusting and reprihensible!!! #then they just banish u to the shadows where they dont have to see u or look at u #anyway this is a whole society thing that is connected to this issue in my braib #brain* #what i was gonna say was that i personally think venting and expressing your thoughts - no matter how ugly they are #is necessary for humans. esp when it's in a space where the potential target of the thoughts wont see #esp when there are no plans of taking yhe thoughts into action #asl long as u can separate complaining and venting ur frustrations and causing someone (undeserved) harm irl #thats just who i am and this is my blog and i dont appreciate ppl telling me #that i have to shove it all back inside and im not allowed to express anything #if you're a wasp who thinks everything should be bottled up. that everything should be expressed delicately #then u do you. but you do not tell me that i have to conform to your ways. i find your ways harmful and regressive #so maybe we should just go our separate ways huh? everyone arent meant to get along #theres no use in arguing or fighting or reprimanding ppl everytime u see smth u dont agree with #esp when all u see is a *thought* that causes no material harm to another person. then u should just be on ur merry way

[deis-beloved]

God Im fucking obsessing over them again.

I'm never going to be free from them.

They're haunting my every fucking thought.

I hate it.

I hate that I'm not theirs.

#obsessive love #obsessed #yancore #yandere #possessive #actually obsessive #if u know me irl dont look at this <3 #im being insane rn shhhhhhh #vent

[bmpmp3]

I NEEED to go back to making art that makes it ABUNDANTLY clear that theres something wrong with my brain BUT NOT in a cool or stylishly interesting way. i need to do it in a way that makes people say "hm." and walk away

#sowwy ive been kinda going through it in my fine arts major rn can u tell HJKSDHKFd #ive been feeling like. scared. and paralyzed by marketability and branding. #i cant stop thinking about how other people will see my art. but not like in a good way #when i was younger i thought about it in a good way. like hee hee hoo hoo the act of looking connected us hee hee #but rn i keep thinking about it in like this wretched like consumer product mindset? ouhhghhhhh el problema es el capitalismo #and like maybe this works for some people. to think like this. to make art like this. its what my professors push me towards #not intentionally. they dont say it out loud at least. im not sure if they know or not some of the irony #my professors are nice and pretty smart and talented and i like em. but sometimes i wonder like. the push for us as students to make like #marketable 'avant garde'? stuff thats safe but pretending to be weird and out there #i dont mean to sound pretentious. in general i play it too safe myself (spent too much time as an edgy 10 year old with my #parents freaking out over my shoulder because they think the fact that i drew an anime character frowning means something serious LOL) #but i dunno man. my least interesting art with the least amount of care thought or effort always gets so much more attention in school #nowhere else oddly. online? people like my more passionate but seemingly frivolous art (oc art etc. not frivolous to me but yknow how it is #same with irl artists and other industry people outside my school. whats going on in my school LOL #i know from experience i cant push myself into a supposedly marketable brand. if i try to make something sell it will not. #i dont know why. maybe theres an invisible essence buyers can tell when i didnt care jkfsldjdfrds #but my teachers LOOOOVE the stuff i put no passion in its so bizarre orz but i gotta relearn how to ignore half of their advice #i used to be better at it. but i also only used to ignore like a quarter of their advice. maybe i need to amp up how much im ignoring #that sounds mean. they have plenty of good advice. but also plenty of advice thats clouded by their own biases #and i gotta relearn how to sort out this stuff again. i forget every few months for some reason #you know i always think ouuhhhhh i act so neurotypical ouhhhhhhhhh im outgoing i talk to strangers all the time i seem confident #im so masked IM SO MASKED but then i go a couple weeks where every conversation i have has people looking at me like #i have two heads and neither of them are speaking their language. and then i descend into madness like this HJKLDSHJDS #i'll be fine i'll figure it out. i need to stop trying to get a good grade in being a 'cutting edge' conventional artist <3 #i need to just. draw my cartoon characters in peace 😔😔😔

[theonceler]

ive seen it many a times... you draw the onceler one time. maybe as a joke just a laugh with friends but then thats it. thats the first mistake cause now You Are In the Onceler Fandom.

#nat of lee is accusing me of corrupting her #u kno whats sad? weve been together for almost 4 years and this is the first year i let her look at my onceler shit.... #im sorry i dont know why im like that but im healing my irls on twit know now too oof #ITS NOT THE FANDOM im like this w everythibg i enjoy 😭😭 #U CAN EDIT TAGS NOW????? BRO

[radiotorn]

omgggg the worst worst woorrrstt part of designing an oc is giving them an outfit. how about you pick one yourself you little freak

#IM SO BAD WITH FASHION I CANNNNTTTT!!!!!! I CANT #i cant dress myself irl and now urtelling me i gotta put together good look outfit for my own characters????? just tell me u want me dead. #ow.txt #technically im not Making ocs rn im redesinging/trying to spruce up preexisting outfits but still. #they always look so bland and boring because i dont know how styling works. UOURGH.

[beomgyutruther]

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#snapped at my mom because im stressed about my preboard results and then i apologized and explained that i was rly stressed and accidentally #lashed out and she started saying that im always rude to her and taking my stress out on her ??? and that i never do this to my dad #and then she said i never talk to her about anything even though she's the only one who does everything for me yet i still dont talk to her #and well. maybe if she didnt tell my brother 'if u do this u will end up like ur sister in the future. u dont want to fail in life right ? #then dont do this' (nearly exact words) when she was scolding him . i mean maybe then i would actually want to talk to her #and it sucks because i cant rly talk to anyone irl about this because i still feel scared that they'll like. judge my mom #because i still love her a lot and dont want people to think badly about her #but its getting harder ! to exist here ! and the fact that i am constantly used as an example of what my brother should NOT be #especially when i work this hard partly because i want to be someone my brother can look up to #and to have that come from my own mother . it's really hurtful and makes me feel like nothing i ever do will be enough for her #not to mention the fact that i have come out to her 4 times and she still constantly asks me if it's just a phase #<- i thought that part was getting better but apparently not #but i've stopped expecting anything from anyone in that respect so it doesn't really come as a surprise lmao #anyway rant over i just needed to get that off my chest because i really dont know how long i can keep crying and then forcing my voice #to be normal so that no one asks what happened because wow it is taking a toll on me! who knew #do noooot perceive this

[cwarscars]

Post 4 Characters that you Relate to and Let People Make Assumptions About You - !

( cid / faris / meryl and this meme ok lmao )

#the funny thing is i added that meme 1 cause butt but also cause #when that video came out - i got tagged in it A LOT by people i know irl #and they were all like 'LOL it reminded me of you hes like you lol' #and i dont now if compliment or im creepy but i found it hilarious so #do w/this info wot u will owo #(dashmeme) #pls everyone do this - this is so fun! #(ooc) #u can look at my butt

[waloeders]

hihi am abt to go to sleep (i have to be up for train to fob) but pls check out some halloween fit pics >:33

these r such bad pics argrhrrhgrhrh i didnt wanna be that guy takin pics but still !!!!! the look slayed yippeee <333 lots of love n gn

#jupiter.speaks #j.face #> at one point i stole my friends cape that he hand made it was soo comfy and cute n such a look ahgghhhhghh #> this is the irl friend i. have a mild crush on but we dont talk abt that 🙈 i dont think he feels the same so. ah well #> also love that my irls were like yeah sure. uve got the new boys? theyre keychains n ur wearin em on ur glasses? sure!!! love that for u #> theyre so great i wish we could hang out more #> it makes me wish mutuals on here could hang out i just know we could have such a baller halloween party arrrghrgh #> nyway gn gn fr <3 hope yalls days r goin well!!!

[donttouchtheneednoggle]

realising ur trans is so stupid bc before yes it felt like life was just always gonna suck no matter what I did and I was doomed to low-mid grade misery with occasional high grade sprinkled in forever and all I could do was not dwell on it as much as possible but now I know what's probably causing it and that there's a way forward I actually have to do something about it and I don't know where to starttt

#dont mind me venting #its fuckin weird bc ive known since college but i haven't?? #like i was all its fine if everyone irl still calls me she and a girl and daughter and most organisations i interact with still deadname me #spoiler alert it was not fine #but i just shoved it all down so far and was like wow i have no body dysphoria #even though i quite clearly did #and haha im glad i don't need to engage with anything medical #and now im pretty surei di and im scared #the last three months have been a revelation lemme tell u 😅 #and through all of it im working with feelings that disappear if i look straight at them #bc im so used to supressing them im having to actively work to feel them #but i just know i cant ignore them i can't carry on as i am its downright irresponsible when there's a chance i could be happy #and it would just cone back up even if i shoved it back down #im just #im tired man and its overwhelming #anywayyy dont mind me its all good really 👍👍 #i told my mum thats something right #mine #gender adventures with neednoggle #vent tw #ignore me #imma get up and go for a walk that'll help #i worry im acting like being nonbinary without dysphoria isn't being trans #it absolutely IS #it's just not who i was or am and so it feels like i wasn't properly out to myself #and am only now properly realising i am trans? #like before it was just another hollow identity ig #but it was still just as trans and it is for anyone else too #p sure im still nonbinary just over masc side #but at not that masculine lmao

[tiredrobin]

mrrr

#its a weird feeling to know tht like #idk. someone doesnt rly wanna interact with u #or believing it at least #thats what it seems like #chews on my knuckle. im tryin super hard not to let it get to me i wanna respect their space as much as possible #lil hard tho. i cant tell how much of it is my anxiety or what. idk whats goin on. im not... good at reading ppl irl #but they dont rly look at me or talk to me anymore so i dont think its all in my head #idk!!! not everything is abt me. nobody owes me anything. i just need to rember that #its just. just sucks. mrrrr. thought we were friends i guess. but! its ok. not everyones gonna get along w me. i accept that #mantra of no one owes me anything fhsjgjdgjdjggjdjs #whine whine complain whine #lemme sound needy online surely thatll help me feel less anxious abt all this surely