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everythingseasoning · 7 months

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Attack on Titan fan made content is making my heart drop & making me fucking sob & cry. Eren my heart breaks for you, always. Your beliefs were so impassioned and valid. You deserved freedom. You did simply because you were born…💚🫂 Mikasa, you did the right thing (was so difficult and I’m proud of you), and I hope you lived happily like Eren wanted. Armin, choose me. Love me. Pick ME. (I’m gonna pretend ArminxAnnie isn’t canon because I’m delusional and Armin is so M-boyfriend coded, shoo, Annie, shoo). Isayama’s characters feel SO REAL and I respect that madly.

ALSO LOOK AT THIS TINY MOODBOARD IT’S SO AOT SEASON 1-3 CODED 🥺💔❗️💛💛💛 Eren deserved peace oh my fuckkkking god. Yellow pics & inspo from @xurooow

I’m heavily considering picking up AOT again… and finishing it! Which kinda sucks cause I just got the released manga’s of Jujutsu Kaisen SO LIKE — I’m torn between which one to invest in right now.

I feel like Attack on Titan is much more relevant, considering what’s happening in Gaza. Being immersed in AOT will keep me grounded in the effect and horrors of war, which might be overwhelming but also useful because it means I’ll be more likely to be thinking about Palestine more often than if I was reading JJK manga instead.

Plus I miss all my AOT buddies :’( YALL ily & miss u pls interact with me !! gonna tag a few peeps I’ve chatted with before & remember & miss <3 @oxygenbefore1775 @e-skyylite @notafightr @romantichomicide95 @averysmolbear @ichijager13 (I used to be mal-writes!) & shout out to my most best gal @raenacreates <3 thank u for being a good person and for existing and bean u ilysm everyone pls check out her skilled art PLS

Ya girl hasn’t even watched season 4 of Attack on Titan AND YET I’M WALLOWING from all the Instagram reels and brief AOT thoughts I hear. (Haven’t watched s4 & yet I know a lot of spoilers unfortunately… and I hadn’t watched s4 cause I saw Eren’s depressed face and it made me wanna cry and I couldn’t handle that depression).

^ second set of photos is me and my love for eren

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freelancearsonist · 10 months

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Storms

Eddie Munson x GN!Reader

Rated PG for literally the fluffiest fic you’ll ever read with just a tiny dabble of angsty references on upside down trauma

1,290 Words

A/N: hi 🥺 it’s been a while but i’m hoping to get back into the groove of things and start making more content. it’s been tough for a while, thank you so much to everyone who has been supporting me. ily all 🩷

Eddie never thought he’d find someone who hates thunderstorms as much as he does—and he was damned near positive that no one hates them more than him.

He’s been wrong before this, and he’ll probably be wrong again (although he’ll never admit to it).

The funniest part is, he never would’ve guessed that you’re afraid of anything, least of all storms. His partner is the bravest person he’s ever known, and it just doesn’t seem real. Not only are you perfect for him, but you validate the fear that he’s most insecure about. After all, if you’re afraid of storms, they must be pretty fucking scary.

But he remains in the dark about this secret of yours until about three months into your relationship. The night of an absolutely torrential downpour on the tail end of the driest summer Hawkins has ever seen.

The kind of storm that Eddie would normally be petrified during, because he can feel the trailer rocking from the violent wind, he can hear the pounding of fat rain drops on the tin roof, he can see the crackle of heat lightning across the sky and hear the boom of thunder just a mere second later, warning him that the storm is far closer than will allow comfort.

But this particular storm doesn’t even exist to him. What normally would bring back horrible memories of a place he never wants to see again doesn’t even phase him tonight. His senses are blind to anything but the sound of your fuzzy, teary voice through the receiver of his corded landline. And when the landline gives out, almost positively because of the storm, he doesn’t hesitate to jump in his van and haul ass to your apartment on the other side of town.

In hindsight, he’ll laugh over this decision because it was probably in the top ten most dangerous things he’s done without even realizing it. He hydroplanes the entire way to your place and it’s a damned miracle that he doesn’t roll his van.

None of that matters to him, though. He has tunnel vision and his only mission is to get to you, to comfort you. To show you how much he loves you, even though he hasn’t been brave enough to admit it yet.

He has to practically break down your door in order to be heard over the storm, and he’s soaked to the bone by the time you open up and let him in.

He can’t do anything but grin at the way your tears instantly halt, at the way your pupils expand and your lips tilt up in a smile at just the mere sight of him. He’s finely tuned in to how your body reacts to him, and he can’t get enough of it.

“Thought you could use some company,” he says, because he can’t think of a better line. No one has ever had that effect on him before you—the ability to disable his quick wit and snarky attitude. It’s disarming and addicting all at once to him, the way you mentally strip him bare.

“Yeah. Yeah, I could,” it comes out as a half-chuckle because you’re so shocked and relieved you can barely process what’s happening. You never thought you’d have a knight in shining armor—it’s a stereotype that just isn’t your style. Yet Eddie fits it so perfectly it’s hard to deny. He always knows exactly what you need, whether it’s bringing you lunch from your favorite restaurant without even telling him you’re having a bad day, or listening and commenting on your recounting of a horrible interaction you had at work. He never has to ask what you need, he just knows. And he always manages to save the day.

You notice the guitar case slung over his shoulder, and your heart pounds a little bit. He hardly ever takes it out of his house—only for gigs and practices. It’s his most prized possession and he guards it with his life. The fact that he feels comfortable and safe enough with you to bring what you lovingly refer to as “his main girlfriend” with him makes your chest swell with affection.

“I can’t believe you came all the way in this storm, Eddie. You could’ve gotten hurt.” You try not to think about that, after almost losing him in the spring. Nothing has ever terrified you more than his accident did. He almost died before you got a chance to confess your feelings, and as stupid as it is, you expect every day to get the phone call that he had another accident. That this time, he didn’t just make it out with some gnarly scars and bad nightmares.

You stop yourself from spiraling any further and hustle down the hallway to fetch the poor shivering man some towels to warm up and dry off with.

“Did you come to serenade me?” You ask with a nod to his beloved guitar.

He chuckles as he gratefully receives the stack of towels you bestow him with, fussing about him so you can cocoon him to the best of your capabilities.

“No. I was worried about you when the phones went out. I wanted to make sure you were okay.”

The thoughtfulness of this statement makes your heart ache with affection. You’ve come so close so many times to telling him you love him before realizing that it’s really soon and he might not feel the same, and this is just another moment added to that list.

“However,” he adds with that trademark boyish smirk, “I could probably be persuaded to play for you. If you ask very nicely.”

“I definitely think I can do that,” you say with a grin, and just like that the storm is forgotten.

You manage to find some clothes in your closet that are big enough for him, and once his wet clothes are hung over the shower curtain rod to drip dry in your bathroom and he’s changed into his new dry outfit, he splays on the living room floor and pulls you down to join him.

“You know what’s missing?” He asks, more rhetorical than not. “A shit ton of blankets and cushions.”

You know exactly what he’s hinting at, so you obediently scurry off to find all the fort supplies you can procure.

It takes the better part of an hour to construct what Eddie dubs “the storm shelter”, and even then it’s shoddy construction due to the fact that you don’t have a very good variety of materials to work with. But you’re both proud of it nonetheless, and you can both comfortably sit up inside which is the most important part.

The storm subsides a little before midnight, but neither of you notice; it’s safe and storm-free inside the shelter you built together.

Eddie rewards your efforts with a serenade as promised, strumming the chord softly on his guitar while he looks down in awe at where you’re resting your head in his lap. You look so peaceful and happy and he never would’ve thought in a million years he’d be able to affect someone like that. He never figured he would be a refuge or a comfort. But again, you’ve proved him wrong. You’ve never felt safer anywhere than you do in his arms.

It’s a whisper between soft acoustic versions of AC/DC songs. So quiet you’re almost worried he won’t hear it, and you won’t have the courage to say it any louder.

But he hears it, and he has to restrain himself from breaking out in the most excited and embarrassing happy dance ever performed.

Instead, he whispers back through a beaming smile, “I love you too.”

THE END

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crowtrobotx · 1 year

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OMG YOU REMINDED ME i’ve been meaning to cry into your asks about how good chrysalis is. it’s been bouncing around my brain for weeks now. like you perfectly capture the side of karl that i’m most infatuated with— which is just how he cares for people even if he’s stubborn and ruthless and yk. just karl heisenberg. ITS SO SWEET. but you also never lose the grit of his character.

AND THEN KRIS AND LOTTIE TEAR ME APART they’re sooooo fucking well written they’re so fleshed out they’re so. real. you balance your beautiful descriptions with clever and heartfelt dialogue so perfectly. like i can’t wait for every next word i read i get so excited about it.

i got too caught up in how obsessed i am with your writing i forgot i had like. an actual question— what was your inspiration for writing the fic? bc your overall theme of how science can create both terrible and beautiful things is really interesting and i love it. and i really enjoy how your characters embody this.

me personally, my inspiration for my fic came from seeing how different ethan and heis were and how their deal would’ve never worked out. bc karl simply doesn’t understand what it’s like to love someone— he’s never had someone to care about (as far as we see in the game). so ethan’s bleeding heart goes completely over his head. so i was wondering what would happen if heis DID understand ethan. what if he DID have someone to care about.

and i was wondering if you thought the same? (don’t spoil anything if you don’t want to) but will that motivate his actions in a different way when it comes to the events of the game?

anyway ily and your stuff mwah ❤️

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PLEASE oh my goodness thank you so much for the kind words. You have no idea how much they mean to me! I am trying to be better about being dismissive of any compliments because I still genuinely feel baffled that people who are not me are enjoying this so much but I am so so so so glad for it all the same.

I’m honestly very happy to hear you say that you think I don’t “lose the grit” of his character because that’s something I’ve honestly struggled with trying to balance! I mean, that’s kinda crazy to say, because this is a dude who was on screen for like ten minutes lol but I feel pretty strongly with the way he swings wildly between homicidal rage and moments of stark vulnerability, there’s something resembling a person capable of love and care under there. We never got a backstory for him and I think most of us are on the “he was taken as a child, not an adult” train, so I’m always trying to depict a battle between a kid who was robbed of any opportunity for a “normal” life, the adult who came from that and has been warped into both a weapon against his will and a person hellbent on survival at all costs, and a guy who, under kinder circumstances, might have been a decent if quite a bit eccentric dude. And that’s really hard! I often worry I’ve gone and made him too soft and that I need to focus more on him behaving like a violent toddler but I always soothe myself by remembering that Capcom didn’t exactly flesh him out which is both deeply frustrating but also leaves room for almost endless possibilities.

And hngggg loving on my original characters is like, so incredibly validating for me thank you <3 I have spent a long time thinking about those two before I even wrote a single word and I’m touched that you and others can tell and seem to enjoy it. I think I’ve mentioned it before but I’ve spent the last decade plus exclusively writing poetry, not prose, so I think sometimes that comes out with my descriptions and general style. It’s kind of a harder transition than I imagined but I’d like to think I’m getting better chapter by chapter lol.

Anyway, that’s enough about me. I love your stated inspiration for Heisenberg Principle – it totally comes through in your work and I absolutely agree. It’s actually quite similar to Chrysalis, at least in part. I, too, don’t think Ethan would have ever accepted the proposal. I say this with zero hate in my heart for the folks who were gunning for a team up DLC but I actually would have been furious if they’d done that and it hadn’t ended with Karl betraying him and a black screen with “WHAT WERE YOU THINKING” on it popping up lmao. Yes, Heisenberg is meant to play at your heartstrings because it’s clear he doesn’t want to be there and anyone can sympathize with that – but I thought it was pretty clear that the player was meant to notice the hypocrisy in his massive rant about how he’s not like his siblings or his “Mother” while he proceeds to commit unspeakable horrors. (I’ve seen some folks argue that it’s ‘not that bad’ because they’re corpses or whatever but like…. Come on, man.) I tend to view his interactions with Ethan as hugely manipulative. Karl’s a living weapon. He sees Ethan as another living weapon, one he can use to dispatch with his siblings, and Rose as THE living weapon to kill Miranda. Miranda has used Heisenberg as a tool his whole (?) life so why should he think any other human relationships are different.

Which I guess leads to Chrysalis. I was also hugely interested in exploring what that confrontation would have looked like if they both had someone to protect/love and more specifically if they were both fathers. My longtime Heisenmoots can tell you I’ve been singularly obsessed with this idea since like…. Day one lol. I am hoping that it will flesh out some of his canon interactions or at least make them more interesting while also perhaps maybe change the way he ultimately interacts with Mr. Ethan “Loses a Hand Biweekly” Winters. There’s a bit of personal inspiration in there, of course. Lottie is, for example, the daughter I would want if I had one: kinda feral, smart, authentic, a little weird. Kris is in part an exploration of my own chronic illness/disability struggles – many Heisenberg fics involve the reader/OC becoming a lord (which is COOL and AWESOME and I love all these characters, to be very clear) but I wanted to look at a story where that person doesn’t mesh well with the Cadou, where through no fault of their own they succumb to it like so many other nameless folks before. Not saying I was trying to be ~edgy~ but I also thought it would be fun to subvert the traditional “Karl and OC make a vessel” story which, again, I do not blame anyone for writing because it’s right there. And, yes, I’d be remiss if I didn’t say I just love this queer old man and I wanted him to have something, anything good in his life.

I feel like I’ve been rambling like a lunatic lol I could say so much more but I’m afraid I sound totally unhinged. Before I shut my trap, I’ll say that like many I felt there was a lot to be desired with how little backstory and motivation we were presented in this otherwise compelling game. There is something they’re trying to say about parenthood and something they’re trying to say about fairy tales and it all just… leads nowhere. No, RE has never been about satisfactory/deep character development but sheesh there really is the skeleton of something crazy good here. The whole of Chrysalis is leading up to that confrontation (I believe @vodkafolie called it a Dad Battle which I love lol) and I don’t want to spoil too much but it’s going to be both about that whole idea of ‘what if he actually did pick up what Ethan was trying to throw down’ but also the whole idea of love as madness and is there a point where in trying to preserve that love you can cause too much destruction and squeeze to hard and crush it like a bug in your palm.

Again thank you thank you thank you for your kindness, mwah right back ily2 <3

#asks #chrysalis (fan fic)#mourningstarmace #thank you thank you thank you again

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w4yf1nder · 2 years

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give oddly specific compliments to a couple of your moots! also here’s one for you: you’re super funny and i love your blog and writing!

OMG ANON 🥺🥲💞💖 YOURE SO SWEET ANDJSJ HEHE YOU BET 😈 IM GONNA TRY AND FIT AS MANY MOOTS AS I CAN IN THIS HEHE btw if i tagged you and you don't remember ever talking to me this is me trying to reach out and make friends SKSJSK

@ataraxyystories - i literally love your vibe, you have tiny fantasy creature vibes and i want to put you in my pocket

@kazu-sun - youre literally like my most favorite person ever??? just *hugs intensely* youre literally so soft i can't 😔

@dinoshimaaa - i love ur brain 😩 u have big brain 😩😩

@126dvtn - are you ok? actually ik youre not. but ily anyway. the unhinged energy in our dms is off the chart

@yonaraee - youre always sending weird roblox memes that remind me of early 2000s graphic tee diluc and i love that for us??? if i ever write about early 2000s graphic tee diluc it will be because of you. and yes this is a compliment even if it doesn't seem like it. YOURE MY MUSE 🧎‍♀️

@tighnaeri - ik youre deactivating soon but you better see this or else 😡 ilysm 🥺🥺 you have chaotic but sweet energy you >>>

@mooncreates - dude idk why but you have tall vibes and you kinda remind me of ayato but also you're so unhinged when we talk smth isn't adding up here. then i remember that you're a kaeya simp and everything starts to make sense

@seveninchesfrominsanity - you have such older sister vibes fr i mean i don't often slide into your dms but WHENEVER WE TALK i feel v comfortable 😩 we can go from simping to "generational trauma" real quick and honestly so true bestie 😔

@shoyotime - my bestie imy you're one of the only 2 moots from my old blog sjshsj

@xiaosimp3 - you have been here from the k-pop days and honestly??? youre a real one 😔

@catcze - we have talked like 3 times since we became moots but you have such hot girl vibes??😩 maybe it's just the yae miko theme sksjsk

@wrenhyperfixates - i always associate you with langa and that is a compliment in and of itself.

@telemi - i swear we have talked like 2 times since we became moots but ilysm??😩 what a queen fr

@solaaresque - we have talked once (1) and immediately talked about kissing girls. safe to say you are very based and correct. women >>

@dawndelion-winery - sometimes you concern me because why do you simp for a boat, sometimes you scare me and sometimes you make me laugh. that is a lot of feelings. i have a lot of feelings for you (this is a confession /j /p)

@genshinparty - we have never talked but i love seeing you around sksjk sometimes i'll spot you liking my posts and feel very validated SKSHSK

@hanniejji - i have a soft spot for your pfp you literally have no idea how much i love it whenever i see it i want to cry and squeeze kazuha

@i23kazu - dear ying, i do quite enjoy our conversations. SKSJSK you're v funny and ily sksjsk although i can't help but think you're an overachieving student 😟 pls calm down

@lilikags - you promote ensemble stars better than happyele it's true they told me themselves (acco and moon also agree, just so you know) sksjsk I LOVE HOW PASSIONATE YOU ARE 😭😭 thanks for introducing me to enstars even tho i barely keep up sksjsk the songs are v catchy 😩

@xingqiusleftearring - your theme is literally so sexc i aspire to have a blog like yours (i feel like you're into alt fashion and honestly that is ALSO v sexc of you)

@captaincryolicious - ZEP! we talked like once (1) 😭 ily tho sksjsk you remind me of an unlikely friend i went on a school trip with about 4 years ago to a theme park and i couldn't go into the water rides cos i was on my period so we stayed back and got some ice cream while the rest of my friends left me like the traitors they are

@ventuswhat - we have never talked but you seem unhinged and that is an energy i need more of in my life (this is an invitation, let's talk more)

@baeshijima - SOPHIE!! i'll always have a soft spot for you omg sksjsk you were my first genshinblr friend sksjsk all because i was an anon first 😔 i have known you the longest here sksjsk (i also associate you with iu which is why i want to protecc)

@mccnstruck - i have always wondered what your username meant and i have always wanted to talk to you and i have also noticed you a lot it's frankly scary why do i keep noticing you but maybe it's a sign that we are soulmates /j /p

#wren talks;#WAS THIS A LOT????#I KINDA JUST TAGGED EVERYONENSKSHSK

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slutabed · 2 years

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wip last lines <3

thanks for the tag @lonelyheartsmotel ily 🥺💖 I have so many random wips for so many fandoms I’ll try and narrow it down

untitled reddie wip:

“So why all the effort to get Eddie out there?” Stan presses. “Isn’t he coming to the reunion next month?”

It’s a valid point; the Losers who are not currently based in Los Angeles (Mike, Eddie, Stan and, honorarily, Patty) are flying out for a reunion to celebrate Eddie’s divorce, the upcoming publication of Bill’s newest book, and, belatedly, Richie’s successful Netflix special. Richie will see everyone then, so there’s no reason for him to be pressing so desperately for Eddie to visit.

But Stan knows, he always knows, so Richie gives it up like he should’ve from the start.

another untitled reddie fic; prompt fill:

Eddie knows Richie is a man with depths unknown even to himself. Sometimes one of the Losers will point out an idiosyncrasy of his and he’ll laugh, surprised and delighted, like he hadn’t noticed this habit of his and can’t believe anyone else looked closely enough to notice it, either.

In some ways he’s an art display behind a glass window, a wonder to look at but impossible to reach, and sometimes he’s like the scene of a robbery, shattered open for all the world to touch but with all of the best parts stolen away. Eddie never knows how much he’s allowed to know of Richie, when he works so hard to stand in the spotlight so that he can direct where the shadows fall.

two young savage things (barely worth remembering); steve and eddie (stranger things):

Steve senses his hesitation, the bastard. “Right,” he says quickly, swinging his keychain around his forefinger. “Well — hey, why don’t you come over to my place? At least get showered, borrow some clothes. You can call your uncle’s job and let him know — you know.”

“Oh.” Eddie nods, scuffing his heel against the curb. “Sure. I mean, yeah. Your parents won’t mind?”

He doesn’t think he imagines the way Steve’s jaw tightens, just for a second, before he smirks and pulls his door open. “Trust me, they won’t even notice we’re there.”

untitled ted lasso podcast au:

Rupert Mannion, former owner of the Richmond football club, has to declined to be interviewed for this particular development in the story. When asked for a comment, he rather impolitely indicated where I could shove my recorder and suggested I should look for what he referred to as a “real” story.

When asked to comment on Mr. Mannion’s comment, Mr. Lasso simply replied with his customary ineffable gentility,

[Ted Lasso voice:] “Well, that’s a darn shame.”

But the medium of podcasting, for all its advantages in storytelling, is limited in its ability to truly convey the gleam in a subject’s eye when he is trying his best to hold back a laugh.

tagging @imaginedmelody @spencer-reids-adventures @theimprobable1 @thekidkelly if you haven’t done this yet (and anyone else who feels like it!)

#wip game #ted lasso #reddie #steddie #fic stuff #if anyone wants to take over my ted lasso fic bc many other can do Trent’s voice better than me pls feel free #lmao #I’m kidding for now but check back in a month

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crazylil-lion · 1 year

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Reading that made me understand you a little bit better. I think all of those needs are totally valid! I don’t think you’re being irrational. I think it’s important to let your partner know you still love them even if you’re having an argument! Maybe it’s just me but giving my partner constant reassurance feels so natural and sweet. I don’t think you’re needy I think you’re special 🥺💟 and anyone would be lucky to call you their partner 🥰!!!

This made me tear up tbh.

Idk most people get pretty tired of me quickly. I'm happy to know you find it natural. I really think more people should be like that because everyone struggles at times so it's important to always support your partner.

I think I'm special and needy tbh. But its okay. I realize a huge part of my need to being clingy and needy stems from the only parts of a personality I do have.

My desire to submit. My little side that rarely comes out.

I need someone nurturing and caring.

Because I will always be clingy. I will always be needy.

But my therapist helped me see it a different way.

Submissives by default are needy.

If a dom wants to own you wants to take responsibility and control to me it makes sense that normally they are more accepting.

Littles are needy. And its not a bad thing. Mommy doms and daddy doms should expect a little to be needy. Because we choose to submit. We choose to give ourselves over and give up control.

But that never means giving up our needs as well.

Thats the one part of my personality that will never change depending on who I'm with. Other things I will mirror. The huge chunk of personality I am missing will be mirrored from my partner.

How my therapist described it when I explained. It grounds me. Where as alone. My personality. Recognizing myself in the mirror. Feeling real. Feeling safe. Nothing stays the same.

I cycle through emotions like people cycle through songs. Idk whats next. Idk how long it will last.

I'm a hurricane.

But having someone to hold me through episodes. Having someone that helps me feel safe and provides consistent love and care helps me an indescribable amount.

Love won't fix me. Relationships won't fix me.

But as my therapist said.

Having a healthy relationship. Having consistent reassurance and someone providing a sense of safety. Would help tremendously. It would help me start to heal. After not having those consistent relationships most my life.

Relationships help you heal. They don't just fix you.

But I dont expect to ever be loved again. I don't expect to get into a relationship.

No one really wants me. No one has really tried.

I still don't get anyone interested despite multiple dating sites. Attempting irl.

No one even likes me😂😂😂

Fuck even here barely anyone likes my photos or audios so I've just lost all motivation to try. Because if no one wants to see. Why bother anymore.

Same reason I don't buy lingerie anymore. I'm fat and ugly lol.

Sorry for the rant. Happy you are asking. Thank you so much for listening and talking to me everyday.

Ily 😊

#asks

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