#idk what i was trying to go for with this but im kinda happy with the result

[dahldahlbills]

dude what if our tech deck riders held hands 😳

#sk8 the infinity #renga #sk8 the infinity fanart #kyan reki #hasegawa langa #reki kyan #langa hasegawa #dahls art #experimented with how I applied colors on this #Idk how apparent that is tho lol #I hate rendering with a passion so I’m trying to find ways to add some life to pieces without having to go All In #and I kinda tried that here #not entirely happy with what I did BUT I do like how this looks overall if that makes sense #this is also the first time after experimenting where I’ve felt optimistic #im actually excited about coloring again soon ??? bc I feel like im on the brink of something #even tho I didn’t really do anything special here to begin with #but yeah ​¯\_(ツ)_/¯ #ANYWAY I love reki and i love langa and i love renga #they are so dear to me :’) #pls click tumblr torpedoed the quality wah #also I think it’s extremely funny how langa’s looking at reki as if he can see through his hair ajfhjs

[florvralies]

they definitely watched mean girls and thought they were hot shit

#twisted wonderland #twst fanart #disney twst #ace trappola #deuce spade #idk what i was trying to go for with this but im kinda happy with the result #also sorry if my japanese is bad im still learning

[moeblob]

Deacon loves two things: Ymber and digging himself a grave.

Fulj hates one thing: Deacon.

#my characters #waiting on some info on the next commission so i indulged in ocs today bc i doubt i will have as much time for lil comics for a bit #deacon is so devoted hes like yeah i would kill for a deity that could easily kill anything himself but yknow teehee #and fulj just did you tell him you needed therapy also does he even know youd murder in his name #deacon caught red handed haha no of course i havent told him it should be obvious enough haha.... and its in his defense not his name :c #man really does have some issues but i love him so much and hes so devoted but like. unhealthily after a while #he does in fact need a chill pill and therapy but to be fair #ymber has needed therapy for centuries and yet he just bottles it all up and suffers so #its pretty unhealthy until they yell at each other one (1) time bc they are so insecure about things and get mad over very valid reasons #but then theyre like you know what that was necessary and i still want to stay by your side if you let me #and then fulj is like dude hey sorry you seem really happy did you fu- and ymber is like no please stop there we have not #fulj just squinting cause have not is very different than will not but whatever she doesnt wanna think about that with deacon involved ew #and eventually fulj is like hey ymber im sorry to say but i really do hate deacon and i dont even know why but he makes me uncomfortable #while deacon is just. in the room. hearing this and thinking how he knows she thinks hes weird but wow that wording hurts #and ymber doesnt wanna fill in memories better forgotten by fulj which she had forcefully removed #so he just says oh well his hair and clothing are black and you had someone in the past that you might see in him and its not a pleasant en #so you know maybe its that idk #and fulj is then WHATST i was rude to him for someone i cant even remember? lame im gonna try SO HARD to be nice to him now #and deacon just still sitting there with some food like this is v awkward and i wish i could not be here for it #and later he asks ymber about who he resembled and as ymber is descibing her it clicks in deacons head and he gets really sad #that he might somehow remind fulj of the woman she loved before she was punished for loving a mortal #and he feels kinda bad pestering her so much with his curiosities about deities and he kinda gets it #the fact hes close to ymber might remind her at the core that she was once that close with a mortal if not closer #anyway story time in the tags again #im so obsessed with these peeps and i have made them suffer so much but they do all end on a happy note #its still funny and nice to me that while fulj is creeped out by deacon and doesnt like talking to him #he still expresses the most emotions to her - he tries hard to remain serious around ymber and collected and obedient at all times #and when out and about with ymber he has to be intimidating and refuses smiling but fulj?? all sunshine and smiles and emotions easy to rea #and she is just that is so weird go away i hate you

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#hello to anyone who happens to b interested in the saga of my life... also maybe the irl person i gave my url to... hopefully my blog #didnt freak her out too much lol. anyway so its been a busy week? 2 weeks? month? year? life? its been a lot. my parents helped me move #across the country from the desert to somewhere that's beautiful and green. my dad is so jealous of me lol its so so so pretty and theres s #so much to do. will i do any of it? that remains to be seen but im gonna try to be better about that sort of thing. try to get some help #with the thoughts in my head that keep me from doing and enjoying most things. its weird like im decorating my new room which i love. the #location and living situation seem ideal and i really hope i can stay here all 5 years of my program but i was picking a lot of bright #colors and now it feel uncomfortable. like if i wear things that r too bright or my room is too bright without dark contrast it feel weird #like if im wearing it it kinda makes me feel sick. idk what thats abt. anyway. ill try to heal my brain and im just so happy to b out of the #southwest. i was so so so excited when we were leaving thr city and even more so when we left the state. i cant believe im here. in December #it felt like a million years away and i really truely could not fathom how i was gonna survive that long. my thoughts were so distorted. but #i did and here i am. and in like a month i should b starting my phd program and my parents were telling me how excited ppl r for me and #jealous of where im living and im glad. im glad they're excited. i think i am too but its under a layer of: if i get excited it wont happen #im not allowed to b excited or it wont happen. which is irrational but ya kno. anyway so that's yeah. im so happy to have a fresh start and #the town seems super cool. a liberal blip in a sea of... not that so theyre very visibly pride forward haha and i think itll b way easier #for me to get around without driving. and im gonna try to make friends. i need someone to tell me where to get tattoos haha. so yea im happy #but exhausted and i dont wanna go back to work and so so greatful to my parents for being wonderful ppl idk how bc both of them had fucked #up childhoods. like my mum will say the saddest shit and im like bro this is y i don't wanna talk to my grandma fuck her and my dads parents #r so fucked. like my nana is the reason im so fucking control freaked out but i kno i have issues and she has no insight and thinks shes #better than everyone. anyway hopefully i can get back to drawing a posting more now. ive been drawing it its been in a sketch book #like an actual sketch book for sketching big ideas thst r gonna take fucking forever to draw 😭 #so that's all. just uprooted my whole life. thats all. but in a good way :-] #unrelated

[im-still-a-robot]

M. It was impossible to make their name look good 😔

Notes:

- Main outfit based off the orginal skin for them (minus capelet). I might do a better design at a later point but I am out of outfit brain power atm

- They like nicer clothes (like sweaters and button ups) but are often annoyed by the lack of mobility

- Mask only comes off when alone or with people they trust. Their headscarf, on the other hand, is used to protect their hair, so they might take it off in public, but usually only briefly, to adjust it.

- The Moofia was important to them. Even after its effective dissolution, cows were very dear to them. Also cow axe :]

- Prone to annoyance and nervousness in equal measure. An asshole on bad days and tricky bastard on good ones.

Thats mostly it. I am going to be thinking about them for weeks to come <3

Diamond (the fox!) belongs to @twodragonsinatrenchcoat

I genuinely don't remember who the child was- feel free to tell me if you know :]

#crazy coconuts #my art #hbsmp #hbsmp!m #m #hb #unhappy with the composition but quite happy with how each drawing turned out #which is definitely the better of the two options #uhhhh. #yeah adding them to the list of characters that need a better outfit (calliope im sorry) #still. it fits them for now #also the delicate art of trying to make them compelling while also balancing hb (and not remembering half of it) #they are silly and animated. works good for the style and i like thinking of them as a bit of a trickster #i still want to draw them as a furry #uhh what else #idk honestly. in going through a bunch of recent stuff while making this i cannot believe how much of hb i missed #just in being so stuck in my head about everything. sorry guys. yall are all really cool #mostly ;) #but still. very happy to see a bit more love on hb. was always kinda sad to me that it got exploded immediately afterwards #i also really like how the main one came out. kinda want to post it by itself just because. again. hate the composition #idk idk. cheers. have fun. do whatever you want forever. i have tomatoes to go roast. o7

[codecicle]

worlds teeniest tiniest vent but i think all transphobic lawmakers should get their balls put in a panini press and get run over by cars so perfectly that their pussies get roadburn actually. they don't deserve happiness or respect and i hope they all die <3 <3 <3 <3

#i make yet anothet post just for me 👍 #if a future employer sees this: this is slash silly #slash joking if you will #anyway point is i am the worlds specialest little guy and i shouldnt have to decide what colleges im going to #based off how deadly the state is. #fuck that man. #i shouldnt have to deal with bullshit like this because i was born and had the audacity to try and be happy and comfortable in my own skin #anyway im fine i just had to get into a small argument with my mom by accident this morning and i hate fighting with her shes too kind she #doesnt deserve it #if the country could stop the genocide pretty soon thatd be kinda pogchamp or something. idk. #i am genuinely fine now btw dw 👍 we all good just felt like i needed to get this off my chest or something #^_^

[pepprs]

last few hours in boston :(

#purrs #conference tag #we literally just got here and now we have to go 😭💔 i havent rly felt as enriched by this conference as i have in the past (though there’s #still 2 more sessions to go to incl the closing plenary and we’re getting lunch in the station before the train ride home) but ive walked #around so much and have spent time with people i love and some people i miss. and have been on adventures i have been looking forward to for #a rly long time though i am kinda bummed i never made it down to fanueil square. but… idk what happiness feels like anymore but maybe for me #it’s just absence of misery and despair. or contented ness. i have gotten a little triggered from time to time these last few days and ive b #been lonely in my hotel room but MAN it has been nice to not be miserable and suffering and to take walks and to not go to every session (ev #even though i do feel bad abt it like i missed 2 plenaries and an afternoon concurrent session which is more than i usually miss) and to #be in this city which feels so much like brighton and so uncity like in some ways. it’s so charming and omg i went to harvard and it was #NOTHING like what i imagined it to be / feel like.. just a quaint artsy quirky town. and the rest of the places ive been have been like that #too. and people LIVE here every day!!!!! there’s a big beautiful world here both above ground and below!!!! and im gonna be late to #breakfast but… i just feel nourished and healed in a way i wasn’t expecting to. I haven’t been this far away from home in 3+ years and #it’s just been really nice being somewhere else and going on adventures and seeing things surviving. i miss my grandparents a lot and im sad #to not be visiting them and to be unable to visit them now lol but it’s just rly nice and special being here. im goingto miss it so much and #im trying to savor every second. i wish we had one more day here and im a little sad to be going home lol #* what i meant when talking about happiness earlier is that i think… i have been happy these last few days. for the first time in a really #really long one. and that’s nice. it’s good to be happy again. and good to be here

[sanchoyo]

guess who got a JOB 👈👈😎

#idk how itll actually be but it sounds good in theory!!! #they can do my hours + benefits!!! on part time!!! (GOOD benefits too!!!) PLS LET IT WORK OUT....PRAYER CIRCLE #i dont start until MAYBE next week (or later depending on the speed of the background check/drug test stuff) BUT....it SOUNDS good to me #ill be workin Alone for the most part...just Vibin in my Own Area...free food/drinks too!! #i rly would like for it to work . bc this was GREAT TIMING i lose my dads insurance v v soon like 1 month T_T was starting to sweat over it #AND ITS NOT FAST FOOD OR RETAIL (HUGE W IF I HAD TO GO BACK I WOULD START BAWLING) #+ the boss seemed v nice and chill (and had sick tats) (I DONT HAVE TO DYE MY HAIR A NORMIE COLOR EITHER!!! DOUBLE W) #sanchoyorambles #very very happy. and so nervous i will probably puke #there were no interview questions btw it was just us cracking jokes + paperwork i got hired on the spot B) #i mean /i/ had questions but like none of the usual bs like #'where do u see urself in 5 years. why is this ur ideal job' type shit which was GREAT bc i hate those qs SO MUCH #we all know im here for money. and benefits. we do not need 2 play these games #but actually dishwasher or janitor kinda IS my ideal job?? so??? lol actually #i LIKE chill jobs where im cleaning things im GOOD at it when i had a higher pressure job where my work actually like #could influence HOW WELL AMBULANCES WORKED. IF I MISREAD A BLUEPRINT OR DIDNT DO MINOR THINGS RIGHT. THATWAS SCARY AND TOO MUCH PRESSURE #i mean my real dream job is artist/writer/otherwise creative in nature but. yknow! not realistic rn so....we r doing what we gotta 😤 #i...will try very hard this time #i NEED that debt to be paid off fr

[bingotime]

#doodling hassan cuz that usually cheers me up #kinda heelpin a little kind of. #also trying to visualize shit in my head its the same thing i always telll myself and its kind of comforting but equally. man #this shit sucks #why couldnt i just be normal in the head. im tired of like. barely living ykwim #its easier to see myself as mental because i am mental and i am neurotic but #i just.......... dont want other people to think im mental even though thats clearly whats going on #im just sufferin for no reason and i need to make the steps to get better i guess #i had a therapist but it was for transitioning not for my depression or anxiety #it was just to prove i was trans #and im glad abt that but. that doesnt fix the underlying problem #i still have problems a lot of them #i hate that ive been like this since middle school #idk im rambling #gonna sleep soon anyway. itll help #im tired #i dont wanna do this anymore #i just wanna be happy and normal

[painfully-unoriginal]

#p #i have to try so hard not to get irritated when ppl ask me over and over again to draw the same thing #like. i feel so mean bc i kno u dont mean to be forceful or whatever. #but after a certain point its like #...... first of all unless i state otherwise i am not taking requests and i am going to draw what i want to at my own pace #and second of all u kno that thing where like #ur already doing something. and then someone tells u to do the thing ur already doing. and then u dont wanna do it anymore #yeah. lmao #and third of all ive already replied to these ppl. ive already given them an answer and yet they continue #either be patient with me or just move on? u asking me over and over isnt gonna make me draw what u want me to #and it certainly isnt gonna make me do it any faster than i already am?? #idk maybe I'm being unreasonable or whatever but it just kinda gets on my nerves #delete later #plus like i have said i have A JOB #a job with very long and demanding hours and as such i have limited time to draw which im absolutely not happy abt either #im doing things as fast as i can and its stressing me out bc i have so much i wanna draw and no time to do any of it #so please. please understand when i say i need to draw what i want at my own pace its for my own sake LMAO

[faggotician]

Feeling a little troubled ...... last night (a few hrs ago ig) my nana (whom i moved in wit bc the tenant she was renting the upstairs 2 died n i needed 2 get out of a shitty roommate situation so the stars aligned etc) mentioned in passing that she was in my apt while i was gone, she mentioned she was looking 4 something bt then changed it 2 checking 2 see if i caught the bus.....i told her basicly i loved her n ment no offense bt my privacy is rly important 2 me n so could she pls not go into my pad when im not there bc it gives me anxiety (which she has also so i was tryna rel8 a lil bit) n she just kinda shut down n started feeling bad abt herself n getting upset tht i thought she wld go thru my stuff . Idk i jus had 2 put this down sumwhere n i havent gotten a new journle yet sigh

#i mean she is. Very ancient bless her in evry way shes 81 so im sure shes just . kinda losin it 4 a lack of a better way 2 put it n . Aughgg #Life is very intimid8ng n i wanna take care of her bt shes so afraid of Everything ever n its stressing her out so much she cant sleep #So then shes coming up 2 my apt (btw i dont have a key 4 my inside door so i keep it unlocked) Late as Haell like 3 4 AM #Asking me 2 sit downstairs w her till she falls asleep . N i keep giving her advice on sleeping better like . #If u sit on the couch watching tv most of the day..when u go 2 bed n do the same thing u wont get tired frm it #Or rrlaxing yr body n focusing on yr breathing Dont put the tv on if yr brain is paying attn 2 wats goin on there #Then u cant focus on sleeping . #And i ask if she understands n if shes listening bt then Every Night doesnt change how her routine is n i just Dont .. I Want 2 Help So Bad #But what can i do when ur not even listening 2 the vry basic lifestyle cuanges u Need 2 make or yr gna worry yrself sick :(((( #I dnt think impatronizing i try 2 be gentle n understanding but also like . Semi profesh like Boundaries need 2 b had if im here longterm #Bt she doesnt rlly get that bc shes Very insecure sbt herself i think she just ... Internalizes it into like #Thinking shes burdoning me or makes me feel rlly gulty 4 needing alone time i just . Idk how 2 have this talk w her cuz i feel like #I alrdy have a million times . God i do love her so so much n im scared 4 this future i just want her 2 b happy bbut #im still tryna figure out how 2 even Talk 2 Anybody let alone a very sensitive farm raised senior #Damn this is a vent post and a half #999

[opens-up-4-nobody]

Being high energy while sick feels insane. Like my brain is telling me I should lay down and rest but is also telling me I should run around in circles and break things.

#i think im getting better tho. i mean i still can feel my warped sickyness but idk my hormones maybe have me all fucked up #but like i told my mum i get these insane little hypomanic-esque episodes and she was immediately like could b ur hormones #i know a number of ppl like that. and i was like YES. thats obviously what it is but nothing comes up when i try to google things abt it #so there must b others out there. and it also implies that theres sometimes fucked up about my serotonin receptors bc when im like kinda #positively disregard i feel happy and i never feel happy. my typical emotional state is indifferent and apathetic #and then dips into light misery and very miserable but not like clinically depressed. but i was even like that while on vacation so even #removed from the stresses in my life i still am not happy. which is y its so hard when ppl r like do what makes up happy. relax #and im like. ok but like nothing works??? its either fucked up hormones or my lantent anxiety just keeps me from being happy #but whatever. im gathering so much data. when i go see a doctor im gonna pull out a spreadsheet and graphs and notes like a lunatic #bwahhh i wanna run. i have too much energy. fuck being sick. fuck having to work on a day off. fuck this #also fuck my menstrual cycle for being so short. like so short its sometimes not listed with the healthy range but only sometimes #just to make me think. i should probably talk to a doctor but. like its probably fine. its consistent so its fine #annoying. annoying. got u can tell when out of wack bc i post too much and cant shut thr fuck up lol #unrelated

[boombams]

eugh........ i forgowr how to draur

#ignore the tags #so frustrating havent drawn in months #those moods when u come back feom a depressive episode and u feel okayer. but now you cant do anything that used to make u happy #u know. #hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh #and ive been trying really hard to stay hyperfixated on bnha because im scared of going into other fandoms #but i got into trigun and orv and other things and now i dont feel as attached to bnha as i once was. it feels like i lost something #ofc i still love everything but not like i used to. like i can draw. but not as good as i used to #im kinda sad about that.. #like. i dont like the idea of changing to the point where idk what im doing #but it feels like im already doing that #everythings going at full speed and i cant catch up.. #it feels like the only thing i can do is read and stare at a empty screen and idk. do nothing #hhhh this got lengthy #vent #personal #delete later #hae shitposts

[shrimpsodas]

tbh i keep forgetting that sonic frontiers even exists

#it was like. not memorable to me honestly #im not saying it’s bad btw. it’s definitely a million times better than any of the 2010s games. but it’s not one of my favorites #i MIGHT just think this because i havent actually gotten to play it myself yet. so my opinion is not based on the full experience or whatevr #maybe my opinion will change if i ever get around to buying it and playing it. #but like my current opinions on it.. idk it was good it was ok. #i liked what they did with amy and knuckles and tails #good arcs. especially tails. i’d be lying if i said that shit didnt get me rly emotional. i may or may not have almost cried. #but i kinda do not care about anything else. #it felt like big things were supposed to be happening but honestly it was very underwhelming. #also i gotta say. the animation is comparable to that of sonic 06. (not good) #but i guess a sonic game isnt really a sonic game if the animation isnt bad #anyway that’s all. those are all my thoughts on sonic frontiers. #im glad theyre going in a new direction with sonic tho. im happy that theyre trying new things and the game is successful

[jackalopefreckles]

SURGEON SAID I COULD TAKE OFF THE MEDICAL BINDER IT FEELS WEIRRD ITS SO WEIRD IM LAYING IN BED AND LIKE what the fuck what the fuck I can feel my whole fucking??? Just me what the fuck whatr eufkc wbat3 the fuck

#this is amazing and kinda overwhelming and idk Im gonna try and sleep without it but Im also able to?? breath with my whole chest AND?? #i dont feel those fucking triple ds this whole time part of me was feea #freaking just the fuck out #i kinda am now Just its so nice #but like kinda sad because it feels a bit too much like being the only one at the hormone clinic by themselves #like youre happy and its great but even the doctor is going to ask questions about why youre alone #especially on your first appointment and idk its not a lie to say that they were just busy #its also not a lie to say no one knows #lots of people know about this thing though and Im less alone I guess but idk #still weird?? #to be laying in bed like oh fuCK someone could touch my bare chest and it wouldn't make me wanna mckill myself lmao #oH FUCK. I JUST TOUCHED KT WHAT RHE FUFK WHAT THE FUCK #FUCK I SHOULDVE DONE THIS EARLIER EVERYONE I KNOW IS ASLEEP FUCK FUCK #ugh hate being alone :/ but not enough to give my time to this one dude who wont fucking stop texting me LMAO #hes a fucking creep tho smh like pls stop calling me cute first off I know second youre probably at least twice my age and no offense but #no #nope #just all the bad vibes and I know I have anxiety but esp the continued texting after Ive.... straight up ghosted for AWHILE now #yeah nope #ANYWAY BACK TO HOW HOT AND SEXY I AM AHHHH #someone come spoon me

[chisatowo]

Man I've been dead as fuck on here I miss posting stuff but idk what to post abt :/

#rat rambles #Ive mostly been thinking abd wc rp stuff and a lil bit of sploon and bndori but not enough that I feel motivayes to talk abt it #idk I might try doing an oc art ask game tomorrow maybe. like yall can give me two characters and Ill draw a scene between them #honestly if you wanna lock and load a pair ahead of time feel free to send it just know I might not get to it in a bit #I do have owed art Im working on still but Ive drawn more art than I have due total in one day before so Ill be fine #Im getting to draw monkeys for the first time so thats exciting!! Ive been wanting to for a while but havent had a good excuse to so Im #having fun with it :] #Im happy abt how flexible my artstyle is now if you asked me to draw a monkey like a year ago Id probably die djskhdjd #also Im soooo much better at poses now which also makes me rly happy #idk I just feel like my art is in a good place rn :] #I still have things I wanna improve on (mainly perspective) but all in all I think Ive made HUGE progress over the past year #I will say though I still feel like a lot of my stuff from abt a year ago still holds up (not all of it tho lol) #like in abt 2 months my beats animation will be a year old and thats fucking wild to me #but I will say I think in general my art is on average better quality noe #plus I will say the background in that animation was kinda shit Ive definitely improved on that frong djskysjs #I still have way more to go until Ill be happy with my ptoper backgrounds though #Im not bad at them per say but I dont rly know what Im doing with them either #I wanna be able to more easily get across the images I have in my head for backgrounds #Ill get there eventually tho #for now Im ok with where Im at Im sure Ill improve more as I draw as is always the case djsjhsks