#idk what i can do

[crj-200]

dont tell your parents you want to move out and be independent because then they'll say shit like "but you're always going to have a roommate so why bother trying to live on your own" and "im sorry you hate us so much that you want to move out" and "you could just be independent living here if youd do what we tell you to do" and imply that anyone that agrees with me is an idiot who just hates them for no reason. the cool thing is theyll say this and then go watch their stupid comedy right after like nothing happened

#i dont think i can afford the apartment im applying for. #my credit card minimum payment jumped way up #i have my car payment and student loan and i have to afford food and medications and i just cant do it #idk what i can do #i need out i cant live hwre any more i know i cant #i dont know where else to say this stuff #i dont want to worry people irl i guess #credit cards are so fucking evil i wish i understood what debt would actually be #im gonna make it out alive anyways #sorry this isnt my usual type of post i need to document this kind of stuff in some way

[xamaxenta]

Stresses me out alot that i cant physically bind anymore idk what happened in the last few years but any kind of compression hurts and it sucks it was the only thing i could do now i cant even do that

#so i think abt my faves with huge honkers to make myself feel better #it doesnt work really but i guess the fictional solidarity as a concept helps #dysphoria #another day of absolutely hating my body and the government and yknow just being poor in general #idk what i can do #nothing ??? nothing hurts so much tho #i yearn for absolutely fucking nothing i just want to be blank straight edges no discernible gender features #looking at my body makes #me want to throw up die bury the parts i dont like #structurally its all wrong but im already biologically an adult the fuck can i do about it now #being trans is an absolute nightmare for me i hate every second of it honestly because i have nothing #i can do to help it or fix it or progress it #im angry and upset to say its dangerous for me to do anything about it. #and that im not brave enough to go fuck it. im envious of the people who love themselves enough to say fuck it we ball we do this our way #because i love myself and im doing it to be my authentic self #i envy those people a lot #wish that could be me. #but. also wish i could be algae or smth lol #same shit same woes #same as always and no money to afford professional help

[confinesofmy]

my life is such a mindfuck rn because i'm running around giving constructive advice, helping solve major problems, and generally being the first to chime in with an optimistic comment but also. i am in the deepest darkest pit i have ever even heard of and if you ask me direct questions about what i'm looking forward to or my plans for the next year or anything like that it becomes immediately clear that i can't see a future beyond this week. it's not that i don't think i have a future. i don't know why i wouldn't have one. but i refuse to plan for it on an emotional level. i'm not getting invested, you can't fucking trick me. i don't even care if the things i am actually planning for happen, like i'll get ready, sure, but i don't give a shit either way. i'm functioning on such a high level but i'm totally dead inside. :(

#the major problem here is that i'm indicating an overall sense of hopefulness #yet people around me are frequently bumping into my deep sense of despair #and it's scaring the shit out of them #i'm like a gilded staircase with one step that's rotted in but you can't tell which one because of the absolutely gorgeous carpet runner #so you're just walking up and suddenly you fall right fucking through and now you're trapped in the damned thing #idk what i can do #at least i'm functioning? god it feels awful i feel like i'm sick all the time #i don't even feel like a person #i don't feel like i'm running on autopilot anymore i feel like there's nothing left but the autopilot #all this while making major decisions that will affect my life for decades to come ahaha ha 🙃 #adams year from hell

[bucketofchum]

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#vent stuff #i might be out of a job by the end of the year #ugh #basically my supervisor is really abusive and I am trying to change supervisors but if I do then i have no funding #so if the other guy I want to work with can scrounge up some funding then all is good #but if not then im out of a contract and im jobless #ugh man idk what to do #idk what i can do #start looking for new jobs I guess

[tides-and-moon]

listen hes one of the rat grinders today but tomorrow he could be adaines cool dragon boyfriend. we can make it happen. in this essay i will

#with my wizard powers and my absolutely fucked van i speak it into existence #adaine abernant #adaine o'shaughnessey #oisin hakinvar #what is their ship name. do they have one yet #fantasy high junior year #fhjy spoilers #fantasy high spoilers #fantasy high fanart #d20 fantasy high #d20 fhjy #fhjy #dimension 20 #idk how to draw dragons btw idk if you can tell

[glassphinix]

dont ask how or why snapchat would exist in hyrule

bonus:

#loz #tloz #totk #legend of zelda #the legend of zelda #tears of the kingdom #loz link #totk link #totk light dragon #zelink #totk zelink #totk spoilers #idk how many other artists have decided link should have fucked up teeth due to eating rocks and other weird shit #however! i think he should have crooked teeth and he is my scrungly i can do what i want 2 his design #in one of these drawings i traced the light dragon from a screencap cause im not confident in my ability to draw anything tht isnt humanoid #youll never guess which drawing it was(hint its the one with visibly more effort put into it including any semblance of a background) #art #my art #internal monologue

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

a couple scribbles i cleaned up. also i think i like drawing him in varying states of distress

#i desperately want to know what happened the first time he cried #actually is that something he can do? is he capable of it? #i feel like he wouldn't like it... #since crying is messy and we all know he enjoys/values his appearance greatly #i mean cmon. its an involuntary loss of composure. and especially if he doesnt understand what/why its happening #so in my mind rn hed be idk... kinda desperate to stop crying & act fine? #HES SO FASCINATING. WHAT IS WRONG WITH HIM <3 #many things probably! #what to do when you're a puppet created as a blank slate while everyone around you already Knows Shit and Understands Feelings #scribble salad #welcome home #welcome home puppet show #welcome home fanart #welcome home wally #wally darling #i know there's a lot of Head Empty jokes abt him #but honestly he gives the vibes of thinking constantly #always absorbing information and considering and learning and Forming Opinions #he LOOKS head empty. but he isnt. #i just cant imagine him never not Thinking #unless he really is head empty in which case. good for him. i support him no matter what. hes just like me<3

[vegancas]

listing my skills is so hard bcos i do not remember anything

#idk what i can do #everything? nothing?? #why does this have to be part of my assessed work 😩😩😩 #letting my group down as much as my memory let's me down 🙃🙃 #like i could list a million things but i won't remember how to do them until i'm actually trying to do them #i'm frustrated and tired and want to go to bed but if i don't do this now i'm probs not gonna feel any better about it tomorrow after work #and it's due tuesday and this is my last day off before then 😞😞

[yaolmao]

simp

#I HATE COLORING I CANT DO THIS ANYMORE #my friends bought me an Apple Pencil and omgggg I’ve never had pressure before in my life #this changes everything #I can actually put my hand down on my iPad to doodle?? #I’ve gotten so used to hovering my hand like what is going on #anyways 15!chuuya is actually amazing #I’ve made a recent discovery that I’m a lot similar to Dazai than I thought and idk how I feel about that cause he’s such a brat #ive gotten to the point that I’d actually talk to him on those character ai’s and it’s actually so embarrassing like it’s nothing #like the actual bsd dazai but I’d actually rather talk to a robot than a real person about my problems #I like kids being kids so I’m always down to draw 15!skk #chuuya nakahara #dazai Osamu #bsd #bungou stray dogs #skk #soukoku #myart #I’m gonna post and pass out now

[rassebers]

Yeah yeaaah yeah yeah

#mp100 #my rart #mob psycho 100 #SOMETHING must've been in the water when I made this because what the fuck #still amazed it ever got done #loved putting details into this animation and doing shit that only makes sense when it's explicitly explained #and I love mob psycho idk if you can tell #if I regret anything abt this it would be animating at 9fps #don't do that it's so fucking difficult. do at least 12 please #reigen arataka #shigeo kageyama #teruki hanazawa #tsubomi takane #serizawa katsuya #tome kurata #animation #mp100 dimple #ritsu kageyama #suzuki shou

[twinstxrs]

so much happened in this whole episode but i’m still on fig infiltrating ruben’s dream, making it look like the place where his friend was murdered, and then disguising herself as kipperlilly & repeatedly saying different variants of “somebody needs to take the fall for this, and it’s not going to be me. it’s going to be you.” while adaine as the elven oracle shows up next to her. can you imagine waking up from that, the idea of a horrible truth being pinned on you by your friend to save her own skin while the personification of fate and destiny stands there, almost as a promise that this is GOING to happen to you. we don’t even know if this kid is guilty. my god.

#fantasy high #dimension 20 #fhjy #fhjy spoilers #fantasy high junior year #fig faeth #ruben hopclap #lucy frostblade #the rat grinders #adaine abernant #kipperlilly copperkettle #watching fig terrorize him like girl!!! we don’t even know if he’s guilty!!!! #this might just be for me but i do not think 5 teenagers willingly brutally killed their friend idk #like there just has to be some other element to it and i am very scared to find out what that was #what if they were put in a position where they felt there was/there was no other choice… like oh my god #my comedy brain is having fun but my ‘this is a teenager’ brain is in such deep distress all the time this season #the rat grinders i trust brennan to not make u cartoonishly evil so i am holding u as gently as i can in my confused shaky hands #also with the devil’s nectar i’ve been wondering why they all seem so well-adjusted & now i’m curious if they’ve been intentionally- #changing their memories in a way so that either the trauma is lesser or they think they aren’t guilty. idk #but it seems like from how gertie was talking she was making it more recently so the well adjustedness from early jy doesn’t quite add up #they could have another source maybe??? idk i’m just low stakes 4 a.m. spitballing here #there’s also the strong possibility that they’re aware of what happened but they weren’t the ones who killed lucy. idk who knows #the way you could probably devil’s nectar yourself into believing it wasn’t your fault someone died… CRAZY IMPLICATIONS!!! CRAZY IDEA!!! #anyways the bad kids & the rat grinders don’t ever have to like each other but i do wonder if at least some of those kids deserve a chance

[turtleblogatlast]

AU where Leo is trapped in the Prison Dimension for months instead of minutes and the only way he gets by with his sanity intact is through recording himself talking to his wrist comm.

When they finally manage to get Leo back and make him rest up to heal, Donnie can’t help but listen to the recordings left behind.

He’s not sure what exactly he’s expecting, only that his subconscious is screaming at him that it has to be heartbreaking, that it has to be torturous.

Instead, what Donnie is subject to is a full thousand hours’ worth of Jupiter Jim and Lou Jitsu crossover fanfiction. More than one part in the series. Spanning well over a million words.

(The worst part is that it’s actually good.)

#rottmnt #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #rottmnt headcanons #donnie keeps the comms going on in the background as he works #when he gets to the end he’s like what the hell…where’s the rest #donnie: leo where’s part nine #leo barely cognizant after not needing sleep for months: whuh- #donnie: you can’t leave it at a cliffhanger. leo. leo where’s the next part. #listen leo has a great memory for his special interests this is CANON plus he’s a great talker so he would totally be able to do this frfr #whenever he needs to be quiet he’s SILENT but otherwise he’s regaling the exploits of his idols to the captive audience that is The Photo #sometimes Krang sneaks up on him and just listens to him talk like ???? #it starts both as leo trying to comfort himself with his favorite things PLUS comfort himself with thoughts of his father #as splinter makes his own crossover fanfiction when sick lol plus he’s Literally Lou Jitsu #and yes krang ALSO gets a bit invested #leo notices the reduction of Ouch but hey more time for rambling fanfic for him 👍 #idk leo’s a damn good actor/liar/planner/schemer and I genuinely think that can pivot into storytelling so well #the literal second mikey’s hands heal donnie zooms to his side with hand stabilizers and a request to draw ‘scene 82 from recording 3’ #mikey’s like what #so obvs now HE needs to listen as he works #he too gets invested #he comes across raph who mentions having trouble sleeping #mikey: have I got the podcast fanfic for you! #it only somewhat helps raph sleep #somewhat bc sometimes he forces himself to stay awake to hear the rest #yes these recordings go to the whole fam and leo is none the wiser #they don’t even mean to hide it it just never comes up lol #it’s only when donnie FINALLY makes it to the end of the recordings that he confronts leo to continue the story #leo: oH YOU HEARD ALL THAT HUH-

[faygos]

ding-a-ling

#jade harley #karkat vantas #dave strider #homestuck #whomstve #classic homestuck #idk what karkat was whispering about you can decide #probably his troll bits #i need to do my taxes

[dcxdpdabbles]

Danny: Hi, would you like to buy some cookies to support my education at Gotham Academy?

Bruce: Yes of course! How much are they?

Danny: ten bucks a box!

Bruce: Put me down for 50 boxes.

Danny: Really!?

Bruce: I have plenty of mouths to feed, trust me. By the way, chum, how did you get past the gate security?

Danny: eh, it wasn't too hard. Honestly sir, it felt like it was more design to keep people in then keep people out.

Damian from the second floor: I WILL NOT BE CONTAINED!

Bruce nods, ignoring Damian: Thank you for the feedback, my boy. I'll have it updated, but please feel free to come by anytime. I love cookies!

Bruce in the Batcave after Danny leaves: How did an uncoordinated nerd get past my systems!?

Tim: I don't know, but I've seen him around school. Get this, he's an engineering prodigy, but his family makes too much to qualify for a scholarship. They also don't make enough to afford his schooling, so he does odd jobs for cash. He creates gadgets for our classmates. That's a rouge in the making if I ever have seen one.

#dcxdpdabbles #dc x dp crossover #From a fic I never wrote #Danny is in that weird middle but almost lower class where there is no support #So he doing what he can to pay his education #Meanwhile the bats are suspcious #IDK why Danny is in Gotham #He just a little guy getting by #Bruce was screaming on the inside while being Brucie

[willowser]

i think katsuki just answers his phone by barking out, "bakugou." no hello, probably doesn't even look at the caller id LOL when he hears it's you, though, i think he breathes out the tension he didn't realize was coiled in his shoulders, and says a lil, "hey," 🥺🥺

and i think when he calls you, and you answer with your sweet, "helloooo ??" he is so soft 😌 just mumbles out a quiet, "what'chu doin'?" and listens as you tell him, before saying what he needed to 😌

#okay one bkg thought and then i am going to bed hehe #i need him terribly i fear 😔 #pls just the idea of him huddling in a corner so no one can hear him 🥺 as he speaks softly to you 🥺 #and even if he calls to tell you something—he always asks what you're doing 🥺 #and listens 🥺 and engages 🥺 #i also dont think he says goodbye LOL #he just says 'alright' and hangs up LOL #or he says 'alright love you' hang up #why does this make me so insane for him idk idk #✿ thoughts: bakugou #✿ theme: domestic bakugou

[ironunderstands]

The way some of yall mischaracterize Ratio as being stoic in chill when in reality he is 24/7 resisting the urge to rip everyone around him a new one is crazy to me like. He cares so much, so much. It’s unhealthy, he loses the idgaf war every time because Ratio is the least nonchalant person ever like

He was this close to breaking character and throttling Sunday like you cannot tell me he wasn’t planning a murder in this scene. Ratio straight up calls Sunday a crazy bitch but everyone brushed it aside 😭

Honestly his entire conversation with Screwllum is just him tweaking, watch it on YouTube the VAs performance is amazing, you can here just how much He Cares

Genuinely, Aventurine is way better at concealing his true feelings that Ratio. Ratio may be acting for the sake of the plan but the way he truly feels about anything he’s doing always seeps through, it’s why he apologizes to Aventurine in 2.0 in their staged argument scene. It’s why he is as mean to Sunday as he can be. It’s why him pretending that he “hates” Aventurine makes him act so silly. Ratio can’t fully commit to the bit, he can’t force himself to not care or to be someone he isn’t, because fundamentally Ratio CARES and that is something he is incapable of hiding, alabaster bust or not.

The problem is that him expressing his care is often done in a rude and/or blunt manner which people tend to interpret as stoicism or apathy when it’s anything but. Ratio’s vial that he gives to Aventurine is short, sweet and gets straight to the point, because that’s the easiest way for Ratio to express his emotions, even if it’s often detrimental for him and anyone else around him. However Aventurine understands him quite well, and knows that although brief, Ratio telling him to “stay alive, survive this and keep on living” is how he truly feels towards Aventurine, and that’s enough to keep him going.

Underneath Ratios carefully crafted marble facade is a man who cares so much and is so bad at expressing it and I wish the community in general, especially Aventio shippers would acknowledge that more. Ratios true moments of sincerity are brief, but they are anything but stoic. Let the man be soft, it’s in character.

#This turned into a mini essay whoops #I hold Ratios party voiceline for Aven so close to my heart #Not the EN one idk what the translators were on but CN is UGHH it’s so good #Someone else can point out the potentially ableist undertones to how people view Ratio #I’m not gonna do that again because the last time was a disaster #“He’s selfish and cruel and narcissistic” *concerned glance* #Like I know some of it is just hoyo players having the media literacy of rocks #But like theres something wrong there just is it sits so wrong with me #Begging yall to write him correctly in fan content PLEASSEEE #dr ratio #aventurine #aventio #Not necessarily a ship post though