#im gonna make it out alive anyways

[crj-200]

dont tell your parents you want to move out and be independent because then they'll say shit like "but you're always going to have a roommate so why bother trying to live on your own" and "im sorry you hate us so much that you want to move out" and "you could just be independent living here if youd do what we tell you to do" and imply that anyone that agrees with me is an idiot who just hates them for no reason. the cool thing is theyll say this and then go watch their stupid comedy right after like nothing happened

#i dont think i can afford the apartment im applying for. #my credit card minimum payment jumped way up #i have my car payment and student loan and i have to afford food and medications and i just cant do it #idk what i can do #i need out i cant live hwre any more i know i cant #i dont know where else to say this stuff #i dont want to worry people irl i guess #credit cards are so fucking evil i wish i understood what debt would actually be #im gonna make it out alive anyways #sorry this isnt my usual type of post i need to document this kind of stuff in some way

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

thinking about Eddie & hyacinths again

#as you can surmise im Perfectly Normal about it #this man doesnt make me insane at all. nope. #trying out some new coloring and texture and background things... #on a side note. and i say this so lovingly bc theyre my favorite flowers #FUCK DRAWING HYACINTHS ALL MY HOMIES HATE DRAWING HYACINTHS #that was hell on earth. #ANYWAY THIS DUDE IS NEAT I HOPE HE DIES #nah im jesting im Jesting. am i tho #dead or alive i want him to experience unimaginable horrors and then die ten times and come back Normal #bc eddie strikes me as a 'dying would fix them' character #whether its a real death or a perceived death or Youve Been Dead The Whole Time death dont care dont care #i need him dead on the ground for at leeeaaaast five minutes #id be frothing at the fucking mouth. ragh #scribble garnish #welcome home #welcome home puppet show #eddie dear #originally this was gonna be a Very bloody little piece #but then my brain went 'hey. symbolism. what if the blood was flower petals. from hyacinths' #and ohhhh i couldnt pass that up #i wish i did! i would have had a lot more fun drawing a gruesome injury rather than Those Damn Flowers! #i dont know why ive latched onto the hyacinths outside the post office but my brain wont let go #ITS JUST SO SPECIFIC. why why whyyyyyy put that specific flower by this specific guy #especially flowers with Those Meanings and That Myth #*violently shaking the site* WHAT DO YOU MEANNNNNN #ok im getting myself too worked up i need to touch grass or poke the fire

[sharkdays]

"That despite having experienced inhuman suffering, she has nonetheless been able to gain the strength to face life."

#collei #genshin impact #gi #erm. hi #something not pokemon related for once? shocker i know #anywas this was a collei piece i did a while ago that i never finished #been having Emotions abt her recently and i wanted to share even if it's a little messy... #anyways. she makes me insane. #also yes the flowers have meanings it was Intentional. however my drawing skills for nature and memory are both not all there so. #take it as you will #anyways collei i love you girl... #shes a physical manifestation of death and rebirth she's resurrection do YOU SEE MY VISION #also i miss you short haired collei but her hairstyle rn is cute too... #my collei design in my head has changed so much lmao. i tried making her a little more matching to how she is in my head now #thinking abt her growth and learning as a form of defiance. reclaiming her life.... #she refused to die!!!!! and now she's hurting but alive!!! im gonna pass out dont look at me. #i am not nearly as good as putting my thoughts into words as some other collei enthusiasts so Just Trust Me #shark's scribbles

[mamawasatesttube]

also like this coming explicitly after smot ("kon discovers he's being selfish and immature and needs to grow up!") and directly refering smot and then going "kon is being selfish and immature and needs to grow up" is so fucking stupid. like. oh my god. i know yall at dc aren't literate given that you can neither read nor fucking write, and don't know what to do with most characters in general bc none of you passed like 5th grade english i guess, but jesus fucking CHRIST. come up with a new narrative idea for him. this one has been done at LEAST 50 times by now like "kon needs to grow up" as a plotline happened PLENTY in sb94 itself (not that yall can read, i understand, but still). christ on a goddamn bike.

#rimi talks #not even gonna get into how Fucking Stupid forcing him to be in high school here is #but im SO angry about her inserting this plotline that he RESENTS clark now #seethes. steams. fumes. #anyway. going to go make a cup of tea and try to forget about this horseshit comic asap <3 #literally i want dc to just kill him off at this point. it would be so preferable to this #kill him. put him out of his misery. christ alive

[arthurily]

Ok but have u ever had a ship that u dont exactly hate but it frustrates you to the core

#my right to rant on my blog🥰🙏 #it’s horrible that the ship makes a lot of sense and everyone seems to like it #and im like no fucking way you actually fuck with this #obviously im never gonna harass the shippers or hate on them i just needed to let it out. #but i just wanna say let men be gay and women be LESBIANS #its ok. #its ok for men to be GAY and not be into women at fucking all #so im surprised when my people ship this thing😭😭😭😭😭😭 #holy shit genuinely let queers be queer. this type of fucking ship is the straightest shit alive #anyway😍

[yuridovewing]

avos onestar and rowanstar parallel about how they’re both on shaky ground as leaders, they’re aware their clanmates don’t respect them as such and have actually left them to the wolves in one way or another, but the two are bitter enemies and this similarity between them is actually their downfall as both of their kingdoms crumble under darktail’s seige…

#so something im heavily considering for razorverse is axing the thunderclan pov entirely and making avos windclan/shadowclan centric #so one of the povs is windclan and twigkit goes there instead of thunderclan #this is bc thunder is pretty neutral and windclan would be an interesting clan to follow #darktail isnt onestars son here but i can still have him break down. like his clan had the most dark forest trainees #he still has a lot of detractors who participated in a coup against him that are alive and well #and on top of that firestar is dead. he dies earlier here but maybe he saw his ghost in the battle #and theres no closure with them. they died as enemies. fuck man/ #razorverse #anyways tho this isnt set cause im still trying to figure out the windclan pov #as much as i dont like alderpaw im hesitant to replace him too quickly because i want a peer for needlepaw #and ohhhhh baby i know those heatherbreeze babies dont exist here yet. theyre gonna WAIT #tbh id leap to make it either heathertail (bias but also makes sense) or larkwing (df trainee and sedgewhiskers daughter) #bc they work but also they are older #i couldddddd just have it be twig and violet as our two povs but idk

[bumpscosity]

star tours update officially adding peridia ahsoka cassian and mando + grogu. if you even care.

#they only mentioned these 4 things which is making me 🤨 #like i hope this isn't it i want and ezra transmission i want more planets come onnnnn #i want a new opener with the emperor or thrawn or elsbeth pleeeeease #sassy speaks #dl #sw #idk why i didn't think abt cassian that rocks im rly happy he's gonna be in it #trying to figure out where they're gonna put him tho bc like. he was very much Not Alive during the og trilogy like that's the whole point #but you can't put him in the prequel trilogy obv like timeline wise where is he going #then again star tours doesn't adhere to timelines as much as other star wars stuff bc she's a bad bitch and get to do what she wants #but with disney getting stricter and stricter with non canon content by the day ig i figured they wouldn't let star tours break it #more than it already has #anyways i have to dig up my predictions list #bc i'm still holding out hope that there's more they aren't telling us abt

[stormyoceans]

I see dark tones, dark clothes, closed curtains. I see drama here. can we imagine that this will be a reverse concept, and the more Day loses his sight and gets closer to Mork, the more light tones will appear in their lives? unearthly theories are our everything. Besides, I've already appreciated Sea's blank stare. Do you have any thoughts on this, Monica?

YOU’VE ALREADY PRETTY MUCH SAID EVERYTHING IM THINKING TBH

i wasn’t too certain about it yesterday since we only had those monitor pictures to base ourselves on, but after they dropped the official ones today I’D BE READY TO BET ALL THE MONEY IN MY BANK ACCOUNT THAT WE’RE GONNA HAVE A COMPLEMENTARY AND TRANSITIONAL COLOR SCHEMES IN THE SHOW AND IF THAT ACTUALLY HAPPENS IM AFRAID THERE’S NOT ENOUGH THERAPY IN THE WORLD THAT’S GONNA MAKE ME NORMAL AGAIN

just look at the difference between the colors of day’s room in the mock trailer and in the official picture we got today:

in the mock trailer day is surrounded by light since the very beginning: even if the vertical and horizontal lines given by the shutters create a sense of imprisonement, the yellows and oranges ultimately give a feeling of warmth and openness. next to that, the complete tonal shift in the official pic is striking: day’s world is now full of blues and darkness, creating a sense of coldness and isolation. i know a lot of people are already missing the original color palette, but colors tell a story, they can set the tone of a scene, represent the characters’ emotions and show changes in the narrative. it’s also interesting to notice that, while the hue is primary blue now, the yellows and oranges aren’t completely gone, but they’re very desaturated

orange and blue are actually complementary colors: they’re on the opposite sides of the color wheel and this is often used to show internal or external conflict. in this case, orange is the world outside, bright and full of life that, however, is getting muted by the coldness of the blue, of a house that now really both looks and feels like a prison

this isn’t gonna last forever though. both mork and day start the show in a very bad place: albeit in different ways, they both have isolated themselves from the world and no longer have faith in the future. they are, however, very different people coming from different social classes, which is bound to create some initial conflict between them. we already know from the mock trailer that they won’t get along right away and the colors are now showing us that as well, but as they spend more time together, as they get closer, as both their relationship and themselves start to change, the more i believe the colors surrounding them will change as well: the blues and the grays are gonna give way to the oranges and the yellows, and they’re all gonna get brighter, more vibrant

in the end, like you said, day’s sight is gonna be swallowed by darkness, but day himself is gonna be surrounded by light and happiness and warmth  

#LOCKED MYSELF IN THE OFFICE BATHROOM TO WRITE THIS SO IDK WHAT IM SAYING BUT I HAD TO SAY IT #THEY'RE GONNA MAKE EACH OTHER'S WORLD BRIGHTER!!!!!!! #AS THEY GET CLOSER TO EACH OTHER THEIR LOOK IS GONNA GET SOFTER AND THE COLORS ARE GONNA GET LIGHTER!!!!!!!!!! #I KNOW IT DEEP INTO MY HEART OF HEARTS AND I FEEL SUICIDAL ABOUT IT #ANYWAY!!!!!!!!! #thank you so much for asking me this and allowing me to ramble about it!!!! #idk if any of this makes sense but you're SOOOO RIGHT we're soooo gonna get a transitional/reverse concept #I AIN'T GETTING OUT OF THIS SHOW ALIVE FRIEND #last twilight the series #morkday #m: ask #yellowaugustnights

[astro-inthestars]

Oh god here it is the day with the worst exams dear god wish me SO so luck oUGH Athena bless me . May the power of cute boys and gorgeous girls be enough to have saved me

#rennikorambles #....also wish me luck cuz my ass is gonna be cheatin a LIL bit- #I NEED TO MAKE IT OUT OF THIS ONE ALIVE OKAY #i made a promise to a certain student council president im doing this for her PLEASE ITS FOR THE PRETTY GIRLS- #im normal but anyways FKDHJFGSJD I LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH

[lipstickontheglass1985]

i wish my phone exploded forever honestly

#we are NOT making this out of this exam session alive 🤣👍 #you ever get this thing where the amount of things youre meant to do and how behind you are overwhelms you so much #that u end up doing nothing. experiencing this right now !!! #because its like hey im not gonna do all im supposed to anyway. and also it scares me so im putting off the confrontation for later #which means im holding off with starting anything. rinse repeat 👍👍👍 #thank god i fulfill the requirements to stay enrolled even if i fail now cause id also be shitting myself over getting kicked out otherwise #but also im starting to get second thoughts abt the course in general. which is great!!!!!!!!! nothing quite like mid course crisis tbh #thots

[rearranging-deck-chairs]

what do you think yaz stopped herself from saying in revolution when she goes "i never stopped to think-"?

bc i think yaz always knew that time with the doctor was like, finite. i think she went into it knowing. she goes into it with "i want more", she knows it will end, she just wants a little bit longer. same in revolution "im not ready to let you go yet". she knows she will have to one day, just not yet, not just yet. i think she felt the clock from the start as much as the doctor always must feel the clock with companions. you meet them and time starts ticking until you lose them. it's a doctor thing to feel, so i think yaz felt it too.

and she knew travelling was dangerous, and she knew people died, but i think maybe she hadnt anticipated that it might be the doctor that would be the one to die? theres something indestructible about them. i mean theyre bouncy. 13 throws herself between the fam and danger from the very first night as if she cant be injured. even when she sort of visibly is.

like theres a lot of things yaz might have been thinking and i dont know if this is the option that makes the most sense, like she might have thought they'd get to say goodbye at least, or she'd get the choice at least, a last trip, anything, that it wouldnt be so abrupt. but i feel like with how power of the doctor ended, with like 13 sort of having to submit to her mortality, and yaz first saving her from it and then having to watch as her body like shows the actual physical signs of what amounts to death in both of their eyes, AND maybe also the fact that 13 doesnt deny it most of all. like theres no pretending it's just you know what this means we both know what this means we stop pretending now, like. All Of That being how it ends. i feel like maybe yaz in revolution/timeless children just wasnt expecting it to be the doctor to die

#just One Guess i dont even think it's the right guess but whatever #im watching 1 scene in the middle of revolution i havent rewatched anything in forever im hardly gonna come up with smth insightful #im just making a video abt the suicidality parallels and how i think yaz wanted to save 13 in s12/revolution the same way that like #people sorta saved her #to come after her to prove that they were looking #bc im sure she sawherself in 13 during s12 #theres also a maybe interesting survivors guilt kinda angle here #survivors guilt is obvs the thing 13 shares with graham #parent stuff with ryan #suicidality/policing with yaz #idk just thinking out loud #i dont think yaz felt survivors guilt as much as failed savers guilt (doctor core) #but maybe there was a little bit of /IM still alive rn?? ME??/ #you know what i mean? #anyway. thinking out loud #revolutioni s making me remember all the thoughts ihave abt revolution so if im about to make a bunch of posts that #ive made before #whatever #tis my house

[etchedstars]

hi i just wanted to drop a ss of the comments i wrote on my notion page for captured ghosts because im about to reread and i think this fic deserves all the recognition in the world it slays so hard and you should know the absolute anxiety and simultaneous joy you caused me!!!

HI OH MY GOD ?!?!??!?!? thank you asufaudsf this is so so nice the joy THIS brought me?????????? immeasurable ty <3333

(ps theres a lot of thoughts in the tags w captured ghosts spoilers for those who may or may have not read my will byers gets haunted multichaptered fic!!)

#if youre thinking hmm i should read captured ghosts!! dont take it from me take it from tumblr user romainlettusdinnerparty :) #okokok so !!! authors thoughts #one of the biggest problems i have with media and especially in fics is when characters just have. the worlds most perfect inner dialogue #which clearly. bc they are fifteen years old. they will not be perfect they wont think coherent thoughts #human emotions are messy and indecipherable and ESP w the st characters someone who has gone thru as much as will has. hes gonna be angry ! #i do my best to walk the line between good writing and realistic writing LMAO so im glad that came across :))) #ok abt joyce. this was less of a 'i think this is how joyce would be' and rlly just me being annoyed w my own mother tbh #i also wasnt a huge fan of her when i first wrote cg bc i thought she was way too paranoid over will and not caring much abt jonathan #so that is why shes Like that. im gonna be real i dont think id change it if i rewrote but i also dont think i wrote her fairly #and finally !!! im very sorry i lied about the rewrite. its not gonna happen bc i am so so swamped and i have nothing and i wrote it last y #but for the record will was supposed to be in the same sort of coma max was in and they were supposed to find each other and will #was going to promise max hed find her way out and then boom he was going to wake up there was going to be some jealousy w lucas and mike an #he makes it out alive max makes it out alive vecna doesnt fully leave etc etc. the end #anyways if youve read this far thank u and thank you for leaving this ask and this comment :))))) i havent gotten anything abt my fics in a #while tbh so knowing that like . They Still Exist and people still like them means so so much to me :')))) ok bye this was super long #overdue gets some asks #captured ghosts #happy chemical

[todayisafridaynight]

when do yall think sawashiro found out akane was alive . just wonderin .

#snap chats #WAS THIS A RECENT DEVELOPMENT OR EARLIER CAUSE IF IT WAS EARLIER OHHHHH MY GODDDDD #i just might throw up at the potential of sawashiro knowing akane was alive while arakawa was still alive #ouuuuugggghhhh demons BACK /BACK/ I SAY JUST WAIT TWO MONTHS #if this motherfucker confirms he knew while arakawa was still kicking im gonna scream and piss myself #im getting evil ideas and i need to be STOPPED #when did they let his ass out of jail... did he get nosy once he got out or something.. #honestly i was thinking about it this morning because i was laughing at how mine and sawa both did 'research' on their bosses #mine was mentally ill about it jo just wanted to be with his son and was just findin shit out but NOW. how far did the rabbit hole go... #inevitably he wouldve learned about akane one point or another whether because arakawa told him the story or he discovered her #but when did he Discover Her yk. when did yall start being pen pals SHE ADDRESS YOU AS 'MR JO SAWASHIRO' #i still think thats cute. sorry. moving on POINT IS NOW /IM/ NOSY #january 26th cant get here any sooner #also can i just say i think i tricked myself into thinking the game was coming out the 24th like when the fuck did that happen #HOW the fuck did that happen... lol... anyway... #im gonna go now and try to ward the demons off bye #also should i make katsu curry today.... its the last of my curry and there really is no reason why i shouldnt other than im lazy #hmmm........... chicekn.....

[puzzlepop]

trying really hard not to whine about the situation im in because its entirely because of my own stupid actions

#🌀.txt #being alive is shameful and mortifying and im tired of freezing up during stressful situations and making them worse #this is all my fucking fault and i might fucking die #and none of this even seems worth it anyway. what if we all stopped caring. it’d all be so much easier if no one cared #i have…. work in an hour and 20 minutes. not even enough time to make sure i wont be dying by the time i get there. #sighs. whatever. im done freaking out. still not gonna make the actual move i need to make for an actual solution either #⬆️ pathetic excuse of a human being #negative

[hecksupremechips]

They did Ryuki so dirty in aini and I’m gonna be salty about it for the rest of my life I think

#aitsf #ai nirvana initiative #kuruto ryuki #like cannot emphasize how they just did not use him in the second half of the game #and i dont wanna diss the mizuki side cuz i honestly really loves it and i love her so much but just like #why did they even make ryuki in the first place if theyre gonna cut him off like that #and same with tama too its like you spend this game getting attached to these two really good characters and then its like ha fuck you! #and then all the stuff thats ACTUALLY important to the plot and the case begins #they dont even have like a moment where ryuki can feel relief at date being alive like dude #they like. this guy drinks himself into oblivion and goes insane over the death of a man he loved whose death he blames himself for #and the game cant even give these two characters like even a kinda touching reunion they just straight up DO NOT ACKNOWLEDGE IT AT ALL #which dates role in the game in general i think was also done dirty but i digress #like yeah okay sure just have almost all of ryukis motivations revolve around date and wanting to become worthy of him #and ​then go eh whatever anyways #oh and then have ryuki literally get shot at the end protecting date cuz thats how much he loves him and just like. they barely even care #date is literally the only person that seemed to have acknowledged it happened but it was literally like #oh no!!!! ryuki is literally bleeding out uwaaa!!! anyways #i used this card hesitantly with pewter after finishing ai1 but fuck it ill say it with my full chest this time #im calling homophobia here like come on you cant ignore this one #sorry to pewter and ryuki for both being canon gay and really interesting characters but the game doesnt care about you 😔

[dykedragons]

man. should rlly start bringing my sketchbook to work

#ramblies #its raining and we work outdoors so ive just been sitting here on my phone for an hour #I JUST WANNA CREATE STUFF #idk WHAT happened (i do know. college happened) but ever since working full time i just itch to create shit all day. ive been having my #best ideas. i get home from a 9 hour day make myself dinner and inmediately draw most days #like its just. an itch. that needs to be scratched. its whatever the opposite of that burnout i used to have wss #like i JUST WANT TO CREATE FREELY. i just want to LEARN. but i have less time now! #im so excited to do the cool shit i have planned for portfolio and open up my shop and revsmp my commissiok website #jm gonna learn so much and get so good and make the BEST fuckjng portfolio snd make so much money #my girlboss era. to be fucking honest. #ive been insanely busy ive barely touched video games in a couple months. im always jsut… doing shit and being alive #for the first time ever! im so tired! but like. its good #like im saving money and im loving creating things and im making such good memories with my friends #we can do someyhing so simple like. go to the park. and its so nice i make core memories bc we just do stupid shit. its magical. its magica #life is so fucking tiring and overwhelming but for the first time i rlly feel like im living and i havent even gotten my own place yet or #anything like that. like ooggh this is the connection i was missing out on #having mixed feelings abt my ‘stay inside and be a gamer’ era bc no doubt that time has fuelled my drive to work like an ox now (i have #something to prove- i light a fire under my own ass) but also i couldve been having these experiences sooner #but not with the same people im with now. so thats okay #i digress. anyways i wanna draw LMFAO #IM GONNA MAKE MONSTER HUNTER STICKERS its gonna be so rad