#idk what even i like or really suits me

[androidemotions]

some name ideas bc I literally want to talk to ppl abt them but i cant really talk to anyone ?? Idk so public post on tumblr dot com ig.....

- Rayne

- forest/Forrest (spelling????)

- Phoenix

- Nichols (as a tribute to nichelle Nichols probably used as a middle name) or Nicholas (even though I dont really want a """boy""" name...... Idk)

- rea (pronounced as "Ray")

- Chris (still bc a lot of ppl call me that and it would make my life easier but idk..)

- Nick/Nicky (a nickname of a couple of the above)

- idk.. I literally dont know what to call myself I dont feel like I have an identity

- icarus (probably wouldnt actually do this irl cause I feel like ppl would idk be like super weirded out by it????)

- ive also thought abt the name "carus" but it's not a real name i made it up.....

- something celestial?? I dont really know I just like trees and stars and rocks and idk what i am

#i think the most genuine i have felt abt indentifying #is when i saw my gender as a puddle reflecting stars... #and since then i feel like i have constantly tried to fit into a more clear box. like . idk... i just feel lost and like im really no one #so.. ive just been struggling tbh. #idk what even i like or really suits me #and it feels like when i have an idea even someone thinks its really stupid or absurd and im so insecure #i just feel like i could never do it #its like i just keep trying to wish and pretend i can be normal and blend in but it just makes me feel empty... #sorry for this but if u have like thoughts abt me and what you think im like????? idk what would suit me ????? #vent / #kinda sorta #idk #note to myself #i know this probably isnt gonna help in the long run but its just smth that has been really bothering me #bc it really feels like i dony have an identity and i dont even have enough trust/confidence in myself to give me one

[lunarharp]

What led to this (orufrey comic, cw an uncomfortable/creepy scene)

#witch hat tag #orufrey #er.... i'm too tired to have anything to say..i worked several days on this. #wait.. didn't i say just recently here that i probably wouldn't ever depict 'what if alaira is qifrey's sort-of ex'. What's going on #i don't even remember deciding to draw this..it's all a blur..i'm not sure why i WOULD decide to draw delicate scenes in my head #that i wouldn't really want to share with anyone/discuss so why did i draw it... #some part of me really really wants to draw things that are more and more true to myself... #maybe because of my alienation with most romance/shipping/dynamics the rest of the world depicts. #orufrey really is perfectly suited to me - what i read in the text and what is in my head. well anyway #i am TIRED of drawing poses and angles and..maybe now i will actually take a break from drawing bc of the tediousness of Angles #btw it really is a 'stretch of time' . . . assuming witches graduate age 18-20 #well orufrey are canonically 30-ish. they've only had agott around for presumably about TWO years (?) bc she took the test age 10 #and it feels like oru moving in/unknown atelier acquisition/building (?) .. i guess that could be a year or so before agott at most #(she was the first disciple) so... ????????? What about the other 7 or so years ?!?!?!!?!?! Unemployed Brimhat Hatred era #that time is very nebulous. after qifrey went to the tower i feel like it's been implied he and oru drifted apart a little. #certainly they didn't live together at first... no way. that doesn't feel like how it is based on things oru has said about becoming Eye #idk. I'm tired now. i don't usually think of alaira as necessarily qifrey's ex and this being how things went in that 'sliver of time'. #i usually prefer the idea that they have their first kiss with each other in their 30s cause That's Just The Orufrey Lifestyle #just felt like making a more relatable alternative view of my own Cai Orufrey Canon one time. btw im a big monoshipper and it hurt a bit #let's leave it there. this is surely the most i've worked on a 'single' art - though now i realise just how much longer the fic took :')

[puppyeared]

mascot

#this isnt vent dw!!! i dont smoke either i was just kinda going for some sort of vibe #i know its usually played for laughs or like. dark humor whenever ppl draw mascots without their heads and u can see the actor #but i always found it fascinating and a little sobering. ever since i was a kid ive always been hyperaware of ppl in costumes #like. even if i tried to block it out id be thinking the whole time 'its not real. theres a person in that suit who gets paid to do this' #it used to be an uncomfortable nagging feeling but now its like. oh yeah theres someone with a whole life story doing this. idk #i think when i tell ppl im not conscious of my body its like. im not dysphoric or experience dissociation but. at the same time #it feels like my physical body doesnt fully outwardly represent me..?? like some sort of costume #i like to phrase it as being a giant hairless mecha and inside theres a very tiny puppy piloting the damn thing #and the other thing is. when i draw my sona i dont really see it as what i /wish/ i looked like or how i want people to see me #its like being in a costume and just. fucking around with some sort of barrier between myself and others #plus mascots arent allowed to talk and i dont really. engage with other ppl in public spaces that it kinda feels like ad lib #i share a lot abt my life but ironically im also a private person..... i guess it just gives me some sort of control over my identity #my art #myart #my oc #sona #mascot #furry #??? is this furry art???? #twinkle #puppysona #edit: had to outline it bc i just realized it looks really weird on dark mode -_-

[thepoisonroom]

that post that's like "learning social skills helps with social anxiety" applies to dating also btw

#i guess they have a circular relationship because also going on lots of first dates was really trial by fire for me in learning lots lf #new social skills #meeting new people was never my strong suit and i was very afraid of it and would avoid it but like! #when i first tried going on first dates i learned a lot about how to meet people and met types of queer people i'd never met before #and actually it was good for me even though it was often weird and stressful #and it was a lower-stakes way to practice social skills that i otherwise would've just avoided using until they atrophied #anyway whenever i see a dating profile that's like 'i'm afraid of talking to women lol' i'm like ok relatable but what's your plan to learn #i think also just like it doesn't have to be through dating but it is good for you to meet other gay and trans people offline if possible #when i moved to wisconsin i only knew my coworkers who were mostly also twentysomethings who'd been hired straight from college #and it was good for me to meet and make friends with other local gay and trans people who were involved in different stuff #idk i just don't know how many more 'i'm obsessed with romance but scoff at the idea that i should do anything about that' posts i can read #like if i said i wanted to run a marathon but i never practiced running people would fairly be like okay that's prob not gonna happen #idk i know it's no skin off my nose i'm just like. if you never take any steps towards expressing your desires #how do you think they're going to just happen to you #personal nonsense

[hetalia-fannn]

Dunno why but I REALLY love Aph America's name, Alfred F. Jones. If this ain't the most stereotypical American name then I don't know anything lmao.

#dont u love it when for some reason names fit characters' vibe/personality/design #idek why i got this feeling while i was thinking about america's personality and appearance #like ik its verrrrry stereotypical but thats what makes it funny to me lmaoo #and his design really just screams his name to the point i cant imagine america with another name lmfao (i too dont know why) #i guess this goes for other countries as well #even tho there are some others i dont agree with but thats okay (at least to me) #also! america's name (idk why again) suits ww2 theme like the names that time #werent like that? #pretty sure that's a random captain name lol #hetalia #aph #hws #hetalia world stars #hetalia axis powers #aph america #hws america #aph us #aph usa #hws us #hws usa #“iM tHe hERoOo1!1!1!!!1!” #(yes that's a reference to my fav hetalia gifs post- dont yall love self advertisements lol jk)

[dykeinthedark]

venting in tags about gender n shit (long as hell) (u can comment and talk 2 me as always :3)

#okay so i got a really masc haircut about a month ago and i know it's just a haircut but holy shit has it changed EVERYTHING for me #like.... i've always leaned masc except 1) before i came out 2) when i was actively in love with someone who i knew liked femmes #and they always described me as a fem. because that's what i showed her. because i wanted to be with her. #but lowkey whenever i'm in a not-impressing-anyone raw-dogging-life-no-crush era i always resort to a very masc style #like masc being my default and i'd only lean fem to impress people whether it's for love or peer pressure in a specific setting #like ''dressing up'' has always been a form of drag to me. like something i HAD to do to fit in or impress my parents (scott favor core) #but ever since this haircut i've realized... i could just BE masc innately like i really don't have to be womanly if i don't want to #which i usually don't. again i have only ever dressed fem for other people. but it's not even being masc that attracts me on its own #it's like. being masc in a distinctly lesbian way. as in whenever i look in the mirror i don't wanna be like a Guy i wanna be a dyke. #like lesbian as a gender identity too sort of thing honestly. okay i've been waffling but basically i sort of want to call myself butch #but i don't know if i like... can?? if i'm allowed to??? #everyone always says it's MORE than just wearing boy clothes and not wearing makeup and having short hair (which i already do all those) #i mean i've always id'd as genderqueer because it literally just means gender weird and i experience gender in a queer way #what's probably the most telling is that my friends (all queer) CALL me a butch lesbian #like every time they do i feel really internally validated. it's not just my clothes but my personality too ig is what people tell me #i have a higher pitched voice relatively speaking but apparently the way i talk is quote ''very clockably into women'' #which?? gender euphoria asf. my best friend specifically he (gay trans guy) always uses butch to describe me very intuitively #people have also noticed that i ''transitioned'' in all aspects except hormonally. like ppl have commented and noticed my masculinzation #but at the same time i always feel rly haunted by my ex relationships because one wanted me to be more masc #(she's the one who came out as straight and would treat me like a man) which i didn't like and i didn't like playing up being fem either #bc now it feels like she (butch) won't believe me if i called myself butch too bc she remembers me being femme #idk i feel like there's her voice in my head all the time that sees everything i do through her eyes (i'm lowkey still in love) #i feel like even though this comes so naturally to me i must be putting on a performance #even though i've actually read stone butch blues and done research into the history and i truly love and id with the culture like i rly do #that im still just a sad imitation of a butch lesbian and can never really be a part of it because i used to enjoy dressing up sometimes #like it's so stupid but can i still be butch if i wore a dress to prom and i think i looked good in it?? #even though i was envious of my friends who wore suits?? that i used to try goth makeup?? that i liked long dresses?? #that i enjoyed stacked necklaces and rings on every finger??? #and tbh ALL OF THAT CAME FROM A CONCIOUS EFFORT TO FEMINIZE MYSELF IN JUNIOR YEAR OF HIGHSCHOOL WHEN I WAS 16 #because omfg it was 2 months before junior prom and i was worried that i was too masc and wanted to get comfortable with being fem

[todayisafridaynight]

any hopes for kiwami 3? like things u wanna see added or changed stuff like that

if they dont keep kiryu's goofy walk stance and the hoof-like walk sounds i dont wanna play it

#snap chats #no one understands how much i love that from y3 and y4 its genuinely one of my favorite things about the game #oh but i guess i have to give an actual answer now. HMPH. #id scream if they revived kanda calling mine limp wristed. homophobia in 4k #OK BUT TO BE SERIOUS uhhhh i dont know. im a real simple guy i think #my only like. If This Isnt There Im Leaving deal is mine's palette and im so serious #rgg's scaring me with all the black-hair/purple-suit mine stuff as of late and i cant stress how hard ill vomit if thats in the final #HYPOTHETICAL final anyways. yk3 isnt coming out for. IDK A WHILE #i wanna say i hope they highlight daigo and mine's relationship more but i dont know how theyd do that #i really like how mine's handled in y3 as is so i dont think i want scenes injected like what they did with yk1 and nishiki #someone said a Mine Saga after the game and... hm ... sounds too unrealistic for me to hope for it #like im REALLY trying to think how they could possibly reference the rggo stories in y3 since those are EXCELLENT but #i think . MAYBE. you could reference the story where richardson calls mine as he's driving to the hospital #the only thing you'd have to exclude though is mine stopping by the bar- like JUST keep the phone conversation maybe #cause in that scene that subordinate does question mine if he can really kill daigo and i think thatd be neat. in my opinion. #yeah i dont know. in regards to rggo its hard to think of what i want without intervening things i already like about y3 #its a real head scratcher ... #a really good epilogue addition would be adapting that RGGO bit where daigo ruminates on mine. that's a fair ending for him i think #it also fulfills the need to see how daigo saw mine even if its just a little #and to non-rggo readers it could start to answer 'how does daigo feel about everything that happened' #im still so curious as to if daigo was briefed on EVERYTHING that happened but .... anyways.... #sorry all my hopes for y3 are just mine/minedai centric fLVKELKA BUT LIKE. i really am content with everything else with y3 surprisingly #idk. i want kiryu fucking up that curry in high definition tho. thats important to me #THEY HAVE TO KEEP THE QTES DURING THE RICHARDSON FIGHT ILL BE PISSED #i need the fight to be AS CAMPY and unnecessary as it was in the og. INCLUDING richardson's voice acting i need it wack as hell #is it weird i actually appreciate the Diet Building Loredumping being like. in replayable-cutscene form #i thought id prefer just One Long cutscene but im glad theres the option to skip those segments #BUT being able to get a refresher in case you missed something somehow #im running out of tags jesus christ i shouldve put this in the main text but vjALjlagj those are all my thoughts for now bYE

[skitskatdacat63]

Maybe im just too used to it atp, but it's funny to me how easy it is for me to draw seb and fernando with long flowing beautiful curly hair/wigs for my au, but when I even just try to imagine other people in it, like Mark and Jense, I can't even imagine them wearing the same type of thing at all 😭😭

#ig theres smth about like fernando and seb being more feminine in their role of ruler #and others like mark and jense being more masc in their roles of service hmmmmmm #but like mark = automatically short hair. absolutely no wig. cant even imagine him w slightly longer hair #jense more close to his honda hair length but cant imagine him w super long hair either #and the others which i havent really touched on(ex. kimi nico lewis mick etc) #i dont know if many of them i could draw w long hair either. maybe nico ??? #i guess its mainly bcs it kinda goes along w whos had longer hair irl #but its not like seb or fernando have had super long hair akin to what i draw #but somehow to me it suits them very well 🤧🤧 very majestic very kingly #i cant imagine living back then and theyre like yeah wigs the fashion and you look absolutely shit in a wig #do you just live w that??? do you just cope?????? #one day i will draw a comic of mark trying on a wig and them relentlessly bullying him #it just doesnt suit him at all!!! like i cant imagine it at all #well anyways this is all to say that i want to draw portraits of mark and jense #maybe ill play around a bit with jense #the only thing is just: he needs to wear a tricorn/bicorn hat LMFAO #hes just that type of guy to me #also i wonder what colors ill do #mark is the same clothing colors of seb 🤭🤭 cause he belongs to him YKNOW #and then jense idk. i think i drew him before w reddish orange cause mclaren which is okay???? #idk theres just a lot to me abt color coding and like who belongs w who and who is opposed to who #<- which is why seb and fernando are always blue/red for me #catie.rambling.txt

[dreamlanddoll]

my biggest pet peeve with most hair/makeup tutorials aimed at feminine presenting people is that the tips for bigger nosed individuals are always "do you have a FAT DISGUSTING UGLY NOSE? Well don't worry! Here are some tips on how to hide that monstrosity so that you don't look like a man!" like is anyone else tired I'm so tired

#like... fully watched a video on what bangs i should get to suit my face #and the lady (even tho she was really sweet) fully suggested that if you have a big nose you shouldnt have bangs bc theyll draw attention #to it.. like thanks ig only girls with small noses are allowed to have bangs now bc god forbid women bring attention to their roman nose #idk man #and dont get me started on that era where everyone was contouring the shit out of their noses to look like literal anime characters #early tik tok was rancid for my self esteen

[that-was-anticlimactic]

lol my student teaching supervisor sent me my feedback video because he observed me friday and it was twenty minutes long and he essentially said that he was disappointed in me and that i did a disservice to american poetry so i'm feeling pretty good about myself

#lol this week sucked #he also said that it looks like i put a Little bit of effort into learning about whitman before teaching him but i honestly think i did #more than that and now i just feel like crap lol like ik his masters was in american lit and content knowledge isn't my strong suit but i #have PAGES of notes about whitman and tried to learn SO MUCH about him and did SO MUCH studying of the poems we read #idk ik i need to work on my content knowledge but like some of my eng ed student teaching friends and i were talking friday and he's being #like really harsh with everyone like has made almost all of us cry? one of my friends is considering not even going into teaching anymore #because his feedback was so negative like dude you weren't like this last semester? idk it's just hard to feel good about yourself and your #progress when your supervisor says he was disappointed in what he saw idk maybe i'm being overdramatic... i like to think i'm really #receptive to feedback both positive and negative but this one hurt ngl ik the class discussions weren't the best but they all hated poetry #and i was dragging as much as i could out of them and they're all restless because we haven't had a day off since january and idk. well #hopefully dickinson goes better ig - God i'm so scared for my mentor teacher to watch the video because she always does and she's great and #i don't want her to be disappointed in me lol #sorry just had a mini breakdown👍🏻

[pebblezone]

this Tylenol ain’t shit w

#talkingcore #emotions. man. #there’s so much music that I just haven’t listened to in a bit and it’s making me feel things it’s not even like sad things I’m like damn #how long has it been since I’ve listened to beautiful stranger by Madonna as featured in Austin powers international man of mystery #but also something in my brain feels like it needs to cry like I don’t feel like I physically can but something needs to be released #so do I go pet sounds? smile? falsettos? I feel like I need to be in a sleeping bag and Contemplate #fun fact! Kendra Morris has an absolutely stunning cover of don’t talk (put your head on my shoulders) #I’m pretty neutral on beach boys covers tbh I’m never crazy about them since like they really never measure up #how many mid covers of god only knows can I take? not many. but like she & him have their little Brian Wilson tribute I like that. #the covers are a lot better when they don’t try to perfectly replicate whatever the fuck Brian Wilson was doing they aren’t him #brain wants to go melancholy mode but I’ve no clue over what. girl just tell me what I’m supposed to be sad over I’ll commit to the bit #need to keep listening to new stuff but also need old stuff Maybe that’s it maybe I just need old stuff again? like routine?? shit idk #also like at 5 am I woke up and remembered how in choir people kept comparing me to the director they had the year before me #and the thing is she had the same name as someone else in choir that was student teaching my first semester so I kept thinking they were #referring to her Id be in my choir fit my silly suit my proud butch uniform and they’d be like oh this is so ‘insert name’! #and it kept throwing me off because the student teacher was like. not like me at all so I was like fuck #what kind of girl core energies am I accidentally emitting this is Bad. so anyway 5 am I’m like fuck it I need to research this person #I search. find her. she’s butch. I’m blessed. they weren’t lying like man we do such a good job at being generic! yay! #butch And in choir! love to see it! keep thinking how I am destined to be like in my 40s doing mundane tasks #I’m gonna be soooooo good at watering plants and putting salt on the sidewalk before it snows and cleaning drains #need to be a dad mom so fucking bad you don’t get it I need to drive carpool and take off work for dentist trips and watch hgtv #AHHHH i think that got rid of some of the sad lfg💥💥💥💥this must be super long god damn sorry

[hella1975]

my god my fucking god im so powerful i actually amaze myself sometimes okay okay so. picture me at the races with my friends circa this time yesterday. it was absolutely full of students bc the whole reason we went was bc it was student day and there was a whole deal on for it organised by the uni, so it's just students as far as the eye can see all dressed up. as a bisexual, i was in heaven. EVERYONE looked hot. we had the lads in suits and the girls in their nice dresses. i didn't know where to look. i cannot stress enough how many hot people there were.

but one lad really stuck out to me. i genuinely have never seen anyone prettier than this fucking boy. i literally did a double take when i first saw him and i could NOT get him out of my head. literally drop dead gorgeous i was flabbergasted to the point i didnt even do the usual 'i've spotted a fit lad' with my friends bc his level of fit just seemed to exceed casualness. so i played it cool and did my usual little Eye Contact game (basically just glancing at them a shit ton and hope to catch their eye, and it looks like an accident and you dont look desperate, but once you get that moment of 'oh we've made eye contact by pure chance' then don't look away. if they're interested, they'll hold ur gaze and u can hold it long enough to be suggestive before looking away, and then usually they'll come to you and it's really funny bc they play right into it and they think it's their own idea but you're like ha ive been plotting this for 15 mins now. if they're not interested, they'll look away. im so clever and hot right)

one problem, this boy WOULD NOT LOOK AT ME. like it's purely a chance thing but every time i looked his way he was just doing his own thing. i gave up in the end bc it just wasn't happening and i literally forgot all about it, but later on i'd had a few drinks and i always get VERY sociable when ive got a bit of alcohol in me, and me and my mate saw this guy who had a star wars themed suit on. and id seen this boy earlier BECAUSE HE WAS STOOD WITH HOT GUY so i knew they were friends, but he was on his own this time and hot guy was nowhere to be seen. still, i was a little tipsy and i genuinely thought his suit was cool, so i went and told him his suit was cool. there was literally no ulterior motive here bc how could i possibly even scheme that much????? yet star wars guy was really friendly, asked for my instagram, and that was that. me and my friend walked off. no biggie.

EXCEPT I JUST GET A NOTIF ON IG AND DO YOU KNOW WHO FOLLOWED ME???? THE FUCKING HOT GUY FOLLOWED ME the hot guy who DIDNT HAVE MY INSTAGRAM which means his friend would have had to not only bring me up again upon us literally having a three second conversation but also speak highly enough of me that hot guy asked for my instagram AND THEN LIKED ME ENOUGH TO FOLLOW ME???? HELLO????? and he has his spotify linked in his bio HIS MUSIC TASTE IS GOOD and he has a playlist for spike spiegel. im in love

#i was seeing who'd followed me and i was like 'he looks really familiar' #the way i literally FROZE when i realised it was him #like do you know how insane this is #I DID NOT EVEN LOOK AT THIS BOY I KNOW BECAUSE I WAS TRYING TO #AND I STILL SOMEHOW GOT HIM TO FOLLOW ME ON IG?? HELP??? #i love life #this is god giving me a break after watching me make an utter tit out of myself last night when i got absolutely bladdered #goddddddd i cannot express how pretty this boy was like he's the exact type tumblr would go crazy for #like not typically handsome but just. pretty #IDK HOW TO EXPLAIN #he had nice hair #im a sucker for nice hair #and he was wearing a leather jacket over his suit #and he had a really kind smile #JDKSGHSKJGHKSJDHGKSD GOD #this almost makes up for the girl who flirted with me for an entire hour before going 'you'd be exactly my type if i wasn't straight :)' #like ma'am what the fuck did you just say to me #why do they think that's a compliment. literally leave me alone why would u flirt with someone for THAT LONG when u know ur not interested #bitches smh. and hoes even #hella goes to uni

[poptartmochi]

however.. it's not just blorbo thoughts that haunt me with that song... it's teacher thoughts too! 🤯

#for the past few months I've been going back and forth about whether i want to teach middle or high school #and this is nowhere near a deciding factor #BUT... consider the following with me.. performing one version as a mass piece at the beginning of the year with the full choir and then. #🤌🏻 #at the end of the year doing the other with just the seniors because they have become the old man who will never again pass this way 😭 #i feel like dickau's would be better as a mass piece because of it's more relaxed rhythms. the chords sound fuller than macdonald's which #would probably sound nicer with all hands on deck! and then macdonald's more rhythmically challenging arrangement would be cool for the #seniors 😁 but this is to my untrained and pretty rusty ear so 🕴️ we'll see how i feel when i go back to school #another idea I've entertained is giving each class a like. Challenge Song their freshman year and recording it‚ then reprising it their #senior year and letting them compare their performances to reflect their growth as musicians.. i think that would be really cool :] #i dont think i could conduct the bridge builder with that in mind though.. id start crying lol! but i think it is fundamental as a choir #student to watch your director cry in the middle of a song+ continue on as if nothing was happening #but anyhow idk man.. the idea of working with high schoolers to really build up their musicality and prepare them for the world is very #appealing to me but you can't be a musician without the foundations which i could establish in middle school #and foundations are very fun to teach as well!! but foundations can be taught in a beginning choir course or during summer camp #so 😩 #the music i want to direct is all satb which suits high school better. but is it selfish to choose which way to go based on what music you #like? 🕴️🕴️ the contemplations man.... anyhow i have a lot more growing and learning and Studying to do before this will even matter #can't prepare kids for the world when I've scarcely explored it myself! #sriracha.txt

[ghostsontelevision]

every other day i make this post on twitter so now the tumblrinas get it. i greatly prefer the original evangelion series to the eva rebuilds and my main reason is because the rebuilds were too afraid to make asuka genuinely bitchy and not like, tsundere rude.

#I MEAN THIS SO AFFECTIONATELY #i loooooooove asuka in the original series i love her bratty trauma #i love how shes a foil to shinji in that he wants to be taken care of and she wants to be independent #i love that people straight up dont like her because she is mean to them! #i cant name anything specifically but rebuild asuka feels more tropey tsundere to me #mostly in the first two movies i think in 3.33 she gets some good moments #like her dragging shinji along after kaworu explodes #but asuka in the original is so dear to me #idk theres just something abt being sympathetic to traumatized characters even when they express that trauma in ugly or unpalatable ways #and she just feels a lil too cute to me in the rebuilds #i do know some people who really prefer her in the rebuilds for this exact reason but yanno to each their own #also rei ALSO feels like she got sanded down to be more palatable but thats a whole other rant #(i gotta do like a reiwatch because rei hits SO many tropes i love but shes never really hit for me for some reason) #posts by me #ALSO ANNO WHAT WAS WITH THAT FUCKING. TRANSPARENT SUIT #I GET IT THE CLINGINESS OF THE SUITS IS JUST KIND OF INHERENTLY FANSERVICEY BUT ALSO. BUT ALSO. ANNO I JUST WANNA TALK. #im not saying the original series didnt have any fanservice but CMON. #i will say i like the eyepatch and the jacket over her suit but also like thats easy kayleighbait. i just like those design elements anywher

[peapod20001]

Haha so like. If I were to paint my nails, what colors would y’all recommend

#random post #idk what happened but suddenly I’m like. hype and wanna paint my nails and do shit #1. cus pretty and 2. it might help with my picking and strengthen my nails #(cus I won’t be biting and chewing them till they’re brittle) #I don’t really. know what color(s) would suit me best. like I could do black #but idk if I’d just want like just straight black or if I’d want some color too #idk ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ it’s just been a hot minute lol #I don’t even know if I’d actually follow through cus like. my nails are already at the point where I bite em off so I’m like #usually all my brain power to not fuck em up (cus like I said earlier they’re weak and pathetic rip)

[todayisafridaynight]

what's also great about the ichi watch is that the gold and red goes well with the arakawa-inspo outfit i have..

#snap chats #aka the outfit im wearing right now BYE #its so funny that i have really accidentally stolen his clothes. like idk what to tell you #owning a grey suit and a three-piece black suit's commonplace i really did just need the shirt LMAO #did eventually find a scarf buried in my closet so i even have that on lock down 😩 perfect for fall ig LOL #POINT IS i do have that gold bracelet plus the gold-buckled belt but also the red shoes.. that i and everyone around me love.. #its perfect goku idk what else you want from me.. was meant to be even #what I want tho is food but i dont have time to make rice and im going out to eat in the city after class anyway #anyway love how i know im gonna preorder it but i havent yet because I Dont Know i like waiting until the last second i guess #ive reasoned with myself only to get the watch since as cute as the bag and wallet are #the wallet i have now is perfectly fine- plus my sister gave it to me. and i dont need a bag enough to warrant getting it #love how i never even considered the jacket LMAO LIKE ITS A CUTE JACKET just.. not $200 cute.. #that's what my puffer is tho.. dont tell anyone-- #ANYWAY YEAH <3 once i get the ichi watch i can stop wearing this bitch ass cringe ass watch my mom gave me #i just hope changing the battery in the watch wont be a pain down the line cause i dont think its solar powered WHOOP.. #it'll be worth it to me.... ok bye im gonna stare at the wall until i have to leave for class #i have all my commission stuff done for now and i wanna rest from drawing for the rest of the day. maybe. #might stream tonight but i also might be drunk LMAO we'll see #if i stream uhhhhhh dude i dont even know.... funny y3 stream ???? drawing stream ???? #we'll see what happens anyway BYE