#idk i may be insane but that. yeah.

[catkin-morgs-kookaburralover]

if i could take away ONE (1) event in my entire life it would be the most recent suicide attempt, back in October

#most importantly it showed me that that particular method is not so bad actually #and that when i feel out of my mind with suicidal thoughts i want it so bad #and i wish i didn't know how it feels because it feels. approachable #idk i may be insane but that. yeah. #idk mannnnn #personal #tw suicide #tw suicide attempt #puddleglum hours

[verflares]

some body type + colour practice feat dragon (chicken) zeldie... and of course link my good friend link

#this is like. a 2nd attempt i guess??? lol. definitely further along on the beastily spectrum #idk if im 100% satisfied with it though... i DO think shes cute and you can look at it and be like “oh yeah thats half-dragon zelda :)” #but idkkkk i guess im like conflicted. ill try drawing her taking a deer down or something working off this design lmao #princess zelda #zelda #link #light dragon #totk #link totk #zelda totk #zelink #a smidge of it. because im insane. you may or may not see more of them (specifically half-dragon zeldie/link) Soon. #my art #totk spoilers #dragon zelda #loz #loz fanart #wow i forgor so many tags last night 😭

[applebees4prez]

listen you need to understand my vision kristen and kipperlilly need to be rivals (enemies?) with benefits. you KNOW kristen would feel weirdly attracted to any woman she’s supposed to hate. i need kipperlilly to say something that makes kristen need a Hot Tub Moment while the ratgrinders and bad kids are fighting. i need kristen to win the election and then kiss kipperlilly when she goes to make some sort of villainous speech. and kipperlilly swears time and time again that she’s straight she doesn’t like girls but damn if this isn’t the most correct moment in her entire life. they’re both like ugh we hate each other so much that we have to hook up the logic checks out. but then they fall in love and oops! kipperlilly’s plans are foiled and once again lesbianism saves the day!

#yeah i just rewatched the catradora kiss #no i’m not okay #trying to make this as pg-13 as possible #I NEED EVERYONE TO SEE IT #me when i turn fantasy high into the doomed yuri show #listen if i can’t have my figayda i need other sapphics to hold me over #and it doesn’t seem like we’re getting canon fabragh #honestly if i had to choose between this and fabragh idk what i would choose #i may be insane #copperbees #kipperbees #kristen applebees #kipperlilly copperkettle #fantasy high junior year #fantasy high #fhjy #dimension 20 #d20

[mishapen-dear]

mann im still thinking about that one foolish stream jaiden was on and was talking to him and forever (?) and said basically, “yeah roier is my platonic partner.” And like that alone fucking kills me but what nukes my tombstone is that IS. she said IS!! present tense roier IS her platonic partner. he’s married to cellbit but that doesnt change what they have!! cellbit Is roier’s romantic partner and jaiden Is roier’s platonic partner and one does not negate the other and fucking. it’s jaiden who says that. jaiden who was surprised to be invited to their wedding. she’s no less important to roier and she Knows that now. she was so reluctant to take up space in roier’s life (and i cant stop thinking about the house she built and then abandoned to live in his, and then to refer to the house as his) but here she is. roier has a new partner now but that doesnt mean she’s been replaced it just means that there’s a new place in his heart for a husband to go. she doesnt have to leave to make space he wants her to stay and she knows that.

#qsmp #i havent watched all the streams so classic disclaimer there of i may not be entirely on my rocker #but the ones i have seen are. yeah #if im misremembering when she said this im gonna Wail but i think it was the foolish stream where he told her pomme assassinated him #and then later on was the capybara ride thru the sky #anyway im shaking jaiden and roier and cellbit so violently #idk what the terms are when part of the polycule’s platonic but #jaiden and cellbit looking at each other as metamours and going ! a friend #drives me fucking bonkers #and the parallels between them.... #anyway anyway this has been: cubito insanity hour #coming up next: cubito insanity hour

[mars-ipan]

danganronpa is so fucking crazy bc it’s like “hi. this is a game series with a fucking amazing premise. unfortunately the writing sucks and is bad and you will spend half the time going ‘eugh why did they write that’ but you will play the whole thing anyways and get attached to your favorite characters and cry when they inevitably die. also it is filled with romance subplots that will stay in your brain forever” HUH??????

#marzi speaks #like. dr sucks but i like it. #but it sucks #but then like. there’s just??? so much in-depth romance and it makes me want to cry??? #like. like. thh. asahina + sakura (so sorry lesbians i do not know their ship name). they are so cute and then they are so tragic #and ishimondo. GODDDDD ishimondo. you get to go ‘oh HELL yeah’ for a chapter and then they make you HURT #even like. makoto w/sayaka. start of the betrayal girlfriend trend. love it #and even toko and togami are interesting!!! like they will not date and should not date but they are fascinating #and then sdr2. do not get me STARTED on komahina what sort of psychosexual freudian bullshit are they on i will never know #but there’s also like. hinanami who r SO good. and mahiru and hiyoko who. tbh i wish they were handled better but still #fuyupeko. they make me crazy. and their parallels to akane and nekomaru. aaaa #SONDAM oh my goddd. they’re so #i may not be a v3 fan but they DID give us a lesbian love triangle and i do have to thank them for that #also the best polycule in the world in the form of the workout trio #kokichi i don’t like. but i DO like his little crush on shuichi even if i think it’s one-sided #kiibouruma will forever be real to me tho. world’s worst polycule. for balance #anyways why does dr have so many good romance plots. they’re so. why are those so good #AND WHY ARE LIKE HALF OF THEM QUEER. WHY DOES THE HOMOPHOBIA GAME HAVE SO MUCH QUEER CODING #idk i’m insane. <3 i’m a little crazy. komahina what the hell even are you….

[averlym]

HI I DIDNT KNOW YOU WERE INTO ADAMANDI HOLY SHIT. Can’t believe so few people know about this masterpiece of a musical

:OOOOO hai i agree it is criminally (haha yknow bc there are crimes..) underrated!! and really brilliant!!! discovered it literally midway through the week and akdfjgsjhdsjhjgdf

have a doodle of the saints :3

#this is kinda because on someone's insta i saw one of the saints doing a peace sign dksajh have smth silly #adamandi #ask me stuff??? #realising i have to put my tags at the beginning before rambles or tumblr won't catch it #i am into adamandi. now. this is terrible timing because exam season but hMM the academic grindset really resonates now huh #the moment i caught myself in the ao3 tag i was like ''oh.'' #i have so many thoughts. so many many thoughts. im so insane about this musical actually. also the fandom so far seems so nice #also yeah! the number of people who know about it is quite small huh.. it makes me kinda feel like im infiltrating the group... ? #late to the party as ever. but it's. so so good. such a musical ever the brainrot is real #also the way the creators themselves are active on tumblr :OO rly cool. ngl the tags they left under my posts had me #giggling screaming kicking my feet etcetera... and bc apparently i thrive off positive reinforcement that sparked the whole cut fruit art.. #i am itching to know about the track thing with portia. also portrix real the lesbians keep winning!! also also i may have spent half a day #internet stalking ><. secret pinterest boards where :O #anyway thank you for the ask anon idk how to answer concisely but yes. adamandi. oh my god. #miscellany: can we appreciate ambrose's high notes.. also i was on wiki reading about ''apollonian vs dionysian'' it's insane #on yet another note. im entering my lin era rn i think. what a time. where can i run so true + vincent's surname my beloved. forest imagery #side note? tiny little detail i'd love to do smth about in the future: in word to the wise there's smth about “appraising your rings” and i #the one who pulls the strings beatrix mentions “bought my classmates rings” like. kjdfhsgjkhd???? thinks. #.. but new fav musical unlocked is all #between this and watt i am maybe into my murder musical era. confession that i don't do horror much because i have an overactive imaginatio #but like those two hit the spot. and i think organic imagery.. blood visuals.. is very cool// and the moment you start looking at literal #life and death situations then the dramaticness especially comes in and that's fun!! // also i read smth today about tragedy making you #appreciate irl stuff more. like ''wow thats messed up im sure glad that isnt me i love life''. and lowkey?? yeah

[atopvisenyashill]

sorry i’m still annoyed but like we really think if ned would have seen robert hit lyanna with his own two eyes he wouldn’t have done anything. that’s what we’re saying. that’s really what we’re all saying that’s really-

#idk why people are incapable of talking about nedcat’s faults without going to the most deranged option possible #i think if lyanna was 16 and pregnant with Robert’s baby & wrote him a daella esque ‘pls come im scared’ #ned would go see what was UP. he’d Probably assume she misses their mother and would bring like. nan or someone to storm’s end #but come on. he abandons storm’s end to a starving & distraught stannis bc he thought she was still alive. #and people will be like ‘he’s an asshole to cersei’ u r ignoring the part where she fucked her brother & he thinks she murdered jon arryn. #THATS why he’s an asshole it’s very clear that the spousal abuse set off insane alarm bells in this man’s mind. #yeah it’s not enough to say stop a marriage between margaery and robert. #but if u think it’s not enough to go now what the fuck do you think you’re doing here robert if robert left a bruise on lya’s face #unserious. go reread the book. once again i’m accusing too many of you of being only children. #getting on my soap box #this post may self destruct if i feel bad enough about it later

[gierosajie]

Thinking about how there's a lot more ghosts wandering Mondstadt in the Archon Dvalin AU than usual because Venti is usually the one sending off spirits into the afterlife and well. he's kinda stuck on that side post-Cataclysm

At first there weren't any because they just followed Venti, but afterwards there were some that still lingered and the number just kept piling up over the centuries. Many did eventually go on their own, but there's just more that didn't want to or simply couldn't

Dvalin doesn't know how to send them off, no one really showed him how and he doubts that even if he knew, he probably couldn't. Still, whenever a spirit decides to show themself, he stays with them for a bit, just to alleviate their burdens even a little and maybe help them find enough peace

It's probably another thing that eats at him alive because he couldn't even help those that he failed to protect, no matter how much most of them say it isn't his fault

And then, after the whole reconciliation with Celio thing, one of the lingering spirits asks him for a song. Before, he might've gently turned down the request, but after everything, he decided he might as well

Dvalin starts singing an old song he loved. Singing it had been painful, once, considering it was made as a duet and having to listen to the silent answer just brought him nothing but grief. Now, there's a sort of peace to how the breeze and the sound of nature fill in the gaps and pauses.

Over the course of the song, more and more ghosts come to listen. By the end of it, Dvalin opens his eyes to see most of them disappear, not in terms of hiding away like usual but rather beginning to dissolve into light as they finally move on

The last one to leave was the one who requested a song. She turns to smile at him. "I suppose I can finally tell that bard how much you've grown," she says before finally dissipating into the wind

#anemo archon dvalin au #I wanted to post hurt/comfort so I dusted off one of my drafts and added the comfort part #anyway yeah the last ghost was from the Cataclysm and probably met Venti briefly when they were still both alive #and then she met him again as he was gathering up all the dead so they could go together #but then she takes one look at Dvalin looking absolutely miserable #and decides she ain't going to rest until she deems the poor guy to be doing fine #it took 500 years but y'know Mondstadters are a certain brand of insane sometimes #trying to watch over him as a lingering ghost kinda did the opposite effect tho but she tried her best #'what about the miasma and evils spirits that would appear due to all these ghosts tho?' you may ask #Idk copious amounts of seals and blessings and maybe the occasional exorcist that pass by #Venti's resentment and regrets were probably the only tatarigami that plagued Mond #and even then it just stayed around the vicinity where Venti died and took a while to even manifest #mostly due to whatever wackery is going on in Dragonspine + intervention from Andrius and Dvalin

[thoughtsofananon]

@paleasamoon oh you want to learn about crane wives??? Well there’s a few more songs by them I feel fit with the HTTYD Books.

Tongues and Teeth with Hiccup and Valhallarama (as stated before)

Queen of Nothing, Isn't this what you wanted? Time sure feels like it's running out Just finish what you started Queen of nothing Wearing such a heavy crown. So. I feel like that’s self explanatory.

The Glacier House, with Snotlout (Or Alvin, I guess, but I think Snotlout fits more with the tragic feel to this song). Bundle up, darling, You made this bed now, Sleep in it soundly if you can, Can’t have it all

Sleeping Giants

Once & for All

That’s my essay, enjoy listening :)

#Other songs by The Crane Wives that may be httydish idk but you really should just listen to anyway #Nothing at All. Ribs. Curses (arguably their most famous song and for good reason) Turn out the Lights. Pretty little things. The garden #Keep you safe. The moon will sing. Allies or enemies. Metaphor. Little Soldiers. Never love an Anchor #Steady Steady. Easier. Canary in a coal mine. New Colors. Icarus. Safe ship harbored. October. I Ain’t done. Take me to war. Hollow Moon. #httyd books #the crane wives #yeah I’m insane about them lol

[vv-ispy]

Deca @ Amos, thinking about how they are doing So Well playing the perfect image of what a couple should be: Do you know why we have been able to live so happily together? We live happily together because you are a girl who Doesn't lay eggs

#(amos does not know how to respond. she also doesn't know what prompted the egg comparison) #however like me deca has steeped himself in endless rev girl utena #but somehow managed to absorb the most conformist message form it #and sees himself with the cool car taking people on midnight rides to convince them of his views #and watches people fight for his entertainment #sees the villain gaslight a middle schooler and goes 'yes those are good things to say the next time I run into that bard' #<- i have a drawing planned for that okay it's SO fitting #......yeah I swear this is funny and fitting. but i may also be going a bit insane. idk if this makes sense outside of having watched uten #he shows the show to amos and goes 'isn't the prince cool' and amos goes '....god i'm anthy for real' #genshin talk

[imwritesometimes]

ngl I've gotten like 95% of my Christmas shopping done, a solid 85% of the gifts wrapped, and I've already gotten most of the food for the Thanksgiving meal I'm hosting including the turkey and I haven't freaked out abt any of it not even once like........ I'm trying not to be like omg I'm gonna jinx it but I'm pretty proud of myself rn

#haven't had *one* anxiety attack over hosting Thanksgiving which is INSANE #I host every year and every year it's like fml fml fml fml #this year I am doing really well! and asking for help where I may need it! and planning it out w/my family #and there haven't been any arguments about any of it it's just been ok yeah I can do that that's a good plan! #really happy abt the Christmas gifts too cause that leaves me more time to decorate and plan for Christmas #which I also host every year #I mean even the kitties have gifts and they're wrapped and ready to go lol #idk man I'm just...... happy??? I feel so much better on my meds dude. #erin explains it all

[death-rebirth-senshi]

Whatever I'm done talking about this but just know I stand with Izzy Hands now and forever.

#the fact that I don't really like Stede and that he continues to be The Worst may be coloring things. #me vs ofmd #Like yeah you're right Izzy should've been meaner (affectionate) #idk it's just such an insane read on their relationship to me to act like Izzy is the only out of pocket one here.

[ufolvr]

Man a show can be like, to my face, "you're not supposed to like these characters they're all monsters and they deserve what happened to them" which is true and I see it and I know it but my hyperempathetitc gay ass is still like. Ok. I am going to be attracted to at least one of them, though.

#i wont be talking about it much but god. house of usher huh. #i may be the only man out there who got something insane in the brain after watching ep 2. idk man my heart just broke. #like yes he sucks but oh man that was so horrid. what was that. im so sorry. also the kiss at his final moments broke me a little too #im just so used to liking characters who r even worse somehow. like i look at these fuckers and im like Yeah man sorry youll Never be frieza #📡 incoming transmission 📡 #me looking at prospero and his 2 partners like wow im sorry i know what youre supposed to represent but im too poly and youre too pretty #ps i mean empathy in the autism way dont loon at me im not blogging off some high horse here. if u think its compassion oh brother.

[astrxealis]

sorry to ffxivlovepost always anyway Man the way the devs & game did so good in making an mc that is Basically a blank-slate for the players, and there's so many opportunities to make your oc However you like but. the game itself adds so much story and character to that blank-slate guy. amazing

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #⋯ ꒰ა ffxiv ໒꒱ *·˚ #i think abt this a lot. and also a lot of other ffxiv stuff LMFAO #it's amazing ..... drk is a huge example of this i think #bcs it plays into the guilt and whatnot the wol feels and all that. spectacular #endwalker !!!!! shadowbringers!!! the way the game uses the concept of hope is just always so beautiful and fascinating to me #and yeah bunch of games may have like. mc you create & design but not always can you like. ehvejfhsjf idk how to explain LOL #it is 4 pm i woke up 2 hours ago but priorly woke at 7 am after havingn a rlly. weird sleep. #to which my twin told me 'i wont tell u what time it is' as we went to sleep so it def was Really late #bcs we were going thru re2 and she was also playing games on steam i've been telling her to play #(to which i got her fav characters right and knew fr how'd she'd like the game LMFAO. twins amiright.) #actually that is also smth so fascinating to me bcs. i always have had someone w me in my life. i am literally never alone. #to which what i'm getting at here is Wow... it's like having a sleepover every single day. and i was a kid always sad never to have #sleepovers bcs my parents were strict (they r cool tho!) but i was a kid who wanted to experience all the kid things #but i didn't rlly but that's fine :P i am a grateful person LOL anyway back on track back on black #ffxiv... the game that u are..... #it's the 1st game that rlly actually made me invested in the ocs of others and also make a fully fledged oc that wasn't just originally mine #but for a fandom or something. and also it got me back into writing and Into making poetry and prose so. yeah. #it's amazing how much. oc x canon ???? yeah. ffxiv is so Wow #like eveyrhhting w themis or graha and how u can AAGGGHHH shit w your oc . so many possibilities #and that character. those possibilities. are already in game but also expanded by the player and the fanbade and #idk it's so beautiful to me WHAGHSGDJDH. and yes me saying themis or graha up there is self-indukgent bcs #both of them are so Insane it's so. insane!!!!! i will never forget what happened in abyssos in particular that Broke me #and anabaseios... :)) i cried so much it is almost embarrassing. and wow. asphodelos. wverything w themis just. yeah #anyway graha... self-explanatory if u know..... idk he's the character of all time to me. simply said. but themis is crazy bcs going thru ab #yssos made me think for a bit 'hey themis might be my fav character in ffxiv now' but No but also Wow. wow #kinda cute bcs me and my twin have a thing where she has a certain type of chara she likes and me too #so sometimes. most times. all times. we have our own characters we like anyway but sometimes they overlap but either the case we kinda #lowkey 'segregate???' idk if that is a good word but we do that w our fav characters. so like emet is her fav elidibus is mine. #and that was all the way in arrr alr and we barely knew spoilers so that's kinda crazy! anyway

[lightbulb-warning]

*yearning* id be so powerful if i knew what the fuck i was doing. at all. at any time.

#so *twirls hair* there's this comic i wanna make i occasionally monologue in the tags about #and the scope of the project is becoming way bigger than planned. i may have started planning two different animatics for an au fancomic. #that i need to make #and i have never finished writing anything in my entire life. and im fully aware there's a really simple fix to that. #plus hey! i literally can't do worse so might as well!! #the things i would accomplish if i weren't horrible at time management </3 #but yeah i really want to make it. im very excited about the prospect of making it. im INSANELY ANXIOUS about what making it entails #i wanna be proud of it!! i want to have finished something!! i want people to have read what i made and got something out of it!! #be it mild entertainment but SOMETHING #AAAA #IVE NEVER MADE AN ANIMATIC IN MY LIFE LETS GOOOOO #idk idk idk. ILL FIGURE IT OUT! #*tumblr user 💡-⚠ was never seen again because it took them five million years* /j. hopefully. #shut up maiora

[rustchild]

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#the back and forth about voting on this website drives me insane because like. voting takes me 15 minutes. #so personally i will vote because it is one 15 minute task that may have a miniscule impact #and not spending those 15 minutes will have no impact #so #obviously for many people there are more impediments and those situations are more complicated! #but it feels like you have everyone yelling at each other as though the only options were #count on the democrats to fix everything and put all of your energy into the electoral system #or abandon any interaction with the system as a symbolic fuck you to the establishment (has no impact either) #like... y'all it's one day #idk it feels like the radical far left position on voting is still fundamentally a symbolic backlash to the annoying lib shit #that's more about positioning the individual identity in relation to liberals/electoral politics #than it is the actual material impact or lack thereof #if you can't get off work or the nearest polling place is very far away and you would rather prioritize other forms of action that's cool #if you want to take a brief period of time to help bring people to the voting booth that's cool too #or if you look at the world and genuinely can't stomach voting for joe biden? yeah that's real! #whatever #just make sure you're doing other shit for the rest of the year