#idk hwat was going through me

[dragooned-speaks]

I just skipped my homework writing this. I gotta speedrun it soon. Anyways, enjoy the last post in what will probably be a while until I finish that fanart of Grian. Okay, tws.

TWs: Blind character, orphans, not much else. Pretty fluffy. Oh! Inprisoning (probably not hwat you imagine.

Also, this is my first fluff fic in a while, as I haven’t written, and it’s editted, but probably still a little cliche and cringy. Idk lol. Also, this is my OCs, as this is just an editted version of a story I wrote a while ago.

Cloud Gazer

Ophelia sighed as she looked into the sky she knew was there. Only a couple days ago, she thought the world was bright, full of joy and equality. How naive she was. Nowadays, she knew better.

“Hey.”

She turned toward the area the voice had come from.

“It’s me. You know. Violet.”

Ophelia could clearly remember Violet. Her violet eyes, the bright smile that believed everyone was good deep down, the black hair that curled more near the bottom. Even the time she attempted to dye part of her hair purple, which succeeded, leaving her with a bright purple streak in her hair for months until the dye faded.

“I remember.”

“Are you… alright?”

She could practically hear the concern dripping into Violet’s voice like an undried piece of art. She laughed, but it was dry, without humor.

“Well, this could be better. You know? I’m only going to be blind for who knows how long!”

Violet’s wince could have been heard for miles around, pained by her friend’s outburst.

“Sooo… Are you okay?”

Ophelia closed her eyes- not like it did anything. Was she okay? She remembered the shock and betrayal, stabbing and eroding her brain how it saw fit. The light, glaring into her eyes until all she could see was a painfully bright white.

“Well, I’ve been better.”

Violet sighed out of relief.

“Do you want some alone time?”

“Nah, it’s nice having you with me.”

“You do remember it is only temporary- right?”

Ophelia was quiet. Finally, she sighed.

“Well, I’m finally used to this now. So, if it does turn out to be permanent, at least I’ll be used to it.

“Hey, at least we’ll have each other. You know? Like we always do.”

Violet winced at that. Ophelia, from knowing her for so long, all these years, immediately knew something was wrong.

“What’s wrong?” Ophelia asked, curious and concerned for her best friend’s welfare. “Is something happening?”

Violet wished she could quite literally disappear. Why would Ophelia ask this now, when there was finally a break in the dark clouds obscuring her friend’s light?

“Well, I’m getting… adopted.”

Ophelia blinked, confused. “That’s amazing, V, and I’m really happy for you, but why is that making you upset?”

The tables seemed to have turned, Ophelia congratulating and assuring that, no, she was genuinely happy for her friend.

“But-” Violet’s voice cracked in her guilt. “T-then- I won’t be there for you.”

The truth seemed to dawn on poor Ophelia like a bucket of ice cold water.

No more whispered late night secrets? No more comforting words when she felt castigated, punished by all around her?

Why, she cried out, why would Violet, after all she’s been through, be taken away from her to who knows where? She forced a smile, but it wasn’t nearly as pretty as before.

“It’s fine, as long as you're happy.”

Before Ophelia could comprehend what happened, a warm pair of unseen arms wrapped around her, making her freeze in surprise.

“Opal, it’s fine to share your emotions, you know. They're not a burden. They’re meant to be shared, not held by one person. I’ll be here for you.”

Finally, Ophelia’s dam cracked. She cried into Violet’s shoulder, and Violet tugged her closer until they were in a proper hug.

Ophelia hugged Violet back, unwilling to say the thought lingering in both their minds: but not forever.

“Good news, girls!”

Ophelia and Violet nearly jumped out of their skin when the director of the orphanage, Dr. Clara Solace’s voice interrupted the peaceful environment.

“While you two were off being cute, you guys got adopted!”

“I know,” Violet sighed. “A nice, happy couple wants me for a daughter.”

“Yes,” said Dr. Clara. “However, the couple wants two daughters. And I told them I knew just the cute duo they would want.”

“Who?” Ophelia asked.

“Why, you two!” Clara grinned.

Almost comically, the two heads turned until two eyes met- one pair a striking violet the most dumb witted boys in the orphanage thought delicate, and another a cloudy shade of pale, unseeing blue.

“Do you know what this means, V?” Ophelia grinned- in what she thought was V’s general direction.

“I think I do, Opal,” Violet grinned right back, not yet ready to spoil the moment by telling Ophelia she was facing the wrong direction.

“I can stick you in a blanket fort dungeon!”

“I can still smack your head with a pillow!”

They stared right back at each other at the ridiculous answers.

“You want to smack my head with a pillow?” Violet questioned.

“You want to trap me in a blanket fort dungeon?” Ophelia asked right back.

Before the girls started what looked like another play fight, Dr. Clara hurried, “Girls, why don’t you go to your rooms? You should be ready for your new home by tomorrow evening!”

The girls raced up, and in that small orphanage room, many people heard squeals of laughter and the dull thud of pillows hitting what sounded like another human. The next day, however, two happy, smiling girls left the room looking like they had no clue that there was a broken blanket fort and a pillow on the floor.

Maybe the world was bright, and it just needed to be shown it could be. All that’s known is at that moment, light was shed upon the living and the dead, all happy and equal in their celebrations.

#oc story #dragoon writes #shaking off that rust #i haven’t written in so long #umm #yeah #have a good day #bye #peace out #fluff #orphans

[raydioactivegeorg]

hi yes so on my birthday my grandmother my brother and i went to hamburg right. and i actually discovered the best place in all of germany which is ✨thalia✨

it's this huge bookshop and oj my gods i love it so much

it has a lot of books right but also this section with things that aren't books and also a cafe thing??????? and a second floor???? but like i always went to the section with the books in english because im too stupid do read anything in german but like. they had heartstopper books. HEARTSTOPPER BOOKS and like pride things right next to them like dude i was going JASIJHDSJKHASJKDHGWA the whole time lookng at it but my grandmother was there so i couldn't really. anyway the english section DDUDE THEY HAD MADELINE MILLER AND THE CLASSIC SECTION WHERE I SAW THE MOST GORGEOUS COPIES OF DRACULA AND DORIAN GRAY AND FRANKENSTEIN ORIGINAL 1818 TEXT AND ASDHWHGFDCBEHBKGEIBHDBHKSKHBWKHBFKJBHCBN@!!@WJH!UHES@ AND SHERLOCK HOLMES AND AGATHA CHRISTIE AND JANE AUSTEN AND IYTS JUST ASJNHGBDFHSVBFHDVSB

so hwat i got i got circe (in english because in german it cost like three euros more lmao???? and i know english better)

what do i even need to say about this. this book is so fucking good. i dont know if youve read it but if you havent do it read it it made me cry like seven times

in my defense, telegonus

i also got two jane austen books (mansfield park and northanger abbey) and im reading mansfield park now im halfway through and its really good and i would die for edmund and i want to kick henry in the balls (btw. asshole henry other than henry wotton they should unite and we can kick them in the balls collectively) but also i accidentally spoiled the ending for myself through edmund's wikipedia page and now i don't really want to read it because like,,,, i mean,,,, i mean it's good but like they're cousins and they got married and like

idk man

but like its good and im excited to start northanger abbey afterwards because the main character is supposed to be obsessed with gothic lit and im like

oh thats me :D yes

so yes ajdnskbfve

i have a copy of circe that my former teacher gave me and i’ve been putting off reading for some reason but no longer. also hAPPY LATE BIRTHDAY MAN HOLY SHIT also KELSJDKSJD THE ATS SO COOL ALSKRKSJDKSJDJSJ!!!!!!!

[colorisbyshe]

I have literally no way of verifying this info so take it with a grain of salt but I heard a while ago mxtx actually was in college when writing mdzs so the confusing style makes a lot of sense since she's inexperienced, and tgcf was much tighter and made more sense. as someone who read the fan translation of mdzs (and never will again, lmao cql is my only canon), it's interesting to hear about your thoughts about the writing and novel! imo there are genuinely spectacular book moments/dialogue/scenes, but most of them made it to cql, and the few good romance scenes (if he catches me I'll-, the yunmeng date extra) rly aren't worth it. I'm personally glad I read the entire book (sans incense burners) because it gives me a fuller perspective and allows comparison between adaptations, but it's not something I would necessarily recommend. the only scene that I think the novel did great that cql didn't have was the wen blood pool scene, but iirc that was in the donghua too. on the other hand the novel had a lot of really cool worldbuilding elements that were explained much better than in cql and I think jin ling was a stronger character so it also depends on what you like and want to see. anyway it's great to hear your thoughts, thanks for posting!

same anon - also love your description of the problems in the framing device in mdzs. you're right! it's inconsistent and a mess! also super insightful to pinpoint the fact that wwx is being used to introduce characters without spoiling them instead of reacting organically to the situation. and his weird interactions with lwj…they were so miserable /sob

Yeah, I do think the novel does a LOT better job explaining word building stuff than CQL did, since it can just... write things out instead of having it just sort of implied or directly stated via dialogue, which can be clunky. I honestly think a looot of hwat I know about the ~lore was actually picked up through checking the wiki or like having concepts spelled out in fanfic by authors who were drawing from both MDZS/CQL information, which... is a problem. Like it's almost all technical information (like about how golden cores work and what specific terms signify) but also some of it is just concepts being better explained when they were skimmed over in the drama.

So the novels do have value in like... padding out the world and maybe providing some character moments (although I will say... I thought Jiang Cheng being homophobic was just like... an exaggerated meme but no he's like... straight up just textually homophobic LMAO... don't know if i needed that enhanced character depth) but they will never be my definitive understanding of the story, even if I do read past Vol 1. And I definitely hve no interest in spending money on or owning the novels, even in a pirated way.

I am still impressed with how enjoyable of a read it is and I think the text holds up better than I thought it would in terms of like... properly dropping bread crumbs for people who know how everything ends, like it lays things out well... outside of the very weird framing of Wei Wuxian himself against everyone from his former life.

Like I said his reactions to everyone... come off as very unnatural and untrue to his character and their relationships, even with how much distance came between them in his final months/years. For how well misdirection worked in CQL at least... it's really not working here when provided with characters more inner thoughts.

So I LIKE having them, at least in theory, and I like more peaks into the background (like Lan Xichen teasing Lan Wangji early on about liking Wei Wuxian's company lmaoooo), but idk if the early stuff is servicing what is to come as well as it should be.

Also... the bad BL tropes are already hitting hard. Like LWJ making WWX sleep on top of him and the moments emphasizing how tiny WWX is now.... girl, the fujoshi within you has leaked onto the page, go clean that up.

I think (from what I know at least, from the manhua and from comparisons) Imas sively going to appreciate MXTX being less present in the CQL adaption. Like I feel the author too much in the novel. I feel the machinations.

So as pleased as I am by the world building and overall narrative/character moments, which is VERY pleased, she really is her own worst enemy. Not even getting into her moral issues just from like a technical stand point, her writing is very frustrating to me.

Going from a superior adaption to the OG text is lot.

It's like... did any of y'all read the thirteen letters? Womb to tomb bitches?? It's like reading that then watching TFA. Like... even the likable things become frustrating because you're so aware of their limitations and how they aren't reaching their full potential.

#i really have jumped from one franchise where i hate the creators to a new one huh #can't even appreciate the source material

[kiwibirbs-library]

okie, whew, last one 😅. I swear if I am bothering you, my deepest apologies. So, the idea for this, your sitting in the common room in the ua dorms at like 3am finishing this book you’ve been reading all day. You start whispering angrily at the main character or really any of the characters for being stupid. Then Shinsou walks in and makes some sarcastic comment about how you are talking to a book. Idk, anyways, you two end up talking for awhile, and you end up sitting beside him and falling asleep on his shoulder. (I’m think you two both like eachother but haven’t told each other yet) idk, anyways, thanks for letting me bug you with ideas. Remember to drink water!

a/n: this..... AH THIS IS WHY I LOVE YOU. You're amazing and thank you for existing.

Shinsou was tired as shit. 

Aizawa had been working him harder than life itself this week and he wanted to pass out. Every night he got back to his dorm it always felt like he was too tired to actually fall asleep. So now it was almost midnight and he could feel his eyebags getting bigger as he laid face down into his pillow. 

The tired boy groaned before rolling off his bed and slipping into a swear shirt. If he was going to be tired he could at least get a snack right? 

He yawned as he used his phone as a flashlight to see down the stares and to the kitchen. Ever since moving to the 1-A dorms he constantly would get confused with the stares. His old dorm was basically the same but flipped so he always when in the wrong direction. Now trying to find where he was going in the dark it was even worse. He squinted as he went down and found the entrance to the kitchen. He quietly hummed to himself as he looked through the fridge for the lemonade he left there earlier. 

When he finally found it he was about to just go back up to his room and watch his shows until he falls asleep. right as he turned the lights off to the kitchen and his flashlight back on however he heard mumbling. If he was being completely honest he thought it was Denki sleep walking again.

Ever since the once incident a few months ago with Denki being found upside down in a cabinet everyone had been on high alert for him and his habits. Shinsou sighed and went over to the couch, seeing the small light there. He looked around the back of the couch, completely expecting to find Denki on the floor knocked out, only to find you curled up in a ball with you face scrunched up with a book shoved in your face. He paused, trying to figure out hwat you were saying.

“Honestly, what an idiot. Why couldn’t you just do what a normal person would,” you sighed. “oh no way don’t do that, that bitch will-- ugh I tried to-- wait what?! NO!” you bolted up from your seat. “The hell!” you closed the book on your finger and put it on your side. You sighed. 

“Are you... talking to a book?” Shinsou snickered into a hand. You flinch harshly at his voice.

“Dear god Shinsou, don’t do that!” you gasped before putting your book down on the table in front of you.

“Sorry sorry,” he paused. “What are you doing though? It’s past midnight,” he crossed you and sat next to you on the couch. Your eyes widened and you looked around you, finally noticing how dark it is outside the windows. Shinsou watched as you frantically searched the blanket on you for your phone. He didn’t feel the smile that slowly spread on his face.

“Oh my god, I guess I got carried away huh?” you laughed to yourself as you leaned back on the couch. Shinsou just silently stared at you as your breathing evened out with your eyes closed. He gave small laugh before copying you. You opened an eye and looked at him. 

“What’s up?” you put your hands between your legs and kicked them out. 

“The things you were saying earlier were amusing,” he said without a beat of hesitation. Your eyes widened.

“I was talking out loud?” you covered your mouth. It was bad enough someone heard you in your small rampage over the main characters decisions, but it was Shinsou of all people. You groaned.

“Eh don’t be so upset about it. It was...” his eyes stayed closed but there was a sudden flush of his cheeks. “Well it was cute,” he mumbled and tilted his head away from you. You felt the corners of your mouth twitch in a supressed smile. “What book are you reading?” he asked, finally opening his eyes to look at you.

“Oh here,” you leaned over and gave him the book. He put his had in his hand and put him up on his knee as he read. You smiled a little and watched him until he turned back to you. You both held the eye contact for a long time, just enjoying the company. When he finally smiled slightly you finally allowed your eyes to move as you straightened and looked forward. 

“So whats it about?” he asked smiling to you. You looked back at him with an arced brow,

“Didn’t you read the back?” you gave him that light laugh. The one that rang in his head for hours after he heard it. He felt himself swallow before answering. 

“Well ya... but I guess I just... wanted to hear it from your point of view,” he cleared his throat before leaning back. You smiled and bit your lip a bit.

You smiled and started talking, you talked about the characters in any form you could and spoke about the plot in a way that would confuse anyone. Shinsou listened intently, smiling as you continued talking about the series. When you were finished you both spoke in sporadic questions. Eventually you both were just sitting in quiet again. Shinsou was about to ask you if you wanted him to walk you up to your room when he found you nodding off next to him. He couldn’t blame you, it was late. Your eyes finally closed and you flopped over on his shoulder. Shinsou tensed for a moment before relaxing and looking over to you with a smile. 

“You shouldn’t fall asleep on someone randomly,” you shifted slightly, getting closer to him for warmth. He swallowed again and covered his face with a hand. Just watching you actually made him feel drowsy. Soon enough he felt his own eyes closing before your hair on his cheek. 

He knew he fell asleep after that, the next thing he regestered was a bunch of voice and clicks all around him. He really didn’t feel like opening his eyes so he just let himself wake up enough to listen to them better.

“how long have they been out here?” “oh my gosh look shes getting closer,” “mina I think thats impossible.” his eyebrow scrunch at the noise. there was something warm on top of him that kept moving too. He shuffled around a bit, making it so he was holding it still and the voices just got more hyper.

“OH MY GOD GUYS!!!” “How manly!!” “Guys you should quiet down the night wake—“ “but Midoriya look at them!” Finally Shinsou opened an eye to find the class staring at they’re phone and freaking out. When he looked down he found a mop of (h/c) hair with you face on his chest.

Maybe you should read later more often.

He would come sit with you too.

Ya that sounds like a good plan.

#mha #my hero academia #mha x reader #shinsou hitoshi x reader #shisnou hitoshi fanfiction #shinsou x y/n #shinsou x reader #hitoshi shinou #shinsou hitoshi #hitoshi #shinsou #mha shinsou #mha hitoshi #mha shinso hitoshi #my hero academia x reader

[watchyourbluesturngolden]

my annotations for chappy 11 of ysijwa

this is just for drea and leyla to read so if you're not drea or leyla pls keep scrolling :)

ok this is pretty chaotic and like i said earlier i treated this ike a wattpad comment section so... have fun ig :)

SHERLOCK AND WATSON CINEMATIC UNIVERSE SHUT UPPPPP I LOVE YOU SM DREA

NOT MISS SNAP CRACKLE POP

jealous y/n you say???

now i know why you ignored all my tiktok asks lmao

HELPLESS OH MY GOD

truly madly deeply intended :)

damn he's kind of a narcissist yk? like "I have to be serious my entire family depends on it" shut up mr darcy you're not special

devout in his religion hmmmmmm hopefully we see some more religious trauma content bc me too vampy

awww he wants kids but now he cant have them bc hes... dead :(

AWWW his sister taught him to knit :( if he doesn't knit bloodbag a sweater i swear to god

stuffy moron is correct

"IT'S A FUCKING WONDER HE EVER GOT LAID" OIJRIOJWEIOJIEWOJFIOEJOF

"THE ATROCITY THAT IS BEING ACQUAINTED WITH NIALL AND HIS HORRIBLE AFFINITY FOR CHEAP FLANEL" ORJFOIJFEIOWJ YOURE SUCH A POET

he's so dumb she was with him bc he's hot that much should be obvious to him🙄

FOOLISHLY HOPELESSLY UNMEASURABLY IN LOVE HWAT THE FUCK DREA IM SAD

i love that he remembers the spinal cord dislocation and the dead leaves . like yea im dead rn but the leaves in my hair are really what's bothering me the most

what the fuck is a maw

ok i looked it up i get it now

"attachment is for gullible idiots" yup and youre one of them vampy 😌

"the warmest skin his icy fingers had ever had the good fortune to touch" im so soft rn

oh so now she has "a wholesome beauty about her nature" ? i thought she was just cute enough 🤨

HE THINKS HER SMILE COULD RESTART HIS HEART THATS SO CUTE IM OUHOIJFOEWIJFIOEWJ

"the responsibility of keeping her safe, satisfied, and happy" how 🥺 🥺🥺

"as long as he breathes" i thought he didn't breathe lmao BUT I GET THE SENTIMENT

"always when it comes to her" IM SCREAMING RN THIS IS SO SOFT I CANT

ill never forgive him for being so dense either his brain is basically a rock

HE WANTED TO COMMUNICATE THAT HE BELONGED TO HER IM GONNA HAVE A STROKE

couldnt be me i dont want to be percieved

HE ADDED A FUCKING BUTTERFLY AFTER THE DISCO BALLS IM OIWFJIOEWJFIOEJIOEWNOJIWJ(*H(WUIOFJIOEWJFIOWHVIFUEH)U)($UT

HEY a hamilton obsession is not childish😤

'the only person who was allowed to touch him there was y/n' he's like a little kid who's possessive omggggggg

oh this reminds me i rlly hope everything in that chest was new and had never been used on anyone else owijfowiejfioewj

oh please my irish king can control himself let y/n meet the other vamps🙄

"if they knew all along why did it take so long" yk im wondering the same thing dummy

"every day was a battle to earn her love and affection" wtffff how could she hurt him like that he is just a baby

i think he needs therapy tbh

yes he does deserve to be treated with respect and dignity😤

"supporting and tolerating them despite your differences" exactly unless they're a republican

IM SORRY THAT WAS MEAN OIWFJOIWJFEIOw i said what i said tho

they did everything backwards but it's what baby needed🥺

im literally gonna 🔪 bradley how dare he hurt my favorite ribeye like that

PROPER BOYFRIEND-GIRLFRIEND BONDING PLSSSSS im sure he makes sure to say stuff like "as your boyfriend' or 'since youre my girlfriend' all the time now

"everything that has to do with harry has always and will always make her feel safe and secure" ...who's gonna tell her👀

HE BECOMES CLINGY IVE BEEN WAITIN FOR THIS ONE TURN IT UP

awwww my love language is also quality times bestiesssssss

(this is more serious you might want to change the words to nose kisses or something because esk*mo is a slur)

HE wants to be wrapped in HER arms and get forehead kissies like a little baby🥺🥺

i can tell you wrote this chappy bc leyla would never write about ice cream

IF CHRIST CAN GET A DATE MARKER SO CAN HARRY OIFJOEIWJFIOEWJFWI PLSSSSSSSSSS I LOVE HIM

ALWAYS FOR HER WEJFIOJWEIOFJEWIOFJOIEWJFOIEWJF HES SO IN LOOOOOVE

HE DID IT AND IM SO PROUD OF HIM🥺

omg i have a thot imagine if she got a heart murmur or something and obvi he knows bc he can hear it so now he has to find a way to make her get it checked out out without being suspicious 😭

HE ROCKS HER TO CALM HER DOWN WHEN SHES HAVING NIGHTMARES IJFEOWIJFOIWEFJ

“nearly blinds himself for eternity” what a drama queen i love him

maybe learn how to turn your brightness down grandpa

“can women sense emotional distress” why is this so funny oiewfjwieojfioewj

DEHUMANIZING OWEIJOIAJAKLFSDJLKSDJFKLD

not a psychotic episode 😭😭

crippling mommy issues woejfkljdklsjsdf me too king

awwwww he made her a full buffet i would cry

matchy socks im gonna sob

king is a chef 😌

y/n’s head @ harry’s clavicle rn: 💥

“his plush chest” drea its ok you can say titties

“absolutely flawless”? are you sure shes not just cute enough 🤨

he got her oat milk 🥺the sign of true love

hes such a shithead i love him

SPELLING HIS NAM E ON HER TUMMY IM HAVING ANOTHER STROKE

“I DIDNT WANT TO LEAVE YOU ALL ALONE” HES SO WOIFJSJFSDKJKLSDJF

HE DIDNT HAVE TO DO NIALL LIKE THAT 😭😭

RAPUNZEL HAIR OSIDJSKJKLSJF

she traces a tiny heart on him wtfffffffffff im sad

this… is hot

“theres no room on the counter” owifjlksjfslkfjklsj

HE WOULD WALK THROUGH FIRE FOR HER maybe then he’d be a little less cold

im sorry that was wrong of me lisjfskldjfwoiejewiojrei

OH MY GOD OWEIJFKLJSKLFJL SHES SO BOLD “can’t i?” OSIJFKSLJLKJF

oh boy hes gonna kill her

I WONDERED WHEN THE YOURE HOT WHEN YOURE MEAN THING WAS GOING TO COME UP

literally shut the fuck up mr english major

do it bestie kick him in the balls

SPARE BOOBIES MAAM I CNAT BELIEVE YOU aCTUALLY WROTE THAT OWIFEJWIJEKLJFOIEWHOEWIFEHFLKEWJFKLEWJKLJFL

IM WHITE IM ALLERGIC TO SPICE WEJFLKJFKLEJFLKJSKLJKFSJD

“character development at its finest” what a self aware king

y/n stop being mean to him baby just wants to feel close ☹️

“I’m anemic” ok king whatever u say

“ME AND MY CHRONIC ILLNESS IM SENSITIVE” IJFKLSDJFKLJSDKLJ

ahhhhhhh it’s yoga time

“just ask your cervix” jlksdjflksdjflkdsjflk

“if only you knew” ☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️

yeah y/n isnt like those other girls 🤪 shes different 🤪

yes bestie objectify him

THERE IT IS MY FAVORITE LINE IN THIS ENTRIE BOOK

PERHAPS MY FAVORITE LINE IN ANY BOOK EVER

“He hasn't been this stiff since rigor mortis”

i think about this on a daily basis i truly do

grey shorts? what a slut

“call the lapd im pressing charges” me after walking up the stairs

OH SO THIS IS WHERE THE GREYS ANATOMY CHARACTERS FROM THE SPOILERS WITHOUT CONTEXT COME IN

him using his shirt as a towel im BARKING

“I wasnt jealous” yea ok 😃

AGAIN HIM DRAWING HIS INITIALS ON HER SKIN THATS SO WOIJFSKLDJFLSJ

yeah harold she just wanted a little kiss 😤

yeah 😃 its bc he ran track 😃

no bc thats so fucking cute that she pretended she had never seen the show before bc he was excited to introduce her to it 🥺

I would do the same tbh i feel like it would be fun to wash dishes with harry idk why

“that skank” oisjksldfjklsjfklsdjflkd

YOUR THICK SKULL COULD DAMAGE THE MARBLE LSKFJKLDSJKFLSDJFKLSJFKLSJKLSJLDKFJLSKDJF I WOULD CRY

he gets her a cup of water 🥺

ok but like wouldn't she want to wash her hair after it got all sweaty at yoga

awwwww she got his toothbrush ready for him why am i so soft rn

memory foam mattresses sound nice but actually they kind of suck bc you sink down and feel trapped in them 😃

HE WATCHED THE TIKTOK SHE SENT HIM IM HAVING A THIRD STROKE

niall is probably on the dumbest side of tiktok idek what side but it’s probably annoying and he thinks it’s hilarious

noooo baby youre not a monster🥺 someone give him a hug rn

well actually you are kind of a monster but its ok we still love u bestie

I too run on caffeine and pizza pockets 😌

TONSIL HOCKEY WHAT THE FUCK OIEJFLSDKJFKLSDJFLSJLKFJSDKLFJ

chatsnap hes such an old man 😭

true lmao if you dont have social media i immediately dont trust you

not the i just washed my hands tiktok 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

HE FEELS STRANGELY PERCIEVED RN KJFLSJFLKSDJ IDK WHY THIS IS SO FUNNY TO ME BUT IM LIKE LEGIT LAUGHING

DO IT BESTIE BITE HIM CHOMP CHOMP

“my eyes are stinging” hes such a baby 😭

“MY SIGH”TS ALL FUZZY” SJFKDSLJFLKDSJFLKDSJFLK

“are you all right” “I dont know :(’ i cant handle this my face hurts from smiling lksjflkjafklj

he has a kitchenaid stand mixer omg thats so sexy

ok but has anyone ever gotten salmonella from raw cookie dough bc i think thats just a myth

fuck u for that one vampy

wow he could never deal with my chronically ill ass

WAIT IS IT WAP

NOPE ITS BETTER LSDFJSDKLFJDS

I agree body is absolutely an instrumental masterpiece

I KNEW HE KNOWS SOME TIKTOK DANCES I KNEW IT

“I know youre kinda into that (getting smacked in the face)” SHUT UPPPPPPP SKJFSKDLJFDS

NOT HIM TWERKING SLKFJSDKLFJDSKLFJDSKL

YES YN GET THAT VIDEO AND BLACKMAIL HIM

“I think i popped something” ok old man 😭

why is the word wench so funny lkfjslkfjdslkfjsdlkfj

dont hand it over i want to see him snap

OH SHIT HE JUST JUMPED THE TABLE LSDFJSDKLFJLKDNMNXCMNJKHOIUIOEUR

oooooooooooo

OH MY GOD AGAIN SHE REALLY IS BOLD SLKDFJDSKLFJLSKDJFLKJFS

not guerrilla warfare 😭😭😭😭

do it bestie give him a concussion he deserves it

“no piece of art could ever compare to her” 🥺🥺

“remember that time you told me making out was childish” “no” i hate him 😭

THERE IT IS AGAIN “sex isnt the only way he can feel close to someone anymore” SHUT THE FUCK UP IM SOBBING

this reminds me of the dehydrated intercourse with demonrry

“don’t care, relationships are about sharing’ hes so sdjfksldjfklsjf

DO IT BESTIE KICK HIS KNEECAPS IN

suing disney for false advertisement 😭

THIS SCENE IS KILLING ME LKJFKLSJFLDSJ “just pucker your lips over it” “You have actual brain damage, dont you?” DREA I LOVE YOU KSDJFLDSKJFLKSDJ

how do those bubbles taste babe

ok drea wtf i was so happy and now this??????

“everything’s wrong” NO SHUT UP SHUT UP ITS HAPPY HOURS

not the boob privileges 😭

WAIT THIS IS FROM THE BSE MV ISNT IT “dance is just so hot rn” “depressing shades are just so hot rn”

NOT HIM GETTING ALL STUTTERY WHEN HE ASKS HER IF SHE WANTS A DRAWER 🥺

NO ONE HAS EVER BEEN THIS GENTLE WITH HIM BEFORE WTFFFFFFFF IM CRYING

“youre so fucking cute, my baby” me when i see literally any picture of him

JELLO HAS a STRONGER BACKBONE THAN THIS KSFJSDKLFJDSKLFJ

“betrayed. objectified. taken advantage of. used. “ i hate him sm 😭😭

OH MY GOD IS SHE GONNA SHAVE HIS FACE THATS SO CUTE IM

SHE ISsSSSSS IM SQUEALING

stop him worrying she’ll think it's weird and wont want to do it 🥺

“bold of you to assume id ever be convicted” PLS DREA LAKFJDKSLFJ

“the more you talk, the more appealing manslaughter sounds” I CHOKED DLSKFJDSKLFJDKSJFDSKLJ

HIM WHISTLING TO GET HER ATTENTION WHY IS THAT SO CUTE

Im sorry but its really funny to me how you wrote the sentence “wrong metal, he thinks ironically” … get it ? like IRONically lkfjdslkfj im sorry i’ll show myself out

“this boy?” what a fucking cutie i want to kick him

I forgot what a bop helpless is thanks for reminding me im gonna go listen to the entire soundtrack again-

theyre so fucking cute i hate them

so yea bascally this is the best thing ive ever read and i love you so much and my face hurts from smiling :)))

#annotations #ysijwa

[mercurymetals]

mercury? merCURY?? can we blease have the story of how and why tf the docs would put you under organ-probation-without-anesthetics because????????? HWAT. you are too powerful... your survived that to tell the tale.. amazing... bless your big guts... how... i'm still ??? also pretty angery at the ppl that made you go through that!! tf !! still reeling!!

medical and other unfun stuff discussions below

haha thank u! it wasn’t full out organ probation, pretty sure that’d be illegal unless something had already made me spill my insides out and it was an emergency. thankfully i still had everything tucked inside, and may i ever!

i fully went to the hospital that day expecting to be knocked tf out.. or at least get a local anaesthetic. but turns out they couldn’t do that because at the time i lived alone, and wouldn’t have anyone to look after me once i went home, which is apparently necessary after anaesthetic. so… we just did it raw laddies. they did give me a gas mask and said they’d give me “happy gas” but it might as well have been recycled air for all the good it did me, and the fucking tube broke halfway through the procedure anyway (i don’t remember if it just became unattached on its own or because i was thrashing/pulling on it?). useless

honestly idk how i survived but ty! let’s look on the bright side, at least i can use the memories to fuel my horror fics lmao! looking back on it, not only the pain, but also my own reaction to it is interesting to analyse and i def use that as a reference when writing, so you know... silver lining!

#but yea this is what i get for being an independent bastard #i should've just lied.. it would've been fine.... but i didn't know they'd do me raw kids!! IF I KNEW... #ask #out of orbit

[lewisandneil]

hello, it’s been *insert 84 years gif* im not like back ‘cause idek what using tumblr is anymore... im a twitter user ~let’s say~ (like i only use it to retweet kpop stuff lol)... cause im not even using my kpop tumblr so... but w/e the point is that im not here to talk about sel*na and niall hanging out in that wedding ‘cause like a few days ago i was thinking how possible would it be for them to get back tgehter (-.-) cause she is single, he is single, there’s no jb anymore (whyy) and im bout to admit that i really think 90% of flicker is about her (why again niall why)... so it could happen. BUT NO I WONT TALK BOUT THAT. im not gonna talk bout how those 8 seconds of louis’ new song made me tear up cause what is feelings?? and like i need the song out now and the album and promo I MISS MY CHILD (even tho i did keep up with him in the x factor ok)  AND EXCUSE ME BUT HOW IS LIL FREDDIE ALREADY 3 YEARS OLD?!!! but no im not gonna talk bout that either. and no im not gonna talk bout... the rumors i read bout leemo and naomi c. cause like what??!?! and the fact that WHERE IS HIS ALBUM WHAT IS HE DOING GOING TO DIFFERENT EVENTS (i know socializing igi), like i need the album (I NEED A LIAM BALLAD, HAVE I SAID THIS BEFORE??) and no im not going to talk bout harry ‘cause i literally (sorry harold) have no idea of where is he, hwat is he doing,.. the only thing i know (through my sister) is that there were rumors of him building a house in freaking tokio?!!! like. but no im not gonna talk bout that. i was only going to talk bout the drama with niall and his (ex childhood bff) cause like WTF?! one of my last posts last year /wee btw HAPPY NEW YEAR LMAO/ was wondering what had happend to that mullingar crew and neil... and now i get this and im just

(yes i used my baby’s reaction gif, appreciate :P)

idek why i still follow sean like... but i’ve read his tweet a few weeks/months ago? about him not being niall’s friend but i didnt think it was like... this. idk man it was such a shock like ¿? BUT YES THIS WAS IMPORTANT so i had to come and rant here =D if you’ve actually made it here... liek i love you. HOPE YOU ALL HAVE A NICE YEAR, I MAY CONSIDER OCMING BACK WHEN LOUIS’ DROP OUR NEW ANTHEM BUT IDK. like i’ve a bunch of stuff in my likes from moooooooooonths ago... maybe someday i will actually reblog them 

i love yoouuu

#personal sheeet #hello im not back lol #my punctuation is so awful here like wtf #ignoreee pls

[therealsinnohdawn]

since it’s a kind of fairly unknown and largely misunderstood label, i thought that for pride month i’d talk a little more about abrosexuality.  also cause i’m procrastinating

so if you don’t know.  abrosexuality is defined as a fluid sexuality.  think of it sort of as being gender-fluid, but with sexuality.  ( i am cis so apologies for appropriating that term, but i’m just using it as a similie)  basically i experience shifts in my sexuality, where sometimes i feel sexually/romantically attracted to men, sometimes to women, sometimes to everyone, and sometimes to no one.  these changes are different for everyone, but for me they can last anywhere from a few days to up to a week.

“but isn’t that just being bisexual?”  well, if you want to look at it that way, maybe.  bi/pan is how i introduce myself to others, since abrosexuality isn’t a term many people know and understand.  but to me it’s not the same thing.  when i’m in a phase where i’m only feeling sexual or romantic attraction to women, i don’t feel like i’m bi.  i don’t feel as though im just bi but having a preference for women, there are literally men that i sometimes find attractive and sometimes do not.  

“uh but everyone goes through that lol you’re just trying to be a special snowflake.”  maybe i am.  but in my experience....not everyone experiences this.  my best friend is a straight guy and i know he never has days where he just feels entirely unattracted to every female.  sometimes people have a guy where they’re like ‘yeah i like him but only sometimes and sometimes he’s annoying.’  but with me it’s more like, yeah i like him sometimes but sometimes i don’t because i’m gay.  idk if that makes sense.

“so what causes these shifts?” idk lol humans are weird.  more often than not they’re caused by dreams, actually.  i’ve always had vivid and intricate dreams every night of my life, and if i have a dream where i have a pretty gf, i’ll think about her and girls the whole day and i’ll be like, men hwat are those.  but obviously that’s not true of everyone.  usually my phases of being monosexual last a few days, and then i kind of go back to my ‘default’ of being pan.  for some people they might just decide, ehh whatever i’m close enough to being pan that i’ll just label myself as that.  which is totally fine, but i’ve always felt that that label doesn’t describe me as well as i’d like.

“what’s it like being abrosexual?”  well to someone with as little experience in dating as me, it’s honestly not that great.  if i’m in a phase of being ‘straight,’ i’m worried that maybe i was making up liking girls all along, and i don’t count as lgbt+, and i’m problematic.  and i can’t even prove to myself that i even like girls since i’ve never dated one.  sometimes if i’m in a phase of being��‘gay,’ i worry that the only reason i feel that way is because i’m so scared of men.  a lot of my gay phases occur after i watch forensic files or hear about some rapist on the news.  and i worry constantly that whenever i do end up in a relationship, theyre not gonna understand why on some days i just can’t give my all.  sometimes i could probably blame it on depression, but sometimes i’m just not gonna have any romantic or sexual feelings for you because i’m not straight/gay/whatever.  but i guess i just have to trust that whoever i end up with, is gonna be understanding and realize that even if we’re “together,” there are some days when i can only be their friend.

“do you only go between gay, straight, and pan?” no.  they are rare, but there are times when i think about romantic and sexual feelings, and just cringe because i don’t want them at all.  i go through phases of being entirely aroace.  but like i said, those are rare, and they last a day tops.  usually only a few hours.

“you’re full of shit, abrosexuality doesn’t exist.  fuck you.”  bruh nothing exists.  all those words are made up.  we’re all gonna die.  language was invented by mankind to give our incredibly short lives at least a little meaning.

“how do i know if i’m abro?”  i can’t tell you, honestly. everyone’s experiences are different.  but have you ever heard, that bipolar disorder is often misdiagnosed as depression, because manic or depressive episodes can last for years?  well i think it can be the same way with sexuality.  i know of abro people who only experience a shift once or twice a year.  but if you feel that way, whether you’re really abrosexual, or just going through a phase that will eventually settle into something permanent, i can’t tell you.  only you can.  and no matter what, how you feel and identify right now is valid and anyone who questions it can suck on a muddy sock puppet.

“what if i only switch between gay and bi?” you can still be an abro bro.  

“what are you right now?” pan and putting off my homework.

so i should probably get back to it, seeing as i think that’s all i wanted to say.  hopefully you can understand a little better now, and feel free to ask me any questions you might have.  happy pride month!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#abro #abrosexual #abrosexuality #pride

[min-ah-blog1]

sunflower :) waterfalls, dimples, blushing and pine?

Wow hello :3333

~ sunflower: if there was a door that went to a city that was a good representation of you, what city would it be and would you go through the door?(I friggin KNEW you woumd ask this ;3333) Hmmm… I guess… Well idk what city describes me well ? Even though I travel a lot I don’t really know much..;; I guess it’d be Antwerp; Belgium. I grew up in this city and I truly love it although I wouldn’t go through the door. I enjoy staying at the place I am :3

~ waterfalls: describe your perfect date.Haven’t I done such a thing before ??? I would say it’d be hanging out in the park, talking and reading, going to a restaurant together, playing games or smth;; nothing too GWAAAH if ya get me ^^;

~ dimples: would you rather be inviting on a hike or a night out? Haha ! funny you ask :3 I’d rather go hiking !!! Even though I hate insects and such with a passion, I’d rather be outside and walk and go on adventures. I enjoy nights out but I’m not someone to go to a lot of parties ^^;

~ blushing: describe a rad person you know.

a hWAT O_O!! Idk;;;;; all of the persons I know are hella rad :3

~ pine: if you could only smell one scent for the rest of your life, what would it be?

Green tea !!!!!! I have perfume of it, shampoo, soap and a lot of other things that smell like it :333 I love the scent so much although I generally dislike drinking tea. Next to roses and herbs of course //^^//

That’s it bby :3

#answer #ask box :3 #yayyy #:333

[nofeelingsandallthefeelings]

loyalty loyatly loyalty

omg i almost left the site to write somewhere else bc this internet is so damn slow. 

im just pertirfied,e verything is moving so fast and it feels like im changin so fast it cant keep up with it. its about m, it has nothing to do with alex. its me. its me and my identity and i take owner ship for that. 

I take full responsibilty for my feelings and understanding that they are feelings and feelings pass, they are there to reflect on something else. the feeling is guilt for leaving alex for some reaons, mostly bc i feel like i owe him everything bc idk how he handled me and all my meses. but you know what, he wanted to do all that, he chose to be there for me, and i love that i appreciate that so much but it doesnt mean i have to owe him my life. 

i need to work on that. I am my own person I am Sharon Jeronimo. I define myself and am my own perons and you know hwat, when i go a day without doing something i love, it makes me forget myself, 

i love writing i love painting i love teaching, i love learning and i cant go without it. i am learning to love myself and part of that is letting go of thigns that no longer serve me. boolin around doesnt serve me any good and its no longer fun, it makes me more anxious than anything. i just need to get in tune w my body. 

everyday i say im going to stop taking pills and since then i havent followed through. im an addict, we’re all addicts, i dont know and am leanring to navigate the stresses of having to be an adult and really be on my own. 

thats what it is: i am alone in this world. i think alone, i feel alone, i was born alone, i will die alone. and its hitting me full force, it feels like a survival mode thing. i have to do whats best for me always bc in the end, im the one left with what will happen or what happens, i am responsible for me. and im leanrnig and doing a great job. i am extending compassion to myself. 

it also makes me so sad and hurts my heart that i feel resenment yet entitlement towards shawn, that’s something that i just definintely need to work through. it literally has nothing to do with alex, it has to do with me and my realtionship with myself. 

it had nothing to do w shawn, it has to do w me. 

i relaize i think im mad at myself relaly, maybe i resent myself the most than anything at the moment and i need to extend compassion. 

when do i start? 

today, its ego. 

and the fact htat the social media thing is a thing is....mind blowing and so real, i am great and i can show but i care too much about what people think, how the fuck do i let that go. even yesterday when them hoes thought i ate that cookie it gave me anxiety, where does this come from? 

i am excited to go to therapy and to live in LA. i know its a new chapter and i feel good about it, i start today. 

im dead, i died october 10, truly and i got a ring to promise. 

i promise myself to put myself first, work on myself, express my feelings and acknowledge and validate them, no matter how quirky, i wont judge myself. im a human and i am not perfect. 

thats another thing, i want to be perfect and guess what? im a human.it starts today baby. 

i am a human being

i am a human being

i am a human being 

i have feelings, thoughts, worries, concerns

I am a human being

I am a human being

i forgive myself for mistakes 

i work on myself

i am human

i am sharon

i am human

i am

i sitll dont get what being just saying”i am” means but i just know I am. and thats all that matters. I am here and I am

ANDSO IT IS 

Nov. 3.2019.2:40/41pm

[abandoned-as-mustard]

DD 2x01

Daredevil and batman have something in common - they like to stand on top of high buildings and brood

I love how they’re mostly keeping him out of the shots and just focusing on the crims getting their asses handed to them

Oh, this guy really has no brains, does he? Taking his hostage into a church?? getting himself cornered

So it’s summer now, then what was it last season? What year is it? Is it a year later?

“I’m in agony” “what, did you go out to the gym?” “No matt, do I look capable of making healthy life choices?” honestly, me

Naw, foggy patching him up with a lil handkerchief

“What about us?” bromance going strong

Ohhh look at their office! It’s full of people! Look at all those clients! They’ve come a long way

Wowww dat’s a lotta food

Oh nu they’re broke….

If matt starts work at 9 every morning and he’s up all night running around in a devil’s suit then when does he ever get sleep??

I think that’s the main reason I could never be a vigilante. Just the sheer lack of sleep

An Irish crime family with no Irish accents

Gunfireee???? That’s not matt’s style, this is someone else

dang, now who’s gonna eat all that lovely food?

Food is covered in blood. Such a waste.

Oh haha wtf? dead bloodstained guy and his shirt starts ringing with “lord of the dance”

“Don’t let her out of your four working senses. She’s smart and she’s beautiful - reminds me of myself”

matt trying to play pool with no sight, interesting

Yeah we get it Karen, you love touching him 😂

EYYYY HE HEARD HER FAST HEARTBEAT

The lone survivor of the massacre has come to seek help

“What if the criminal wanted to change his career?”

OH NO WHAT

IS HE DEAD

Well thank you cameras for that tunnel vision shot going through one end of a guy’s body and out the other

“It’s gonna take weeks to process this shit! ... Where’s this asshole’s hand?” Idk why but that made me cackle, just sick and tired cop trying to do his job

“You can trust us. We’re lawyers.” I bet foggy’s been waiting his entire life to say that

“These aren’t guys you can challenge to a fist fight in your underwear!” “first of all, it’s not underwear… Underwear is comfortable.” That … did not go where I expected it to go

Another gang, bet they’re gonna get taken out

Lol I was right. Hello daredevil!

*takes the keys to his car and throws them in the water because he’s petty*

Foggy going into a shady bar that looks like a darker version of the south side serpents

OHHH THEY’VE EVEN GOT GANG JACKETS LMAO

Old dudes get your filthy paws off my boi foggy

OhHHH THAT IS JUST GRUESOME

A BUTCHER WITH DEAD PEOPLE IN IT?? IS THIS THE SWEENY TODD?? ARE THEY GONNA BE PIES??

HOLY SHIT THERE’S AN ALIVE DUDE

“No they. him. It’s one man.” OHHHHH

Is this… is this Frank Castle??

IS THIS THE PUNISHER????

Oh dear lord stairwell scenes make me so stressed

Come on gimme a look at his face!!

Oh lovely, spitting a shower of bloodWHAAT

SHOT

MY BOY GOT SHOT

WHAT HWAT WAHt

#brc watches daredevil #brc witnesses bromances #plot is thickening #some new guy gone all black ops on everone

[helmes-deep]

82 Truths Tag

hwat. is. this...

Tagged by: @shinwhoohoo what have you made me do loool  Thanks, dear!! :D

Rules: Answer these 82 truths about yourself and then tag 25 people.

Note: *this was done during the fall semester quite a couple months back lol, but most of the answers are still pretty accurate*

Most Recent:

Drink: tae HAHA tea and water

Phone call: I don’t have a phone so nobody calls me or vice versa haha. Last e-mail I got was an app update saying one of my assignments had been graded :3

Text: Someone I know from school

Song you listened to: “Introduction: Youth” by BTS; it really is my new favorite song rn... so good “Single You Up” by Jordan Davis. I am NOT a country music fan by any means, but this one is too catchy!! haha xD

Time you cried: 2½ weeks ago?? At night... in the dark... by myself... huhu :’3

Have You Ever:

Dated someone twice: No. Fun fact: I never even dated anyone once lol

Been cheated on: No

Kissed someone and regretted it: No

Lost someone special: Yes

Been depressed: I did have a spell once, about a year or so ago

Been drunk and thrown up: No, I don’t drink

Kissed a stranger: No

Glasses/contacts: No, but I’m starting to think I need glasses (I feel near-blind when I try to read text from farther away!! xD)

Had sex on a first date: No

Broke someone’s heart: No

Turned someone down: No lol. I have turned down people for other things though, like party invitations or chances for group work... really awkwardly, too, haha...

Cried when someone died: Yes

Fallen for a friend: What are friends?? LOL we’ll just say no :p

In The Last Year, Have You:

Made a new friend: Yes??

Fallen out of love: No

Laughed until you cried: Yes, today actually lol!!

Met someone who changed you: Not necessarily... I have learned quite a few things from my current cohort of student teachers though!!

Found out who your true friends are: I only got one real friend... my brother is my best friend haha... so no RIP LAWL

Found out someone was talking about you: Not in the way you’re probably implying, no I don’t think so.

Kissed anyone on your FB list: I don’t have an FB!! :o

Right Now:

Eating: Nothing, had a ramen cup for dinner a few hours ago :p

Drinking: Nothing, just finished my glass of water

I’m about to: Just finished a slide of the “3 Types of Conflict” in literature; about to go to sleep, yay!! :DD

Listening to: Portugal. The Man’s new album (released today) :o

Want:

Kids: Yes!

Get married: Yes!!

Career: High school English teacher and/or writer!!!

Extras:

How many people from your FB list do you know irl: FB IS FOR LOSERS!! >:DDD

Do you have any pets: No, but I’d love to get a dog when I’m older

Do you want to change your name: Because my name is a “legitimate” Asian one, I’ve often used to wonder if I should change it to an English one, or at least get a more Americanized nickname. But by now having gone through 20+ years of life with my original Asian name, I’ve come to appreciate its beauty and unique-ness, kind of like how you grow to love and accept body features that you might not have been too happy with when you were younger. I don’t really have a problem with people mispronouncing my name, as long as I can tell they’re putting the effort in to try to say it correctly. I’m actually very interested in how different people choose to pronounce my name upon first try (so at the beginning of the semester, one of my professors asked us to tell her in advance how our names were pronounced if they had a difficult pronunciation so that she wouldn’t embarrass anybody when she called roll. Idk if it was rude, but I didn’t raise my hand :p I was just really curious to see how she would pronounce it lol.).

What did you do for your birthday: I probably went out to eat... or ate at home with my family... maybe went shopping during some later date... bought some CD’s online?? :DD

What time did you wake up today: 6 AM. My wake up time will be 4AM in a few hours :33 I CAN WAKE UP AT 9-10 AM NOW YAYYYYYYYY!! LOL

What were you doing last night at midnight: SLEEP THANK GOODNESS

Name something you can’t wait for: BTS’s WINGS album in October!! lol uhhh... getting hired for a teaching position Nothing, recently :/// Maybe Phangs’ new album Get In My Arms, coming June 28th??

Last time you saw your mom: Like an hour ago?? About to be a minute leol

What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: Idk if I’d actually want to go back and change the circumstances that have made me who I am now, but one thing I wish I had realized earlier in life is that starting to work toward your dream job doesn’t (and probably shouldn’t) start when you enter college.

Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: Nope, don’t think so.

What’s getting on your nerves right now: Just those instances where I can’t focus on schoolwork and am spending too much time on Tumblr or procrastinating, thus not getting enough sleep and feeling terrible the next day.

Blood type: This question has come up a few times for me from time to time, but unfortunately, I haven’t had the chance to look it up or bug my mom enough about it to confirm what my blood type is.

Nickname: I don’t have one, most likely because of how my “legitimate” Asian name makes it hard to form one in English (actually one of my students started calling me something based off of my last name leoool).

Relationship status: Single

Pronouns: She/her

Favorite TV Show: Daredevil

Long or short hair: For me?? Long. Though it’s short right now haha

Height: 5′2″

Do you have a crush on someone: Like on a real person in my life right now or someone who isn’t, oh I don’t know, an ocean or two away and living in South Korea?? :pp So no

What do you like about yourself: That I’m highly organized, artsy-ish, smart, thoughtful, and loyal.

Right or left handed: Right.

First surgery: Never had one :o

First best friend: Anna, from kindergarten to 2nd grade. I hope she’s doing well in the world right now...

First sport you joined: Basketball in 6th grade. That was the one and only time I ever did any “official” sports related activities because my mom was not big on me playing any sports lol.

First vacation: When my family took me to either a museum, national park/garden, or Six Flags when I was much younger.

List 3 favorite colors: Pink, brown... and whatever else. Maybe white??

Which Is Better:

Lips or eyes: Eyes

Hugs or Kisses: Kisses

Taller or shorter: Taller

Older or Younger: For a future husband, older; for anything else I don’t really care lol

Romantic or spontaneous: Romantic... but don’t overdue it haha

Sensitive or loud: Sensitive

Hookup or relationship: Relationship

Troublemaker or hesitant: Hesitant, definitely. Troublemaker might not even be an option lol

Do You Believe In

Yourself: As in am I confident in myself?? Ideally, yes. Realistically?? I’m still getting there :p

Love at first sight: If you mean by like, a suddenly instant infatuation or attraction to someone, whether physical or through what they do, then sure. But I don’t think “true love” really develops with someone until you’ve gotten to know that person and their personality, likes/dislikes, quirks, etc. first. Once you really get to know a person, then I think true love can develop/exist.

Miracles: Yes. I am a Christian, so I do believe that miracles exist, from large to small, even in this day and age.

Heaven: Yes. Again, because I am a Christian, I do believe Heaven exists. I also believe in a Hell and God.

Kissing on the first date: No lol. I’ve got no problem with it, I just prefer not to :p  

Wow that was a lot, but interesting!! Not tagging anyone but y’all feel free to do it if you’d like – don’t forget to tag me!! :3

#tagged

[i-dont-want-to-forget-this]

hi i just wanted to talk

i dont really have any sort of direction or reason that i wanted to talk but its 9:30pm and im alone and im in a typey mood and i dont want to just watch more how i met your mother. (im on episode like 17 i was on like 2 this morning thats so embarrassing.) anyways. i should probably watch a disney movie to help fuel the reigniting fire inside of me, but idk it just hasnt happened yet. oh im waking up at like 6am tomorrow morning rip me amiright or amiright. obviously relationships have been on my mind a lot lately. theyre hard. honestly, i know that once one of radk starts dating someone im going to feel the need to be a know it all (WHICH IS SO ANNOYING SUCH A BIG FLAW I HAVE) and be like ok but dont believe all the sweet things they say because boys lie!!!!!!!!! which is true. lets be honest here they do. they say very very sweet things to win over your heart because they want you and they know that saying those things will make you swoon. and it sucks because it will work and youll believe what theyre saying, hell, they may believe what theyre saying at the time but surprise things change sometimes. and thats ok. the world is constantly changing. it jsut reallt really really really sucks when soemthing you thought could be a constant is not. FOR EXAMPLE:::::

1. “camille, listening to you is infinitely more important than this right now,”

which, in his defense, wasn’t a lie. he said right now. but thats not the point the point is that i could have sworn phil laplante would listen to everything. every complaint every hope every dream every belief everything. but we are about to hit 4 months (oh my gosh only 4 months) and i cannot tell you the last time i truly felt listened to by him. which hurts my heart does not hurt my heart as much as:

2. “i love you my dearest, kaibigan, unconditionally.”

i just literally dont believe you. i dont. and heres the thing. tears shed over phil suck/ed. ok. theuy stunk before im sure theyll stink in the future, and it hurts and it sucks but OH ME OH MY IT IS NOTHING. NOTHING IN COMPARISON. TO THE PAIN INFLICTED ON MY BY ONE OF THE LOVES OF MY LIFE. i feel like shes not even mine anymore. is this a dramatized version of camille speaking? probably, but she deserves to have a say too. and it sucks. so much. to feel like youre all alone because the one person you swore would love you no matter hwat you did or what you coujld do would still love you just kind of stops becasue she finds new firends to become obsessed with this sucks because i used to be that new friend. she used to be obsessed with me and thar hurts likea  mother tucker. i think ive developed shades of trust isseus. maybe. id ont really know i jus tknow that it sucks SO MUCH to think of my two favorite people on the planet both being uninterested in me wow that hurts a lot. and it makes me sad to think that i could be someones favorite person on the planet and i ditched them im sorry i dont wantt o make you feel that way but i feel as though i ahve and i am so sorry. THERE IS SO MUCH HURT IN THE WORLD AND THAT SUCKS ASS. A LOT. LIKE A LOT OF ASS. But there are also some beautiful things in the world. things like music. i love music. things like stories. stories are so fascinating. there is constantly something happening on earyh and there is a select few numbers of people who will experience it. 

im rediscovering myself. i lost her somewhere. somewhere in the mix of the kissing and the new bralettes and the frozen fruit snacks and the engieneers and the design projects i left her somewhere. shes out there. or maybe shes in here, tucked away behind a familiar smell. or maybe a new smell. i dont know what she likes. i dont know how to coax her out of me. shes made some appearances, for example when i was scrolling through instagram after that himym episode and it was earthyandy showing off some of her vegan ice cream with 10,000 emerald pools playing it jsut reminded me of humans existing and it was beautiful. and there are shades of her still in me writing this todaybut she doesnt overflow me anymore. which is ok. id rather have her be a little hidden than be garbanzo.

things that hurt:

thinking about the honeymoon phase.

and i know that this is like with God, am i in it for the reward or am i in it for Him? (ive come to discover im still very much in it for the reward i think. i am not the best. but im working on it. am ia ctually working on it. or do i just say that and ignore it. id ont know but i cant afford to put myself through the hurt of telling myself that im doing nothing.) 

but God, like actually God, I miss it.

i miss the romance. i miss feeling like i was floating, like the world was saturated, and my face was hot and things were sweaty in the best way. i miss feeling like i was flying, and like nothing had and ever would hurt me (sidenote, things did hurt.) i miss 

i miss still being pure

thats a rip

i am weak

but its in the past

i dont know if ive actually forgiven myself for that one yet

i feel less disgusting and more loveable than i did previously, which is good.

maybe im not ready fora  relationship.

but when will i be

i need to learn somehow

has phil been perfect?

no!

no he hasnt!!

today he told me “im going to stop replying for a while, dont get offended.”

which.

1. sucks. or well, is odd.

if he had opened and left me on read i wouldnt even flinch

if he just sent back a smiley face id be like lmao, probably send back a bitmoji

but he told me it was going to happen. which is just so weird.

2. i feel like im more offended that he told me to not get offended. dont tell me what to do. which, ok, i realize could be crazy, he jsut doesnt want to hurt my feelings but believe it or not phil its a little late for that its happened and im ok im fine ive forgiven it. i think. maybe. i just want to be there for you and with you and actually scratch that i want you to want me to be there for you and with you. i just dont feel very wanted by you sometimes which, weve discussed before i know that you know that youre not affectionate. or at least not when were in real life and not honeymooning (sidenote i feel like our honeymooning phase was shorter than others were and i find that unfair but whatever.) i signed up for htis. im consciously dating someone that is distant. am i okay with that? i dont want to jsut date boys to feel like im flying though i want us to 

i dont know

i was going to say be a team

but thats what phil says

and i dont want to let him pick these words for me

remember when i wrote that poem about chaos

and how i felt like i was in a storm and i dont know what to hold onto and i was like oh jk i want to hold onto you

yeah

me too

i think im there sitll

and like you said

the storm is inside your brain

and i want to be able to be the one to calm it

but maybe thats not my job

mabye thats a different persons job

maybe it is j=my job but its my job for later

maybe its your job

i dont know

but the idea of youd ating someone else really sucks

like a lot

liek a lot a lot

because i know

i know what the hunt is like now

i can imagine 

all of our friends

sitting somehwre, id ont know

and all the boys are checking out the hot girls around

and maybe im just old fashioned

maybe im still naive

maybe i am still just a noob

but that sucks so much

i dont want to be replaceable with a deli girl

or with ffg

not that theyre bad or anyhting but its the princile of it

that when im gone you jsut go back to sitting in the purple chairs at storms planning how to talk to the next girl

WOW THAT SUCKS

A LOT

THATS NOT HOW IT WORKS FOR GIRLS

And mayb ethats the point

actually i tak that back

im sure thats how it isf or some girls

but phil im not just some girl

phil im the girl that made lauryn hurley feel loved

im the girl that helped bring radk together

im the girl that blew ms crsit away

im the girl that used to look down in the damn hallway but looked up because she liked a boy

i didnt look up because i wanted to see a hot rack with blue eyes and a nice ass

i looked up because i wanted to be noticed

and intriguing

and wanted

and i jsut dont really feel like any of those things by you sometimes

and that hurts a lot

what is the point of this

this just sounds like i dont want to date him anymore

but i do

do i or do i jsut not want change

i do

i think

id ont know

but camille

right now you get the best of both worlds

you get to date him

who is goofy

and smells really good

and is strong

and is hungry for God 

and is grateful

and is

well

i was going to say a good listener

sometimes

but there is so much space between you two becaues this is a time for you

no one but you, camille

you can grow

this is a summer of self improvement.

you lost yourself somewhere and tou dont need anyone to help you find her

thats a lie

who i am is reflected onto me by those around me

but still

i dont need him.

i dont want to need anyone yet

i am young

im still finding out what i want

im still discovering myself

dear God,

i cant do this without you

youre the only one who will love me and satisfy me

“the human world, it’s a mess”

youre right

but thats knida the point

we feel things

we hurt

we love

we lvie

we cry

we laugh

we do all these things

and feel what we think is great

but then when we get to feel you, oh lord, we are blown away.

you are so much greater 

and i am not worthy, but only say the word and my soul shall be healed

im sorry

im sorry for disappearing

and i honestly cant see myself running back soon

which sucks

and i dont know how to fix it

i think i hurt a lot

which is so backwards

but im doing what they say normal people do

am i normal though

no

i literally jsut said im not

God i need you

help me find you

i bet you know how to find me.

[survivoremathia]

Ep. 11 - "The Time has Come to Slay the Beast" - Duncan

OWEN

fuck you jay have ur damn confession

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In other news, I did not too bad on the immunity and then realized that if I win a third in a row I'm going to be the biggest target which was literally the opposite of the strategy I was going for so hopefully someone did it in less than seven. My strategy was good tho I'm pissed like it is literally not in me to not try/throw a comp and it's not good news but like I just WANTED TO DO WELL OK THIS COMPETITION WAS FUN DFSAJKNHFJDSKHFSKJADFH I'M CRYING Anyways! It's final nine and this is the round to make a move, I think. Sam really pissed me off last round being all wishy washy and non-committal. People like Ryan blame Trevor for being controlling but it's literally what Sam wants. Sam wants to be "told" what to do, or to not have an opinion, so he doesn't seem like the leader he is but like... It's so obvious to see through. He acts like he doesn't know what's going on or what other people think, but he does. Take an acting class, betch! I don't know if it's smarter to go for Sam or Ali or JD. I guess like... Sam: Pros, he's the biggest threat of the three and he has an idol and he personally acts like an idiot even though I really wanted to work with him he gives me NOTHING and I want revenge! Damn! The con would be that...he has an  idol and he's always paranoid af and he'll probably play it. Another con is that his minions Ali/JD can be easily swayed without him, and someone could scoop them tf up. Ali: Pros, Sam has mentioned needing to get Ali out although idk if it was a lie or not. He's got the best social connections out of everyone and people genuinely want him to win. Cons, he's arguably more loyal than Sam and he's a lot less frustrating to talk to and I like him. Also leaving Sam in the game with an idol after taking out his ally is not a good. JD: Pros, she's the least likely to be expected as a target, she like....is so naive in terms of trying to save Ryan last round and then telling Trevor "oh you're the leader" like, girl bye. Cons, Ali/Sam could still be in the game as a tight duo, and also she seems the easiest to beat in the end of the three.... Idk! I don't know. It also depends on what I can get Logan/Duncan/Lydia/Trevor to agree on, if anything. And also like... immunity results will matter. And Sam's idol. And then like idk what Ryan is gonna do! So! We! Will! See! I! Guess!!!!!! Also Ryan messaged me this morning and like I do want to work with Ryan still but I'm worried that he views me as tight with Trevor and if I say anything to him or give him any info he can use it to turn others against Trevor and I so dskjafhadsjf idk what to do about that but we'll see if he messages me again huh!

DUNCAN

noh wow! Oh Wow!! OH WOW!!! 

An alliance called "oh wow!" Just was made between Owen Logan and I, which is good bc I need two of the people I'm closest to to have some type of trust with each other and not come after each other's necks. In other news I crackt the code in mastermind in 5 guesses!! I'm very happy and proud of my score even if I don't win immunity, but it would be a good confidence booster tbh. And one last thing. Whoever told RTP I was leading a charge against him, you better watch your back because I'm saltier than a tortilla chip. I hope they have their boxing gloves on, bc I'm ready to swinG

JD

I'm not going to lie, I'm really frustrated.  The touchy subjects really did bother me because me and Ali are both playing this game, we might not be the ones calling all the shots that that doesn't mean we aren't in the conversations. I get were people would say it and I see how it was the easy way to do it, the newbies are getting pulled along. That's fine, cheers. AliWelp, skype killed the hype, and potentially my game. Lydia had proposed this amazing big move for tonight, but I'm scared these tech issues might ruin it. Like... ughhh such a shame. Anywho, on a positive note, I made Final 9! :) Outlasting, 13 people already is phenomenal, so that's amazing! I'm ready to go for broke now. Ideally, I want Trevor,Owen,Sam and Ryan out as the next four boots, as the four biggest threat for the end. My dream F3 is JD and Logan, with Duncan as a possible alternative, and Lydia as a 4th choice. They're the people I think I have the biggest chance of hopefully beating. Lydia is dangerous though, so I don't want her going too far...

RYAN

[7:36:08 PM] Ryan Palmer: i mean we don't really have another choice lmfao [7:36:19 PM] Ali: yeah, we're kinda limited for options eek Gee....limited for options against that alliance....gee....its almost as if....SOMEONE COULD HAVE BEEN TRYING TO DO THIS FOR 2 ROUNDS....if only ppl like matt or david who would have voted with us were here....i seriously cant with these ppl....i literally told everyone if they were gonna wait it was gonna be too late....fuck

JD

Rob getting into the jury, I don't know how I feel about that. I don't think Rob was really happy with us when he got voted out. 

LOGAN

Sorry I'm late on confessionals :( Anyway! Owen made an alliance chat with me, himself, and Duncan, which I'm happy with. Ali pitched the idea to me to have an alliance with Lydia, myself, JD and Ali. That sounds workable, and suddenly I see the ground beneath my feet in this game. I need to work out how to get to the end from here - I still do not have a solid f2, which worries me. I could go for a f3 with Owen and Duncan and play the middle of those two, but Trevor is? Talking to me? Wild. I guilt tripped Ali so badly last round because he told me the vote was for David and *insisted* that, and I nearly voted for David, but thanks to Duncan... whew. Saved that. But now Ali feels super guilty. Ethos, logos, pathos? Using them all, but pathos was my friend then. Good use of pathos, actually. My english teacher wishes. David is gone now anyway, which I feel sorta bad about, all the boys in this game are super cute and too pretty to be getting early boots. I do trust Duncan, but I'm not 100% how much. At least we aren't viewed as a duo. But he said it himself, we were two people brought together by unfortunate circumstances, and in my experience, that never works out. But I'll stick with you, for now. We'll see. At this point, I can't win this game. I maybe could get fifth? Maybe. If I really work it. My UTR game won't cut it, I really need to be MOR, or else I'm getting the block. Time to show my value to people, or become fifth juror - one of the two. 

OWEN

I think as of right now the ideal final three for me would be myself, Logan and Lydia. Getting there though with that specific group is...not necessarily the easiest thing. Especially because I've basically sworn not to screw over Trevor or Duncan. And I don't really want to have to put either of their names down, but I know they're bigger threats than I am. Maybe I could beat them in the end... But do I really want to beat Trevor and have him lose in the finals a third time? I want Trevor to do well and I want to see him win. But I want to win too! So I'm at a bit of a conflict here. Ideally, Sam/JD/Ali go now and probably another one of them goes next. Maybe it could be like... Sam and JD or Sam and Ali. Then at final seven I think it would be good for me if Trevor left. It'd have to be at seven because that way, Trevor/myself/Lydia could vote one way and then Duncan/Logan/Ryan/Thing 1 or 2 (whichever is left) could vote Trevor. Then at a final six, maybe the other Thing (Ali or JD) goes. Final five would have to be Duncan. And the final four would be me, Ryan, Lydia and Logan? Then Ryan goes fourth? Maybe? That's one way to get there but that counts on a lot of things going right with immunity and idols and also that counts on me being very aware of Trevor and Duncan both leaving and potentially having a hand in that and that's....not good! NOT GOOD. ugshfsdfsd

OWEN

SOOOO! JD won immunity which limits my options to Ali and Sam I guess. But I did have a plan. Trevor mentioned that Sam told him that Ali has to go eventually. So my thought is that Trevor tells Sam that it's time to do Ali. And so Sam thinks we are voting Ali, he knows the votes will be me Trevor Logan Lydia and Duncan against Ali. And that way like maybe there's a chance he just votes Ali Idk!!! But then in reality the five of us vote for Sam. That way the idol is gone, guaranteed. He either plays it on Ali and leaves or he votes for Ali and keeps his idol. The only problem is if he doesn't believe us and plays it on himself instead, which makes me think maybe like.... idk maybe Logan uses the extra vote they supposedly have and we split the vote somehow. I guess that plan would depend on what ryan is doing. And I wouldn't want to tell ryan the plan in case he still goes for Trevor. Idk!!!! I guess we could also make it seem like we are going for Sam and vote Ali instead but I think it's more realistic to do the other plan since sam has expressed interest in voting out Ali anyways??? It's hard calling shots because I'm not immune this time, but Trevor does still have an idol as well so maybe he could play it just in case. Idk!!! We will see

JD

I won immunity! I'm so excited right now, those puzzle skills my preschool teacher was talking about finally paid off! *happy dance* 

SAM

HEY! I CAN'T WAIT TO GET RIGGED OUT OF THE GAME. oooooh hosts you really had to do that huh I would be beyond stupid to not think that I was the target of the other side this round--people know that I'm close with Trevor, but I am willing to drop him at any time. So this round, even though I knew I was in some hot water, I was like "oh, I have Trevor's idol in my possession, and I have one that he's willing to play on me. I'm like a poached egg not fully hard boiled--I'll be fine." THEN OH THEN Duncan steals Ali's ability to go to the Labyrinth and YOU KNOW HWAT HE FUCKIN FINDS?????? HE FINDS A DAMN ADVANTAGE THAT ALLOWS FOR ME TO NOT VOTE AND MAYBE SUPPOSEDLY NOT HAVE ANY ITEMS PLAYED ON ME????? FUCK THIS????? the worst part is that I don't know what I'm up against! because owen isn't being forthcoming to trevor! so i don't know if trevor can play an idol on me at all or if i can't play an idol just on myself but I know I can't vote! so i need to give an extra vote to someone who will vote on my side!!!!! i hate!!!!! this!!!!!! so now i actually have to scrape for literally everything while other bitches don't even have to lift a finger!!!! AAAAAHHHHHHH!! hosts if i go out tonight i love you BUT this is a shitty way to go that i don't really have control over!! call me malcolm binch!

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sorry for all my yelling like i just thought this one was meant to be. i was ready!!!!

OWEN

So the plan is pretty much set in motion. I think Logan and Duncan are on board to vote Sam. AAAADN duncan apparently found a power to cancel sams idol???? Which would be???? Greater than Frosted Flakes. But this just makes it extra clear that's Sam CANT KNOW anything is going on. Which is where I might've messed up. Trevor said he would talk to Sam but I got the feeling he wasn't really doing it and I told him about Duncan's power oop and he was sketched out by Duncan, as he is. Cue the argument about whether or not Sam should go!!!! Yay!!!! So I've basically just gotta convince Trevor to do it. And to keep his mouth shut. And he's....impulsive. I don't think he will. The good thing is he's coming here tonight!!!!! So if I need to I think I can convince him in person. I just have to hope by then it's not too late :( I'm not afraid to flirt my way to Trevor's brain to try to get him to follow through with this. All is fair in love and war.

OWEN

talked to sam and he's high key paranoid what a surprise I brought up doing Ali....screams. He said no, pretty much, and mentioned doing Trevor instead which to me seems sketch cause idk why he would suggest that so easily to me of all people. He wasn't being very clear, like usual. I basically told him to wait until final seven SHSKDJDJJD to do Trevor and Idk he said he wasn't seeing the picture and so when I asked him like... what the picture is what he thought the next few votes would be he said he didn't think that far cause he's not there yet. My bullshit radar is goin off!!!!!! :~) I'm not sure what the convo meant. It's the first time he truly wanted to talk to me. But he did bring up just going for Logan so idk. We agreed to talk again in a little bit. And Trevor will be here in person soon. And I just need this all to work out because i think if it doesn't then I'm toast Know this tho if Trevor ruins this for me then I'm not holding back anymore!!!!!!!!!! I'll help him pack his bags!!!! 

TREVOR

https://youtu.be/JyDLok_-pDI

JD

So this vote is going to be reealllly messy I think. So far as I know: Owen and Duncan want to vote out Sam, Trevor doesn't wanna do that because ovbs, Sam gave him the idol and he feels like Sam will probs be usefully (sorry for the bad abbreviation, Im just lazy right now). From what I've heard Trevor wants to vote Duncan now though because he, I'm guessing, wants to break up him and Owen. WHY the fuck are you not voting OWEN!? I've run the idea by Ali and I want to get Trevor to play the idol for ether Ali or Sam cus, why not~ get the idol out of Trevors hands and if we can get the idol played on someone other then Owen then why not vote for Owen? It pisses me off the Trevor doesn't want to talk to me, I mean, okay your with your boyfriend who is in the game but if he asked it's not hard to lie and say I'm freaking out over thinking and Trevor is chilling me out. I mean, I'm 100% on thinking that Owen thinks of me as the goat so he'd believe it. My plan would be so vote Owen. Right now the majority is split on Owen and Trevors side. Owens: Owen, Duncan, maybe Logan = voting Sam or Ali, we've heard Ali as a second or a 'go vote this one' to get some throw away votes. Trevor: Trevor, me, Ali, Lydia, Sam, Ryan = voting for Duncan to break up Owen and Duncan? My plan is a three way split for Sam, Owen and Duncan, then on the revote we vote our Duncan (sorry hostys Im sure ties suck) but really I just want to fuck up the votes and vote Owen. Hoping that Trevor will use his idol on Sam, assuming he cant use it on himself... I guess we'll see. 

OWEN

So!!!! Of course Trevor gets here and tells me that they're all voting for Duncan!!!! Lol!!!!!!! He wasn't even gonna tell me except it was more convenient for him since we were about to be together for 48 hours. Anyways. Thanks for lying all day and then planning on leaving me out to dry ;~) looks like I won't have any trouble lying to you from now on huh!!!!!!! Anyways, I immediately got to work convincing him to do Sam instead, and then we called Lydia finally and talked to her about it. Except Trevor also told everyone all of this SHIT and I'm so mad I literally like. At least he bought me chipotle. Anyways!!!! Lydia was planning on telling Ryan to vote Sam and also they all think that Duncan's rags make it so that Sam can't have any idols played on him even from other players. Idk it's messy and i just want to sleep. I'm hoping I convinced them to switch their votes. Sam needs to go now that he knows I was after him. Also lol it's funny cause I asked Trevor as soon as he walked in if He told Sam to message me lmao I knew it was fishy af Idk it's all fishy. Why does Trevor feel the NEED to ruin!!!!! Djdjdjdjd Jesus. Also surprise he's not giving me the idol. Or playing it on me. I hope it bites him in the ass when people like duncan and ryan really do wanna vote him out and I'm not there to cover his ass. Literally DJDJDJD fuck all this At this point I'm just hoping it's not me. Idk if it would be. I've worked too hard today for it to be me, tbh. But really? Damn

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this game gave me acne and soiled my crops

JD

So I might have tried strong arming Trevor into this split by saying that Sam is easily dropped if the vote goes wrong. I don't think that he liked that cus not hes talking to Ryan about voting Sam. Which I don't get but it would mess up the split. 

ALI

This vote has just aged me! Sam is maybe going, which sucks. Duncan is a liar, Logan is lying to me. Sam gave me his extra vote though, so hopefully TLJoA can vote togethed next time, as a majority. Samit was a good run, folks

DUNCAN

Heyyyy! Umm idk if this will be my last confessional or not until allstars but here we go. The time has come to slay the beast. It's time to make a move. It's time to take down sam.in short. I was allegedly the original target of rtp plus the unholy trinity, and Lydia and Trevor were on board. Then Owen talked to them and convinced them to vote Samuel only because I had my handy rags. It was a conditional agreement. But umm hopefully no one else will play an idol on sam, and hopefully everyone who is telling me they're voting sam is telling the truth. The thing is, if I get voted out tonight it's okay. I didn't come here to make it to the end and win. This is a move I need to make to help me win. So if I'm going down, I can say I did what I said I set out here to do when I applied. I came to win, not to be a coward

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