#idk how to word that feeling oh well

[dizzydeadeye]

tu felicidad importa más

#lil pootis #fanart #i think it was bittersweet how. even though he was removed from his loved ones. he was still bringing joy to someone else #idk how to word that feeling oh well #i adore bittersweet stuff. i really really enjoyed this episode #tf2 pyro #tf2 spy #tf2 #my art

[b4kuch1n]

making of a feathered thing

#sk8 the infinity #kyan reki #hasegawa langa #renga #tagging ship like a power word kill here #hi. linked there is a fic I wrote in uhhh. three hours? something like that #literally have no idea how to explain it to you at all. feel free to read if u wanna. mostly its like damn I keep puttings pictures into thi #s literary piece. #gonna cool down soon. oh boy is it hot here. probably why I wrote that #that took place in like november but the vibe is. summer. or something like that I really need to sleep #new ink arrived! its kinda watery! line still feathering! not into this! #I'll try to see if thats more my paper. dont enjoy that #but yeah Ive just been testing the ink and stuff out with these #doing these like. less than an hour each. no brain just go #man I wanna fly a kite... theres an open plot of land right next to me. I should try doing that #go out and hang out with so many bugs and fly a kite #gods. I need to sleep. idk not much to say here I simply think reki is a growing boy and he'll become great and awesome #thats all folks! have a good night. well good day. its 5am #sleep well! run so fast

[moeblob]

Deacon loves two things: Ymber and digging himself a grave.

Fulj hates one thing: Deacon.

#my characters #waiting on some info on the next commission so i indulged in ocs today bc i doubt i will have as much time for lil comics for a bit #deacon is so devoted hes like yeah i would kill for a deity that could easily kill anything himself but yknow teehee #and fulj just did you tell him you needed therapy also does he even know youd murder in his name #deacon caught red handed haha no of course i havent told him it should be obvious enough haha.... and its in his defense not his name :c #man really does have some issues but i love him so much and hes so devoted but like. unhealthily after a while #he does in fact need a chill pill and therapy but to be fair #ymber has needed therapy for centuries and yet he just bottles it all up and suffers so #its pretty unhealthy until they yell at each other one (1) time bc they are so insecure about things and get mad over very valid reasons #but then theyre like you know what that was necessary and i still want to stay by your side if you let me #and then fulj is like dude hey sorry you seem really happy did you fu- and ymber is like no please stop there we have not #fulj just squinting cause have not is very different than will not but whatever she doesnt wanna think about that with deacon involved ew #and eventually fulj is like hey ymber im sorry to say but i really do hate deacon and i dont even know why but he makes me uncomfortable #while deacon is just. in the room. hearing this and thinking how he knows she thinks hes weird but wow that wording hurts #and ymber doesnt wanna fill in memories better forgotten by fulj which she had forcefully removed #so he just says oh well his hair and clothing are black and you had someone in the past that you might see in him and its not a pleasant en #so you know maybe its that idk #and fulj is then WHATST i was rude to him for someone i cant even remember? lame im gonna try SO HARD to be nice to him now #and deacon just still sitting there with some food like this is v awkward and i wish i could not be here for it #and later he asks ymber about who he resembled and as ymber is descibing her it clicks in deacons head and he gets really sad #that he might somehow remind fulj of the woman she loved before she was punished for loving a mortal #and he feels kinda bad pestering her so much with his curiosities about deities and he kinda gets it #the fact hes close to ymber might remind her at the core that she was once that close with a mortal if not closer #anyway story time in the tags again #im so obsessed with these peeps and i have made them suffer so much but they do all end on a happy note #its still funny and nice to me that while fulj is creeped out by deacon and doesnt like talking to him #he still expresses the most emotions to her - he tries hard to remain serious around ymber and collected and obedient at all times #and when out and about with ymber he has to be intimidating and refuses smiling but fulj?? all sunshine and smiles and emotions easy to rea #and she is just that is so weird go away i hate you

[crabbunch]

ethubs to me is like. tfw you kill and die for someone so many times that you can't even grow tired of it. it's mundane, sure, but in the way that loving someone is mundane. blood becomes like waking up to them every morning- an expected but beautiful nonetheless way of things being. it doesnt matter if they're killing each other or their enemies or pretending to do one and actually doing the other to them it is an act of devotion. and not the dramatic kind. tfw you die and kill for someone so often that instead of loosing meaning it gains sentiment. this is not a tragedy anymore!!! they are ripping it apart with their hands and laughing!!! is there anymore power to an actor than that? than turning the story to a comedy? they're sooo sitcom core. of course they love violence- there's no reason to be afraid of dying when it's not the end. they'll have another go at it, and another and another and another and another. the grief is real, sure, as real as the bloodlust- it's just not the thing that lasts

#idk if im saying this well. got them on the brain tonight but like. #eugh. words. #i just think that. ok the central problem to the life games is that the death ISNT permanent. #the stakes feel real #especially in the moment #but if you take a step back. there's been four games. can you really say jimmy's died first everytime if he's done it four times? #the thing about death is that you can only really do it once. anything else is just a mockery of it #you have to balance the feeling of jumping off a cliff after murdering your partner #with the fact that they met again in last life. they remembered that. how do you reconcile that? #to me. personally. the life series works best when you treat it as the game it is #a choice. yaknow? they're choosing to play this with the knowledge that it will feel real. #and yeah its more fun to write fic where the deaths matter i guess #but i sort of feel like that's missing the point #ethubs. are they even ethubs if they dont have that history? #i dont really think so #ykanow? i dont think that its really the same without the 'dying; #not that they did. i mean. the blood was there. but then they kept being. oh im out of tags ok bye

[applejongho]

dunno how to articulate my thoughts without sounding mean but i'll try my best; it's so exciting when jh tries a new color and it's also exciting when he also seems to be enjoying it, but i think a problem in fandom culture in general is that need to have ownership over your [thing you like], in this case, jh, a real person. like you can be sad that jh is losing or toning down his purple hair because it was a good color and he looks good, but also at the end of the day it's his hair on his head and what he wants to do w his hair is his business only.

i say this because jh said in the latest radio station that he is going to tone down his purple hair in a few days, not because he doesnt like the color, but because his hair grows outward, a common thing that happens with your hair when you are of asian or hispanic descent. he needs down perms to literally "put down" the hair instead of it sticking straight out of his head. and down perms can fuck with the color if it's dyed.

so with this in mind, jh keeps his hair "boring" and black because he would rather his hair not be sticking straight out of his head and he doesnt want to sacrifice more time at the salon for color correction when it can just be his natural color. and thats really valid of him, just as it's valid of any other member or kpop idol to constantly dye their hair. it's his choice just like theirs and fans should respect his choice more.

#like idk just in general people make comments about jh being boring just bc he dresses a certain way and has his hair a certain way #and it's annoying to me. bc it's his business only. hes wonderful exactly how he is. u should not pressure him to do something hes uncomfy #and u can prefer a more flashy idol but that doesnt mean that automatically jh's own self expression is 'bad' #hope i dont sound like a bitch but i wanted to post this bc of jh saying hes going to change his hair soon #apple lady words #i feel like this all comes back to nuance bc u can love his different hair but dont make it seem like hes boring if hes not going out of hi #comfort zone #and ik most fans respect him but some fans come across as 'owning' him and feeling like they have the final say in regard to his body #which is what i have a problem with #maybe im making a mountain out of a mole hill or this isnt even a problem #but idk. posting it. oh well #edit: this is directed at nobody

[todayisafridaynight]

Going off the rules of sonic heroes if we were to trioize the jimas saejima’d obvi fit the power role but now we have to ask what roles majima and daigo fit cause on the one hand i believe majima could pilot a helicopter if he wanted to but on the other hand attributing ‘fly’ to daigo is another case of cruel and unusual punishment

#snap chats #i was gonna say ‘speed’ usually is given to the leader but vectors the leader of the chaotix not espio #vector my best friend …….. #im gonna say majima can get fly cause of that helicopter bullshit he do. you can have that majima #daigo just feels like hes too ‘balanced’ of a guy to be speed tho …. oh well #speed for. WR in how quick you can get shot into your chairmanship idk #FASTEST HAND IN THE EAST WAIT naw we got it. it checks out #well done team our impulsive assignment spurred by a tweet has been done efficiently #its so funny calling the jimas a trio cause since KH im lowkey sick of the word trio 💀💀💀 #i dont even know why ….. it just irked me after a while ….. #doesnt make any sense literally nonsensical it was just a feeling id get #thats what i hate about feelings you cant explain or justify them cause Theyre Feelings tf #you can TRY to explain them but theyre involuntary in the end and theres no objective cause for them. do we know what im saying. #im gonna go work now bye

[flufflecat]

anyone else finding it really, really personally nauseating that the pjo show would remove gabes entire character and replace him with someone less abusive to make sally a Strong Female Character. like wow, im sure glad that youve proven that women who are abused are the REAL threat to feminism, and they should just try talking back more!! what a good message to send to abused kids. sorry, kid. i guess you just didnt argue hard enough and #Own your abuser into seeing how cool and strong you are. what do you mean that arguing with an abuser will only make them hurt you more? but look how snappy and cool and feminist sally is now!!! youre clearly just being abused wrong.

#pjo #gabe ugliano #any other kids who related to percy feeling a bit uhhhhhhhh like shit rn #saw a post saying how sally being 'less simpering and helpless' is a good thing #like fuck you. jesus fucking christ. #can you think about what youre saying for 2 fucking seconds. #lemme just go tell my mom that she needs to stand up for herself more brb #oh wait i tried that as a kid and guess what it got us. more abuse! #changing sallys story for the purpose of making her a 'stronger' character is disgusting in ways that i cant put into words #women dont have to be abused Well to be worthy of sympathy #and getting angry didnt fucking help me get out of being abused #this was the only story where my sister and i felt seen and were DEFINITELY not the only people who related to it #taking that away from kids who went through our situation is awful #and the fact that anyone would consider it necessary to... idk. fix how the book portrayed abuse? it hurts more than i thought it wo #fluffle talks #negative #personal #sorry im not tagging this post very well #i dont really have the energy to find the right tags rn

[iceeericeee]

I wonder how many tags i can add on to this

#there must be SOME kind of a limit otherwise posts would get suuuuuuper duper long like is it just 30? #idk but i'm going to find out by simply maxxing out the character limit for each tag and finding out the limit of tags for each post lololo #this is gonna be great. i just have to remember to type without ever using the comma. it shouldn't be too hard right? fuck i almost typed #the comma i'm already bad at this smh my head. also if your still here i commend you. you have a better attention span than i do. #i'm already starting to get bored holy shit this is not happening. i gotta power through this. FOR SCIENCEEEEEEEEEE. or somethinggggggggggg #but fr idk what else to say. maybe just saying that i don't know what to say will be good enough? but does that even count? #I don't even know anymore. ffffffffuck. this is gonna be a while huh? also holy shit if you're still here omg u deserve like. a prize or #something because u definitely didn't have to stay and read all of this bull shit. lololol i typed out bs but decided to just spell the who #thing out just to make it go by faster. i'm so lazy. this is only the nineth tag HOW will i make it to 30. i am sobbing the adhd is adhding #very hard rn. are you still here? bruh this is insane. i have somehow managed to keep ur attention this long and it's just me spouting #absolute balderdash. wait do you know what balderdash even means? i don't care if you do already i'm gonna tell you anyway. balderdash is #basically just another word for nonsense. boom. you learned something new today. balderdash equals nonsense equals this damn post. #why did i decide to do this in the first place. it was a dumb idea. i don't know if i can even keep going. this is only the *counts tags* #it's the 14th tag. we've got a long way to go boys. men. soldiers. comrads. friends. besties peeps. marshmallows. #where was i going with this? oh yeah. trying to max out the limit for tags. dang i almost typed a comma there. i haven't done that since #i think the third or fourth tag. dang that feels like such a long time ago. not for you guys probably. it feels longer because i have to li #type it all out and stuff. so it's definitely gonna feel longer for me. are you still here? good lord don't you have better things to #be doing than reading all of this? we're already on tag number 18. it feels like i should be on the thirtyeth by now. or however it's spell #'toast' you might be wondering 'why are you typing out the names of the numbers instead of say '9' or '5'?' well you see. young one. #this is a strategy i'm using to make each tag slightly longer. even if i don't know how to spell it. it'll make it just a little bit longer #anyway. i got off topic. not that there was ever a topic to begin with. unless it's about making this as long as i can. #which i am apparently good at doing. i guess. are you STILL here? do you seriously have nothing to do? i guess i'm flattered you stayed thi #whole time. instead of reading something else you stayed here. with me. listening to me talk. on the twenty-third tag. oh yeah its tag 23 #except now it's tag twenty-four. how crazy is that. this little talk is almost over. only 6 tags away if memory serves right. this's strang #i kind of don't want this to end. but i know it should. after all there is a limit. but all things must come to and end at some point i gue #i'm running out of things to say. it's probably a good thing it's almost over. hahahahah............... but i don't want to go. i don't wan #to leave this post. i've worked so hard on it. and for what. just for it to end. are you still here? yes? good. i'd hate to end this alone. #thank you for indulging me and my craziness. the end is only 2 tags away now. you can go ahead and leave. i'll be okay on my own. really... #...you're still here? i- i don't know what to say. i suppose a toast is in order. perhaps. for this journey. this stupid dumb post i though #would be fun. i'll make it short. it's the last tag after all. this was fun. but i will never do it again. so long as a i live. i'll miss y

[running-in-the-dark]

I slept for 12 hours - woke up a few times but felt weird, almost like I'm drunk. still kinda do. it's not great.

#just wanna stay in bed and sleep more but I probably shouldn't #frustrating #like. I touched my face earlier and it was like ??? what is that who's touching my face what's going on #which is not how it normally feels 🤷 #but yeah idk I'm just being weird again I guess #got to get up. ugh #drowsy might be the word I'm looking for actually #like. I'm not fully awake or something and it feels strange #oh well 🤷 #personal

[mybrainproblems]

sometimes you miss your ex bestie and then you remember they hetsplained your queerness to you and then friend-dumped you almost as soon as they got a serious partner and it's like.

yeah nah. missing them? wanting to try and patch things up? that's the devil talking.

#tbh my only *real* regret at this point is not calling them the fuck out for the hetsplaining bullshit #i was planning to and then as we were talking i realized i had zero investment in the friendship anymore and it wasn't worth the argument #i can't remember the convo that well bc i was so thrown but they made a comment about me being asexual and uh. buddy i'm not? #you were literally there for me going through five different labels in two years? we've had multiple conversations about this?? #in retrospect we were just absolutely talking past each other for a while before the formal friend breakup #i do not know why ppl get so combative about when you're saying literally the same thing but diff wording but only THEIR wording is right #also: main character energy so off the charts that idk how they get through life like that #not everything has to be Something. things can just be. #feels weird to keep getting annoyed about this bc i don't miss *them* but i do miss having a best friend #i do feel pretty fucking betrayed by getting told that they thought of me as a pseudo romantic partner even if unintentional #to claim the friend breakup had nothing to do with their new partner and then say THAT? oh fuck all the way right off.

[skibasyndrome]

I'm about to throw all my academic values overboard to get this fucking article done

#linguistics are my enemy #not because I don't like the subject #I'm just........ so much less at ease with this than with literary sciene oh my god #I'm so glad I can mostly focus on lit in the future but let me tell you these few linguistics articles I have/had to do have really brought #me to my limit #and I thought I was already fed up and not giving a shit when I did that one article in summer... oh I had NO IDEA how much less of a shit #was capable of giving!!! #the thing is.... I think objectively I'm still? idk not the worst I could technically be doing #like there ARE people who straight up... idk don't even try to have a research question or who don't read more than a handful or articles b #t ugh #I like academic writing so much and I love putting in the work and I love actually getting into the reseach and finding the most important #texts and writing a balanced and well researched article but ugh..... I just feel like I keep reaching my limits with linguistics #and this time is worse than the others because this topic is SO FAR from being standardized and all I can do is ???? mention that there's #like a hundred different models and then just??? choose one and go with it? which is so fucking unsatisfying #but I swear... everybody in this field is just making up a new model that's just different words for the same thing (and not in the /normal #way that science /always/ is about making up a new model. no. this time they are very unnecessarily making up new models) #ugh. everything about this sucks #I should've chosen a different seminar I should've chose a different topic and I especially should've written more of this in summer when I #technically still had a little more time #sorry for blowing up your dash with complaints this festive season lol. I am just having a time (TM) with the different writing tasks on my #hands and I need a place to vent I guess #simon.out. #sounds so drastic btw I'm not about to cheat or plagiarize or anything but I'm about to do so much less of a proper work than I ever wanted #to allow myself to do. cherrypicking and all.

[gunthermunch]

the unification of simblr, 2022 (colorized)

#we just think yoonie is overall nasty #dl #they have me blocked afaik ? i dmed her months ago while on an angry rampage because she just kept talking neg stuff and i was getting #sick of it i dont remember. like i said it was months ago. she said this convo stays here and i said ok i think #ive been told she shared it on her tea channel weeks ago LMAO AND i kept my lil dumb mouth shut all this time because it was #supposed to stay there #oh well. idk she's facing the consequences of her actions #curate a nice space and you'll receive nice things #curate a cesspoll you receive shit #im not good with words and tones. i step over my own words constantly #so i cant even imagine how my words got twisted in that chat. tbh just thinking about it makes me feel so ??? im in school again

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#just an observation bc im avoiding working on stuff but i draw a lot and post basically everything i draw thst gets finished #and its v funny to me how u can tell how out of focus i was based on the quality of the drawing #or like when i post something and its like ok some of that was good but u def gave up halfway thru one of those lol #inconsistency i funny like that. its also funny to me that now a days i get comments like COLORS!!! #which is funny bc i notoriously haaaaaate coloring. like i will sit around whining and complaining when im home with my parents bc i dont #wanna color. its just so easy to fuck things up when u draw traditionally and it takes a million years so its a big ask lol #but i guess i dont hate is so much right now bc i kinda just slap whatever colors i want together like fuck it we ball #and thats kinda fun. reckless i suppose #its agony when u wanna try to do shadows and lights tho. like finding references ugh #or wanting to draw big ideas but then its like oh god its gonna take so long and if i dont do it all in one sitting i might die #im a lil better abt thst now bc it would b impossible but in my head i still hate it #ugh. all i wanna do is draw. theres another universe where i went to art school. or just like took art classes. and i wanna say id b happier #but thats def a lie XD i like learning too much and i dont have the attention span to hardcore learn genetics outside an academic #environment. and i got way too excited abt exploring the genetic traits of my cyano species #like i can make genetics trees for traits and look for. fuck. i forgot the word. how tf did i forget the word. oh god. horizontal gene #transfer. jesus christ its like theres a hole in my brain. well. i guess i did get only like 4hrs sleep. ugh im rambling. #i need to finish getting ready for Monday so i dont have to tomorrow and ill have time to draw. prob wont stop me feeling nauseous abt #teaching tho. OH FUCK. i just remembered i have a new office space now to decorate. fuck i need to hang up pictures and stuff #what would b the funniest way to put narut0 on my deskspace? idk ill have to think abt it. oh god im not ready #my head is like a handbell. one of the big ones when u ring it and it hits soft and u can feel the vibrations. someones wrung my head lol #unrelated

[tardis--dreams]

On a scale from 1 to 10 how weird would it be to write a little thank you/goodbye card to a colleague you really like where you'd tell him you learned a lot from him and appreciate his support and had fun working with him? It's a 10, isn't it.

#oh gooooooood i don't want him to leave #(but I'm glad he's getting out of this company. he was suffering there and it's the best decision for him) #but I'm So bad at expressing sincere feelings out loud without making it sound kinda stupid #and i also don't just wanna write a message via teams on his last day or something #but well #there's still a few months left for me to think about it #i just feel like his effort and kindness shouldn't go unacknowledged #I'm sure he'll get a lot of nice words and probably a goodbye present from his colleagues #but I'm not really a real part of the team and i probably won't even be there on his last day #so a little card with some words of gratitude and appreciation would be my solution but what if that's too much #idk why i think any kind of sincere expression of emotions is a crime worth the death penalty but.. #(no i know. they taught me that in therapy.) #i would probably be happy about something like this and wouldn't find it strange or too much #so why do I think other people would #oh well let's just see how i feel about it in August #no need to worry about it for so long #void screams #i still feel sad #but honestly happy he'll be free soon

[essektheylyss]

New fun language learning activities: read Wikipedia pages for philosophical and political theories in your target language, just for kicks.

#but actually. very funny. #this was inspired by the fact that I hit the random page button on italian wikipedia and ended up on the page l'anarchismo collettivista. #feel like this is probably either bewildering to any data trackers OR what will get me put on a watchlist. toss up really. #but actually great for like. weird verb forms and prepositions. #got told by an italian woman last month that she was impressed I used the word 'mentre' and I was like. welp. #might as well embrace being That Person who talks and writes like a fucking nerd regardless of context in TWO languages. #but also like. idk man. this is the problem with language learning. is mentre NOT a normal preposition? how do you say 'although'? #it was in fact used in the l'anarchismo collettivista article tho so. points for me. #but yeah I did squint at the word 'mezzi' before I processed the whole phrase and went 'oH MEANS OF PRODUCTION' so like #REALLY the moral of the story is to read up on pages that you would know the phrasing of in your native language lmfao #so you can figure out the weird words via context clues.

[hecksupremechips]

Girl like. The reason he said "this is how it should be" and faced death with a smile....is cuz he wanted to die. For 2 years he sat there thinking he was worthless and deserved to die. If he hadn’t be shot, his death would’ve been suicide, he was fully planning to die in a gutter somewhere undetected. When saying "this is how it should be" hes literally saying "don’t cry because I’m dying, my death is a good thing actually because I fucking suck and you are better off without me". I don’t think that’s badass even slightly, it’s actually really sad and really shitty. Shinjiro is so convinced that he deserves to die and hates the idea of anyone giving a shit about him because he literally can’t wrap his mind around the idea that he will be missed when he’s gone, that his death is a bad thing actually. And his last words were meant to be comforting because he fully did not intend for anyone to be there when he died, he intended to die alone, so he says them as a reminder that he’s not worth crying over

Personally, if it were me, if I was holding my dying best friend in my arms who was deeply depressed and suicidal and he said "this is how it should be" uh. I wouldn’t admire him for it??? Like am I losing my mind when I say the way this game handles Shinji is bad or is anyone else seeing this too 😰

#its like okay listen i understand the basic math of any persona game they say things and everything they say is actually #very bad when you think about it for more than 3 seconds #like what theyre intending to do with the death of this character is be like oh no your sad friend dies tragically thats so saddddd #but that doesnt mean you cant live a wonderful life full of meaning you cant let grief consume you life is beautiful awagga #and i guess shinji is a specific character whos used cuz i guess its more tragic that he never realized he was worthy of life and shit #and i guess its also like ‘dont be like this guy who let grief consume him and then died you gotta Be Different’ #which i dont. love. that last part cuz if you think about shinji and what led him down this road #its like. of course hes depressed! he accidentally killed a woman with a child when he was 16! #he himself is an orphan and he just made some other kid an orphan as well and it happened cuz his persona went out of control #which very much can translate to ‘this must mean im dangerous and can hurt everyone if im not kept under control’ #so of course he isolated himself and believed he was evil and became suicidal like who wouldnt feel that way #like am i supposed to be mad he left sees and took drugs cuz uh while i dont think isolation or Evil Drug is good for his mental health #i dont think him continuing to fight in sees is something he can just easily do again given how he killed someone like he shouldnt have to #be a part of this thing anymore like how would he even safely get castor to not do that??? he cant kill more people on accident! #so yeah like using shinji as an example of bad coping mechanisms is already just. a big fucking oof to me like it just feels like the game #is saying he shouldve gotten over it and simply not be suicidal and stayed on the team. idk if thats the intent but uh it wouldnt faze me #cuz persona games are notoriously awful at writing characters who are traumatized and abused #but what makes everything even worse is how the game kinda like. acts like shinjis death is a stepping stone #like we’re supposed to use it as a wake up call and understand the stakes but keep going on anyways #and akihiko and Ken get. ‘great character development’ according to the game telling you they have now developed #but damn all akihiko is is just repressed he cries for 3 seconds and then is like I SHOULD MAN UP and then neglects a depressed child #shinjis dying words are words to live by now even though they piss me the fuck off like girl am i crazy HES FUCKING #HES TELLING ME NOT TO CRY OVER HIM BECAUSE HE SHOULD BE DEAD ACTUALLY AND THIS IS A GOOD THING ACTUALLY #like if the game wants us to still find meaning in life despite losing someone it just really hurts that shinji has to die for that to work #apparently. cuz the character i see myself in is shinji. not some perfect prettyboy who does everything perfectly and has 4 gfs #his death seems like a punishment for bad behavior. the bad behavior being of course depression and drug use. and im simply supposed to be #better than that if i want to live. and we dont get to form a connection with him cuz thats gayyyyy #and his death is like a NOBLE HEROIC SACRIFICE idk its just such bullshit to me i hate it so bad #how is killing a suicidal guy and then treating it as admirable that he said ‘this is how it should be’ supposed to make me feel #makes me feel sick personally and it ruins the entire game’s theme to me because its fucking shallow and the story is bad and im tired