#id love if more ppl did this too!!

[puppyeared]

its so hard to watch time pass when things like careers and assignments exist. what do you mean im supposed to take that seriously

#I have an assignment that was due a week ago and I really really dont want to do it. I have to but i dont want to #im probably making it worse because my brain has built a wall around it so now i can’t do literally anything else until thats done. but #because I don’t want to do it I’m just kinda stuck. turns out this is what they meant when they said emotional regulation is part of #exec dysfunction.. I’ll have a thought like if I get a little bit of it done now i can get it over with. I can just submit something #and then not even 5 minutes later itll be like ugh but I have to draw all the assets out. I have to write things and make spreads ugh #and its just flopping between those two things. i hate it when ppl are like well how much time do you need to work on one thing #because BOY id love to know too. I’d love to know exactly when my brain wants to cooperate with me and work around that but I cant #even my period can’t decide when it wants to punch me in the stomach. which is kinda funny in the grand scheme of things but still #its so weird im just lying on my bed thinking abt all this like damn.. the time will pass anyways no matter what I decide to do.. damn…. #if I submit that assignment now and take the L I literally won’t die. it’ll just be a deduction on an assignment nobody will ask me about #I know this but I’m still stressing myself about it so my thoughts aren’t really connecting to my body. weird #maybe its because Im having a hard time looking forward to things. theres definitely a lot I should be living for but I don’t really feel #a strong attachment to it I guess? it’s been like this for a while with holidays and meeting with friends so I just don’t #I kinda figured its because im pretty passionless and its more like passing interest. but it’s not very fun when it feels like I’m going to #be living distraction to distraction for the next 70 years or so lol #idk it kind of feels like slowly bleeding out. which is funny because I actually did experience blood loss this week #had a 30 minute nosebleed and literally could not stand. also it felt like someone was pinching the back of my brain which was interesting #yapping #does this count as vent #vent #Ive just been making an oc carrd and contemplate changing my blog header for the past 3 days honestly

[pcktknife]

On a Genshin Poll from a while ago, you said that you could talk about Xinyan way more and it would be nice hear those thoughts! Xinyan is one of favorite Genshin characters (her design is so cool) so if you don't mind talking about her more, I'd love to hear it!

oh i didnt mean xinyan specifically in general i like talking about design (critiquing.nitpicking.praising.etc) so it really extends to most any of the characters. but you asked about xinyan so ill talk about xinyan. design wise shes very nice to look at for. her colors are all so warm with one of my favorite palettes (black/red/white). shes on the simple side compared to alot of other characters and i think its nice makes her alot easier to draw. pretty easy design to remember. for me anyway (big sleeves/braids.big collar. big hair.spikes) i dont really need to give specific reasons tbh her design is just really good. one of the pyro characters ever

#and shes brown always a huge plus for me 👍🏾 id be willing to say shes black coded whether that was intentional or not idk but the way they #did her thats how it came off. brown girl pioneering rock music yeah. along with other things but thats the big one #her designs just really solid its not too crowded and you can tell what shes supposed to be for the most part. u can tell shes punk at the #very least you may not entirely get rockstar without the guitar but she does have the drum #which makes noise as she runs. i love the sound design regarding the characters accessories i thought that was so cool when i first started #playing. i love xinyan alot wish she got more screen time #and wish the time she did get was alongside characters i liked better everything hoyo does is to spite me #sorry game opinions leaking in #most of the reason i like xinyans design really boils down to her being brown and rocker/punk ill always eat that up #asks #anon #oo also fun lil detail i think ppl miss w xinyan is that her eyebrows have lil slits in them some official art leaves it out too #i think it gives her character ^^ #mhy

[themyscirah]

Philippus? Wym philippus this is a wholeass other woman?????? She's white?????? Guys come on now

ALSO cursed white Euboea in this same sequence.... homeboy she's Asian please stop

Joe Phillips I'm sorry but this is some shitty ass guest pencilling how can you not know anything abt what these people look like thats literally your job... you also just needed to read the issue before this to know?

Editors should have caught this one these are major Amazon characters

#also i did a quick wiki check for one thing and basically confirmed that i was right about this entire arc so i win i guess 💪💪💪💪 #like “the amazons are starting some crazy murder shit!” are they really now. which amazons may i ask? are you sure its not the bana- #oh yep its the baba mighdall. well then. TOTALLY didnt see this coming (said w love) #i mean its like maybe im being perceptive but they literally showed two of them in their armor and had one say phthia aka one of the #founders of the bana. like okay i had to do a wiki to check that and obvi id know slightly more than a pérez run reader abt them #(but not much honestly ive read the same stuff they wouldve just plus some fandom osmosis/knowing who artemis is) but i digress. do think he #maybe could have put showing them off but i understand the motive of not wanting readers to go months thinking the amazons were chopping #ppls heads off. but they could have teased the mind control red herring (probably? think it was a red herring although it could pop back up #the arc is still ongoing) a little bit more considering weve had dr psycho starting shit for the past 4 (at LEAST) issues but well whatever #anyways the pencilling on this one needed help like its not even a coloring issue at the core of it its legit this guest guy drawing #totally different people... very lame #anyways maybe im too quick to blame it all on the bana i am only halfway through the arc #like i do think it is the bana. i think thats the answer. but again dr psycho IS causing problems and theres been hints of the cheetah being #involved (“animal attack” killings + a shot of her in arkham) AND circe was namedropped (although now we know it was dr psycho) but im still #slightly suspicious bc there seems to be possesed animals... like they are v much laying different hints and pathways here #but i think its the bana. i think its psycho fucking around and also the bana and MAYBE a psycho controlled cheetah or the bana mimicing her #patterns. or are the bana even there if psychos involved??? he could just be fucking around then- okay you know what. maybe im less sure of #this than i thought and should just read more. wait but how would psycho even know about the bana to have ppl hallucinate hed just use the #themyscirans-- okay i need to read more im getting distracted. the bana are definitely involved though im calling it. its them and maybe #psycho. and maybe cheetah. and maybe circe but likely not bc we already established that was a false lead. unless that was also a trick. and #WHAT ABT ARES ALL THE STOLEN ARTIFACTS HAD TO DO WITH WAR-- #.... guys im losing it. fuck it im saying its all giganta and calling it a day i cant do this #no but i love how this mystery is set up its like they just dropped clues for every single ww villain onto it and said “here. good luck.” #this is before the big ww crossover too so it could actually be all of them im losing my mind here. WHO IS IT #ive twisted myself in a circle here i dont know anything now. only that i did call it if it was the bana. or if theres mind control or smth #sus about heracles cup. i also called that although its seeming less and less likely now that the bana and psycho are likely involved. and #maybe cheetah. and circe. and ares. guys im falling apart here #what was the point of this post then? oh shitty guest pencilling and editor flops. the editor flop part i can understand im sure they were #busy even if this is a big thing to miss imo. the penciller though is just silly come on now. someone should have caught that. anyways-- #swishy liveblogs

[criticaaaaaaaal]

#see my blog was never intended to be . like . seen by people? thats why its so gross #i tag Nothing. i only tag what i want to tag. i still have the mindset of what i used to be *checks watch* 9 months ago? i think? #i had under 100 followers most if not all being friends and mutuals #and then i made the mistake of posting art. sigh #this still carries over to the fact id Like to move blogs because this ones gotten. way too big #lesson learned for anyone on tumglblr: if you post anything like art or fanfic MAKE IT A SIDE BLOG!!!!!!!!!!!!! #do NOT do what i did. not the main blog. mistake #i used to make sideblogs everytime i got a new main interest but when i got into toh i stopped. idk why. but im stuck here now #if i DO move blogs i'll post about it. it'll prob be a quieter move but yeah it'll happen #im just procrastinating cus all my junk is already HERE #so like. why move. yknow? #i do genuinely love & appreciate the support. people have been very kind to me #i appreciate it a lot #i also just know from experience i am not someone that should have any sort of following on anything. i take it horribly #like. i used to be an active twitter artist for a year and that was HORRIBLE. ppl didnt just want art they wanted my opinions and my biases #i couldnt breath without 5 people asking me things #horrible life to live lol i like tumblr more #i started on tumblr and i moved back. im glad #anywhoo enough rambling i guess. if i move ill let people know! if i dont. well youll know cus im still here #ugh if i move i have to reblock my tags n people blaaaaugh #okey ill talk to you people later

[nyphren]

i finished lightfall like two weeks ago and tbh i was expecting it to be waaaaay worse. bc its not bad.

like, speaking as a player who got into the game less than a month ago, who knows more or less what happened in d1 and in the vaulted content, it was... fine

know whats kinda bad?

shadowkeep.

shadowkeep is... rough. im dragging my brother through it rn and its a Time. the campaign quests are okay, i guess, but the whole ~forge an armor piece by piece~ is boring and the "do this bounty", "do events two dozen times", "kill things" between campaign missions are SO painful. especially because i have almost NO context re: who these nightmares are. i never met crota. i never met taniks. i only know who these people are bc i watched a 4 hour summary of destiny's story. none of this mattered or made much sense to me.

i love the atmosphere on the moon, tho. and eris is great.

but i distinctly remember finishing shadowkeep and going "thats it?" and "are all the campaigns going to be like this????" and feeling dread because ffxiv is my main game and i had a very different idea of what a campaign should be bc i had already bought beyond light. which im really glad i did bc i went on to play it out of spite and it was much better. witch queen was fantastic. and lightfall was good.

so for me, it's witch queen -> ligthfall -> beyond light -> shadowkeep.

lightfall does have "this couldve been an email" vibes and the final boss fight is a huge letdown if compared to witch queen's but i dont think the story/campaign is a bad as ppl make it out to be tbh

#also i love nimbus #i also loved fynch #and besides ghost these are the two characters i grew to like in game #savathun and crow (two characters i love too) grew on me bc of the lore and youtube videos i watched #since i have no access to content with them bc of the vaulted stuff #anyway id be more worried about shadowkeep letting down players who start playing destiny 2 and want to do everything in order #bc lightfall is actually fine #ok since im here im going to rant a bit about the vaulted stuff #i know you guys have heard (and said) that before but its so stupid #theres a scene in witch queen where savathun tries to tempt our ghost and hes like “nah!! i remember what you did to all my friends” #and proceeds to list said friends #and im like #i have met none of these people #NONE #imagine if i didnt have chronic boredom and hadnt watched this 4 hour video about the lore of a video game i was never planning to play #i would have no idea of who these people were #and like. it fell flat. bc i still dont know these ppl. but it wouldve been SO much worse #anyway lightfall is okay the soundtrack is great neomuna is super pretty #also nimbus #destiny 2 #ren.txt #last thing its bonkers to me that my first introduction to crow was the season of defiance cutscene where amanda kills him #i met this character who has such a rich story by a 'im so beefy' flirty line to a character i did not know at all (amanda) #like wtf are you doing bungie

[youaremysunshine-court]

Remember when the cringiest thing you could do was post pics of yourself that you'd taken on timer/ by yourself and now it's accepted that that's just what people do

#when did we get so lonely #3 years ago i used to picture credit my bff all the time now we both post mirror selfies and timer shots and we arent even friends anymore #i never thought id miss having a proper group of friends but now i do bc i just realised how fucking lonely it is to take videos of yourself #on your phone all day and then post them in hopes that someone will pay you any attention #and when there are good friends to be had evrryone is too busy showing off how busy and loved they are to actually enjoy it #idk #i fucking hate tiktok and instagram and snapchat and realme or whatever the fuck its called #and i want to go back to reading books bc i like them not bc i want to post and aesthetic pics of my nails and a book so ppl think im cute #idkkkk #its just fucking frustrating #rant adjacent #i have so much more to say about this but i have no time

[pa-pa-plasma]

just watched Across the Spiderverse. literally cant stop thinking about Pavitr

#i know people love Hobie (& i do too) & Miguel (dont like that guy) but man is Spider-man India cool as fuck like hello?? #like they made the perfect man is what they did. they took a perfectly fine superhero & made him even more perfect #also why didnt anyone tell me it ends on a fucking cliffhanger to be continued. why would you do this to me #im over here hyperfixating on Spider-man for the first time since like 2017 & the movie ends on a cliffhanger tbc #you're killing me. i have adhd & you are killing me #anyway after saying all that i still want the next movie to come out in a long time from now when the ppl working on it are getting paid #i may have adhd & it may be killing me but by god if i have to keep rewatching the same shit over & over again then so be it #Andrew Garfield save me #im finishing the game. i wanna play the Miles Morales game so bad man #id get into the comics but. idk. seems to complicated. also cant stand the 'woman wearing body paint as clothes' ''artstyle'' #that like half of comic artists use for some fucking reason #if there's actually some good comics anyone recommends feel free to tell me. i'll be playing games & rewatching movies & tv in the meantime

[mejomonster]

Trying to date makes me so sad...

#rant #is it the advice love comes when ur not looking that makes me sad? hell yeah ToT i havent looked in years #and lo and behold i am still single! love didnt show up when i wasnt looking as they said dudjfjf #is it how a lot of ppl on apps are poly and partnered #and i am not personally. but id like to ask them HOW ON EARTH they found someone they love so i can learn from their advixe #(but rhats a lie. i probably cant learn from their advice ;-; cayse ive been trying to learn from advixe for over a decade now #and well none of it worked did it) #is it perhaps that lots of young 20 #year olds like me on dayint apps. and im looking for a serious relationship with someone else whos working and stuff and #generally a 20-22 year old is gonna be more likely foguring out stuff and having fun and not planning long term #is it that im simply demiromantic and demisexual and in a Swipe Right world the months long pace #that takes to develop attraction is just boringly time wastingly slow for pwople who Know immediately if they wanna bang or fall in love #and i get it. if theyre trying to xut their loses and date casually to find a compatible partner. i probably taje too long compared to #other options. #am i gonna just be alone. i wish i wasnt but i really dont know what to do #i havent had a crush in years :c not even a date. . im talking i havent evrn felt simple attraction in many years #:c :c oh im so sad i could cry #i got onto the dating apps today and was recommended 20 21 year olds. 10 poly people. and 10 people who want children #:c then i felt so sad i didnt wanna look at the apps any more

[opheliaswings]

nidhogg is the fuckin charizard of love nikki

#love nikki #to elaborate to the non pokemon enjoyers #charizard always gets special treatment and attention bc its popular w the genwunners and keeps getting more than other pokemon would have #examples: its one of the 2 (mere two!) pokemon who got TWO mega evolutions. it got a gigantamax form when other kanto starters did not #(the other kanto starters were not even IN THE GAME and then later got in and got the form in a dlc) #the champions ace pokemon in this same gen is charizard instead of something. yknow. new to the region #and ppl r tired about all the attention being on charizard all the time #the parallel im making is that while all the other daybreak cast rotates nidhogg is always on there and always gets literally all the #attention leaving no chance to the rest #thus daybreak war is always boring and predictable and ppl always rally behind him even more for the extra couple tokens #and they should try hosting a daybreak war w/o him and see everyone scramble and scatter and the numbers shift #id like to see the chaos #i dont even understand why. he bores me. as does mercury. maybe i am just too much of a lesbian #opheliasthings #am i swinging a bat at a hornets nest

[orcelito]

Ok. Heck. I reread Sentido chapter 1 and I can understand why ppl loved it so much

#speculation nation #me. the writer of Sentido. being like 'i know it couldve been better it was just a drabble piece why do so many ppl like it 😭' #well maybe im just a good writer. didja think of that @ me? #ok real talk i was so uncertain about my characterizations of them in the first chapter #bc i was only a third of the way thru trimax & hadnt properly analyzed their personalities from canon #so i was scared i was just regurgitating fandom interpretations. which like Yea theres some basis to that #but i try to always take my characterizations from canon as much as possible. #fandom just has a way of muddying things & simplifying characters down to a few traits. #id been reading a ton of fanfic and i just did not know if i was doing more fanon or canon characterizations #i know the characters a lot better now tho and so now im just like. man. ok. that really does sound like them. #so Good Job Me for managing to write some new characters that i was Entirely uncertain about #speaks of my skill as a writer maybe. just maybe. #like not to toot my own horn or whatever but i just love my writing. and maybe Sentido is good too. #even if it Was just a practice drabble piece to get a feel for writing the characters hfkdhfj

[samuraisharkie]

did I SERIOUSLY get called an “absolute walnut” from a tumblr checkmark blog. AIEJGKWJGKDNGM. if I saw sainamoonshine irl I would maul their ableist condescending ass within an inch of their life. not worth it to fight with them bc they clearly don’t care about anyone else’s perspective but jesus fucking CHRIST what a piss poor refutation of me calling them ableist. And in three paragraphs no less!

#I knew it was going to be bad when that serious reply started with action asterisks LMAO #deliberately misinterpreting what I meant by ‘alt text is not for jokes’ too. bitch you KNOW I didn’t mean it that way. die #sainamoonshine is having an absolute TANTRUM that people wanted. a full ID?? #and someone asked for one more than once???? and then you just unload on someone literally just asking for full ID. #their defense isn’t even good 💀 it didn't NEED to be explained it was just for me I didn't think people would want all the WiNdoW dReSsiNg' #what so only people who can see the image without accessibility readers can get the full context?? #so the ppl relying on screen readers don’t get to see the behavior you’re talking about in your caption?? that’s just for the 20/20s?? #the condescending pedantic ass way they did that. I KNOW I shouldn’t reply further but ohhh boy do I want to lol #the violence in my chest when ppl are so rudely and proudly ableist all while thinking they’re not. I think Id genuinely scar them for life #the other reason I’m not gonna do this is because catgirlcowboy was just asking for a fucking ID not tumblr drama #and I KNOW they’d get caught up in it #blogs like that love to make their messes as big and loud as possible #speaking of which I am so sorry an ugly ass double checkmark blog acted out at you for wanting accessibility catgirlcowboy. holy fuck #also I’m never blocking a motherfucker who clearly doesn’t like me but is asking ME to block them lmao #why don’t you do it you little spineless cunt?? no?? won’t do it?? can’t muster up the courage?? too bad then! #I’ll just filter their name out and never actively block them LMAO

[oatbugs]

ok so heres what happened

#basically we went on another date. idk if u guys remember but the first date actually went rly well but for some reason i felt Nothing like #there was literally nothing wrong and everything went perfectly i showed her around london etc i was just like. idk i felt. friendship #not much more. anyway so for this date i went to manchester (they came all the way to ldn for me last date so its fine its fair) and she #showed me around etc and it was like. rly rly good. like genuinely we did a lot and talked a lot..and like. theyre rly rly good at art etc #like they carry pencils and their sketchbook w them everywhere and they draw ppl and scenery etc that they see + find interesting. #and like we talked. a lot . but at some point they looked at me a lot and i was like whats wrong and she said youre really beautiful and id #love to draw u . which was rly sweet...and also she said she loves watching me watching things. bc we went to a gallery #and then a book shop. BTW THE BOOK SHOP. ok so we were walking and there was like a random staircase upstairs and a sign saying book shop w #nothing else on it outside and we went upstairs and it was like a rly small but rly. cosy? interesting? book shop and there was this guy w #a rly rly pretty face and a long coat typing and there were like 20 poetry books next to him. some of them were lovesongs from the persp- #ective of a satanist and i asked him if the book was his and he said i guess . i bought an unlabelled book for £1 #ok just realised it would be too long to type the full interaction but istg i felt more abt this guy than i did abt her and i DONT KNOW WHY #like literally theres nothing wrong things went great i just dont. get it?? like. maybe i need her to be more interesting. but i feel #like thats not a valid reason. anyway she clearly feels more abt me than i do abt her but i also kind of implied previously id be ok w #exploring being more than friends etc but now im like. done exploring? like i dont think i can feel romantically abt her idk..but am i just #being dumb but also is it unfair to her if i say nothing. anyway i bought love poetry we walked around a lot + bought bubble tea + we both #had 5% to make it back home w. also went to cute cafes and vintage places etc etc #ill write abt the bookshop guy later maybe. anyway whats wrong w me why cant i just like smn normally. i have to make rice and #head off to archery now bye

[super-done-dead]

love seeing users who are friends interact on posts. would like to interact with a user whos a friend one day, on a post

#i think what makes tumblr feel so raw to me is that its fairly anonymous #theres gonna be like 3 ppl total on here who know me irl #but a lot of their accs havent been updated in AGES #aside from one #you know who you are. dont know if you know who i am #like i have a boyfriend of almost 5 years #i wouldnt tell him a lot of what goes on on here #i cant share anything abt shipping bc he thinks thats cring #if i was to share hed be supportive but i dont need him to think lesser of me #who else will i tell that my suicide attempt was not just an attempt #but effectively a gender wake up call as i shouted at the top of my lungs: #I want to be a boy! I want to be a boy! #i think about it sometimes and it geniunely tears at my soul #in different circumstances #with more supportive people around me #id be a trans man. #how harrowing is that #to stifle part of your identity just to make sure i am loved #life is already hard #i dont really want to make it too much harder #that and id look even more like my dad and that makes me somewhat suicidal again #btw my suicide attempt was in 2019! #thats how long ive been fighting myself!! #gotta wonder if i did attempt to transition #would i even be happy? #or do i just think i would be happy

[technicolorxsn]

love how there are pretentious video essays that just repeat the book and meander and ramble about house of leaves. it's what zampanó would have wanted. it is not, however, what I want

#anyway i finished the main portion of the book #all i have left is the poems and a few other small things i think? ive read pelafinas letters #im thinking of getting the full book of her letters #but also they severely messed with my head so we'll see #i will say. i do get why ppl say the book is pretentious and frustrating #there was a lot of stuff where i couldnt tell if it was supposed to be satire or if it was genuinely just that dense and pretentious #and a lot of the codes were rly obtuse imo? #like... idk. some of them were super obvious like the sos stuff or pelafina outright saying what to do #but others like. man how am i supposed to know johnny waxing poetic about pussy was coded #i mean that one is also pointed out though much later but i know i missed a lot just like it that werent pointed out #and ive heard theres a lot of shit where the message you get is just danielewski????? which gonna be real. kinda dumb. #but i did also really enjoy the book #there was a lot of stuff in it that was just so compelling or poignant or whatever other word #the minotaur stuff is good (ofc id say that though i love me some minotaur themes) #also a lot of the scenes with johnny just...... christ #idk how ppl say to skip them hes so fascinating #yeah i could do with him talking about his possibly hallucinated sex life a bit less but also his story is just plain interesting #i still think about the part where the girl he was talking to runs over a dog they had picked up........ it was fucking chilling #and his hallucinations of dying are so descriptive in just the right way to get under my skin #the uncertainty with him and his family..... did pelafina try to kill him? did his father just send her away for being a bit too overbearing #over an accident? was there something else? what was the deal with his foster family? with lude? gdansk man and kyrie? #how did it get published? who are the editors? why did the band know of the book before it should have been published? #why does his journal section end with a story from a man he admits to making up completely? the doctor from seattle doesnt exist #the chronological end is more hopeful with him saying things will be okay but then he puts a previous entry after that? #i think the burning of the book parallels the story nicely #johnny said his piece; he nurtured the book as much as he could; but it was hurting him and he had to give up on it #idk! #this book does make me feel a lil dumb ngl

[mechawolfie]

had the idea of basing etherlan off of black american cultures rather than african ones like I'd initially planned... hmm........

#smudgy.txt #HMMMMMM #i think its a neat concept #like i get why fantasy is the way it is (inspired by older (usually european) civilizations) but. #this was going to b smth different in the first place (sci-fantasy) Plus the concept is to be as Self Indulgent as possible #n initially i thought that would be making a fantasy series inspired by african cultures rather than european ones #but i realize i dont feel much connection to africa. #like i thought i did.. thought i Had to ig? #n its still a cool concept id like to see more #n i have been seeing it more which rules so hard #but! these stories r being told by ppl w direct connections to the cultures they represent #anndddd.. i wanna make one that feels close to home too #plus would like to shed this idea of No One Else Is Doing It So I Have To #like. no. not my job #my job is to make myself happy #& i would be very happy having these fantasy characters talk/act/dress like me n my family #bc i love that idea!! but i never see it ;_; #(were gonna pretend urban thor doesnt exist btw <3) #(black odin call meeee thoooo teehee <33) #etherlan #anyway. sorry 4 all that. & in the tags too.. fuck !

[snekdood]

i kinda feel like so long as someone like me isn’t accepted as a part of the queer community that none of us will ever be able to work together for our rights

#so long as im not 'good enough'. in whatever way that means to you. im p sure none of us will be accepted lol #idk what it is about me. im too mentally ill? too taboo? too outspoken about my beliefs?? #i dont feel like i operate really a whole lot different than other people on here i just have different interests and shit idk #but like. bc im such a low hanging fruit. bc im so easy to demonize. bc i look like a disney villain lol . as long as im not accepted #in all my sexy devilish ways #idk if any of us will. #idc if you think i give queer people a bad look bc of how much i embrace the things conservatives hate about us #bc like this is just me dude. im just being myself up here. sure i do a lil jokey trickstery stuff here n there but yknow #idk what ppl want from me. truly #like seriously if anyone can let me know what i did that was so wrong. id love to know #bc rn my suspicion is its just the terfs who are malding. but could be my abuser too. idk #they have way less people on their side though than like terfs do on the whole so thats why im leaning more toward it being the terfs #considering they have a whole. terf army apparently lol. #im not saying its just me but when yall decide certain people arent good enough or dont fit your hashtag aesthetic enough to be #part of the community then we're always going to lose. you cant just decide for queer people whether or not they have a place in thel #community. bc if you can just pick and choose who you want to be in it then its not even a community anymore or a movement or anything #its literally just a fucking clique and theres no way clique behavior is ever gonna inspire anyone to want to support us #and thats #aside from setting up a hierarchy of whats desireable in a person and what makes them Good Enough to be in the community #bc that shit is also going to make people decide to sort us by a similar standard. so long as all of us aren't accepted none of us will be