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pooffa · 5 years

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HELP HELP HELP HELP

****update****

Hello. Anyone know of an ol fashioned loan shark? Lol. Or just a kind soul thats willing to help me and loan the rest of the money I need to get rid of this lingering debt. I managed to get it down to 500. This chunk is just hovering over us and going into the new bills. We are trying so hard to get by and Im afraid we are going to start to loose things or get things shut off. Ive tried again asking family, but theyve all shut me out. I know im asking alot. And I know there are others in similiar or worse situations. I just need alittle help and if someone can help and need it paid back...I will do that. Again...Thank you!! If you can help, thank you. If not, please please signal boost.

**UPDATE**: Sorry for waiting so long to update. And Thank you to the ones that helped and signal boosted. I was able to get some help but not all. The new month came and what was paid for the new month was used towards the past. So im still, with all fees short 700. Theyve given us til sunday. I know this is hard for everyone. And if theres any kind souls out there that need to be paid back...i will do that. I thought i found an old friend that was willing to help me and lend me the whole amount. But he changed the plans and wanted more from me than just to be paid back. I was shocked and felt so violated by the things he was saying. 😢 I am desperate at this point, but not like that. Especially from a friend. Ughh...i still cant get over this. Anyway...if anyone can help..id really appreciate it or if not...please signal boost. THANK YOU!!

Ive been putting off coming on here to ask for help because I wasnt sure how well that would go down with anyone. But as I see all the post about FAMILY and SPN ending next year...Im hoping I can get some help from this FAMILY cause my real family SUCKS!!

Ive been with this fandom for about 4 or 5 years. Im unfortunately not a very creative person...so I cant do art or fics or anything like that. Im actually one of the quiet shy behind the scenes type. Mostly due to the nasty ones that came at me in the beginning for liking destiel and cockles. Also...because thats just me. Sorry. But I DO reblog all art and fics and anything that I see that should be. And I am quick to try to help or reblog anyone asking for help.

Anyway....I come here now...asking for help. I live with my mom. I take care of her. I have a job and she gets disability. My sister used to live with us but she got into drinking, drugs and other stuff. She left but left all her debt. Weve tried taking care of that and almost had it cleared. But then she stole money from us and now we are struggling with rent this month. The landlord has been helpful...but they can only hold it for so long. We have less than a week to come up with 1015 or we have to go.

Ive tried asking everyone....surprising when people whom youve always helped are now nowhere to be found. Especially relatives.

I know its asking alot and I already feel bad for asking. If you are able to help any and it can be loaned...I can pay it back...I just need a month to get it back to you.

If you are able to help...my paypal acct is

[email protected]

Thank you for reading this. And Thank you if youre able to help or even reblog this for help.

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aroworlds · 6 years

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As an Aro ace person I'm starting to really hate the ace community . I hate that Ace is umbrella, I hate that I have to use two words to explain I'll never be attracted to anyone ever and hence will spend my life alone . I feel the community is to obsessed with proving they still love that they need to pretend aro aces don't exist . And it leaves my soul hurting . I'm at the brink of suicide these days and it sucks because I don't know where I belong anymore and I'm feeling inhuman daily x.x

Anon, it breaks my heart that you’ve felt the need to send this in. It breaks my heart, because nobody should feel this way. Nobody should feel so isolated from and discouraged by their own community. This conversation shouldn’t be happening, anon, and that’s not on you–it never was and never will be. It’s on a situation, a shape of the community, and I think it says something profound that a few posts are generating other conversations and frustrations right now–I’ve seen it on this blog and on several others. I’ve seen it on several blogs just today!

I have a sense of a cork that’s been popped off the bottle, a hurt and a pain we’ve been holding in for too long coming out.

And I think that’s a good thing, because it’s time, past time, we had real conversations about the impact. That it isn’t a few aro-specs grinding their teeth and writing ranty posts about aro erasure. That this erasure and dismissal, this long-running amatonormativity and centering of romantic love (how many times have I seen alloromantic aces describe asexuality as “love without sexual attraction”?) has the potential to cause real wounds, real suffering, real isolation, real disconnect from a community that should provide support, real damage. Amatonormativity isn’t just fielding off questions from relatives about when we’re going to get married. Amatonormativity tells us that we are not the kind of humans society considers worthwhile, and you can’t live in this world without that weighing down on you.

None of us, not one of us, are strong enough not to be damaged by that: no human is or can be. It isn’t a failure in us. It’s a failure in everyone else. Some of us are better at hiding it, and some of us channel that pain into ranty posts or spite-motivated creativity, but we are all hurt by it.

Too many alloromantics brush off amatonormativity and the centring of alloromantic attraction as nothing, but it isn’t, and right now we deal with the pain of having our pain dismissed as nothing, even in spaces that are, ostensibly, meant to include us. It hurts worse from alloromantic aces because it feels like they should be better able to understand; ace-spec spaces feel like they should be more welcoming than they are. And I think it’s okay to feel hurt and even betrayed by that. We endure hate from outside together, all a-specs; we have every right to expect support, instead of erasure, inside.

Anon, as someone who deals with suicidal ideation myself, I do not miss the immense bravery it took from you to write about your pain and the way it makes you feel. But I want to thank you, too, for having the courage to be honest and real, to stand up as an example, to shine a real light on where erasure leads us.

I don’t have simple solutions to problems like the pressure of using ace as an umbrella term. (I’ve seen plenty of aro-aces talk about how they’d prefer to ID as aro alone but cannot because it isn’t accepted, and their loathing of ace as an umbrella term. If you feel this, I’d truly appreciate it if you could comment on this post as solidarity for our anon, because I know they’re not alone.) I also know that there are no simple solutions to mental illness and suicidal ideation, and they do not make amatonormativity easier to bear. I do think, though, that pride is the one real weapon we can bring to bear against a socialized worthlessness–pride and community.

As much as I don’t need an excuse to promote the aro-spec artist profiles, anon, I’d like you to go check them out. Read what other talented aros–including several aro-aces–are writing about being aro and creative. Go click on the links to their work–an awful lot of them have works available for free. There’s art and there’s stories, stories about aro-spec experiences, stories about resisting amatonormativity, stories about aro-spec and aro-ace feelings. Stories that normalise. We’re just getting started on building this canon, but it’s already a defiant cry that we are normal, we are wonderful, we are human, and it’s only going to get better.

(Likewise, check out all the fiction pieces submitted and reblogged here. Or the poetry. Or the artwork and visual pieces!)

Anyone who’s following this blog knows I write, that I tell stories. I do it because the world tells me that I don’t get to be the hero, that I am not deserving of being the hero, so I’ll break my hands on my words screaming fuck that. Even better, there’s a whole bunch of other aro-spec and aro-ace storytellers here who are doing the same. But I’ll tell you one thing I’ve learnt: it is easier, so much easier, to survive anything when there’s other people beside you. Stories are that person beside you. Stories are other aro-specs’ hopes and dreams.

I wouldn’t be alive today if not for the hope in the storytelling of others. It’s not enough by any means, but I hope it is the beginning of a feeling that the world, when it comes to aro-specs, is a thousand kinds of wrong and we do not have to listen to what it teaches us. If we can feel that, this kernel of understanding that amatonormativity is not only damaging but nonsensical against a world of wonderful and amazing and loved aro-spec people, it’s a little bit easier to survive it.

Anon, I know the aro-spec community alone isn’t enough for you, and it absolutely should not have to be, but I hope we here, at least, can work on making this space more supportive and welcoming of you. I want you here and I want you to belong here. If you are aro-spec in any way, this community is for you, and if we are not doing a good enough job of being welcoming to our own, come in and tell me, tell us. Because a community that isn’t devoted to celebrating and sheltering all our own, however different your experiences as an aro-spec may be from mine, isn’t one I wish to be part of.

Thank you so much, anon, for trusting me with your story.

(If folks are looking at starting spaces specifically for the support of aro-aces who feel alienated by the ace-spec community, please let me know and I’ll signal boost here. I may not be around a lot over the next week because I have a personal situation with my family that is unexpectedly on the precipice of being very awful, but I’ll get to it as soon as I can.)

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