#i'm not shocked i'm just sad

[cosmicdreamgrl]

well. that was........everything i expected and yet i'm still massively disappointed

#steph.text #there are a lot of things i could say #it's just odd to come onto your dash and see everyone hyping this album up when in reality it's fine? he could do so much better #and yes i already gathered that this was for the western market and it will do well on that end #but in terms of the music? #it's so mediocre it hurts #there's no urgency or personality or expression in any of these songs #it sounds like you took all ten of them put them in a blender & created a homogenous blob #and that's what most mainstream pop music sounds like today so again to be expected #i'm not shocked i'm just sad #the biggest crime imo? #none of the songs really bring out the beauty of his voice #between the mixing vocal layering/filtering autotune etc. #also keep in mind he uses a lot of air when singing in english #it's okay he doesn't sound bad but in comparison to what his voice fully capable of on other songs & in general? #yeah #i'm gonna go watch the mv #at least that will deliver #also to no one's surprise it's the best song on the album hands down #oh boy

[xoxoemynn]

you know what, I refuse to feel ashamed for clowning.

Max had this gorgeous, unique show in their hands that was popular with both critics and audiences, and they fucking blew it.

THEY'RE the clowns.

OFMD, you deserved so much better.

#ofmd #I'm still in shock #I'm just so so sad #I don't know what to do with myself

[emmavakarian-theirin]

hiiiiiii i've fallen back into dragon age hell (origins, specifically) if anyone wants to DISCUSS things i am here

#(twirls hair) i think i'm falling for alistair all over again (sickos meme) yes... ha ha ha... YES.... #and it's mostly through realising how there's lines that are just SO unprompted or have no build up with the context of the subject?? #but obviously not in a bad writing way it's just *alistair* like #leliana: oh how i enjoyed the quiet of the chantry so i could contemplate and be at peace 😌 what about you alistair? 😊 #alistair: i liked screaming #LIKE honestly why was the grand cleric trying to keep you #or even the dialogue when you're trying to talk to him about his history and he's like 'it's boring though :/' #so you tell him to make up interesting stuff and he suddenly says 'i have some interesting looking moles i can show you?' LIKE??? #you are a sad strange big man and you have my love #BUT ANYWAY i'm having a moral dilemma over the most minor quest and have been staring at the same screen for like 30 minutes #and i know it's hard to see but sten looks so GOOD i'm shocked and thrilled i managed to get every mod i wanted to work... work

[maddy-ferguson]

people on twitter falling to their knees because celebrities are posting pro-israel insta stories how old are you that this matters to you

#and how and why are you shocked when supporting israel is like. the status quo... #if they're not smart but have morals or whatever some of them will have posted something in support of palestinians in 2021 because they're #just like: people dying is sad. which it is! if they don't have morals they're probably saying something like we stand with israel forever #and always like they're the actual us government or something #like i'm sorry how are you shocked that western and especially american celebrities are pro israel #like if you know enough to be disappointed that they are how do you not know enough to expect them to be i'm confused #and also idk being like omg noooo look at me x this isn't you is so weird like. what. again how old are you #anyway this is just like i was saying this summer #like rn doing a thread of celebrities you should unfollow because they posted something pro-israel is kinda pathetic #and the thread has 4.5 million impressions and it's just people going omg nooo sitcom background actor number 3 is cancelled now...like i #think it's so weird #it's probably going to get even worse for palestine and that's so sad #and like i say: brf slt

[coulsonlives]

Re-reading the comics and I totally forgot how dark they are

#zuko #zukaang #aang #atla zuko #atla aang #atla #avatar the last airbender #the promise #unpopular opinion maybe but i loved how nothing in this book was cut and dried and how everyones' trauma came back to haunt em #progress isn't linear so i don't mind zuko's behaviour here #he suddenly has a lot more pressure on him and he's obviously scared shitless he'll do the right thing etc. like shit just got real #super sad #aang didn't want to kill ozai but idk he was just being a friend to zuko here because zuko asked it of him #aang was obviously conflicted BUT he also wanted to uphold his duty to the world #which zuko totally sold him on and used as an argument for aang to honour the promise. #i can totally see that happening #i loved the ending too how zuko turned out to be right all along and it was the generational trauma that just convinced him he wasn't right #like is some of the characterization/plot contrived? sure totally! but wow i'm shocked to see how ice-cold the overall reception is #@tumblr stop messing w my tags and sticking them in the post body omg #atla spoilers

[buckttommy]

Edy Ganem stop being queerphobic challenge level: IMPOSSIBLE.

#I didn't want to say anything because I know I have a considerable number of followers and I didn't want anyone sending her hate because of #something I posted. But since I'm no longer the only one talking about it... #Now Miss Girl. #You know good and well at your big age you could (and should!) have just left well enough alone #and that's my thing is #people create these situations for themselves and then act shocked when their actions (or lack of action since she still didn't issue a real #acknowledgement or apology) has consequences. #Being anti-queerphobic is about way more than the rainbow LOVE IS LOVE rhetoric leftists like to pronounce and that's where most people get #tripped up. I feel like she's one of those people — at least with the transphobic little joke that no one laughed at #But with that comment about turning a straight character gay? That's just outright homophobia and it's not cool. She could have chosen to #ignore it but instead she chose to like AND comment sooooo. How else is that meant to he interpreted except ignorance at best #and intentional homophobia at the very worst? #Anyways. Devin Kelley is the only valid 9-1-1 girlfriend. I know she's dead but can we bring Shannon back? #No? Okay? [sad tigger walking away.gif]

[clownprince]

Starting a collection. Please feel free to add

#I fucking love when people call him out for being a pathetic lovelorn little guy #don't be shy. hurt him more #call his ass OUT #I like that lex and ivy REALLY just absolutely dig into his insecurities #his initial reaction. w lex honestly makes me want to grind my teeth into dust #like before the rage sets in there's just a SPLIT second of genuine shock and fear. ahem #anyway #there are probably more panels I'm forgetting rn but I was Compelled to make this #batjokes #I wish I could like. pin these up on a giant wall somewhere #to make the dudebros understand that he's Not someone you're supposed to look up to he is not aspirational he is a SAD FRUIT

[faejilly]

so I wanted to riff off of @alexanderlightweight's response to the Alec/Bow/Quiver/summoning meta post by @ralfstrashcan that I reblogged recently, but also I didn't want it to get lost in an increasingly long reblog chain, so I'm gonna quote and start over here:

100%

my headcanon is that it's alec's shadowhunter ability like clary's rune ability and apparently the herondale ghost talking ability(??)

if we really want to take it a step further. we can even talk about how izzy has specially made weapons that have to be super tricky to use which means weapons ability

but that's just my brain. which made that one scene where alec goes back to the institute make no sense, to retrieve his bow because literally every other time he doesn't need to (they just wanted to give clace the training moment and set up the whole hodge thing)

1: I also think Alec's 'have to go get a bow' is just an excuse, but he's using it to a) get away from Jace behaving incomprehensibly & Clary being So Very Clary, AND b) to cover their tracks now that he's realized just HOW comprehensively his siblings are going to go off the rails in the next day or so. (And on a narrative level I really like the scene with Hodge so I'm glad it exists. 😅)

2: I headcanon that part of the reason Alec (& to a lesser extent but still noticeably so, Izzy) can get away with pushing so many Clave/Nephilim boundaries without actually getting deruned despite their parents being on Thin Fucking Ice™️ with well, everyone, is that they have inherited both Family Traits and that's valuable enough (especially after all the losses during and after the Uprising) that the Clave really really doesn't want to get rid of them.

(Similarly, there's some hope that Jace and/or his expected children might show signs of the Wayland traits coming to life again as they've died out otherwise. Obviously that goes a bit sideways once they finally pick up on How Very Herondale he is, but luckily he's Herondale so that's still a benefit.)

Truebloods: very literally truth-tellers. Variations on their skills include the ability to recognize lies, off the charts charisma when they are invoking what they believe to be the truth, and an ability to make the most awkward truths palatable to audiences that normally wouldn't want to engage with them. They were traditionally the guardians of the Soul Sword whenever it left the City of Bones, but that honor faded away over the years as the Council with the Consul/Inquisitor as heads centralized power in their own hands.

Izzy can be seen doing this during her trial, because even when her personal behavior has included digs & microaggressions against Downworlders, she believes that they as a people can and should do better and her speech clearly works in-universe because of that resonance of truth.

(She even occasionally manages the sincere/heart-felt clunky dialogue that works despite being clunky that Alec's so good at, and poor Jace doesn't, despite his best attempts, because for all he's a Lightwood in every other way that matters, he's not actually part Trueblood.)

Maryse has several hints of Alec's same blunt (inexplicably successful) sincerity once she lets herself stop hiding behind Politics & Expectations. When she's upset with Izzy about spending time with the Seelie in s1, she has a line that always felt very self-recriminating to me; (I'm paraphrasing here since I'm too lazy to pull up the script or episode): 'never trust a people who can't lie, they'll find more imaginative ways to stab you in the back'. She knows this about the Seelie because it's what she's always done.

(Alec's shock at his parents being in the Circle can't be because it's against their politics as they've never really tried to behave better. Perhaps it's because it never occurred to him that they could lie that well. Especially his mother, since he has a much better relationship with her than Robert.)

This means that Maryse buying into Valentine's rhetoric was invaluable to him, because she could back him up and help make sure people would fall for it, because she was a Trueblood. Equally, when she turns, that is part of why the Clave lets them back in. Her vow to now toe the party line is completely believable, because she promised on her children... who are also Truebloods.

This also means that their bloodline is one that would not always be popular since they can call out power when it's behaving badly; thus the apparent decline of Trueblood standing in the way that the show refuses to ever really acknowledge it in the present day timeline, and instead talks about Lightwood honor.

(But countered in the way The Clave doesn't move directly against Alec Lightwood, HotI, despite gay and living with a Downworlder, despite how much clear disdain he has for so many of them and their policies. They aren't willing to risk what a Trueblood could do if pushed into active rebellion.)

Lightwoods have a much more palatable martial gift. Their affinity for the adamas in their weapons means they can bond with them, sometimes strongly enough to summon them, manipulate them in the field, adapt them and rune them and enhance them in ways most Shadowhunters can't. (We never see anyone doing anything resembling Alec runing his arrows in s1 after all. What if most of them can't?)

As shown by Izzy in s3 as Weapon's Master, in Alec's ability to beat his parabatai (the supposed best fighter of a generation) when they're sparring with weapons even if he loses once they get to hand-to-hand, Izzy's unique skill with a whip, Alec fighting with everything he gets his hands on, from seraph blades to his signature bow to actual arrows for stabbing. (As seen in everything in ralf's original meta post and delightful fic.)

There's even something in the fact that Izzy was interested in joining the Iron Sisters (which while prestigious also involves even more sacrifice from a people who have to sacrifice a lot already and are thus vital enough that they let Cleophas join despite her past because they needed her) and yet Izzy stayed active duty -- and presumably eventually marriageable.

(I frequently wonder if part of why she chose to make herself as unpalatable as possible for a traditional/political match was a lingering bit of awareness that that was what The Clave most wanted from her, regardless of who she wanted to be.)

ALSO! There has to be a reason that Robert Lightwood was valuable enough to keep even when they got rid of Maryse, a reason the show reiterates Lightwood honor over and over again, a reason he & Maryse got to be co-Heads of an Institute (even if the general fanon that they were more constrained than most Proper Heads does fit what little we see), and we never actually see Robert fighting or sparring, but we are repeatedly told that his children are the best of the best.

But it's seldom mentioned as a compliment, is it? More like an expectation. They're Lightwoods, they have to be the best with their weapons, or what is the point of them? It's just another weight added to Alec's so-called crown, another expectation Izzy has to both flaunt and fight against every day so she can have at least a little bit of herself left to hold onto.

(The one thing Jace is good at, the one bit of the monster his father built that helps; he's as good with a blade as a Lightwood. It's the only thing that gives him hope for redemption, the only thing that gives him enough conviction to ask Alec to be his parabatai and protect his soul from himself.)

#my sh rambling #jilly metas #shadowhunters #alec lightwood #isabelle lightwood #maryse trueblood #robert lightwood #jace lightwood #almost #and now I'm sad #in a lighter note: #everyone thinks Max Lightwood has no Trueblood traits #because everyone can always tell when he's lying #but actually he DOES #he just always knew he was lying #and thought it was hilarious #so it's not 'til he's older #that he really invokes the Trueblood Thing™️ #and he totally shocks everyone and Alec & Izzy & Maryse are So Proud #and Jace agrees that the previous terrible lying was in fact hilarious and a great idea #fandom friday #totally gonna be a thing maybe? #we'll see if I manage to figure out a post for it later

[cosmic-walkers]

Thomas had so much planned out for everyone. If there is one thing Wolf Hall shows us it's how much he plans ahead and how much he thinks about everyone's future without him. It's just an eerie detail I gather that Thomas doesn't think himself to live for that long, even if he doesn't outright say it. It's in his actions, the things he does, etc. The whole theme of this series is Thomas cheating death, from the beginning when Walter tells him to get up to the end.

But his will, which is lowkey kinda extra, sums up how the character just navigates thinking of things for everyone, thinking up a path and care for everyone and he's okay not being there with them.

Lastly, this is gut-wrenching because after he is executed for treason I think like...all of this falls through T-T

That's another thing - all of this, everything he's done, everything he's done for others, everything he plans to do for others, the life he's made for himself, the life he's cultivated by cheating death amounts to, in a way, absolutely nothing in the end. We see all of this but it means absolutely nothing and that's what hurts the most.

#thomas cromwell #wolf hall #damn this is sad #this is also kinda funny #like....T-T seriousness aside #this is an extra ass will #thomas rambles so much so idk why i'm shocked he rambled in his damn will #he's like 'and oh...the street sweeper give him my hat--the birds give them my coats' #that's basically what this is #he just keeps on going and going #and then rafe as an after thought at the very end #'to god my soul and oh - i forgot rafe - here damn take my books '

[chloecherrysip]

Every time Mario is visibly concerned/worried about Luigi in the trailers/TV spots/sneak peeks/etc shown so far.

#mario movie #mario movie spoilers #super mario bros movie #super mario bros #super mario bros movie spoilers #cherrysip edits #LOOK...this is not a very good gifset #i am working with tiktok videos and recordings of television screens here haha #BUT!!! i couldn't get the idea out of my head of compiling all of this and i spent so much time on these gifs that now i HAVE to post them #also i know the text could look better but i am not very good at that yet please be gentle with me!!! #a couple more caveats: i may have forgotten something and also the context of these clips could very well be misleading #these are basically scenes where the trailers/tv spots make it APPEAR as though mario is reacting about luigi but i could be wrong #with all of that out of the way: LOOK AT THIS MAN. THIS SAD WORRIED VERY SMALL MAN. GIVE HIM HIS BROTHER BACK #like many people i was also worried when it became clear that mario and luigi were going to spend a lot of this movie apart #and i'm sure there will be stretches of time where mario is caught up in the adventure #but just the fact that luigi seems VERY front of mind for mario throughout hurts my feeble little heart #he isn't going to stop he's going to do whatever it takes until his little brother is safe and back beside him #(also: i hadn't seen that 'this guy's brother is going to DIE' clip in a long time and the FACE JOURNEY that mario goes on there continues #to be SO incredible and funny. he genuinely looks very pissed off at toad after the initial shock wears off. AND I WONDER WHY) #(especially now that we know this is the second time toad makes a comment about his brother dying and/or being lost forever!!!) #(MARIO WOULD APPRECIATE IT IF YOU DIDN'T!!!!!)

[falderaletcetera]

come to think of it another reason I'm biased towards nine might be because we never reach such beautiful casual queer vibes as the doctor + rose + jack situation again, at least not as far as I've watched. like I'm honestly not that much of a shipper but that kiss scene DOES things to me. and part of that is how loosely defined the relationship seems to be, at least maybe from jack's perspective. I can't rightly say it was wholly romantic in canon, but it sure was something - yes, rose flirted with jack way more than the doctor did when they first met, but the doctor even just being chill about jack kissing him feels significant - and I do love a quasi-romantic loosely-defined Something.

#doctor who #falderal speaks #I have stills from the jack+rose and jack+doctor kisses because I'm. normal about it #and I think we avoid seeing the doctor's face during or right after because they didn't want to shock the viewers too much? #if we don't see the doctor's face or reaction it can be waved off as just a Jack Being Jack thing #and it leaves us this sort of... almost plausible denability almost ambiguity #and again that may just be the vibe jack brings to it #it honestly makes me a little sad that he feels so different in torchwood #because I almost wanna say that pre-torchwood jack is maybe just LIKE this with his close friendships #maybe he comfortably straddles/ignores the line between friendship and romance when that's safe and welcome #(or else just falls into that with rose and the doctor specifically) #and maybe he's just lived through so much by torchwood (or lived so long in such a restrictive culture) #that he just. doesn't do that anymore. can't. #those are my feelings on it at least! #I haven't strayed into the fandom at ALL I just grew up with the show so nobody read this as reacting to any trends in the fandom pls #anyway apparently I'm mostly feral about the relationships I can think about and ship in a queerplatonic way #which will be a surprise to absolutely no-one who knows me from fandom stuff #but I hadn't thought to think about these three that way before. and it's a treat. #drafted last night just posted today #(like this was probably the first queer character and queer kiss I saw on screen and it was a nationally beloved family-friendly show) #(I'm basically obligated not to be normal about it)

[hussyknee]

Been meaning to bathe the kittens but kept putting it off bc the last time I bathed them was when they were much tinier and more forgiving. But today I nearly stepped on a decapitated mouse they had dragged upstairs, so into the tub they all went. They're now fresh, kissable, and heartbroken. 💔

#I chose swift expendiency over gentleness so we were done in eight minutes #this is regardless not appreciated #Mau just squawks at all the world all the time anyway but Méka is a grudge holder #my sister once kicked her out of her room and she didn't so much as look at her for three days #my transgression is much bigger #she's currently crouched in the corner glaring at me like I'm the unpredictable wild animal #she's already stingy with her favours. will I ever be forgiven? #Moo broke my heart in a whole other way because he hung by my hand‚ limp‚ shocked‚ betrayed but still trusting #he's sad and disappointed in his Mama but he can't live without my cuddles #bathing dogs is much more enjoyable #their betrayal isn't so bad bc 1) routine 2) hilarious 3) forgiving and forgetting is a given #the cats know I have committed indecent crimes against God and nature #even if they're the ones dragging in mice and rolling in dirt and then sprawling all over the furniture #(it's real feel 33°C at 8am and drenched in sun. they're assuredly not going to freeze) #Méka Mau Moo #cat mom problems #cats of Tumblr #cattos #kittens #kitties #knee of huss

[zimszim]

i looooove liu qingge what a character. one of the sect's greatest fighters, stoic, dark, mysterious, man of few words, loyal as a motherfucker and never stops fighting for shen qingqiu even when he dies, especially when he dies

#when i saw that luo binghe just has been holding onto his corpse i too was like what the fuck #and then i was like we NEED to invent therapy so shen qingqiu can make u go to it #<- girl who doesnt know if therapy exists in this time #svsss #i'm on ch 18 🎯 #DONT spoil it if liu qingge turns out to be evil or something #i want to be disappointed and shocked and sad about it ❤️⭐️ #if that does happen THEN we can all point and laugh at me

[frecklystars]

i know nobody is online rn to read this but ;-; i gotta get it off my chest i love ken so much he means everything to me he's making me so happy and i've needed him so so so bad. he's brought me comfort when my ptsd has been so fucking unbearable and every time i'm having a crying fit over losing my tf f/os or every time i'm having a flashback i ALWAYS immediately IMMEDIATELY think about him rushing to my side, holding me and saying "hey hey it's okay, i'm here, i'm right here" and it's such a relief because i haven't been able to genuinely wholeheartedly believe any character would be willing to do that for me the entire time i've been struggling this year.

i've never gone so long without comfort from f/os, much less being triggered by the ones who used to comfort me the most. so to have barbie and ken right now is like the biggest wave of relief every single day when i wake up and the hyperfixation is still there. sometimes i will literally close my eyes and sigh in relief when i hear a song and my first thought is sebastian or ken or six or... whomever. i love being in love again. i NEED this. i love waking up and my first thought isn't my trauma most of the time now, it's ken. or it's six. or it's barbie. or it's harley. or it's officer k. or it's... yeah you get it. i needed these characters so fucking badly. every time i see a gifset and get excited over it, i feel a rush of gratitude bc self shipping has always been the glue holding me together. it doesn't feel as intense or strong as the SB musical or TF used to make me feel but i am not picky. not at all. i will take anything and i'm praying this lasts for at LEAST another few weeks please

i may not be at a sense of peace right now and i dont know when i ever will be, it could be years, but im so. so. so. so so so thankful to have these characters right now when i've needed someone so badly for so long. i hope ken knows how much i love him ;-; i hope barbie knows how much she has helped me, has saved me from one of my major triggers and has helped me to love and feel safe around the color pink again. i wish they could see me when i'm not so broken but i'm glad they're here even when i'm at my worst, i'm glad they still love me even when they deserve to see me in a much better light

#it feels so fucking terrible not celebrating my bday with my starlight. i used to buy myself cakes and put his figurine next to them #i mean i still have... a little bit over one week... i cant... let it pass by without him being involved somehow #so i might make a quick vent doodle and queue it for the actual day of my bday #i refuse to not draw myself with him at least once for my special day #its not like we 'broke up' or anything but fuck it feels so bad #he's a literal fucking ptsd trigger. how fucking insane is that #im still in shock. im still in shock over what happened to me like i cant fucking believe it #wearing his necklace makes me cry so i just leave it on my dresser #that shouldnt be normal!!!! #but im hoping that shipping with barbie/ken is going to help me feel like i can reclaim control over my ships #bc my abuser made me feel like... i had no control over my TF ships whatsoever for a solid year #so now that i'm finally free of that toxicity i'm still shakily trying to learn how to ship again #i'll have moments where i'll worry ken will try to hurt me on purpose bc im so used to my abuser telling me how abusive any f/o would be #but then i tell myself 'hey what the fuck. this is MY story. NOBODY would abuse me i dont care WHO they are' #but it's so hard to unlearn several months of abuse 😔 #and even harder to look at a character who i invested so much time and energy and money into #my voice clips. my cameos. all of my steve blum autographs. my art for steve. all of it feels sad and numbing #not just stsc but everyone in any TF universe feels like... a threat and i get panic attacks when i see very specific characters sometimes #its awful. it hurts so bad. i love ken so much. but nothing compares to what i had with my TF comfort characters #but it's okay bc... ken is holding my hand and he might not understand ptsd at all but he can still squeeze me tight #and six HAS c-ptsd he GETS it. and he's there to hold me when my nightmares make me fall apart. he's my rock #vent #ptsd #sorry it's 5am i had a bad nightmare and now i refuse to sleep again #i fucking hate ptsd i fucking hate living like this i rly wish i knew how to cure myself #im exercising im eating and drinking often im sleeping as much as i can #theres only so much i can do #when does it get better?? when the fuck does it get better? im serious. not rhetorical. when does this finally heal #i dont even know if im healing or if im just distracted... but fuck ill take anything

[hgduo]

i refuse to believe that he's dead btw, i am looking away i do not see it- he's fine- he'll come back from this- he cannot die before getting all of his memories of Tilin back- before remembering Richas- before reuniting with Forever- before getting his revenge on the feds- before.... being able to be happy

#liveblog #qsmp spoilers #( also ngl... I really do not like plotlines where a character suffers and suffers only to just die ) #( like I'm a tragedy enjoyer but that's a trope I have never liked ) #( prolonged suffering and then just killed off seemingly for shock value is a trope I have never enjoyed... also im just sad lol)

[lovelaceisntdead]

Kaspar hurt his leg and the only way he's settled is if he's propped up against me in bed which is really uncomfortable for me to sleep but I can't move him because he cries when I try and I'm so tired and I can barely breathe

#I'm just exhausted i want to sleep but I'm so uncomfortable #and I'm so worried about him he's been really out of sorts today #and i think Noah's having a bad shed #and my grandparents cat had to be put down a couple of days ago and she was so sweet #it wasn't a shock but it's still sad #and I'm just really worried about my babies lately so that hasn't helped #idk I'm just really tired and there's a lot going on.