#i’m so tired i feel like death

[maidofmetal]

i’m literally gonna cry if i can’t fucking sleep jdjdjdmd

#metal speaks #insomnia #painsomnia #cant fucking sleep disorder #i’ve literally only slept like 12 hours in the past 2 days and i’m so fucking tired #i was up all day hoping i could exhaust myself and fucking sleep #butnfufjdkdmd #it’s been like 3 hours #i’m so tired #i too pain meds + melatonin and im dying 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 #i’m so tired i feel like death

[iknowwhereyousnoozeatnight]

misa my love

#death note #misa amane #alcohol #i adore her i love her sm she’s perfect and i love her very much #i drew this at a ridiculous hour and i’m also writing this at a ridiculous hour and also i might even post this at a ridiculous hour so #that’s how it is #anyways i tried using thinner lines for once thicker lines like feel better to draw and shit they work better for my style i think but #i like thin lines too they’re just sneaker to me yeah they’re sneakier they like do things that thicker lines don’t and they feel different #w my pen even though they are just smaller idk they have vibes that are different anyways goodnight goodbye i’m tired

[o-wild-west-wind]

tumblr algorithm stop feeding me takes that this show is just a silly goofy comedy that shouldn’t include death or that Izzy is the token disabled elder queer on the show where an actual disabled elder queer is literally the romantic lead or that Lucius and Pete being called “mateys” is diluting their gayness because it’s not “husbands” or that it’s sexist that Zheng lost her fleet and later prioritized her love for a man or that Ed is Izzy’s abuser because we conveniently forgot all of season 1 or that trauma is never followed through with because sometimes actions are used instead of words or that Ed learned nothing because the inn was apparently a whim as if he hasn’t been obsessing over retirement from day 1 I swear did we even watch the same show?? I literally feel like I’m in backwards land?

I have a really novel concept for y’all complaining about character’s arcs not being fully resolved or healed and that’s called there is supposed to be another season of this show

I also have another really novel concept as to why every single character did not have a one on one trauma apology session and so much time was spent on Ed and Stede and that is because this is literally the Ed and Stede show and also sometimes parallels are meant to be inferred and extrapolated because that is what efficient storytelling does instead of spoonfeeding you

And my most novel concept of all as to why some beloved characters had less screen time is because Max is a massive jerk and cut the budget

Y’all this wasn’t personal and maybe this show was never about Izzy maybe the show called our flag means death is actually about death maybe sad does not equal homophobic letdown maybe the brown gay character introduced as the love interest from day 1 gets to outlive the angry white guy that had a redemption arc after actively bullying and trying to break up every gay couple for a season I don’t know what to tell you just can you please let non-white people have this arc for once without assuming it’s an attack on you I’m BEGGING y’all

#I’m sorry for overusing y’all I grew up country lmao #anyway. critical thinking when #I didn’t want to make more posts about this I’m just tired and seeing people denounce the show as homophobic #for killing the subtextually gay internalized homophobia character #in favor of the canonically gay brown protagonist #makes me feel more and more uncomfortable the more I see it #WHY do you defend him over the actual gay people esp. poc gay people like make it make sense #be sad he died I have a million posts about that but this strawmanning is getting concerning #bc what does this mean of your ability to recognize real homophobia #it’s not about you!!! and if you think his death means something about you PLEASE unpack that #I had a lovely night with friends and am not sober lol so if I seem salty that’s why I’m sorry for being a broken record #this is not anti-Izzy this is anti-baffling takes on Izzy #I’m sorry we’ll be back to our regularly scheduled kiss gif programming soon I don’t like these posts either #I just can’t resist a good hill #ofmd #ofmd season 2 #ofmd spoilers #ofmd s2 spoilers #fandom crit #our flag means death

[deathnotearchive]

Hi after almost nine months I am finally making an introduction post.

Welcome!!

The goal of this blog is to find and reblog as many Death Note related fanworks as I can.

The Death Note fandom is full of passionate, talented, and creative individuals whose contributions deserve to be shared and appreciated, and I want to help share and appreciate said contributions as much as possible. Also the knowledge that someone’s fanwork could drop off the face of the earth never to be found again because it was deleted or something keeps me up at night and I want to make sure those works can still be accessible to others.

I predominantly reblog from blogs who have posted recently, but that is purely because they are the easiest to find. If you know any older blogs that used to post any form of Death Note fanworks, I would appreciate it if you sent them to me.

In order to make this blog easier to navigate, I have created a google doc containing links to all of this blog’s tags relating to characters, formats/types of fanworks, relationships (both platonic or otherwise), and years. If there’s anything wrong with the links, please let me know.

As my aim is to archive as many Death Note related fanworks as I can find, when looking through this blog, there is a good chance you will find something that makes you uncomfortable. If that bothers you, then I recommend going through the google doc and filtering any tags that contain anything that will cause you discomfort (you can filter tags by going to settings —> account —> content you see —> filtered tags). Please do not harass me or anyone else over fanworks that personally make you uncomfortable, all you will succeed in is making others uncomfortable in return. If you don’t like something, just don’t engage with it.

Finally, if you have any questions/need to tell me something, please feel free to send an ask. I will try my hardest to respond as quickly and comprehensively as possible. You can also ask me to try and find a specific fanwork/creator, but there’s a very good chance I won’t be able to find what you’re looking for. Regardless, if I do find it, I will let you know as soon as I can.

#i’m super tired i hope this makes sense lol #this may just look like a bunch of fancy words put together but tbh that’s just how i speak when i’m feeling hashtag serious anyways #the tags in the google doc aren’t the only tags i use btw they’re just the ones i think will be looked through the most #i do plan to add to the list with miscellaneous tags and creator/blog tags but they would take wayy too long to sort through #so that task is for another day #also the characters in the doc without links just don’t have tags yet #death note #not archive #intro post #death note fandom #archive blog

[kissmefriendly]

It’s really kinda sad painful and interesting that the Captain’s death is one of the few where we don’t see him become a ghost. We almost expect it but the final shot of that scene is just him laying lifeless on the floor (and I suppose there there’s some mirroring between his and Kitty’s death, especially through the cinematography). How horrific must that have been when he did become a ghost? To be able to see Havers and trying to reach out to him, trying to get through to him only for Havers to never know he was still there, alone. Having to listen to all the nasty comments made by the other officers. To watch Havers leave the house for a second time, unable to get his attention or say goodbye.

#I find it interesting and very sad that Kitty and the Cap are just shown lying there completely lifeless #and we EXPECT them to become ghosts like with Humphrey Julian or Thomas #but they both just lie there #even the cinematography with the placement of Eleanor and Havers and the overhead camera just… #these both hit me so hard #especially considering their almost father-daughter relationship later on #I just have alot of feelings about this choice #I’m kind of tired and in some pain so my head is woozy #no idea if I’m making any sense but that choice really struck me #bbc ghosts #bbc ghosts spoilers #i might elaborate #but I haven’t stopped thinking about it tbh #I wanna go into more depth about Kitty and the Cap’s deaths as mirrors but uhhh brain is slow and stupid rn

[soyoudneverguess]

SPOILERS THE SILT VERSES 36

This is a little bit of a live blog

HEART BROKEN HOLY FUCK

RELATIONSHIP ENDED WITH THE JOY OF HAYWARD AND CARPENTER FUCKING AROUND, RELATIONSHIP STARTED WITH THE TRAGEDY OF SEB AND DEV MY LOVES MY DARLINGS MY AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH MEAN MEAN MEAN YOU MOTHERFUCKERS ARE SO MEAN CANT THEY JUST BE HAPPY CANT THEY AKNDKDNFKEBDUEHFBKDLXNDHDJDBEJDBDJDNEBEBDNNDKDNDJDBDNDNDKKDKDKFKRKRBRJSJBDHDIEBJ DE IEKRJJDHJEE DE

Anyways, happiness is fleeting but “hold on Dev, I’m coming” for a man you’ve known for days who’ve you loved almost upon first sight.

HOLY HOLY HOLY HOLY SHIT HES ALIVE SEB IS SO POWERFUL SEB SEB SEB SEB SEB YOU FUCKING DID IT OH MY GOD MY LOVE DEV DEV DEV DEV DEV YOU MET A MAN AND HE FELL IN LOVE WITH YOU AND HE WENT INTO HELL FOR YOU AND SAVED YOUR SISTER AND AND AND EVERYTHING IS GOING TO BE OKAY NOW YOU KNOW EVERYTHING IS GOING TO BE BETTER FOR BOTH OF US

Oh bitch. Oh you fucking bitch. I’m. I. Yeah. It truly was too good to be real.

#tsv 36 #tsv spoilers #the silt verses #i’m going to kill someone #they were so good #two people taking shelter in the other #and in the end they both die. #perhaps this is simply a foreshadowing moment #you go off looking for a sibling. you find someone who you can take comfort in. who understands you. #but neither of you are safe. and the comfort you take in one another turns false. and you both are cursed after. #I would like to also see this episode as a way to view how the general public is feeling #they’re tired of gods. they’re tired of being prey. but if they don’t comply they are drafted and die. if they do die they’re dead anyway #it’s just the truth of this world. #you are prey. you will always be prey. #your death is only significant to you #and the ship that passed by in the night. that sunk trying to help. #carpenter admitted she was wrong this episode and it felt significant #ALSO ALSO ALSO #Dev was way more impactful on Seb then the other way around #Seb yearned for him. for company. to not be lonely. #Dev yearned for family. his most perfect world has him and his sister and his parents #there was no room for Seb #god #they died together. seb died to save dev. and yet

[leafatlaw]

there’s something poetic in the different ways the life series different twists add to the stories they tell. 3rd life is desperate and brutal. 3 lives is all you get and then your out no if ands or buts. Each life is more precious than diamonds, and the taking of a life(desert duo) requires a similar payment in return. and the stakes are oh so high so it gets down to a two team battle and then it’s over.

In direct contrast, last life is almost calmer, in comparison. People have up to 5 lives, a seemingly insane sun in comparison to the previous three. The lives are traded and won and gifted. People share lives. They tick down to red slowly and with the entire server fighting against it. It’s a tactician that wins because it wasn’t about fighting this time it was about teams and betrayals and promises.

Double life is a return to form in a way. After last life it’s three lives again or more accurately one and a half. Everything’s shared and all your enemies are halved or doubled.

Finally limited life rolls around with its new idea: there’s no set number of lives. It’s all about time. Technically all the player start with approximately 24 lives but the clock itself is against you as well for this game. In short limited life is anything but limited. There’s more lives more freedom more time, ironically enough. And due to this being the fourth season there’s more partnership already and it’s easily to build on. They’ve got the hang of this now and they’re willing to try to mix things up. Limited life so so shockingly free from the constraints of its former series, there’s family drama, an episode where someone afks, there’s flowerhusbands, it’s full of callbacks and references, and in that way the finale ends diffenrly as well. The added twist of a betrayal unlike what we’ve seen before

#Limited insipired this btw #Because it’s so #Guenuinly jarring #Is that just a me thing ? #It’s like oh yes the death games for the other series but #It’s less #Maybe it’s because there’s no walls ? #Did anyone build walls in limited because huh I can’t remember #It feels closer as well #And maybe it’s just the flowerhusbands but it feels almost more causal #I’m crazy I’m very tired #sparrow speaks #sparrows soliloquy #trafficblr #traffic smp #traffic series

[gottagobackintime]

Another queer show cancelled…

#this happens time and time again and I’m tired of it #meanwhile trash shows like riverdale for example gets season after season #but god forbid that shows about queer joy or queer youths that aren’t about having the most fucked up kinky sex when you’re like 16 #get more than one or two seasons if they’re feeling generous #anyway I actually wrote to hbomax to complain not that it will change anything at all #but it made me feel better #I’m tired just so god damned tired of having shows I love cancelled #our flag means death #ofmd #Nicole watches stuff

[crybaby-bkg]

I’m taking another creative writing class this semester but I’m so nervous bc writing hasn’t been coming as easily to me bc of this time of year + grief but I hope this class pulls me out of this rut 🥲

#like I still haven’t started on the security guard fic bc I’m just so. tired. #and I have little motivation #but I think it’s really bc of me anticipating this semester #and I feel like I can’t do anything until it starts #hopefully I’ll get back into the groove of things soon tho #but I’m excited for the class!!! #we have to write only one short story #and I already think I know what I want it to be about LOL #last time I took a creative writing class all of my writings were about death #so maybe I can change it this time around wkdjdkfjf #anyway the semester starts this week so wish me luck!! #—in store chit chat! 🍫

[the-casbah-way]

not to be obnoxious but like. you people are mad at those watcher guys for making you pay for a subscription service. but you were all able to look past the fact that they had an entire series where they just made jokes about actual real life true crime cases. that makes sense

#i fucking DESPISE buzzfeed unsolved #they were so fucking tone deaf with how they handled their true crime shit it made me so fucking angry #like you guys claim to be against the commercialising of true crime but not when two haha funny little guys do it yeah ?? #fuck you all actually those dudes were always trash #and i kept feeling insane for being bothered by it whilst everyone else was worshipping them #they went to the scene of the keddie cabin murders which is a case i studied back when i did forensic archaeology #and bear in mind that the daughter of that family is still alive #and they stood there next to this site where a family and their friend were stabbed to death and fucking laughed and made jokes #and people didn’t care just because the jokes were never directly at the expense of the victims as if that makes it ok ??? #that woman is still fucking alive. can you fucking imagine if she’d seen that like how that would feel #i’m fucking tired of teaching people basic human decency when it comes to true crime fuck you people #and don’t get me wrong what those guys are doing now IS scummy #but like ?? compared to fucking making their entire success of goofing about at real fucking crime scenes ???? they were always trash

[jewishbarbies]

for freedom fighters resisting against an oppressor hamas sure spends a lot of time NOT attacking the oppressor. they just want to live and are doing what they have to do to survive, yet they have time to enjoy raping and mutilating women and young girls while palestinians are dying supposedly by the thousands every day. hm.

#g talks #meaning they don’t go for soldiers as much as they go for innocent civilians #i feel like that’s implied but i know some won’t read that far #or just won’t get it #I’m so tired of this never ending fucking debate #if hamas gave the hostages back and agreed to a ceasefire #i would believe people who say they’re freedom fighters #because no #you DONT always have to take freedom #when there’s people handing it to you on a silver platter #there’s so much more support for a two state solution in israel than anyone wants to give Israelis credit for #and it’s such a fucking disservice to Israelis and palestinians alike #WE WANT TO LIVE IN PEACE TOGETHER #jfk why do so many people WANT more death #it’s fucking diabolical #I can’t escape it #antisemitism #rape tw #tw rape #mine #/mobile #/okay to reblog

[autistic-katara]

why am i so tired ive done literally nothing today???

#honest to god i feel like ive spent the entire day out with friends except i didnt so i’m both lacking social interaction AND am tired asf #what the fuck cfs this isnt how this works #if i do nothing im regular tired and if i do stuff i feel a tiredness so strong it makes my bones ache #i have done nothing yet my bones crave death (idk how else to explain the feeling) #cfs #chronically ill #chronic fatigue #disability

[nappingpaperclip]

honestly I’m fucking tired of calling my reps and begging them to care

I’ve been calling them over and over and over for the past four months begging and pleading them to speak out about what is obviously genocide

I don’t think they listen, most likely their underpaid interns got instructed to throw notes or voicemails out, but even if they do they don’t fucking care. It’s exhausting.

The White House comment line is only open for 4 hours 4 days of the week during hours most people work. If you’re able to call and wait for 20 minutes to finally speak to an intern they take a brief note and you can only hope they don’t immediately throw it out.

I’ve been doing this since I was a child. begging my reps to care about children being shot in school. begging them to care about my own schools getting bomb and gun threats every year. begging them to care about the fact that people don’t feel safe around cops. begging them to care about the growing number of people in my city becoming jobless and homeless and dying of covid. begging them like a dog to care at all about people’s lives and happiness.

I don’t know. I’m just fuckin’ tired

I won’t give up though. It’s not the only form of activism I do or the main one I give my energy to. I hope the same thing for anyone reading this. You shouldn’t just be boycotting and calling your reps, you should be attending vigils and protests and speaking about the issue of genocide to your friends and family

I’m just tired of people pretending like our representatives actually give a fuck what we think over their lobbyists and investors cause it is and has always been clear to me that they don’t. America has never been a democracy and if you think that you are deluded.

#vent #don’t take this post as permission to give up 👍 #tomorrow I will be calling my reps and playing for them the recording before Hind’s death. I heard it so they will too. #I’m just tired of being told to call my reps whenever an atrocity happens. like they will ever listen #I’m not on the right tax bracket for them to listen #.txt #after the Parkland shooting I participated in a school walkout organized by high schoolers all across the country #a political club at my school had a table to write letters to our reps about gun control. very nice and I of course wrote one #I just wish it would have been read and not immediately thrown out you know #I was in 1st grade recess when I learned about the Sandy Hook shooting #at least when you’re a kid politicians pretend to care about your opinions. #when you are a kid you’re told that your voice matters and that young people should speak up more but when you’re an adult you suddenly #aren’t old enough or mature enough to understand #your thoughts experiences hopes dreams and feelings don’t matter until you’re 35 I guess and even then it will always be something #they only care if you have money to give them

[cherryredmistakes]

Your flirting with her and she’s venting on eating disorder forums while listening to Lana and searching “sharp stabbing pain”

#not romanticizing Ed’s or connecting them to Lana this is just where I am at the moment #girlblogging #girl blogger #girlblogger #mental illness #help i’m so tired #ouch I feel like death #grays diary

[waugh-bao]

“I still have conversations with the man [Charlie], which I fully expect to continue.”

Keith Richards (The Sun, 2023)

#I feel awful saying this #and I believe Keith has every right to cope/mourn as he needs for his own well-being #but I don’t think he ever fully accepted Charlie’s death #it’s so sweet and so sad at the same time to imagine him having these conversations with Charlie #he said before that he ‘forbid’ Charlie from ever dying #and it seems like this is his way of almost stopping that from happening. like if Charlie is still with him whenever he needs then he hasn’t #really gone on #I’m even sure what I’m saying. I’m rambling and tired after a workshop dinner #but this just fills me with many (mostly sad) emotions #the rolling stones #charlie watts #keith richards #old married band #quote

[brookheimer]

like i think every time rome would start to think ab it he’d be like ‘dad wouldn’t care if i called him a cunt are you kidding me it’s dad i’m me’ and i think logically he’d know how unlikely it is. but knowing something does not always mean feeling it and in this case it’s really hard for me to imagine roman not being haunted by it

#like as long as the possibility exists that’s terrifying. add in the symbolic killing —> literal death touch and like…. #idk. i don’t think it’s a sign of rome considering himself as someone who has agency or enough weight to harm people like logan #like to me it feels like the opposite of agency. like this sort of cosmic karmic punishment #that’s how i think rome would feel ab it — less that he’s capable of killing logan and more that he somehow ushered in death by standing up #to him. i don’t think rome believes in karma or anything like that but he has such a nonexistent sense of sp #personal agency that it feels to me like his belief in logan’s supremacy in own life kind of mirrors that cliche sort of old school catholic #fear and guilt #regarding punishment and all that jazz #so it would feel like some sort of universal retribution or like careful what you wish for or smth like that #which is BULLSHIT he knows it’s bullshit. but also…. he’s never stood up to dad before…. and dad never died before…. #he only died when roman did That Thing. #just bc he knows that any direct causal relationship is stupid and impossible for a variety of rzns doesn’t mean the fear and guilt doesn’t #linger. at least i know it lingers for me #idk if this is making sense it’s 4:11 am i’m tired lmaoo sorrtyyy #just thinking thoughts upon return from the bar #succession #succession spoilers #roman roy #casey shut the fuck up about roman roy