#i won't be normal abt this

[wyvernity]

been thinking about the sinnohtrio lately......plus misc other stuff

also, casual ko-fi drop!! get something in this sketchy style starting at $10 woop woop

#finally decided to do a commission test run u_u #pokemon #trainer lyra #trainer kris #trainer dawn #trainer lucas #rival barry #rival silver #ayalumi #hisuian zorua #luxio #timeskip tag #rkgk #anyway it's sinnoh time !!! #still figuring out their designs and lore but this works for now #god's specialest little guys & their very normal bestfriend who they would kill/die for. up to interpretation who is killing/dying #dawn is the platinum protag who meets giratina and becomes champion #distortion world affected her way more than compared to cynthia and cyrus since she's still a developing kid. but hey cool ghost hair! #4-5 yrs later lucas gets blasted to hisui..lost his memory for the three years he's there and when arceus sends him back he's just like Man #the entire time barry is CHILLING PLAYING HAVING FUN #and forever worried abt his friends ): dawn & lucas are soo nonchalant about what happened to them it's a bit concerning to everyone else #design comments umm the only thing that matters is that they still have their og scarves 👍 #and i guesss these are spring/summer outfits. winter dawn gets leggings and big coat ok. she already has too much yin energy #btw i use the cleanse tag as the direct opposition to the spell tag even tho that's probably not a real thing LOL) #oh yea barry wears the tower master ribbon 24/7. tower tycoon in training and won't shut up about it (i love him) #character dynamics i will talk abt that in another post if i feel like it... these days i just want to go replay pla aughh

[lotus-pear]

i think you guys are onto smth..

i unironically got invested in this HELP

#WHERES THE FIC AT IF SOMEONE WRITES THIS I WILL PAY THEM A HUNDRED DOLLARS😭😭 #kunikida serving the country while dazai's serving cunt😔 #dazai was born to malewife but forced to manipulate and i think that's the greatest tragedy of bsd #anyway some facts i would like to share abt this au thay i came up w while drawing!! #takes place in 1939 (start of wwii) and there was a mandatory draft that required one male over eighteen from each house to serve #both of them are still twenty two and had been engaged for abt two years before getting married that year #newlyweds! unfortunately kuni had to go fight and they were seperated :( #before the war kunikida was a math teacher at the local high school and dazai obviously managed the household and didn't work #he's hopeless at cooking and meal prep even w recipie books so they either get those prepackaged meals or kuni makes dinner when he gets ba #so like when he's making lunch for kunikida he normally just packs a basic sandwich w raw fruit #kunikida always appreciates the effort even tho hes probably sick of having the same thing everyday but he won't complain abt it #when kunikida joined the army he was relieved that the mess hall had better food than dazai #he was the only one in his platoon that never complained abt the food so his fellow soldiers assumed it was bc he came from a tough bg #when in reality he was just used to being poisoned on a daily basis from his dumbass husbands cooking and was hardly fazed from army ration #they write to each other although its more dazai sending and kuni receiving bc hes off fighting and doesnt have time to write back #dazai talks abt life on the homefront and how he has to grow a victory garden (everything is DYING HE CANT EVEN RAISE TOMATOES) #and kuni writes abt his fellow soldiers and how the war is going and when he thinks he'll be home and how he misses sleeping in a bed #ANYWAY yea thought i'd share sry for infodumping in the tags again #this post is for like the four ppl that care abt this specific flavor of knkdz so hopefully this gets four notes at least #bungou stray dogs #bungo stray dogs #dazai osamu #osamu dazai #kunikida doppo #doppo kunikida #kunikidazai #knkdz #lotus draws #bro sry for posting at two in the morning i couldnt sleep until i got this out of my head they have infested my brain

[ghoooooooooooooooost]

the kafka ^ you know him

#smiiiiiiiles #kaiju no. 8 #vid #kafka posting #<<i'm predicting that i won't be normal abt him

[beanghostprincess]

if one piece were a sitcom sanuso would be the most gut-wrenching, painful slow burn ever

#sometimes i think about sanuso being kind of like chandler and monica but nobody wants to hear me talking abt this for hours #except that they would need more seasons to get together and a lot of more angst #typical will-they-won't-they behavior but at first they're just best friends #sanji kind of like having a new girl every episode bc let's be honest he could flirt in a sitcom #and getting heartbroken every time #and usopp is always there #and the humor of this show is kind of like community where it's supposed to be a normal show but the characters are too chaotic #one piece #sanji #usopp #sanuso

[bloodxhound]

would you connect your brain worm with his 😳

#【♞】 ooc. #got a new pc and immediately bought baldür's hell 3 (again) just to mod the shit out of it and play as ray finally : o) #i promise i'm normal abt this game #he's bullying his way across f//aerun ^_^ #i'm gonna transfer my rp icons from my laptop to here now and once i'm done it's writing time #the above is a trick question btw #he won't be amused abt the intrusion. he will make sure you regret using the t.adpole connection #he will give you brain dmg by thinking abt the most obnoxious things to force you out of his mind and stay out of it forever

[bylertruther]

do you ever think about the fact that throughout the entirety of stranger things we’ve always seen mike practically shout his love for will from the rooftops by throwing his everything into believing, protecting, and helping will no matter the stakes, and how a majority of byler moments are initiated by him, and how will has always loved him back quietly despite being the one canonically confirmed to be in love, and how will is almost always on the viewer’s right in iconic byler moments but in season four we find him on the left in what used to be mike’s spot because their “roles” have switched AND when we’re taken out of the viewer’s pov and put in jonathan’s pov we see jonathan Come To A Realization here because while mike has always made it clear how special will is to him and how different their relationship is, will has always managed to keep the true depth of his feelings a little closer to his chest and it’s only when he publicly takes up that support role that mike has played for him previously that the audience is purposely made to realize, too, how romantic it truly is, because coming from mike everyone might have thought it was his usual overzealous theatrics but when the same tenderness and earnest love comes from will they realize oh. this is... this is actually something more. this is how they are this is mike and will like nothing has changed and no time has passed but it’s now that we realize just what it is, and now that will is starting to slowly but surely come out from this curtain he’s hid behind his whole life and voice that yes he loves mike of course he does he’s always loved him and loves him in precisely the way that mike expresses he needs to be loved there is simply NO conceivable way that they can come out of this hellish slow burn miscommunication trope not in full acknowledgement and eager acceptance of this love they have for each other and have always had and always will !!!!!!!!

#byler #like. do i make sense. am i making sense. #tagging my posts is so scary now tht there's 92380923028020 of us bt. i can be brave ig .. [trembling in my boots] [sweating shaking crying] #s1-2 was mike loving will more than anyone and not being afraid to show it and s3 was him thinking he had to grow up n out of tht love #bc clearly it's just a kid thing and they'll get over it if they just get girlfriends #and it ended with him having his italicized 'oh.' moment as the byers drove away #and s4 was mike thinking he had lost will for good that time only for will to show him that he's wrong he never lost him and he won't #s4 was about will showing mike that he's always loved him back s4 was abt will showing mike what it means to be in love with someone #s4 was abt will showing him tht he's just as lost without him as mike is without him and tht he doesn't need to be normal or cool #he's absolutely perfect just the way he is and he's loved and needed for who he is not all that he can or can't do #s4 was mike stumbling and will catching him and carrying him the same way that mike carried him in s2 #and s5 will be about them supporting each other and living their complete and total truths now that they see there's no reason to hide #and then in s5 we will finally find our way out of this god awful miscommunication trope</3 #they're a team they're best friends mike needs will and mike is will's heart mike makes will feel better for being different and will shows #mike that he doesn't need to conform and be 'normal' to be worthy of love that he has no obligations to others that everything he is is what #encourages those around him to fight the good fight #and that support and love and the way that they'll come to see each other wholly and truly is what will defeat all evil <3 #it's all coming full circle is wht im saying !!!!! #mine #also when i say audience and we i mean the general audience bc i kno my brothers in byler Understand n Watch The Show With Their Eyes #<3 #also no i will not structure my posts in a way tht makes sense u will read my uninterrupted stream of consciousness and WEEP

[tantamounttoflirtation]

Love when two people who have been alone and misunderstood their entire lives can find acceptance and understanding in one another. This is a totally normal thing to enjoy and its definitely not indicative of a deeper insecurity on my part haha

#h talks #yes this is abt Hannigram #they make me so. unhinged #like theres something wrong with you and no matter how hard you try to fit in you just can't. and everyone knows it #and you spend forever beating down parts of yourself that other people won't like to the point where you aren't even truly yourself anymore #and then along comes one other person who experiences the same thing and is able to understand you #and who accepts and openly loves the parts of yourself that you thought made you unlovable #IT MAKES ME FERAL OK #sorry I just woke up and am feeling emotional. we will resume normal shitposting momentarily #nbc hannibal #Hannigram #side note this is why Hannibal is abt queer/autistic acceptance to me. I'm projecting ❤️

[chrisbangs]

hello... (and bye ig 👋)

#👋😭 hi... #i haven't come on in about a month and i didn't realize a month passed by like that... i've kinda stopped using any apps on my phone #i barely even talk to my friends anymore lol 😭 #i just saw my follower count this morning and realized i hit 13k and i was like 🥸 huh... #uhhhhhhh 😭 idk i wanted to say thank you i guess 🫂 #i'm done with stayblr and tumblr in general 😭 this much has been obvious for a while now... i tried to fit myself back in during 5star but #i think i realized i've outgrown the vibes here and in online spaces in general... i don't really enjoy it anymore 😭 which is weird cause #i've used tumblr since i was in middle school so 🫡 end of an era some would say... #i think it sucks because i don't have the same feelings about this place or skz or anything in my life right now... i tried to ignore it bu #it's so obvious now that the entirety of december passed without me really talking to a single person / without me using social media / #without me really doing much except for like homework and assignments lmao #i think genuinely i've stopped enjoying everything i used to like and i don't know why 😭 it hit me the other day bc i don't even enjoy #pc collecting anymore which is CRAZY considering how much time and money i've put into that hobby so 👋🥸 who knows what goes on #i haven't consumed any skz content since rockstar dropped 😭 and that also feels weird to me... idk... i would say maybe i'm going through a #depressive episode but i don't really feel how i do then... i think i'm just tired like i always am and that's just how i am now .. i think #i'm just not really interested in things anymore? weird but .. yeah idk😭 if i knew what was wrong i would Fix It sndjdndkd mostly i'm just #sad because i haven't been talking to friends... i keep ignoring everyone and not replying to any texts from anyone because ???? #i tell myself i will do it later but i know i won't ... idk i genuinely don't know why i'm struggling to talk to ppl anymore 😭 i've become #even more of a reclusive hermit than i already was 💀 and the worst part is i feel normal abt it #i don't feel /bad/ i just feel guilty that i'm not replying to ppl bc i don't want to hurt ppls feelings... on my end i feel Normal abt it #like i ??? is it weird that i'm so detached from everything that not even a month ago made me so happy..? that's weird right 😭 like idgi #i don't feel (as) depressed (as i usually do) but clearly ?? smth is wrong ?? like ik i'm not a clingy sentimental person but ? it kinda #makes me sad wondering if i really don't care abt ppl anymore ... but i think 😭 it's also the object permanence issues that come with adhd #not seeing or talking to the ppl i love . not doing my hobbies or seeing the groups i care abt . makes it easy to not care or forget what #they make me feel etc etc ... i get it... but idk 😭 if that's what this is . well wow it sucks ASS.. cause i feel guilty for not feeling #anything at all ... 😭 idk how to explain that HENSKDNISJS anywayyyy 💀 #i came on cause i wanted to say thank you for 13k followers 😭‼️ and that i probably will not be online anymore unless i really want to say #this was a really long winded way to say i feel bad but i'm done with stayblr fr 👋🥸 i tried so hard for the last 2 years to make it feel #like home again but it stopped ages ago so 🥹 that's ok.. i still cherish my memories here 🫂 anyway thanku and sjsjsksksks bye i guess 😭 #who knows maybe i'll enjoy it one day again and come back :') never know what the future holds 🫡

[izzy-b-hands]

today should be a t break day

bc I'll need it to be more effective in the coming days if we see family, and then I'll have the survey shifts

but since late last night i keep randomly nearly breaking into tears and thinking abt the stupidest shit that needs to stay in the box in my brain

so idk. maybe it will be. it is thus far. but I'm not leaving my room without a container of some edible or another in my pocket either

#text post #no idea where the fuck this came from and it kept me up until fucking four in the fucking morning #but only NEARLY crying my body/brain still won't let me FULLY cry #and i did email my prior doc with a 'can i ask u just abt this one current symptom and if it is abt what i think & ill send u 20 bucks even' #she said no to the twenty bucks but said yeah it does sound like my ptsd has been triggered by multiple things over the last year #and the not being able to cry is a part of it. my body's trying to protect me from feeling anything abt it and breaking down #and part of that means not letting the tears fall so there's no physical acknowledgement of any feelings #which is what i was thinking was going on but it's nice to confirm it with someone who knows their shit #doesn't fix it but at least i know. #the thing is that the triggers are like. good? bc im in a healthier safer environment now with ppl that don't do what my mum & fam do to me #but it means my brain is learning just how much of a lot of it Wasn't Normal and was actually Pretty Harmful and that's. #i want my brain to just accept and get over that already tbh. okay so that's the case it doesn't change anything???? #why are we still thinking abt it and having feelings over it at this point bc that feels like a waste of time #there are no apologies I'll get for things that happened from when i was younger and there's no closure it just Is What It Is #I'm tired of even wanting to cry over it when I'd rather be throwing myself into making money & being productive art-wise #it manages to interrupt so many fucking facets of my life like #whatever. anyway considering a music au new draft where ed and izzy meet seth. and immediately offer to kill him for Pickles aksnsjfnfgj

[evilkaeya]

Freaks by surf curse is such a soukoku runaway song

#I can imagine them blasting it while driving to god knows where #just them and the stars in the night sky and this song #dazai driving (normally for once) #chuuya resting his arm on the window and staring at the passing scenery #the comfortable silence #god they make me go crazy I'm so soft for them #the lyrics matches so well too #pls go and listen to it while thinking abt them i beg u you won't be disappointed #bsd #skk #soukoku

[sleepingfancies]

The post you reblogged about being bareface is from a terf unfortunately :(

can't have shit in detroit. thanks for letting me know!

#anonymous #answered #i won't go off abt how transmisogyny has fucking destroyed the feminism movement haaa <3 love and light <3 #it really is so bleak though i hate that i hear an opinion abt the patriarchy or feminism and i have to be like-- #--ok but are you normal abt trans ppl. btw. #and half the time on here the answer is no. fuck's sake #anyways. i need to get more alert abt checking op histories on those kinds of things

[daz4i]

why can't ppl be normal abt kids having fun on the internet. like. a kid goes mildly viral bc they upload genuinely funny content and immediately a bunch of actual adults have to start making fun of how they look or sound or w/e. man if you're so bothered by their videos keep scrolling?? 😭😭😭

#not getting into the whole. making kids go viral thing in general. only touching one aspect I've seen online #there's a kid who became a bit of a sensation on tiktok in my country bc he's just. really funny and well intentioned #and i thought everybody's laughing WITH him and sharing his vids bc they're having fun and are meme worthy in a good way #(and from what I've seen - most people do! there's a reason why he became popular. and most ppl ARE normal) #but i still see comments (on reuploads at least) abt his weight or abt how annoying he is like. guys. i think he's 15 or smth. move on #this is not only just plain mean it's also dangerous. you're the adult here fucking act like it 😭 #i saw someone also comment abt how he's currently having like an emotional crisis and i won't be surprised if that's related #(also kinda fucked up we - strangers - know that but. as i said I'm not touching all that rn)

[dokyeomini]

ok i am home i am on vacation but i had a fight with my roommate but then talked normally i feel absolute whiplash but i have showered and i am in bed goodnight and let's begin this VACATION

#we did come to a conclusion abt what we should do abt this issue that we had so i hope it won't be an issue anymore #idek if i overreacted to her blaming me or not im still confused #but what basically happened was we weren't home on the same night and so the cat wasn't fed #and she said it was my fault bc she told me abt her concert many times in advance (just talking excitedly) #i ofc didn't remember the exact date #amd she's usually home on sunday night #but i went to the doctor's in another town #so how is it my fault #did i tell her i was going... i do not remember #maybe i did? #i think i did? #but why did she blame me today for apparently not feeding her cat all week #when i absolutely have #anyways we both think we're in the right #but what bothers me is that she told me 'ok then i know i can't count on you from now on' #what the fuck that was so hurtful #and then i got upset cried showered and when se met in the kitchen after i had calmed down #she just spoke to me normally #and i did too #bc i cannot fight on a friday evening

[you-will-return]

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#sorry for being so afk recently #it probably won't change #i haven't had a calm moment since mid-December and it's starting to gnaw at my brain #and now the only irl place where I felt somewhat happy is falling apart bc of in-group-politics #it's so annoying #can't we just all breathe for a second? #can't everyone stop being passive aggressive assholes to each other for FIVE FUCKING MINUTES? #i don't want to pick sides #i don't want this stupid group to break apart #something has been feeling off since October and last week my friend and I finally put our finger on it #and BOY figuring it out has.not.helped. #meanwhile all I've been doing has been watching old races from the 90s #bc the only thing that makes my brain shut up at the moment is cars going vroom in a circle for 1.5hrs apparently #every irl interaction atm feels like walking on egg shells #and the only thing that's stopping me from crying every time i get home is just keeping myself busy and not thinking abt my life ever #anyway my insurance has blocked me from therapy for the next 3 years so that's great #.....i don't want to come on here and just complain but nothing has been going right recently. #maybe i'll be back to normal eventually but not at the moment #not for a while

[bylertruther]

moodboard for when you lose the idgaf war. or something. again

#when i started this post there was no one online so like. can u guys turn around or smth -_- #anyway. feeling like a chump like a weenie like a marshmallow that's dissolving in someone's hot chocolate feeling very um . Feely #and tht isn't said in a self-deprecating way bc there's nothing wrong with being a sensitive person i'm jus. yk. saying tht it's not always #very fun. like i would very much rather feel like a toasty marshmallow being smushed in a delicious s'more rn but instead i'm trying to #express in the least vulnerable way possible tht i've felt a series of human emotions in quick succession tht make my heart beat funny #bc i think if i were to be any more open abt tht then i would likely disintegrate and i mean tht in the most normal I'm Okay way ever 👍 #and i jus think tht it Sucks tht u can be earnest n true n it won't matter bc if someone doesn't engage with u in good faith then there is #simply literally nothing that you can do but go ''Okay 👍'' #like. goes taut n keels over dead like a cartoon character. then reanimates bc i'm not done #that is just The Worst!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! wdym!!!!!! #it should be enough. it should be but it isn't and i'm a little marshmallow melting in someone's drink they're stirring me and #i'm turning into foam like . There Has Got To Be Another Way Out Other Than Through Bro someone grab my collar and drag me out #this bitch like a cat on a leash someone hold their hands out or smth i just . *)%*^76)*%$^)%*43^rty)*%6$)6578^$%(*8796gk@$)*%$ #it will be ok . it will 👍

[asiancatboy]

not to be the most stereotypical autistic person but i've been obsessed with trains lately but more specifically sleeper trains. i knew they existed but i had never really seen pictures of them before and i've been sucked up into the youtube rabbit hole where japanese locals go on sleeper trains and show the cool gadgets and booths and tech and food at the stations and i finally understand the train love

#when i think trains i think the uk trains and i don't mean some of the existing steam trains left i mean the disgusting dirty always late #always crowded and understaffed and underfunded joke of a public ''transport'' system. there's gum and piss and beer everywhere #and don't even get me startedddd on football season #OR the fact the gov won't be fucking normal to train staff we've literally had ongoing strikes for 12 months now #ohhhh i have got to stop thinking abt it. i'm going back to watching my train videos #7