#i went a little insane again

[betryl]

#i went a little insane again #this is so fun HAHA #yes i took a lot of liberties in favor of making them more stylized and recognizable #but tried to keep some core traits and the general feeling #i think they look fine enough #the secret history #tsh #the secret history fanart #my art #henry winter #bunny corcoran #camilla macaulay #francis abernathy #richard papen #charles macaulay

[luxrayz64]

like we were so fucking robbed of seeing perez in the wake of saw vs events I want to see her getting out of the hospital and flipping tables and pointing a gun in ericksons face after being told that strahm is the lead suspect. I want to see her having a breakdown after strahms fingerprints come back dead. I want to see her hand twitching over her gun everytime she sees hoffman. I want to see her fucking losing it and desperate to avenge her friend and partner and to clear his name. I want to see the thought process that lead to her inviting known serial killer mark hoffman to the basement lab just so she could torture him psychologically before she had a legitimate excuse to shoot him. I want to see more of her and I want to see how strahms death impacted her the way the reverse impacted him.

#lindsey perez lindsey perezzzzz #we did not see nearly enough of her #she was so overshadowed by strahm in iv and then didnt even get to be a main character in vi #she showed up. psychologically tortured hoffman. and then she died (again). #realistically she's way better at hiding her insanity so I think she wouldn't lose it nearly as bad as strahm did #but I want just one little moment where she's on her own and she fucking loses it #forced to let your boss tell your best friend you're dead. he goes missing. is declared a suspect. turns up dead. no body to bury #more of her pov on these events please. please. please. #it would be so sanity inducing cause she KNEW it was hoffman. her last words to strahm was hoffmans name #and she knew him so well.... she must've known strahm went after him in the wake of her 'death'. the fucking guilt she must have felt #espeon cries #saw #i am so so sick in the head about her today

[s-aint-elmo]

the "girls seeking an impossible wish trapped in a system that twists them into hollow shells of grief and resentment used by other girls to fuel their own desperate struggle" pipeline is multiversal

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#revue starlight #daiba nana #nana daiba #puella magi madoka magica #akemi homura #homura akemi #doodles #mine #alternate title: give a lesbian a timeloop and she'll achieve unprecedented levels of negative character development #for context the text on nana is the witch walpurgisnacht's desc and the text on homura is from the final scene of revstar's starlight #spec dialogue spoken by claire to her gaystie flora after flora falls from the tower and claire is trapped inside. in case u are not #in the intersection of the venn diagram #we r webweaving #YOU MUST UNDERSTAND. when i realized this i went a little insane #like banana IS walpurgisnachtcore and homura IS floracore #banana wants to create a stage where there is no pain or suffering at the cost of stagnancy. homura makes a promise that madoka #cannot remember. homura falls from the tower time and again while madoka ends her struggle by remaining at the summit and ensuring #that homura never gets her wish (to protect her. to save her) #like i'm ill about it. somebody put homura in the audience for starlight and watch her crumple like a submersible #shoujo kageki revue starlight

[fearandhatred]

the cucumber aziraphale to the bestie @crowleys-bentley-and-plants' tomato crowley!! i got really into it for some reason so it's way more detailed than i intended it to be lmaoo

#fearandhatred #fearandart #i was supposed to be finishing my fic and then doing work but i was doing this instead #god i have so much work #anyway yeah i went a little insane i don't even know why i used this brush i just picked it randomly from my recents #also this might be my first ever successful realistic aziraphale drawing #the other night i tried drawing him and couldn't and i swear it sent me into a fit of rage #so i was like ok you know what i'm just gonna try again another day #and it turned out pretty good!!! #good omens #aziraphale #good omens fanart #good omens art #art #THIS IS A QUEUED POST. i am asleep

[chippycore]

take two on this idea man...

#xenoblade chronicles #xenosaga #xenoblade #klaus xenoblade #galea xenoblade #chaos xenosaga #i could not being myself to fully give up on this I HAD TO FINISH IT #wilhelm xenosaga #so yall have to see it again #illustration #art #artists on tumblr #fanart #digital art #i made them smaller and now there is so much space idk how i did that #went a little insane over this and straight up combined everything down into one layer and rendered it from there #isdnkjedneofjnojfenodejnodjcdnljldnjf

[squidkid15]

Anyways so i went insane and made another.

Unsplit under the cut like last time.

Also a closeup of my favorite part of the whole thing because my best girl deserves it

#sonic #sonic the hedgehog #blaze #blaze the cat #sonic au #doodles #fighter #xena #so i went insane #im never drawing fire again #but GOD i love how this turned out #there are so many little details in here #i will go insane for them if you ask me to #cuz HOUHG

[jade-len]

luo binghe better than me fr i think i would've gone fucking apeshit if the person i loved with my entire soul pretty much said "fuck you" because of my race and pushed me down into literal hell for me to suffer for years

i've said it before and i'll say it again, i really don't think we give binghe enough credit. that man was on concerning levels of forgiving all the way from the start

#this would all be without xin mo eating at my brain btw #were the things he did wrong? of course. can you blame him? absolutely not. #like lets not act like at least half of us wouldnt go insane #i would be devastated #just.. place urself in his shoes ok #like he was able to still change for the better despite all the shit he went through #able to realize his wrongdoings and make up for them #thats fucking amazing and we should not discredit him ok #my ass would probably do the same thing as him tbh. or have a whole mental breakdown. or both #also same goes for bingge i wouldve done the same shit too probably. id fuck shen jiu up #again #not excusing his actions but i feel like people seem to focus on that part of him way too much when we literally see his character growth #and yeah hes still just a little unhinged but arent we all #hell some people are WAY more fucked up than binghe and they didnt even go through #i love him so much can you tell #so anyways yes if he were real i would date him hes so relatable #because then id now that he would actually change for the better and make things up and learn from his mistakes #yeah haha yes hes a red flag whatever all jokes and fun but are we just gonna ignore his development??? #im not a binghe apologist. maybe. #svsss #mxtx svsss #luo binghe #luo bingmei

[samsnax25]

then they can make all man pregnant!

#bugsnax #sams art #sam talks ‘bout bugsnax #hey guys #its me #again with a shitpost #this might be a little out of character #BUTTT i saw the words crazy scientist and went insane #i like to think im funny #sometimes

[excaive]

can you tell what bloody (heh) thing I spend the most time on? I hope you do

Anyway, just a short comic where Mark runs into (toku)Kenji unexpectedly - but then again you should expect terrible things when you willingly go down a dark hallway lmao

You can also view this comic on my website if u want to

Here’s their spotify playlists as well if you want to listen to their vibes, I’ve been vibing the past week between the two Kenji | Mark

#cai arts #comic #ocs #kenji taeki #mark ritt #blood #guro #trypophobia #mouth horror #body horror #black orbit #this was fun to work on i think i went a bit insane with rendering kenji's stupid mouth <3 #fun fact tokukenji's vision is Bad (even with the extra eyes lol) and they can't see shit in shadows #this does however not hinder them at all #but yeah kenji's my special little meow meow so y'all get this #this is ur chance to ask me about kenji or mark or my story stuff in general #before i disappear into the void again so #pspspsps

[astrxealis]

if i do "?" in text i'm genuinely tilting my head like a dog if i do "!!" my eyes are sparkling and i am figuratively wagging my tail if i am IN ALL CAPS i'm screaming from the top of a mountain with all the power i can with love and the strength of RAGHHH within me

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #sorry guys. i will not shut up. #honestly i really miss it here on tumblr SNIFFS ..... i say this sm tho but damn real/offline life has really been fun <33 #anyway. meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow me #very good day ty to those who greeted me anywhere or even just liked a post as a little hi hbd or just acknowledgement ya know arghhh arghhh #I'M SO TIRED NOW ACTUALLY i'm on 5 battery but watch me keep talking (writing) some more #i'm insane btw i went out w friends earlier this tuesday (love them sm) and then. they pitched in to buy me the origin of species bcs i've #been wanting the book LMFAO AS A BDAY GIFT IDK IT'S SO FUNNY TO ME BUT GENUINELY I'M SO HAPPY (NERD) <333 #and today i've talked a lot again w one best friend and another of my dearest friends and another too and idk fun day fr #okay i shut up now #that's a lie btw who knows when i will shut up #i might shut up now actually actually #actually i like rambling it's so fun teehee #BUT YEAH TY AGAIN ... genuinely makes me so happy i feel so giddy i was scared today would turn out bad and hey it isn't perfect but to me #it kinda is. in its own way. imperfectly perfect ^_^ <3 yeehaw!!

[da-proti-toku-grem]

my mom found this super detailed online test that helps you find careers that you'd probably like according to your answers (ofc we know that it's just a test and it doesn't mean you have to study what they give you, but i just can't find anything that i like and i'm running out of time, so we were like, why not yk) so, i took the test and after 30 minutes of answering questions you know what i got? biotechnology. the same career that i chose last year and the one i dropped out of in january.

idk if i want to laugh or cry tbh

#i mean it gives you more than one option but this was the one with more compatibility #and the other ones are also a big no for me so... #god idk what to do with my life #and atp i can't help but start thinking (again): did i drop out bc i didn't like the career or bc my mental health is SO bad #i think it's a combination of the the two bc yeah i probably would've enjoyed the few months i did at least a bit more if i wasn't depresse #but i REALLY didn't like it #tho then again i don't know what changed bc it WAS what i wanted and then i got there and i went NOPE almost immediately #and like i know your opinions can change and that is good that i dropped out if i realized that's not my thing #but i can't help but wonder if it is really not my thing or is my brain just not letting me enjoy the things i like? #bc every option i've been looking at to start next year is like... No #i can't find anything i think i might enjoy at least a little bit #i found this university that i gives you the possibility of doing the classes and exams online and everything #and that would be to study 'translation and interpretation' with english & french (& spanish ofc) #and since i'm already bilingual in english & i've a certificate in french (not bilingual but is smth) i would be able to skip some subjects #which is good i guess and i like languages but it's also like the opposite of what i've been doing my whole life bc i studied science in hs #and then again idk if i'll like it or not #and i know i won't know if i like it or not until i try it out and everyone is like 'well if it's not your thing then you drop out again' #which i mean is true i Can but god i don't want to go through all this again i need at least a bit of certainity or i'm gonna go insane #also i've been searching for so long w/o findinf anything that my parents are already saying #'well if you don't want to study you'll have to look for a job' #and if the thought of studying a carreer is already scary #if i have to look for a job rn (there are not many options here if you don't have a degree)...... #the thought itself makes me sick :/ #i just don't know what to do and i'm so fucking tired i just want to curl up in bed and not do anything for at least 2 months #(am i having another existential crisis after that panic attack 3 days ago or did the existential crisis not stop since january?) #(probably sooner) #(i guess we'll never know........) #venting #maca speaks

[carcarrot]

i wish i could articulate the experience of seeing a band you're into live like actually seeing them in person because its so strange yet fascinating

#every time i hear take me for a ride by sparks it makes me think of the nyc show - the first show of theirs i saw #bc that was their walk on music. and i was front row for that show #and like. it was so surreal. so strange. obviously in a good way but its just something id never experienced before #and i noticed this especially with russell in that i had a weird thought that went 'oh wow thats him. he realls looks like himself' #and like of course he looks like himself but what i meant by that was he looks like that guy who ive seen 5 billion images of. hes that guy #like not only does he look like the him in more recent pictures but seeing him in person like 10 feet away #its like i could recognize every era of him. i could see like 70s russell in his face. bc of course thats his face! but still #is this making any sense. #like i feel like if you met 70s russell once and never saw him again until now youd immediately recognize him #and sure thats because of two other things - one that he has distinct facial features kinda and also that hes aged so well #but it was again so surreal to be like. in the same space. right in front of. fairly close to. that guy whos been in my phone. you know? #this was true for ron and the other guys in the band too of course its that feeling of wow its them! those people ive only seen pictures of! #and again being front row for that was bonkers insane. its like what do you mean these people are real #but the thing w russell i just especially noticed almost immediately when they came out onstage like hes that guy. for real #is this making any sense . anyway i just had to finally get this one out #the only downside of this experience was that yes these people are real and yes they can see me. a little anxiety inducing #its like nooooo dont look at meeeee im such a weirdo i bought a ticket to see you like everyone else here #anyway. concert thoughts

[sunburnacoustic]

Guys!!! So happy right now, just had the best night of my life! We got barrier, we were standing right in front of Matt and oh my god I need to collect my thoughts. So in no particular order:

1) We got Citizen Erased! Matt introduced it going, “we’re bringing out an old song for you all, from our second album” and everybody lost their minds. Complete with the piano outro, what a treat!

2) The WOTP masks and pyro are insane. In row 1, they’re even more insane (and hot). How do three little lads look so cool? Their designs are excellent!

3) Disco Ball jacket!

(Still in utter disbelief that these are my pictures… that I was up there!!)

4) Verona!!

The confetti is so special to me. Also for Verona is Matt’s new sunburst-like Strat-shaped Manson.

5) Speaking of guitars, the Mirror Manson lives!!! This alone has made my night, my week, my year, the Mirror Manson, or some reincarnation of it, is back on the road, and Matt used it for Plug In Baby, so honestly what more could I ask for?

This beloved guitar! And also, Matt did his fall-to-your-knees Plug In Baby moves so :)

6) I don’t have a picture of this but you’ve got to take my word for it— the squealing Kaoss pad call-and-response section: the face is back!

7) Speaking of faces! Chris’s blep :p

7.1) Duckface!

More Chris!

8) Undisclosed Desires is officially the new Muse In The Round song of the set ♥️♥️

(The picture quality sucks but it’s the sentiment of it all okay :’) )

9) Matt’s mushroom solo moment during The Dark Side

Matt is really like if a human with a guitar had a cat tree.

10) Dom! I couldn’t get super clear pictures of him though, his live camera was over on our side.

More to come…

#How on earth did I hit the image limit?? #muse band #matt bellamy #chris wolstenholme #dom howard #muse live #Muse Montreal #I was at the gig last night!! On the barrier! Within eye contact distance of Matt; I went a little insane #muse #WOTP tour #2023 #My pictures #i was there!! #Centre Bell #They’re on tonight as well oh my god #Im back home today but whoever is still in Montreal I wish you all an amazing gig!! Charm the pants off Muse guys you’re amazing #(Make them come back here again soon lol) #Live music #gigs #part 2 to follow lol I have more to say about the stage design and visuals!

[firelise]

☼ I TOLD SUNSET ABOUT YOU, ep 3

↳ I also said I'd run before sunset. So I'd be able to shout to the sun that I'd finally made it. Oh-aew! Isn't that too difficult? Mmhmm. It's up to destiny.

#an episode of all time #a thesis a dissertation a lesson plan all u other little shows need to be taking notes grab a pen sit down #itsay #i told sunset about you #oh-aew #oh aew #oh aew my beloved #teh x oh aew #pp krit #billkin putthipong #cgedits #mygifs #thai bl #thailand #phuket #thai drama #i almost went insane all over again making this gifset I picked out about 50 scenes to gif do u know how hard it was to narrow down #when we touch touch touch touch touch touch touch touch

[marinsawakening]

It's pretty fun for me to play Zelda games in a manner mostly isolated from fandom opinions. Like don't get me wrong I've absorbed a lot of LOZ spoilers, headcanons, interpretations etc. via osmosis, I am not playing these games blind. But regardless of how many spoilers and fanart/fanfic I've seen going through the AO3 tag after playing BOTW was still an Experience because it made me realize that the way I interpret both Link as a character and the game as a whole is apparently completely counter to the majority fandom opinion. Something I was blissfully oblivious to while playing the game.

#Once again I want to become a more genuine person who approaches media analysis on a basis of joy in its own right #And not lead every one of my posts with 'so I've seen ppl do this and here's why I think they're wrong' #I am failing bc I'm full of spite but worse than that I also genuinely enjoy being a hater #But I'm not even mad this time. I dont even think ppl are necessarily wrong to interpret #Post-calamity link as their traumatized little meow meow #I think it's less interesting than my interpretation bc I think it loses the contrast between pre- and post-calamity link #But its not WRONG. Link doesnt exactly get a whole lot of characterization even in botw #He's still mostly a blank slate so ppl get to do what they want with him. The game doest contradict it #I'm just. So confused ppl looked at botw and went 'link's trauma would be worse post-calamity or at least carry over in its full force' #Like u don't think the hard reset that was the shrine of resurrection and experiencing the wonders as a free spirit like #Had. Y'know. An effect? #I honestly just don't think post-calamity Link is all that traumatized anymore. I think that shit was more effective than therapy #It's not an uncommon interpretation im aware but im still shocked at the amount of ppl that didnt have it #Does that make sense or am I insane? #My posts #Loz #Botw

[journey-to-the-attic]

friends are currently debating whether 'lost in the citadel' or 'montero (call me by your name)' is the better solphisto song and here are the main points for each side of the argument:

"lost in the citadel works for both perspectives and their tragic yuri romance" (lines 'i need time to get up and get off the floor / i need time to realise that i can't be yours' given as main example) - jo

vs

"montero cos those two definitely want to f-" - james (perhaps better known as captain bhole)

#on a more serious note jo's point did make me a little insane #again: the line 'i need time to get up and get off the floor / i need time to realise that i can't be yours' #this is so solomon-trying-to-recover-from-mephisto's-perceived-abandonment coded #but it is also so mephisto-unsure-of-how-to-go-forward-after-disappearing-on-solomon-for-millenia coded #obey me solomon #jtta mephisto #solphisto #there were arguments to be made for some of the other songs too but these were the main contenders #personally i also nominated life after salem #it feels like something solomon would listen to that abandonment aftermath once he's hit the bitter anger stage of grief #(at least he would have if music recordings had been invented and also lil nas x had been born back then) #i just feel in my gut that he went full teenage-girl-after-first-break-up for a period afterwards #(the other nominee was 'thats what i want' for the time they had together before mephisto left but that one was less talked about) #you know i didn't realise it until i went back and re-did some stuff but solphisto ended up with such Divorced vibes #believe it or not i didn't actually intend for them to be romantically involved when i first wrote their backstory #(you can see that in the first asks proposing the pairing i was kinda hesitant lol) #but looking back. the tragic yuri was always meant to be #to the anon who first called them yuri btw: you've changed my life