#i wasnt this miserable

[lqnar]

i genuinely feel like i look fatter than i did when i was 5 kg heavier

#:) #every single part of my vody is ROUND #my face looks like a basketball #my arms look like logs #you can see my fat butt fron between my legs??? like from the front???? #i keep bodychecking for bones but it’s all a lie bc i can SEE that i am so fucking big #and i’d have to gain so much weight for my collarbones to not be touchable #so it’s a stupid bodycheck #i keep touching my ribs and i have a roll on my stomach when i stand in a certain way #and it makes me want to die #wish i could be disordered in peace and lose weight for real again #these past two weeks i have gained 2 kg and i want to DIE #i keep telling myself it’s water weight but is it really lol like . #im gonna get better and not hate myself and be skinny #but why is it so fucking miserable to be fat like lol like . #when i was 4 kgs lighter at my lw as a teenager #i wasnt this miserable #but 5 kgs ago i didnt feel different than i do now #so what are these additional kg going to do???? #fucking hate this

[lucabyte]

Taking pride in One's own appearance.

#you people are becoming my guinea pigs for my finally learning how to communicate information via comics. a thing ive needed to practice at #also BLEGH. YUCK. andrew hussie was right candy makes you sick. this is a little too saccharine for me. yeesh. let me get back to the meat. #isat #isat spoilers #in stars and time #in stars and time spoilers #isat fanart #in stars and time fanart #isat siffrin #isat loop #sifloop #doodlebyte #'let me get back to the meat' i say eyeing something similarly sickly in my sketches. at least it's mildly tormented as a counterbalance... #you people have no idea how much im having to stay my own hand. oh i can draw miserable nudity but the most basic of fluff? visceral #anyway i dont know the logistics of picking up a glass eye or where loop got money (besides pilfering from siffrin) & ive previously drawn #sif with a vague blank middle-grey eye as either being scarred over or a blank occular prosthesis put in quickly at the nearest town #i dont know that they'd have a glass eye during the game but considering prosthesis are reccomended to keep the skull etc from deforming #id imagine it would probably come up postgame as something to do now theyre not on a time limit trying to save the country #plus i assume that having it gouged at by a sadness wasnt exactly a clean wound by any measure #all this to say. idk i just wanted to get some information across in comic form to Test my Abilities #and we're far enough down now to say my absolute most wretchingly sweet fluff headcanon that actually inspired this #which is that i think siffrin gets into the habit of not wearing the eyepatch around loop so they kinda match. #and as a signifier to the other that they're letting their guard down around them. vulnerability etc. #just kinda wearing it around their neck so they don't lose it

[almond-gallery]

an enjolras because i miss him

#les miserables #les mis #enjolras #never forget your roots... #now that im done with my orv reread i want to reread lm bc one long sad book wasnt enough #dear les mis friends who may or may not be reading these tags. have you heard of omniscient reader #do you want to read a long long novel that will make you a bit sad. #with a protagonist thats kind of an everyman but also kind of not. who is a bit over self-sacrificing #and has an adoptive daughter #have you read orv. will you read orv. when will you read orv #i'll stop proselytizing now. goodbye

[protosymphonette]

happy valentine's day lads

#half life #gordon freeman #gorgeous freeman #freeman's mind #gordon freemind #hlvrai #gordon feetman #freemanverse #gordonverse #valentine's day #they look like watermelons. #i forgot today was valentine's and i RACED to get these done. #my first time drawing gorgeous. it wasnt as miserable as i anticipated #i didnt use a reference or anything so if he looks a little off thats why #symphonart

[oceanvybe]

With billionaires buying all of social media...

I honest to God miss when the internet was niche and I would get made fun of at school for being on it all the time

#elon musk #like i remember only outcasts were on computers all the time #and everything was community run for fun and not for profit #capitalism wasnt at the basis of all forms of internet connections #like this is miserable lmfao

[permit-it]

you SHOOT enjolras? you shoot his body like a pheasant? oh! oh! jail for the monarchy for One Thousand Years!!!

#going through my drafts and found this and now its out for public consumption #god i hope this wasnt kept in my drafts cos someone else posted it #anyway #barricade day #enjolras #les mis #les miserables #les amis #les amis de l'abc #miette

[stiffyck]

Okay what if the winners got to meet previous versions of themselves through the life games.

Like grian meets no one. He didn't have any previous "versions".

Scott meets 3rd life Scott.

Pearl meets 3rd life and last life pearl.

Martyn meets 3rd life, last life and double life Martyn.

Scar meets 3rd life, last life, double life and lim life him-

This whole thing was an idea that I got just because I was thinking about ll and sl scar because they were both so lonely like wtf and I just though about a scene that would be so. Grips chair.

Ll: "We won?"

Sl: "Yeah"

Ll: "Did we have allies? Friends?"

Ll scar probably thinks sl scar won only because he had allies to support him. He knows what its like being lonely and he hopes no one has to go through that loneliness. And he wants to be optimistic for once that sl scar, future him, gets allies, gets friends.

He tries to hope and then he sees the look on sl scars face. Or maybe sl scar tries to lie- maybe he tries to say they had allies.

Ll scar sees right through him. He's him after all. Maybe he's always gonna he lonely anyway

#im being insane give me a momebt #also i forgot pearl wasnt jn 3rd life but its okay. she was in 3rd life to me <3 #ALSO? THE POTENTIAL OF 3RDLIFE SCAR? AND DOUBLE LIKE AND LIM LIFE SCAR? #3rd life scar is optimistic. he thinks its okay! grian is his ally in the fjture too right? he wins with grian? #no other scar wants to look him in the eye becayse they all remember the allyship they had with grian thay crumbled in ll #and that got completely destroyed in double life. #double life scar doesnt want to tell 3rd life scar and tell him grian doesnt care. he cant do that to himself. #tell his younger and more optimistic self that grian doesnt want them as his soulmates... that he would rather sneak off with skmeone else.. #and lim life scar. he was excited for the future because he did have friends! he had allies jn lim life- but seeing sl scar? #seeing how they just go back to being alone again? #its soul crushing. #(inserting my aroace angst here: is he really that unlovable? is his lack of romantic love so unappealing? #does no one want him? does no one but himself love him? #does he himself even love him? can he? seeing how miserable they all are it feels hard and lonely #lim life scar probably wants to comfort them all- but isnt it sad that the only person to comfort him would be himself? #) okay im done being insane goodbye- #stiff talk #gtws

[pandoratheprocrasticreator]

I wonder what the kids and teachers in luz's school think of her now. Shes stopped "terrorizing" other kids, mainly because she seems to have stopped engaging with most of her classmates period. She no longer brings live animals or taxidermy to school. She even participates in english class occasionally, even if she doesnt "get" the point of the book. Her rants only clock as suicidal if you know about her time in the boiling isles which the people at her school do not.

I wonder if luz's teachers and schoolmates think that luz mellowed out over the summer. If the principal/counselor that suggested she go to the camp patted himself on the back because shes "improved."

#the owl house #toh #shut up pandora #luz noceda #something something people see a neurodivergent kid having depression and breathe a sigh of relief bc now theyre finally 'normal' #people speculate maybe luz would have been fine going to the summer camp and while i agree she would have made friends #she would not have been fine! she would have just learned to suppress her identity like camila did #but going to the boiling isles was her only option bc she either gets suppressed quickly at the summer camp #or she keeps acting out at school and eventually society wears her down and shames her into conforming like it did to her mom #something about how even if the camp helps luz act like a 'normal person' she still would have been miserable bc she couldnt be herself #it temporarily benefits her by giving her friends and benefits ppl around her by making her act 'normal' #but the kids there are still weird at heart! they have a community to be weird around now but society at large will still look down on them #unless they put on a front all the time to fit in #and the boiling isles isnt perfect either its society still looks down on luz for being different #but it accepts her neurodivergence and her new friends are all neurodivergent like her so she still has a community to be herself around #and while it looks down on her for having no natural magic it isnt something shes been shamed about growing up like her neurodivergence was #anyway the camp wasnt as catastrophic as luz thought it would be and vee benefitted from it #but it still represented a slow rot. the kind that eats away at neurodivergent kids as they grow up #slowly shaming them to hide away parts of themselves deemed unfit for society #and when you hide behind a front and are exhausted and miserable from it #everyone applauds you for your 'recovery.' youve improved yourself. they never liked the old you #good job on destroying yourself and shoving the pieces into a facsimile of what the people around you think you ought to be

[arsenicflame]

stupid fucking joke from a conversation i was having <3

#heh. get it? #because hes fucking miserable #nyxtalks #ofmd #ofmd s2 spoilers #izzy hands #israel hands #i didnt tag the buddy i was chatting with bc i wasnt sure that was ur vibe but lovemail to u if u see this <333

[inthegloamenvy]

Little Enki I wanted to paint because my friend pulled me into this game with a photo of him alone...

#my art #fear and hunger #fear and hunger enki #enki ankarian #funger #uh ohhhh enkiiiiii...... #i tried drawing him once before but he wasnt miserable enough. fixed that.

[conspicuous-clown-car]

First encounter

Just some lazy concept stuff I’ve been frequently thinking about

Vanny and the vibe of the security breach trailers have been on my mind a lot lately, and after playing security breach again it made me wish the game was way more scary and felt like you were in actual danger

i also wish that vanny was in the game more!!! I miss her :(

#i tried for so long to make sure the quality wasnt crap and failed miserably #fnaf vanny #fnaf security breach #fnaf sb vanny #vannyfnaf #fnaf self insert #im terrible at backgrounds wah #kirbsart

[puppyeared]

i wrote this as a joke because I wanted to strangle a guy watching tiktoks without headphones on the bus, but im genuinely disturbed that we've gotten to a point where convenience comes first. and it depresses me even more that its used to justify and monetize greed

#like we have so many ways of doing things that could help us in the long run but because we're told it requires more work we just cant #its too resource intensive. or maybe its too much to maintain. we have to overlook benefits so money can go into more important things #we teach each other to do things a certain way so it works for everyone but who was it convenient for first? what abt who it might hurt? #i have to wonder if the rules our current system uses is worth listening to or following if it doesnt have our best interests in mind. u an #me and the ppl around us.. would we be better off if i ate my meals knowing the person who grew it wanted to feed others the way they could #feed themselves? and that isnt to say we're going to be happy doing it but i guess satisfied that its helping someone instead of quietly #accepting that itll eventually go in the dumpster behind a grocery store because it stopped looking appetizing or it wasnt on sale anymore #what about building homes so we can shelter each other? what if we were satisfied with what we did because we knew it would be paid back #with kindness? isnt that what we evolved to do?? heal each others bones and tell stories and help each other?? #why dont houses come with solar panels or generators unless we find a way to make people pay to use the sun? why is our pooled money used #to fund genocides instead of education and hospitals? whose interests and convenience came first when we started this?? #i wont pretend to know the answer because i dont. but we all know we're miserable and im sorry to say that i cant see myself fighting #for a world that wont fight for me too. why do we work if we cant live from it?? why did they stop us from plucking more teeth from our #bosses until they could build more walls around themselves and then go back to underpaying us?? #im so tired. i cant even imagine making it to age 70 #yapping #vent

[leviathiane]

Bad: every kill I got didn't feel like it changed anything.

Slime: Sure didn't stop you though, did it.

#qsmp #liveblogging #LMFAO #the event is over and theyre just chatting after now #foolish got SO fucking mad at bad lmfaooo #slime got killed so much #foolish is gonna get chicken tenders and tina is begging for some too frorm him #they do agree there needs to be some rebalancing #bc this was very intense and slightly miserable #they got frustrated a lot #it would be fine if this wasnt a server and group established a different way #but this is qsmp. #also foolish going ahah yeah i knew bad would IMMEDIATELY check where everyne spawned and kill us #and bad was like :) i did. i noted it immediately

[moeblob]

Surgery is at 9:45 (finally, thank the heavens cause I'm going insane here at how bad hospital communication is) so! Pen doodles before I'm drugged up on anesthesia.

OCs of mine as a comfort in my suffering (and it's easier in pen bc they're boring designs unlike fanart I'd want to draw).

#my characters #its been a miserable experience tbh #the surgeon kept putting off surgery bc of other tests that he wanted #which would be fine if the stuff ever got done #i was told monday that i couldnt eat after midnight #fine cool i get it then i was brought food i had to turn away #then they told me surgery wouldnt happen and im like cool its been #16 hours since i was last given food can i have something #and three people said yes #then someone came to get me to one of the tests #so that took over an hour and then i was miserable and hungry #and then instead of clear liquid diet the doctor said i could have #any liquid not just clear so that was cool until i threw it up hours later #and im pretty sure after not being allowed food OR water or anything for 17 hours #my body wasnt expecting it at all so yeah. wild #i hate eating as is and put it off as long as i can but #17 hours is a long time when you cant sleep bc pain or discomfort

[leo-kinnie]

Kiiinda unhappy w the fact that a mutual made a post essentially saying “if you support / interact with this proship neutral dont interact with me + DONT harass the account i mentioned” and then immediately got condescending/manipulative replies, asks, and Extreme dogpiling by the accounts friends/affiliates to the point of having to leave their account.

Personally I think if you can’t handle other people saying what you are, you maaybe should rethink identifying with that label.

#miscellaneous post #i dunno. proship people have this tendency to say their proship and then #get VERY MAD when antis say ‘’that person is proship dni with me if u support them’’ #we’re all pro safe spaces until… someone ensures their safe space ? #idk just confusing #its also really gross to see such a large number of harrassment heading their way when the og post clearly #stated not to attack the proship account? like ok … but the antis are the bad guys. right #IDK GUYS. im not very happy with the community rottmnt has established #on twt it was miserable and on tumblr it seems equally as miserable if you dont pick the path of least resistance #SANDRO WOULD BE UNHAPPY WITH THEM PEOPLE IS ALL IM SAYIN 🫵 #the mutual wasnt even a big account ???

[jondrettegirls]

[ID: Three digital drawings of Enjolras and Grantaire from “Les Misérables.” One is a sketch of Grantaire leaning on Enjolras’s shoulder with his head in his hand, while Enjolras stands staring forward with blood on his cheek. Another is a sketch of Grantaire sitting with his head down, next to some wine bottles. The last is a drawing of Grantaire kissing Enjolras’s hand while Enjolras looks at the viewer with a neutral expression. End ID.]

tell me im your first choice for a second life

#airplane doodles👍👍 #wasnt gonna post these but then i was like yeah ill post these . what a journey #anyway lets see if i have any signal at all for the next forever or not👍 #on my art. #exr #les mis #enjolras #grantaire #les miserables #enjoltaire