#you can see my fat butt fron between my legs??? like from the front????

[lqnar]

i genuinely feel like i look fatter than i did when i was 5 kg heavier

#:) #every single part of my vody is ROUND #my face looks like a basketball #my arms look like logs #you can see my fat butt fron between my legs??? like from the front???? #i keep bodychecking for bones but it’s all a lie bc i can SEE that i am so fucking big #and i’d have to gain so much weight for my collarbones to not be touchable #so it’s a stupid bodycheck #i keep touching my ribs and i have a roll on my stomach when i stand in a certain way #and it makes me want to die #wish i could be disordered in peace and lose weight for real again #these past two weeks i have gained 2 kg and i want to DIE #i keep telling myself it’s water weight but is it really lol like . #im gonna get better and not hate myself and be skinny #but why is it so fucking miserable to be fat like lol like . #when i was 4 kgs lighter at my lw as a teenager #i wasnt this miserable #but 5 kgs ago i didnt feel different than i do now #so what are these additional kg going to do???? #fucking hate this