#i was told that stuff like that was supposed to feel and shit

[tubbytarchia]

Told myself I wouldn't get angry but ugh people saying stuff like "likes are literally useless. Do you even know how the site works. Reblogging is kindness. If you don't, you're a bad person. If you like without reblogging I will block you" makes me so irrationally upset. I don't give a shit how the site works frankly, I've seen the justifications and I get what people are saying but how the fuck is this guilt tripping supposed to help artists. Discouraging people from engaging at all with your art is only harmful, no? I would never want people to reblog my art out of a feeling of obligation, that's awful. I hope to god everyone on this blog feels encouraged to like posts because you're AWESOME and I APPRECIATE YOU!!! Tagged reblogs make my day too, I get it, but holy fuck. I love you tumblr but this part of tumblr culture sucks

#blabber #I sometimes post art without maintagging and its awesome if they still manage to go around a bit via reblogs #but it would no longer be awesome if I had guilt tripped people into reblogging lol. How does that not feel awful #I recognise I must be talking from a privelwged position when mosy my art gets decent notes #But Ive never cared even when I was drawing for much more niesh things with a much smaller following

[tariah23]

oooooo white people in my replies really saying ‘I can excuse racism but I draw the line at homophobia’

Not surprised since this is the site that only talks about racism and thinks it’s a big deal when they see it demonstrated in the cartoons and comics they like *coughs* dungeonmeshi *coughs* (for example at least. I haven’t seen THIS many white ppl talk as in depth about racism on here as much as these fandom nerds, man. I stg. Like “Ohhhh, so you all DO acknowledge that racism is real? Just not in real life even if you could feel it slapping you in the face at high speed. Gotcha.” It’s crazy.

Tumblr is like, 90% white and is extremely centered around them. That’s why you barely see stuff that’s important to black and brown people ever trending here or being talked about. It has to be something incredibly huge to the point where even white people can’t ignore it like they usually do, to talk about it here.

They only talked about George Floyd here because the topic of his death became world news. Even people in other countries were talking about it. Before him, it was probably Ferguson and Trayvon Martin… most of them are still trying their best to ignore the genocides because it’s a “touchy subject.” What do you expect from white people who live in their own bubbles of comfort and refuse to pop it with a needle??? They find comfort in their privilege and faux ignorance (they love playing stupid to avoid conversations about important things outside of fandoms like, are these mfs born with half a brain dedicated to fandom or what.) That’s literally all these mfs make a big deal out of, especially on this annoying ass platform. The ao3 mfs will go to war for the site that allows racist ff and cp like it’s no big deal. I wonder how many people here even donated to the site while actively scrolling past dono posts from folks who really do need help. They act like they’re doing a civil service by defending this site that makes over the amount of it’s intended dono goal in minutes.

Then you already know as soon as you even bring up racism in the stuff they like, they start ganging up and harassing black bloggers especially, calling them TERFs and the whole nine. Anything to make that person look bad for being concerned about the racism that they have such an intense aversion to. God, it’s absolutely exhausting knowing that these people would have no problem choosing a cartoon character over your entire existence if they COULD. Isn’t that fucking sad, man?

#:( #it’s like what can you do #as a black person I get why sm black bloggers here have ‘don’t follow me if you’re white’ in their bios #they’ll call it racist or whatever (it’s fucking not you guys just treat black ppl like shit here and most of us feel unsafe to interact #with y’all. you guys always turn on us at the drop of a hat) #i remember commenting on a HS post funny enough years ago #because the punchline of the post was literally the white mfs saying nigga #and I was so annoyed that I told them off and one of my white mutuals unfollowed meanjsjsjsl #like right after that #and another unfollowed me because I talk about racism and the like a lot like this is a really well known artist too so I was like 🧍🏾‍♀️? #because I talk about racism a lot??? it’s weird lol #like they’ll tolerate you for a while then when they feel offended they start to act weird and act like you’re not supposed to talk about #the stuff that effects you #tkf replies #karmelarts #they don’t give a shit about anything if it doesn’t personally Involve them #they act like they can’t relate to anyone or anything it they aren’t marginalized themselves (being gay or trans which they treat as a #personality trait) #notice how you never see movies/ shows about black and brown ppl trending here? it’s always white centered shit no #matter how hot and popular that show might be #you’ll never see something like the wire snowfall or power trending here #all of the black ppl are on twitter anyway so #sm black ppl got ran off of here by annoying white ppl

[gunthermunch]

the unification of simblr, 2022 (colorized)

#we just think yoonie is overall nasty #dl #they have me blocked afaik ? i dmed her months ago while on an angry rampage because she just kept talking neg stuff and i was getting #sick of it i dont remember. like i said it was months ago. she said this convo stays here and i said ok i think #ive been told she shared it on her tea channel weeks ago LMAO AND i kept my lil dumb mouth shut all this time because it was #supposed to stay there #oh well. idk she's facing the consequences of her actions #curate a nice space and you'll receive nice things #curate a cesspoll you receive shit #im not good with words and tones. i step over my own words constantly #so i cant even imagine how my words got twisted in that chat. tbh just thinking about it makes me feel so ??? im in school again

[54prowl]

btw just to be clear bc this has happened multiple times already on this app that I have not, do not, and will never send anon hate especially to friends bc why the fuck would I do that

#idk i feel bad getting accused for shit I didn't do #i know I'm Highly Opinionated when it comes to art and the world and stuff but im also grown #i am on this app like sporadically too so i likely did not see any supposedly problematic post in terms of my supposed ethics #like damn!! #i told u im just some guy #ooc #everything is cool now bc again we're grown but ugh damn!! if this happens again im gonna go full joker on u all

[thethingything]

local man discovers he's gotten into the habit of using DBT techniques without actually being taught them because at some point he realised that the things we get the urge to do when we have strong emotions often aren't healthy and that he doesn't like how he feels afterwards so he started noticing when that was happening and going "fuck that shit" and doing the opposite instead

#personal #thoughts #Lucy post #talking to 🍬 about various stuff we do because of our social anxiety and what are probably undiagnosed BPD symptoms #and we realised he's gotten himself into the habit of paying attention to how his emotions affect his judgement #and trying to take a step back when he's experiencing an emotion that he knows gives us the urge to do stuff that's not healthy for us #and he said he felt bad about having those emotions and urges to do unhealthy stuff #at which point I was like ''okay but you're choosing not to act on that and to take a step back and do something healthier instead #which is what actually matters here and is also something that takes a hell of a lot of self-awareness and self-control'' #this is shit they teach you in therapy that's difficult specifically because you're going against your brain's instincts for a situation #and we were never taught how to do it so you've just fucking taught yourself to do it instead #without actually knowing it's a specific technique that has a name #I was aware of it but had never actually looked at the instructions properly because when I stumbled across it #it was at a point where being told to go against what my emotions made me want to do felt invalidating and upsetting #I've literally just pieced together that ''oh right that's what that is and how it's supposed to work #and how it's meant to feel when you do it right'' #anyway all this is to say that I keep being impressed with the amount of progress 🍬's made on learning healthy coping mechanisms #including things I could never seem to get the hang of when I was fronting more and handling more stuff #and I'm really proud of him and 🦋 and everyone else who's been handling stuff within the system and keeping things running #but also nobody in here seems to realise how much progress they've made with anything until someone else points it out #I just realised I should tag this as #happy posting #because I'm talking about stuff that's going well and where we've actually made a lot of progress

[todayisafridaynight]

SORRY TO TAKE SUCH A HARD LEFT BUT HOW DO YOU THINK JO FOUND OUT ARAKAWA WAS DEAD

IM GOING TO SCREAM IF I TRY TO THINK ABOUT THAT NOOOOO I GOTTA GET BACK TO YOU IN 5-7 BUSINESS DAYS WITH THAT ONE............

#snap chats #id shit and cry if aoki was the one that told him in a condescending/bitchy way yk what i mean #like as if to jab at jo like 'oh dont worry about dealing with dad- since you were too incompetent to do it i had someone else handle it' #not that word for word im SURE but yk what i mean. just GENERALLY thats the energy #the timing of this ask is soooo funny i was just talkin to my twit friend bout arasawa #and how youve been inspiring me to draw it more again as of late and this is NOT helping !!!! i am ADDING IT to my LIST #cause i want to be in pain i guess (;´༎ຶ▽༎ຶ`) I JUST SEE IT SO CLEARLY IN MY HEAD EGUUUGHH #im still gonna chew on the idea of How tho im still gonna chew on it cause i have other stuff lined up Obvi but..... OUGH PAIN... #verrrrry awkward when i post a thing in liek an hour cause that shit gon be a lil cute so then i just got this in the back of my dome ☠️☠️ #thank you........ #throwing up as i remember aoki being like 'you're acting strange lately' brb #OUUGHHGH dying. #LIKE IM JUST THINKIG OF ALL THE EMOTIONS JO WOULDVE BEEN FEELING- /ESP/ IF HE WAS IN FRONT OF AOKI #how would he even cope... i mean judging by the eye scene Not Well butu OUUGHvLKJVALKJ #ITS THE CONFLICTED FEELINGS AGAIN CAUSE LIKE he SHOUULDNT care as much as he does right... #arakawa was just his boss... but if THAT was the case why not take him out when jo was first asked too..... #aoki is his priority in life right...... arakawa wasn't supposed to be anyone important BUT THEN HE DID BECOME IMPORTANT #making myself throw up #anyway this is why jo shouldve been allowed to rip tendo to shreds. in my humble opinion. <- sobbing #NAWWW IT THE WAY I HAVE TO GO OUT WITH MY SIS RIGHT AFTER THIS WELKFJALFKJLKVJ #I CANT BE NORMALLLLL

[mymp3]

hi! its a delight to see that you have been enjoying minat + ryoj (and p3 in general), your tags and art just capture the essence of what makes them enjoyable...! anyways. did you know that the p3 mangaka previously made a ryomina doujin? cant send links but if u google "ryomina sogabe" u should be able to find it! have a nice day o/

FUCKING WHAT?

#thank you for the ask anon! #compendiumnotebook #IM RUNNING TO GOOGLE AS WE SPEAK HOLY SHIT I ALMOST THEEW UP IN MY MOUTH #FUCK I WISH YOU WOULDNT OF TOLD ME THIS ANON #IVE BEEN LOOKING FOR THE PAST HOUR IM CRYING LMFAOOOOOOOOOOO #WHY WOULD YOU DO THIS TO ME ACTUAL HEART ATTACK #i was feeling so down. so blue. but literally how am i supposed to feel any emotion when this pops into my ask box? #like fuckinf what? #wHATTTT #WHATTTTTTTTT #im standing on top of mt everest rn #i don't even wanna read any 18+ stuff like id rather not #i just wanna see if the mangaka has em hold hands or lean on each other #oh im gonna fucking throw up im crying this is too funny #'have a nice day" YOU HAVE CAUSED ME CRAZY AMOUNTS OF BRAIN DISEASE #oh someone just put me down already #HOW DO I POST THIS POST HOW DO I JUST SEND IT OFF #. #also i just wanna take a moment to say sorry if im not responding right away to things (not to u anon but ppl in general) #life has been in various extreme rough patches #its very tough for me rn. #so bare with me #um anyways #uh #ha #i feel like im going a little loopy #thank you for the sweet compliments at the beginning #im glad you lik e my art and tags s #they make me very happy #also it's fun to dissect them in regards to the story and it's themes

[cetoddle]

therapy was interesting she kinda just out of nowhere asks if i like writing and i was hesitantly like….yes……and she got all excited she was like you should really pursue that. i think that’d be great for you. and i was like thank you but why are you saying this. i don’t remember exactly what she said cause i think i blacked out a little but basically said im very well spoken and deliberate with my word choice and she said she’d have been very surprised if i said i don’t write at all

#im trying to remember what exactly she was saying but my brain kind of short circuited #i was like oooo im being praised i think this is great -w- and barely processed what she was saying #i told her a little bit about all the work i’ve already done on some of my projects and she seemed genuinely impressed .. #but maybe she was just being nice..but then she yells at me when i say things like that #so i guess i’m going to choose to believe she was being genuine because she’d yell at me for thinking otherwise #she’s really encouraging me to continue writing and i’m stressed ;-; #she asked why i don’t consider pursuing it more seriously someday and i was like well #i just don’t think it’s realistic #she asked why and i kinda just. #well laurie i don’t actually know i just feel it in my bones i suppose #she went >:( #i told her a little bit about the kind of stuff i like to write and she got all sad cause i enjoy writing horror stuff #she’s like aw :( i’ll never be able to read any of your stuff i get scared so easily :( #that made me actually laugh for real #maybe this comes as a surprise to some of u i talk abt it sometimes but i do actually write short stories a lot #i just have literally never shared them with another living soul cause i’m fairly certain they’re SHIT. but i do it #i stay silly !!!! #sigh… #id like to have told her more about my bigger projects but whenever ppl do try and ask abt it #i just freeze up like oh it’s silly..it’s just something i do as a hobby irs nothing serious don’t mind me… #😖 #i like writing but i don’t like talking about my writing #anywaysss #snow.txt

[legobabyofficial]

well i have my kids stomach flu, made a fool of myself at work today, and want to die

#i just came back from a long weekend and didnt feel well but there was a ton of shit i HAD to do this morning #and then i had a 1:1 with my boss and she spent the first 10 minutes just fucking. rattling off every single thing i had done wrong #and like there WAS some stuff that needed to be dine differently #but then she started talking about a metric that i genuinely CANNOT DO ANYTHING ABOUT because my team is SEVERELT understaffed and i just. #i started fucking crying. #because its too much pressure #and this past weekend was supposed to be really restful and good for me. #and my kid got sick. #and my husband had to work 3 doubles in a row. #so what was supposed to be a mental health vacation turned into solo parenting a sick kid #all while worrying about the work that was building up for me #and she told me that the numbers we'e putting out were unacceptable and i just. it broke me man #ive been throwing up all morning then i get chewed out for my 4 person staff not being able to do the work of 8..... #it just fucking broke me man #then she told me to just log off and that i shouldnt have been working if i were sick and fuck man #i feel so small and shitty #and bad at my job #im fucjing spiraling yall sorry

[bbjimin-dududu]

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#i will quickly ramble #this guy i really like #he was being v nice to me since the beginning ever since we became friends #and he'd always go that extra mile w me doing stuff for me #but people started shipping us #and then he got distant randomly #and today somehow was the d-day and i ended up confessing #but i ran away #and had my guyfriend talk to him #and he told my guyfriend that he didnt like me #and that he was only being sweet initially because hes like that w everyone #and i was fairly annoyed because... well we'd held hands and actually done a lot of shit which didnt count as just friends #but then he was like he didn't want to hurt me by giving me false hopes #so he distanced himself because he realised he was accidentally leading me on #and he's like i care for her that's why i chose to be distant #and all this my guyfriend told me #and tmr im supposed to talk to this guy whom i like #and honestly it feels like such a burden off my chest coz even if he doesnt like me #atleast i fINALLY know what was up w him #ok bye im done rambling thanku #pristine.txt

[labyrynth]

ok but seriously how are moms so good at ruining your day in 0.05 seconds

#i very nicely asked her to not put things on top of my computer #because i need to use my computer l #and i really hate having to clear it off every time i want to use my computer #especially because i specifically never put anything on top of my laptop #and she went on about ‘well don’t put your stuff in the common area’ #ma’am i have told you so many fucking times that if you want something moved #just fucking tell me and i will move it #blanket statements like ‘don’t have things in the common area’ is an impossible rule to abide by #just like ‘don’t keep things on the table’ #the table is supposed to have things on it #that’s its whole purpose #she said the only place i can have things in the common area is my desk #so i dumped out all of the shit she’s been keeping in it because she’s been taking up like half the drawer space this whole time #oh what? you don’t like it when you’re trying to use a space and there’s crap all over it? #aww that’s so horrible :( i can’t at all imagine what that feels like. to want to use a space and have stuff all over it in the way. #gosh i really wonder what it’s like when someone dumps crap all over the space you want to use. can’t possibly imagine what that feels like. #she’s literally been living away from home the entire time since i moved back and has the gall to come back for like three days #and blow her top about ‘being rejected’ and ‘feeling alienated’ in her own home #btw she says this about me when i sit in the good chair #and not in a joking way #like sorry i haven’t been observing your presence & leaving it for you to enjoy (in spirit. because she’s not living here at present.) #god istg when she moves back in that’s when i start moving out

[penisliker-moved]

ill be like yeah gacha addiction ks a real thing that affects so many ppl and we all need to be more aware of it. and then realize ive spent 200 dollars on a stupid gacha game that i dont even like in 10 days

#no you SHOULD blow yr money on pointless #shit its best to do it now b4 u have rent and stuff #im gonna delete it this isnt a habit i want to keep up At All #im so fucking mad at myself i have things i need to be saving to and this is just..WHY m i doing this #i dont even like the fucking game why did i kep spending money on it #like. it wsnt from ym saving or anything but fucking. 200 goddman dollars im rly mad #and i cant even be mad at anyboyd else its Literally my fault #im just rly fucking disappointed in myself i should fucking know better than this #my parents being dumbfucks with their money is literally the reason i grew up poor im supposed to fucking learn from them #and again like. it ws from my spending money that im supposed to spend on whatever i want #it just feels like such a waste n m rly rly rly upset abt ir. whatever #this isnt me gamblizing this shit obviously. its rly distressing me #i feel like a bad person. whatever #like th game isnt a bad game like. its not g*nshin 💀 or something like that #im judt. still rly mad at myself #s just like. this past month is th first time basically ever ive a tually had my own money n. ive been putting some aside for savings #(i have 500 in savings rn) #but idk i just. i should be setting aside more or something i feel like im doing it all wrong and i rly rly rly dont want to endnup like my #parents lmao. #and i told my dad i ws worried abt it and he tried to give me financial advice that was jus tluke #but fucking. like. even if im not Actively in a lease #or whatever. i am saving up t move Across the Country #which is fuckinf expensjve #and rent'll be cheap bc were splitting it like 4 ways but i still #jghhhhhhh. i wanna have an emergency fund + a few months rent + money tk actually get up there + furniture money #but i dont wanna be setting aside my entire paycheck for savings either bc like. i do deserve nice things sometimes #my dads kind of right there where like. If they had gone crazy and gotten all the stuff they wanted Before they had responsibilities and 4 #kids #then theyd be way more responsible with their money now #i just. ufhghhhh idk. idfk. im rly rly mad at myself

[wizardnuke]

beau....ohhuuugh

#youre telling me this character that was originally supposed to have frat boy vibes didn't keep that vibe bc it was a front she had put on #to protect herself... ure saying asshole with a heart of gold over here... angry women supremacy. I think abt her so much all the time #she's The Character I can't look directly at bc. Well. day one when I watched cr and saw her I was like #oh yes this one I love her <3 I understand her <3 and by GOD do I understand her. too much. ow! #characters that scramble your brain #she's so smart and she's so angry and she was talked down to and ignored and treated like a burden for so long ohhh #she's not a burden. she made a show of shoving her way into tmn but they had always wanted her there #even when they fought. when she started shit or when someone else started shit and she spoke up #she's an extra perspective she's incredibly loyal she wants people to be safe and sane and she helps with that in her way #oh my god and she is so nonjudgemental. caleb told her his backstory in ep fuckin 18. that's SO early. and she gave him some shit for it #for a while but when it comes down to it she didn't tell the others and she didn't start a fight then and there #she cares. she's just not the most careful. but then she learns how to be. ohhhhhuggh #her character growth was her learning that she's respected and an equal and feeling less like a burden and more like a friend and getting #VALIDATED. being told by not only tmn but The Cobalt Fucking Soul that what had happened to her shouldnt have happened #I am going to. Die #also DEEPLY insane to me that it took as long as it did for her backstory stuff to come up not because I think it should have come up #sooner but because that's so thematically appropriate. you have sea gods and evil archmages and archfey cultists and yasha's missing #memories and then you have a girl from a winery who wasn't raised kindly or fairly and that's it. the hag wasn't her fault. it shouldn't #have been something she had to deal with. most of it is so mundane but that trauma is treated with the same seriousness as everything else #hbbngngnhngnnhnh...

[tariah23]

Also, those birds in the wall are so loud tonight lol.

#whoever else moves into this house after us is gonna be pissed #our landlord is ass and acted like it wasn’t a big deal when we first told them about this issue #I remember even showing her and the handyman she always sends out who’s just some guy she pays to do work whenever we call because she’s too #cheap to call actual professionals ☠️………….. then gets mad when she has to send the handyman out to the house multiple times just because he #didn’t know what he was doing and she wasted her money instead of ya know sending out a professional what a Buffoon #anyway I showed them the hole and when we brought it up again she acted like we never told her lmfao #now the birds are loud as shit and no one is gonna want to move into this house like that #there’s still huge opening outside of our house where the birds can fly into lmfao #they were too lazy to even patch the hole up and she sent the handyman to clear out the bird mite infestation (she gave him the wrong shit #that you use for like ants and stuff ☠️… so of course the mites were never Removed #) #rambling #they were also supposed to paint our kitchen last summer but ghosted us… #then the landlord lied about sending the handyman out to paint and said that he was knocking on our door for 15 minutes which was obviously #a lie because the handyman is a chill dude and he’s usually ready to leave after knocking once and as soon as we open the door he’s always #like ‘I was about to leave! I thought y’all was sleep-‘ even know this negro would ring the bell like once and we’d open the door almost #immediately lmfao like so I knew the landlord was lying about him standing outside our house knocking for 15 min like he’d be ready to leave #in 20 seconds ☠️ #then I remember my mom mentioning her taking her time trying to repair stuff around the house etc and the landlord pulled a “’I have a #feeling you don’t think that I’m doing my best 🥺… I gave you your security back-‘ #and that sounded like a threat to me like do you want us to move lol? very weird just because my mom was telling her that she basically #doesn’t do her job in a nice way #she was probably still mad that she had to give me some money as payback because of the mites getting into my hair that I had just gotten #done #because it was their fault that the mites problem even got to the point that it did lol like I don’t care Idk if you’re upset #should’ve fixed the hole when we first told you about it #we should report her to the city after we move tbh fuck landlords #this was the first house that I’d ever lived in and it’s a decent size too but my fam and I are tired of this place like our landlord sucks #and she gets an attitude whenever we call them about a problem in the house like isn’t it your job to repair shit in the first place or #should we call the city on you 😐? I have a feeling that she wouldn’t like that lol

[queenerdloser]

i picked an apartment (NOT the church remodel one lmao) and signed my lease and i have a car now so most of what was stressing me out this month is now wrapped up, which explains why my body decided i had Done Enough and gave me a head cold to force me to rest in bed.

#liveblogging life #i got sick literally the same day i signed my lease lmao #also like. i still havent told the church remodel i'm not planning to go with them #BUT they havent really reached out to me about the lease i was supposed to sign within 48hrs? #kind of curious what will happen if i just straight up ghost them but i think i'll reach out tomorrow #theoretically i think im supposed to pay an admin fee but uh. kind of dont want to lmao #idk i've kind of second-guessed myself a couple of times bc the apt i picked is a little dingier than the church remodel one #and i keep thinking about the fucking STAIRS.... #but it's definitely cheaper and it has nice big windows and so much closet space. and it just feels like it utilizes its sq footage better #also the area is definitely closer to a lot of things and just kind of easier to navigate to some essential places #only a 20m bus ride to work! how nice is that!!! #no pet rent a cheap parking rate/month... yeah i AM happy with it #i just wish i wasn't stuck with sad gray carpet and kind of outdated kitchen appliances lmao #also the countertop is so depressing... i really want to do something to it but apparently peel & stick is a bad idea for kitchens?? #and i'll have to figure out what to do with the blinds... tbh i fucking hate blinds lmao #i finally found a 3d virtual tour of the exact unit i'm renting thank god bc none of hte pictures on the site were accurate #and i was having trouble visualizing the space for where to put stuff #also you can measure shit on this map thing??? super useful lmao

[professionaljester]

trying to cope with my crazy amounts of social isolation

#abc shut it #i’m not even tryig to isolate myself i want to talk to people #but i work #and i’m bad at texting #i’m forgetful and shit but i try my best to text ppl back #and all i wanna do is chat with my friends and stuff but no one is like around when i get out of work #and i just feel so left behind socially and when i ask for help and wish ppl would reach out to me #i know i’m not the best at texting first but i’m trying to get better at reaching out #i just feel so left behind and social stunted compared to my friends idk what to talk to them abt anymore #bc i don’t know what they like anymore and i can’t keep up bc no one wants to watch anything with me anymore #and i don’t know how to pirate shows so i can catch up with all the pop culture i missed out on #but i just get told to pirate without being told how to do it safely #like can someone invite me to a discord server where i don’t feel alienated and confused and out of the look #and that i belong there #like it feels impossible to keep friendships up when i’m the only one expected to iniate the convos #and no one tells me anything going on in their lives i’m suppose to just know from context clues online #like how am i suppose to know what you guys are up to based on context clue i see online #like i need people to talk to me #i can’t be the only one expected to maintain the conversations if i want friends #i want ppl to check in on me and ask me how i am #but ppl only remmeber i exist when i remind them #like at this point i should just kms bc my life has been like this for at least 20 years #i’m sick of it