#I CANT BE NORMALLLLL

[kummatty]

my cousin and aunt are coming to visit next week and it's gonna be such an annoying and insufferable time... asking god why it has to be now when I rly need to focus on setting myself up for the semester, like im so nervous abt grad school and the unfriendly pace of it and how it starts picking up speed so I want to help myself out by being on top of it and I need time and space for that 🧘🏽‍♂️

my cousin gets on my last nerve and I do feel for her but she has just as much agency as the rest of us and she's 30 yo and needs to take responsibility for her life instead of taking out her unhappiness on everyone else,, I was talking to my mom and sister abt how I think she hates me lol and my sister was like she does bc she's jealous and intimidated by you and my mom goes everyone's jealous of you lmaooo but it's so mind boggling cuz she has just as much room to do what ive done in making choices and changes that I know will make me happy . today I was saying all this to my mom abt her and my mom goes not everyone's as lucky as you 🙄.. and yes I am lucky in many ways but I also carved out this life for myself piece by piece, my mom hates to give me credit but that's bc I pried my life from her hands oops . all of this is there but what rly boils my blood abt my cousins behavior is how she tries to manipulate /use /bully my sister bc she's so young one day I'm gonna punch her in the face

#like she'll wait til i leave the room to ask my sister heavy questions and she'll vent and dump all her emotions on her #shes always saying the weirdest shit! #and obviously she doesnt fuck w me bc i cant stand her bs and ill tell her the truth #tragic that we grew up together and used to be so close and shes supposed to be like an older sister to me #but she tossed me aside and now wants to be rly close to my sister #and im not even bitter its just like. we could be just as happy as when we were kids if u were normalllll #im just sad it all changed somewhere along the way

[nature-played-a-trick-on-me]

i wanna be normallll so bad like this is kind of the worst

#i wanna feel normalllll #wanna be able to tolerate normal things #imagine someone cute being flirty ish but you just cant tolerate it #i feel so mean sometimes #or like some stone cold bitch #like what if i am both of those things #i hate it all #this guy being cute is not the same as a creepy man grabbing me like its not remotely the same #but i just cannoooooot #and i feel so guilty for it bc like it must make him feel bad about himself which isnt deserved #he'd never intentionally hurt me like literally not the kind of person he is and YET #i annoy myself like i just want to be fucking normal #calm and normal

[mangoposts]

lowkey i gotta masturbate every night like 2x-3x in a row before i go to bed, i just cant fall asleep without it

That’s normalllll i know a lot of people who do this too its honestly just a normal source of relaxation

#🥭

[vamptits]

WHY DO YOUHAVE YAOI FINGERS

i cant keep doing this man my hands are NORMALLLLL..... i just bought really small eggs..

#ask #anon

[skinmite]

this post annoys me so much im spilling oil all over it and drowning it

the tweets are a joke in the first place and everyone in the notes are mocking women just bc they dont think women can joke. its not serious. thats why the word “funniest” is there.

women making jokes online arent to blame for men being the worst anyway and i love women making fun of men its good clean fun. on a serious note i think they Should have higher standards bc the reality is that they date literally anyone. men online are convinced they have super high standards but its just not true look at any straight couple lol

we absolutely dont have to make fun of women for making fun of men even if theyre tragically straight and cisgendie just let them have their fun its entertaining and playful and i cant get enough of it. learn to love a good roast and light up this spliff

ITS JOKES BABYYYYY LETS BE NORMALLLLL

im 100% sure the men on twitter already sent all the women on that post enough death threats we dont need to crosspost even if tumblr is so menless some of you are still pandering to them in a way that makes me go boooooooooo who giva shit

#💌

[madwickedawesome]

giggling

i searched mischa bachinski gif

HAJDHAIRHWURHWJHRIWHROWBRIWDA WHY CANT HE BE NORMALLLLL hes so babygirl

[exculis]

oh no i think im having another blood sugar crash. and dinner still isnt done. but if i snack i wont have room for dinner. why cant my body be normalllll

[mangostar]

sees post abt winter.... envious 

#i WISH it was winter #summer sucks ass #my hayfever is soooo bad #also it was hot all afternoon but then it started raining and thundering like.. #id rather t be hot than humid #oop i see lightning other there #god i remember a few years ago at christmas i got sun burned SOOOOOOOOO badly #me skin was peeling sooo much it hurt #WHY CANT AUSTRALIA WEATHER BE NORMALLLLL #also albedo is my wife i love him #amber n eula r lesbians what the hell #bennett is... trying #also i just finally acsended my adventure rank to 40 and... UGHHHH NOW I HAVE TO LEVEL UP MY CHARACTERS BECUZ ALL THE ENEMIES R NOW HIGHER #LEVELED AND IT SUCKS CUZ ITS SO HARD TO FIND LEVEL UP THINGIES #bennett is at level 76 while all the others r still at 60-50-40.... ughghghghghghg

[memento8mori]

Lmao I suck so bad in Killer scratch, fuck my long ass nails, i play with pens but still cant get a full combo in normal....Normalllll

#first world problems #hypmic arb #hypmic #hypnosis mic #and i finally got and ssr and its my least favorite character jshsbsjbsbs #ichiro we are gonna faillllll #ヒプノシスマイク

[whatdayisitanyways]

ive been with my boyfriend for four years and i literally spiral everytime we have sex. like, i enjoy it fine, its good, its great. then after i need to be alone. i get so low. i wanna sh. i hate my life. i lose feeling in my body. i feel fucking horrible. and i never feel horrible like this anymore. only after sex. and i know its trauma related, but the only therapist ive ever felt comfortable talking about trauma stuff with basically told me to go see someone else who knows about autism. and i feel like he ditched me. and i did see someone else but i just dont like her. nd i stopped going bc i dont have anything to talk about, like day to day im fine im great, but im getting a promotion at work and now im stressed, and anxious, wtf, why cant i just be fucking normalllll

#tw sh

[traumabrainz]

I WANT PL TO TALK ABOUT MY SPECIAL INSTREST TO BUT I DONT WANT TO CAUSE I. EMBARRASSED AND NO BODY FUCKING CARES about MY INTRESTS IN THINGS AND LIFE FUCKING sUCKS CAUSE I WANT SOMEONE TO TALK TO BUT I A OID IT AT ALL COSTS CAUSE IM EMBARASSED AND WHEN PPL DO TALK TO BE O JUST ISE THEM FOR FUCKING ATTENTION THENI HAVE TO TRY TO EXPLAIN MYSELF ABT WHY I DONT ANSER BACK AFTER A RANT BECAUSE I DON KNOWWWWWW IM TIRED OF THE FUCKING HEADACHE eVERY DAY ITS EVERY DAY I CANT STOO STRESSING I CANT STOP THINKING I JUST WANNA DIE I JUST WANT TO KILL EVERYONE INCLUDING MYSELF I DONT WANT ANY OF THIS ANYMORE I WANNA BE NORMAL I WANNA BE NORMAL I WANNA BE NORMAL I WANNA BE NORMALLLLL IS THAT TO MUCH TO FUCKING ASK!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHY CANT PPL JUST BE INTERESTED IN WHAT U SAY WITHOUT HAVING TO BARGE IN WITH STUFFU DIDNT ASK FORRRRR I JUST WANNA TALKKK BUT I. ANT LET IT OUT EVERY DAY I WANT TO FUCKING EXPLODE I FEEL LIKE IM EPLODEING I FEELLIKE IM GOING TO BUST OPEN AND NOTHING IS EVER GONNA PUT ME BACK TOGETHER

[nature-played-a-trick-on-me]

jeugdzorg is cursed. so cursed. why.

#so depressing. it just doesnt work and it fucked me uppp personally and im not even like one of the worst cases #like how does all this even happen?! #like somehow i could be abused at home for yearssssss until i was depressed and worse and then I HAD TO MAKE THE CALL #to get out of my parents' house. MY CALL!!! #and then grouphome staff recreated the abuse for like 3.5 years until i had good mentors + we realised i had trauma. #its so weird that no one fucking realised i had trauma which was causing me to behave the way i did. #turns out i have only lost my shit once or twice since having my own personal front door (for 1 yr now!). yknow. instead of every WEEK #and i just cannot belIEVE that when i was living at home? that therapist? just completely ignored that SA IN FRONT OF HER OFFICE. #what the fuckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk #like that genuinely did me in. oh my god. that did it for me. i was miserable already but that killed me. #imagine my fucking surprise when metoo happened a few years later #and now im almost 21 and back in school and somewhat functioning ish #but i feel so alien and lost so much of the time. #not to be that person but it's strange to hear someone complain about mummy making a dish they didnt like #when my childhood was like. being locked up in my room and being hit and screamed at and spat on and being banned from the house #everything being done to make me miserable to make me act out so i could be punished again #and im supposed to be normalllll about it all lmao #sometimes i can but sometimes i cant. like what the FUCK was that #genuinely it was some cruelly effective torture program and now im here and an adult and im still waiting for someone to punish me #and like all the fucking THERAPY for next to nothing. what the fuckkkkkk was up with that #and then I MYSELF had figured out it was trauma and got therapy and was sent home to deal with it myself 'bc it's not the right time' #broooooooooooooo #im lost as fuck! #i want to start therapy again but like im someone is gonna stir in my skull only to send me home then id rather not be stirred at all