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thisgodwontforgiveyou · 4 years

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Yang RWBY

i deliberated over how to do this for so long before relaizing i literally cant do her justice so im just gonna stream of consciousness all over this and its gonna be a mess and thats because i love her with my whole entire heart

favorite thing - yang’s writing is a work of meta genius that honestly outstrips anything even doki doki literature club did in my opinion, and if youve heard me talk about ddlc you know how big of a deal that is. her core character concept is that what you see isnt what you get, that she always hides her real personality, feelings, and ambitions behind a facade, but most importantly that this facade extends to what the audience is shown of her. we are no more privy to her inner thoughts than anyone else, and watching the rwby fandom have a fucking meltdown over the course of her arc as whats really going on comes to light has been absolutely wild.

i also love that this results in her being an inversion of the typical ‘not like other girls’ story. character in the show itself have literally called her a bimbo like its not subtle what they were going for, and i think monty and the rest of the writing team on rwby knew exactly how a bunch of anime fans would react to a scantily clad anime girl whos combat style involves punching things. getting to see deeper and deeper into her real psyche and learning that she is one of the most psychologically damaged and darkest characters in the show on the inside has been by far the most enjoyable part of the entire show and shes one of my absolute favorite characters ever written

least favorite thing - much like ddlc you cant sexualize a teenage girl like that and then have it comes out being an epic artistic win. like you just directly contributed to pedophilia and thats fucked and no amount of cool writing will counterbalance that. except here its even worse because she wasnt even 18 when the story started.

in terms of writing within the show i think her relationship with her dad is really fucking dumb and they butchered that entire aspect of her character by having him treat her like shit and her not react to it in any real way. her relationship with her biological and adoptive mothers is way way way more important so its not a huge deal but sooooooo many fights in the rwby fandom wouldnt happen if they had just thought through the way they wrote tai a little better

favorite line -

Gotcha.

her catching adam’s sword was probably the best moment in the entire show to date and that line was the icing on the cake and a perfect example of her using the way people misread her to her advantage, especially against the character that was her strongest foil. watching a female character derided for years by the fanbase for being too angry and too headstrong deliberately and precisely baiting an abusive male character into letting those traits consume him in a life or death situation was unbelievably satisfying

brotp - yang gets along with everybody extremely well but i think weiss is the only person who really understands her on a deeper level. i think theres just certain experiences of extreme parental neglect that only translate if youve been there, and weiss and yang are the two who can really connnect on that since yang basically became ruby’s mom after their mom died and their dad shut down. i think its a really unlikely friendship that became one of the strongest in the series and the moment where weiss leaps into yang’s arms after not seeing her for the better part of a year always fucks me up

otp - i dont have anything clever to say here its bumbleby. blake and yang’s slowburn romance is one of the best wlw stories in fiction right now and absolutely blows me away when i really think about. wlw romances literally never get treated the way the show is treating them and its genuinely heartwarming to watch

notp - she hasnt been word of god confirmed as a lesbian but everything about the way shes written and especially the way shes treated by the crew outside of fiction (specifically editing out references that could be interpreted as her being attracted to men in the japanese localization and manga adaptation) makes it a foregone conclusion as far as im concerned, but at the same time there arent really any men that people ship with yang as anything other than an attempt to be homophobic on purpose

so basically i guess winter/yang is the big one without being straight up horrific. please dont ship teenagers with people who are like 28 i dont care how ultra mature yang is thats weird on a real world level no matter how hard you try to justify it

random headcanon - ruby’s the only character ever shown listening to music but i KNOW yang is a skramz kid. i KNOW it

unpopular opinion - okay. people fucking LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOVE to draw yang in dresses like every single fucking opportunity they get you fucking breathe a single word about yang being a dyke in anyones direction and theyve got her femmed up the ass. and its fucking so transparent. like she isnt wildly GNC by any means but her clothing is consistently more masculine than the other female characters’ and her posture/body language SCREAMS butch. they wont let her be real butch because they hate me specifically but i know i know i know why people ALWAYS want to draw her in dresses and its because they hate gnc women with a burning passion and if i ever see that shit im blocking unless you do something really good to balance i out. “wouldnt it be so fun if we put blake in the suit and yang in the dress” shut the fuck up and die put them both in suits if you want it that bad literally stop doing this to gnc women

song i associate with them - i absolutely adore rwby’s music and there is no song on earth that can top her actual volume 5 theme

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sweet-xoxo-thatcares · 3 years

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I'm worth more than that hoe and her ugly ass bf with her cheap ass...

I think after blowing off Glynda for trying to have me fuck her bf, only because she knew that I liked girls and her and the bf wanted a threesome....

I think she brought up a good point....I might be a lesbian.

Like pansexuality still interests me, because I do find some trans ftms and mtfs, but then I don't like non-binary men because they just dont appeal to me as much. Non binary women I seem to like when they look like a girl in boys clothes/masculine hair or long hair. It just bottles my mind that yea, that's why I don't like cis gendered men the same rn.

And explains why I was so disappointed that Jay stopped looking that cute, soft, sporty, edgy soft boy/girl appeal that I loved about meeting them. Because thats kinda how I saw my true self...long to medium curly hair, tattoo sleeves, nose ring, and wearing dark blue/black hair like Kehlani with makeup and boy tees, men's dresser and business casual, androgynous looks.

But when I saw Jaiden, their new self...I was teed off cause how could such a pretty face change to being uglier in the aspects facial growth and facial hair. It was weird. And they look like their brother, who I find very much so wayyyy more unattractive than them when they were Jay.

So yea, girls with pretty faces, chubby or small. And I'm not a stud. Im tired of feeling like I have to be a dyke just to get some pretty pussy around me.

Sorry Tinder, thats why I deleted you. Too many couples trying to just have a threesome and Im pretty sure it says on my bio "not interested in cis gendered men" and I don't like the disrespect for my pansexuality and the people in the area that are on this app, that dont appreciate my time. And lack of care and respect when I say no to fucking them and her boyfriend.

Sorry, Idiot you're a slut and why the fuck you think a lesbian who isn't attracted to guys would want to join in watching you fuck your ugly ass hairy boyfriend and just wanted sex with you so I could get over an ex who was restrictive as hell and had multiple personalities during and after sex.

I need a guy friend, but nothing romantically.

Im tired of guys at the store, my job, my lunch, on these apps, my snapchat, and the bus stop who think im dtf just because Im pansexual and I look hot.

Im not some exclusive offer. And I deserve equal care and attention as any other girl you would talk to on the internet.

By the way, I gotta delete some more snapchat idiots because another idiot who I was only talking to a month ago, sent me a dick pic without even a hello and at random. Thinking I was some type of hoe and im sick of the nonchalantness after they just insulted me with that type of unwanted behavior.

I can't trust men because of this kind of shit right here. And thirsty as girls looking for outside attention in relationships, y'all to get the fuck outta my face too and just be mf single. Nasty ass.

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scribbleheaded · 3 years

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So we've been thinking about gender a lot and heres the general consensus:

We overall identify as genderfluid when we are acting as a collective. This fits the shifts that come with switches and allows for all the range of gender expressions and attitudes from within the system. It's kinda like how we collectively identify as bisexual even though individual parts may identify as lesbian, gay, or ace. Bisexual just sums up our general behavior the best and until more recently it also summed up our primary hosts sexuality. But I'll get into that conflict later. None of us really like generalizing our sexuality or gender but we've found it to be the best solution for talking about these things without disclosing the DID. People close to us can know about it but the average peer or acquaintance needs a summary that excludes the DID details.

I individually identify as bigender. It's a label that has stuck out to me and it fits better than anything else. I'm a man and a woman at once. And everything in between and every combo of the two. And I'm something else entirely. But im definitely definitively both, so I like the label bigender. Plus then I'm bi²

On a similar note, I really want to use neopronouns but I dont really have accepting people in my life to try them with right now. But if anyone on here wants to send me asks or help me try out pronouns I'm really wanting to see how xe/xem and hy/hym and ve/vem feel. I also have been going by Dylan irl instead of Delaney but Dylan is also a name of a part which complicates things. I'd like a name that's just mine, but until I find one, I identify most strongly with our names Dylan and Delaney. I also like to be referred to as Syd when Syd and I are piloting together.

Syds gender hasn't really changed as they are still solidly agender. But they've been really enjoying our collective shift to exploring more masc presentation. And I feel like thought their feelings or presentation havent changed, directly labeling themselves as agender has been a positive shift forward with regards to accepting ourselves. I sense a lot of joy in exploring gender from the tweens and teens, and that has made the hard work of accepting this part of ourselves a lot more rewarding.

And then there's Dylan. Shes an interesting part. She is very connected with womanhood but only as it applies to loving women. Shes butch and shes a prince but as a woman. Her gender is complicated but very close to Dyke in nature. Dyke, it goes without saying, defines her gender as Dyke. Dylan and Dyke have been stepping up a lot in the hole Molly left last fall in maintaining our external real world life. They're a great help to me honestly but it's a shift in how we live our life which has created problems. I know Molly and Rachel don't like the idea of taking the risk of being super out and proud of being genderweird and into women, but I dont think hiding our identity really saved us any pain in the past. There is definitely conflict there though. So many conversations about sexuality and gender and safety. And monogamy. I'm so tired of the arguments about monogamy. Its exhausting to listen to.

It's hard to balence all of our wants sometimes. Sometimes I feel like I hear tumblr discourse just repeated in my brain. Someone is angry because they feel Dylan and Dyke leaning into their attraction to women and rejecting other parts attraction to men is perpetuating our collective internalized biphobia. This part argues that Dylan and Dyke are a reaction of our continued feeling from our highschool gsa that we weren't valid for loving women if we were still attracted to men, this is our internalized biphobia no doubt. From the opposite end though, I hear Dylan argue that their acceptance of their lesbianism is an expression of our system working through our trauma and internalized homophobia. It's an expression of love for our love of women despite our mothers abuse and despite all those who made us feel wrong, dirty, predatory or a freak for being attracted to women. I think they're both right. I know parts of us feel like we aren't valid in our attraction to women unless we reject our attraction to men, but I also know that Dyke and Dylan being proud lesbians really has helped us in our healing process from the bullying and abuse we endured over our attraction to women. I'm not sure what the answer is, but I hope we can hit a point when our attraction to people doesn't make us feel ashamed and like we have to choose one part of ourself over another.

That of course gets into the monogamy discourse inside but I think we need to sort through it more before sharing. In any case it was enlightening to write all of this down. And this isnt even going into the trans masculine parts feelings on gender or sexuality which is a whole can of worms that the more conventional ANPs (apparently normal parts) are still processing. Many of us dont feel like we can publically claim those parts of our identity because we are so often perceived as a woman and since so many of us are connected with womanhood. But we have strong connections with manhood too and sometimes I wish I could express pride or even just less shame around those parts and feelings. I've seen other bigender people speak on being both mlm and wlw and that's been enlightening to see and hits very close to our expirences. I'm hoping more exposure to more queer communities will help us feel more comfortable with this. Something to work on. I'm excited to explore my gender presentation and actually tell people to use they/them and Mx. this upcoming semester though. I'm excited to publically claim the more masculine parts of myself and actually lean into being genderweird.

Anyway thanks for reading this far and like if you read it all if you want. Also plz dont add to our internal discourse. The arguments inside are more than enough lol

#dont reblog #personal #actuallydid #gender and sexuality #dylan has been reading butler lately #got a lot of folks talking inside if you cant tell

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