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strawberrymatchawhore · 22 days

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toxic bf! rafe cameron x reader

"running away is easy, its the leaving thats hard."

summary- the camerons are in charge of the annual new years party this year, you along other kooks as well as the camerons distant family are invited to the estate to celebrate. you unknowingly strike up a conversation with one of rafes cousins whom he has always been in competition with since childhood, eventually having to deal with the consequences of your jealous boyfriend

warning/s- abusive relationship, slapping, degrading, choking, toxic ass relationship, mean rafe, reader is a crybaby, nutting inside as punishment, barely any aftercare, NON/DUBCON (reader lets him fuck to make him less pissed off) IF ANY OF THIS MAKES U UNCOMFY PLS DONT READ <3, etc.. im backkk pls enjoy and comment as well as repost apologies for being gone for so long lolsies 🙁

3 years ago you never would have pictured yourself where you are today, living in one of the finest estates of the island and dating one of the most popular and sought after members of this community. nor have you ever pictured yourself being in a a relationship where everyday was like stepping on eggshells and yet you never felt the urge to leave. you loved him too much to do so.

putting on silver dangly earrings as the final touch to your new years look, you turn to your boyfriend for approval. only to be met with a disgusted look on his face.

"why are you dressed like that"

"i thought you liked it? you bought it for me last week." you argued, folding your arms.

"yeah but i didn't think you'd wear it to a family event, i mean come on baby you look like a hooker." he pointed at the figure forming dress, your eyebrows furrowed. the dress was a maxi dress and the only thing revealing was the slight cleavage.

"never mind i'll just change" you exhale and quickly turn away to avoid starting an argument, but he grabs your arm and ushers for you to stay.

"you know what, lets go. we're already late." he leaves the room and you silently follow behind him.

.....

you and rafe walk through the door with your arm around his bicep, immediately you felt out of place. no one you knew were here and it was just random rich people. you felt your breathing begin to hitch and it continues to grow as you continue your walk into the kitchen to get drinks.

"i'll be back, stay right here." rafe orders and grabs a beer, leaving you to your thoughts.

"hey" a voice interrupted. you look up and see a tall brunette, someone you've never seen in this small island.

"uhm.. hi" you awkwardly respond back, giving a small smile which he returns.

"sorry did i interrupt? i saw you were by yourself so i thought maybe i should come and chat with you for a bit.. not that im calling you lonely. i mea- shit. im adrian by the way." he rambles and you cant help but laugh and slyly look around for your boyfriend. you know know how he gets when you talk to guys, and this guy seemed awfully familiar.

"no no, youre good. please. i was hoping someone would talk to me, everyones so intimidating here." you took another sip of your drink and lean against the marbled counter. who was this guy?

"i know right?! i thought my cousin was going to show up and greet me to everybody but i guess he's too good for that." he joked

"wow he seems like a handfu-" barely getting the response out, you instantly feel someone luring over you and harshly put their hand on your shoulder.

"what are you doing" you hear your boyfriends harsh voice whisper in your ear.

"oh hey man whats up" adrian says, they dap each other up but you could feel the tention behind it.

"i see youve met my girlfriend." rafes hand grabs your waist, massaging it. his fingers dig into your waist.

"i did, shes been a great chat." adrian responded, your jaw clenches and you bite your tongue. you feel your anxiety come back as you know youre about to dig your own grave.

"yeah she is huh. its getting kinda late though. i think we're gonna head out." before even hearing what adrian was going to say, rafe grabs your hand and starts to drag you outside.

"rafe what are you doing??? we just got here." you struggle to catch up with his long angry strides.

"do you think i give a fuck." you release yourself from his grip but he ends up pushing you up against his truck.

"i don-" his hand squeezes your throat, blocking your airways. it was 11 pm and everybody was inside, no one was seeing this.

"tell me. does it look like it?" he seethes, pushing you harder into the truck. you felt your tears start to form when his yelling is followed by his intense eye contact with you.

"no right? so get the fuck in the car." he opens the passenger seat and shoved you inside, slamming the door. rafe then gets into his seat and speeds off. you could tell by the silence and the way he was gripping the steering wheel that you were fucked.

......

rafe pulls up to the driveway and practically drags you inside, you were too scared to speak up. frightened at how much worst that would make his next moves be. pushing you into the guest bedroom he starts to speak up.

"why are you such a slut, i cant even leave you alone for 5 minutes without you trying to hop on my cousins dick." he scolds you, your body sits at the end of the bed in shame. hunching to make yourself smaller, mentally preparing yourself when you see him taking off his clothes.

"take this shit off." he grabs you and tugs on your dress. but you didnt hear him, you were too busy disassociating yourself away from him and this suffocating ass room.

"what'd i fucking say?" rafe slaps you and instead of giving you the time to take off the dress, he rips it and pins you by the wrists to the bed. he glares down at you before leaning down your neck and inhaling your scent and leaving dark bruises behind.

"i was thinking about fucking you real nice and slow tonight. but after you decided to act like a whore, i'm gonna treat you like one. how's that sound baby." he mocks you and caresses you clothed pussy before pulling them off your legs.

"rafe.." you whine when he uses his buff arms to spread your legs as much as they could go. you start to hyperventilate from his threat, and cover your face so you don't have to watch him violate you. his thumb rubs at your clit, and the other hand starts to stroke his cock. the tip showing how angry he truly was.

without a warning your boyfriend slams into your pussy, barley wet and prepped. you weren't adjusted to the size of him.

"ow fuck!" you squealed and immediately tried to seek comfort by grabbing onto rafe's bicep, this only seemed to piss him off more and he pulled out and flipped you onto your stomach.

"you're not allowed to touch me. just lay there and be a good fuck toy for me to use." he gives your ass a hard before forcing his way back into you, the burn and lack of proper lubrication makes you shoot up again but he didn't let you move an inch. this sort of roughness was familiar, yet every time it never fails to terrify you.

"stay the fuck down." his large hand pushes down on the middle of your back, naturally putting you into a face down ass up position. just the way he liked it. your body shakes and trembles in fear when your boyfriends thrusts get harder.

"rafe please it hurts so bad i cant take it" you sobs getting louder, rafe lowers himself closer to you and grabs your throat cutting off your breathing.

"your pussys sucking me right in angel, i think you can." he sneered, your crying and begging seemed to anticipate him even further as he loses all his restraint. you knew you couldn't stop him. its just the way your relationship worked.

he would get mad and then take his anger out on you, and youd let him. why? because you know what he's capable of, the holes displayed throughout your guys bedroom were everyday reminders to not push him too far. but in a way, it made you feel safe and wanted. rafe would do anything to protect you and keep you away from the dangers of the outside world.

"you're starting to get wet shitttt" rafe moaned and releases your throat, both his hands grab onto your hips for leverage as he speeds up his pace hitting the good spots deep inside you. not caring about how there was going to be fingermark bruises later. you hiccup as you try to control the sounds of your crying, using a pillow as comfort while he ruins you from behind.

inevitably your stomach starts to tighten and you feel yourself about to cum, your boyfriend moves one of his hands to your hair and tugs on it. resulting in a moan from you, the other hand moves down to your clit and rubs circles.

"you gonna cum baby? cum on my dick." he orders, he was fucking you so hard and greedily that the sounds of his thrusts and skin colliding were echoing in the room. your body caved into the sensations and you felt yourself fall apart on him.

"thats it squirt all over it, make a fucking mess for me. god you're such a little slut." he coos. the overstimulation of his cock hitting your cervix over and over again made you fucked out to the point of of passing out.

"so fucking tight" his vulgar words fill your ears, he gives your pussy rough slaps and you push against him. you yelped in surprise, eyes widening when you notice that rafes thrusts started to get sloppier.

"no.. no rafe! rafe you cant, we cant!" you protested in between moans, he only laughed in response. trying to push yourself away from him but he easily overpowered you. grabbing both of your arms and pinning them behind your back.

"dont tell me what to do, you did this to yourself." he breathes heavily as he filled you to the brim with him cum, he stayed there for a moment fucking it in as deep as he could before pulling out. enjoying the view of your pretty pussy sucking him right in. your eyes squinted in disgust when you felt his seed slide down your thighs.

rafe got up to clean himself but left you lying on the bed, you definitely werent walk right now and you were so overwhelmed with everything that happened. your conscious couldnt take anymore and your eyes starting tearing up.

"why are you crying." he sat on the edge of the bed and examined your state cluelessly. he scooted closer to you and opened the drawer next to the bed and grabbed a towel, cleaning you with it. you both sat in silence until rafe decided to pick you up and make his way to your actual bedroom.

"youre so mean to me.. you know that." you sniffle into his hard chest and draw circles on it with your finger. he doesn't respond but you know he heard it because he gave you a light squeeze before laying you down on the large bed. he takes his place next to you and turns away from you.

you sigh and turn to face his back, engulfing him in a hug. rafe initially tenses up but then relaxed in your arms. slowly you begin to knock out but before you do, you were sure you heard a brief

"im sorry" from rafe.

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cur-sedd · 4 months

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𝘌𝘢𝘵𝘦𝘯 𝘰𝘶𝘵 ♡ 𐐪𐑂 °

here is a late christmas present. uhm ngl i was half alive writing this so if it doesnt make sense im sorry ㅠㅠ uhmm! yeah i tried smth new with the whole getting eaten out and fingering shit saurr bare with me 😭 idk if i wanna do vampire!txt or some soobie smut next rahh. i'll figure it out. MDNI!! NSFW content below ╰┈➤ hard dom (?) hyuka x fem!reader, hair tugging, getting eaten out-ovbi, fingering (bc i have an obsession), hints at over stimulation, begging, edging, not proof read, i think thats it, lmk if i missed anything

You gripped Hyuka’s hair as he made laps on your cunt. His perfect nose, stimulating your clit in ways you couldn't do yourself. You legs shook as you felt another orgasm make its way. You whine softly, pulling his hair more. Once you did so, Hyuka pulled his head back. “Baby, i told you to stop pulling my hair.” His voice echoed through the heated room as you huffed slightly. Great. Its been the third time Kai has done this to you. Its not your fault you cant keep your hands to yourself. You took your legs off of your boyfriend’s shoulders with a small click of your tongue. Kai continued to hold your legs up, admiring the mess he has made out of you.

You let out a sigh opening you mouth to counter back only for strings of curses to come right out. Hyuka harshly pumped his fingers in and out of your swollen cunt as you cried out. Your body shook slightly as you bit your lower lip, trying to stifle those angelic sounds “Let it out baby or i’ll stop.” Kai spat out softly, His hands started to slow down so you quickly spoke, brows pinched up slightly. “No- no please dont- mmph, dont stop.” You mumbled. A small smirk appeared on Hyuka's lips. It was strange how deceiving he was. Its like he has two different sides. He is so sweet, affectionate with you when he is around others. Going as far to play with your clothes, even pepper small kisses on your neck. But when he is the one begging you to go home with him because he got hard and needs you to satisfy him, he just completely switches up! Manhandling you, turning and throwing you around when he wants. Holding your arm up when he fucks you senseless.

The pace of Kai’s fingers only went quicker the louder you moaned. Your back arched as you jumbled your words of “right there” “so good” and “gonna cum” along with a bunch of curses. You moved your body back slightly but Hyuka quickly pulled you back onto his fingers. “ ‘s too much baby-” You grunted softly, squeezing your eyes shut as he went at an unforgiving pace. You could barely even speak at this point with the amount of pleasure and overstimulation literally ruining you. Kai didnt respond to your words as he abused your cunt. You went from cursing to begging him to let you cum just once more like you didnt cum a few moments ago. And finally, he agreed. You slowly came down from your high as you chested heaved in and out heavily. Your shirt lifted right about your breasts from Kai’s earlier teasing. Suddenly, you felt a warm tongue clean you up at your core. You slowly shook your head with a slight furrow to your brows, giving Kai a playful glare. “Mm? It was only prep anyways baby! We haven't even started yet.” Kai chuckled softly, lifting his head from in between your legs, flashing his iconic smile.

Were you tired? Hell yes, but where you gonna stop him from making you feel so right? Nuh uh. He needed you so bad, and he knows you need him too. ૮₍˶ •. • ⑅₎ა

a/n: this was inspired by the answer the one and only @dearlyjun (sorry for the tag 😭) gave me when i sent her an ask a bit ago so hope yall like it 💞

#txt #kpop #tomorrow x together #txt x reader #txt hard hours #txt smut #kpop smut #hueningkai #hyuka #kai #hyuka smut #hyuka x reader #hyuka hard thoughts #hyuka scenarios #hyuka hard hours #curse writes

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nijisanji-brain-rot-fics · 8 months

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xsoleil boys x reader || wedding day

a/n: im bored as hell now guys 😭 im just gonna like post a bunch of headcanon stuff LOL i might post like fanfics, but thats a maybe wwww ALSO ALSO starting to reaaally like the later waves of niji, so ill prob focus on mainly xsoleil, noctyx, iluna, etc. ill dribble in some luxiem from time to time, but like the other waves need attention too 🙌 i might do some of the fem waves, but im not sure how to write those LOL

HEX HAYWIRE

bro this man's voice makes my brain go haywire

anyways uh

would definitely just be like very happy and stoic during yalls wedding

he'd treat you like his pretty princess/prince

anyways uhhh he would be that kind of romantic person to like take your hand and kiss it once you go to the front

oh my lord, im struggling to find his green flags when all i listen to from his asmrs are the yandere ones

UHM...... i mean like reception would be cute, like he'd dance with you

like beauty and the beast vibes ykkk

help im genuinely struggling w anything thats positive about marrying him 💀

DOPPIO DROPSCYTHE

AWWW HED BE SMILING AND LIKE EXCITED

LIKE HE WOULD BE WAITING FOR YOU EXCITEDLY AT THE FRONT

i feel like doppio would just be generally so excited and happy hes finally marrying the person he loves so much

he would fix his hair JUST FOR THIS

this is also the only event he will never be late to

oh god he would be so nervous when the ceremony actually starts

like hes worried he'll mess up his parts or someone will object

BUT it probably wont happen and itll be a great wedding!!

reception!doppio would be fucking lit

HE WOULD BE THE LIFE OF THE PARTY

he'd already be making dad jokes even if he isnt a dad yet

i swear, he would be kissing your forehead or cheek every few minutes

oh my goodness, drunk doppio would be so sweet

like i can just imagine him getting tipsy while like the maid of honor and the groomsman doing their little speech things and him getting really emotional

VER VERMILLION

honestly, i think he would cry at yalls wedding

like, he just screams 'emotionally fragile man on occasion'

the second he sees you in your wedding dress/suit/wtv, he'll start tearing up knowing that yall r gonna be married

and he loves you ya know

he'd hide the fact he was tearing up when you get to the front www

five bucks, doppio would be stifling his laughter when he sees ver crying

reception would be wholesome

ver would be whispering things to you while you guys dance

and not just random things

like i mean in korean

yeah his cute ass voice when he talks in korean

the voice where you want to keel over and throw up because it's really goddamn adorable and kind of attractive because people who speak more than one language is always somewhat attractive

tipsy ver is something to live for

it doesn't always happen but when it does its either hilarious as fuck or really cute and wholesome

like when he gets drunk, there's a 50% chance he starts to emote on the dance floor with an equally drunk doppio

or he could be holding your hand the whole time and staying by your side

a/n: WWWW im sorry i half assed hex's hcs LMAO i just genuinely cant see something that isnt overly explicit or kinky that wouldnt happen on ur wedding so thats why his is like the shortest lmao 💀 errhmm yeah, also ver is my #1 oshi thats why he has like the uh longest one LMAO UHHM yeah whatever lols have a good timezone

#ver vermillion x reader #ver vermillion #doppio dropscythe #doppio dropscythe x reader #hex haywire #hex haywire x reader #xsoleil x reader #nijisanji x reader #headcanon

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sallufix · 1 year

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LUCROW PIRATE AU MASTERPOST!

The Lucrow Pirate AU is... Well... LuCrow! But... Pirates. Yeah. The black ravens are there too. ANYWAYS, ONTO THE POST!

This AU will be Medieval + Steampunk themed!! So steampunk pirates! Yipee!!

Some characters will either be other pirates, or sea creatures. (Not decided yet, but im sure i can make both work)

The au will be focused on LuCrow and the black ravens, but ill try to fit as msny characters and arcs as possible!

These are the designs as of Chapter 1!

Many locations will be varied, but they will always have something steampunk related cause im a nerd and i love steampunk ok shut up thank you

The ship will never change in the chapters i think because im too lazy to alter the design uhm. Do you think im a designer. Look at this. What the fuck is this. WHY DOES EVERYTHING HAVE RANDOM GEARS AND CLOCKS IS THIS ALL I VIEW OF STEAMPUNK WHAT

So yes thats all. What. I was expecting more. No genuinely. I made like 5 drawings and more for this is this even a masterpost at this point

I SWEAR I FORGOT 10 THINGS I WAS SUPPOSED TO SAY HERE...

Im so sorry you guys please send asks my way if you have any questions im such a dumbass i cant remember shit

Anyways here's the fic where ill probably post more chapters of?? Probably?? No promises??

CHAPTER 1 SPOILERZZ!!

Hehe. I was so lazy. Oh my god. This looked horrible. Whatever. You don't know how much ive postponed posting this it is currently 1 am i shouldve been asleep at 11 pm holy shit no no no no

WHATEVER. GAY PEOPLE. BOOM ANYTHING FOR GAY PEOPLE. TAKE MY SLEEP SCHEDULE. MY ANYTHING. LOOK AT THEM. ROTATES THEM.

Anyways ooOOooOH pirate luke?! At the. At the end of the fic!? Wowie!! Anyways goodnight im gonna wake up and realize everything has dissolved into salt thank you

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uglypastels · 2 years

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Twilight AU

a/n - Here is a little Twilight au headcanon blurby thing I wrote once with vampire!Eddie. Didn't plan to post it but @peetahpahkah convinced me, so here ya go.

Word count: idk i wrote this in the notes app.

Warnings: none? Tension. Vampire!au and twilight

[Timeline wise, I think it would be the most fun if it was post events of s4, but that it would not be canonically eddie's timeline, so maybe he was a first time senior in s4. Now it's 2 years later and he's in his 3rd attempt at graduating. This will lead to same inconsistencies with the canon but just... work with me here.]

The first day at school

• So you move to Hawkins to move in with one of your divorced parents. And its a big adjustment, moving from a big city to Middle-of-Nowhere, Indiana. But it seems nice enough?

• At school, a girl named Chrissy Cunningham, a senior herself as well, shows you around the school. She's extremely sweet and very helpful.

• At lunch time, she tries to give you the overlook of everyone at school (thats where x sits, thats y's table, etc.) When he walks in.

• You notice him immediately, how could you not. A stark contrast to literally anybody there, his big smile absolutely captivating. Beautiful, and yet- you noticed how everybody glared at him. Quick glances, as if they had a lot to say about the guy, but were too scared to actually say it.

• So you ask Chrissy, watching him make his way to a table, also noticing the people around him, all wearing matching "hellfire club" tshirts, whatever that meant.

• Chrissy is a bit apprehensive. "Oh, that's uhm, that's Eddie Munson." And she goes on to explain how he's the leader of the DnD club, bit of a scary guy actually, dangerous even. "He was absolutely fine at first. I talked to him once in sophomore year, he was already a senior then and uhmm- yeah, but then over that spring break, i dont know, something changed. He came back and was like, totally different."

• "Different how?"

• "I cant really explain it" and thats that on the conversation, but something told you that chrissy's initial meeting with eddie had left a mark on her, for she couldn't stop looking over in his direction. [a/n - basically, she is 2 years younger but just has a one sided crush, no big deal, and now she's 18 anyway so who cares.]

• You cant blame Chrissy though, as you cant keep your eyes off him either. Its like a magnetic force that pulls you to him. And then when he catches your gaze, across the dining hall but you could tell he was looking at you- his eyes practically locked woth yours- your blood ran cold.

• The period after lunch, you get a bit lost (new confusing building and all), but manage to walk into the classroom and are a bit stunned to see the only empty seat was next to eddie's. Having no choice, you sit next to him. His initial reaction is polite, a kind enoigh smile, but for the rest of the class that quickly seemed to change as all your efforts at small talk had gone to complete waste. And once the bell rings, he's very quick to walk out, not even caring to say "bye".

The confrontation

• After some critical thinking and searching in the library, you confront him in the woods, next to the picnic benches. He's a bit cocky, saying how you don't know anything, dont understand what youre talking about.

• "[Insert some vampire lore you seem fit]"

• "You seem so sure of what you want to say, sweetheart, so just spill it out then" he walks up to you, and even though you dont want to be scared of him, there is some kind of danger in his eyes that makes you backtrack your steps. He leads you up to a tree, locking you in between it and his cold body.

• Your voice is shaky. "You- you're a"

• "Say it." He's smiling through it all, making it so much more intimidating.

• "A vampire"

• "Oh, y/n" his voice is delicate, almost as if he felt sorry for you. His hand traces over the bare skin of your forearm, and its what he's looking at before looking back up at you. Eyes that were usually a honey gold brown now dark. Blacker than the coldest night. "If you only knew...you would wish you were right."

• He leans in and your instincts tell you to shut your eyes, not sure what to expect.

• But nothing happens.

• When you open your eyes again, your heart is beating like crazy, you feel weak and confused, but Eddie Munson is nowhere to be seen.

#eddie munson #eddie munson fanfiction #eddie munson fic #eddie munson x reader #eddie munson x y/n #eddie munson angst?#twilight au #vampire!eddie

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temporarymoods · 11 days

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mwah

scatch what i said on that last post. idk her. im CHILLINGGGGG!!!

MarMon today: yes I celebrated. you gotta. duh. Patriot's Day-- a Mass thing!? Hilarious.

We went to the race and yelled and screamed and cheered on at various points. Walked a bunch. Got sunburnt in that shallow way, but my nose is pink. It was pretty emotional! So proud of everyone. Kept thinking that this is kind of one of the best things humanity can do. Anyway-- B)

Got sambas, lmfao?! Trying to look like a boy. Followed by some really good pasta. and then trying to look like a girl. i went to a frat! for the first time! i got champagne on my sambas. christened. the person who clocked me as queer at the party said "christened" after i had minutes prior. yeah. a good thing

- - i know the gender thing of it is ridiculous but for some reason my soft complicated body craves that sexual weirdness between men and women and particularly these young men and women in that..disgusting atmosphere. a disgusting atmosphere. really hungry for that generalization.. it's true. im really attracted to men

other than that^ being tough,

i went DANCINGGG!!!!!1!1!11!!11!!

and I LOVED IT SO MUCH!!!!111!1

What a GREAT night!!! i can't put into words how amazing i feel even though that is why i came here...shucks. has the moment past? did i spend too much time on the queue?

My foot is sore as I type this. I came home so inspired and read up on country swing vs other kinds (I knew jazz swing was the thing, and swing dancin aint line dancin !) then i listened to a lot of good music:

Slow Dancing - Aly & AJ * total classic for me lmao. damn they have the best spotify top 5

Let's Get Married - Bill Elliot Swing Orchestra * when i didn't yet understand that i had to look up **country** swing music. now i know ;) god i cant wait to go again

-- what is it?! i think its that i really love to dance, to move my body, to try and get it right, to improve? to be good? to have fun in a choreographed way. to conform. the do the correct thing. idk

here's what i think its really about: i think i like smootheness. and i like the click of a phenomenon you can't pull a word for. and short counts. and intention. and shape. mostly shape. beat, sure, too. i like beat. i like rising to it, and not tiring. i dont know how i get so obsessed. i need to go back. that was exactly what ive been looking for for months, and what i thought i found but only got in part in the club, which i go to for the dancing, the loud music, the blindingness. but i dont contribute there. my ears are filled but the sound can only vibrate me a little. im not, swung, literally. and i cant provide energy to the space like you can witcha boots awn. so yeah, i think thats really it. dancing. i fucking love dancing. ive always fucking loved dancing. for real! really! i never got that good, yeah. but i fucking loved it thats for sure. i always wanted someone to actually teach me shit. they didnt do that enough in theatre. maybe they did. maybe i just wasnt that talented. not now though. dead. fucking. ass. just input my entire work calendar that i have access to because this shits getting real my life is mine and theres fan fucking tastic things to be doing with it.

alright...i could continue...i'll pick up the rest in my dairy ;* not gonna get too personal, phew. uhm. eh hem.

That Don't Impress Me Much - Shania Twain

Tequila - Dan + Shay

End of Beginning - Djo * lmao i got on this because i saw some interview w him online as im jamminggugghh i got sucked in. then all this happened:

Change - Djo * so much better than the one blowin up btw

Sweet Dreams (Are Made of This) - Eurythmics, etc * i looked up more songs like Change :| hahaha. then all this happened:

Lifetime - Yves Tumor

Pop Song - Perfume Genius

Here Comes the Rain Again - Eurythmics, etc

Here Comes Your Man - Pixies

Eye in the Wall - Perfume Genius

Boys - Amen Dunes * at this point my original mission is fucked. the intention's gone. i'm so far from where i started: country lovin

at the same time the joint i rolled before we went out and shared on the way home is getting its way through my system for sure. its approaching 2am, woah! full day tomorrow but not nearly as inspired at this one. this one's literally how you're supposed to live . well maybe beer not getting stolen at the bar mmmm. mhm. yeah i'll tack that on as well.

i didnt, dont, want to let go of tonight skrrreorgihveouhv!!!! uuuummm! yeah i should keep thinking about it. : ) : ) hehehehehe

Man! I Feel Like a Woman! - Shania Twain

<3 , so much ;)

Kate

#AAAAHAHAHAHA #YKTR #name of the blog bitch #cuntcuntcuntcunt

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inutaffy · 1 year

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“you’ve always been jealous of me!”

“maybe that’s bc you were always splinters favorite!”

“raph. i love you bro.”

DO YOU SEE. DO YOU SEE. THE DUCKCIJF SHIFT IN TBEIR EXPRESSIONS MAN TBE FJCKFGMOFYHEFNEN GHE WAY. THATS HIS BROTHER MAN THATS HIS FUCKFJFG. OUGH. I HATE THIS STUPID SHOW WHAG THE ACTUAL FUCK. THE. THE. “JEALOUS?!” SO MUCH OF HIS EMOTIONS TRANSLATE TO ANGER OR JEALOUSY TOWARDS OTHERS AND IT DRIVES ME FUCKINF CRAZY. MAYBE IT WAS AT FIRST (aka beginning of s1) BUT IT ISNT NOW AND THATS FHE WHOLE POINT THAGS THE WHOLE DUCKIJF POINT. HE ISNT JUST JEALOUS AND AND ANGRY ALL THE TIME FOR SHITS AND GIGGLES BRO IS JUST 16 AND WATCHING HIS WHOLE PLANET GET DESTROYED. BRO IS 16 WATCHING HIS FATHER MURDERED IN FRONT OF HIM. BRO IS 16 AND WATCHING WHILE HIS OLDER BROTHER BASICALLY BECOMES AN ENTIRELY DIFFERENT PERSON RIGHT BEFORE HIS FUCKING EYES, PICKING UP EVERY BURDEN EVER AND JUST SOLDIERING ON LIKE THIS IS SO FUCKIJF AWFUL.

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

ANYWAYS.

SO YEAH MAYBE HE DOES WISH HE WAS LEADER IF ONLY SO IT MEANT LEO DIDNT HAVE TO BE. IF ONLY SO LEO COULD BE LEO FOR A MINUTE BC YOU KNOW WHAG RAPH IS???? RAPH IS GUILTY. RAPH FEELS SO FUCKING GUILTY ALL THE DUCKIJF TIME AND I DOMT HAVE THE ABILITY TO GO INTO THAT RIGHT NOW SO YOURE JUST GONNA HAVE TO TRUST ME. TRUST ME ON TBIS I AM RIGHT ABOUT THIS. I CANT DUCKIJG STAND FBIS SHOW.

AND TBH I DONT BLAME RAPH. LIKE IF MYYYYY OLDER BROTHER GOT PROMOTED ONE DAY AND STARTED TRYING TO PULL RANK ON ME I WOULD BE A BITCH ABOUT IT TOO. THE FUCK. MAKE ME ASSHOLE. YEAH. BUT ALSO. AS THE ELDEST DAUGHTER. AND JUST YK. AS ME. I AM ME. ANOTHER THING IS THAT LEO IS JUST. IMPRESSIONABLE? A LITTLE BIT? ESP IN THE EARLY SEASONS. WHICH MAN I CAN RELATE TO. BITCH FIXATED ON A TV SHOW AND MADE IT HIS WHOLE PERSONALITY WHICH I LOVE FOR HIM BUT GOTDAMN. LEO LITERALLY GOES INTO BATTLE IN S1 QUOTING HIS SPACE HEROES SHOW AND MAKING STUPID ONE LINERS AND TRYING TO BE ALL HEROIC BUT IT JUST COMES OFF AS DORKY AND I LOVE IT SO MUCH. IT MAKES ME SAD. HE’S FOLLOWING EXAMPLES AND HE WANTS TO IMPRESS AND HE WANTS TO DO GOOD OK HE WANTS TO GET A GOOD GRADE IN CHILD WHICH IS NORMAL TO WANT AND POSSIBLE TO ACHIVE LIKE LEO IDEALIZES SPLINTER THAT IS HIS DAD MAN HE STRIVES FOR HIS APPROVAL. I DONT CARE WHAT MY DAD HAS TO SAY MOST OF THE TIME BUT FAVING HIS DISSAPOINEMENT???? FUCKINF AWFUL.

AND THEN THE DUCKING KRAANG HAPPEN AND SPLINTER TELLS HIM TO PREPARE FOR LOSSES. PREPARE TO DO WHATEVER IT TAKES. AND HE REALIZES OH SHIT IS FR. UHM. OKAY. SO MAYBE THIS LEADING ISNT ALL I THOUGHT IT WOULD BE. AND HE EXPRESSES THIS. MULTIPLE TIMES. THROUGHOUT THE FIRST AND SEVOND SEASON. AND THEN BE JUST STOPS. BRINING IT UP ALL TOGETHER. HE JUST STOPS. LIKE. DUDE. DUDE. HE WANTED TO BE LEADER SO BAD AT FIRST AND THEN THE HORRORS CAME FOR HIM. HE WAS NOT READY. NOW DONT GET ME WRONG, LEOS IN GENERAL ARE FUCKIJG CRAZY MAN THEY CAN DO WHATEVER THE FUCK THEY WANT, LEO IS FULLY CAPABLE OF BEING THE LEADER HE JUST. HE WASNT FUCKING READY YET MAN. HE WAS 15. IM GONNA FUCKINF CRY.

NOT TO MENTION. IMMEDIATELY AFTER THAT. HE’S KINDA ELEVATED TO THIS PEDESTAL AND NOW HE’S DUCKINF STUCK THERE MAN. LEO KEEPS TRYING TO BE THEIR LEADER AND TO HIM, THAT MEANS HE HAS TO DO IT ALONE. HE’S THE LEADER. YES HE KNOWS THAT HIS BROTHERS WILL BE THERE FOR HIM HE KNOWS THAT HE ISNT ALONE BUT THAT DOESNT CHANGE THE FACT THAT AT THE END OF THE DAY HE IS THEIR LEADER AND HE HAS TO BE ABLE TO STAND ON HIS OWN AND THAT MENTALITY BLEEDS INTO EVERYTHING ELSE AND RAPH (and the others tbh. fuckijg everyone) JUST WANT THEIR FUCKING DORKY CRINGEFAIL LOSER BIG BROTHER BACK. DO YOU UNDERSTAND.

#damn #no blood #i need a medal for readinf all that and you need a medal for writing all ghat

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mikeyelistsukasa · 2 years

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hiii! could you make a sakura nanamine x reader were the reader is jelous please?

thank you so much!! ^^

Sure thing<3 usually I’ve heard sakura can’t leave the school but in this fanfic she can!(its for the angst sorry not sorry lol)

Sakura with a Jealous Darling

It was all an accident

You didn’t mean to snap at her

You just had a bad day

A really REALLY bad day

“SAKURA LOOK I BOUGHT YOU THE BOOK YOU REALLY WANTED”

“Oh s/o…thank you but natsuhiko-kun already got it for me yesterday”

“H-huh?”

“Sorry girl im just faster when it comes to my lady. She should’ve ended up wi-“

And there is goes a book hitting natsuhiko yet again

“Dont call me that”

“Welp that’s alright typical natsuhiko 😅 would you like to go out today maybe?”

“I can’t i have promised to tsukasa-kun that i will stay here to come up with new rumours”

“Yup yup!sorry s/o but i guess sakura chan can’t come to your lil date haha”

“Oh uhm yeah thats fine too…maybe tomorrow?”

“Can’t. Exams”

“…after the exams?”

“Hm yeah i might be free”

Hearing “might” from her sounded more like a no to you but you hoped she could come

“Alright i have to head off bye!”

Wow she didn’t even reply whats so great in that book she is reading-_-

It was very VERY lonely without your girlfriend and gosh if it weren’t for these two-…wait am i…jealous?

No this cant be…or is it

You were unsure so you just went to sleep

Days have passed and you were finally able to go on a date with sakura

You dressed up nicely and went on your way

You guys met up at a café

It was going great until she took out the book natsuhiko bought her

„So…how was your day so far?“

No reply

„Sakura?“

„Hm? Did you say anything dear?“

It felt like you are talking to a wall

„Ive asked how your day has been..can you please put the book down? It feels kinda awkward and hurtful as if you don’t wanna be here with me“

You kinda felt guilty saying that knowing she loves to read 24/7

But she did put it down anyway

„You are right my apologies s/o and about my day it w-„

Suddenly she heard her phone ring

It was natsuhiko

„God why him of all people“ you thought to yourself

Suddenly sakura stands up ready to leave

„W-wait where are you going?“

„Something happend at school and natsuhiko-kun told me that tsukasa-kun wants me to be there“

And before you could reply she was already outside of the cafe

All alone

You payed for your order and left

It went on and on

She was busy

Busy busy busy

First natsuhiko then tsukasa and then even mitsuba???

And not to mention how clingy tsukasa is…

You were deep in mind while sitting on the couch of the broadcasting room

That is until tsukasa came again hugging and licking sakura‘s ear

Thats when you snapped

„GOSH WILL YOU STOP THAT!?!?“

Suddenly all eyes are on you

Did you just say that out loud?

You ran right to the exit and into the girls bathroom

But little did you know someone chased after you

„Stupid natsuhiko. Stupid book.stupid tsukasa.stupid cafe. Stupid sa-…“

You just went quiet not even wanting to pronounce her name

„Stupid sakura?“

You hear a familiar voice

As you looked up it was sakura

„Sakura!!!….What are you doing here? Shouldn’t you be with „these“ boys“

She sat next to you

„S/o are you perhaps…jealous?“

„NO IM NOT…Maybe…so what if i am?!”

You raising your voice startled her a little

“You’ve treated ne like im not even there for the past weeks! Oh sorry! Natsuhiko already brought me this and that. Oh sorry! Tsukasa wants me to this and that. Oh sorry! I need to study for this and that. And OH SORRY for abandoning you at the caf-“

You felt her hugging you out of nowhere

“You’re right…i am sorry. But that doesn’t really make it up”

You decided to stay quiet

“This might still not make it up but.”

You looked just to see her holding two tickets to a movie

Wait that movie…!

“Would you maybe have time to watch the new______ movie with me? You did wanted to watch it so i thought-“

You suddenly hugged her tightly almost causing you two to fall

“SAKURAAAAAA IM SORRRYYYYYY”

“It’s alright don’t worry i understand you didn’t mean to snap”

You guys stayed in that position for a while enjoying eachothers presence

“So…are we gonna watch th-“

“YESYESYESSSSS”

Hope i left you satisfied! Please visit again!!!

#tbhk x reader #x reader #tbhk x y/n #jshk x reader #tbhk sakura #jshk sakura #sakura x reader #tbhk sakura x reader

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tomwaterbabies · 2 years

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experiencing every possible pinocchio adaption i can part three

part two - part one

7. Le avventure di Pinocchio (1972)

uhm so basically this is one of the most torturous films i've ever sat through. pinocchio is turned into a human immediately and then changes between forms throughout the movie. it was said he turns back into a puppet when he is Naughty but in reality they just did it like. whenever. also the editing of this movie is so jarring like the cuts are so sudden and scenes are SO LONG. pinocchio himself is the worst one yet. foul foul child. usually the others are still unlikeable assholes at worst but are still obviously just stupid kids. this one seems to fully be aware of what he's doing and doesn't care. manipulative even. AND ANOTHER THING. even with the really bad movies gepetto is usually still a likeable/sympathetic character. this gepetto sucks. he is the worst. multiple times it seems like he's only looking for pinocchio because he feels obligated to instead of just loving his son- this gepetto doesnt even seem to like him all that much at points. -1/10 horrid beast not gay and not trans

8. Pinocchio 3000 (2004)

ok well this movie fucking sucked but i also dont know how to compare it as a pinocchio adaption bc its so. not that. this isnt complaining about inaccuracies to the story (disney's pinocchio is by far the most inaccurate to the book and also 100% the best one still). this just literally has nothing to do with pinocchio aside from naming him that (which makes no sense btw bc it means "pine eye" bc he was a WOODEN PUPPET), him wanting to be human, and his nose growing when he lies. the most frustrating thing about this is it presents concepts i LOVE (various flavors of Robot Angst) in just. the worst way possible. why was that shit in here. im so mad. also his love interest?? was super fucking robot racist LMAO and she like. never really changed that much. every character in here kinda sucked. also this movie is so ugly. how dare they make a bad robot movie. of a robot child no less!! 0/10 obviously not gay obviously not trans

9. Pinocchio (2002)

yeah. there's not a single child actor in this which is baffling. this pinocchio is of course very bad to look at he's a weird ugly adult with a bad personality. admittedly i cant judge it totally fairly bc once again this was one that had NO subtitles so i had to just gather what was happening in italian. it follows the book pretty closely though. it wasnt the worst one, and at times it was so insanely weird that it was funny to watch. the music was pretty good too lol. there was something weird going on with him and lampwick (thats not his name in this but i cant recall what it was. he's being referred to as "CW lampwick" bc they hired like some pretty boy ginger twink to play him in this. compltely bizzarre). anyways 4/10 not a gay and trans pinocchio but something lgbt was happening i think

#pinocchio #the pinocchio experience #text

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bmpmp3 · 1 year

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please god talk about the orientalism i want to read that so bad

.... but im shy <:3 (JK JK lol but for real just as a heads up im a foolish undergrad who just has a really strong interest in orientalism in regards to art history and media analysis so take everything i say with a gallon of salt jfdklffsds)

so as a heads up for anyone who's not familiar with orientalism, its a concept referring to like, the colonial idea of an exoticised, mysterious "east" fabricated for a western gaze. originally from a textbook from the 70s that was focusing on middle eastern cultures, although because of the amalgamated nature of these fictionalised "east"s it nowadays has a lot of use when discussing perceptions of basically all of asia, southern western easten southeast etc, plus some south american and caribbean and other island cultures get caught in it too. i do think its kind of interesting as a racial and cultural form of criticism because it has little to do with the cultures being depicted and everything to do with the cultures doing the depiction, like its often less about appropriation than it is about deliberate othering, if that makes sense? sometimes when im talking casually (like i am now) i end up defining it as "when french painters in the 1800s got really horny about brown people and then got mad about it". sorry if any fully degreed art history scholars are following me that im like this.

ANYWAY i got particularly fascinated with how brown characters (often specifically indian and caribbean because thats part of my own background but like i said before. we're all in this together LOL) are depicted in romance stories since i play too many romance games and read too many romance comics and specifically recently ive been paying a lot of attention to the coding of orientalist-amalgam-of-like-five-different-south-and-west-asian-countries = mysterious. most of the time these romance stories usually just have one single vaguely brown mysterious prince of far-off-landia with no brown women characters (or if they are there they're either evil masterminds or treated like silent accessories so uhm. yeah).

I DONT have much a thesis statement about all this yet outside of what anyone else can tell you about orientalist depictions of cultures and the harms it inflicts, im mostly just keeping track of it all on my own and attempting to trace influences? if that makes sense? sometimes we in north america get a bit of a boom of specific orientalist tropes and ive always been really interested in tracking storytelling trends lol right now i have a very unprofessional and unresearched theory that old timey british adventure literature tropes of vaguely brown fantasy prince characters getting combined with various cultures colourisms (thats also another interesting thing about orientalism, any culture can depict another culture in an orientalist way even if they are a country that's often the victim of orientalism themselves since its about the gaze, like the western gaze of it all, if that makes sense? thats how we have some old bollywood movies with vague orientalist depictions of like three east asian countries amalgamated together into one character and then we have 1000000 sorta middle eastern sorta south asian (maybe a bit of hawaiian or another wildcard thrown in) vaguely brown mysterious princely anime boys in a bunch of comics and games from japan)

its also a little interesting because as someone who is probably best described irl as "sorta ambiguously brown ish question mark" (in a unique position as a mixed person who tends to get assumed to be anything but what i actually am LOL) i cant help but be a little attached to all my ambiguously brown brothers and sisters even if they're conceptualised as orientalist stereotypes in the stories theyre in. gently picks up every mysterious ambiguously brown guy from every otome game and carefully puts him safe and sound in my pocket. hes my guy now LOL i will protect them from their sloppy writing....

ive noticed that within a lot of family members too, getting really attached to vaguely brown characters over specifically brown ones, it might be a west indian immigrant/children of west indian immigrants urge since its not often that specific culture is depicted in a lot of wacky genre fiction that my family tends to like, like scifi and mystery? or maybe my extended family is weird who knows LOL

i dunno, i just really love thinking and analyzing things like this, even in stories i love!! it sometimes can be hard to explain to people but for me thinking critically about fiction isnt like a chore that needs to be done, its something i actively like doing! talking about the good things, the bad things, the harmful things, its all very interesting!!!! for me lol i guess thats why im majoring in stuff like art history orz

also sorry about the word vomit!! i got a lot of thoughts and not much brain to keep em in qwq

#ask #grabs you by the shoulders BY THE WAY what is the DEAL with AMBIGUOUS BROWN GUYS NAMED ZERO #is like three or four enough to consider that a trend or is my pattern recognition going in overdrive #and where on earth did that trend come from #maybe i should change my name to zero #add another to the pile

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niikarou · 2 years

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Written — bxb / BL

Chapter one : To do list

You wake up and you see its 6:30 in the morning. "Gah. Why do I wake up this early in the morning?" you mutter. " *Scoffs* I cant even sleep now. Whatever." You were about to get out of bed when you randomly glanced at your clock. "Today's gonna be a long day...Again". You finally get out of bed and make breakfast, as your dad is sleeping soundly in his room. "Doesn't he have work?" you wondered. You ignored your curiosity and continued on with your day. Fast forward, you're dressed up in your school uniform. You pick up your bag with all your things in it. "Should I check if my things in here are complete? I've literally checked it so many times last night, and even today since I have to pack my lunch inside of my bag...Agh whatever." You wear your backpack and picked up your phone and earphones. You finally walk outside of your house and took a walk to the nearest bus station. Nothing weird or eventful happeing that morning.. Yet.

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In the bus

You sat down in the middle row of the bus, where no one is sitting so it's perfect for a loner like you. As you sat down you place down your bag beside you, so you can avoid people sitting next to you. As if you're saving a seat for a friend. But you have no friends, do you? That thought made you sigh. Anyway, you pull out your earphones and your phone to listen to music along the way to school. Then you hear the bus stop all of a sudden, you turn your head towards the door to see who would stop it; They're probably just catching up. You see a tall boy, who has the same uniform as you. He walks up to you and smiles, "Is that seat taken?". He says with a bright tone. You couldn't resist and took your bag off of the chair. He sat down and turned to you, "Do I know you? You have the same uniform design as me, I think i might know you!.." He says awkwardly. "Uh-uhm yeah.. I noticed that too. I'm not the type of person who socializes much with others, so I don't think you've heard of me in my class before." you say in a quiet and nervous tone. "Ah! Okay then..." He says, turning his head away from you. Silence between you and him was very loud. He turns his head again, towards you. And glances at your hair for a solid 2 minutes. "My name's Lee Suhyeok, and you?" he says confidently. Thoughts rush into your mind. Lee Suhyeok? THEE LEE SUHYEOK? The one who bullied you back then in kinder to grade 2????( p/r note: Suhyeok moved to another school after the end of the SY of GR 2, hope that made sense lmfao) That.. Cant be. You shouldn't assume things. "Hello? Oh. Sorry I forgot you're not good at socializing with others.. Thats fine totally." Suhyeok says trying to catch your attention. Shit. I forgot he was talking to me. "My name's K-Kim Weojin" he turns to look back at me and smiles. "Hi Weonjin. Thats a familiar name, though its a cool one." he says while smiling at you. You couldn't help but smile at him too. God, he has such a beautiful smile...

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At school

You entered school early, it was 6:45. The usual. You walk up to your classroom, open the door and see your school president. Chun noongyu. Or Yuno for short. She's quiet, and she's also your seatmate. She's very smart and is the top one in your class. You walk up to your desk and sat down, you gently place your bag on the ground and grab your notebook and pen. You torn one page for you to make a "to-do list". You were still listening to kpop, which makes you feel better. You started writing down a "to-do list". Things you want to do later in the future, things you need to do now for school or whatever, etc. 15 minutes later, your classmates start to arrive the classroom. Most of them came in groups.. Good for them. They have friends. You were finishing up with your to-do list, and as you finished the teacher walked in. You had to place the paper inside of your bag or else the teacher would see it.

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After school, in the school yard

You were sitting alone in the school yard. School was finished, students were already going home. Why were you in the yard sitting alone, though? Well your father was supposed to pick you up because he promised that last..last..last week. Its been weeks since he's been saying that he would pick me up so we can eat sushi together in my favorite restaurant. I guess his business got in the way. "You waiting for someone ya dipshit?" a girl shouts at you from afar. You look around and see that she was running towards you, down the stairs. She then sat down right next to you. "Hey, kid! The name's Minho, or just call me noona." (p/r notes : " noona " in korean means older sister, or a female who's older than you. Koreans use it to show respect towards an older young female.) She smiles at you proudly. "Sooo.. You're the gay kid huh?" she immediately spits out with curiosity. You turned away and looked down, staring at the floor. "Oh. Sorry if you think im one of those people who are disgusted by ya.. I'd just want a gay friend ya know?" she says with full confidence. Wow. What did she mean by "one of those people?" thoughts similar to those start to rush in your head. "I'm not gay. Whatever rumors you've heard about me aren't true. Fuck that." Mijin looks at you straight in the eye "I'm not an asshole ya lil' shit. Im sorry for assuming.. Anyway you still sound like a nice kid to hangout with! Willing to be friends?" She smiles. "Ok. Sure." you replied, with a mix of coldness and a bit of anger. Mijin then cheered and hugged you, she then says "See ya tomorrow then! I'll make sure that I'll eat lunch with ya!" she sprints towards the exit gate. While i gaze at my to-do list...

Made friends? Check..

...

You glance at your to-do list and smile. (Woah.. I made a friend.. That feels nice..) You get up and shove your list in the pocket of your bag Not knowing your to-do list fell on the stairs.

.......

Suhyeok was right around the corner, he saw Weojin running towards the gate. He saw a piece of paper lying from afar, he wanted to pick it up and so he did. He noticed it was Weojin's, and he thought about giving it back to him but he's gone. He went home..

"Whats this? Weonjin-ah's to-do list? He's really interesting... He was with a girl just now. Has he found himself a girlfriend? Oh."

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End of chapter one : To do list

#bxblove #bxb #boy love #korea #fictional #enemies to lovers trope #mxm #LGBT #LGBTQ+#LGBTQ #lgbt

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almightycrisprat · 1 month

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FAVOURITE CHARACTER!?!?!! (VERY IMPORTANT)

erm erm i cant choose 😭😭 i love edgeworth, sebastian, trucy (in aa4, in aa5 she sucks imo), apollo, phoenix in his beanix era, ema skye in all her eras (her style is so silly) KLAVIER I LOVE KLAVIER TOO HES SO SILLY and ig athenas fine but she wouldnt be among my favourites. so yeah uhm thats my list of favs :D

oh yeah forgot to mention i havent played aa6, plvspw or tgaa so i purely know the characters from fanart and stuff which can sometimes be inaccurate so im not giving my judgement on those yet

#the ace attorney brainrot is real

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I got so excited when I saw you updated Weak Spot that I actually almost puked while in the middle of reading 👍👍. Sorry I cant express how much I adore your work but you make really really really good stuff. Thats 3 reallys cuz I mean it a lot. Legitimately life changing I think I might even use the reader character and donnie as a reference point on how to approach communication better in the future, like, in general, not just in romantic relationships.

I think you're one of the very few long fic writers who my frustratingly impatient and short-attentioned brain was actually willing go wait for on every chapter, I've never read a fic that gripped me by the neck this strongly since I've left the Undertale fandom. Weak spot is just that good and I think I'll crave everything you have to provide as long as you're willing to share them with us readers.

Oh yeah and also as young adult I really look up to you btw, in general because I like the bright yet tempered energy you show through your posts and also I think your work ethic is admirable and the fact that you're very literate in the way you respond to ask as well (kind of expected since you're a seasoned writer after all, of course youre very literate), and also, as someone who's attempting to actually down my fic ideas and day dreams, I've recently been trying to look just a bit closer on your work and how you approach descriptions and dialogue and learn better that way, kind of like how artists do master studies and observe and attempt to replicate experienced artist's techniques, quirks and art style to apply to their own work as well. Currently I'm trying to figure out how to incorporate that use of metaphors you do often to sort of indirectly and almost abstractly describe what someone is going through, like in this week's chapter 56 where Donnie's self exploration is described as a journey with Reader simply accompanying them to a certain point. This is my favorite part in each chapters you write and I know there's a term for this technique but that might distract me from my train of thought so uhm. Make of that as you will I suppose.

I especially love how maturity really shines through your work and I love how slow and almost inconsequential/very normal (yet tremendously intimate) their daily life as a couple and honestly, in a lot of romance books I see I dont think they highlight that part enough and I'm so glad you let the readers breathe between chapters while still being able to build up tension when something bigs about to happen. I'm assuming (though I am pretty sure) that this is probably born from years and years of writing considering this is a type of writing paired with that mature energy I was picking up is something I could rarely find in the fics (or books in general) made by teens and people my age, and thats pretty incredible. I've never seen characters treated so very clearly lovingly before and whenever I compare my current work as of now it feels like playing in a kiddie pool then being met with the experience of looking on into the deep blue waters from the white beach then deciding to run to the sea to see the near-immortal multi-colored corals and all the beautiful thriving life underneath the waves. Its exhilarating really. Theres a depth in your work that makes it feel alive and almost timeless which I'm extremely motivated to achieve basically. Considering you've never let on or at least hinted that you're a professional writer irl or anything like that at all, and the fact that you somewhat implied you write because of passion is incredible because that means (this is all assumption of course) that you've likely been doing this stuff for years for free out of love and (likely) for yourself which is. Actually crazy honestly, as someone whos very prone to giving up even if I'm passionate about my work.

Okay, wait, this is getting too long, whoopsie.

I kinda want to say more but unfortunately I dont have the energy to type everything down since my mushy emotions about the fic are hard to pin down enough to make a coherent description right now. Ah and sorry if this ask gets a bit incoherent at times, english is my 2nd language and I'm also not very good at spelling either 😅.

But yeah.

Thank you for taking the time to make each chapter a wonderful, awe inspiring experience Miss Dork, you're a fantastic writer and I'm hoping I'll be able to see more of your fics/works in the future, even if its not in the Rottmnt fandom.

-K.M

First off KM, you are SO FREAKING SWEET!!! WHAT A TREAT IT WAS TO READ ALL THIS!!! YOU ARE TRULY DARLING AND I CANNOT THANK YOU ENOUGH!!!!

Ah no puke!! Was this chapter nerve wracking?? When I write I get a little removed so I don't really know sometimes what emotions it might illicit...

Life changing? Ahhh! 💞 They always say communication is key to a relationship and sometimes when people harp on something it's absolutely because it's true! A big part of Weak Spot is I wanted to challenge myself that the relationship itself was never a point of contention. These two loved each other right off the bat and them being together was never going to be something contested. Now everything around them happens to be an on and off dumpster fire, but c'est fiction~

Wah!!! I'm truly so honored by everyone who seems to wait on pin and poodles for my writing! I am constantly in awe that you all want to read my silly indulgent story!

You look up to me? I'm going to cry for real. No like, no joke, reading this actually is making me a bit choked up! 😭💞 I'd love to dive into my experience if it might help. I would not shun being called an experienced writer as it's something I've done on and off for almost two decades, but I only began writing seriously (read hyperfixiating) since 2019. Since I have zero chill, I sort of speed ran the writing process, but that's not what I attribute to my media literacy. I don't know if I'd call myself a hypercritical person (some would call me that for sure), but I have always loved to examine the media I consume. I can absolutely turn my brain off and have a good time (I have a long love affair with 'bad movies'), but I also love thinking and love expanding. When it came to reading, I often trend toward fiction books that talk about peoples lives, Things Fall Apart by Chinua Achebe and Eva Luna by Isabel Allende come to mind, in addition to autobiographies such as Just Kids by Patti Smith. For visual media, my friends often like to joke that no one can pin down my style because I happen to like such a broad range of films. I think all movies are good in different ways, whether they are indie, autobiographical, fictional, magical, poignant, bro comedies, ect and so forth. You mentioned the recent chapter (56) with the field metaphor. I watched Lamb (2021) this past October and was picturing the large estate pictured Iceland when writing it.

I think studying others writing styles is good and I often do it to my peers. I've surely geeked out to both TheKingPen and desceros about their own writing styles and metaphors, the like, as you described of mine! I asked them probing questions on how they work because I was/am endlessly fascinated by their prose! We're all sponges, humans I mean, and I believe that our lives are pinball machines where we bounced wildly off one another. Only we are malleable creatures and with each ping, we take a little bit of that other person with us. Whether that be actual people or media consume, I consider that the same. We're tapestries to be woven as the Greeks said about fate and this fact isn't just romanticized, it's science as indicated by epigenetics!

The technique you're searching for sounds like one under the house of metaphor, maybe extended? 🤔

It's funny you call me mature because as soon as you said "slow and almost inconsequential/very normal (yet tremendously intimate) their daily life" I literally screamed and bounced as if my tail was wagging! Hello, you've tapped something Dork is feral about so prepare for another tangent:

I am OBSESSED with what I call banal dialog!!!

Now this is a point of contention with many of my movie friends, but I will die on this hill any day of the week. For this example, I'm going to take one of my favorites: Reservoir Dogs (1992)! Now do I like Reservoir Dogs? Honestly? Meh. I'll never forget their use of Steeler's Wheel, but that's not what's important here. What's important is the opening scene! We open on a seemingly innocuous and, to many, boring scene with eight gangster at a diner who aren't even talking about the heist. They're talking about other things and interacting with their food and the wait staff at the diner. Some think this scene is useless and doesn't do anything for the film and I will punch every one of those people in the face with my ferocity alone. That scene does EVERYTHING for the film. In fact is does the most heavy lifting out of most scenes in Hollywood. Sure, a monologue can do wonders or a silent following of a character through say their morning routine reveals a lot, but you know what really fucking reveals the most about a person? How they act in public!! The fact that Mr Pink doesn't tip isn't some fucking pseudo speak on tipping in America (though it could be) it's a jumping off point for you to know EVERYTHING about his character in one tiny itty bitty seemingly nothing display! We know he's staunch. We know he's steadfast. We know EVERYTHING we need to know about his personality and BONUS? Because he pushed back against the norm, every other character at the table (if they wanted) got a chance to voice their opionions so we got reads on all their personalities too. We see one many get easily swayed, we see another show his intelligence, we see yet another show the level of sympathy he has. All these things end up dictating how the heist in the movie actually goes and why and it all came from a few paltry minutes at the beginning of the film where they ate breakfast!

UNF JUST TALKING ABOUT IT HAS MY HEART AFLUTTER!

Now the most lethal Reservoir Dogs for this purpose (btw fuck Quentin Tarantino) because it is WITH PURPOSE! You can't just be banal for nothing. You have to be banal for a reason. I've been pretty outspoken about it before, but I also don't believe films/movies/shows/ect should ever have scenes without purpose. Everything that's done should serve the plot! Banal moments SERVE PLOT and I think it's a very underutilized concept.

Honorable mention to Hayao Miyazaki and his art of silence. I mentioned it above in following a character, but Miyazaki (and typically other Japense directors) know when to let scenes 'breathe' so to speak which does what banal dialog does in a literary sense. The breathing gives perspective for both the characters and the audience and I think is very much worth throwing into this conversation.

Also hey, look! You did a metaphor right there with your deep waters comparison. I could see it though I would totally disagree with your kiddie pool reference to yourself. You will never be me and i will never be you. Your work has just a right to exist as any other and who knows, I might have read it if you've put it out! I might recommend it to other people! I'm a big fan of many works, whether they're 'good or not' (whatever that means) that doesn't mean they don't have place! There are fics I've read that story wise or say writing wise are a TOTAL MESS and I love them regardless because maybe their character portrayal was flawless or their idea was just so good I loved that they were creative enough to share it!

Plus and I don't mean this is a braggadocios kinda way, but no one and I mean NO ONE should compare themselves to me. This is written in a derogatory sense: I am not a normal human being. One of my best friends asks me all the time "how are you still alive?" and my answer is "I DON'T KNOW MAN!" I am not someone to look up to or someone to emulate. I am just feral and hungry and no one in the this world, not even me, can get a handle on this leash.

That being said, I am so blown away by how you describe my work! Consider me shifted from choked up to misty eyed! I am not a professional writer by any means, but I'd love to turn my work into books. I just have no idea how to break into the market! I definitely do this all out of love (READ HYPERFIXATION!) and yeah for free (not discounting my pateron folks, I love you endlessly forever, but it ain't a living though it is IMMENSELY appreciated! Ya'll pay for the patreons I sub to and like a fast food meal once a month XD)

No apologies for the length! It was such a blast to get this! Also you did AMAZING! I was never confused once and your thoughts had a clear through line without being confusing in the slightest! Your English is impeccable!

Thank you for taking the time to read and write to me!!! Def got more fics coming (Valentine's fic, a aroace Mikey fic that also happens to be a Donnie x reader, and more weak spot and her sequel!)!

Feel free to hit up my DMs if you want to talk more! Thank you again!!!!

#ask

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if you still do wip weather asks then sleet, sun, clear skies, drought, volcanic eruption <3

Sleet - What's the most you've ever written in one sitting?

I honestly don't know, because when im in the zone(TM) i forget to even look at the word counter, but i believe at least 1k/1.5k words (it was like 1 am and i was writing smut, maybe thats how i got my motivation that time)

Sun - What's your favourite part of your WIP?

ohhh there are many. in bulletproof bandits, i absolutely love the part where russell and dylan meet frankie (i cant even take credit for that bc you wrote it, but yeah, its one of my fave moments) and when russell goes Beast Mode and becomes the joker (for everyone else who hasnt read bb, no i wont provide context). the entirety of chapter 7 is also pretty good for uhm reasons 👁️👁️

in the nikkixreader fic im currently writing however, my favourite part is uh... the smut i dont know if i have a favourite part (yet), i just like it all so far, i like how its progressing

Clear skies - How long have you been writing your current WIP?

I had the idea for Bulletproof Bandits back in high school, around 2017/2018 i believe, but my very first drafts are from january 18th, 2020. ive been working on it on and off ever since, then i started seriously writing and drawing it this january

the fic im writing though was started on may 2021 and i havent touched until a few weeks ago, when i remembered it existed

Drought - What do you do to help with Writer's block?

i usually take my mind off of the piece im writing by doing something else. go outside, listen to music that might have the vibe im looking for, waste time on tumblr, read!! i cant stress this enough, reading other fics or even books helps me a lot. smoking helps me think too (smoking is bad though, dont listen to me)

Volcanic Eruption - What's your biggest flaw as a writer?

I already answered this, but to think about it, i have something else to add: the fact that my writing style is a bit bland in some parts, or at least i'm afraid it is. i would never admit it, but im still very insecure about it bc i feel like it's not as recognizable as i'd like it to be? idk if you get me

[WIP weather ask game!!]

#witchy's ask booth #thank you arnold <3 this was a great distraction #now if youll excuse me i have a fic to write and if i dont put down at least another 300 words ill explode #literally. theres 17-year-old nikki (or frankie) pointing a gun to my head behind me

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Do you care to explain your feelings and opinions on flash (the series) I'm interested in your thoughts

Its SO bad. Listen to me the PACING.... Ok wait obviously spoilers but trust me you aint missing much

One episode is perhaps 30 minutes and they (at least season one, not that far in yet) introduce a new villain (meta human), give them a story, have to get them killed/imprisoned/made good WHILE the flash aka barry allen has his like family problems as in he has a crush on his STEP SISTER. and his dad is in prison because hes been (falsely) convincted of murdering his mom (so the dads wife) WHILE the STEP SISTER (iris is her name) is writing a blog about flash WHILE he is concealing his identity (btw his step dad joe knows about it)... Yeah yeah.... AND THE PACING. ITS SO BAD FISH..... BITING IT BITING IT

Noooww that WOULD be ok if it was not happening at once. Im sure that if it was done well you could show how much responsibility flash has and like hoe hes overwhelmed and stuff... BUT IT ISNT DONE LIKE THAT.

ALSO the flash has a little theme (obviously) and it takes up about SEVENTY PERCENT OF THE EPISODE. AND ITS ALWAYS IN THE FOREGROUND. WHYYYY

Now let me give you a basic idea of what most (incredibly influenced by season one) episodes look like: A GUY IN A CAR!! A GUY ROBBING SOMETHING!! The police is trying to stop him... WHATS THIS?! HE CAN CONTROL/MODIFY _??? NOOOO!! now normal barry allen forensic chemist and his detective step dad joe enter the scene.... He KNOWS something is off.... Omg he SEES THE GUY. he runs to STARLABS!! where cisco caitlin and wells wait.... He tells them about the meta human (people affected by the reactor explosion IN STAR LABS) and then barry is like I GOTTA STOP THIS GUY!! AND SAVE LIFES. He runs up to the guy, gets his ass beat, tuns to starlabs to complain like waaahh i cannot POSSIBLY beat this guy.... AND THEN THE TRIO FEEDS HIM LIKE AN EASY SOLUTION. HE GETS A MOTIVATIONAL SPEECH BY JOE.... AND THE HE RUNS OFF AND BEATS THE GUY.... (during this btw he like has funny nerd storylines! Omg hes always late how FUNNY he cant get a DATE)

Thats the entire first season fish. I hate it. (affectionally)

Now.... This is all ok and alright.... Yeah? I mean typical shitty american series we GET IT.

Now i have to tell you about the worst part (so far) of this series..... THEY SHOW WELLS AS THE BAD GUY IN THE FIRST EPISODE. BRO. BRO. BRO. THE ENTIRE STORY IS THAT WELLS IS FROM THE FUTURE. HES A FUTURE FLASH. HE GOT MAD AND CRAZY AND WANTED TO LIKE BE THE BEST FLASH OR STH SO HE MURDERED SOME PEOPLE IN HIS TIMELINE. WENT BACK. KILLED BARRYS MOM. AND THEN WANTS TO DAMAGE BARRY. AND ITS THIS HUUUUGGGERE THING RIGHT. AND THEY SHOW HIM AS A TIMETRAVELER AND EVIL GUY IN THE FIRST EPISSOOOODEEE AGRGHGRHHDH!! &! &! '! #! _? &?? -? &

Anyways.... The characters are annoying and not fleshed out.... Its always the same as in the same 3 attributes (50% of the characters are NERDS and i garantee you every 2 episodes theres a "uhm.... In english please?" joke) but thats OK. Iris is annoying though...

Howeveerrrr..... Its fun.... Its quirky....... Ive only rewatched a but of season 1 and theres EIGHT.... So maybe i will post an update when im done

Conclusion (feelings and emotions): anticipation, anger, frustration, fondness, hate

(multiple times i started clawing my ipad because i was so devastated by the bad writing, think i started crying at one point because it was so bad)

ALSO not enough gayage. Like too much heteronormativity.....Boo boo tomato

#ask #Fish <333 #Tysm for asking #Got absolutely wrecked in multiversus while writing this 😭😭😭

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