#i truly dont know how that happened

[arcaneworms]

a collection of CR memes - pt. 1

#critical role fanart #critical role #the mighty nein #vox machina #bells hells #surprisingly FCG and ashton were the easiest to draw #i truly dont know how that happened

[spacedlexi]

its my birthday who wants some KISSIES!!!

#this is a little old atp but im posting it as a treat enjoy everybody #thinking about how relaxed and comfortable in their relationship they would be after 10 years 😭 im normal im normal #like the last ep of S4 but cranked up to 100......im normal im normal!!! #all the shit clem has done and had happened to her and now she just gets to chill and kiss her gf?? truly she has achieved peace #yeah theyre making out under the minnie heart WHAT ABOUT IT theyve carved their own somewhere else dont worry #sorry but i love twisting the minnie knife whenever i can :) #obviously violets feelings about it are completely different now but ya know... Memories... #the walking dead game #twdg #violentine #clementine twdg #violet twdg #twdg post game #spaced art 2024

[lunarharp]

being attached to that moment qifrey held a baby one time and my ideas for the future :)

#witch hat tag #orufrey #brief small post before i return to Real and Emotional things again...but tbh...this makes me feel real emotions too #i think the manga will end up with a epilogue chapter showcasing little things in the girls' future and orufrey holding hands or kissing... #to like Indicate things. if it doesn't happen beforehand. #But. Who. Knows. also then i suddenly started thinking about them raising a baby for ages today because of how narratively poignant it'd be #for things to end that way after having raised almost-daughters all those years. and how healing it could be for qifrey and etc. #thing i said on twt: girls visit so often that the kid's first words are Professor Olly #“deja vu.. i'm not your professor kid - i'm your father!” #sorry but they are literally a gay couple where one truly is like The Mom and one truly is The Dad. to me #i think a housewifey homemaker type lifestyle would make qifrey happy. be harder now that he's disabled - well that's why he has his man. #i dont normally care about stuff like fankids or whatever..characters becoming parents for real..but like..Come on #This is the couple to think about this with.....they already ARE parents..i want them to be happy for eternity #once all the horrors are over we have to make it there.....children are so precious families are so precious.... #i have bad relationship with parents personally and haven't interacted with children in years. And yet i still know that. #the fact that orufrey fight for children to be safe and educated and happy...qif wants to help coustas too.. #aaaanyway today was a pretty weird and difficult day so i deserved to think about happy futures for a bit. i hear it's possible #btw i'm most sure about tetia becoming the princess of zozah. i think that will happen. and riche should have the ribbon tassel.

[kangals]

i think the main difference in personality so far between puppy-stellina and puppy-kepler is that kep has a lot more patience.

that brings a lot of positive qualities: he has better emotional control and is less prone to tantrums and outbursts than stellina was (i.e. if i have to stop for 10 seconds on a walk to pick up poo, stellina would yelp and pull and cry at being asked to stop). it also means he has better focus and is more forgiving of repetition in training - he doesn't give up nearly as easily when frustrated. and things that may startle or scare him he's more willing to try again or overcome (e.g. he slipped on my stairs and hurt his foot and didn't want to go back up the stairs for a few days, but eventually started trying again. and when butters slaps him he yelps and backs off, but still thinks she's Super Fun and tries to make friends). so he's a bit more methodical in his thinking.

but it does also bring some negatives too: because he has patience, he does not give up once he's decided something. if stellina was overtired and i put her in a crate, she'd fuss for a minute then pretty quickly go "hm alright then" and go to sleep. if i do the same to kep, he fights it and fights it because he doesn't want to be asleep and that's that. he's much more difficult to redirect or distract, and i have to be a lot more mindful of managing him because once he's decided something is fun or tasty or whatever it takes a lot to dissuade him, and he'll go back to it at the first chance. he's very slow to learn boundaries as a result - i have to do a lot more convincing than i'm used to.

they are still overall very similar personalities, especially as they're the same breed and from very similar lines, but i think so far this has been the biggest quality that i've needed to adjust to. puppy-stellina i had to do a lot of mental adjustments learning how to manage her short emotional threshold and sensitivity, so it's interesting to see what does and doesn't translate over to kep.

#i hesitate to use the word 'stubborn' for kep bc i truly dont think its willful 'oh youve told me no but i will do it anyway' #he just genuinely doesnt get the concept of 'please dont do that' #'dont do thing? but thing is fun. thing is for kep. kep will do. fun!' #the concept of 'i am not allowed to do this' or 'i should not do this' has never occured to him #like with house training: he knows that he gets praise and treats for going outside. he knows that this doesnt happen if he goes inside. #but the concept of 'i have to poop and am inside therefore i should instead go outside' hasnt clicked yet bc he will just always take- #-the first option (poop now) #same thing with sleeping (i do not want to sleep therefore i will Not) and biting stellina etc #its not bad! as mentioned theres a lot of positives it brings too. i just need to learn how to speak his specific language #and when youre bad at dog training it just takes a while lol

[chibi-scone]

Still can’t wrap my head around how Izzy shooting Ed was supposed to symbolize him “breaking up with Blackbeard” and have them go through that whole thing at the beginning of the season, to have Izzy be the one who tells Ed to follow what makes him happy, and have Izzy’s whole arc be about who he is without Blackbeard just for the finale to turn around and say that Izzy had to die because he was half of Blackbeard and that Ed couldn’t fully let go of Blackbeard otherwise.

#by all accounts it doesn't make sense #Izzy stopped caring about Blackbeard when he stopped following Ed’s orders and started going with the crew #when he told Ed he wouldn’t kill him #he had his figurative death when he tried to shoot himself and Blackbeard had his literal death when the crew killed him #when he’s fucking doing his whole speech saying that piracy isn’t about glory or fame it’s about the community it’s about the crew #the fact that they said that they just didn’t know what else to do with Izzy’s arc so dying was the best conclusion is INSANE to me #like im so hung up on this #blackbeard WAS us #YEAH WAS #dont get me started on how izzy used his fk dying breath to take the blame for everything just protecting others til the very end uh #izzy hands #him telling ed that the crew loves him and then he just....leaves #bitch the crew LOVED YOU #the whole “blackbeard was us i needed him” does gut me a little bit tho ngl like oof can yall stop being tragic for 2secs 😔 #anywayyyyy sorry if im being rly negative i dont want to be truly im just upset #it’s like I understand what they were going for but when you put it next to everything that’s happened it’s like ….idk #“izzy keeps the story of Blackbeard alive by being alive!!” and ed doesnt ??? #hes literally the face of Blackbeard #so he gets to change and grow and become something else and live as that but izzy cant? #you cannot kill a whole by just getting rid of half #izzy was moving past Blackbeard i just what the fuck is UP #“its cause ed is the mc and izzy is just the side character there to be a device for his growth” #ok well then dont have that characters whole motivation be about actualizing himself as his own person for a whole season #ofmd critical #ofmd

[alsojnpie]

#i dont know what happened to the first part (in which i said 'hey i pretty much deserve this right') #or the second part (where he said 'BUT LET'S NOT THINK ABOUT IT TOO MUCH' or something like that) #anyway this is the best part so. tadah. repostober #idk just. the topic of 'deserving' stuff. i think he would have a great perspective on that #as in he just would not care. an active choice. how can you truly believe you deserve anything good after descending so low #so. it must be...... interesting. to see someone like me struggle with those same feelings (i think i drew something before where he says #'I DON'T REMEMBER YOU DOING ANYTHING TERRIBLE?')

[taichouu]

If you should know anything about me is that everything I do is for The Bit and I live and die by The Bit. Problem is now The Bit has gotten me into a domestic partnership with a weird freak who has taken up residence in my brain. And Aizawas there.

#Can an arachno/phobe + a entomo/phobe truly survive in this world together . #tai talks #mai tai time #i can see it now. mic and ai.zawa are in the master bedroom and i sleep on the couch. #we are now peoples gay uncles i dont even know how that happened

[bunnihearted]

🌧️🫧💭

#i shouldnt have fav mutuals bc i get sooo sad when they soft block me #which *always* happens like im not joking the day will come when they're just like nahhh bye #🥲🥲 nd i cant help but get sad #nd i dont even agree w that anon who said that 'no wonder everyone blocks u' bc im never mean to anyone #i think it's just bc im fundamentally unlikable and unlovable and the time will come when smth abt me #ticks them off nd nothing abt me is ever tolerated i always have to be perfect for everyone so then i just get cut off like dead weight lmao #also it shows that i get attached so easily but in reality ... ppl are not at all as attached to me 💀💀 #like i care abt them but they dont care abt me nd it makes me feel so stupid #why do i so easily care for ppl?????? why do i have to care nd like ppl when it's always gonna end the same way #me being me is bad nd wrong and nobody could ever truly know me nd still like me #i have to live my life constantly hiding parts of myself and making sure im not too authentic or too open bc then i will make ppl dislike me #it rlly is that. im never mean. i never fight. ppl just see smth abt me nd go 'oh ewwwwww' nd then leave #nd if it hasnt already happened it will at some point nd im constantly waiting for the other shoe to drop #whenever i realize i say or did smth wrong im tense waiting for the moment where they'll leave me will arrive #ok this might sound silly bc i was like 'triggered' by smth small but like #all my life thats just how it's been. im not even mean or cruel. i just exist and ppl dont like me or who i am or what i think #i can never be truly myself anywhere. that is sure to result in being all alone 4ever. but i dont like hiding parts of myself #but i have to. but its hard when im trying to hide nd be lowkey but i still manage to make ppl dislike me T-T #idek what im supposed to do bc i just exist nd im not likable. i try to be that but im still not. idk what to do #anyway.. who cares.. j'appartiens seul #but yeah it is bc it's like this for me all the time nd ig that triggered me lmao #i mean just w my sisters.. their issue is just who i am. my personality. i havent been cruel to them. or bullied them. or put them down #they just get irritated from my personality nd who i am. thats what makes them mad. nd they kinda want me to just stop being me nd idk how #to do that and therefore we arent even talking. havent talked for a year #i wanna cry like????? what am i supposed to do??????? im so extremely fucking horrible that just by exisiting nd not being mean or cruel mak #es me unworthy of everything. idk idk like. omg i feel so stupid for being triggered by that #maybe if i had irl friends and a job and a life i wouldnt care but im a fucking loser failure worthless good for nothing idiot. ofc im this

[jayswing101]

The doctrine of discovery is one of the core concepts used to justify colonialism, especially of the settler variety. This is what the Canadian Museum of Human Rights says about it:

The Doctrine of Discovery is a legal and religious concept that has been used for centuries to justify Christian colonial conquest. It advanced the idea that European peoples, culture and religion were superior to all others.

The doctrine of discovery comes from a series of declarations from the pope in the 1400s that suggested christianity and christian cultures were superior to all other religions and cultures, and basically said that christian europeans had the right to invade and claim land and resources from non-christian people, and also had the right to subjugate and convert those populations. It's literally at the very core of colonial history and the myth of white supremacy and christian supremacy.

When the pope was visiting Indigenous communities in canada last summer, more than an apology for the catholic church's role in residential schools, what people were asking for was the overturning of the doctrine of discovery. An apology is meaningless as long as that doctrine stands.

Today, the vatican formally rejected the doctrine of discovery. It's a symbolic gesture, sure. But it's still a sign that things are changing. Space was held for Indigenous voices, and the vatican of all places listened to them.

Obviously, there's still work to be done, and colonization didn't just suddenly end because of this announcement, but this is still huge news, and it feels like we're a tiny step closer to Land Back.

#even 5 years ago i dont think this would've been possible you know #so even tho it is largely symbolic it's a move in the right direction and something worth celebrating #also the fact the catholic church listened to the demands of Indigenous people and responded to them so quickly?? #yo @ canadian gov y'all are worse than the catholic church 🤡 🤡 how does that feel??? #y'all gonna speed up progress on those calls to action or ??? #no but honestly this is the kind of history i am happy to witness you know? #i truly never thought I'd see the day when the vatican said #'no actually we don't support this. the doctrine of discovery is wrong and we will not uphold it any longer' #doctrine of discovery #chritianity #history #indigenous #canada #links in the comments for reference #also just bc the doctrine was rejected doesn't mean reconciliation is done #the rcmp is currently actively invading Wet'suwet'en again to try and force through cgl's v illegal pipeline #this is a moment to celebrate yes #but it's not the end of the fight yet right #indigenous sovereignty is still being violated #land theft is still happening #and this doesn't mean that suddenly all of that is behind us

[otp-holic]

Steve has been away from the public eye for three years, and he decides to come back to be named Sexiest Man Alive.

Why?

Wanna know the real reason? (it's a stupid one)

Sexiest Man... Alive?  in Ao3.

For @stuckybingo R4061 N1 - Potomac River.

#stucky #edit #fanfic #Steve rogers #steve rogers is sexiest man alive #i dont know how this siliness happened #painfully created by me #fic by yours truly #manip by yours truly #i dont know what happened #sexiest man alive

[mxdotpng]

i genuinely dont know how tales of the abyss did what it did because ive never had a game hurt me so much with like sixteen separate character relationships. all at once.

#.text #tales of the abyss #besides the fact ive (obviously) been thinking abt jade and luke #ive also been thinking about tear and asch. and how im disappointed they only speak like once to each other #because they. are like. so insanely similar it is. surprising to me they dont meet. #but tear in general is so underused. like. #tear. she doesnt want to kill her brother but she must. he is everything to her. but she knows her duty. #she is calm and collected on the outside even as she breaks on the inside. she is a soldier. she doesnt let her emotions #dictate her actions or her words. and she is kind. #and then. like. asch. he wants to kill his replica but he knows that he cant. his emotions get the better of him to the point that #he disregards everything about luke and paints him as the enemy. for as responsible and mature he is all of that #disappears the second luke is involved-- because his emotions control him. he wants to be kind but i dont think he knows how anymore. #i dont think they would get along but there would be an understanding between them. #with tear. understanding means kindness. if she sees herself in others or understands them completely. she becomes. so kind. #its almost shocking to see that side of her one moment and the stone cold soldier the next. #its a matter of what she allows herself to be #but i think with asch she'd become the opposite. because she sees too much of herself in him - unlike luke it is not #the good things. nor is it the things they could bond about. it is the fact that asch wants to kill the only person in the world #who is not responsible for what happened to them. and probably the only person in the world who could truly understand asch. #like i know tear says she believes some things must be done. including killing family. but i dont think she truly. truly believes that. #she is in anguish over having to kill her brother. so i think her seeing asch completely disregard and even attack luke at times #when it ISNT necessary. like it is with van. she would not be kind to him. #which is like. asch is really only Neutral at times - even with luke he sometimes cant keep telling himself everything is lukes fault. #besides being defensive. i think thats really the only thing he could be around that type of tear. #like a. 'you dont know anything.' type of deal. a quiet anger. not the loud stuff he shoves at luke or van #they are fascinating to me. #how would they act in my twinswap au................. #i wonder...

[lwcina]

the fact that the us government can continue funding and arming a genocide despite massive public opposition really highlights how inherently non-democratic the united states is

#almost like the idea of a representative demcracy is both historically undemocratic and inherently is incapable of being so #by historically i mean that representative democracies have always meant the creation of a category of ‘citizen’ that is above ‘non-citizen #even the civilization where the term democracy comes from was patriarchal and had fucking slavery #not chattel slavery but (hot take) non chattel slavery is still bad. #also fundamentally one person can literally not represent the wishes of a large collection of people who have only geography in common. #theyre going to want different things!!! #now the idea of if democracy is inherently a virtue is like. another topic. but i will say that like seeing the history of like the #popular sovreignty movement wrt to slavery really made me question it. just because a lot of people want something to happen doesnt #actually mean it should happen. white people voted to legalize slavery #kind of where the old ‘minority’ terminology comes in. just by numbers alone in the states that had these votes it wasnt like in the south #where in the south because of plantations the actual population majority in some places was black. #but in those midwestern new states even if everyone person there could have voted. white people would still be the vasy majority. #honestly to a degree pointing out that none of the societies that have claimed to be democracies have truly been democratic is… #i guess the primary value in it is to challenge people who take state mythologies at face level #a very large population that i often forget exists. #the ‘they cant do that its illegal’ types. #anyways. if we consider that every society in documented history has had some type of violence and oppression #and if we believe that people are NOT inherently selfish/violent #it follows that what we need to do is something different than what we have been doing. #not just different from what we are doing right now. but different from what we have been doing for the past centuries #but also i can imagine that societies and ways of living that aren’t legible to the status quo or just went undocumented for other reasons #may have been more egalitarian. and we dont know due to erasure (either intentional or non-intentional) #both erasure and a fundamental inability of historians to comprehend it. similar to how cishet historians who cant fathom the idea of #transness or lesbianism talk about things.

[ispyspookymansion]

not gonna diss you for the whole "tagging the palestinian occupation with saw" thing but honestly?? the more i think about it the more i believe that john kramer would unequivocally support the idf :(((

honestly kinda dont know what to say to this. i think we need to do some serious self reflection and recontextualizing lest we fall prey to liberals who inappropriately compare everything to the avengers and hp disease. i dont think this is an appropriate thing to say about the current events

#i truly honest to god did not know when i added that tag. i think doing this fictional comparative thing intentionally is not right atp #asks #anons #kora.txt #i dont think thats adding anything to the discussion and isnt treating the severity of this situation with the respect it deserved #i’m similarly not Dissing you #but i think maybe you should recalibrate a bit on how you think about current events. happens sometimes

[dreamaboutwhathappens]

okay posting this now because i feel like the surprise song combo was so intentional and i hope we get to hear more about it on ttpd !! the getaway car/august/other side of the door mashup got my gears turning and now i can’t get them to stop.

the common thread between those three songs is the third party — i wanted leave him i needed a reason, you weren’t mine to lose, was she worth this? — and i know that basically ever since the breakup people have wondered if joe cheated, and this seemed like it could have confirmed it. while i definitely see the evidence for that, it hasn’t quite seemed like the right fit to me, and after this surprise song combo i finally figured out why. i don’t think that the third party she was singing about in melbourne was an actual person, but the idea of a person.

a huge theme on midnights is what led her to being who she is now. she is both the anti-hero and bejeweled, a mastermind and the unreliable narrator in dead reader… there are so many different versions of herself. clearly she was contemplating these different versions and the implications of being each of them.

a huge theme in gothic literature are characters that are not present in the setting, but the idea of them and what they would do is so strong that they end up influencing the story anyways. this happens in rebecca, the novel that inspired tolerate it, where the main character is haunted by living in the glorious shadow that rebecca cast, an impossible standard to live up to, despite the fact that rebecca died and actually, crucially, wasn’t as great as everyone made her out to be. but it doesn’t matter that she wasn’t that great or that she’s never actually there to be truly compared to because it’s the IDEA of rebecca that’s so powerful. it’s the GHOST that haunts the narrative.

and i wonder if that was part of what drove taylor and joe apart? not an actual ~other woman~ but the idea of who taylor could have been instead. all of the other versions of herself she contemplated on midnights. the third party she seemed to be singing about. even on other albums, before this, she’s contemplated what version of herself could be loved — “i’ve been the archer, i’ve been the prey, who could ever leave me darling but who could stay?” i wonder if there was an idea of taylor (a taylor that isn’t “too big to hang out”) that was so palpable, so real, that it ended up taking up the space of another person and haunting their narrative anyways? because, like the main character in rebecca, how could she live up to the idea of a perfect life?

basically: how can you say that you love someone you can’t tell has died? did you love the real me or the version of me in your head that perfectly fit into your world?

#it’s like in wuthering heights after catherine dies and heathcliff begs to be haunted by her #like. they could have been together when she was alive. but the ghost of her is far more powerful than the real woman ever was. #because it’s the IDEA of love and happiness and a perfect life. and that idea can’t be touched! #and a real human person can’t live up to that!! that’s what happens to the main character in rebecca and to heathcliff! #like yeah it would be great if we had no problems and had the exact same interests and wants and didnt have to compromise on anything #but a real human being will never be like that. and we know taylor swift is midnight rain #she does not want it comfortable. she wants to roll up her sleeves and attack the hard things #but how can you attack or dissect or truly understand the idealized version of you living in someone’s head? #when that version of you doesn’t want what you want or have the same fragile human feelings you do? #much to think about. both rebecca and wurhering heights were books i GREATLY enjoyed. #i could be reading into nothing here but dont worry. thats never stopped me before! #taylor swift #ttpd #eras tour #random thoughts with grace

[cosmobrain00]

well🙂

#*visibly trying not to burst into tears* hey guys whats up #surprise surprise another absence bc my life can’t stop getting WORSE evry day it seems haha! #so. now who’s gonna tell me how u deal w the loss of ur fave person n the one person u were 100% certain truly loved u no matter what #who also inspired u to be an artist in the first place n who's been there for u ur ENTIRE life #like idk how to start dealing w it lmao. one min ill be basically okay n then the next ill feel like smthing just tore a chunk out of me #looked outside just a sec ago n thought “oh so she'll never see my progress in art. oh ill never get to make another painting for her” #n yk part of me just wants to pretend like none of it happened honestly #like “hey that was a fucked up dream oh well let me call [x] n tell them I love them” #n I dont fucking KNOW how to deal w this grief n idk whats normal n what isnt #no I havent cried rlly but almost every day I feel like I cant breathe n tht my chest is collapsing in on itself #no I cant talk abt it but i can’t draw like I used to n thinking abt my last art project makes me wanna throw up #< considering it was going to be a present for her tht she'll never get to see. Haha so funny right guys #fuck I need to get so entirely drunk over this now RELAPSING TIME BABY!! #anyways. will try to be normal tm n talk to ppl again instead of isolating as a way to cope n sorry to ppl who have msg'd me Ill be back

[hawkhills]

talk to me about profound, formative events in adulthood impacting people's settled daemons. are their shapes set in stone? would a strong enough experience manage to cause a crack in their settled shape? is there such a thing as daemon dysphoria? do our daemons define us, or do we define them?

#his dark materials #daemons #like ok i know daemon settlement is related to dust and adulthood or whatever #but they reflect peoples souls and the kind of people they are #AND THAT CAN CHANGE #our souls can be broken or elevated at any time of our lives #we can experience things so profound and of such incredible importance that i truly believe a person can be changed at their core #at any moment of their life #i was thinking about recently when i took an mbti test for fun for the first time since i was 20 #so arguably an adult and would have had a long set daemon by hdm standards #mbti as most other personality tests widely available on the internet are bullshit but still #a few years back it consistently would give me infp and i definitelt related to that #now its enjf and yea. i grew and changed a lot over these years and the defining qualities do seem to fit #so that made think about my own daemon again and while before an african civet seemed the perfect fit now i found im a gray wolf #[using the daemonpage forum for reference btw; their analyses are superb] #anyways yea #this just led me to think about how constricting the concept of settled daemons is #people change over their whole life #sometimes the most defining changes dont happen during adolescence. sometimes we 'grow up' more than once #what happens then #granted i have not read everything pullman ever wrote so i might be wrong #but i dont think this has been ever properly explored #i want to talk about this so bad