#i think these turned out really nice ;w;

[skitskatdacat63]

"Death is nothing, but to live defeated and inglorious is to die daily."

+ process(tw blood)

Also, look at him, bloody little guy 🥹

This drawing was inspired by several matador pics :D here and here:

^ I don't think I'll ever live up to the second one ah. There's several pics of that specific guy just soaked with blood, and I'm uh a bit obsessed with then ITS FUCKED UP I KNOW OKAY! But I've not drawn blood in a while so it was a bit difficult so I added less than I would want to I guess. Also I'm obsessed with how often they kneel in bullfighting?? Like okay who are you arching your back and spreading your legs for-

#ah not 100% sure abt this one but i think i still like it!!! #i was practicing matador poses during the wknd and im like yeah should prob paint one #and then it felt like all the energy left my body djfkkglg i was like ugh how do i paint again????? #mostly: just really wanted to draw him bloody #i love how every time i draw him in ferrari colors its just the most eye bleeding thing ever #my eyes get too used to it on my ipad's display and im like aw this isnt red enough :( #and then i transfer it to my phone and it feels like the red suddenly is hurting my eyes even worse djfkkglg #im glad the blood turned out well. i honestly think it was probably easier bcs the clothes are red already #but yes yes suffering ferrari nando. hes my comfort character atp 😭😭 #perfect catie drawing: depressed ferrari fernando. blood. napoleon quote #anyways yeah lmk! i think it looks okay?? idk i think i just love the first 2 matador drawings i ever did #and its very hard to live up to them. but whatever. we move on #im glad i did a more complicated pose at least ????? #also god i was somewhat annoyed w his face and then i redrew his eye and it was like OH OKAY suddenly good okay #tw blood #<- i would put this drawing under the cut but like. my blog i do what i want and i want to draw blood #i used to draw bloody stuff a lot more but ah idk less opportunities now sjfkkglg so it was kinda nice #catie.art. #f1 #formula 1 #fernando alonso #matador au

[pepperpixel]

Gaz and Tak art I drew! Cuz idk! My brain just decided to think of ‘em all of i sudden and I wanted to draw them..

#invader zim #tak #gaz membrane #gaz #iz #ghghg idk! brain was just like hey remember when u drew invader zim art. that was fun. draw some more of them kids. #so I did ghgh #still sticking w my ‘tak would look really good in a coat’ thing lol #im rlly proud of the coloring on gaz tho! I really.. I did not think I would have enough grey left to color her sleeves good.. #but I did! and the whole pic turned out very nice! im happy w it #doodles

[dawnsies]

say cheese! 📸

#my art #dawnsies art #rune factory #rune factory 5 #rf5 #rf5 cecil #rf5 alice #had a lot of fun with this one :] i think it turned out really nice #cecil and the mc have such a cute n fun dynamic w each other so i had to draw something w the two of them #i think im finally getting back into the groove a bit w digital art #there was actually supposed to be more drawings in the set but well. i got impatient LOL i like to shareeeee #if i ever finish the rest i'll add them in a reblog or smth #but i wanna visit other ideas while i still have the free time for it o7

[britneyshakespeare]

My toxic trait is that I like how my incomplete drawings look better than the finished things

#im sorry i cant be her (my searching lines) #i cant stop thinking about this drawing i have a sinking feeling that im gonna be very unhappy when its done #or. not unhappy. but not as excited as i feel about it now! #i only worked in two short chunks on it but both were pretty productive #i have a feeling that when i take the time to really dedicate myself to it im gonna fuck something up #like i can see areas i need to/can improve already but the glaring flaws are ok! bc it's not finished! #it OVERALL looks cool and LOOKS like it has the potential to turn out well #but will it... WILL IT??? WILL IT EVER? #i have never been so totally completely satisfied w any finished drawing ive dedicated myself to fully. #tales from diana #this is also only the second time ive done a really deliberate self-portrait that wasnt in some for or another. practice #like of course ive drawn my face before. not that often actually. but since yes i do draw. i have drawn myself #i probably should've drawn myself more times for how often i think id like a nice picture of myself #but then again its not gonna be so 'nice' if i make it and am not totally happy w it? #see one of the ppl who inspired me to learn to draw is ned @sneez my dearest. he's spoiled me before #and drawn me very beautifully on several occasions and it's very much a thing to move one's heart #to see someone dedicate their talent to depicting YOU. #and i might say HE has made me look more beautiful in art than i think i'll ever look in the flesh #which is not to say he drew me inaccurately. but he's so talented that his art is more beautiful than life. #and i dont compare myself in skill to him bc he's been doing it for YEARS and way more trained than me in the visual arts. #like it simply wouldn't be fair so i only compare myself to myself. naturally #but i used to think. very VAINLY i might say. that if i could draw like him id draw beautiful pictures of myself all the time #well ce n'est pas ca mon ami. since learning to draw i've found im much more interested in drawing ppl i find beautiful #rather than myself. im not art. not through my own eyes at least. #i should really draw ned sometime. i really should. #actually somewhat embarrasingly i tried to draw him like 5 or 6 years ago. and i NEVER tried to draw then #i did show him tho and he thought it was very impressive but that's probably just bc he loves me. xoxox #maybe ill post that someday as a throwback just for the hell of it. lol. thatd be cute

[hella1975]

just full force threw a shoe at my sister's face and when my mum got me alone after she was like 'you shouldn't clobber her. but i get it' 😭

#it kicked off today but in my defence she's actually proper in the wrong this time even my DAD called her a bitch and my mum is FUMING #baso my sister came into my work with her mate when i was closing the other day and all the staff GLARED at them bc of aforementioned #close so i was being v chill so everyone 1) knew it was my sister and not some customer coming in late and 2) her friend wouldnt be uncomfy #like that's the real kicker her i was being extra laid back FOR her friend so he'd feel more at ease. and one thing about me is yes ive #said countless times i have a rural accent but my mum also raised me to know when and how to speak nice if need be bc people are cunts here #so when im waitressing i speak nicely bc it's a stuck up restaurant w stuck up customers but when im with my sister? making a point of #being laid back? my normal accent came through. and her mate when i was gone said i sounded 'really [from the county we live in]' #which WOULD NOT BE A COMPLIMENT. it's baso saying 'your sister sounds local and chavy' without using such explosive words #and my sister LET HIM SAY IT. SHE DIDNT DEFEND ME. and she told my mum about it later bc SHE THOUGHT SHE'D TELL ME OFF #LIKE SHE DID IT TO SNITCH. THERE WAS NO SCENARIO WHERE MY SISTER WASNT BEING A CUNT. and my mum hit the ROOF #one thing she's rlly been big on is loyalty bc it's always been the 3 of us so when she found out my sister let him say that she FLIPPED #and this all happened last night and i only found out this morning bc i overheard them screaming at each other and turns out my mum #tried to keep it from me bc she didnt want my feelings hurt and IM pissed bc it actually did hurt more than i thought it would #like i KNOW what people say about my accent but it's a guy i know? my sister's been friends w him for years? i was being nice? #it's EMBARRASSING like i was clueless & friendly and turned around for him to be like 'look at this stupid local girl' like?? #and my sister did NOTHING? it just sucks so i STORMED upstairs when i found out and had it out with my sister #and she knew she was fucked so she did all 'im not talking to you i have nothing to say' AND PUT HER EARPHONES IN? #the way i RIPPED them out. got in her face like okay girl u think i sound like a chav ill act like a chav lets GO #and it just got really aggressive and i wound up grabbing HER OWN SANDAL and full force hurling it at her face 😭 oops #from close range too like i was already in her face so i basically just smacked her with a sandal DSHGJKSH #now we're sat in silence bc alas we still share a room. WHAT the fuck. insane tbh but it's a bit funny. im so angry rn i could KILL #hella goes home

[allgremlinart]

ohhhh thank fuck I wont lie my asshole WAS clenched in fear

#(Bryan Konietzko not being a zionist/being a ceasefire supporter) #idk about the Other One but.. tbh if the creators of atla had turned out to be zionists #after making the Imperialism Bad cartoon I think my faith in humanity would have really evacuated me #so like. ok good to know 👍 thank fuck. personally I am an atla centrist which means I am Bryke Neutral. but its still #nice to know even if I dont really follow what's going on w them.. like. reassuring. they're not TOTAL neolibs SDHSHS

[gibbearish]

am finally back home and can say without a doubt that i am just fundamentally not built for long distance travel however the train was much nicer than planes

#that being said. pressurized cabins drive me insane a little bit #and also it gives you pretty intense sea legs for a While #like. the ones from the first trip hadnt gone away by the return one. so. might be stuck with that for a few days #we shall see #also ajr live fucks severely #the albums were already incredible but that was a goddamn religious experience #like. idk the way i think abt it is theyre more djs than a regular band esp w their performance showing the making of way less sad #like their music is very electronic‚ theyre making mixes of their own sound effects more than singing in one go #so like. the vocals were a teeensy bit rough at times #notably times it has taken me Literally Hundreds Of Hours Practice to be able to consistently sing along with #and times ive found its literally physically impossible to like. no matter what #idc how big your lungs are‚ there is no human on earth who can do that final run of karma in one breath #much less to An Entire Stadium After An Hour Of Jumping And Dancing And Singing Loud As Fuck #so like i dont blame them for that‚ you dont go to live shows expecting it to be 100% perfect anyways jwbdjsbfksb #the trumpet however. well she was certainly playing sometimes. and was very enthusiastic about her flares. #however. in most of their songs they use midi trumpets to my ear at least #meaning she was likely an addition specifically for live performances and in my personal band kid opinion #prooobably was not in any of the like. higher tier bands? idk just. a lot of the mistakes she was making were hitting as stuff that got #taught out of us the instant we joined any band beyond regular concert #so i would guess she was probably just like. a friend who happened to play trumpet in high school or maybe even just middle school #and they knew that the trumpet parts in their pieces were big and distinct enough that like they /had/ to get a live player #and just kinda. didnt anticipate the audition -> performance gap #like. her tone was really fried the whole time like she was playing as hard as possible #which. she was mic'd. have the sound guy turn her up. #the way they did it made it sound like she was using a mute but not. like she only got the bad parts of a mute from it yknow #her tempo and timing were. bad. theres no nice way to put that one it just Was Bad‚ like the trumpet runs in ajr songs arent. complicated #like. quite literally if you handed me the sheet music right now i would have it down perfect in a week at absolute most #and better than that player on sightread. like. we did so many sightreading drills. #like ill share my band kid creds if anyone cares but i need to emphasize this isnt me being braggy like. they genuinely just arent hard #fuck im out of tags. w/e i think only like one of yall also listens to them anyways so i can leave it there

[wrenderart]

Finally got around to finishing Eris's design and ref sheet! Just one more to go and we'll have all the designs for the main cast!

#my art #my ocs #magical girls #magical girl oc #original character #character design #five leaf clover #Eris #im super happy w her design!! it turned out really nice #btw in case ur wondering her and niko (the last one i need to make a sheet for) are a part of a duo that eventually joins the main trio #altho they do act as minor antagonists think sailor mercury and uranus from sailor moon

[keeps-ache]

i have been BETRAYED. i've been thrown to the grappling arms of damnation and i've found that the exit was merely a dim recollection of another place !!

#just me hi #my grandma called and my mother handed me the phone with a devious-azz look on her face and in my groggy innocence i asked 'hello? what?' #and my grandma asked me to sing for her over the phone i think i'll just turn myself into a puddle and ddddiiiieee Hfbvhsf #i'm being extra melodramatic because i just woke up and thaz just how it eez lmaoo #but like MAN i got no heads up i'm going to explode vfhsfhvs #i'm fine w/ just doing whatever but don't Askkkk meeee now i'm all jittery and Mannnn #AUHHH i was off-pitch and wobbly and pitchy i'm going to live in a muddy little ditch forever hbvfhs #she liked it which is nice but I DIDN'T FHSHF #'you're a performer' tell that to these NERVES !!! #i was sleeeeeepinnnngg is there no compassion for the snoozing auuauahaufhuhbfvhsbgh #SOB. #putting my mother + sister on the list for that one. traitors traitors all of them hbvhsfh #diabolical behavior. completely insidious. can't beleeb they done this to me #genuinely couldn't even tap out of it cuz i was Sleepy and had no brain. RIP one more fool hfhsh #//aside from the beTRAYAL and other suchenings. what is up man hfhsfhv #i drew some sick p1nk space stuff in my sketchbook which is just a shame bc i can't colour it and i can't show it to anybody Hfvbh #i rarely ever use the full page for sketching but i really like the results they look good :D #nobody knows who Fate is i think but if you do i finally have a settled design for her hfvhs :DD #the dress is needing work.. you are NOT going out like that miss lady ma'am hvfshfb #/wondering about the medium for this project too #comic would work best for me bc well. it takes two things i like to do and mushes them into a delightful mess loll :> #//there has been a sudden shift in my brain chemicals and now i'm going to play a game hhfsh :333 #toodles noodles !!

[pizzopaps]

unrelated the other day i mended the boyfs hoodie while i watched jerma and i wish i had more stuff to mend because i think that's just all i wanna do with my time right now

#also it turned out nice!!! #like his hoodie is still 10+years old so it's a little ratty and sunbleached #but now the cuffs are all back together and reinforced and and the holes on the pockets are fixed too! #for the most part it's not really noticeable too unless you really look but they're places the eye doesn't fall so its nice #theres still a bit on the side i think i'll have to use an actual fabric patch for but i'm not entirely certain #gotta think on that one #anyway i also wanna go along the edges of the cuffs and the bottom of the hoodie w some bias tape so it doesn't keep trying to fray

[mattodore]

made a new sim in cas with the intent of them being one of my ocs but looking at them i'm still so unsure if this is true to my Vision™

#river dipping #the sim is meant to be jordan who alongside theo is one of my oldest ocs.............................. so. i'm in cas just staring. #like................ obviously it's very hard for me to turn him into a sim like it's a struggle bc he means so much to me #like fuck i still consider theo's sim to be a wip when i've had him in the sims since like 2018 like this is hardddddddd #the sim looks really good too like it's not even about the sim it's about meeeeeeeeeeeeeeee like i can't decide if i want jordan #to look like this or not..... i feel like it's really just about the aura the sim is giving off like the sim seems really sweet #and like jordan is a very nice guy!!! but i think he'd give off a more morose vibe than sweet... #like not gloomy exactly but like... pensive? he looks like he's got a lot on his mind bc he does. he's a Creative type so yk how it is #so i'm having trouble w/ that i think............ i'll post a pic of him anyway and just give it a few days to sit with me #if i don't use this sim for jordan then i'll probably end up just making him a gameplay sim? maybe? #i'm testing a new cas light out too tho idk if i could ever part with the bg and light combo i use now just bc of the draper painting yk #but it looks really good it's all glowy #i'm gonna try the lighting out with the draper background i use and see how i feel abt it #otherwise i'll just use this combo for when i'm actually in cas making sims

[frodo-of-the-nine-fingers]

LOMG

#i cant find my tape measure despite having used it two days ago pls dont mind my sewing ruler #you cant see the head very well here but with some adjustments from the og tutorial which is for a bulkier yarn it's turning out really #nicely!!! i think i might need to switch to a project w a bigger hook tho my fingies are starting to hurt #im gonna *try* to get him to 5ft hopefully 6ft but we'll see it depends on when i start to get mad at it

[rxtgallows]

being the same age as most long term lolitas were when they started getting into it but its different now bc there is just so much less of a community it feels like... like for me i feel more like i am finding a lot of individuals but no local communities bc its just rlly died down i think... like i found a 2013 pph article about a lolita meetup downtown. i dont think that wld happen now even if i COULD find a local community

#i think if theres not a lolita tea party/panel this year at pcm i will host one next year... #by then ill have been actively in the subculture for like a year and ill know a little more.. rn im JUST starting out i wld have no clue #what to do... but like i have ideas for stuff that wld be soo fun and ive always wanted to host/participate in an event or panel #once i was picked to participate in the fandom state alchemist test or w/e its called but then they wldnt let me after they saw my boot #which was so fail bc i absolutely cld have done tthe challenges with a broken foot. BLAH anyway #or like i hope they try the jfashion show again UGH probably not since it had to be cancelled due to lack of participation... #i jst would looove to have lolita friends in the area... idk how successful i wld be at converting someone and my sibling doesnt count #or ONE lolita friend... i only know of one lolita in maine and shes pretty well known in the NA lolita community from what i can tell so #ive met her a couple times actually she is very nice. idk what i am trying to say tbh #im more open to making friends at pcm in a lolita context and not a cosplay context bc every cosplayer ive interacted with for more than a #passing comment or picture turned out to be like umm a freak #or one of my moms students <- student who made all the dresses for the haunted town tour cosplaying kanaya that one year and then me showin #my mom the meetup pictures and her going omg.... thats d/////// #she was a really really incredibly seamstress btw her costumes were beautiful. anyway. iconic. #i think probably i havent talked to anyone in a while and it is wearing me down i have to make these massive posts every day

[eileennatural]

i have normal and rational emotional reactions. i will behave normally about the fact that my sister has texted the family groupchat multiple times this week about meaningless things such as her new haircut. i will politely ignore the fact that she has not once responded to any text i've sent in the past 2 months

#i keep thinking. i should reach out and text her sometimes you have to be the bigger person and make an effort to keep this relationship #on good terms. and then i remember that ive already texted her 4 times and got nothing back. that bitch promised to take me to see the book #of mormon on west end. god. and yknow im not on speaking terms w my brother really anymore bc of issues between us so itd be nice to #have one sibling be like. interested in my life. but its fine. i wont spiral abt it. ill turn off my phone and behave rationally #i should rewatch fleabag

[britneyshakespeare]

my great auntie barbara has been a widow for almost 10 years now. uncle jack died in summer 2014. and with my grandfather gone she's without her only brother too. today was the wake for my grandfather and she looked absolutely beautiful, i told her as much, she was the best-dressed lady there. and it's been almost three years since my grandmother died and you could tell there was a different understanding between her and my grandfather whenever they got together. it became more necessary to invite barbara to extended-family events when her husband died, but after grammy died it was just about mandatory. there was just something about the two of them sitting together, brother and sister, in their 90s having lost their life partners, but sitting with the only other person left that they had known for as long, no, even longer. as far back as they could each remember. they both looked like they were in the company of their favorite living person. so it was hard to see her at the wake although she looked beautiful and she always does; she has a wonderful smile. it must be hard to be the last survivor of your generation. i just hope she goes home and she has something that makes her feel not so lonely.

#tales from diana #after grammy died it could be hard to see grampy. bc he was (i still have to remind myself to use past tense) WAS a very reserved man. #grammy was always the talker. not to mention he was extremely hard of hearing. so he often missed out on convos anyway #grammy would fill him in back when she could. #he was just so much lonelier without her. you could tell he had a personal awkwardness. it's surprising he lasted so long a widower #he turned 95 in july. 95. i dont think anyone in my family has ever lived that long! #who knows if any of them ever will again... #but yeah. it was always nice at parties or weddings when grampy and barbara got to sit next to each other. you could tell they were content #they liked to talk about old memories and things of the like. #lots of pictures at the wake were from his childhood. the best ones were the ones w their dogs or horses #i also have to wonder what it was like for their parents because their firstborn daughter. claire. born 1927 #she died at the age of 2 of whooping cough. and grampy's dad died when he was 18 #apparently he never emotionally recovered from losing claire. understandable. #i suppose grampy's not only with grammy but with his parents and with claire again. but poor barbara #i really do feel for her. i can only imagine the pain and sorrow of my children taking me to my brother's funeral.

[mrdyketator]

it's weird but this is the first time i have fallen prey to the lesbian confusion of ''is she a friend (to me) or more''

#im never usually confused whether im experiencing platonic or romantic+sexual feelings #it's pretty much straightforward forward for me when i try to figure out my attraction to someone #i might be in DENIAL about it depending on the person; but im aware of the type of attraction #but this particular girl is a really close friend of mine and im really protective of her and lots of people think we're dating #but she's straight so um. yeah #she's really nice & just my usual type & i've known her for like 7 years & we're always together #really pretty too w chocolate-brown eyes & wavy hair & full lips even if the self deprecation & lack of self confidence is a turn off #but there's the heterosexuality and i thought i was still hung up on [redacted] #bc i KNOW i would go back in a heartbeat and regret it but still do it anyways(if i wasn't being ghosted rn smfh) #so idk if im attracted to her or just lonely and i really really don't want to ruin my friendship w this girl like i did w [redacted] #p #[redacted] was so far from my usual type it was insane but guess who's still hung up over what could have been🤡