#i think it's just cause i'm tired though

[cakesmelons]

WE FINALLY HAVE THE LONG AWAITED FROZEN ERROR!!!!

his suit was a bitch to design. mostly because i wanted to keep most of his original color palette.

As usual we have some doodles to accompany our ref sheet! (Under cut)

These are all drawings that deal after Error reveals that he is not a good man nor fiance </3

Some things bout Frozen!Error:

he still has his five tongues (Dream was very.... intrigued? by them when he saw them the first time)

Error has for sure Geno and Fresh as his brother (They are not being shown in the au. or at the very least aren't being PLANNED to be shown in the au. cause I ain't designing them. i don't feel like it.....)

Idk if he is keeping his glitches??? I put them on him just cause i thought he looked better with them. but i don't think the errors makes sense in universe. but also it's error. yknow? and there's plenty of monsters and humans in the Frozen universe so maybe it could be like a disease or something. (Maybe like what Mama CQ!Error has? like an actual disease that causes glitches? I think that was Mama CQ error that had that)

Error still doesn't like touch which he makes very clear to Dream when he asks Dream for a dance (they work around it so they can have their little dance <3)

Error was originally planning on marrying Nightmare and just living on like normal, but as the king of the kingdom. However, when he found Dream he realized Dream would be a better option. (Nightmare became known for his antisocial behavior and refusal to let anyone, even his own brother into his room. and like, work smarter not harder y'know 😎)

#undertale au #sans aus #undertale aus #sans au #my art #frozen!au #dreamtale frozen au #frozen au #frozen!error #frozen!dream #frozen!ink #dream sans #dream!sans #ink!sans #ink sans #error!sans #error sans #he's kinda a bitch to draw. but i love him. #i think it's just cause i'm tired though #went to bed at 4 am last night and it's 2 AM rn #Update. i did not post this at 2 AM. I realized I forgot to draw something so i had to fix it

[lunarharp]

What led to this (orufrey comic, cw an uncomfortable/creepy scene)

#witch hat tag #orufrey #er.... i'm too tired to have anything to say..i worked several days on this. #wait.. didn't i say just recently here that i probably wouldn't ever depict 'what if alaira is qifrey's sort-of ex'. What's going on #i don't even remember deciding to draw this..it's all a blur..i'm not sure why i WOULD decide to draw delicate scenes in my head #that i wouldn't really want to share with anyone/discuss so why did i draw it... #some part of me really really wants to draw things that are more and more true to myself... #maybe because of my alienation with most romance/shipping/dynamics the rest of the world depicts. #orufrey really is perfectly suited to me - what i read in the text and what is in my head. well anyway #i am TIRED of drawing poses and angles and..maybe now i will actually take a break from drawing bc of the tediousness of Angles #btw it really is a 'stretch of time' . . . assuming witches graduate age 18-20 #well orufrey are canonically 30-ish. they've only had agott around for presumably about TWO years (?) bc she took the test age 10 #and it feels like oru moving in/unknown atelier acquisition/building (?) .. i guess that could be a year or so before agott at most #(she was the first disciple) so... ????????? What about the other 7 or so years ?!?!?!!?!?! Unemployed Brimhat Hatred era #that time is very nebulous. after qifrey went to the tower i feel like it's been implied he and oru drifted apart a little. #certainly they didn't live together at first... no way. that doesn't feel like how it is based on things oru has said about becoming Eye #idk. I'm tired now. i don't usually think of alaira as necessarily qifrey's ex and this being how things went in that 'sliver of time'. #i usually prefer the idea that they have their first kiss with each other in their 30s cause That's Just The Orufrey Lifestyle #just felt like making a more relatable alternative view of my own Cai Orufrey Canon one time. btw im a big monoshipper and it hurt a bit #let's leave it there. this is surely the most i've worked on a 'single' art - though now i realise just how much longer the fic took :')

[isfjmel-phleg]

🌋

#random personal stuff #personal whining ahead feel free to ignore #it's sinking in that the increase in the displaying of these 'jokes' at work is related to our boss no longer being here #it can't have been a coincidence that the picture in the inbox went back on top the very day we threw her her goodbye party #apparently this man thinks that she was the one who was pushing back against the nonsense? #and maybe she was - I don't know what went on between them #(though I always got the impression that she seemed a bit afraid of him for whatever reason and just let him do whatever most of the time) #but I'm tired of having to put up with this and angry at the situation in general #and I really will go and talk with the VP of Academic Affairs once I can get some advice from my communications major friend #so I can avoid just walking into her office and exploding #(I don't understand this I don't understand why he feels the need to display these images in the office & always about this now-completely- #irrelevant topic and even if it were relevant the 'jokes' are juvenile and mean-spirited and I know he thinks he's doing the Lord's work in #picking the kinds of books that he does but tell me exactly how this garbage is the Lord's work and what he thinks he's accomplishing with #this other than making himself look petty and giving me further cause for frustration because it isn't just the stupid pictures it's the #pervasive attitude behind them that I have had to deal with for years now and I wish I were a different person so I could get right in his #face and tell him that this is unacceptable and expect to be heard and regarded)

[jasonsthunderthighs]

I got a new mask. Anyone want to see it?

#if anyone fuckin cares anymore #I'm tired of this shit #I feel so fuckin alone on social media #even though I have 6.650 ‘followers’ here and BARELY get shit until one of my posts gets famous #even then I still get NO asks NO replies NO NOTHIN #follower count doesn't matter on here even though a lot of people think that #how many fuckin of you people need to follow me for my shit to be seen? #Do I need to get 10k? 20k? cause even at 6.6k I don't get fuckin shit like OTHER big Tumblr blogs #who either have the SAME follower count as I do #or even lower than what I have #and they still get shit on their posts #but I'm just here rantin nowadays to the fuckin void cause NOBODY wants to fuckin talk to me or have an actual conversation #you guys only do shit like this when I say somethin bout it or I make a suicidal post #which goes to show how fuckin fake EVERYBODY is when they say they “care for you” and will still be silent when I need help or someone #but whatever #rant in the tags #I need to shut up #shut up G #Not DC #Not DC related #personal #personal post

[chaoswillcalmusdown]

ngl i'm obviously grateful for the fact that medication exists that can make me function as a human without the extreme period cramps once a month and without the vomiting due to pain.

but the fact that the medication instantly and very obviously also made me. like. fully numb to life. is really not fun and i really don't think it's fair that those are the two like........... options... that exist

#i stopped birth control after i had a panic attack in a shop in london bc i'd felt increasingly anxious for years #and it just completely ruined my holiday #and after the first 3 ish years without any hormones my body reverted to my teenaged troubles #rn we're taking this birth control to keep the cyst from growing even more until it's my time for surgery #so i'm like. it's acceptable and i'm okay like this #bc it's not nearly as bad as it used to be #and i'm allowed to stop taking it if i want but if i have to choose rn between the two evils #i'd rather be a lil numb #also means i'm less actively upset at my job that i hate. bc i'm just kinda numb. win win ?? #it's gonna be an interesting follow up appointment though bc i cannot live longterm on birth control #if it comes to that i'm just gonna be like 'bro we'll just call it quits on the uterus situation' #bc i'm not trialing the spiral or the other invasive and scary option #when hormones alrEADy fuck me up #it's either migraine city or anxiety city or apparently now depression city #and i would just like none of those thx #i'm not having kids with this body so like. i don't need ovulation #i've had 16-17 years of it. i think i can be done now #my endometriosis journey is slow rn but we're just holding out until november #me and my 10 cm cyst............ that's like. a tennis ball. inside my body. waiting to cause me more pain. can you even comprehend ?? #this is so tmi but i'm just like. so tired of this numbness ? #i'm not usually an emotional person but considering that i was kind of like this back when i was 18-22 #no wonder my mum used to comment on me never crying at films #insane to think i actually socialized at uni #anyways #time to go to sleep to wake up early and go teach at a place i really don't wanna be at ✌🏽🤪

[medicinemane]

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#I get tired of people trying to explain what lens I should view the world through; what way I could think that would make everything better #forgive me but I don't care; I do what I do and I do what I can and you don't see the work I do under the hood #I don't want advice on self validation or whatever; I want... I want someone to hold a mirror up so I can actually see myself #by which I mean I want input on how I'm doing; if it's good enough; if it's worth anything; if anything I make is good #everyone things I'm nice; everyone has always thought I'm nice #but given nice leaves me profoundly isolated I don't think I care #not to mention in my opinion what nice in this instance means is that I'm capable of listening #it's mostly that I have manners rather than some quality about me #I'm well behaved and polite and can listen; and that's perceived as nice or even sweet #and it's not like I'm offended by people seeing me that way; but maybe you can get why... I can't do anything with that information #but if I'm doing enough... if I provide any value to the world... I might have heard that less times in my life than years I've lived #that's where I'm totally blind #people don't tend to offer any input; and also people don't tend to let me know what they're thinking #and I in fact am not a mind reader; I can often accurately infer things; but no of that means a thing till it's confirmed #and... well... hopefully no one reads the stupid shit I say and especially not the tags so this is safe and hidden #but truthfully people just like to hear that stuff they're doing is wanted and matters #and I do not #I don't know... gotta go do more cleaning cause I need to #and I have no idea if... I've got a reason for fighting so hard to clean; but I get very little input so... I expect... well... #and thankfully I don't think they read my tags so I can say this #but I really expect they won't take me up on my offer to come out here and get away from their parents; so there will be no pay off #not that I blame them in the slightest... it's just the only possible pay off for this cleaning would be helping someone I like out #and a scrap of company #but then again... in many ways anyone coming out to live with me is the worst thing they could probably do #sorry... I have a rather bleak outlook on many things surrounding myself purely cause of what I infer from the past #there is never pay off; only more shit I need to get done #I will never be loved; I will never be wanted; I will always just kinda be an afterthought that's occasionally worth venting to #no one will ever be particularly interested in anything I'm interested while I'll chase their interests or at least try to #certainly let them talk about them when they want #...though I take that over my normal total isolation... better to at least be permitted to follow in someone's shadow than have nothing

[lupismaris]

..

#i know that when joining a community you have to learning to put up with people who dont suit you. who you dont vibe with #but i feel like theres a distinct difference in not vibing with and putting up with bullies and those who wield their #insecurities and traumas like weapons against everyone around them. policing everyone and every space they enter with them. #like yeah its valid to be uncomfortable at times and be triggered at times but how you handle it is key. #im triggered every time im surrounded by the teams' drunken bullshit but i find ways to cope. #im triggered by the dickhead whos just like my ex-friend of 20+ years but i dont force the coach to kick them out to keep me happy #like. if its gonna be this safe space you're preaching you need to not be the key element of why it isnt safe. just thoughts. #ignore me im just getting very tired of the squad I'm on in rugby rn and considering bailing for the rfc even though i dont jive with #the coach and cant physically keep up with any of them and wont get any playing time #so on that side id be horribly depressed and ignored but socially i think id be happier because this mean girls shit. im done. #if we cannot stamp it out before the end of the season then im bailing for fall cause im not putting up with these fucks #its only a handful of ppl who police and act like the chronically online therapy speak dickheads who havent actually grown up #but theyre very loud about it and im. its not why I joined.

[wherela]

one of those crying in the shower kind of days

#my 'best friend' stood me up today #and by stood me up i don't mean canceled last minute i mean didn't show up and only responded to my calls and texts after 45 min #why? she was hanging out with some guy (she met him last week. he's not a christian.) and lost track of time #she's also initiated no contact with me over the last few weeks #the explenation was she thought i was busy with my thesis. as if you can't check in on someone when they're busy #she also gosted me for 3 days (like a month ago??) cause she was asked to share at student group and i couldn't go CAUSE I WAS SICK #I'm just so tired of it at this point #but it's also made me realise i dont really have any close friends #i have lots of friends. sure. and i trust them too. but it's not the kind of close where i can write to them when I've got a problem #like maybe I'd tell them live if they asked me? but I wouldn't really write to them it would just be weird #and so who do I tell that I met S's parents yesterday and even though so many things have happened since then already thats the only one #I can think about???? or that he actually CALLED ME afterwards specifically to tell me what they thought of our church #or that his mom apparently asked him if our relationship was still weird and he said 'yes' and I've been overthinking it cause i thought we #were finally okay and normal and genuinely just friends? #or that his mom said my look is that i dress vintage and it made me SO HAPPY!! that's my look!!! that's how I'm recognisable!!! #the answer is nobody. i have no one to tell :( #mine #s #I'm sorry I guess I had to vent this prolly turned out really really long

[mooodyblue]

sigh.

#vent post at 10 am #i'm just tired #like im really really tired #im hungry but refuse to buy anything for myself because i have to buy gifts #i still can't get a job #my favorite holiday is being ruined by my dad #i expect nothing good for my birthday or for christmas #i think the guy i was seeing got sick of me cause he left me on opened and hasn't said a word to me #even though i think he's just busy but my brain says no he's sick of you #i don't have the energy for anything anymore #im just really exhausted #i just #i don't know #maybe it's just a bad day #sorry for the vent

[mythicalcoolkid]

After too many years here I've final what hornets' nests I am not brave enough to kick

#m/cc #thought about making a certain post and decided... no... I would rather not #I am not prepared for responses to that. it might actually kill me #specifically it was: #'going gluten/dairy/food dye-free CAN improve certain neurodevelopmental things but it cannot 'cure' autism/ADHD/Tourette's' #I already know I'd get vitriol both from people claiming I think autism comes from gluten or 'needs cured' because they can't read the post #and that I'm trying to trick everyone into going gluten-free because Toxins or something and lying about a connection #(even though (neuro)dev disorders can be made worse by flaring immune issues like - oh I don't know - undiagnosed gluten intolerance? #hypersensitivity to certain food dyes? #we already know autism and ADHD in particular have HUGE correlations with gastro and immune issues #which is why some mommy bloggers genuinely do see symptom improvement from diet changes) #and from people saying 'um actually no-gluten DID cure my nephew's ADHD?? the science is on our side/big gluten is covering up the research #and I don't know if I could handle dozens of people per day telling me I'm a science denier AND a eugenist from both sides #I am simply. ADHD. and autistic. and incredibly interested in the wild amount of comorbid physical disorders that correlate with these #autoimmune and gastro issues but also loose/hypermobile joints; epilepsy; delayed sleep phase disorder; COPD; skin conditions #it's so fascinating to me and provides a huge chunk of data to run with re: the gut-brain axis #whether [neurodev] causes [other]/[other] causes [neurodev] or an underlying thing causes both is unknown #but honestly with the huge interest in the gut-brain axis and microbiome in the past decade or so #I think we're going to see a lot more research in the next thirty or forty years examining physical comorbidities with neurodev stuff #I'm probably not gonna link to research because I don't wanna just start the war anyway and I'm too tired to go back and find the articles #but the TL;DR of the tags is neurodev stuff isn't caused by gluten intolerance but if you're unknowingly aggravating a gluten intolerance #you're probably not gonna feel great and it's gonna make your symptoms worse because of the effect it has on your body #it's like a very mild long-term allergic reaction and yeah if you get rid of that it'll improve other areas (e.g. sleep cycle; irritability #so of Course it's gonna improve a bunch of things-that-get-worse-with-poor-sleep/decreased-stress-tolerance #if you were always sitting on a slightly uncomfortable chair you'd probably do a lot better if I switched the chair #just because you can focus better or you didn't know the chair was uncomfortable doesn't mean it caused your ADHD #also in this case the chair affects your hormone levels and immune response and what chemicals accidentally leak into your bloodstream #if you're interested look it up there's been a Ton of research on correlations of specific physical issues with neurodev in recent years

[illdothehotvoice]

One day I will be brave enough to order a mystery item from Fangamer because of how cheap they are but that day is not today

#I'm just a little nervous to cause fangamer has a LOT of stuff i do not care about personally dshjgkfh #But also a LOT fo stuff I DO care about (ut dr professor layton ace attroney ib-) #It's just a little silly cause you get no say in the matter but I BELIEVE there's a section to put items you already have?? #So they don't send a duplicate item?? which is nice but #If I do I don't think I'm gonna go for a t-shirt cause I don't #I don't want fangamer to know how many undertale shirts i own- (3?? I think???? too many sdhgkjndfh) #I might get a pin cause they're like $6 so I COULD get like 2 of them. And if I don't know the media it's still a pin?? #and I'm sure I could find SOMEONE to give it to if i don't know it qwq. I know a LOT of people that like at least SOMETHING fangamer has qw #anyways ramble over I've always wanted to get a mystery item but i am a coward #COULD YOU IMAGE I GET SOMETHING PIZZA TOWER THOUGH THAT WOULD BE SO FUCKING FUNNY <--[Has a weird vendetta against Pizza Tower] #[don't ask me why I think i just got tired fo seeing it everywhere dsjgfknh i'm sure it's a good game Pepino seems silly]

[saintedbythestorm]

Not dad trying to tell me about some big fallout news he heard about from some work colleague 😂 oh what the poor man just subjected himself too.

#it was about that leak from weeks ago. dad got quite the details about it. he walked right into that one. #and that dear sir is why we do not try to bring news about the hyperfixation. i will know about it and you will hear about it. #dude even got the history of fallout 3 as a bonus. since that was the one he mentioned 😂 #he also got a very veeeery long version about why i would necessarily get so excited about the leaks. #you know age of the document. the whole company sale thing. how much the time line clearly has already gone to shit. etc etc etc. #yeah... yeah i think he really came to regret that one 😅 #listen i have only slept 5 hours. am high on caffeine and painkillers- almost had a migraine ok. #which means i have like 0 filter rn and am quite brain tired. i will not realise how long i am going on for once i get started rn. #the info dump has started and it will end when i brain says so. i sure af won't notice I am doing it cause I'm just excited to share #not until i manage to like finish my long ass story do i realise i went on for like a good 20-30 minutes... oops. #and that may just be a generous estimate cause i got really going on the infodump ok. it was a blast. ngl. #i am very passionate about fallout ok. this is what happens when you fall asleep to fallout lore most days of the week. #yes i lost the plot ages ago about this hyperfixation. it makes me very happy. so i don't even care. i will keep doing it. #til the hyperfixation dies and bring great sadness to the lands... til we find something else. god knows when that is though. #i am very ok if fallout hyperfixation just... doesn't go away actually. i like hyperfixation. brings many a solution when upsetty. #.... i really need to stfu up now. hi. 👋 why are you still reading this??? these ramblings of a madman. 😂 #ryder speaking #i got this far before i realised i did not in fact write wouldn't get excited... well i aint fixing it now 🙃

[vulpinesaint]

actually going to throw the hugest fit over my parents making me do dishes. i am HAPPY to do dishes on assigned nights. it's FINE. i hate it so much but i'll get it done and if i'm having constant breakdowns over it then like. idk. maybe that's another issue that you should be looking into but it doesn't mean that i'm not up for doing the dishes. but now my mom wants to have the five of us just. do the dishes on a rotation? which is FUCKED cause i have SHIT to do! the fuck happens when i have dnd? or want to go out with a friend? or have class until late? literally worst fucking idea on earth i can do the fucking dishes but i have to be PREPARED for it. for instance don't make it so every other week i'll be fucking Doing something when it's my night to do the dishes

#so tired and lowkey pissed off about this i'm going to cry #my mom got rlly upset cause the dishes weren't getting done. fair. #my nights got Done most of the time and i volunteered to take on an extra night so idk. i think that should count for something. #but she got upset and said that she would just do dishes from now on #and then realized it was a lot of work and said she couldn't do it on her own and needed people to help #and then said 'we should do it this way!' and never actually implemented that way #like. just said it out loud. but then like. expected it to magically happen? #babe you can't just throw out a hypothetical and go 'alright! now that i have spoken it into existence it's going to happen' #fucking WHATEVER though. cause now it's going to be my fun little dishes night on friday when i have dnd. #first fuckin round of it. #and it's not even that i don't want to i CAN'T do the fucking dishes on friday cause i'm barely in the house! #i'll be home on friday after work for fifteen minutes tops! #so. going to complain. literally some of us have schedules that take up the nighttime. #sorry that neither of my little siblings hang out with people or have regular social engagements or work late or have class late. #but unfortunately i'm literally doing shit. and i need to incorporate things into my schedule or it's gonna fuck all my shit up #and then people will be angry with me for not getting the dishes done. so. again. fuck me i guess #it'll be fine i'll talk to her i just. ugh. the world if mothers just fucking talked about what they wanted and needed to happen #she proposed that Multiple weeks ago and just now i heard her in the kitchen going 'i thought we were doing this...' #bitch since WHEN??? SINCE WHEN??? YOU HAVEN'T BROUGHT IT UP IN A FULL WEEK AT LEAST #throwing my fucking laptop against the wall i'm so fucking tired i just want to sleep #valentine notes

[yeleltaan]

//Hello! I just got done with an exam that was bugging me, and I’ve been a bit quiet lately, so here’s another update on how things are going.

As I mentioned in my previous ooc post, study stress and overall difficulty concentrating has been a persistent annoyance and obstacle from writing, so I’ve been taking steps to improve my habits.

Probably my best decision, I’ve recently started going to BJJ and MMA classes! My physical activity has been sorely lacking since the covid pandemic began, so I knew that was one of the main issues to tackle. I’ve been enjoying them a lot and I think this is going to prove a very good change for my mental and physical health, the effects of which should become more noticeable in the mid-term. I kinda went from 0 to 100 with them, so last week was exhausting and rather painful, but I don’t regret it. This week was a lot more pleasant and I can already tell I’ve regained much of my discipline and reflexes.

Besides that, I’ve been trying to be more mindful of my sleeping habits and go to bed at the right hour. This is still very much a work in progress, it’s tough to beat that self-feeding cycle of “I can’t focus so studies take longer, I have less time to myself and I can’t make full use of it either so I’m reluctant to end the day, I didn’t sleep enough so I can’t focus”. I think this will be a gradual process, though I can already tell that the greater physical activity helps make me feel more tired and willing to rest.

I’m diversifying my workspace as well, since that can help your brain distinguish when it’s time to work and when it’s time to rest. But I’ve been inconsistent on which spots I use for work, which I use for (thinking-heavy) hobbies and which I use to rest, so I’ll need to correct that in order to really make this effective.

Anyways, I was hesitant to make this post until I could really show this progress as opposed to talking about it, but I figure it’s better than staying quiet for very long. I also don’t quite now how early I’ll really start to improve my pace in writing, setting goals is tempting but too many times my predictions on this blog (or Ornstein’s blog, my God) have been proven wrong so... we’ll see how that goes.

Besides working on replies, I might also do a few of those headcanon prompts I’ve been tagged in (thanks all who did! Even though I haven’t really been doing them lately, I appreciate that you still thought to mention me). Also wondering if some tweaks to the blog might also help with motivation (reviewing the rules, the about page, using more “distinct” and consistent tags... might even try making tags for each dynamic, maybe even for alternate versions of the same muse as well, but I’m still undecided and can’t promise anything yet).

Oh, and I fixed the issue that was making submissions impossible to send, so that’s a start. With that said, hope you’re all doing well, and if not, may that change soon!

#ooc #long-ish post this time! As I've said I'm hesitant because I don't want to sound repetitive or end up not meeting my expectations #but yeah just letting you know that I'm doing well and dealing with what I imagine to be some of the roots of the issue #of my writer's block #I'm tired of getting stressed needlessly over small things. Still got a long way to go but this should help with that #once again thank you for your patience. I'm going to try to be around more though this will likely be a gradual process as you know #needless to say that even if I'm slow to write I'm always open to plotting #don't let my limited activity deceive you. My brain is thinking a lot about the different plots and concepts #I'd say I'm feeling very inspired in that regard so that's good :] #also been a rather intense first half of the month dealing with that and other long-lived small issues causing background anxiety #but things are going forward and that's what matters #posting this at odd hours for some people including myself so I might reblog it tomorrow

[you-are-constance]

have i mentioned that i hate fireworks

#constance speaks #its so LOUD and im already so TIRED i had to march in two parades today #plus like we LITERALLY had a fire last year that caused the parade and pretty much all of the celebrations #to be canceled. like. youd think ppl would learn. #to be fair: the city does put on a pretty good firework show. and while i personally do not like fireworks anyway #they do that one safely and a lot of ppl enjoy it. I'm ok with the city one. #but i HATE going to a store and seeing a tent set up in the parking lot. just selling disasters waiting to happen. #ugh. anyway #the parades were fine im very tired though. the first one was actually pretty good. #but the second one was more in the sun and we were already kinda dying so. yeah. #only two more parades total before im done with parades altogether in marching band

[supercantaloupe]

ngl i really. wanna go home for a few days

#i wanna talk about me #idk. spain took so much out of me. i want to see my parents and my cats again #i'm going home in like three weeks though. for a couple of days cause my dad finally booked a kayak date #but i wanna go home before then... #mostly i think i'm just tired of having no one to talk to