#i think im gonna drop this one tho

[oifaaa]

Started watching a new anime and the first episode has me so bewildered basically it's meant to be a cinderella story evil step mom wicked half sister that crack only one of the things they have to show how horrible cinderella girls life is by having the boy who she has feelings for become engaged to the half sister and she is so smug about the whole thing despite this being objectively the worst possible husband choice for her since he's also so in love with cinderella like sweetheart your gonna spend the rest of your life with a man who is more in love with your wet blanket of a sister and honesty he's not even that pretty I get you hate cinderella but she's moving away you've gotta start thinking about your future

#im now in my procrastination phase since i dont want my watch threw of one piece to end #so watching other random anime #i think im gonna drop this one tho #cinderella girl is not my cup of tea #like im only 3/4 of the way through episode 1 #but shes still just so weak #this is not the pathetic i like in my MCs #girl i need you to get a personality #and maybe a backbone idk hopefully thats her arc in this show #i hope so #i hope theres a episode where she comes home and half sister is like yeah i made a mistake #turns out marrying someone out of spite #not the best foundation for a relationship

[guideaus]

i think i have this attitude where i think i can enjoy any time of media, just bc it's rated well, but then when i force myself to look at the series i dont like i just sit there like 😑 the whole time

#personal #thank god im pirating #tried it. did not like #and i think with anime its usually the cutesy one dimensional stuff. maybe i wouldve liked it if i was in high school or younger. idk #if i keep dropping them tho im gonna treat myself instead 😭😭

[divorcetual]

The meower

#Queued... technically March 23rd? #I mean its march 22nd in oregon. but im not there rn lolz #either way im late. SORRY !! i forfor to queue on the 20th then i was on planes for like 21 hrs total #well no 5 of those were a layover @ the airport but #ANYWAYYYYY hi future me !!! #Howww was the trip? im on my first (second actually- its 4am of the second day if u coukd the arrival) day in Hong Kong #Its rlly hot and humid so I think im gonna die. BUT ITS ALSO SUPER COOL !! #Even just from the few hours I had out earlier its amazingggg. The lights and the buildings are so cool and theres such a fun but chaotic #atmosphere - idk if its just bcs its a big city or specific to HK? #I loveee large cities in general. New york. Tokyo. HK. thats all of the ones ive been to ig #I havent seen even close to all of HK. Im in central rn but we're goin to other parts later #Dad says the other parts are totally different- Like theres LOADS of gisnt buildings here (WAY MORE THAN U SEE IN ******!!! u know that tho #and theyre almost all residential of the ones I passed. Im sure theres offices n stuff i just didnt see them in the likd 20 minutes cab #ride lolz. U know all tuis already tho #ig what im getting at is HOW WAS THE TRIP !!!!! How was the rest of HK? WHAT WAS KYOTO LIKE?? #augh soo many cool things..... #Also also !! Have you learned any mire katakana? #ive JUST learned the vowel line so maybe u lesrned the k line now too? #I cant imagine school is any different. OHH DID U FINISH THE M P 10P COMIC?? #I started it and got abt one page done on the plane #I think it should only end up being two or three pages idk #Ohh !! Hows the new meds going !! I think u should have ur blood test done by now so do u know if it helped at all? #I hope soooooooooooo #Mm I think thats all I have to say .... NO WAIT HAVE U HUNG OUT W/ JACKIE?? #i rlly want to b friends with her ^.^ #Alright Thats all !! HAVE A GOOD DAYYYYYY I LOVE U #queue drop #weather report #WAIT EDIT DID THE TRIGUN VOLUME COME. HOW IS IT

[eternally-tired-cryptid]

on one hand I wanna write my fic ideas wherein my marvel oc gets sent to the alternate universe of Gotham and hijinks ensue whilst she tries to survive and get back and the batfam and such slowly learn more info abt her world and how it's being threatened atm and she needs to go back and help and whatnot.

But on the other hand, the readers wouldn't know the marvel related backstory of this OC and would have. No context for her going in

But ALSO then the readers would know abt as much abt this mysterious figure as the batcrew do, and get to learn via flash backs and her slowly revealing info to them as safety allows

Then there's also just a general. Idk if there's any sort of oc etiquette when it comes to writing oc centered fics? My brain goes so hogwild when I read anything that I usually avoid oc fics other people write just bc I usually read and enjoy fics at face value but I also go "now what would happen if this OC was here?" And that gets real complicated when other people's ocs are involved

#jasper rambles #this is a rambly one yall #fanfic discussion #fanfic etiquette? #i just. listen. i made a vampire oc for captain america specifically of the mcu.. and i was thinking and like. gotham is the Perfect City fo #r a vampire to live right. so like. then i was like what would she do if she ended up in gotham. how would that go. and then i could reveal #her marvel backstory thru tidbits she drops and flashbacks. bc i have her mcu timeline pretty well planned out #tho also her existence (along w a few pther ocs) drastically changes the course of the mcu so some things hapen VERY differently (mainly civ #il war and then the start of the following arcs) so like id aalso have to reveal where the canon divergence from the mcu is during the flash #backs. and then ALSO i have a p decent grasp of the batfam and whatnot but i havent had the oppurtunity to read many comics so i dont even. #what if i just FAIL at their characterization and im actually wronf magically #and then ALSO comes the question of should i include my batman dc oc? bc SHES a whole. package. theres a LOT to unpack w her. tho for this s #pecific fic idea i think itd be fun to just. have her be Another Batfam Member. like yeah shes got her own stuff going on. but this fic woul #dnt dive into it anymore than it dives into the other batfam members #the other issue is deciding where in the mcu timeline this oc gets thrown into an au and why and how or if that affects the mcu timeline fro #m there. cuz thatd need to be decided for the sake of flashbacks. and if im gonna ise flashbacks id love to try and plan it out so it aligns #with the plot happening in gotham. i dont necessarily want like. a running Plot in the flashbacks. but id want them to be scenes from her li #fe in mcu that reveaal stuff that helps understand the decisions she makes in the gotham plot #but ALSO in the gotham plot. id wanna have it either be that her presence has caused some sort of ripple that the gotham baddies are using t #o hirt people or else some other unrelated gotham baddies plot is happening and this oc being herself sees trouble and runs towards it to tr #y and help people. even tho she has her own stuff to deal w. and then makes herself a target of the gangs and also potentially screws someth #ings up bc she doesnt have as intimate of knowledge abt the baddies and gangs as the batfam do since most of em grew up in the streets of g #otham one way or another #so like. and like she can hold her own. she was a young woman in brooklyn in the 30/40s. but its still a different environment in gotham rat #her than in brooklyn new york. so itd be. yeah. tbh i feel like the fact that im putting this much thought into it means i will probably try #to write and post it on ao3. idk when tho. im trying not to post more fics on ao3 so i can focus on my xmen fic #sso. anyway if you read all this feel free to share your thoughts and or like. sorry not sorry for the rambly essay of tags <3 #i told you jasper rambles

[teabookgremlin]

I WANNA BE HAPPT IM READY TO WALK INTO MY ROOM WITHOUT LOOKING FOR YOU GO IP TO THE TOP OF MY BUILDINF AND REMEMBER MY DOG WHEN I SEE THE FULL MOON

#really sad tonight #i miss justice and iris and king #something is hitting me really hard about not having a dog rn #i think it’s that this weekend we’re visiting our parent org and the last i was there was to drop off king #and also im planning on starting to clear his stuff out of my room #i haven’t been able to bring myself to do it yet #and i know all three of my pups are doing awesome #but one of them any of them should still me with me rn #also i’m stressed that the president of the puppy raising club will fuck me over for getting an 8 week old this summer #bc i’m living in a student apartment so dog stuff goes through the student accessibility services #and we’re not sure if they will ok an 8 week old but i don’t think they actually need to know the age of the dog #so we can simply not tell them that it’s a baby bc i doubt it’ll cause any big issues #and i have to pay a pet fee anyway for my apartment so like #but i’m concerned her rule following will somehow fuck it over for me #even tho she’s graduating before i’d even be getting the dog #and if she fucks it over and i have to wait even longer for a dog i’m gonna end up in a shit place mentally #bc rn im just taking time to recover from the hard time i’ve hard raising so far #but by this summer i think i’ll be ready and start hitting a point where not having a dog will be worse mentally than having one #anyway rant over #but yeah this bit of the song is hitting #bc yeah i walk into my room and see the dog kennel #and king should be in it #but he’s not bc he flunked out #and i just am constantly thinking about him or justice or iris #i just feel like shit rn #i also ate too many cadbury mini eggs so my stomach hurts #i think i’m mostly past the point of blaming myself for my dogs’ issues tho so #that’s progress

[lunar-fey]

actually fuck this job forever 👍

#i got so fucking stressed yesterday that i caused a fucking flare up and now i cant stop throwing up #i called off and . idk. i have to go in to the office today to get paperwork. #im gonna very firmly talk to them about changing my schedule #i hate to do that after literally only one day #but i have several excuses prepared #and hopefully i can just get my scedule changed. #i think . worst case. well worse case they just go damn you suck . leave. and then im just Fucked again for money #cause i never even got enough to pay my shit this monthso i had to borrow some money from my parents #but maybe i can just. drop my first shift. which will leave me with only 10 hours a week #but if they really only have morning shifts erm. this may not work out #i havent gotten morning sickness in a long time but its a known symptom of one of my chronic illnesses #plus the stress obviously bc my first client is very disabled and needs more accomodation than i can provide bc im also disabled #idk guys. its only been one day but this For Real isnt working out how it is rn. #i was reading back over my employee handbook tho and it says employees can quit any time #in the first 60 days wirhout penalty so im hoping that means i can also change shifts without penalty...

[toytulini]

If you get the urge to say shit on this post, consider: dont. not looking to engage in a dialogue about this, i will block you

i know this isnt whats gonna happen but god id love to learn nothing about that new hp show. i dont want to hear shit. not even about how bad it is. tmi. dont curse me with that info. why do you know how bad it is. why are you telling me. go look up a weird bug on wikipedia. or dont. dont tell me about it. dont put it on my dash.

#toy txt post #i know thats not whats going to happen tho. i know my dash will be flooded with gifs and screencaps and ppl who #maybe they didnt hatewatch it piracy or otherwise. maybe ill be generous. maybe they read an episode synopsis on wikipedia #and theyre telling us about all the new bad dumb shit theyre doing #and then we're all gonna get mad and spread it and talk about it nonstop #to shame everyone into not watching it #but like in order for this info to get out. one of you watched it. whyd you do that. whyd you tell me about it #and i know for my contrarian friends my wording it like this is making you want to watch it out of spite. its making it sound like #tasty fun spicy forbidden knowledge #no its just gonna be the same dumb stupid boring shit. maybe with an added dash of heinous transphobia antisemitism and racism etc #for gods sake go read a goddamn harry potter fanfiction instead #just dont put it on my fucking dash #im so ready for us to be done with this terfy fuck. for her to be irrelevant. i think thats what would hurt her most. she found a way #to thrive on the controversy shes feeding off the negative attention #and im not saying like dont call her out like i get we have to do that like i Get It i Know #that we cant afford to just ignore her bc shes literally using her billions to influence laws in the uk to hurt ppl #like i know #but god just imagine how much it would suck for her to wake up and nobody fucking cares either way #not mad at her anymore just Done. shes irrelevant #drop her. go do literally anything else #imagine how nice it would be if she puts a show out and nobody talks about it good or baf #bad*. and then theyll be less likely to do more. bc they cant count on it being clickbait that ppl are getting heated about #cos i think this is just. shes in her cancelled comedian netflix special era. shes getting specials about being cancelled and shes Only #getting them bc shes 'cancelled' cos if ppl didnt feel strongly about her good OR BAD it wouldnt get clicks it wouldnt get attention #i wish we could afford to do this i wish ppl would just be fucking allies to trans and jewish ppl about this #im so tired #anyway. ill leave reblogs on this for now. if anyone fucks up they get turned off

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#today i am experiencing a very weird form of stress. one i have not felt since being an undergrad with no self awareness #like i stood at my door for like 15min today with my forehead resting on the wall. trying to get myself to go outside #and that has not happened in a loooong time #at least i managed to get some algae transferred. i did it while feeling halfway outside my body but i did no it #its just the interview i have tomorrow. idk y i agreed to it bc this one im like 90% sure i dont wanna go to #bc one its in new jersey and i dont wanna deal with east coast driving. also its not a ivy league school but its wanky enough that i felt #like i should look up whether it was or not. and i dont think i would b well suited to that sort of environment #also when i interviewed with the guy last time i was iffy abt him as a boss bc idk he felt kinda pretensions and very hands off #but his students like the lab so idk. the project would b cool but like idk not exactly what i want #so fucking idk what im gonna say tomorrow. i dont even kno whats supposed to happen #bc its like i had to pick 3 ppl to interview with but one dropped out and im like... r they just asking generic questions..??? #so im anticipating a cluster fuck but ifk at least its not in person lol. hopefully itll b ok once i start talking #its just had me borderline incapacitated for the last 2 days #aye. i want it to be next week when im. hopefully. having fun touring a school i actually wanna go to #it would b cool to b near the ocean tho. ive never lived thst near an ocean #unrelated #sorry for being so whiney. this month is just a lot rip

[pagesofkenna]

I'm working on a stupid side project for no end goal, please recommend me more songs that use Space as Aesthetic

#not necessarily songs that are about space #tho its OK if they are about space as long as they're not really about space #yknow? see: Space Man and Drops of Jupiter #which I'm told is a stupid song and I should take it off my list and like listen. I will if I get enough better songs instead lmao #im gonna tag #kim seokjin #since astronaut and babylon were the initial seed of this list #also I'm changing the playlist title every five minutes feel free to recommend a better one #I'm trying to think of a pithy way to say 'when we look out at the cosmos we're really trying to look deeper at ourselves'

[vaugarde]

bonking my head to finish that ask blog story update but rn my mind has a changeling infestation apparently bc all i wanna do is make concepts for the changelings specifically in my future au

#i have it sketched out and im gonna try and do more tonight after i eat something #but... i wanna make changeling designs. so bad. #also calling it a future au instead of a nextgen bc idk if thats appropriate for what im doing? #bc nextgen kinda implies everyones getting a kid and im making a ton of kids to make a storyline with #and idk i kinda just wanna fling some designs on the wall to see if they stick and think abt fluff #i also had a barebones idea for chrysalis that i dont think is entirely original but still makes me wanna delve into her character #3 of my fave characters are thorax ocellus and pharynx so i just. forget abt THE queen #the one who gave us the banger that is the season 2 finale #speaking of which i may continue my mlp lb into season 2 if bluey doesnt grip me #at this point im putting off xy AND magireco tbh lol. tho i may just drop the latter ive kinda accepted that im not gonna enjoy it #i dooo wanna try out a mg anime but i got my mind tangled last night with ''oh do i wanna watch the tmm reboot'' #do i wanna watch smile precure dubbed or subbed bc apparently the dub sucks but its harder for me to get into subs... #so. putting those on the backburner til i can at least see what i can find online #idk if netflix has the original smilepre (ik it has glitter force) but idk if i can see it without changes and such #echoed voice #also if i do continue mlp i may or may not continue into season 3 since thats short. but def taking a break on season 4 #and idk if ill continue after that tbh. if i do im only doing select episodes it doesnt look very worth it lmao

[oldestking]

/ A.lhaitham has been t.hreatening me since he appeared-

#;ooc #ooc #IM NOT GONNA LIE I MADE A K.AVEH BLOG THO #part of me bc omg hes an architect and the other bc i don't think fandom takes him seriously at all #like hes starting to get the c.hilde treatment where he only ever exist bc of a.lhaitham and not bc he is his own character #but a.lhaitham was the first one ive looked at after dropping my g.enshin blogs- #i would prob not write in the g.enshin rp f.andom bc im kind of very wary- #like i dunno;; it makes me feel a lil uncomfortable? i feel much more comfy in the f.ate fandom rn #or maybe i shoumd just say with my current mutuals #but the pain man- I CANT PICK- a.lhaitham or k.aveh #in one hand i feel like i have written charas like a.lhaitham for some time now #so maybe i could use trying to write someone diff #but then- :sobbing in hands: #i also miss my sword guys😭😭 #f.ate still has me by the throat tho #i love my f.ate muses very much thabk u 😌 #also shout-out to santa k.arna + k.arna and a.rju that are gonna come soon 😌😌😌 #also to expand on the blog thingy; i made him but i have nothing there #so it could be a a.lhaitham blog- who knows (?)

[todayisafridaynight]

OH about the finale at the shrine, this completely slipped my notice when we were talking about it, but Ichi says he's "reporting" Jo's verdict to both Arakawa and Masato. It's just not translated that way.

Not too big of a difference (well, it is to me, but I'm insane), but if it was highlighting anything, I'd guess it's probably Masato's change of heart. It would've been fair for Ichi to assume Masato wouldn't care and only "report" to Arakawa, but in the context of Ichi doing his damnedest to show Masato they all love him, it works in terms of, "Maybe I made him reconsider, and maybe now he would care."

Also... I'm looking at it in a "measured" way, since the chapter trophies are always just standard "Nth Chapter Cleared" messages that the localization team just spices up for us, but there's something I find really poignant about the Chapter 13 trophy being worded as "Fate of Our Fathers." The pluralization of both the noun and pronoun. Realizations that come too late.

Of course, Masato definitely didn't "know" and had no real reason to suspect it, but the Arakawas have this bizarre subconscious almost-psychic link. So even if he doesn't really think so, there's this sense that Ichi "might as well" be Arakawa's "real" son because they're so much more alike. And maaaybe he felt that way about Jo and himself at one point, because (as we've discussed) there has to be a reason Jo was Masato's "favorite."

[Follow up to this ask]

#snap chats #yeah i have no real notes sorry LMAO LIKE THIS IS GOOD ON ITS OWN YK. every base is covered #LIKE nothing i could say could really enhance anything or add much. god im so bad at words i should drop dead right now #i can reaffirm that masato definitely sees ichi as arakawass 'real' son if his whole 'you remind me of dad' bit is anything to go off of #thats a weird line/sentiment now aint it #masato didnt consider him and ichi as family and ergo he's angry at how similar ichi and arakawa are #i guess that's more of a deep-dive into that hypothetical masato essay ill probably never get to- why masato hates arakawa like he does #about 'fate of /our/ /fathers/' tho thats def an interesting point no matter how you slice it #'our fathers' could refer to arakawa and sawashiro and ichi and masato respectively #i.e. masumi- ichi's bio father and sawashiro- masato's bio father- and what happens to them by the end of the game yk #there's an alt way to see if as both arakawa and sawashiro as both ichi and masato's fathers #though im gonna chewing my cheek on that one. sure we've compared sawashiro to an abusive stepparent #idk... i think it's just cause ichi shows up well into his teens that it doesnt register in my brain that sawashiro could be a father figur #but thats MY personal dumb ass rambling im just here to vaguely try to interpret the title in multiple ways to cover everything #moving on tho... the use of 'our' prevents 'fathers' referring to only one of them . so. Aforementioned Possibilities have been listed #making it sound like i have anything else to say I DONT I ALREADY SAID EVERYTHING dummy. putting myself in the dunce corner #on that note. hopefully it finally got through to masato how much people loved him before he got ganked #i mean for sure it did but yk. still mad about y7 ending im gonna kill someone In Minecraft #'i have nothing else to say' LIAR YOU ARE A LIAR !!!!! THE FUCK ARE THESE TAGS STUPID ASS #anyway im going back to my google doc. im almost done with another cringe fic. sorry #BYE

[kirishwima]

im. not doing well 🤡

#if ur grossed out by blood and periods dont read further #but having pcos fucking sucks #ive had my period for TWO WEEKS #today is my breaking point in combo w the exhaustion of work #im dizzy nauseous and my blood pressure is rly low #and i got shortness of breath which is probs bc of anxiety but like 🤡 #and i had a family emergency to deal with which had me running frantically from work back home #i feel like death #im gonna drop by the hospital later for an ultrasound #and i took some iron supplements but i think. i might need IV ones again #dont rly feel like waiting to get labs done tho #might just go to my dads private practice and see if i can get it done there #and im trying to reschedhule my night shift tomorrow bc im Not Well Enough to go #i need a day to stay in bed bc im so far over burnout right now its a whole new level #burrito talks #not fandom related #delete later

[asparagusgremlin]

Boyf and i starting yakuza 6: oh this starts out so nice :) there's a few flaws so far but it's not too awful! I dont really understand why people dont like this game

Boyf and i now at the beginning of chapter 6: this fucking sucks jesus christ now we get it

#this is gonna get progressively worse im sure #they used almost every single drop of their good writing juice on y0 #and the last few bits in majima everywhere #lol #having this be the last fucking game in kiryu saga makes me sad cuz this fucking stinks #i will admit i like certain elements of the story like obvi haruto is very cute and fun #but a lot of it is just us going 'kiryu what the fuck are you doing' #esp that one fucking idol substory in onomichi where it's just a mirror of haruka's situation #and the dialogue option 'love is more important than entertainment' is WRONG #and you have to choose 'theyre doing what's best for you' or whatever it is to get the correct dialogue #and the boyf and i got MAD AS FUCK #CUZ THAT'S THE COMPLETE FUCKING OPPOSITE OF WHAT YAKUZA 5 IS ABOUT!! #anyways i hope this game doesnt get even fucking worse (it probably will) #i like yuta tho :) nagumo can burn in hell for all i care i think yuta is fun and nice #but yeah #yakuza ramblings #gremlin talk #edit nothing particular happens at the beginning of chapter 6 iirc thats just where we left off tonight lolz

[a9saga]

i want scandal to cover the new big time rush song “honey”

#of the four songs theyve put out since reuniting thats the best one imo #i actually like not giving you up the least #i like em all tho #i say this because honey is a song that reminds me that women are hot #which is weird because men are singing it #i really am gay but anyway #i think thatd sound really good with a scandal/girl band kind of edge tho and i think it could definitely fall within the scandal range #honey actually dropped thursday and i was thinking of posting either that one or the new a9 single to wish saga a happy belated birthday #literally being the face and name of my blog and all #(said it before for shou but we love a 40 year old man) #but yeah i didnt feel like posting on thursday i was too sick i didnt feel like shit tbh #i need to stop or im gonna get on a tangent about missing work oh no #point is this is the summer of big time rush and scandal but for me like pretty much only for me #i dont imagine theres a big fanbase overlap and i am just seeing/have seen them this summer and im hype about it #im wearing my forever tour shirt now because i think thats where i got sick lol im thinking of wearing it to see scandal too #but we'll see when the day comes #scandal #big time rush #shut up kaily #(also i dont have covid just a cold.... but i was sitting in between a ton of people so you know)

[kiwibirb1]

Gosh dangit I found a way to squeeze in another tavern scene but then I went and put it in marcy's pov so I have to find something for her to do while Anne and Sasha have mysterious conversations oOoOoOo

#ehehe i love dropping little lore bits for my au in writing #cant figure out what to name it though... #kinda wanna do one of those long names but thats so many words to think up #def wanna include tavern in it i mean its turning into just sasha being grumpy in her tavern #kinda feeling motivated to write an outside perspective of like the entire love story thing just to figure out how they yknow actually do- #the whole romance thing because its literally supposed to be a sasharcy fic thats what its called in my drafts #“sasharcy guard fic” #literaly #lol ive just been writing side fics while i procrastinate the main one #but im not gonna post any of the aide ones until the main is at least partially out #damn this fic is getting long tho #(im sorry Onli i might come back to you eventually) #(im just struggling with how to write sun) #ao3 #writing