#i still hadnt cleaned up all of it tho

[brainworms-all-night-long]

Look at my self indulgent dishelved sewer rat-looking fursona for Jinx boy (they look better on most days but y'know)

Cutting this off now cuz I'm fairly sure I'll be adding more to this in a reblog later

They/them for this creation of mine for epik and deep lore purposes that I will not write out rn because if I commit to the bit it would end up being 4am with me having to go to school by 6

All the context you get for now is that since the reference image is from the last episode, my guy(gn) here is after one severe beating from Knux(Ekko)(<-reason why the tails look so beaten and you can't see it but one is missing, see; angst reasons) an arm length explosion from their own bomb(realized way too late that the bomb actually blew up on Jinx's right hand side, way too late as in, half of coloring finished already. well in my AU it happened on Nine's left hand side!!!) and a bunch of Dark Gaia juices(Shimmer)(<-will think about the technicalities of thisnkater) injected into them as an effort to keep them from dying

#sonic prime #prime arcane #<-the name Ill be using fornthis AU cuz trust me theres Thoughs on it alright #ive been sorting this thing out in my head since feb of last year #which is when I made..my firts attempts at drawing sonic characters #someone liked that post fairly very recently which. gud lord. I'll have to redraw all that at some point #girl what WRE YOU THINKINGGG #ahem anyway #you get one more breadcrumb of lore here since youre reading my tags for one reason or another #this is really just the sonic cast plus some very cherrypicked (new yoke) prime characters between them. or disguised as character arcs #aaaand is also an Eggman raise Tails but its Nine actually typa deal #more on that later #i still hadnt cleaned up all of it tho #like who tf to put in Jayces place my ass cannot think of someone to put there instead of his smug mug #ill make a list of the characters later #yea later I has to eep now #i said I will give only the bare essencials and here I am oh well- #miles nine prower #nine the fox #jinx #arcane jinx #crossover #mah art #me does arts #actually finished doodl

[cerneterydrive]

//

#i think someone just quit 💀 #they crossed all her days off the schedule and rescheduled all my days 😭 #this is so funny the schedules all fucked up now #AND ITS BARELY TUESDAY 😭😭 #its so funny like tmr theres one person per shift 😭 #they gave me tmr off tho<3 i stay winning fr #except not actually bc i cleaned literal human shit off the floor yesterday #LMAOOOO THAT WAS SO FUNNY #like when i was about to go the kitchen lady was like que dios te bendiga mija 😭😭😭😭 #tmr off <3 tmr off<3 #gonna try to close kitchen earlier today so i can actually leave at 8 #i put in an extra hour yesterday so im fine w just the 7 hours today i think 🧍‍♀️ #i just wont make the jalapeños today cause if i hadnt done that last time i closed kitchen i wouldve ended on time #plsssusodu pls let my manager leave on time today so i can actually close when i want 😭 #cause i fr have to start closing at like 5:30-6 if i wanna leave right at 8 #ALSO THEY BETTER NOT LEAVE ME LIKE 100 TORTILLAS TODAY CAUSE IM GONNA LOOSE MY MIND IF I CANT LEAVE ON TIME BC OF FUCKING TORTILLAS AGAIN😭 #last time i only had to do like.... 60 and thats why i finished pretty early #but still #sad

[mangosrar]

Should’ve, would’ve, could’ve.

chris sturniolo x fem reader.

suggestive idk??? idgaf tho 😛

You and Nick had been bestfriends since pre-k. Attatched at the hip since crayons and numberjacks. 14 years later, youre both now 20 still going strong, with celebrity gossip, and a hot brother.

Obviously nick was a triplet wich meant as well as him, you had 2 more built in best friends Chris and Matt. You had always been closer to Matt than you were Chris, however, you and Chris were close in a different way. It was an unspoken relationship with him. Years of flirting, lingering stares, light touches and hugs that lasted just a little too long for best freinds, however no one dared to ever speak on it, and neither of you ever acted on it. ever.

When the triplets moved to LA you were devestated. You felt like a part of your heart was moving accross the country, however you were so proud of the boys, and cheered them on the whole way. They assured you they would visit all the time, and they would fly you out to la whenever you wanted, at the drop of A hat, which brings you to now.

Matt had picked you up from the airport earlier this morning, it was now closer to midnight and all 4 of you were in the living room watching a movie. You'd caught up with them all and got over the excitment of being reunited, but Chris hadn't really said much. The most hed said was a quick "you look good" ,but that was only for your ears, he had made sure to say it into your hair, almost silently, as he wrapped you up in his arms when you got back to the house.

Apart from that, he hadnt dared come too close in fear he might jump your bones there and then. He was losing it. He made sure to sit on the other end of the couch, putting as much distance between you as he possibly could.

Sure you understood why, buy secretly you wished you would get a moment alone with him so you could make a move. Unbeknown to you, Chris was just as desperate as you were. Something had changed between you both and it hung heavy in the air.

"Im gonna go clean up the kitchen, y/n come help me"

Bingo.

Your pov:

I smiled and quickly scurried off the couch and follewed chris into the kitchen, expecting to find him clearing up the mess we made, but i was pleasently surprised when a hand caught my wrist and pulled me to the side, causing me to yelp.

I was faced with warm blue eyes and a lazy smirk on his face. His body against mine, his hands on my waist, i could feel his breath on my face with the closeness.

All of the confidence i had earlier, talking about me making a move, was long fucking gone when he brushed my hair over my shoulder and moved his face to my neck. He left soft open mouth kisses on my collarbones and slowly moved up to my neck. My insides were screaming.

My breath caught in my throte when he moved his hands lower, hovering above my ass. "chris....matt or nick could see". My breathing quickened and my voice dared to let out a whine.

"Missed you baby". He said completely ignoring my paranoia. I couldnt help but let out an airy moan at the nickname. My hands moved up to his hair, and i tugged softly on it earning a groan from him. Gotcha.

His lips moved up to the spot below my ear that made me week in the knees. He lingered on the spot that made me shudder, biting genty, definetley leaving a mark.

I put one hand on the side of his face, pulling his head up so i could see him. god give me some self conrol. He looked so sexy. I couldnt help but let my eyes gander over his face, his cheeks were pink with need.

"Keep looking at me like that and ill show you just how much I’ve missed you". His voice was raspy and hushed. His eyes boring into mine. Fuck it.

I pulled his face down to mine and closed the space between us. His lips fit perfectly into mine. His hands moved down to the plush of my ass and gripped it, pulling me impossibly closer. I could feel everything on him. Everything.

His tongue fought with mine, running it acroos the roof of my mouth and the kiss became hot and heavy. Chris started walking me backwards, until my back hit the counter. He hoisted me up and pushed my legs apart so he could settle between them. I had one hand on his chest and the other at the nape of his neck.

His were everwhere, one hand going from the inside of my thigh, to under the back of my shirt. One loosly resting on my neck. He was addicting. I was i no rush to silece the whines coming out of my mouth, and Chris was welcoming them, swallowing them up with his lips.

He moved down to my neck again, licking a stripe up my throat. Im losing it. Im losing it. Im losing it.

His precence was suffocating me in the best way. All i could feel was his lips and hands all over me, he was in my head. My brain shouting his name like a mantra.

Chris. Chris. Chris.

Slowly he pulled away. Face still just inches in front of mine. I couldve died a happy woman right there and then. His hair was messy from my wandering hands, his breathing was heavy, his pupils were blown out, his lips were puffy and wet from my own.

"i shouldve done that years ago"

Yes Chris, yes you should have.

i need him like medically bro. MEOW.

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[ohshy]

Feelin kinda down so fuck it- how about some burnt bread hcs if you got any?

If not, how about disco kid?

~ fan-mans

hope u feel better soon bro ! also HELL YEAH BURNT BREAD !!!!!!!! one of my favorites :3

so where does it all begin? well.... (under the cut bc its Long)

aran didnt actually have to use any of dirty tricks to take joe down, so they didn't start off on that bad of a foot, or a bad foot at all. (fighting is par for the course for this sport, of course.)

that being said though, you still see n hear things ab eachother, and have assumptions as a result. Aran initally sees joe as a snobby, wimpy man, and joe aran as a scary, unpredictable brute.

eventually, however, aran starts looking at joe... a little differently. he pranks him a lot because yknow. its funny. but joe doesnt seem to mind it at all... in fact, he takes his pranks really well, and it makes aran see strong joe is in a way and how much of a sense of humor he has.

joe at the other hand, noticed that aran, outside the ring, was actually fairly tame, outside of his pranks of course. it helped a lot with mellowing his perception of him. combine this joe's many hobbies and aran's try-everything attitude, and youve got the start of a click !

news of their little budding relationship spreads around the minor- and world circuit, and kaiser begins to take notice ab how joe talks ab aran, how hed normally b horrified at the prospect of him being anywhere NEAR him.

so one day, in all his eternal german grace, he says...

''well if you love him so much, why don't you two kiss, hm?''

and joe hadnt gotten that thought out of his head since.

as for disco kid hcs, ive already told most of them so ill talk ab how the minor circuit reacted to joe wanting to confess to aran instead !!

disco, albeit kinda scared of aran, is ecstatic for joe, wishes him luck and wants to know EVERYTHING about how it went afterward

i imagine hippo would be pretty whatever about it. guy isnt too concerned ab peoples love lifes. wishes him luck like disco tho.

meanwhile kaiser? ''Eh, it is your funeral''

I imagine the world circuit wouldn't be as close with eachother seeing as how theyre busier n likely more hounded by journalists, but they do know in broad terms what goes on in the lives of eachother.

so macho catches wind of aran's crush, and he basically shittalks joe to arans face

''I know everyone's standards are too high for you, but joe's just a sad bar, even for you.''

Aran, not even reacting to the dig against him, starts ranting to macho about how joe is admirable as all hell for getting back up after 99 losses, and how that must mean he has a real love and respect for the sport. He even boldly exclaims that joe arguably works harder than macho, the victories who seems to come so easily to him.

macho eventually leaves, deciding aran's not worth his precious time.

aran then turns around, and OMG HE SEES JOE STANDING THERE !!!!!

anyway he heard all about what aran said (thats right, overhearing ooc conversations and miscommunication happening is OUT, overhearing conversations and gaining respect for someone is IN), and confesses right there and then. aran, hearing prolly the most romantic speech thats ever been directed to him in his entire life, is at a loss for words. He can't say anything other than ''of course, joey.''

and thats the start of their relationship :3

as for other misc hcs that dont fit anywhere else...

one time, when cleaning out aran's jacket pockets (joe's a bit of a neat freak), he found... a bunch of lint. But also !! he found a ton of crumpled up notes. They included phrases for the ring, comedic poems... but they also had affirmations for himself, about his family, but also about joe. joe, sans the lint, left the pockets as is. ever since then though, he's felt closer to him than ever.

joe will often try to pick up aran like a princess. considering hes still decently muscled, he can do it succesfully.

joe loves baking, especially bread, but aran will ALWAYS manage to set something on fire. think spencer from icarly.

they infodump to eachother ab their respective countries histories and folk tales, joe esp ab the former n aran ab the latter.

one time, joe and aran set out for a night walk. then, they (or rather aran) thought he heard a banshee screech. what they actually heard prolly was a car tire screeching in the distance. aran, however, was never the less scared SHITLESS and ran tf home, screaming highpitched. He had to be comforted by joe all night after they got home.

aran loves going to theme parks. he loves the rush. joe, however, hates the tall rides like the rollercoasters, n prefers the calmer rides like the teacups. They have a ''goes onto the rollercoaster alone'' x ''holds the persons stuff while theyre gone'' dynamic.

they rly like singing duets together, especially after a couple drinks. wine in joe's case and beer in arans case. theyve sang at macho's parties before as well, and needless to say they make for great entertainment.

aran often sends joe cursed memes n selfies that joe just Does Not understand

''aran, i will Not hold feet with you, zat's disgusting''

''come on joey..... do ye love me or not......''

#aran ryan #glass joe #burnt bread #punch out wii #punch out #hope u enjoy charlie !!!! had a lot of fun working on these #these two make my heart warm :3 #headcanons #monkey brain typing #asks #glass joe x aran ryan #aran ryan x glass joe

[imperpetuallylost]

happy birthday, i’m sorry your day wasn’t the best! if you wanna talk about it, i’m always here for you! and if you’d prefer not to, here’s some love <3333

i think my form of talking abt it will just be complaining so heres a list of shit that happened today <3 thank you ily

my car wouldnt start

jumped it and eventually it started

we hadnt really shoveled enough so i couldnt get out of the driveway

i ended up having to get a ride to school and barely made it on time

like half my friends forgot it was my bday until reminded by someone else (i mean thats kinda whatever)

my laptop broke (ended up getting fixed by it but still a pain)

someone threw up in my chem class

also i broke a test tube in chem

somehow like half my class had lost their sense of smell and never got it back after having covid so i was like the only one that sat there the whole class nauseous from having to smell it even after they cleaned it up

were all gonna die if theres a gas leak bc no one will notice bc no one can smell shit

multiple classes sang at me bc yk ur friends always tell everyone but its always kinda miserable

my mom like filled my brothers car w balloons and wrote all over it for his 18th bday and did like nothing for me

to be fair i didnt have my car at school today but still she wasnt going to

also to be fair its bc my brother told her not to bc he hated it and i kinda wouldve hated it too but i also hated feeling like he got that and no one cared enough to do smthn for me

bought my first scratch ticket and didnt become a millionaire

won zero dollars

that one's not shocking at all

had to recompose myself after crying abt being a horrible ungrateful person bc i forgot to feed my dog so then i had to go downstairs and see my parents again when i had just been crying

one of like my two best friends has not wished me a happy birthday she has 24 more minutes and yes i am actively crying about that

she sucks at staying in touch sometimes even tho we still go to school together so im really worried abt staying in touvh w her next year :(

thats it ig like idk like no individual thing was that bad but today just felt like an onslaught

so far being an adult is like 2/10 would not recommend

[swagging-back-to]

the way im still reeling from just how much my sister let me down

rant incoming bc im genuinely still mad

like i dont even know how to describe this feeling. 'let me down'is such an understatement.

i went into the weekend knowing it was gonna be awful bc she had just started taking ketamine from her psychotic male friend and was planning on bringing all sorts of psychedlics and hard drugs like ket and molly to a party thats like 2hrs away from either of our houses and in a place we dont know.

she didnt tell me if she needed a place to sleep till half an hour before she was gonna get there and i still hadnt eaten any food at all yhat day. so i had to clean the guest room with all my roommates shit piled to the ceiling and cook at the same time. AND THEN SHE NEVER EVEN STAYED TO SLEEP.

she parked like half an hour away from the party right next to the worlds shadiest and darkest park in existence that had 5 guys just standing behind trees watching us go to the car. and then she wanted subway so we walked like half an hour to subway just for her to decide "im not actually hungry teehee"

and when i was like nah im gonna go eat now if youre gonna play this shit before we even go to the party. we go into an asian restaurant and SHES NEVER FUCKING BEEN IN ONE? all she eats is spaghetti and mac and cheese. didnt even know what a fucling spring roll is. she ate it (a THAI STYLE SPRING ROLL!!!!) like it was a lump of shit. like she ripped it apart with her hands and picked at it with a grimace. i verbally called her out on how stupid that is multiple times.

and then she got mad at me when i tried to tip the waiter everything i had in my wallet ($4) and tried to say i shouldnt tip at all. and in the same breath shared how whenever she doesnt get tipped she wishes death on the person. im actually very anti tipping and i never tip unless im with someone else and they do it. so i was like "he either gets four dollars or he gets fucking nothing. thats whats in my wallet so thats what he gets."

and she asked if ice has gluten in it which is genuinely the dumbest diet question ive ever been asked and ive had dozens of people try to tell me chicken and fish are vegetabels.

she waited until we were right at the door to pop open her fireball and then was like "yeah what if i just throw it on the ground in front of a hundred people and two cops" as if both of us arent underage.

speaking of underage <3 she left an entire box of twisted tea in the car for 3 hours completely unlocked while the cops prowled the streets ♡♡♡♡♡ said she doesnt see why the car needs to be locked even tho it had her id hanging from the mirror with big bold letters saying 'not even 20'

then when we were about to be jumped by the guy following us she kept doing like. the exact opposite of what you should do. kept screaming loudly "omg youre sober!?!?!?!" whenever i would say 'yeah im sober enough to get the fuck out of this place we need to fucking leave'. even as a COP WAS RIGHT NEXT TO US.

and when i was begging her to call the people she knew in the area she called them each one time. never explained the situation. to the point one of them thought she was just joking (which says a lot about how she normally acts that he thought she was joking). and then looked at me like i was being unreasonable for telling her to just CALL THEM and TALK TO THEM so we arent just two high women stumbling down the street quietly. it only ended up happening because she accidentally butt dialed one of her fwb and then was too embarassed to tell him she was with me [her sister] (called me 'some friend') and refused to even look at me when she was talking to him.

and this isnt even the entire fucking event. this is just the main points.

im just genuinely scared to be moving in with her at this point, not knowing whether she'll willingly bring back a predatory male or if she'll take hard drugs in my apartment (im the primary tenant and pay almost all the bills. it's my apartment.) or if she's gonna try to out my dogs to the landlord and get them evicted because "i just dont really like small dogs at all." or if shes gonna quit her job just like 'oh and btw i wont come in tomorrow bc this place is shit and i dont think one of my coworkers'despite not having any job lined up afterwards (she has actually done this!!!) and refusing to get a job closer or better paying because "oh maybe in the warmer months illthink of it" ??????

like she is just so.untrustworthy and so outrageously just.... not all there. even just the few things ive told my case manager makes her go 'is she diagnosed as bipolar? she sounds like my unmedicated bipolar clients."

like yepppp she sure fucking does. im pretty sure our bio mother was a bipolar schizophrenic (schizo diagnosed but idk about bipolar)

[squeakybuny]

an older horny short story from 2020 written completely off the cuff in a discord chat buntoy n lichen cw bondage, vacbed

lichen greenmane , the gnoll scavenger is picking thru the ruins of an ancient city, when she finds a buried sarcophagus as she clears the soil from it she finds a small panel, glowing red the runes upon it read "lock timer error" eventually she uncovers the whole lid and pries it loose with a crowbar and a little help from her robot horse inside, is a very very very mindbroken buntoy with a big unchanging smile around her muzzle donut, completely unresponsive until lichen lays her paw on the toys hip handle a slight twitch betrays the doll isnt quite inanimate… "holy shit, ive never seen one of these that still works…" she thinks to herself before hesitantly, uttering "buntoy, up" sure enough the toy scrambles from its tomb and stands bolt upright in front of the gnoll a devilish grin spreads across lichens face she ties the toy up real tight, stuffs her into a saddlebag of her bike and rides off towards home back at lichens hut she looked over the toy it had leaked all over the inside of her saddlebag, so def self lubricating. it very obediently followed the simple commands lichen barked at it too. no switches or remote to be found so if it had a voice, shed never hear it.

when she took it into her outdoor shower to wash it off, it humped her handpaw as she was cleaning its toyhole "oh, an eager toy arent you?" she said, gently pulling her paw away. she instead grabbed its handles and pulled it close "i can help with that" she whispered into its ear

lichen turned off the water - the toy is clean enough anyway. she lifted it by its hip handles and took it inside, roughly tossing it into her huge bed

she undressed and walked up to the bed, her massive frame towering over the little soft buntoy. the toy wiggled her hips a little at the sight of that yeen peen,,, but lichen put a paw around her neck and growled "not yet toy, im gonna have some fun with you first"

the toy didnt resist at all when the gnoll pulled a coil of rope off her wall and got to work tying its legs n arms behind its back

completely trussed up, the buntoy squirmed with excitement as lichen pushed pushed in her oversized hen, stretching the toys hole. it shivered with pleasure as she thrust again and again into its tight hole, anf it arched its back as they both came simultaneously…

lichen pulled out her hen, and buntoy was beginning to relax in the afterglow when she thrust it into her ass "youre a really lucky toy - i was reeeally pent up when i found you…" lichen notices cum starting to drip from buntoys muzzle donut, even tho she hadnt used it yet "aww, is buntoy full?" the toy meekly nods "lemme help you out then" she replies and reaches under the bed, pulling out 3 very large knotty dildos. she pushes them into buntoys ass and toyhole, then starts fucking buntoys muzzle donut

soon the toys belly is bulging with gnoll cum… lichen pulls out and quickly stuffs the last knot into her muzzle donut

"…i have an idea" lichen again digs through her things; she pulls out a big plastic bag, and a shop vac "usually i use this trick to keep food fresh and clothes dry on long trips, but i have a special plan for you, buntoy"

she stuffs buntoy into the bag, still tied up with her arms n feet behind her back, and jerks off one last time onto the toy before sealing the bag with a piece of metal she heated over her fire

she plugs the shopvac into the bag and switches it on, gently stroking the toys vace thru the plastic as it shrinks around her

"youve been such a good toy, i wanna make you all mine - by the time ur done in this bag, my smell will be embedded in your rubber, and itll never come out." she ran a bit of extra rope thru the eyelets in the top of the bag, and slung the whole thing over one of the rafters of her hut, so it could swing and not hit anything

she kisses the squirming bundle on its nose, and gently strokes its toyhole, "have fun in there buntoy~"

and walks back out the door on another adventure, locking it securely behind her

[forestryfae]

also they have like, when youre good enough at cleaninga nd keeping stuff clean and tidy and you have a good enough routine and you dont really need help with it anymore, you might be able to move into one of the apartments they have here at inpatient. and i rly hope im able to get into one soon ngl

problem is tho, i am not that good at keeping things clean and tidy. wish i was but i have to force myself to do it and that rarely starts to happen until it actually gets really really bad. last minute cleaning zoomies kind of fucked up arrangement in my brain i guess??? and on top of thta i completely fell out of my routine in like early november/december when i started having to plan to go home even tho i fucking hate that place. and then i got back an i got no fucking follow up or anything until i hadnt been to work in a month. like yeah maybe thats. maybe thats because i needed antidepressants and i didnt get to talk to a psychologist or anything when i got here cus they dont have one. and i didnt get any followups beyond "go to work" and i had no coping mechanisms or help to find any

like thats the worst part about this place. they take zero accountability for their own fuckups cus "you have to be responsible" like fuck off? do your fucking job so we dont have to be on your asses to get you to do One Single Thing

and they just dont actually undertsand that sometimes people struggle cus they grew up neglected and fucking terrified all the time. i very much would love to be able to not worry 24/7 about being normal enougha nd existing correctly but i am, again, unmedicated, have no therapy, was taught im not allowed to have emotions or im stupid as shit, i was yelled at for the tiniest fucking thing cus both of my parents are fucking insane, and i straight up did not grow up with any kind of like. they didnt teach me shit. showing your kid how to turn on a dishwasher or washingmachine is not the same as teaching your kid shit

mom took over EVERYTHING. i got my first apartment cus she wanted me out of the house so she got me one. i never had a choice in learning to drive cus she just signed me up for drivers lessons without telling me until after shed spent the money. she arranged to meet with a realtor without me and i didnt actually get much say in what house to buy if im being honest. i got to look at them, yeah, but i still needed her permission to buy them and she wouldnt let me look at any she didnt like or didnt think i should live in. shes been in charge of the renovation the whole time without talking to me, and just. bought stuff whenever with my money without consulting me. didnt bring me along for the stuff i did want to look at myself either, they just bought me stuff and that was that. why should i be involved in my own life after all

and thats what im grown up with. insults and yellinga nd screaming and being talked down to and degraded and mocked and bullied, zero fucking support, everything i do is supposed to be automated and they shouldnt have to act like parents at all, i should just know things. no teaching me shit, no actual good follow ups, not being involved in anything revolving myself. school was fucking horrible and i was not in any way helped or protected from that, they let me think it was my own fault i was being bullied and treated me the same fucking way the teachers and bullies did, there was pretty much no sympathy for that and they never fucking talke dto me about that, any mental illnesses are completely free for all to be mocked and ridiculed if they feel like it, and im lazy for being burnt out and crying literally every day for hours, no support, just. absolutely fucking horrible. i grew up with that. thats shit i didnt know wasnt normal. i didnt know none of that is how normal people treat eachother. i still feel like a fucking idiot whenever i set a basic boundary. there are foods i stay away from or hide from others that i eat because i used to get yelled at and shamed for eating them, im fucking scared to discuss stuff i want or want to do or think would be fun to try cus im worried ill be talked out of it or ridiculed, im constantly worried people fucking hate my guts or im about to be treated like dogshit for existing in a way i didnt know was wrong. like. i have to do my own fucking psychology lessons with myself cus i dont get help anywhere and i dont get help thats meaningful from anywhere. im so focused on Doing Things Right that i need to get a good grade in therapy. literally what the fuck

anyways i wish they had better ways to help people than just. do laundry go for a walk go to work socialize.

what if you hate yourself for doing laundry. or not doing it. or youre worried youll do it wrong. what if going for a walk fucking sucks because youre not supposed to have fun unless you have a good reason to do so, or youre scared youre not allowed to exist in the outside world and youll get yelled at for going for a walk, or you think people will be able to tell you dont know where youre going so theyll think youre a fuckking idiot. what if you cant socialize because you dont actually know how and noone ever taught you or treated you like you were important so you never learned. like. this is the kind of shit i still need help with. going to work is only gonna help so much. i still need help with the rest of. existing as a normal person.

but yeah anyways i think its dumb that they have in total 11 rooms with a bathroom, 1 room with a bathroom and kitchen, 2 small apartments, one cottage, two houses, and another large apartment. but we cant use the houses or the apartment because one house isnt technically liveable somehow?? under renovation ig? the other house had a pipe burst so now when you do laundry tehre your clothes smell like sewage afterwards, and the third apartment is being used by students like twice a year so noone can use it. its fucking dumb. give me the apartment for students. ill live with the students. i dont care. i just wanna make dinner on my own.

#talkies

[skyeateyourdonuts]

hi im gonna barf this out to get it out of me and ill be done (long rant ahead)

the similarities i see between carmilla and good omens are as thus:

(SPOILERS FOR THE END OF GOOD OMENS S2 and also carmilla but thats been out for ages so whatevs)

season one: ended with Big Problem solved and then together

season two: started with them together (tho undefined for aziracrow) and then their relationship got more tragic as the season progressed either bc of Not communicating (aziracrow) or different ideals (hollistein) and thus they Broke up (even tho the former arent even official) and even tho "grumpy and unaffected" is mad at "loyal and good-to-a-fault", they try to warn them of what the consequences of their decisions will be bc they know Bad like their good counterpart has never seen and dont want them to get hurt in the same way they did. HOWEVER "good" ends up choosing to make the mistake themselves and witness the consequences themselves

unfortunately that means "grumpy and brokenhearted" is now hurt by "loyal to a fault" and that means reconciliation but the person that actually did The Wrong and caused Hurt isnt entirely either one (tho in carmilla id argue laura Did do big wrongs in s2 i mean i know she thought she was doing the right thing but girl. u turned off the CAMERA u knew it was bad like? u Knew u just hadnt. said it to urself yet i think) but it does mean that "good"'s choice will lead to more than just hurting of their once-partner/almost-once-a-partner but huge universe changing consequences that could lead to more than just regular heartbreak but real death and destruction

anyways ill talk Just about good omens from now on i NEEDED to verablize the similarities and also just as got incredibly dedicated to carmilla for this exact tragicness u can all expect me to be just as devoted to this other tragedy what can i say i love watching tragic romances where its one who knows better and the other who will learn the hard way its so!!!!! PEAK ROMANCE!!!

LIKE just to have someone still be devoted to u and incredibly star-crossed for u EVEN AFTER u make one of the most life changing mistakes a person could ever make and then (in carmillas case) help u clean it up like!!!!! they tried to warn u, u wanted to learn, now uve learned, so thyre gonna help u!!! I JUST!!! THATS REAL ROMANCE AND LOVE TO ME!!! AAAAAAAAAA

(BONUS: THERES QUEER PEOPLE EVERYWHERE IN BOTH SHOWS :DDDD QUEER PEEEEOPPPLLEEE!!!)

#carmilla #good omens #good omens spoilers #good omens s2 #good omens s2 spoilers #carmilla spoilers #hollistein #gata #aziracrow #? thats the ship name right idfk #ALSO QUEER PEOPLE EVERYWHERE #okie thats enough bye bye

[jocy-diaries]

07.05.2022

Day Fourteen: Florence

Okay, feeling a little better today. Still freaking out about the mlis/phdlis option and my internship not being all I wanted it to be, but sleeping tends to help these thoughts. Really wanted to shower but I was too depressed last night and woke up late :x I'm gonna have to start taking my anxiety medicine regularly again. Welp, day two of the internship and I'm thinking of taking a new route since I trust none of these bus bitches anymore.

Although I swear, waiting aimlessly by the bus stop will be the end of me. Especially when its constantly fucking late. I definitely prefer trains to busses. Trains are way more punctual and reliable.

I'm so fucking tired of this. The bus literally just drove past us with two people at the stop. So fucking useless. Okay i might have found a way around it maybe... Buy I'm so annoyed with being late all the time. I'll just have to start saying ':30' give or take. The true Italian way lol

Okay work over for today~ It went well! I started listening to an Audiobook while doing it which was definitely nice. And a lady at the bus stop pulled out a tiny bottle of perfume and I think she honestly has a good idea. I can't imagine how people stay smelling good here since it's so hot and there's so much sweating.

I know I had a bad dream last night but I'm trying not to think about it.

I just decimated my lefotver pizza. As I I ruined it. As in I tried to reheat it in the oven and it got stuck to the pan and I had to scrape it off. Yikes. Still gonna eat it tho. And my roommate brought up a lit of good and interesting points about getting a tattoo like how you would have to take care of it afterwards.... I actually hadnt really thought of that. So maybe I'll only get a tattoo just before I leave Florence. ^^;

I really wanted to go get margaritas. Sweet ones. At the place close to the apartment. I'm so lovingly tipsy~ My roommates and friends are great :)

We went to another bar (Red Garter again! Minus the singing) and my roommates are talking about how they did indeed have sex that night and I'm just like. Wow. People actually do have sex huh. I'm so ace. At moments like these I remember just how ace I am.

I also realized that I do wanna get an MLIS and then a PhD in Social Anthropology. That's what I wanna do. And hopefully I can do both in five years.

Okay so our tank and our fighter ordered a beer fountain and our tank drank most of it. Which was crazy. Then we got them home and they fought a bit but I was eventually able to get them both to sleep. I was gonna leave the mess in the morning for them to clean up but realized I'm way too much of a big sister to do that. I cleaned up everything and left water bottles on their doorsteps so they can feel hydrated tomorrow. I hope they feel alright in the morning ♡ I'm going to take a shower and shave then go to sleep for tomorrow.

#dear diary #travel #italy 2022 #july 2022 #florence #07.05.2022

[orcelito]

Put my clothes away for the first time in six months! Amazing what you can do when you set your mind to it!

#speculation nation #im jk the six months was how long my clothes have been living on my couch/futon #in actuality it's been since i moved here almost 9 months ago bc i hadnt put Any clothes away at all 😐 #how do i do it? well i use the same clothes over and over and just take them out of the clean hamper instead of putting them away #and then i wash them and then they go back to the clean hamper and i just do that #i am going to have. a Visitor tomorrow. so. i am going to make. my place. hospitable to others. #yes im fine living my life in a dump but i have SOME standards lmao. #mostly Other people have standards and i have basic embarrassment if i look like im living in a pigsty #i am soooo tired tho from putting my clothes away. i think i deserve to lie down. #(says the person who still has to change the sheets and clean up their floors and vacuum things and mop and- #😭 why do i live like this. why am i like this. im still going to go lie down bc that took me over an hour to do and im tired

[clownjk]

just had the WORST DAY!!! ever

#we got to dubai around maybe 11 n then had to stay @ the airport till 1 #bc check in for our airbnb was like 2 which is FINE #but THEN we drove all the way to the apt n the host said the apt wasnt ready #even tho when we contacted them a few hrs before they said it was ok :/ #THEN we had to sit in the lobby from 1:50 ish to 4 pm bc it STILL wasnt ready #n even after 4 it wasnt ready bdhdhsjd we had to come up while they were cleaning just to drop our bags off :/ #n go eat bc we hadnt eaten in like. 9 hrs #n THEN instead of going out for an actual meal we watched aquamannor whtvr which SUCKED #n we ate sucky chicken tenders in the dark theater #n there were kids literally SCREAMING in there it was so sad #n also someone kept getting texts n their phone would flash every time :( it was so annoying #n then MORE stuff happened tht i cant even be bothered to talk abt :// todya SUCKED #anyway im chillin im just happy we made it here safe 🤪 #shut up kayla

[cynettic]

Hellooo, I hope you don't mind if I request something a lil nsfw-ish but could I ask for Kaeya, Diluc and Childe reacting to female reader asking them jokingly if they would hold her big boobs so she can have a moment of relief? I always joke about it with my friend so it would be interesting how would they react haha Thank you in advance and have a nice day 💜

Summary - You ask some of the genshin boys to hold your breasts for a moment of relief.

Pairings - Reader x Kaeya / Diluc / Childe

Warnings - No real NSFW, just boob touching and a bit suggestive… if you’re okie with that it should be fine.

Penpal - Have a nice day as well! I’ve joked about it a few times myself- but I hope you enjoy the hc! I didn’t make it nsfw tho.

A/N - I’m unsure about Diluc, I feel like he’d be more confident about it, but at the same time compared to Kaeya and Childe his reaction would be more hesitant?

A Moment of Relief

Kaeya

Uhm… he literally would??

Like ask and he delivers. Kaeya values your comfort and happiness, especially as his s/o. If your boobs are getting heavy and you ask him to give you a moment of relief, he would.

He might be a tad surprise you asked such a thing at first, but he quickly adapts, and you won’t notice the hesitation before he walks towards you and does just as you asked.

If its a joke, be prepared for quite a surprise.

“They just feel heavy,” you stated, adding to the joke as you continued to wash the dishes. You and Kaeya had just finished a meal, and as he cleaned the table you were finishing with the dishes. You didn’t honestly expect him to do anything, and took a deap breath in before beginning to say it was a joke.

You didn’t quite get the chance to tell him that.

He leaned against you, and you could dimly feel his toned chest against your back. That wasn’t the main source of your attention though, not when his hands slide up your shirt.

“Kaeya.”

His hands are cold, you realize that when his thumbs slowly slide up your stomach to your chest. He’s gentle when cupping your breasts, holding them and lightly rising them enough to relieve you of their weight without making it uncomfortable.

“Feel better?” His voice is right next to your ear, breath fanning your neck. You automatically jump up, cheeks slightly flushed. You hadnt actually expected him to go this far, which was endearing in its own way- but way too much of a shock.

You found yourself leaning into his touch anyway, not feeling guilty in the slightest. “It was a joke,” you simply grumbled. After uttering those words, you flinched when he began to rub his fingers along the skin of your chest. His contact earlier had been soft and comforting, but now it had turned playful and… good.

It wasnt hard to imagine the wide smirk on his lips when he continued to play with your breasts. Either way, he was still holding them up if it accounted to anything. “A joke?” Was all he answered with. After that, he released them, pulling his hands back.

“Yeah you jerk,” you puffed out, grabbing his hands. “I never said you could stop though.”

Diluc

Uhm… no?

Diluc would take a long time to scan your face, wondering if you really meant it or not. Be prepared for his wide eyed flustered face that no one gets to lay their eyes on. No one except you, because if you ask questions like this you probably get to see it a lot.

He’ll ask you if you meant it, if you really meant it.

Diluc isnt embarrassed to touch you, quite the opposite, it depends what stage in the relationship the two of you are at. At the beginning yes, but later on the issue wouldnt be the contact, well… he would just be surprised.

If it came down to it, he would, maybe a little awkwardly at first, but he’d get used to it. If there was someway to make you feel better, he would take it. Maybe a little more hesitantly than Kaeya when it comes to physical contact, but yep, he’s got you.

His cheeks were tinted red, eyes wide and fingers fidgeting on the fabric of his coat as he stared. “Hold your breasts?” He repeated, sounding faint because the request just about knocked the breath out of him.

You, unbeknownst to his current condition, kicked off your shoes. A fluid motion accompanied by your jacket and hat after a long walk outside with Diluc. “Mhm,” you hummed absentmindedly.

Now Diluc is just standing there like “oH-”

Cue in his inner panic.

But either way, he’ll slowly approach you, wrapping his arms around your waist and leaving his hands resting on your stomach. In contrast to Kaeya, they’re warm, a perfect contrast from the night breeze you’d both been walking through.

Before Diluc can go any further than that, he leans his head into your shoulder, cheeks still slightly flushed. “You’re sure?” He asks again, and you realize he’s actually gonna go through with it-

“It was a joke-” you begin, slightly breathless with the knowledge that he was gonna…

Okay now you just regret telling him it was a joke ;-;

He doesnt back away immediately, leaving his hands on your stomach as he chuckles, slightly relieved and slightly… not? He wouldn’t have minded holding your breasts thats for sure, but thats a contact he hasnt initiated yet, one that would still make him hesitate and flush.

Oh well, his red face is worth it.

Childe

“They hurt? Okay, c’mere.”

Would literally sit down and beckon you to his lap.

Childe is easily comfortable with physical contact, and he definitely doesnt mind having his hands under your shirt just to hold up your boobs. Its not like he hasnt touched them before anyway-

He’s always concerned with your needs, and if it involves touching you, all the better!

Might ask you a few questions about them just because he never considered they would hurt or feel heavy in general-

You stared at him, eyes wide when he leaned back into the wooden chair, legs wide and waiting. Nothing you were expecting, it was a joke.

Childe could literally sense your hesitation a mile away, you were pretty obvious.

“Hm? Having secondthoughts?”

“No… it was a joke.”

“So they dont feel heavy?”

“No… thats not it.”

“Then get over here.”

He somehow gets you to play along, sit on his lap and let him coax you against him. His calloused hands are gentle when pulling your waist into his, hands slipping underneath your shirt. Much similarly to Kaeya, he rubs the area of your stomach before reaching for your chest.

But he won’t simply lift up your boobs like you asked him too, instead he’ll probably fondle them. Knowing him he thinks it won’t make a difference… well, not that you mind. His curious touch feels good, and he still raises them, so it is relieving.

#genshin impact #genshin #genshin impact fluff #genshin impact oneshot #genshin impact childe #genshin impact kaeya #genshin impact diluc #diluc x reader #kaeya x reader #childe x reader #genshin smut #cynshealthysfw #sorta

[sundropglass]

Ive just been consistantly Going and ramping up the intensity all December. Wake up and get to work immediately and only taking breaks to make dinner or go to sleep. I had strict deadlines, I had to get it all ready for christmas. There was soo much to do

It didnt help that mentioning my deadlines werent being taken seriously, or the parents would play the one-up game. ‘Oh we have to work too..’ okay but I know for sure you have nothing due til January so please give me an inch of leeway when I dont make dinner by the mysterious, ever changing ‘on time’!!!!

So just. No help, all december. I feel like I took way too much on my shoulders. When my sibling n their partner tested positive for covid on christmas eve, mom pushed rediculously harder. Make dinner enough for two houses, five different bagches of cookies, wrap all the presents, clean the kitchen, overhaul my brothers room, all on christmas eve night when I still had fucking work to do

It didnt let up on christmas either. I got so upset yesterday because I realized i put so much importance on this stupid holiday, so many failed promises to my younger parts that we’d celebrate special together, and I never fucking sat down til it was 3 am! I never got to rest or enjoy any of it. Just push on amdon and on. I thought I could dissociate and manage it, but I guess theres only so much shit I can take

I dont do things for praise but they just didnt appreciate or care at all. I dont exist to them at all. Its not a wonder why everything felt so unreal yesterday, because I hadnt been real for a long time and i finally had a day to do nothing and realize it

It feels bad to rest now, I’m out of practice. I dont know what I want and it makes me upset and freezy-uppy. I hate this!!

I’m officially on my break tho, and the internet being down means i cant work w clients anyway, so I’m forced to do things for myself. I guess ill practice resting while I have the time to

#please dont rebloge #bunny tag #i need to figure out how to let things go to hell a little bit without my trying to fix it i think

[marmett]

A2, 4, B3, C14, D9,

A2: Favorite game(s)?

Ik this is the answer 90% of ppl give but y0 >.>

i cant help it its just a VERY good game, it had the best storyline, rlly compelling supporting characters, a couple of rlly great antagonists... the disco minigame. all of the stuff w/ the club sunshine gals. it was all just so good.

i do rlly like y4 and y5 too tho! saejima is one of my fave characters in the series and his fighting style is just super fun and everything in his sections of the games is so bonkers its great. also i love the dance battles and idol performances as haruka, i just wish they hadnt given her a personality transplant :|

A4: Favorite antagonist(s)?

sagawa is my fave by far but i also enjoyed kuze and mine a lot. shimano was also a very good antagonist but i wish they had done more with him in kiwami re: following up what they established w/ him and majima in y0.

B3: Do you have a comfort character in the franchise? If so, who is it?

mmmm kinda? my gf is the one who got me into ykza and even tho i got way more into the series than he did majima is her fave so i still associate majima w/ them sjsjfskjsdsn i do rlly like majima as a character beyond that, hes my fave character in the whole series! but i dont think id see him as a comfort character if i didnt have that association.

C14: What dynamic would you like to see more of?

kiryu and the morning glory kids!!! i get theres a lot of them so its hard to show but i feel like they kinda forget abt everyone who isnt haruka a lot.

also kiryu and majima after y4 bc after saejima came back majima just kinda dropped kiryu lol

D9: Any hot takes?

YEAH ive got a ton of spicy takes but i'll pick one thats inconsequential and fun to talk abt (if u disagree reply, id actually like to talk abt it!!)

kiryu has killed, but majima has not.

ive heard the whole "kiryu doesnt kill" is a mistranslation and he "doesnt kill in vain" is more accurate, and i count those dudes during the fight against the tojo as kills bc of the dialogue in the cutscene afterward.

i dont think majima has killed bc by the end of y0 he has been tasked w/ killing 5 times but his hands still remain clean of having taken a life, and i think thats a rlly important thing abt his character!! none of the other games actually show him killing so i dont think he even does. ik logistically its far-fetched but from a character standpoint it makes sense...

#thanks for the ask owo

[katedoesntexist]

The dixie fire has burned 432,000+ acres. Screenshot taken today, Aug 8 2021.

We used to have a little mobile home near lake almanor. It was our vacation spot even tho it was basically just a trailer. We worked so hard to clean it and paint it and make it cute. When my dad passed we sold it. Its crazy to see this map and see our street in the red zone.

East of the lake is the small town of westwood. Its where my dad grew up as a child, and the nearby mountains are where we spread his ashes just two months ago. This area isn't in the red. Yet.

The majority of area that has burned is forest. I hadnt been up that way in idk over ten years. So to see it so green and beautiful had made the day we spread my dads ashes really wonderful. The entire drive my mom and i reminisced about all the places and memories, campsites and fishing spots. We didnt know how lucky we were to have seen it right before it all got destroyed.

You can also see in the screenshot how close paradise is (lower left). That was the town that burned in 80mph fires back in 2018. For this new fire, Calfire back burned a perimeter to help keep the town safe, but its still SO close. It makes me angry to think that this fire started in nearly the same location as the camp fire, and possibly due to pg&e equipment again. And also i hear greenville is mostly gone. Another small mountain town gutted.

Idk where im going with this. Theres no solution, theres no action item. Our environment is fucked and no one will do anything.

#fire #dixie fire #katedoesntgetpersonal #sorry for negative post #theres more i could say but i wont