#i never had other team friends

[bsaka7]

sometimes the most random things make me miss being on a team soooo bad

#i literally said after my last xcmeet in hs that i was never doing a sport again #then where did they catch me on my first day of college? #moving in early. to run xc. #i even miss fris but i miss varsity sports more. Ig cuz i ran so long #now its like adulthood... maybe someday when i get a real job I'll like have a longer term team again #i still need to ask my next workplace about what my days off/hours might be to see if i can sign up for a frisbee league... #it's just like. Running will never be a part of my life like that again. sports won't be #Doesn't matter that I'm a better runner now than I was when I was 19 #now it's just me. no team. occasional meetups. It's me and my plan and whatever I want. #and i like my running more now but i still MISS IT. #i literally ran xc for 11 yrs-ish. i had one friend on any team during that time. but still #when i played soccer i played with my best friend but we had been friends since meeting on a Rec team at age 9. #i never had other team friends #it's just. The environment of it or whatever. #(it's not like sad like i was someone with an intentional division bw my sports teams and the rest of my life) #Club fris was different there but again mostly my friends there were friends I had from outside the team #ANYWYA #Tetrapod runs #Sort of

[bylertruther]

do you ever think about the fact that throughout the entirety of stranger things we’ve always seen mike practically shout his love for will from the rooftops by throwing his everything into believing, protecting, and helping will no matter the stakes, and how a majority of byler moments are initiated by him, and how will has always loved him back quietly despite being the one canonically confirmed to be in love, and how will is almost always on the viewer’s right in iconic byler moments but in season four we find him on the left in what used to be mike’s spot because their “roles” have switched AND when we’re taken out of the viewer’s pov and put in jonathan’s pov we see jonathan Come To A Realization here because while mike has always made it clear how special will is to him and how different their relationship is, will has always managed to keep the true depth of his feelings a little closer to his chest and it’s only when he publicly takes up that support role that mike has played for him previously that the audience is purposely made to realize, too, how romantic it truly is, because coming from mike everyone might have thought it was his usual overzealous theatrics but when the same tenderness and earnest love comes from will they realize oh. this is... this is actually something more. this is how they are this is mike and will like nothing has changed and no time has passed but it’s now that we realize just what it is, and now that will is starting to slowly but surely come out from this curtain he’s hid behind his whole life and voice that yes he loves mike of course he does he’s always loved him and loves him in precisely the way that mike expresses he needs to be loved there is simply NO conceivable way that they can come out of this hellish slow burn miscommunication trope not in full acknowledgement and eager acceptance of this love they have for each other and have always had and always will !!!!!!!!

#byler #like. do i make sense. am i making sense. #tagging my posts is so scary now tht there's 92380923028020 of us bt. i can be brave ig .. [trembling in my boots] [sweating shaking crying] #s1-2 was mike loving will more than anyone and not being afraid to show it and s3 was him thinking he had to grow up n out of tht love #bc clearly it's just a kid thing and they'll get over it if they just get girlfriends #and it ended with him having his italicized 'oh.' moment as the byers drove away #and s4 was mike thinking he had lost will for good that time only for will to show him that he's wrong he never lost him and he won't #s4 was about will showing mike that he's always loved him back s4 was abt will showing mike what it means to be in love with someone #s4 was abt will showing him tht he's just as lost without him as mike is without him and tht he doesn't need to be normal or cool #he's absolutely perfect just the way he is and he's loved and needed for who he is not all that he can or can't do #s4 was mike stumbling and will catching him and carrying him the same way that mike carried him in s2 #and s5 will be about them supporting each other and living their complete and total truths now that they see there's no reason to hide #and then in s5 we will finally find our way out of this god awful miscommunication trope</3 #they're a team they're best friends mike needs will and mike is will's heart mike makes will feel better for being different and will shows #mike that he doesn't need to conform and be 'normal' to be worthy of love that he has no obligations to others that everything he is is what #encourages those around him to fight the good fight #and that support and love and the way that they'll come to see each other wholly and truly is what will defeat all evil <3 #it's all coming full circle is wht im saying !!!!! #mine #also when i say audience and we i mean the general audience bc i kno my brothers in byler Understand n Watch The Show With Their Eyes #<3 #also no i will not structure my posts in a way tht makes sense u will read my uninterrupted stream of consciousness and WEEP

[franeridan]

mihoyo really will be like here is this whole cast of characters dozens upon dozens a good bunch of which especially strong and useful you can have whichever you want as long as you roll for them and I'll really be like thanks I think I'll fixate on that one free to play dude you dropped in my hands at the very beginning of the game every single time

#it was kaeya back when i played genshin it's dan heng now with star rail history truly repeats itself #I'll look at my five stars characters and go yeah but if i build a team around them I'll have to bench dan heng.....no thanks #no because like i was playing months and months ago yeah? but i never got any further than #halfway into belobog #? yeah. i didn't even have nat yet when i stopped #but then my best friend a couple weeks ago was like check out this dude they're dropping soon #it was ratio #i was like 👀👀👀 #best friend was like you still got time to put aside the rolls 👀👀👀 #because he's satan #so i start playing again #turns out they're giving me ratio for free anyway #just to keep the tradition going of me being obsessed with free to play dudes #but also all the better because it means I'll have the rolls to try for the other dan heng when they'll rerun him #anyway my point was that I started playing again #and i had a whole bunch of rolls saved up so i was like okay one for luck #i rolled argenti #which is so ridiculous I'm starting to think i wasted my pity on that but whatever point is i have argenti #but for a good team with him in it i have to bench dan heng so I'm just leaving him there ??? ridiculous #literally a whole roster of characters to choose from and I'm happy with the one i got in the first minute of gameplay #i might just be a gatcha game's worst enemy

[no1ryomafan]

I have said this before but me being self proclaimed number 1 Ryoma fan and that being possibly literal-bc even if this bro had fans before me I might’ve simply done the most for him by talking about him so much + being the first to write fics that are in depth studies on his trauma across canons-I gotta say if there’s one other character I rotate a lot that isn’t him it’s probably Kei. (Shocking it’s not Hayato even if I do think about him too- but it’s usually associated with Ryoma bc gays 🗿)

I’m not even exaggerating when I say Kei would be my favorite and only isn’t because she doesn’t exist in many other canons yet my brain rotates the endless possibilities of how to incorporate her. I’ve already written a fic where she’s in shin vs neo verse which worked surprisingly well but I’ve been thinking how universally she could appear in other things. (Whether it be fitting her into a idea of a possible Go team in New or just a new canon completely) I think what I’ve narrow it down to is that she could be like- in Michirus role? Like she’s the supporting female who isn’t a pilot but helps out the real occasionally which I think would align very well especially with the original manga role she has of being Hayato’s assistant. And even if Hayato isn’t grandpa mode yet he still very much is in Saotomes position at that point. Not sure if she’d Hayato’s biological kid to further parallel Saotome and Michiru given well Hayato already adopts the Go team and his wife is irrelevant LOL.

I have no idea if I’ll ever write this specific idea but I’m still- rotating it cause this is such a easy way to get around “picking between Sho or Kei as the 2nd pilot” since both of them can still exist even if one doesn’t get to pilot, idm my supporting females. (Granted there could always be like- plot line where Sho gets hurt so Kei is temporary pilot but I can’t remember if Getter ever really did this since “once your hurt your ass is basically replaced” lol)

#meg text #getter robo #au rambles #I think I rotate her so much because my friend and I talked about her relationship with Go #like it makes so much sense if among all the universal constants in getter one would be Kei is important to Go #granted the shift from “she’s my love interest” to “she’s my sister” will never not be so fucking drastic 💀 #also I get why in SVN she wasn’t there for time and idk where you’d fit her but man Kei deserves a more significant role #hence why I imagine her in Michirus role because even if she also had it ROUGH some iterations knew how to use her #also Kei already has a established relationship w gai mainly thanks to arma so- Sho deserves to speak with her too #they can be besties who rat out on the boys but still have high respect for hayato #granted I know the real reason why this hasn’t happened is because Kei is a minor character and “no proper go manga adaptation??” #at this point I don’t expect a anime but it be nice if Go team got used in a spin off bc we had a good run of OG team #I’d also want them to use arc in spin offs too but I understand their more- finicky characters to use #given their main thing is their actual descendants of existing characters and one of them is our first boyo (ryoma) #if you took out the bloodline stuff it make them feel redundant because you can just use go team for that #also honestly despite how mixed arc anime is for everyone they really don’t need to be in anything after this #other then wishing they get something with nicer animation but that’s what’s SRW is for #(also back to Kei I’m a bit upset she did not get a cameo in arc even if she’d probably look horrendous it was just salt in the wound) #(GAI LITERALLY SAIDS WHEN HE DIES IN THE MANGA HE SEES KEI WHERE WAS SHE WITH ALL THE GETTER GHOSTS?) #actually Michiru wasn’t there too so it was probably just woman erasure /hj

[mxwhore]

patron saint of being hot

and a lot of skill and really interesting anecdotes about your life and having professors that give me second hand anxiety bc they seem kinda awful and mean. But mainly just being hot

ty! admittedly my professors are not that bad, ive only had one bad professor that was more incompetent that awful. if you want another anecdote, ill tell you about the only teacher i truly despise to this day (on the tags, cuz its a very dark story)

ask gamerino

#i retook that course with a different professor and passed expectacularly. now for the horrendous teacher #on this story we have vomiting injuries and attempted suicide so watch out #in my last two years of our highschool equivalent i had PE with a teacher that loved to play favorites #if u were on a sport team you were immediately given special treatment and as you might already tell i wasnt. i hate ball sports #i loved exercising but i dreaded PE because of her #i have a condition that made my periods incredibly painful and meself anemic so those weeks were hellish #even though i was a good student she would NEVER let me sit out the navette test. even with a doctors note #i would do my best and then literally go vomit and pass out in the bathroom cuz if i did it on the court i would be berated #that wasnt enough to earn my absolute hatred tho. we now move to the worst day of my life to this day #it was just getting to school from lunch (we could go home and have it there) and i had PE #when i get a text #it was my best friend being cryptic thanking me for being a friend and saying goodbyes #he was going to commit suicide #i absolutely lost my shit as one does and went on a rampage #i couldnt get in contact with anyone (his ex stepdad was abusive and isolated his family) and they didnt let me get out of school #i was desperate and my friends were trying to help me but i didnt know what to do. i called my mom and she called his school and then i just #sat and waited with a friend. while the other classmates did the navette test #the minutes passed. i got message from my bffs number and it was his mom telling me she found him just in time #i broke then. i started sobbing and screaming and scratching my arms and my friend held me and tried to keep me from hurting myself #some other classmates came concerned and tried to help #then the teacher came. she just looked at one of the volleyball girlies who shrugged #she didnt ask if i was ok or if i needed to call someone or go somewhere. she just asked if i planning to do the test #i said no and she left and i kept crying #when i felt stable enough i went to see what had happened and she just failed me. i couldnt give the test any other day and that was that #she simply didnt care #i had to calm myself down while writing this. its no use getting emotional over a teacher that didnt care #but i hate her. she made the worst day of my life worse and she doesnt know and doesnt care #that memory fuels me to never surrender to indifference and make the pain in this world worse #my bff got help he needed after that and our bond is stronger than ever. he never pulled something like that again #thats the story! not gonna tag this babes

[wayfinderships]

Every once in a while I think about my old L.upin III s/i and the whole situation they had going on with him and man...

#pan rambles #My ramble is gonna be a bit somber so feel free to just scroll past it! #but anyways #I think about that insert a lot #They didn't want the life of a thief #They only started because their mother was being tricked by loan sharks to they simply stole from said loan sharks- #(oh yeah. this s/i had a mother and she's her whole character and e everything.) #(Most my s/is have parents but I never delve on them because their relationship with them is bad/complicated usually) #(this one is different mainly bc was more based on my Sona which may be called Panchi but is like it's own separate entity from my inserts) #back to the point though. #They didn't want to become a thief but ultimately they stole and now they felt like they had no other choice but to continue #They meet friends ofc but they still feel guilt for their life of a thief. even if they're closer to a robin hood type of thief #they still feel guilty. And then they eventually meet L.upin #and like it or not...they become charmed by him. They're both leaders of their own groups and pretty smart. #The two were on opposing teams at first but their groups eventually get along and Panchi is happy. They were always happy to help L.upin #and eventually they realize that the reason they like helping him/seeing him is because they've fallen in love with him #They've fallen for the great L.upin the T.hird. The two have had their ship tease moments but it never went beyond that #And unfortunately for them...The love isn't quite requited. There's this scene between him and F.ujiko at the end of Part 5 that just. #Hurts Panchi. The feeling that the one they love-the first person they fell for simply loves someone else. #oh man that reminds me of this moment in Part 4. Da Vinci gives each character a challenge of sorts near the end #Panchi was placed in a Perfect Dream world and their challenge was to find what was wrong with it/to snap out of it #what snaps them back to reality was the fact that L.upin wasn't in the “perfect” dream world. Their feelings for him were that strong #Anyways. point is. This s/i has a life they didn't want and in the end didn't get the guy- #It's quite a melancholic s/i when I think about them too hard. they work so much and never catch a break #A part of me still does like L.upin and wants to go back to shipping him but then I just get insecure (?) I guess. it's so strange #but anyways! haha thank you to anyone who listened to my kinda sad ramble! #I miss L.upin a lot. He has a special place in my heart

[lollytea]

Yes it might have taken me an embarrassingly long time to really pay attention to it but in ASIAS, along with the 'half a witch' parallel, both Hunter and Willow are motivated by upholding the legacy of those who came before them. That picture of Gilbert and Harvey being flyer derby champions is just as significant to her as the Golden Guard sigil is to him.

#other miscellaneous ASIAS thoughts that are not worth their own post but i think about them often: #its an episode that asks ''but who are you outside of the roles this story uses to define you?'' #this is the only episode of the Hunter Makes Friends series where his actions are not motivated by Belos #and Willow is neither one of Luz's two best friends nor the estrangled acquaintance to Amity #both characters are unnattached to those influences here. And without those roles slotting them into predictable places #we're able to explore new nooks and crannies of their personalities #stuff that really hasnt been revealed before #the two of them are trying out something new and a little out of their comfort zone and it pulls new traits out of them #Hunter’s hexside infiltration reveals him to be WAY more socially awkward than previous eps have shown #and then after his flyer derby match it really brings out his excitement over having friends and the genuine affection he has for them #Meanwhile this is the ep that really establishes what an ambitous go getter Willow can be #Shes never been a leader before. Shes never been this direct or ruthless. But her dedication to this team really pulls it out of her #and these lesser known sides of themselves are the version the other meets #lastly it is a very good take on a Person Vs Society story #again Hunter's internal conflict in this episode has nothing to do with Belos. He literally never gave a fuck if Hunter had magic #But Hunter was still born and raised on the boiling isles and no matter how sheltered he is #the inherent prejudices of the place is gonna gnaw at his self confidence. hes gonna internalize this shit #so while every Hunter ep before this was about how Belos has manipulated his self of worth as a person #this time we are dealing with how hunter views himself as a WITCH #MEANWHILE Willow's struggles with have always been entirely focused on her insecurity as a witch #her terrible grades and her severed friendship has always been about her insufficient abilities with magic #but in this ep you learn that it goes deeper than that #she berates herself not because of her magical ability but because she believes that shes stupid #the half a witch thing has severely deteriorated her worth as a PERSON #their respective struggles go in different directions in this ep and their emotions are complicated #but they still overlap enough that they can understand what the other is feeling #OKAY AND LASTLY AGAIN. Forreal this time #that scene when Darius is about to attack the entrails and Willow throws her arms out to shield all three of them #and then Hunter proceeds to run in and shield HER #because SOMEONE had to shield her. they are instinctive protectors. they are the same

[candied-cae]

In the Stranger Things debate between "Mike and Dustin should've gone to the tournament" vs. "Lucas should've gone to Hellfire" it feels like people are forgetting that LUCAS HAS BEEN AT EVERY OTHER SESSION OF THE CAMPAIGN! It's why they needed a substitute, because Lucas has been showing up.

He wanted to be there. He has invested just as much time as everyone else did. And the ONE TIME that he couldn't make it work with basketball, everyone dropped him. The one time it was something in his life that he couldn't reschedule or just choose not to show up to, no one else even tried to figure it out.

Sure, Eddie and the Hellfire crew didn't care about sports, but they cared about Lucas. They all had plans to be together that night and even though Lucas was supposed to sit on the bench, they all could've gone to the game anyway. Sat together and had fun because they were hanging out, even if it was at a Basketball tournament, and they would've even gotten to see Lucas play at the end in a surprising and exciting moment for him.

Yeah, they would've had to re-plan their schedules to make another night work, yes, Mike was going to be gone for the next week and some of them were graduating that year. But it was Spring Break. They had MONTHS left to have fit the end of the Venca campaign into. What? Did Hellfire have no plans to do anything else for the rest of the semester once they wrapped up that story?

They could've made it work. They just chose not to.

I've seen stuff about how "Lucas was moving away from D&D to be popular". He wasn't, he was doing both while trying to protect himself. He was still playing D&D, but he was just also trying sports and being friends with his teammates.

Yes, he was trying to align himself less with the nerdy stuff publicly, because (in case we've all forgotten) he has been relentlessly bullied with the rest of them for it and the previous school year he was literally targeted by Billy before he went after him to attack him for being black. He was nearly the victim of a violent hate crime had Steve not been there to help enough that Max was able to scare him off from that point on.

For Lucas, gaining popularity isn't just having cool friends and going to parties. It is a layer of protection that would've made him (and his sister) less likely to be hurt or killed for being a black kid in a 1980's, overwhelmingly white, small-town in Indiana.

More ST

#From what we can tell Lucas has been incredibly dedicated to Hellfire #And the ONE TIME his other extracurricular got in the way #Some thing he OBVIOUSLY couldn't change - and they knew he couldn't - they don't even try #Mike and Dustin ask once and no one even considered it and then they give up #Lucas Sinclair has done nothing wrong and I will fight tooth and nail to defend him from this slander #If anyone honestly thinks he should've blown off his team for the campaign I wanna ask 'Where are our critical thinking skills?' #Hellfire is an entirely student run and organized event limited to a few students vs the basketball tournament involving multiple schools #Lucas had to be there and if his friends cared they would've been there too #aka - WILL would've been there #Because Will Byers - unlike many of the other characters - never hesitates to prioritize his friends and tell them he cares #Lucas Sinclair #Erica Sinclair #Mike Wheeler #Dustin Henderson #Eddie Munson #Hellfire #Hellfire Club #Steve Harrington #Robin Buckley #Stranger Things #Stranger Things 4 #Stranger Things 4 spoilers #Stranger Things 4 volume 2 spoilers #Character Analysis #Stranger Things Analysis #ST meta

[pepprs]

hm. i think i am going to stop going to counseling. he does not understand me. he pathologizes things that are not pathological.

#purrs #the premises of counseling / therapy are that you need to have boundaries and be self sufficient and fully healed. FUCK THAT! relationships #are not transactions. we are allowed to need each other. we are allowed to blur lines. we are human and messy. our thoughts and feelings are #PRECIOUS. im not letting go of my thoughts they mean EVERYTHING to me they are the key to the WORLD. im not letting go of redacted why on #EARTH would i stop redacteding to redacted that is HELPFUL for me. i don’t CARE about the roots. who the fuck is it hurting????? NO ONE!!!!! #the way he flat out told me he agrees with my mom. bitch im done forever. im done literaly forever. i don’t know how to tell him but im done #forever. maybe it’s just my id which is what he said to me LMFAO and like maybe i just don’t like being uncomfortable or facing hard truths. #but i don’t fucking think it’s TRUE!!!!!!!!!! yeah i need to grow yeah i have unhealthy behaviors. but i don’t need to let go of the whole #THING bc of some arbitrary transactional concept of what relationships are supposed to be / mean. ive NEVER had a counselor try to uproot th #the whole damn thing like omg what is WRONG with you. i #im paying this man $25 a week to UNDERSTAND me and not ONCE have i felt understood by him. counselors can disagree with me but i literally #never feel like he is on my side. he’s adhering to conventional ideas about what parents are supposed to be and friends are supposed to be a #and work is supposed to be etc etc. and so patronizingly said just enjoy being 23 you don’t wanna waste your 20s! FUCK YOU. i will not #regret anything even if it’s unusual. FUCK YOU!!!!!!!!!!! #and also i know he probably watches back thru the recordings and has like his supervisor and professors watch them too which means that #there is a whole team of scientists + my family studying me in a lab and thinking im insane and finding ways to tell me. but fucking bold of #him to assume he can give me any meaningful valuable insight when he is actively checking his laptop / phone during our sessions and rarely #if eve gives me a chance to drive MY OWN CONVERSATION THAT IM PAYING FOR and is so phony abt being on the recording. like Omg. maybe im just #grown out of it. it fucking SUCKS bc i actually have things i am not normal about and really need help with and i can’t actually get help fr #from ppl whose job it is to fucking help me bc they think im not normal about things i PROMISEEEE i am normal about. and the way i effective #effectively told him that and he responded that he can’t take that credibly bc there’s no action behind it BY WHICH HE MEANS I HAVENT #STOPPED REDACTEDING TO ONE OF THE MOST IMPORTANT REDACTED IN MY WHOLE LIFE? THAT I HAVENT DECIDED IM DONE LEARNING SND GROWING AND CUT IT #OFF?????? DO YOU FUCKING HEAR YOURSELF. INSANE. the ANTITHESIS of human. we are MEANT TO BE CONNECTED. FUCK!!!!!!!!! #delete later #my old counselors challenged me and disagreed with me b it i never felt like they flat out were unwilling to meet me where i am and #compromise with me. is that not what counselors are supposed to do???? or have i just had bad counselors until now??? because im NORMAL. i #swear to fucking god. im normal. im literally normal and it is not doing ANYONE harm. what is wrong with you. GOD

[junonreactor]

hm

#one of the other things that annoys me about soulmate stories and not-canon-rooted aus in general is the way so many of them discount the #idea that two people can be perfect for each other at one point in their lives but an extremely bad match at another point. #sometimes you grow into people who would be good for each other and sometimes you grow apart #and i think it's an important part of understanding a character to understand how they got from point A to point B and what makes up a #'core' of their character and how they've changed as a result. i refuse to believe that you all Want to believe that people are static #'souls' from birth to the grave. #''if these two characters had just met earlier they would have been the perfect team and half the plot would never have happened'' #if those two characters had met as teens/younger adults they would have torn each other to pieces because they lacked the perspective given #to them by the life experiences they had as individuals. #''if only this person had confessed their feelings at this point in the plot everything would be fixed'' #the reason they did not do that is because of who they are as a character and this experience and regret is what pushes them to #pursue a relationship more earnestly later in the plot #''these two would have been best friends as kids!'' #again if you read the portions where they were respectively children you can imagine that actually they would have publicly #uninvited the other one from their 'bff only' birthday parties #'these two characters were perfect for each other in [flashback arc] why weren't they endgame' #because they grew into people who couldn't coexist without hurting each other and weren't willing to change those parts of themselves so #they split ways (violently) #all of this is in some ways subjective character interpretation and in others very obvious #but i came across another post today about how someone is frustrated that a couple 'didn't just meet sooner' #and with these two characters it's like. they genuinely would have killed each other. like they would have driven each other to kill themse #to delete #ein babbles #and another thing about people who get smug/mad at characters for being 'stupid' for what ultimately is 'not knowing that they are in a #[genre] story' is th [dragged away from the laptop and wrapped in several layers of blanket burrito where i suffocate to death]

[glimblshanks]

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#thinking about Marisom again #I just think like Ransom finally gets his own ship #and he goes through like 5 first officers in a year #they're all kiss ass brown nosers who never have any good input on what to do #because they're to busy trying to agree with him #and finally Ransoms like 'you know who WILL call me on my shit? Mariner. Mariner has never once had a problem telling me what for' #so he specifically requests her as a first officer #and she's like 'You're an idiot! Why would you want that?! Yeah no of course I'll do it. #btw you have to transfer all my friends to your ship too. I'm refuse to put up with you if I can't bitch to Brad about it over drinks later' #and like it takes them a year or so #but they really are a good team #Beckett is often the only person who can actually break through Jacks ego when that needs to happen #He's the only commander she's ever had who genuinely does believe in her ability to be a good officer #they just make each other better #and eventually they realize they want to be romantic partners not just work partners #idk idk #I just think it's cute 🥺🥺 #(also very funny to me if they end up having kids and refer to their ship as their 'eldest child'/ 'problem child')

[moskowins]

yeah,   yeah,   eli and demetri are cute,   but miguel and eli?   they own my heart now and forever.   out of all the bonds that eli could ever have and i want to see more on screen,   in order it goes:   eli/miguel,   eli/sam,   eli/robby,   and eli/tory.   i said what i said.

#out of character. ⁽ edie ⁾ #don't get me wrong #eli and dem are incredible and they had a beautiful friendship but the show refuses to acknowledge that dem genuinely never accepted #that eli was growing and changing and tried to pull the hawk persona from him without a care of why it had happened or what it meant to eli #he looked down on him for it and it's why hawk turned all the affection he had into active hatred #and eli was horrible to him and you don't just move past that and go back to how things were. eli and dem are so so different now #and they need to fix so much between them. they can and they will but it's also okay to not go back to how things were #they outgrew each other and that's okay. it's valid and it happens and they can still be close without going in circles #eli and miguel's friendship is so important to me because they grew together and miguel actually saw eli for who he was #miguel was the only one who could see his friend even when he took the rage and anger and need for control too far #he knew eli didn't stop being eli just because he was putting up this front and diving head first into it #also the fact that sam and eli have so much in common yet have always been on opposing ends and a balance to each other? makes me feral #i need more of them because i know they can be such a good team and it warmed my heart to see them root for each other #sam and eli are so passionate and have the capability of being so raw and real and their fighting styles are the most balanced tbh #they've been everywhere all at once and i need them to be a duo and fighting together because everything they hated each other for was a #doing of their trauma and their fears and everyone else tbh. sam and eli don't really know each other at all #and they have so much to unpack and see in each other because i do think that they have a lot in common and balance each other #eli and robby whew so much to unpack there too and i just need them to not gloss over what happened between them #and same with eli and tory because at some point they were all they had in ck when everything changed #and hawk was loyal to her and cared for her and he was displaced and it sent him deeper down #anyway justice for eli and actually seeing ties that matter without him just being shoved into an old friendship

[pankomako]

sometimes i think about interactions boat and i have had and things he's said to/about me over the years and it makes me feel as though i must occupy some little space in his heart. like i live in his mind rent-free the way he does for me, although not nearly to the same extent lmao.

speak of the goddamn devil i just got a steam notification he's playing tf2

anyway i never thought i'd have that kind of effect on a person, much less my favorite content creator. but it sure appears to be that way, and idk. it makes me feel special. warms my heart n all that :)

#was one of two people to give me their phone number when i had to drop off of discord 2 years ago #never took advantage of it though (shy (also we have different brands of phones so texting probably wouldnt work right #other person was an irl friend (never contacted them either #i remember one time YEARS ago when he was wanting to read jjba on stream or smth like that #him: it's like REALLY not family friendly me: well i shouldnt watch bc i am a Child him: no its ok you dont have to skip It's very dirty th #like guy clearly just wanted me there bc he enjoys my company And he's said he does! i remember him saying he likes seeing me in chat #and once again he was the one that wanted me on the staff team when usually the staff pick new recruits and boat has final say #and apparently he's talked about me to his other friends. that's kinda where the old Time to Mod in-joke started #he was using voice to text to talk to whoever and said my username but the thing misinterpreted it #that coupled with the meme drawing i did that he edited so it's him just saying 'pain'. eventually that dumb fucking image spawned #and then there was the night he spammed it and spam mentioned me in chat when he was streaming while i was ASLEEP #once we were in a vc and he was like 'wow i'd forgotten what your voice sounded like' NEVER heard him say that to anyone else. What #dont even get me started with him and my artwork (man would probably flip tf out seeing what i can do now LOL) #guy literally wanted ME to design an official tff logo but at that point they were kinda slowing down so it never happened #but yeahno i just. ugh. our friendship means a lot to me. i am ITCHING to speak to him again you have no idea #and to just give him a big ol hug. been wanting that for such a long time #quite frankly a friendship dynamic like no other ive seen #dont mind me REMINISCING. im sooo sappy about him he's the most important guy in the world to me #if god exists he knew we'd be too powerful if we grew up together

[katnissgirlsmakedo]

oh fuck i have to direct a short film now. and if i just killed myself.

#girl who signed up for this class and submitted her own script and asked to direct it voice #and the other 2 people in my group i DON'T KNOW. i have never met these people..... #well i suppose it's good that my friend who i had a little crush on is not on my team. because well i cannot guarantee i'd've been normal #beth.txt #well actually it's nice that these two people specifically chose to work on mine though #i was informed that everyoe in the class got to be on their first choice team so that's cool that they picked me

[pendraegon]

sorry for sounding insane but me and my sis can blow your favorite sibling duo out of the water

#rip to any siblings who hate each other but me and my baby sis are genuinely best friends #i was texting her and i was like. 'do you ever look at siblings in media and ur like. yeah. we're more powerful than them' and she was like #'oh absolutely. we'd win the sibling competition' #so. aisdfjlkasfghifs #i do def think that me and my sis are lucky in that respect though like. we're only 2 years apart and we've never really had like a #'i hate you' period or anything even when we were in our teens. we're both very much like. okay we're a team. the lemur siblings against #the world. and all that asoidfjkoasfa

[morn1e]

honestly johanne&scout somehow bcoming great friends during the short span they know each other during the comic events the hunt 4 australium>>>johanne having no friends

#they r literal polar opposites but somehow make a great duo<3 #scout would prob see her as a little sister he never had while hanne would see scout just as this guy who she knows.:) #i like 2 think once the team disband they all keep in contact&like have gatherings @ each others diff place around the world #scout&johanne would too keep in contact.scout comes 2 germany 4 a week</3 #‘…friend?gee the last time i was called that was when i was in middle school.’ #‘that….is actually really sad.wat da hell:(‘