#i mean they had a child together

[sergle]

i was a chihuahua disliker in a past life but have Grown Up since then, but earlier i saw one that made me clench my fists in agony. i wanted her so bad...

#WHAT IS THAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAT #WHY DOES SHE LOOK LIKE THAT OH MY GOD #she looks like a bug that got sunbleached... and she has permanent Sad Eyes. tell me she does not look very sweet #i'd call her chicory and we'd be soul bonded. #also the chihuahua disliking thing. i feel like that's one of those dumb things like not liking rap/country. like unfounded dislike i mean. #the chihuahua dislikery went away as soon as i realized that a lot of people grossly mishandle their small dogs #and don't attempt to do ANYTHING resembling training. and those two things together. create a very reactive dog. #anyway i don't need a second dog. goodbye everybody #i think though that if i had a dog for 20 years of my life. the day they leave is the day i jump in front of a truck. THAT'S TOO LONG. #that's my HUMAN CHILD. what do you mean #sergle.txt

[bacchuschucklefuck]

riz gukgak is SO distressing to have as a favourite character I can never funckign rest out here

#not art #smthing abt his character being motivated so equally by truth and fear #and he keeps looking for an institution that'd both help him seek the truth and assuage his fears #with him first being a PI bc his mom was a cop and then a junior agent with blessings from his dad #and hes like on that precipice of realising that its not just the people in the seats its the concept of it from the ground up thats fucked #so hes inclined towards conspiracy thoughts and an end-justifies-the-means pattern of action #like. man. hes just so fucking filled with anxiety. he guards the things that make him happy with ferocity #and the thing is! the world encourages this! every time hes paranoid he turns out to be right #that paranoia that already came from having very little control over a world thats unkind to you #honestly all the bad kids were prime radicalization/cult materials in freshman year but I feel like riz is even More so #theyre so fucking lucky they ended up together like that. there are so many things you can promise a kid #who already had plenty of things taken from and kept from him. a kid with an overworked mom and a missing babysitter #if riz didnt run into the bad kids it would be childs play to isolate him. gods. head in hands I cannot fuckign be here dude #this is why the ''small'' comic I tried to sketch ballooned up to almost 30 panels lmao needed to stuff someof this somewhere #but also skip is my favourite from ASO so maybe I just like experiencing hardship and challenges in daily mental exercises

[oddly-casual]

Trolls Band Together Spoilers

(Clay and Bruce trying their best)

One thing I’ve been dying to talk about are the little ways Bruce and a lay take care of their other siblings and why.

It’s all in the little stuff! Like I am of the belief that Bruce and Clay are so close is because they could only really find solidarity in each other. Growing up no one liked how JD pushed them to be perfect, but Bruce and Clay were the only ones who felt pushed in a box, they were the only ones who got angry.

Floyd was always the peace maker and Branch was a baby so the only ones who understood their anger was each other.

Clay and Bruce always have each others backs, but I wanna talk about how they take care of baby Branch.

Like when Branch is listening to the broad cast with Velvet and Veeneer, Bruce notices Branch’s worry and turns off the radio. (Bruce also carried around Tiny bc he is a true dad.)

During the ‘It takes two’ song, Branch pulls out his blue prints and John Dory immediately pushes Branch out of the way to take control and you can see Clay and Bruce wince like they know it’s a bad idea before Clay pulls John away for the transition shot.

Not to mention Clay and Bruce seem so unironically excited to see Baby Branch that they side like JD, and I know that was probably because they’re still on weird terms with JD, but I don’t think their happiness to see BB was only for pettiness sake.

Maybe there’s some stuff I missed because I only saw the movie once and I looked down at some points to take notes so may haps I missed some back ground stuff but if there is please tell me!

#trolls spoilers #trolls band together #dreamworks trolls #I like calling Branch Baby Branch I’m sorry #trolls bruce #trolls clay #trolls Branch #trolls john dory #I Wanna go more into depth abt how JD became a parent child and how that affected his relationship with his brothers #BECAUSE ITS SO INTERESTING PLEASE #Like the concept of how these siblings grew apart but do deeply care for each other means so much #Floyd was probably the one who was there for Branch the most! #Bruce and Clay felt a bond bc they both were in happy! #JD felt alone because of his position and even tried to go back to see Branch and Rosiepuff only to think that they died!!! #Thats sick and twisted!!!! #They all still treat branch like a baby bc they never saw him grow up!!! #except for Floyd who’s the emotional intelligence of the brothers #and bruce only had smaller children so he doesn’t know how to take his baby brother growing up

[dirtytransmasc]

[mild tw for marital rape/forced 'consent' its only referenced a little, but it feels necessary to mention it]

imagine Alicent only standing up for herself when Aegon is in the picture. Imagine her talking her son to her chambers cause he's fussy and won't go down for bed and was asking for his mum, and she has him tucked close, blissfully asleep, and Viserys calls for her.

she knows she can't refuse, but she tells the servant he had sent to make him aware of Aegon's state. he still demands that she be brought to his chambers and that the babe go back to his nursemaid. she looks down at her baby, who's now woken due to the disturbance, who is staring up at her with soft tired eyes, a little yawn escaping him.

she doesn't want to go, she doesn't want to be forced to take her husband, to pleasure him at her own discomfort. she doesn't want to leave her son, to have him sent back to bed where he will remain restless and in the care of someone who is not his mother. she had never want to refuse more than she did in that moment.

she hesitates, her facade falters. Aegon is still looking up at her as tears well up in her eyes. he quirks his head at her, fingers reaching for her cheeks as if to comfort her. with a sudden conviction, she takes him in her arms, rising from the bed, requesting a robe and a blanket. when her servant looks at her in question, she clarifies that she will be taking Aegon with her and does not wish to rouse him in attempts to dress him. they look at her with shock, but don't voice the concern written on their faces.

they bring her Viserys's favorite robe. Alicent recognizes it from her time with Rhaenyra and Aemma. she's worn it before, Viserys has made sure the servants bring it to her every time he requests her. she hates the way it feels against her skin, knowing why he makes her wear it. she wraps aegon in his blanket, soft and royal blue, his hands beginning to play with its golden tassles as she tucks him inside her robe, pressed to her chest with care.

even as fear bites at her heels, anxiety churning her stomach, she walks to Viserys's chamber with her held high. she knows she is only asking for her husband's wrath; she knows she should just obey him, but she just can't. her son will not suffer a sleepless night and horrid following day all because her husband feels the need to use her body once more. he will not suffer at his father's hands tonight, even if she has to endure Viserys's anger for it.

she enters her husband's chambers, finding him in bed, in a white night gown, clearly ready to use her; he was never subtle when he asked for her, not even the first time.

she pauses in the doorway, pulling back the robe slightly, making him aware of Aegon's presence. she watches his face fall, barely muted anger. she holds onto Aegon tighter. part of her fears he may hurt her for this disturbance, but more of her fears he will hurt Aegon on her behalf.

"I told the damned servants to take him," his voice is warped and cruel, just an angry scowl of sorts.

"Aegon is not well, dear husband... I could not leave him," she admits before he can say anything else. she puts her foot forward as a mother, hoping to claim mercy from the man who made her one.

he mutters something in response, not quite loud enough for her to hear. she has a feeling she is grateful for that.

"what was it you needed, my dear?" she tries to sound sweet and kind, in attempts to abate his anger, "I'm sure I could still attend to it."

"you know what I wanted," he yelled. it had been the first time he'd truly raised his voice to her. she couldn't help but gasp, stepping back one step, than two, stopping when Aegon began to fuss, curling around him instead.

"Please Viserys, the baby." she ducks her head down to press her against his whispy white hair. her son his huffing, as if about to cry, and she's sure if she could see his face, his little cheeks would be red and his eyes would be crinkled and wet, his lip puckered. she begins to rock him slightly, still afraid to move.

"your'e dismissed," he grunts, but his tone gives it away. she knows he doesn't mean it, the if she leaves she will be in more trouble. she questions staying, calling a servant to take Aegon and giving him what he wants, but decides against it. he would not come before her son, not now, not ever.

"I'm sorry, my dear, another night, when I do not have Aegon to tend to," she forces some cheer into her tone, "he is still so young, so helpless. he needs his mother. I'm sure you understand?"

"he is not the only one in need of you." he had not lost his anger yet. not even for the sake of his son.

"yes, of course. forgive me. only he is not as understanding as you, my love." that wasn't the truth, Aegon was more kind and understanding at a year old, than viserys was in all of his years. "I will leave now. I am sorry for the disturbance."

she pauses for a moment, waiting for her husbands reaction. when he doesn't lash out at her, she breathes a quiet sigh of relief, feeling as though she has evaded a great beast. her heart calms in her chest, slowing from its fluttering and her stomachs stops its dizzing ache. she questions turning and running, fleeing from his presence before he can change his mind, but knows better.

she hurries to his side, eyeing him all the while, each step calculated, avoiding cracking any eggshells, until she is close enough to kiss his cheek. he allows it, and gives Aegon grace when he reaches out for him, letting him play with his finger a moment, before pulling it away, not even turning away fully before sneering. she takes that as her cue to leave, this one being much more genuine than the last.

"goodnight dear husband." he says nothing. she takes Aegon's little hand, waving it slightly, "say goodnight Aegon."

her son tries to imitate her, though unintelligible, as a toddler would. she continues to smile and coo at him even when his father ignores him, not letting him feel his father's scorn, quickly turning towards the door and back to her own chambers.

the second the door is close she feels herself sag, she would have fallen to the floor right then and there had there not been kingsgaurd watching. instead she holds her head high once more, walking calm and steady, like a queen should.

Aegon settles his forehead against her collar, giving a great yawn against her skin. she smiles at him fondly, kissing his brow, earning a tired little giggle from him. it hits her that he is unaware of the trouble he just saved her from. she feels equal parts relief as she does terror; she hopes he never knows, never understands, but is so so thankful for it none the less.

the second she steps into her chambers she pulls of the robe, setting it aside carefully despite the pain it brings her, respecting the memories it carried. she pulls back the covers before smothering her and her son amongst them. he's quick to curl against her, quite tuckered out after their harrowing adventure, even if he was unaware of its true weight. she herself still wanted to cry, but was similarly too tired to keep her eyes open for another moment. tomorrow, she tells herself, tomorrow will be difficult, but tonight you have your son, tonight you have a chance to rest.

so she does, she holds him close, tracing fingers over the gold threaded patterned of his blanket, feeling the shifting of his chest as he breathes and the tickle of his hair against her neck. all is well in that moment. she drifts to sleep at the thought.

#omage to Aemma's robe that we see alicent wearing in episode 3 (I believe. it was when she was helping bathe viserys) #cause I know he made her wear it cause he's a monster #this is set prior to Helaena's conception. aegon is tiny. and alicent is still naive to the true extents of viserys's abuse. #especially to the fact that despite all of the love she holds for her children and how badly she wishes to always pick them first #his abuse and the stockholm syndrom that follow it will turn her against her children. aegon in particular. #maybe not against. but acrid and foul. her pain overtaking her love. she still tries so hard to protect them though. if you get what I mean #its otto's fault too and they should both die #anyway #I'm just in my feels with these two #we didn't get enough scenes of them together especially when they were both young and I wanted to give alicent a moment were she fought bac #she refused to give him what he wanted. she chose her child over him. she stood up for herself and what she wanted. #she earned that moment #I know she was choking through those “my dears” and “my loves” but she had to for formalities sake #angst in the front fluff in the back #even if the fluff is laced with angst #letting alicent be soft and love her son #I needed it #aegon targaryen #aegon ii targaryen #alicent hightower #anti viserys i targaryen #pro team green #hotd #house of the dragon #I love them your honor

[moonilit]

just went through the second part of the AQ and to put it mildly, im not handling these sad Victorian children well

#By not handling it well i mean im crying #LUMINE WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU #You worried about fucking CHILDE but not the actual CHILDREN we got in prison????????????? #Who cares if childe is dead or not freminet the actual child nearly got dissolved like mentos in coke! #Who cares about childe here??? Lynette nearly had her ptsd triggered lyney DEFINITELY got at least a panic attack #THEY ARE AT THE FUCKING PRISON WOMAN GET IT TOGETHER #also why are we having visions about childe ew and why are they fully cinematic?? Who is filming??? #Like childe funny as a meme to observe but don’t actually get him that close don’t test me know ur place #When did we even become that close with childe??? Im sorry what??? #I can’t keep seeing them kids in life threatening situations on trial then this???? #Arlecchino you are on a THIN FUCKING ICE #Im watching you!! Im watching you you better not turn into an abuser by actual standards #*break into genshin codes* stay right were you are sweetie im coming rn im going to get you out of this game into a loving family #Im not handling this well #genshin impact #freminet #lyney #lynette #yes I know im the last human on earth to do the quest leave me alone it been a busy time #Im going to kill anyone that get between me and the safety of these kids CHILDE GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY PLOT YOU ARE MAKING THIS TAKE TIME

[druidonity2]

Death Blossom

#world of warcraft #anduin wrynn #arthas menethil #honestly mostly this piece was just idunno like an idea without much thought behind it #it had a cute sketch so i continued adding to it #i think i was mostly still thinking about anduins mental state in shadowlands and how arthas had a part in that #blizz is very vague about how arthas is used to corrupt him so i mostly just do whatever i want with fanart #i mean i do that anyway but #Anduin is depicted as a child wearing the maw armor and chains holding a flower to arthas #and like i think a part of hte idea was anduin depicted as younger to more represent his innocence #but also that younger anduin carries more bravery and here he's unafraid to face arthas #he hands a flower not as a friendly jesture but more of a 'im better then you' but i struggle to explain that #Anduin trying to convince himself #even in hell #even in chains just like you #im still better #depicts how arthas's curse is still hurting the younger generations of azeroth even after his death (chains) #chose the death flower cuz its like ya know the shadowlands flower found in all zones #but that there is still beauty in death #aiofhafiaohad this piece is just alot of different vague ideas that come together to make no damn sense #Honestly nonsensical art is fun would love more nonsensical fanart #just fanart where its like...you vaugely get what they were going for but otherwise doesnt really make much sense #its fun to draw first and make shit up later #I learned how to 'think critically' about the imagery of art in art school and now i can just spew bullshit about my fanart its great #you should try it #I mean its not like im realllly making things up #is just that the art came first and then i used what i drew to put together my thoughts and thats completely valid for artist to do #somethings you better understand your feelings and ideas after you've let yourself create #thats why art is so cool

[dimdiamond]

I'm losing my mind with people calling Tintin and Haddock "father and son goals" because I don't know about you guys but I want my dad safe at home and not following me around when I do shit I am sure he wouldn't approve or like

#is this a fantasy or #you guys dream you had a relationship like that with your dad or #i mean i have a pretty normal relationship with my dad and i definitely don't want to do adventures together i want him to rest at home #ok i guess everyone has their own tastes i just can't get behind this #also haddock is never tintin you won't go he is usually tintin i won't go with you only to cut at him going lol #i dunno guys i guess parent snd child bonds are specific in my mind and tintin and haddock never clicked to me like that #they're just so best friends together in life and death kinda situation it's pretty wild if you think about it #tintin #captain haddock #archibald haddock #the adventures of tintin

[lucalicatteart]

A few little sketches of some possible school uniforms for mage schools/learning centers for magic/etc. :0c Though because Nanyevimi is so scattered and disconnected, it'd actually vary much more by region (like not everywhere would have a cultural concept of what a suit jacket or neck tie looks like lol), so it's probably unrealistic for so many of them to follow too many traditional Uniform Conventions from cultures in our world, etc. But, still, fun to mess around with designs, and think about which would be most fun to wear/what school you'd go to just based off the clothing lol~

#I haven't felt well enough to do anything actually productive lately GRRRR.. evil health issues.... #but I can sometimes at least draw while I lay on the floor with a heating pad and etc. lol.. so... #goofy little sketches. Still dislike that the ipad thing someone gave me is either like.. maybe the settings are just off OR possibly the #screen is slightly broken in some regard - so the pressure sensitivity does not work at all. thus all lines are blunt looking #instead of having tapered edges. which I KNOW can be a stylistic thing. like I think it's fine mostly #but sometimes shading looks weird for all of the lines to be the exact same size/width with like no variation lol #though since it's just little sketches it doesnt matter lol but still... hrmm... ever working out my strategy for how to use the ipad for a #art things/if I can ever get used to it/etc. #AAANYWAY... still so uniform obsessed.. and have been since I was a child. Like way before going to middle school and meeting #the people who like anime and get into school uniforms of that variety. I mean like... age 7 before even having any friends #and having zero popular media interests or outside influences that would make uniforms Trendy. but I would see like a 'private school #uniform' on a new story on tv or something or in a book and was just like OUGH... I Should Dress That Way #I used to go to thrift stores and find multiple seperate pieces that could be combined together to look like a school uniform #I had like 4 or 5 different 'uniforms' that I made myself in that way. My first outfit that I was ever allowed #to pick out for myself as my big First Day Of Middle School outfit was literally like school uniform inspired #(maybe mixed with a little goth.. like it was a school uniform sort of look but black and white with fishnet armwarmers lol.. plaid + #stripes pattern mixing my beloved... ) #I think it's just the same way that I love apartment buildings because I'm infinitely fascinated with like.. observing human nature and peo #le displaying their psersonalities in little ways and how you can give 10 people the same exact identical space but each one will decorate #it completely differently just depending on their own tastes and reasonnig and etc. I love the idea of everyone in some setting #having to be in one specific set outfit BUT you can tell something about them by the little ways they customize it or what type #of accessories they wear or if they choose to button their shirt fully or not or etc. etc. I like the constraints of 'okay everyone has to #be in exactly the same uniform - NOW. give them their own unique style somehow despite this' etc. etc. like #yaaaayyyy.. I love thinking of little obscure details that convey personality. they have a little pin hidden on the inside of their #hat. their shoes are just like everyone else's but more worn out. they have a necklace barely visible beneath their collar. their tie is #always a little more askew that everyone elses. or even. the uniform is EXACTLY on model entirely clean crisp pristine not a single element #customized or out of place - which STILL tells you something about them. etc. etc. #ANYWAY.. yeahg.. struggling to get anything done these last few weeks so.. blam. poof. alakazaam. scratchy little sketches #of nothing very productive or relating to any other project in particular be upon ye

[opportunity-strikes]

My new OC Alacrity for our upcoming DragonLords campaign! They have the Lost One epic path and were shipwrecked and almost drowned, and they are most assuredly Fine and Completely Unscathed by that.

I was really proud of this one!

Not for use or reposting, thankyou!

#oc: alacrity #alacrity uses they/them! #theyre opportunity's child which means they have chronic 'who the fuck even am i?' syndrome #myart #my art #but actually I'm really proud of how this one turned out #i had an idea i didnt think i could pull off and then i just..... did it #it just all came together and it felt really good to do #havent had a piece if satisfying art like this in a while #tw drowning #just in case any of yall need that

[deargravity]

i don’t want hajun to be mysterious, beautiful and elusive. i want him to see his messy, fractured moments. no more bare minimum details. i need to be acquainted with visceral details of his childhood.

give me 13 year old hajun in japan, alone and confused and still convinced that this whole thing is a ruse and his parents will come get him eventually. i need 14 year old hajun still clinging onto the hope that if he’s good enough and proves himself his parents will take him back. i want 15 year old hajun disabused of all his faith in his parents and realising home is nowhere now, and he is fundamentally unwantable unless he learns to wear the right masks and say the right things. little hajun who had to figure everything out by himself, while knowing his existence made no difference to his parents back home anyway. now it’s his life and the only person to whom it matters is himself.

i wonder if he had a phase where his anger was just like dongha’s — wet, guttural, thrashing, amorphous. when exactly did it take shape into the cold, sharp thing it is today? i want him slowly getting sick of breaking his own heart with his own wanting. i want him meeting allen and experiencing the terror of caring for someone for the first time. i want him falling back on the “vengeance on my parents” narrative because he can’t admit to himself that allen and anne appeared in his life at a time when his walls weren’t fully up yet and now they’re here to stay after he’s so carefully built himself up to avoid abandonment by avoiding intimacy altogether. i want to see him growing up and retreating slowly further and further into himself the more he realises he won’t be able to survive losing allen and anne, i want him disgusted by his own wanting and uncomfortable with himself but so distanced from his own feelings that the only way he can process / experience anything close to it is by antagonising others to create congruent reactions within them just so he knows what it’s like to feel something.

i want him alone in his room and suddenly so crushed by emotion but incapable of identifying them because he never grew up with the tools to define his own experience. maybe that’s also why making music with bae matters to him (since their theme revolves around taking charge of your own narrative). he built himself a sense of self from scratch and still he couldn’t outgrow his childhood fear of being unwanted. yeah he’s sadistic and callous and morally dubious, but he wasn’t born that way. i am asking once again i need the visceral detail. the guts of it. but i may be crazy.

#idk i just love him #but i also hate him #you’d think with the amount of bae content we already get we wld have something by now #i’m going to have to start making things up if this continues #everyone wants to talk about his twisted personality and sadistic nature but nobody wants to talk about why he is the way he is #not to mention this is all just AFTER he left the yeon household. he had to live there for 6? years i think under the same roof as dongha #unless they kicked him out right after dongha birth and thennnnn he went to japan when he was 13 #idk the timeline is confusinf #what i mean to say is yeon household was cruel and the world was cruel too so it’s all he’s ever known #because girl you are like kintsugi pottery. the gold holding your pieces together is beautiful #but darling what broke you in the first place? #your parents put this heavy heart in you and broke it and left you to pick up the pieces with your shaking child hands #you cut yourself on your own shards trying to be whole again #paradox live #paralive #yeon hajun #hajun yeon

[lady-shadow-and-darkness]

As much as I hate verlaine, I have to admit that the man suffering in the trenches of depression after Rimbaud's death is perfect for my rimlaine.

#Everytime I think about them they make me so #They are so poetic just by existing. #like what do you mean rimbaud gave verlaine his real name and took his huh?? what do you mean he tried to help him #figure out his humanity huh?? what do you MEAN that wasn't enough and Verlaine still felt inhumane and abnormal #to the point that he didn't wantnto raise another child like him in that environment huh??? #what do you mean rimbaud gave him a gift that symbolised his humanity when verlaine had already planned to betray him #AND STILL FELT UNHEARD AND UNSEEN BUT RIMBAUD WAS TRYING SO HARD AND IT WOULD'VE TAKEN A SINGLE WORD #FROM VERLAINE FOR THEM TO RUN AWAYBAND RAISE CHUUYA TOGETHER IN SOME COUNTRYSIDE IN JAPAN HUH?!!! #WHAT DO YOU MEAN EVEN IN DEATH HIS LAST WIDH WAS FOT VERLAINE TO LIVE ON WITH HIS MEMORY AND BE HAPPY HUH?!₹-3)1(3- #WHAT DO YIU MEAN VERLAINE NOW SPENDS HIS DAAYS WAITING IN THE BADEMENT FOR THE STORM THAG WILL NEVER COME ANH RA ANGQKNBBQMMJDSNANJWKSLFJUR #bungou stray dogs #rimlaine #for your sake don't read the tags #arthur rimbaud #paul verlaine

[biblionerd07]

I have a lot of gripes with the last two seasons of Shameless (and I know I’ve been complaining a lot lmao) but one of the worst offenses, to me, is the way they refused to let any of the characters acknowledge their own histories. Nothing from previous seasons was allowed to carry over, for whatever reason. And it bothered me the most with Terry Milkovich. (I’m putting this under a cut because it turned into a damn essay lol)

They defanged Terry. They turned him into comic relief and had both Ian and Mickey turning to him for advice. ADVICE???? It did Mickey’s growth through the show SUCH disservice. There was some quote from Wells (😡😡😡 a thousand curses upon his name) about how they did it on purpose because we should all laugh at homophobes to show them their views are stupid or something like that. And like, okay I guess? That is such a straight guy stance. Maybe that works when the homophobe in question is some harmless stranger who has no effect on your life and their views are like the water turning the frogs gay.

But Terry was not that kind of homophobe. Terry was a very real type, whose abuse shaped every part of who Mickey was. Turning him into comic relief made it seem like Mickey’s fear was over the top and he was just paranoid. But when Terry walked in on Ian and Mickey, he physically assaulted them and used corrective rape by proxy. Mickey’s fears were EXTREMELY founded.

That was the crux of Mickey’s character and his development! That even with all of this terror and self-loathing and abuse, he was slowly opening himself up and not only learning to give Ian his love but to accept love. Mickey’s bravery was such a key element of his character! We knew what kind of abuse he’d been subject to, so every tiny, halting step forward made us cheer for him. Turning that into comic relief was an absolute slap in the face after that journey they’d taken him on. (And they were sure as hell happy to remember it when they were getting awards from queer outlets and using it for promo, weren’t they? 😒)

Mickey’s speech before the wedding about Terry always winning was so much more hollow than it should’ve been because for some reason they wouldn’t let him talk about his worst offenses. Having Mickey talk about Terry stealing Halloween candy and Christmas presents and ignoring the rape and abuse was genuinely bizarre. (And bless Noel, who gave his everything and made that even slightly impactful.)

I liked that Mickey was extremely defeatist in that scene. That would absolutely be his mindset! For his entire life, Terry wins. Terry gets what he wants and hurts who he wants and no one stops him. Everyone around the neighborhood (and the cops) knew exactly what Terry was like. There were always other adults hanging around. And no one ever stopped him from abusing those kids. Mandy scoffs and laughs about Terry pistol-whipping Mickey. (ZERO hate to Mandy on this, because all of this is her reality too, and she didn’t even know the whole story.) No one has ever stood up for Mickey against Terry.

Until Ian. I cannot ever get the scene in the Alibi out of my head. There’s an entire bar full of people who are seeing this happening and nobody does anything. Mickey’s right back where he’s always been, on the ground under Terry’s fists, and everyone is just grabbing their drinks and getting out of the way.

But not Ian. Ian (who, it should be noted, is also still a teenager here) pulls Terry off Mickey and fights back. This is very likely the first time in Mickey’s entire life that anyone has ever defended him against Terry.

And now he’s finally supposed to be happy with Ian in such a “normal”, tangible way, and here comes Terry to take it away. Of course. Mickey can’t even be surprised by this. It’s the way the world works. He says there’s no point in trying to find a new venue until they address the root of the problem and kill Terry.

But allllll of this hinges on us as the audience remembering what Terry’s done without a refresher, because for whatever reason, they refuse to let the characters connect to their own pasts in ways that would enrich the story they’re trying to tell. It’s such bad writing and I can’t fathom any reason for it.

#shameless us #mickey milkovich #terry milkovich #Ian/mickey #abuse cw #rape mention #like genuinely his whole ‘he took our Halloween candy! he pawned our Christmas presents! he left us with child services!’ was so weird #baby he raped you by proxy and he raped your sister not by proxy #it was So! Strange! how none of the characters ever referenced the past seasons #I’m supposed to believe Ian and Mickey never once talked about how Mickey’s first (forced!) marriage was feeding into the groomzilla stuff? #and I’m supposed to believe Mickey didn’t constantly use ‘I rolled on a cartel for you!’ to get out of the doghouse? #especially this Mickey being used for comic relief??? #they’re talking about working together and they don’t bring up that they have before #they’re talking about monogamy and their past of Mickey being monogamous and Ian not never comes up????? #just bc you’re trying to be a comedy doesn’t mean you just throw the serious stuff out the window #why did Ian have friends in the other seasons and they had wedding guests but in s11 neither of them had any friends #it was just so weird!!!!! #I want to ask the writers what the hell was going on #why was lip the only one allowed to say Mandy’s name and only one time????

[fideidefenswhore]

Culpeper had intimate access to the king and was well placed to provide Katherine with information about her husband's health and his ever fluctuating moods. More importantly, Culpeper could warn her of any indication that Henry was angry [...], could listen out for any gossip about her, and report on speculation that her husband was considering repudiating her in favour of Anne of Cleves. Throughout Katherine's queenship, this topic would surface time and again, to her consternation and grief.

Katherine Howard: The Tragic Story of Henry VIII’s Fifth Queen, Josephine Wilkinson

#an interesting parallel to AB... #i wonder if those underwrote both their fears #the possibility that their predecessor could be restored and them cast off #i mean with kh. she knew that was actually possible. since he'd done it before. so.... #(not henry taking back a former wife but casting off his current for someone else...yeah?) #whereas anne knew he would always have the bond through their child and was competing with a much more significant and length shared histor #between henry and coa... #*shared history #and also had been with him in their shared project and at times living together for like. #six years prior to their marriage. so...

[angorwhosebabyisthis]

[pericky; a look into ricky's head during their meeting.]

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"I'm glad you came, I wasn't sure you would." The wine pours, the sound of it drowning out the missing word in that sentence: back.

Of course, is the response, and the part of Ricky that's spent twenty years tearing itself apart to understand why vibrates with relief. It doesn't matter anymore. Of course, of course, he thinks giddily along with the words. He never needed to wonder why Pericles wasn't coming back in the first place; he was always going to.

I'm happy you invited me, and of course he thinks again. A lifetime of pretending he wasn't always going to either falls away. However harsh and lonely the world has been, all's right with it again; and the shy voice of the boy inside him that he's tried so hard to kill says, so quietly, I missed you.

#sdmi #scooby doo: mystery incorporated #pericky #ricky owens #professor pericles #anyway fucking end me actually. lay me down to die #i said i was gonna write more pericky and by fucking god i did #the 'why did you do this to me' to 'oh thank god you didn't actually do this to me' pipeline of abuse folks 🥲 #which like. their last conversation is yet another devastating example of ricky finally standing up to pericles' bullshit Too Late #ricky denounces him in the strongest terms he knows; based on his own feelings and opinions and the way he sees the world #(which: even then he can't bring himself to say 'i don't love you anymore') #(the closest he can get is 'i chose you and i can't take it back; the only way i can imagine not loving you is if i never had at all') #and pericles tries to go 'nyeh nyeh whatever i don't care' (and does a real bad job of pretending he is not obviously hurt lmao) #and ricky doesn't try to understand his logic; he doesn't try to reconcile a world where pericles didn't *really* mean to do anything wrong #his response is MAYBE YOU *SHOULD* CARE. #pericles' view of the world and what's right and acceptable are warped and *wrong* and he's the one who needs to get his shit together #'you shouldn't have abused me you shouldn't have killed cassidy you shouldn't have murdered a child in cold blood' #that is MASSIVE and i think it is really telling that pericles' response is to shut him down with force instead of trying to argue any more #and that in the end is the real true fucking tragedy of it all #ricky is making huge strides one after the other to take back his freedom from pericles emotionally #....and materially it makes no difference to improve his situation in the moment; because pericles doesn't have any less power to abuse him #he never has a triumphant moment where he Overcomes His Abuser and Breaks Out of His Control #there's nothing he can do to fight back until pericles is too Literally Dead to control him anymore #it is one of the rawest depictions of the reality of abuse i've ever seen and just. God. i love it so much #(at the same time i REALLY want to explore a version of events where he got the chance to expand further on that growth) #(the 'all witches are selfish; make all things yours; i have a duty' speech from the wee free men comes to mind) #whosebaby makes things #whosebaby writes #SDMItag #dyn: when i die i want you to die too

[july-19th-club]

overall i really like that space sweepers has next-to-no romance in it; like, even the grieving father never had a partner, he was a single dad. bubs isn't boy-crazy, just super girly, and we know nothing whatsoever about tiger's romantic history (i think he's gay, specifically in a belligerent 'whaddaya got, a problem? a brutally violent cartel hitter can't be gay? get off my ass' way). and i think this opens a lot of room up for other interesting kinds of relationships. but i also love that the only person with what MIGHT be a sexual history is captain jang, with a stereotype of a Lovelorn French Man who she POSSIBLY had a one-night stand with and he's still thinking about it years later while she behaves as if she's never even heard of him to such a doth-protest-too-much degree she is almost certainly also, sometimes, thinking about it. it's a very minor subplot but at the same time i got the distinct impression that jang doesn't really hate him per se, he's just, like, her embarrassing ex-friends-with-benefits who she wishes wasn't actually a pretty nice guy

#he's annoying he's french he will help you smuggle a child at the drop of a hat he loves to sing super badly #he eats green tomatoes like apples . he's just a silly little guy #he is implied to have at one point withstood the affections of captain jang hyun-sook for an indeterminate period of time #if he sucked it'd be easier to dismiss him but his lovelorn mooning is not borne from a place of stupidity #they had something at some point in the past and she didnt take it as seriously because she has A Persona #hes just an earnest caricature of a man who thinks the fact that she's a mean alcoholic salvage hog is just so beautiful #her persona is Hardcore Hard-Drinking Hard-to-Love Rogue . his persona is Has A Kink For That #space sweepers #q #i think in a post-canon some years down the line when they're both a little more normal they get together for real #but he HATES that he's got to try to be chill about it and not write bad songs about her. and she HATES that he was right

[kyouka-supremacy]

I know I'm just being delusional but I really think sskk would be good parents

#I mean. if Beast Akutagawa learnt how to be good with kids so can canon Akutagawa #atsushi nakajima #ryūnosuke akutagawa #sskk #bsd #bungou stray dogs #mine #q. #I just think they'd be good parents as per the logic that both of them had perfect anti-models. #“I've been told my whole life that I was worthless and didn't deserve to live– #that's why everyday I'll remember my child of how important they are” #“I've been told my whole life that I was weak and insignificant– #that's why I'll make sure my child never loses sight of how talented they are and never lacks confidence” #“I was never loved– that's why I'll make sure my child feels loved every second of their lives” etc. etc. #I just think after they've fixed their issues and traumas together‚ they can really be good people #Or at least okay people. #03/08/22