#i made a very big mistake

[sadisticmystical]

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#i made a very big mistake #very very big #while being a drunken idiot #ive fucked up so many times while drunk i should have never taken anyones word for ot that i could get better after the first one #i knew ot then i know it now im a giant worthless piece of shit and i fucked up so bad #and im so grateful it wasnt worse #every single person there should literally never talj to me again i would understand i deserve it #ill never drink again ill never do any of this over again i promise please can i still be saved #i know i cant and im so sorry i thought i could im so stipid and so selfish for ever thinking i could just be around other people with no #consequences i knew i was fucked i knew it but i thought i could get better if i tried and tried and tried my hardest #i know now i know now please i cant be in this state of pretending everything is fine i know i ruined it please just #just tell me what would be enough to fix it #twll if nothing is enough to fix it #i can never drink again i can never speak to you again i can pay for it all i can hurt myself so bad ill never forget it ill do whatever #it is you ask just please ask and stop pretending its okay its not okay im so sorry i cant do this

[ofswordsandpens]

I'm sincerely very happy for anyone who is enjoying the show but every time I see takes that the show has improved the book characterizations or that the book characters are underdeveloped in comparison to the show...

#our experiences are very different lmao #pjo show crit #sure the show isn't completely out yet #but id argue that the characters (namely the trio) seem way more developed and well-rounded in the book by this point in time (episode 4) #and look im not saying every change the show has made is bad #but by and far there has yet to be a change to characterization that feels like an IMPROVEMENT from the source material lmao #the closest contender I'd say is show Percy does seem a tad angrier than book Percy #but again I wouldn't call that an improvement... its just different and I think that /change/ works because it feels like the same essence #but even that has had some issues because I feel like the show has inadvertently cut down some of Percy's canon book empathy here and there #I think the show has nailed Annabeth's pride and intelligence and her warped worship of her mother #... but they've also made her hyper competent to the point that she's not making half of the mistakes she did in the book #which ISNT good because book annabeth is smart but she isn't infallible #its a big point that she has the theoretical intelligence but none of the real world experience/application #she gets tricked by medusa and goes to visit the Arch just cause she loves architecture and that's okay!! she's twelve and a nerd! #I also dont like that they've cut/toned down her little crush on Luke #actually they've not even showcased the familial bond between annabeth and Luke either in the show so like lmao #and then grover #by now grover's fear of failure and repeating this past mistakes and wanting a license has already been acknowledged in the books at least #in the show?? not so much #and his canon book suspicions and wariness of medusa... were given to annabeth #like medusa in the book was Grover's moment to shine cause his instincts were right! #and in the book fight he even very intentionally attacked medusa #but his highlights there were cut completely in the show #and finally sally #...idk who that is in the show but that's NOT my sally jackson #percy jackson #mine

[nattikay]

'ìyongokx prrnen...'efu mefo nitram nìtxan

#their height difference is not this pronounced in canon; jake probably has to be standing on a rock or smth to do this lol #my big head cartoony style does not help 😅 #avatar #avatar 2 #jake sully #neytiri #sully family #jeytiri #my art #i made this very fast at late o'clock so i will probably find all the mistakes and hate it in the morning but w/e #lì'fya leNa'vi

[quikyu]

A festive Ogerpon for the special day :-)

#pokemon #ogerpon #pokemon anthro #quikyu artiste #quikyu oc #momo #A very big mistake was made in letting me post my OCs here. Now you will only see my OCs #Forever until the end of time #I hope you like gingers with a murder count

[milkandbrownies33]

I finished making an animation meme and it sucked ass so i didnt wanna post it... But ill let you guys see the art i did for the animation meme LOL

#billy lenz #black christmas #black christmas 1974 #fanart #GODDAMMIT IT #i was making it when i was very sleepy and i didnt know what i was doing #it was a korn song too. #I kinda forgot why i made that animatic #this was a big mistake #also don't mind that my artstyle kept on changing.. #the editing app is lagging so bad i almost gave up

[matoyaa]

#01 SKYWATCHER [DEMO][GET]

a pro-lite account carrd template made for ffxiv roleplay characters.* it is an extra simple carrd layout. probably wont work & wasn't really made for robust/extensive info to be added.

* feel free to change the colors / sizes / fonts. edit or change to your desire. * to create cohesive boxes from the containers the page spacing is set to 0 so everything looks smooshed together (it is) * most certainly held together by duct tape

#ffxiv #ffxiv rp #carrd template #rp template #ff14 community #FIGURED i'd give this a whirl since I have helped/made carrds for friends in the past #i made this one as a template #use as you please #there is a credit link in there that just goes to my blog #i tried to not make it very imposing? idk im not big on credit about stuff #delete or change it as you wish #I MADE MISTAKES #this is pro lite #I made the other base friendly #big apologies

[blaithnne]

And what if Alfur was ftm transgender then what would you do

#listen #I just think that I’m right #I think he very happily reminders on singing the paperwork to get his legal name and sex changed #I think it’s a very big thing for the elves #I think they pay trans elves lots of elf money bc in their eyes they have made a horrible mistake with the paperwork #I think alfur is very proud of being one of few elves to have paperwork about him changed #I think he’s mildly miffed at the elf who assigned him as female at birth bc how dare they #they were WRONG #I think if anyone came out as trans to him he’d give a scandalised gasp #bc oh my goodness how DARE the authorities mess this up for you I’m so sorry #well reciting this error in paperwork right away #I think gender for elves is just a piece of paper #‘hey what’s in your pants’ #‘paperwork’ #Hilda #hilda the series #netflix hilda #hilda netflix #alfur hilda #Hilda alfur #hc #trans #lgbt

[last-flight-of-fancy]

finally got my ff14 WoL character timeline done! should i have coloured this? probably. will I? idk maybe. hopefully. someday.

#most of the outfits are based on canon ones... except heavensward #i made up heavenswards wholesale bc my lizard needed to be bundled up and none of the canon ones of the time did #(but they very much did use the big coat tataru made later on make no mistake) #flight's making things again #ff14 #final fantasy xiv #final fantasy 14

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

Wait!! In an earlier post you said everyone was aggressive… especially Barnaby…

What happened when he woke up? Unless it’s a spoiler/ not ready yet, then forget this question!!

I hope you have a nice day/night though :3

that answer is indeed Not Ready Yet! but in short, he has a Really bad time after he wakes up. like, it's Rough rough for him. and before anyone asks - no, it's not because of the arm! that is something he can understand, even if its a lil unsettling. everything Else, however...

#yeah barnaby wakes up pretty much exactly before everything goes wayyyyyy downhill #and aggressive more like... well hm... #he's very sad and angry (mostly at himself) and scared #and that all blends together into him becoming somewhat high-strung and Overprotective #basically i take the laidback comic relief character. i put him in a blender. i hit puree #barn had his relaxation time. now he gets to have a bad time! #i do it out of a place of deep fondness and affection i swear #wh lights out au #but yeah haha barnaby. yeah he Goes The Fuck Through It #he has some big emotions! he makes some big mistakes! he lives through some Tough Shit! #hey! at least he has howdy's continuous support #unless. unless i decide that something has to happen to everyone's favorite caterpillar. #i mean... if he has to go then he has to go!! #but at present i think howdy is essentially safe <3 maybe <3 #everyone is at risk until Final Decisions are made <3 #like there are exactly Two characters who like. absolutely fucking die lmfao no question about it #and there's another who's on verryyyyyyy thin ice. Very thin. its cracking. #but everyone else? somewhat safe. unless i think of something / something Occurs to me #you have a nice day/night/evening/morning/afternoon as well!

[theliteralmoon]

Last night on top of everything I was crumbling over the fact that I work 6 days a week, sometimes 10-12 hour days and I’m always so broke. I got a pretty crushing rejection that went something like old white people don’t see the “fine art” of my work and that felt like a huge blow because it’s the reality that as a black woman in textiles people don’t take my art seriously. A customer asked yesterday if my “tie dye” was “just a hobby” and that almost sent me over the edge

I know I need to find a way to work less and be less critical of everything I do but how do I do that when I can barely afford to live and pay for my craft

I feel like I need a break but don’t know how to get it and I’m sick of these other basic white queers getting admiration for their work when I’m constantly passed over. I don’t know what work I need to put in

I guess I need to recognize that I’ve only been doing this art for two years and I’ve come a long way and need to be proud of that

#I’ve also been in full swing cptsd breakdown the last few weeks and my birthday doesn’t help that #I did my first residency! which is a big deal #but hard when very little feels like accomplishment #I had to talk to my parents bc of a family emergency yesterday and made the mistake of telling them I’m teaching at a school today #and my mom just joked about it and moved on #and that’s why I don’t feel accomplishment

[a-passing-storm]

Those were the big things, but I--OH MY GOD WAIT! Also, the way The Last Wish very plainly but not obnoxiously talked about toxic masculinity and how it’s good and okay to be vulnerable with other people and ask for help and be scared. Like! Oh My God!

#puss in boots #the last wish #puss in boots: the last wish #puss in boots spoilers #ngl it also... stung a little personally bc the obvious thing the whole time was like 'tell your friends that death is trying to kill you!' #and puss was having a panic attack and shit and it reminded me so much of me with my trauma and seeing my abuser everywhere #except that for me when i told my friends they didnt give a shit and left me alone with my abuser and told me that its a 'you problem' #it didnt really make me mad at the movie though it just made me pissed at my (ex)friends #its so frustrating that at a time when i needed support from the people around me those people sucked #anyway i also liked that it showed how perspective can... how for puss he was just running from death and fear #but to his friends it looked like he was running away from them #i felt that it both acknowledged that how his friends felt was valid and reasonable and also that his reaction was valid and reasonable #and that giving people second chances is good and healthy and you shouldnt cut them off after one mistake #idk i just felt this movie had a ton of nuance and talked about big emotions in a very good and productive way

[coquelicoq]

usually i don't have any problem not thinking about work when i'm not getting paid to do so, but i made a big mistake earlier this week and spent five hours today dealing with the fallout and still have not managed to resolve it, and when i clocked out it was actually with this vague dread about leaving it unsolved instead of relief that it's finally the weekend. like it's bad that it's the weekend because it means i have to stop working on it?? wow. gross.

#it's interesting because it's 1) a pretty bad mistake and 2) not the end of the world. and in the past when i have done something #for which both of those things are true i've like waaaay spiraled far outside of what is reasonable and proportionate #and just really beat myself up about it. and this time i'm not at all. i'm just like well that was dumb and the consequences are #unfortunate and i really wish i had made different choices before this. but i don't have any control over that so there's no use #crying over it. all i can do is take responsibility‚ take steps to prevent it in the future‚ and move forward #so that's what i'm doing. which strikes me as very healthy and a big step up from what i used to do #however i keep having to quash the impulse to open my work email to see if there have been any developments #which is CRAZY like i've always thought of that as workaholic behavior from which i am shielded on account of having #excellent work-non work separation but I GUESS NOT

[thursdayg1rl]

OH MY GOD CALL ME THE CILLIT THE WAY I JUST BANGED THAT INTERVIEW. king of maths. im literally like if euler was a beautiful girl

#STUNNING . FABULOUS. NOT A QUWSTION I COULDNT ANSWER. absolutely unfazed #GOD PLESE GOD LET THAT HAVE A BIG IMPACT ON MY APPLICATION #AND THE GUY LIKED ME AS WELL BC HE KEPT SAYING LIKE 'YES VERY GOOD ALISHA' #I AM THE GOD OF MATHS #I JUST CALCULATED THE DERIVATIVE OF THE INTAGRAL FORM 0 TO X OF (E^-X(T^2+1))/(T^2+1) DT DONT EVEN LOOK AT ME #like. oh my god #the first people probably thought i was so fucking dumb but this guy got me #plese please please please it was so good im a star im a star i promise.. #god my chances are like 50/50 now depending on how much weight that second interview had #also wdym 'applied interview' they literally only asked me pure questions #the first phd student guy wasnt bad either. i made like one mistake but i think he thought i was smart. #omg not me breaking out the modular arithmetic as well. maths GOD im telling you.

[twilightarcade]

OC-tober day 11 - hot cocoa palette!

#notwordswordstag #oc-tober #bweirdOCtober #OPENED TUMBLR TO 99+ NOTIFIS AND A BUNCH OF NOTES ON ONE POST... ABSOLUTELY MORTIFYING #luckily there was light at the end of the tunnel (tumblr user kidfoundonthesreets) #ok umm professionalism [putting back on my fake mustache] #i was like soo dedicated to keeping this completely in pallette and I did!!!! Until the very end where I was like yeah... get darkened girl #another messyish one.. and guess who's gonna complain about it? No one. Thats right. (his head is too big......) #I keep making the mistake of not REMOTELY cleaning up lines and doing all cleaning in the colors. Um. Don't do that girl. #and this issssss ace. Literally the most original name in the world; please . hold your applause #ok anyways long term life planes. Plans. actually how long term are planes hang on #20-30 years. 4 those wondering #OK UMM ... LONG TERM LIFE PLANS........ #i started that 1 project (day dreaming about it etc etc) but haven't made any physical progress soooooooooooo due date on that is gonna be #liiiike end of november. Same w that other thing.... darn #doing some backgrounding for some (horribly amateur but enjoyable for now) youtube series.. will share if they ever get anywhere #ok jump back in subject that 1 project is with e because literally their entire thing is being in a quick lil one off game #and they aren't in one yet. Literally what the hell. Gotta get on this people. #GOOOOSG I NEED COMMAS. PRETTY PLEAS... #maybe it's a sign i should start just making stupid long posts instead of this [gesturing] but that's just an essay at that rate #but here i'm limited. Only 30 like. 140 or so character tags or we shoot you #eating some delicious almonds. 4 your information.

[rohirric-hunter]

I would like to offer my most sincere thanks to @naurmenel-amarnen, @pursuer-of-hope, and @razel-us, who helped me significantly in my quest to fill out the Reward Track and get the outfit I wanted! I wouldn't have been able to do it without their help and support.

#what i only mentioned to a few people in private #was that i was also trying to get it on evernight #but it wasnt quite as big of a deal because evernight was way more under control #i did still get help there but it wasnt the run in circles and scream in panic kind of desperate #although i did end up buying out the last reward instead of grinding for it #i mean i could have? but i was so sleepy #and i only have mithril on evernight because i made a mistake ages ago anyway #might as well use it for something #but yeah that was also happening in the background #OH and if anyone else is ever considering buying reward track stages: your ten mithril buys you an entire rewards worth of lixp #like it doesnt just finish out the reward and then stop. it gives you the same amount of xp you already had into the next reward #which is very nice i appreciate that

[spicy-cannoli]

Here’s fanart for Molotov Cocktails!! The very first satousai fic I ever read!! I think! Idk was a few years ago but defo the most memorable!

The fic is by the wonderful @oatmealcrisp-freak and you can find it here:

https://archiveofourown.org/works/25815163?view_full_work=true

Now I’m gonna rant a little in the tags!!

#y’all this is the fucking #most time consuming drawing #ive done this year #I not very experienced with backgrounds #but since ive been adding some #to basically all my saiki drawings #I thought #sure! why not? #BIG MISTAKE #I MADE IT WORSE BY NOT USING #A REFERENCE #so that shit came from my brain baby #ughhh #I drew so many fucking books #it took me all night and afternoon #I started drawing in the morning and #it’s 00:58 #the titles weren’t that hard #I wrote like four and copy pasted it #if you’re curious they say #encyclopaedia #Taiyou no ie (fave manga) #Ria (Lia) 1 San #(my name) #Molotov cocktails #according to google translate #and a random one I found online #saiki kusuo x satou hiroshi #saiki kusuo no ψ nan #the disastrous life of saiki k.