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#i keep just coping sober cause like. not relying on substances. but I don’t actually have skills rn to improve my issues so like. substances
boomerang109 · 8 months
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i came home, panicked about one thing, and my toilet was leaking. bathroom floor is covered in water and brown particles. oddly, this has not improved my mood
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thrashkink-coven · 17 days
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Lucifer has been such an incredible presence in my life when it comes to addiction.
I am disabled and suffer from chronic nerve pain and debilitating migraines that cause paralysis and other not so fun things. Most days weed is the only thing that can bring me relief. The painkilling drugs have helped a bit, but weed is the only substance I’ve found that can actually ease the pain almost instantly. Because of that I have become heavily addicted to weed. There’s really no way for me to function without it. Or maybe there is, I wouldn’t know because I have an active addition. I don’t want to stop smoking weed, and unless it’s posing an immediate threat to my health, I probably never will.
I can be completely aware of how heavily I rely on my addiction whilst still being addicted. Weed is medicine for me, but I also know that sometimes I smoke just because, not because I’m in pain or anything, but because I’m just bored. I know that I don’t need to constantly be using weed as medicine to be allowed to just enjoy it, and others in my same situation may not consider it an addiction, but I do and I’m at peace with that. I can confidently say I am addicted to weed.
Lucifer helped me come to terms with the reality of my situation. Everyone is addicted to something, using some kind of substance or drug to cope with this sick fuck of a world we live in. Being addicted is not a moral dilemma, it doesn’t make you a bad person, and being sober doesn’t make you a good person. The problem is not with the reality of needing something, the problem is with letting that indulgence get to the point of causing me real harm.
There have been times when I’ve been being so hard on myself, actively trying to cut back or quit, putting myself through unnecessary nerve pain, and migraines because I feel “bad” about giving into that urge. It makes me feel weak, like I’m not in control of myself, and Lucifer has come to me and been like
“Bro… lmao you’re fine. Smoke a joint and chill out, you deserve it today. This isn’t causing you harm right now, it’s okay. You’re not doing anything bad. Im here to tell you that this is okay.”
And, at the very same time, there have been days when I’ve smoked 5 or 7 a day, scraping the last scraps of weed together to smoke a pathetic bowl from a dirty ass pipe, and Lucifer has come to me and been like
“Bro, it’s time to take a break. Your tongue is caked white from the constant cotton mouth. Your throat is sore and inflamed. You’re dizzy, your eyes are glazed over. You feel dumb. You can’t think. Your smoking is actively giving you an even worse headache. You’re not even getting high any more. It’s time to stop.”
and … I’m so fucking grateful for that. There’s a very human tendency to either be super strict with myself to the point of borderline self harm or not give a fuck and let myself indulge to the point of hurting myself. Lucifer has always been the one to keep me in line respectfully, to say “you can do this thing if it makes you feel good, but I will not let you do it to the point of making you feel bad.”
I love how understanding he is of the human condition. He doesn’t pressure me to be perfect or scold me when I’m doing bad. He just presents the facts the way it is, without judgement or disappointment. Hey, you’re slipping, we need to get it back together. Hey, you’re doing fine, allow yourself to relax for a bit. Life is a balancing act. If we keep in check with ourselves and we’ll be just fine.
Thank you infinitely, Lucifer. I know Im in good hands when Im with you.
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live-on-purpose · 5 years
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#DRY2018
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In 2018, I successfully achieved 12 whole months without a single drop of alcohol.
My year started with the idea to stay away from alcohol. Not as a New Year’s Resolution but as a life change. Incidentally, it meant becoming free of everything tying me down.
Alcohol is used by most of us in our lives for different reasons, including in celebration, for comfort, to socialise, to wind down, and to cope. This year I have celebrated, felt comfort, socialised, wound down when I needed to, and coped for an entire 12 months without the need to consume even a single drop of alcohol. And I succeeded. I won. I didn’t rely on something that wasn’t me to get through the year. Not even a part of it. Not a week, a day, an hour, or a minute. I am free.
I have told people differing stories why I decided to stop drinking, and so here is a brief and honest account of the real reasons.
I began #Dry2018 at midnight on New Year’s Day. I watched the countdown on the TV whilst downing my last glass of prosecco (two and a half bottles in), and as the first firework launched into the sky above London I put my glass down. I was very drunk, and after the now-faint memory of FaceTiming my sister from her next door neighbour’s house, I passed out a few hours later, somewhere. It had become a normality for me to sleep where I fell. I woke up the next day feeling terrible. I listened to sad songs, I felt lonely, but I wanted to be on my own. I wanted to bathe in the heaviness. I could have drank. I didn’t.
I had decided that I was going to begin a new journey of sobriety about a week and a half before New Year. I’d tried last year, between March and August 2017. For 3 months I undertook a dry volunteering programme with the International Citizen Service (ICS) and Raleigh International, and upon my return I couldn’t find it within myself to drink after living a life without it. I felt like I would be letting myself down. During my summer working at camp in America, I became very low and was advised that alcohol may be my last resort of an escape. Long story short, it wasn’t. It made everything ten times worse. I broke 4 and a half months sobriety and once again relied on alcohol to feel ‘okay’. Feeling at a loss without it, I drank every day from mid-August onwards for a while. It was a downward spiral.
I moved to London and began drama school in September 2017. I usually drank once a week. I could have drank a lot more often, but I wanted to make sure I kept in good health for classes, and so I left it to the end of each week. I would occasionally go out too, but not unless I was very drunk, and remained so throughout the night. Before my end of term assessment I had a brief sober period of a week and a half to make sure I could achieve my full potential in the performance exam. After this I don’t remember going a day without drinking until after Christmas. The day and night of my assessment I drank so much I said things I should never have said, heard things I should never have heard and I felt embarrassed and uneasy. But I carried on, because in my mind drinking was what made me happy and it helped me to cope with feelings I didn’t particularly want to engage with.
It became a vicious circle. I would be low, so I would drink to be happy, and I would drink so much that I would become unhappier than I was before. The main problem was one drink never worked. One drink, or two, or three, was out of the question. I would drink until I couldn’t drink anymore. It didn’t help that alcohol was a depressant, when depression was what I was suffering from. This was something I found out that summer whilst in America, when it got so bad I couldn’t keep it to myself anymore.
Around Christmas I would drink bottle after bottle of prosecco, among other alcoholic beverages. Everything was foggy. The days I should have been enjoying the most with the people I love in my life were horrible. I was anxious and very heavy, and alcohol was the only cure, except each time it became the problem and not the solution. The day after drinking I would always be surrounded by grey feelings, and alcohol would be the answer. I realised all this about a week before New Year, when I was drinking in my house alone, and vowed to stop drinking for as long as I could handle it. I hoped to do a month for Dry January but really I hoped to get to the end of May, after my final show at drama school, so I could be in the best health for my rehearsals and performances.
I realised I needed to stop relying on something to be happy, especially when it was actually doing the opposite. And I wanted to prove to myself that I could find comfort in myself in any situation as me, and only me. Not as me with alcohol. Purely me. I never believed I would ever achieve such a feat, and certainly not for a whole year.
The first couple of months were difficult. I had support from a lot of people, but a lot of people thought I was crazy. It made me feel different to other people in social situations, at least to begin with. But I felt more in control. I felt like I wouldn’t get tied into doing things I didn’t want to do, or stay for longer than I wanted to. I had a lot more time to myself. And that was okay. I was able to learn a lot more about who I was and what I enjoyed in life and what made me me.
It was difficult to tell people the reason I wanted to quit alcohol. I knew the real reasons were to see if I could achieve happiness as myself and to fight depression as much as I could. However, the main thing I told people was that it was for my drama school shows, and to make sure I didn’t have to rely on something. The former was true, and the latter was simply a nice benefit from sobriety.
I posted each month I conquered being sober on Twitter as a celebration. It gave me an incentive too. #DryJanuary became #DryFebruary which became #DryApril and #DryJune and so on. After the first few months in I shifted from ‘I’m not drinking at the moment’ to ‘I don’t drink’, and I felt a new sense of power in my newfound sobriety. Ordering a non-alcoholic drink became a habit, rather than an active choice, even though all those around me were drinking. I didn’t even eat meals that were cooked in alcohol, because it is difficult to tell whether the alcohol has all boiled away (since food would need to be cooked for four hours to make absolutely sure). I rejected the main course of our family Easter dinner, as well as another meal a month or two later. I felt bad, but in my mind, if for one second I believed I’d consumed alcohol (even a drop) I would have failed myself. If I had, this may incidentally have caused me to start drinking again. So I held off, completely.
I would be lying if I said being sober instantaneously made me happy, at least not for the first six months. I started to discover myself more, but I wasn’t entirely comfortable in myself. I reached a huge low in my mental state in late-March/early April, and told those close to me that there were only two solutions. Begin drinking again, or seek medical help. I sought medical help, which was subsequently given to me. I was told that drinking alcohol whilst on medication would be dangerous because it would be completely unpredictable. One drink could send me over the edge, and ten drinks could have little effect. So this gave me more reason to stay sober. From those around me I experienced the effects second-hand that mixing these two substances together could have, and I didn’t want to experience it myself.
For the time I was on medication, my feelings were flat at best, and I began to lose interest and care in the world and people around me. I couldn’t cry and I felt little to no emotion. I made mistakes, lost who I was and misplaced my passions. After another huge low in June, I left behind everything I had been working towards in order to help myself. I left behind my course, London, and my future career. It wasn’t a choice. It was a necessity that I felt with all my being. I didn’t have any interest in the life I had anymore. I needed to find out why, and follow my heart to make sure happiness found me again. I felt tied down, and if I felt tied I knew it wasn’t the time to be pursuing something I was terribly unhappy with. One of the milestones I hoped to achieve on my journey was to come off my medication. And just like alcohol at New Year, to be free of something I’d become reliant on. I sought freedom, and a motivation to keep on living.
Once I was able to leave London, my course, and my ambitions that had become tainted, things changed. I was lucky enough to be given the first job I applied for, away in the mountains of Switzerland. I had been inspired by a spontaneous adventure in the summer to Slovenia, and realised that the outside was where I was going to find peace. Peace of mind, and peace of heart. My job involved working with children, and leading outdoor activities including hiking. Everything about the place I was in, and the things I was doing, made me realise what I’d been missing. For the first time in a year, I felt like I was being myself. I wasn’t trying to be anyone else. I wasn’t playing the part of anyone else. I was me. And it was a huge breath of fresh air.
A few weeks in I decided to come off my medication. I had been lowering the dose bit by bit over the weeks, but it finally felt like I was in a safe place and it was a safe time to leave it behind completely. The weeks ahead felt constructive, rather than destructive. I was ready for the fall. I was ready for it to hit me like a brick wall, but it didn’t; I only had a few brief episodes and a few stray thoughts within the first couple of months. I was further above the surface than I’d been for a long time. My emotions returned. I began to cry again when it was right to cry, and it was a beautifully overwhelming thing. I was able to learn how to love myself again, for exactly who I was. My mind and my body, my perfections and my flaws. I embraced it, and took note of how new this feeling was. It had been a while since I truly felt worth, and it is still coming back to me.
By this point, alcohol wasn’t something I was doing without. It was something I didn’t need, or crave at all. I didn’t need an escape through a mind-altering substance. I’d found my escape in myself, surrounded by life and positivity and new air. It was also in this place that I found love. A love where I could be totally myself, and feel totally myself. Finally, I was free. I was free to love and be loved, because I wasn’t trapped by anything or anyone. All the ties had been cut, and I was making new ties in the right places. Ties that I wanted to make, in the right places, and with the right people.
The job, the experiences and the environment in Switzerland led me to discover new ways I can live my life, at least for now. It helped me realise there are ways to stay young and enjoy the moment you’re in, and that you can take life one step at a time if you so wish. Life doesn’t need to be mapped out in front of you completely.
I looked to new adventures, and at the end of November I found myself working in Lapland over the Christmas period as an elf for the real Santa. Even though it should have been the perfectly happy and magical experience I’d expected, I encountered a slow free fall in my mental well-being. I put this largely down to the lack of sunlight, but also that my wounds were still healing which made me vulnerable to people and situations. Before I knew it, around Christmas I was craving alcohol again to fill in the empty space I was feeling in my stomach, thanks to my less than perfect head. I took it as a learning experience that being in the wrong environment can be dangerous, and I needn’t put myself in difficult situations no matter how strong I thought I was. It reminded me that recovery never follows a single straight line. Returning from Lapland helped me to rediscover who I’d been before flying out there.
I’d be lying if I said getting sober solved all my problems. However, doing something that is healthy for my mind and my body is a good place to start. And as of now, it’s wonderful to admit that I am happy, especially when I know the only thing I am truly relying on to be happy, is myself. Of course, I am not naive enough to think the journey is over. I am still learning, and I am still becoming who I am. I don’t think I’ll ever stop. But right now, as each day passes, I am enjoying the journey that I am on. There is no destination. There is the everyday.
For now, because I don’t need or want it, I am staying sober. From alcohol, and from the life that makes me unhappy.
I am following happiness, and I am ready to continue down that road.
Photo: On top of Mont D’Or (2175m) looking over Leysin, Switzerland in September 2018.
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emlydunstan · 6 years
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Yes, Marijuana Withdrawal Symptoms do Exist
Many people believe that marijuana is mostly harmless when it comes to drug addiction and dependence, especially when compared to “harder” drugs. But we are finding more and more today that heavy users of marijuana are experiencing some pretty significant withdrawal symptoms when they quit cold turkey. Boulder Weekly reports that “…while it’s nowhere near as extreme or comparable to alcohol or heroin withdrawal, quitting can cause withdrawal symptoms in heavy, frequent users.”
What does this really mean? It is nothing serious, in that these withdrawal symptoms are not clinically dangerous by any means. However, it reinforces the fact that marijuana is, in fact, addictive, and that it can have a seriously negative impact on a person and their life experience.
Physical dependence is not the only measure that counts when you are assessing addiction. The fact is that if someone is using marijuana as a daily escape and they use it to cope and deal with all of their problems then they are basically addicted to the substance.
Part of this is behavioral and part of it is emotional. If you look at a heavy marijuana user and you look at how their life is composed emotionally you will find that they are not dealing with their problems and issues like a mature adult would typically be able to do. Instead, when they get frustrated or angry with a problem in their life they simply self medicate with marijuana.
This creates a slow drain on a person’s life in a couple of ways. It is almost a disadvantage that marijuana is not more devastating and immediate in its consequences, because then the typical marijuana addict does not notice what is happening, and slowly–over a certain period of time–the daily use of this drug is eroding certain aspects of their life.
How is it doing this? First of all, heavy marijuana use saps your motivation to do other healthy and productive things. I am not just repeating something that I heard here–I actually used marijuana myself for many years, and so I know how it affected my life in this way. I was using weed every single day and it was the main thing that I looked forward to. I obsessed over getting high and I obsessed over getting more of the drug. It became my main reward in life and I started to lose interest in other things.
Before I was hooked on marijuana I used to care about certain hobbies, friendships, and so on. But after I got into smoking every day I drifted away from all of my friends who did not “party” and I also let all of those hobbies fall by the wayside. I could not invest any money into hobbies because I wanted that money to spend on marijuana. I also did not really have the motivation to pursue those hobbies because I wanted to spend my time actually getting high.
Now it should be noted that I believe there is a difference between a casual user of a substance and a “real drug addict.” I am not a casual user of anything. I am a real alcoholic and a real drug addict. So perhaps what I am saying here does not apply to everyone and every situation involving marijuana.
What is more important is that every person find their own truth when it comes to marijuana use. What you need to be able to do at some point is to take a step back and really evaluate your life and where it has gone lately. Are you happy with your current situation? Are you happy with the way that you spend your time? Are you happy with your work, your relationships, your career path, your living situation?
If you are happy with all of those things then I would recommend that you keep living the way that you have been living, and don’t worry about whether marijuana may be addictive or not. If it is not a problem then it is not a problem. But the key is that you must honestly assess if you are truly happy with yourself and with your life, or if you are secretly miserable and blaming others for your situation while using marijuana in order to “find a little bit of happiness” in your otherwise miserable life.
For me it was the latter–I was actually miserable and I was unhappy with my life and with my situation, but I clung to the fact that I could be happy at any moment just by getting high. Nothing else mattered because I had discovered this wonderful drug! It became my solution for everything.
That was how marijuana sapped my motivation–because I only cared about getting high and I prioritized it over other things. Anything that used to be of interest to me fell by the wayside because I only cared about getting high and “partying.”
Now the other way that I became dependent on marijuana was in terms of my emotional state. If I had to deal with any extreme emotions in my life–whether that was being sad, upset, scared, or whatever–then I immediately recognized a huge need to self medicate with marijuana.
In my mind it was the most awful thing in the world to have to face any sort of unwanted emotions without being able to get high. That was unfair and unjust in my little world. This is because I was relying on the drug to medicate my emotions in such a way that I could deal with them. I knew that if I got high enough at any given moment that it could curtail or even eliminate an unwanted emotion. So I was very quick to use marijuana in order to “fix” my emotions.
The problem with this is that it is very, very unhealthy. It also doesn’t really work so well in the long run, because the situation that caused your emotion is likely still there when you are done being high. So you can try to stay high all the time and be numb to the world, or at some point you have to come down and deal with your real problems. The typical drug addict chooses to try to just stay high all the time rather than to problem solve.
The solution is recovery, and that solution is based on a decision to get clean and sober and to stop self medicating in this way.
Furthermore, once you are in recovery and living clean, your life revolves around finding new solutions for the challenges that do pop up in your life.
Everyone who gets clean and sober is going to continue to face challenges in the future. In order to deal with those challenges you either can choose to relapse, or you can choose to find a new solution.
This is maturity–realizing that you need to face reality, take responsibility, and face your problems head on. No more running away from every challenge that pops up. Getting high is running away. Recovery is all about facing the issues, asking for help and advice, and confronting your problems directly.
Getting high on marijuana was a solution, and it worked for us for some period of time. Eventually it stops working so well because we become dependent on it and develop tolerance. At some point it becomes easier to face reality, problem solve, and adopt a life of recovery.
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roberrtnelson · 6 years
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Yes, Marijuana Withdrawal Symptoms do Exist
Many people believe that marijuana is mostly harmless when it comes to drug addiction and dependence, especially when compared to “harder” drugs. But we are finding more and more today that heavy users of marijuana are experiencing some pretty significant withdrawal symptoms when they quit cold turkey. Boulder Weekly reports that “…while it’s nowhere near as extreme or comparable to alcohol or heroin withdrawal, quitting can cause withdrawal symptoms in heavy, frequent users.”
What does this really mean? It is nothing serious, in that these withdrawal symptoms are not clinically dangerous by any means. However, it reinforces the fact that marijuana is, in fact, addictive, and that it can have a seriously negative impact on a person and their life experience.
Physical dependence is not the only measure that counts when you are assessing addiction. The fact is that if someone is using marijuana as a daily escape and they use it to cope and deal with all of their problems then they are basically addicted to the substance.
Part of this is behavioral and part of it is emotional. If you look at a heavy marijuana user and you look at how their life is composed emotionally you will find that they are not dealing with their problems and issues like a mature adult would typically be able to do. Instead, when they get frustrated or angry with a problem in their life they simply self medicate with marijuana.
This creates a slow drain on a person’s life in a couple of ways. It is almost a disadvantage that marijuana is not more devastating and immediate in its consequences, because then the typical marijuana addict does not notice what is happening, and slowly–over a certain period of time–the daily use of this drug is eroding certain aspects of their life.
How is it doing this? First of all, heavy marijuana use saps your motivation to do other healthy and productive things. I am not just repeating something that I heard here–I actually used marijuana myself for many years, and so I know how it affected my life in this way. I was using weed every single day and it was the main thing that I looked forward to. I obsessed over getting high and I obsessed over getting more of the drug. It became my main reward in life and I started to lose interest in other things.
Before I was hooked on marijuana I used to care about certain hobbies, friendships, and so on. But after I got into smoking every day I drifted away from all of my friends who did not “party” and I also let all of those hobbies fall by the wayside. I could not invest any money into hobbies because I wanted that money to spend on marijuana. I also did not really have the motivation to pursue those hobbies because I wanted to spend my time actually getting high.
Now it should be noted that I believe there is a difference between a casual user of a substance and a “real drug addict.” I am not a casual user of anything. I am a real alcoholic and a real drug addict. So perhaps what I am saying here does not apply to everyone and every situation involving marijuana.
What is more important is that every person find their own truth when it comes to marijuana use. What you need to be able to do at some point is to take a step back and really evaluate your life and where it has gone lately. Are you happy with your current situation? Are you happy with the way that you spend your time? Are you happy with your work, your relationships, your career path, your living situation?
If you are happy with all of those things then I would recommend that you keep living the way that you have been living, and don’t worry about whether marijuana may be addictive or not. If it is not a problem then it is not a problem. But the key is that you must honestly assess if you are truly happy with yourself and with your life, or if you are secretly miserable and blaming others for your situation while using marijuana in order to “find a little bit of happiness” in your otherwise miserable life.
For me it was the latter–I was actually miserable and I was unhappy with my life and with my situation, but I clung to the fact that I could be happy at any moment just by getting high. Nothing else mattered because I had discovered this wonderful drug! It became my solution for everything.
That was how marijuana sapped my motivation–because I only cared about getting high and I prioritized it over other things. Anything that used to be of interest to me fell by the wayside because I only cared about getting high and “partying.”
Now the other way that I became dependent on marijuana was in terms of my emotional state. If I had to deal with any extreme emotions in my life–whether that was being sad, upset, scared, or whatever–then I immediately recognized a huge need to self medicate with marijuana.
In my mind it was the most awful thing in the world to have to face any sort of unwanted emotions without being able to get high. That was unfair and unjust in my little world. This is because I was relying on the drug to medicate my emotions in such a way that I could deal with them. I knew that if I got high enough at any given moment that it could curtail or even eliminate an unwanted emotion. So I was very quick to use marijuana in order to “fix” my emotions.
The problem with this is that it is very, very unhealthy. It also doesn’t really work so well in the long run, because the situation that caused your emotion is likely still there when you are done being high. So you can try to stay high all the time and be numb to the world, or at some point you have to come down and deal with your real problems. The typical drug addict chooses to try to just stay high all the time rather than to problem solve.
The solution is recovery, and that solution is based on a decision to get clean and sober and to stop self medicating in this way.
Furthermore, once you are in recovery and living clean, your life revolves around finding new solutions for the challenges that do pop up in your life.
Everyone who gets clean and sober is going to continue to face challenges in the future. In order to deal with those challenges you either can choose to relapse, or you can choose to find a new solution.
This is maturity–realizing that you need to face reality, take responsibility, and face your problems head on. No more running away from every challenge that pops up. Getting high is running away. Recovery is all about facing the issues, asking for help and advice, and confronting your problems directly.
Getting high on marijuana was a solution, and it worked for us for some period of time. Eventually it stops working so well because we become dependent on it and develop tolerance. At some point it becomes easier to face reality, problem solve, and adopt a life of recovery.
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pitz182 · 6 years
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Yes, Marijuana Withdrawal Symptoms do Exist
Many people believe that marijuana is mostly harmless when it comes to drug addiction and dependence, especially when compared to “harder” drugs. But we are finding more and more today that heavy users of marijuana are experiencing some pretty significant withdrawal symptoms when they quit cold turkey. Boulder Weekly reports that “…while it’s nowhere near as extreme or comparable to alcohol or heroin withdrawal, quitting can cause withdrawal symptoms in heavy, frequent users.”
What does this really mean? It is nothing serious, in that these withdrawal symptoms are not clinically dangerous by any means. However, it reinforces the fact that marijuana is, in fact, addictive, and that it can have a seriously negative impact on a person and their life experience.
Physical dependence is not the only measure that counts when you are assessing addiction. The fact is that if someone is using marijuana as a daily escape and they use it to cope and deal with all of their problems then they are basically addicted to the substance.
Part of this is behavioral and part of it is emotional. If you look at a heavy marijuana user and you look at how their life is composed emotionally you will find that they are not dealing with their problems and issues like a mature adult would typically be able to do. Instead, when they get frustrated or angry with a problem in their life they simply self medicate with marijuana.
This creates a slow drain on a person’s life in a couple of ways. It is almost a disadvantage that marijuana is not more devastating and immediate in its consequences, because then the typical marijuana addict does not notice what is happening, and slowly–over a certain period of time–the daily use of this drug is eroding certain aspects of their life.
How is it doing this? First of all, heavy marijuana use saps your motivation to do other healthy and productive things. I am not just repeating something that I heard here–I actually used marijuana myself for many years, and so I know how it affected my life in this way. I was using weed every single day and it was the main thing that I looked forward to. I obsessed over getting high and I obsessed over getting more of the drug. It became my main reward in life and I started to lose interest in other things.
Before I was hooked on marijuana I used to care about certain hobbies, friendships, and so on. But after I got into smoking every day I drifted away from all of my friends who did not “party” and I also let all of those hobbies fall by the wayside. I could not invest any money into hobbies because I wanted that money to spend on marijuana. I also did not really have the motivation to pursue those hobbies because I wanted to spend my time actually getting high.
Now it should be noted that I believe there is a difference between a casual user of a substance and a “real drug addict.” I am not a casual user of anything. I am a real alcoholic and a real drug addict. So perhaps what I am saying here does not apply to everyone and every situation involving marijuana.
What is more important is that every person find their own truth when it comes to marijuana use. What you need to be able to do at some point is to take a step back and really evaluate your life and where it has gone lately. Are you happy with your current situation? Are you happy with the way that you spend your time? Are you happy with your work, your relationships, your career path, your living situation?
If you are happy with all of those things then I would recommend that you keep living the way that you have been living, and don’t worry about whether marijuana may be addictive or not. If it is not a problem then it is not a problem. But the key is that you must honestly assess if you are truly happy with yourself and with your life, or if you are secretly miserable and blaming others for your situation while using marijuana in order to “find a little bit of happiness” in your otherwise miserable life.
For me it was the latter–I was actually miserable and I was unhappy with my life and with my situation, but I clung to the fact that I could be happy at any moment just by getting high. Nothing else mattered because I had discovered this wonderful drug! It became my solution for everything.
That was how marijuana sapped my motivation–because I only cared about getting high and I prioritized it over other things. Anything that used to be of interest to me fell by the wayside because I only cared about getting high and “partying.”
Now the other way that I became dependent on marijuana was in terms of my emotional state. If I had to deal with any extreme emotions in my life–whether that was being sad, upset, scared, or whatever–then I immediately recognized a huge need to self medicate with marijuana.
In my mind it was the most awful thing in the world to have to face any sort of unwanted emotions without being able to get high. That was unfair and unjust in my little world. This is because I was relying on the drug to medicate my emotions in such a way that I could deal with them. I knew that if I got high enough at any given moment that it could curtail or even eliminate an unwanted emotion. So I was very quick to use marijuana in order to “fix” my emotions.
The problem with this is that it is very, very unhealthy. It also doesn’t really work so well in the long run, because the situation that caused your emotion is likely still there when you are done being high. So you can try to stay high all the time and be numb to the world, or at some point you have to come down and deal with your real problems. The typical drug addict chooses to try to just stay high all the time rather than to problem solve.
The solution is recovery, and that solution is based on a decision to get clean and sober and to stop self medicating in this way.
Furthermore, once you are in recovery and living clean, your life revolves around finding new solutions for the challenges that do pop up in your life.
Everyone who gets clean and sober is going to continue to face challenges in the future. In order to deal with those challenges you either can choose to relapse, or you can choose to find a new solution.
This is maturity–realizing that you need to face reality, take responsibility, and face your problems head on. No more running away from every challenge that pops up. Getting high is running away. Recovery is all about facing the issues, asking for help and advice, and confronting your problems directly.
Getting high on marijuana was a solution, and it worked for us for some period of time. Eventually it stops working so well because we become dependent on it and develop tolerance. At some point it becomes easier to face reality, problem solve, and adopt a life of recovery.
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haileyjayden3 · 6 years
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Yes, Marijuana Withdrawal Symptoms do Exist
Many people believe that marijuana is mostly harmless when it comes to drug addiction and dependence, especially when compared to “harder” drugs. But we are finding more and more today that heavy users of marijuana are experiencing some pretty significant withdrawal symptoms when they quit cold turkey. Boulder Weekly reports that “…while it’s nowhere near as extreme or comparable to alcohol or heroin withdrawal, quitting can cause withdrawal symptoms in heavy, frequent users.”
What does this really mean? It is nothing serious, in that these withdrawal symptoms are not clinically dangerous by any means. However, it reinforces the fact that marijuana is, in fact, addictive, and that it can have a seriously negative impact on a person and their life experience.
Physical dependence is not the only measure that counts when you are assessing addiction. The fact is that if someone is using marijuana as a daily escape and they use it to cope and deal with all of their problems then they are basically addicted to the substance.
Part of this is behavioral and part of it is emotional. If you look at a heavy marijuana user and you look at how their life is composed emotionally you will find that they are not dealing with their problems and issues like a mature adult would typically be able to do. Instead, when they get frustrated or angry with a problem in their life they simply self medicate with marijuana.
This creates a slow drain on a person’s life in a couple of ways. It is almost a disadvantage that marijuana is not more devastating and immediate in its consequences, because then the typical marijuana addict does not notice what is happening, and slowly–over a certain period of time–the daily use of this drug is eroding certain aspects of their life.
How is it doing this? First of all, heavy marijuana use saps your motivation to do other healthy and productive things. I am not just repeating something that I heard here–I actually used marijuana myself for many years, and so I know how it affected my life in this way. I was using weed every single day and it was the main thing that I looked forward to. I obsessed over getting high and I obsessed over getting more of the drug. It became my main reward in life and I started to lose interest in other things.
Before I was hooked on marijuana I used to care about certain hobbies, friendships, and so on. But after I got into smoking every day I drifted away from all of my friends who did not “party” and I also let all of those hobbies fall by the wayside. I could not invest any money into hobbies because I wanted that money to spend on marijuana. I also did not really have the motivation to pursue those hobbies because I wanted to spend my time actually getting high.
Now it should be noted that I believe there is a difference between a casual user of a substance and a “real drug addict.” I am not a casual user of anything. I am a real alcoholic and a real drug addict. So perhaps what I am saying here does not apply to everyone and every situation involving marijuana.
What is more important is that every person find their own truth when it comes to marijuana use. What you need to be able to do at some point is to take a step back and really evaluate your life and where it has gone lately. Are you happy with your current situation? Are you happy with the way that you spend your time? Are you happy with your work, your relationships, your career path, your living situation?
If you are happy with all of those things then I would recommend that you keep living the way that you have been living, and don’t worry about whether marijuana may be addictive or not. If it is not a problem then it is not a problem. But the key is that you must honestly assess if you are truly happy with yourself and with your life, or if you are secretly miserable and blaming others for your situation while using marijuana in order to “find a little bit of happiness” in your otherwise miserable life.
For me it was the latter–I was actually miserable and I was unhappy with my life and with my situation, but I clung to the fact that I could be happy at any moment just by getting high. Nothing else mattered because I had discovered this wonderful drug! It became my solution for everything.
That was how marijuana sapped my motivation–because I only cared about getting high and I prioritized it over other things. Anything that used to be of interest to me fell by the wayside because I only cared about getting high and “partying.”
Now the other way that I became dependent on marijuana was in terms of my emotional state. If I had to deal with any extreme emotions in my life–whether that was being sad, upset, scared, or whatever–then I immediately recognized a huge need to self medicate with marijuana.
In my mind it was the most awful thing in the world to have to face any sort of unwanted emotions without being able to get high. That was unfair and unjust in my little world. This is because I was relying on the drug to medicate my emotions in such a way that I could deal with them. I knew that if I got high enough at any given moment that it could curtail or even eliminate an unwanted emotion. So I was very quick to use marijuana in order to “fix” my emotions.
The problem with this is that it is very, very unhealthy. It also doesn’t really work so well in the long run, because the situation that caused your emotion is likely still there when you are done being high. So you can try to stay high all the time and be numb to the world, or at some point you have to come down and deal with your real problems. The typical drug addict chooses to try to just stay high all the time rather than to problem solve.
The solution is recovery, and that solution is based on a decision to get clean and sober and to stop self medicating in this way.
Furthermore, once you are in recovery and living clean, your life revolves around finding new solutions for the challenges that do pop up in your life.
Everyone who gets clean and sober is going to continue to face challenges in the future. In order to deal with those challenges you either can choose to relapse, or you can choose to find a new solution.
This is maturity–realizing that you need to face reality, take responsibility, and face your problems head on. No more running away from every challenge that pops up. Getting high is running away. Recovery is all about facing the issues, asking for help and advice, and confronting your problems directly.
Getting high on marijuana was a solution, and it worked for us for some period of time. Eventually it stops working so well because we become dependent on it and develop tolerance. At some point it becomes easier to face reality, problem solve, and adopt a life of recovery.
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Yes, Marijuana Withdrawal Symptoms do Exist
Many people believe that marijuana is mostly harmless when it comes to drug addiction and dependence, especially when compared to “harder” drugs. But we are finding more and more today that heavy users of marijuana are experiencing some pretty significant withdrawal symptoms when they quit cold turkey. Boulder Weekly reports that “…while it’s nowhere near as extreme or comparable to alcohol or heroin withdrawal, quitting can cause withdrawal symptoms in heavy, frequent users.”
What does this really mean? It is nothing serious, in that these withdrawal symptoms are not clinically dangerous by any means. However, it reinforces the fact that marijuana is, in fact, addictive, and that it can have a seriously negative impact on a person and their life experience.
Physical dependence is not the only measure that counts when you are assessing addiction. The fact is that if someone is using marijuana as a daily escape and they use it to cope and deal with all of their problems then they are basically addicted to the substance.
Part of this is behavioral and part of it is emotional. If you look at a heavy marijuana user and you look at how their life is composed emotionally you will find that they are not dealing with their problems and issues like a mature adult would typically be able to do. Instead, when they get frustrated or angry with a problem in their life they simply self medicate with marijuana.
This creates a slow drain on a person’s life in a couple of ways. It is almost a disadvantage that marijuana is not more devastating and immediate in its consequences, because then the typical marijuana addict does not notice what is happening, and slowly–over a certain period of time–the daily use of this drug is eroding certain aspects of their life.
How is it doing this? First of all, heavy marijuana use saps your motivation to do other healthy and productive things. I am not just repeating something that I heard here–I actually used marijuana myself for many years, and so I know how it affected my life in this way. I was using weed every single day and it was the main thing that I looked forward to. I obsessed over getting high and I obsessed over getting more of the drug. It became my main reward in life and I started to lose interest in other things.
Before I was hooked on marijuana I used to care about certain hobbies, friendships, and so on. But after I got into smoking every day I drifted away from all of my friends who did not “party” and I also let all of those hobbies fall by the wayside. I could not invest any money into hobbies because I wanted that money to spend on marijuana. I also did not really have the motivation to pursue those hobbies because I wanted to spend my time actually getting high.
Now it should be noted that I believe there is a difference between a casual user of a substance and a “real drug addict.” I am not a casual user of anything. I am a real alcoholic and a real drug addict. So perhaps what I am saying here does not apply to everyone and every situation involving marijuana.
What is more important is that every person find their own truth when it comes to marijuana use. What you need to be able to do at some point is to take a step back and really evaluate your life and where it has gone lately. Are you happy with your current situation? Are you happy with the way that you spend your time? Are you happy with your work, your relationships, your career path, your living situation?
If you are happy with all of those things then I would recommend that you keep living the way that you have been living, and don’t worry about whether marijuana may be addictive or not. If it is not a problem then it is not a problem. But the key is that you must honestly assess if you are truly happy with yourself and with your life, or if you are secretly miserable and blaming others for your situation while using marijuana in order to “find a little bit of happiness” in your otherwise miserable life.
For me it was the latter–I was actually miserable and I was unhappy with my life and with my situation, but I clung to the fact that I could be happy at any moment just by getting high. Nothing else mattered because I had discovered this wonderful drug! It became my solution for everything.
That was how marijuana sapped my motivation–because I only cared about getting high and I prioritized it over other things. Anything that used to be of interest to me fell by the wayside because I only cared about getting high and “partying.”
Now the other way that I became dependent on marijuana was in terms of my emotional state. If I had to deal with any extreme emotions in my life–whether that was being sad, upset, scared, or whatever–then I immediately recognized a huge need to self medicate with marijuana.
In my mind it was the most awful thing in the world to have to face any sort of unwanted emotions without being able to get high. That was unfair and unjust in my little world. This is because I was relying on the drug to medicate my emotions in such a way that I could deal with them. I knew that if I got high enough at any given moment that it could curtail or even eliminate an unwanted emotion. So I was very quick to use marijuana in order to “fix” my emotions.
The problem with this is that it is very, very unhealthy. It also doesn’t really work so well in the long run, because the situation that caused your emotion is likely still there when you are done being high. So you can try to stay high all the time and be numb to the world, or at some point you have to come down and deal with your real problems. The typical drug addict chooses to try to just stay high all the time rather than to problem solve.
The solution is recovery, and that solution is based on a decision to get clean and sober and to stop self medicating in this way.
Furthermore, once you are in recovery and living clean, your life revolves around finding new solutions for the challenges that do pop up in your life.
Everyone who gets clean and sober is going to continue to face challenges in the future. In order to deal with those challenges you either can choose to relapse, or you can choose to find a new solution.
This is maturity–realizing that you need to face reality, take responsibility, and face your problems head on. No more running away from every challenge that pops up. Getting high is running away. Recovery is all about facing the issues, asking for help and advice, and confronting your problems directly.
Getting high on marijuana was a solution, and it worked for us for some period of time. Eventually it stops working so well because we become dependent on it and develop tolerance. At some point it becomes easier to face reality, problem solve, and adopt a life of recovery.
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Yes, Marijuana Withdrawal Symptoms do Exist
Many people believe that marijuana is mostly harmless when it comes to drug addiction and dependence, especially when compared to “harder” drugs. But we are finding more and more today that heavy users of marijuana are experiencing some pretty significant withdrawal symptoms when they quit cold turkey. Boulder Weekly reports that “…while it’s nowhere near as extreme or comparable to alcohol or heroin withdrawal, quitting can cause withdrawal symptoms in heavy, frequent users.”
What does this really mean? It is nothing serious, in that these withdrawal symptoms are not clinically dangerous by any means. However, it reinforces the fact that marijuana is, in fact, addictive, and that it can have a seriously negative impact on a person and their life experience.
Physical dependence is not the only measure that counts when you are assessing addiction. The fact is that if someone is using marijuana as a daily escape and they use it to cope and deal with all of their problems then they are basically addicted to the substance.
Part of this is behavioral and part of it is emotional. If you look at a heavy marijuana user and you look at how their life is composed emotionally you will find that they are not dealing with their problems and issues like a mature adult would typically be able to do. Instead, when they get frustrated or angry with a problem in their life they simply self medicate with marijuana.
This creates a slow drain on a person’s life in a couple of ways. It is almost a disadvantage that marijuana is not more devastating and immediate in its consequences, because then the typical marijuana addict does not notice what is happening, and slowly–over a certain period of time–the daily use of this drug is eroding certain aspects of their life.
How is it doing this? First of all, heavy marijuana use saps your motivation to do other healthy and productive things. I am not just repeating something that I heard here–I actually used marijuana myself for many years, and so I know how it affected my life in this way. I was using weed every single day and it was the main thing that I looked forward to. I obsessed over getting high and I obsessed over getting more of the drug. It became my main reward in life and I started to lose interest in other things.
Before I was hooked on marijuana I used to care about certain hobbies, friendships, and so on. But after I got into smoking every day I drifted away from all of my friends who did not “party” and I also let all of those hobbies fall by the wayside. I could not invest any money into hobbies because I wanted that money to spend on marijuana. I also did not really have the motivation to pursue those hobbies because I wanted to spend my time actually getting high.
Now it should be noted that I believe there is a difference between a casual user of a substance and a “real drug addict.” I am not a casual user of anything. I am a real alcoholic and a real drug addict. So perhaps what I am saying here does not apply to everyone and every situation involving marijuana.
What is more important is that every person find their own truth when it comes to marijuana use. What you need to be able to do at some point is to take a step back and really evaluate your life and where it has gone lately. Are you happy with your current situation? Are you happy with the way that you spend your time? Are you happy with your work, your relationships, your career path, your living situation?
If you are happy with all of those things then I would recommend that you keep living the way that you have been living, and don’t worry about whether marijuana may be addictive or not. If it is not a problem then it is not a problem. But the key is that you must honestly assess if you are truly happy with yourself and with your life, or if you are secretly miserable and blaming others for your situation while using marijuana in order to “find a little bit of happiness” in your otherwise miserable life.
For me it was the latter–I was actually miserable and I was unhappy with my life and with my situation, but I clung to the fact that I could be happy at any moment just by getting high. Nothing else mattered because I had discovered this wonderful drug! It became my solution for everything.
That was how marijuana sapped my motivation–because I only cared about getting high and I prioritized it over other things. Anything that used to be of interest to me fell by the wayside because I only cared about getting high and “partying.”
Now the other way that I became dependent on marijuana was in terms of my emotional state. If I had to deal with any extreme emotions in my life–whether that was being sad, upset, scared, or whatever–then I immediately recognized a huge need to self medicate with marijuana.
In my mind it was the most awful thing in the world to have to face any sort of unwanted emotions without being able to get high. That was unfair and unjust in my little world. This is because I was relying on the drug to medicate my emotions in such a way that I could deal with them. I knew that if I got high enough at any given moment that it could curtail or even eliminate an unwanted emotion. So I was very quick to use marijuana in order to “fix” my emotions.
The problem with this is that it is very, very unhealthy. It also doesn’t really work so well in the long run, because the situation that caused your emotion is likely still there when you are done being high. So you can try to stay high all the time and be numb to the world, or at some point you have to come down and deal with your real problems. The typical drug addict chooses to try to just stay high all the time rather than to problem solve.
The solution is recovery, and that solution is based on a decision to get clean and sober and to stop self medicating in this way.
Furthermore, once you are in recovery and living clean, your life revolves around finding new solutions for the challenges that do pop up in your life.
Everyone who gets clean and sober is going to continue to face challenges in the future. In order to deal with those challenges you either can choose to relapse, or you can choose to find a new solution.
This is maturity–realizing that you need to face reality, take responsibility, and face your problems head on. No more running away from every challenge that pops up. Getting high is running away. Recovery is all about facing the issues, asking for help and advice, and confronting your problems directly.
Getting high on marijuana was a solution, and it worked for us for some period of time. Eventually it stops working so well because we become dependent on it and develop tolerance. At some point it becomes easier to face reality, problem solve, and adopt a life of recovery.
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jaylazoey · 6 years
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Yes, Marijuana Withdrawal Symptoms do Exist
Many people believe that marijuana is mostly harmless when it comes to drug addiction and dependence, especially when compared to “harder” drugs. But we are finding more and more today that heavy users of marijuana are experiencing some pretty significant withdrawal symptoms when they quit cold turkey. Boulder Weekly reports that “…while it’s nowhere near as extreme or comparable to alcohol or heroin withdrawal, quitting can cause withdrawal symptoms in heavy, frequent users.”
What does this really mean? It is nothing serious, in that these withdrawal symptoms are not clinically dangerous by any means. However, it reinforces the fact that marijuana is, in fact, addictive, and that it can have a seriously negative impact on a person and their life experience.
Physical dependence is not the only measure that counts when you are assessing addiction. The fact is that if someone is using marijuana as a daily escape and they use it to cope and deal with all of their problems then they are basically addicted to the substance.
Part of this is behavioral and part of it is emotional. If you look at a heavy marijuana user and you look at how their life is composed emotionally you will find that they are not dealing with their problems and issues like a mature adult would typically be able to do. Instead, when they get frustrated or angry with a problem in their life they simply self medicate with marijuana.
This creates a slow drain on a person’s life in a couple of ways. It is almost a disadvantage that marijuana is not more devastating and immediate in its consequences, because then the typical marijuana addict does not notice what is happening, and slowly–over a certain period of time–the daily use of this drug is eroding certain aspects of their life.
How is it doing this? First of all, heavy marijuana use saps your motivation to do other healthy and productive things. I am not just repeating something that I heard here–I actually used marijuana myself for many years, and so I know how it affected my life in this way. I was using weed every single day and it was the main thing that I looked forward to. I obsessed over getting high and I obsessed over getting more of the drug. It became my main reward in life and I started to lose interest in other things.
Before I was hooked on marijuana I used to care about certain hobbies, friendships, and so on. But after I got into smoking every day I drifted away from all of my friends who did not “party” and I also let all of those hobbies fall by the wayside. I could not invest any money into hobbies because I wanted that money to spend on marijuana. I also did not really have the motivation to pursue those hobbies because I wanted to spend my time actually getting high.
Now it should be noted that I believe there is a difference between a casual user of a substance and a “real drug addict.” I am not a casual user of anything. I am a real alcoholic and a real drug addict. So perhaps what I am saying here does not apply to everyone and every situation involving marijuana.
What is more important is that every person find their own truth when it comes to marijuana use. What you need to be able to do at some point is to take a step back and really evaluate your life and where it has gone lately. Are you happy with your current situation? Are you happy with the way that you spend your time? Are you happy with your work, your relationships, your career path, your living situation?
If you are happy with all of those things then I would recommend that you keep living the way that you have been living, and don’t worry about whether marijuana may be addictive or not. If it is not a problem then it is not a problem. But the key is that you must honestly assess if you are truly happy with yourself and with your life, or if you are secretly miserable and blaming others for your situation while using marijuana in order to “find a little bit of happiness” in your otherwise miserable life.
For me it was the latter–I was actually miserable and I was unhappy with my life and with my situation, but I clung to the fact that I could be happy at any moment just by getting high. Nothing else mattered because I had discovered this wonderful drug! It became my solution for everything.
That was how marijuana sapped my motivation–because I only cared about getting high and I prioritized it over other things. Anything that used to be of interest to me fell by the wayside because I only cared about getting high and “partying.”
Now the other way that I became dependent on marijuana was in terms of my emotional state. If I had to deal with any extreme emotions in my life–whether that was being sad, upset, scared, or whatever–then I immediately recognized a huge need to self medicate with marijuana.
In my mind it was the most awful thing in the world to have to face any sort of unwanted emotions without being able to get high. That was unfair and unjust in my little world. This is because I was relying on the drug to medicate my emotions in such a way that I could deal with them. I knew that if I got high enough at any given moment that it could curtail or even eliminate an unwanted emotion. So I was very quick to use marijuana in order to “fix” my emotions.
The problem with this is that it is very, very unhealthy. It also doesn’t really work so well in the long run, because the situation that caused your emotion is likely still there when you are done being high. So you can try to stay high all the time and be numb to the world, or at some point you have to come down and deal with your real problems. The typical drug addict chooses to try to just stay high all the time rather than to problem solve.
The solution is recovery, and that solution is based on a decision to get clean and sober and to stop self medicating in this way.
Furthermore, once you are in recovery and living clean, your life revolves around finding new solutions for the challenges that do pop up in your life.
Everyone who gets clean and sober is going to continue to face challenges in the future. In order to deal with those challenges you either can choose to relapse, or you can choose to find a new solution.
This is maturity–realizing that you need to face reality, take responsibility, and face your problems head on. No more running away from every challenge that pops up. Getting high is running away. Recovery is all about facing the issues, asking for help and advice, and confronting your problems directly.
Getting high on marijuana was a solution, and it worked for us for some period of time. Eventually it stops working so well because we become dependent on it and develop tolerance. At some point it becomes easier to face reality, problem solve, and adopt a life of recovery.
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