#i just have no energy this week 😭

[chenziee]

Me: *is tired, overwhelmed, with like 10 things I need to write, including 5 lawlus*

Also me: I want to write some lawlu...

#i just have no energy this week 😭 #or you know.. this year #so tired #so very tired #i need a three month long (at least) paid vacation #also wish shit would stop happening #the expenses keep piling up.. #no i still haven't taken my laptop for repair and no i still don't have a new chair #i wish my workplace didn't move i have to spend so much more on gas than i paid for my yearly transport pass... #but it's a fucking murder going *there* by public transport it takes an hour by bus-bus-train while it's 15-20 miutes by car.... #i seriously need the fucking chair tho my back is killing me... #anyway #somebody pay me to write lawlu? ahaha #jk #unless? #katie thinks she's relevant #delete later

[dottores]

well, i was going to wait to formally announce something when i got the time but i’m a bit irritated that the first thing i see when i log in is this ask

^ to answer your question anon, idk why you’re following if that’s what you feel 💀 respectfully, unfollow and never interact with me again. and this goes for everyone else who has left nasty asks in my inbox demanding me to update. my priority is law school and family, not to update fanfics that i don’t get paid for. this is something i do on the side for fun, it is not a job nor does it help me secure my future. spend less time demanding free work from people and spend more time working on your own future. it quite literally should never get to the point where you’re demanding strangers on the internet to provide you with fanfiction and insulting them when they have other things going on—seek help. that is weird.

but on a more serious note to everyone who has been respectful & kind about it—i don’t think i’m gonna be able to update anything until winter break, i apologize to everyone who has been waiting patiently, i promise i’m not abandoning heliotropes but it will not be updated for at least a month and a half. my workload has skyrocketed the past two weeks and my professors are warning us that it’s only uphill until after finals when we get our break. i need to be focusing on work, i barely even have the energy to answer messages from ppl right now.

^^ so if you are here for just my writing, this is the time to leave. i’ve been very vocal about this not being a writing blog. it is just my blog. if you only want writing, unfollow and find it in the tags.

i am going to be closing my inbox to prevent more asks like this because it’s rude and it’s not something i want to deal with. officially on semi-hiatus.

#tw discourse #i guess #i’m just irritated #i did not want to see that as soon as i log in #but anyway #i will try to post more like regular posts so i don’t disappear off the face of earth but #they’ll be sparse #i literally am so busy i only texted my bf like a dozen times over the past week 😭 i feel so bad #i’ve been taking like #an hour and a half a day to decompress and relax and even then i don’t even have the energy to write #i caught up on jjk manga and anime #i’ll lyk what i think about it soon #but anyway i have to go shower and get ready for my 4 o’clock class

[gayestcowboy]

it’s only been 2 weeks of the school term and already i can feel that i am NOT regaining all of my spell slots per long rest

#i have so much fucking reading bro i have no free time 😭 #plus today is the only day this week i haven’t had an 8pm rehearsal/concert 😭 do NOT go to music school i’m so fucking busy #in the free time i do have i don’t even have the energy to do anything fun i just scroll tumblr 😭 help #yeehaws

[solsticebinary]

I love them so much but god are they a pain to animate

#I am so tired #been working on this for weeks #was planning to finish this but since schools coming up i need to save my energy😭 #my stylus broke so I just used my fingers halfthrough #my fingers hurt #sigh #the things i do for gay puppets (I love them actually) #maybe I might animate another audio but for now im taking a break #✰ quinnie arts #my art #welcome home #welcome home arg #frank frankly #eddie dear #frank x eddie #frank frankly x eddie dear #do they have a ship name? #welcome home puppet show #so many tags

[ahappyphjl]

dnp can u pls upload tonight pls pls pls pls 🥺👉🏻👈🏻

#i don’t have my next day off until next week 😭 #this is like the only night i could gif it and hang out here for a while after 🥲 #like i miss being here so much and i’ve just had no time or energy to #manifesting so hard rn #jenna rambles #dan and phil

[wqnwoos]

saw my old high school crush today. what if i just ended my life

#i embarrassed myself so bad. why TODAY of all days #also hi people in my inbox and dms i love u i’m not ignoring u i just need to . muster up the energy to give u the responses u deserve 😭 #the past 2 weeks have been from HELL actually #hana’s babbles

[send-me-a-puffalope]

why did my teachers think it was okay to give us like one single weekend to finish all of our midterm projects and study for our tests.

#slight vent #i have 3 projects and 3 tests #i’m halfway through my lit/history project and halfway through my psych project #and maybe a quarter done with my programming project #which is fucking insane btw cause how tf am i supposed to code a whole video game in like 3 days on top of everything else 😭😭😭 #and some things he hasn’t taught us and just thinks that we should just be able to figure out like HELLO???/?/// #I DONT HAVE TIME TO TEACH MYSELF NEW CODE #ITS THE MIDTERM/FINAL FOR THE CLASS?????? #and once the weekend starts i’ll have no one to trouble shoot my stuff and fix my bugs so literally i’ll be hopeless so 😭😭😭 #my calc teacher JUST finished teaching us everything we need for the midterm TODAY. THE MIDTERM IS ON WEDNESDAY. BRO. #my physics teacher doesn’t let us copy down any of our idk test questions or take our old assessments home to study #*old #so we get to look em over for like 20 mins and hand em back. which doesn’t exact fucking help me when i’m studying for the midterm. #WITH NO STUDY GUIDE. #my teachers even said that this years midterms are worse than previous years cause they’re all in a row instead of split by a weekend #we’ve had 2 delayed openings and 1 early dismissal this week which means we have less time to work on our midterm projects in class 😭😭😭😭 #i’m so overwhelmed i’m gonna explode #by the time i finish these projects i’m not gonna have anymore energy/time to study for my tests. WHICH IS THE HARD SHIT BTW.

[thatuselesshuman]

Y'ALL I FINALLY GOT A FUCKING DIAGNOSIS FOR THE SHIT I'VE BEEN GOING THROUGH SINCE I WAS 18 LETS FUCKING GOOOOOOOOOOO 🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉

#I've been waiting for this day #for so long #This new doctor is proof that good people exist y'all #And that my old doctors were ass #She ran like 2 tests then went: #“Yeah you have a form of long-term anemia and insomnia” #“oh and probably sleep apnea you should get a sleep study done” #“We're going to put you on *insert medicines here* and you should be feeling better within a few weeks” #GOD SEENDDDDDD #I FORGOT WHAT IT FELT LIKE TO HAVE ENERGY #JESUS CHRIST IS GOODDDDD #IM LITERALLY GOING TO THROW A PARTY #IM GOING TO FEEL NORMAL JUST IN TIME FOR FINALS Y'ALL 😭😭

[lemongogo]

want 2 set up another drawpile soon .i think

#so much fun . idk if i should just short notice it and do it within the next 30 mins-hr #or if i should plan along the week and hope i have enough energy 2 feel up for it😭😭😭 #would anyone be interested question mark

[warmspice]

#CONFLICTING FEELINGS EVERYONE MUST HEAR HI #Sooo I have a li'l crush on this girl in my chemistry class and today was the last day of class so I was like 😤 last shot #And I have only talked to her once or twice before in passing I'm soooo some guy to her #But last week or so I complimented her jacket bc she always has a cool jacket!! #And today I was behind her in line for Smthn so I complimented it again but I think it was the same one #It's all an excuse (we know this) #Anyways FINALLY got her Instagram #But I do not think she is interested at all #The way I was LITERALLY SHAKING LIKE A PUPPY asking her 😭😭😭😭😭 GIRL #Rizzless #Anyways I think I will accept my fate but life is abt going out on a limb #It's been AGES AGES AGES since I've had a little crush and none of them ever work out #But maybe that's just on me 😐 #Void talks #We did a little chat!!! Abt cooking and idk she's like very cool n funny and nice and I wa spike WAAAAAAAH #^ insert that into after in line/ before instagram part I can't move this around 😭 #I ACTUALLY CHATTED I didn't just ask someone for their Instagram 😭 (which is valid) #I'm soooo not smooth I was soooo like biggest wettest puppy energy in that moment 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 #Life is about living and learning and loving tho so it'll be ok 😐 #I have a lot of love in my heart and someone needs to recognize this before I explode 😐

[aceofstars16]

I’d appreciate prayers for tomorrow, it’s a long day (aka a long appointment and probably sitting in traffic). Especially prayers for energy and my neck, it was bad Friday and I just…don’t need a migraine on top of the stress of everything else 🥲

#prayer request #I need to sleep I guess…. #I’m wondering if my neck is eh cause I drew *and* worked on stuff for zine tryouts #I’m close I just want to maybe tweak a few things and decide if I really want to try out #like I do but should I you know? #anyways…I can’t believe it’s been weeks since I wrote any of relativity stars 😭 #April has just been so tiring and draining I haven’t had the time or energy to work on it #I’m still determined to finish it though we’ll just have to see how long it takes

[suddencolds]

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#not snz #more musings 📝 / mini vent: #not sure why my social battery is so limited 😭 and also so inconsistent #i feel like i can't sustain the amount of... like continued/consistent enthusiasm i see others giving esp in group settings #i just don't know how to engage in that way without burning out #over the past few weeks i've been stuck in like #a strange state where i can't muster the energy to properly respond to even the people i'm most excited to reply to #which is strange?? #(and if that is you i am sorry 😭 i love you and i will get back to you) #i think i can't even like manage to get myself into the mindset of enjoying something for myself (eg. a conversation with a friend) #i think a part of it is the stress from work leeching into my personal life #i feel like i've been working so hard and for such long hours but its the kind of work where the progress i've made is very hard to track?? #:( i just want to be off of ******* work so i can work on ******* work again #i also want to get ahead enough on everything in my life so that i write y+v D: #i feel like i haven't had a properly restful day in weeks... even over the weekend i was busy attending to others' needs #i just want a break from it all... but i dont have enough time to take off... but i dont know how much more of this i can take #i remember also feeling during uni like i was drowning #like there were simply not enough hours in a day to deliver everything i promised. it's such an awful feeling #i just feel defeated. like i've felt exhausted for weeks and weeks on end and like i spend every waking hour working on something or other #but ofc there is nothing to do but to keep at it 😭 other people can handle all of this and more #there are so many people i refuse to let down

[lanternlightss]

do you think nameless bard hid his face with the top of his cloak and braids when he was embarrassed,,,

#like pov venti has been layering his in praises and compliments #and you turn the corner and bard is just laying his head in the table. his cloak is pushed up all the way to his hairline and his braids are #splayed out over it #i kinda did a doodle of this but its way too messy 😭 #i also. did run out of energy gods. damns #ughhhh okay so maybe sometime this week then there will be sketches bc. i have thoughts #shakes my brain i want to talk and doodle about the bards please let me 😔😔 #lantern says stuff #bard tag #if NOT what would the bard look embarrassed 🤔

[conflictedkismet]

Days 1 and 2 of Chulip Week

Day 1: Rocketman. Characters: Love Interest (canon) and Caramel (mine)

Day 2: A Daytime Stroll in Scarecrow Field. Characters: Scarecrow (canon) and Em (mine)

#conflictedart #kismetthoughts #Chulip #chulipsona #chulip ocs #chulip week #so. i lied about posting them all on one day akfksjf #idk if any of them will actually be posted on time but i am trying to get them done 👍 #also. ik the pictures are bad plz spare me EKTKAJTJ #i didnt have the energy to edit them 😭 #they only took me. like. 5-7 hours total. including research for references & thumbnailing for the whole week #also including breaks #idk if i ever actually posted Em before akfksjf. I'll have to look into that #my ocs #ocs #the sash is so Bright bc i just colored it today AKFJSJF. fucking forgot about it

[orangerosebush]

Autism as an adult is like going through a series of quick time events where in your first interaction with someone, you can either establish yourself as quirky, but personable and worthy of connection, or accidentally come across as deeply, deeply detestable by accident

#I hate graduation week bc it’s like ‘go to this hour long ceremony and then spend the rest of the day recovering energy wise from having #been in that space’ #I am proud to graduate and I’m excited to celebrate my friends #and my partner is coming!!! she just got back from a big trip and I want to form dyke braided bread with while we cuddle 😭 #with her* #drunk typo

[wishmemel]

sorry for being so inactive omg — i’m so sick rn n all i wanna do is sleep + school is literally kicking me rn 😭

#no cause i just got better like two weeks ago n now i feel fatigued again #which is the worst ughhh #i’m so sorry for not replying to ppl’s texts n mentions #i literally have 0 energy rn but i’ll try to get around to it 😭 #i know i said i’m on semi hiatus but i still feel bad not responding omg #꒰ soon you'll get better. ꒱