#i just got out of the hospital lmao

[yum-is]

Not Dead Yet

[Plain Text: Not Dead Yet]

Listen

To the tip tap rainy day pattern of my step.

The click of my cane is the shading of my walk,

Aluminum bent handle

The lines of my sketch Stretch

My dislocation between my teeth.

I know the gummy taste

Of orange bottle medication

Lick

The dust off my thumbs

Swallow

The bittersweet taste of relief,

Maybe.

Two tablets taken by mouth daily,

Check my pulse against the Morse code cheat sheet,

Fall risk, it says

Sick, it says

Alive, alive, alive

Not dead yet, 

It says.

I'll hang x rays on my walls

And call it art.

#my poetry #my writing #poetry #writing #disability #disabled pride #hEDS #POTS #cane user #disabled poetry #i just got out of the hospital lmao

[plugnuts]

I remember when I got to the bridge to the turnabout case knowing a good chunk of what was going to happen through spoilers and was SO ready for the hospital scene between Phoenix and Miles only for it to not happen and felt SO disappointed. I hyped myself up for something I didn’t even know was not gonna be there

#bits of banter #ace attorney #aa3 spoilers #aa3 #miles edgeworth #phoenix wright #Alex don’t look #I got SOSO excited for it only for it to not happen #I even fuckin looked this up I shit you NOT #I was like ‘so does this scene happen or not???’ #and found out that it’s shown. but in the anime only #I felt. so silly #edit: for context I haven’t been in the fandom for long and hadn’t a clue that it was known as ‘forbidden’ 😔 #(I was going off of that one Paula animation video of Wright and Edgeworth in the hospital and taking it as at least semi-canon as I #just had no better understanding of it lmao)

[pochapal]

girl who is not going to be okay (i need to phone the gp to chase up a missing prescription)

#:) #two weeks ago i gave them a letter requesting a dosage change on the order of my hospital consultant #and they said 'oh yeah it should be ready for you in 2 or 3 working days' which didn't happen #but my regular prescription runs out in like two days time and the pharmacy hasn't received any info for almost a month #so like. my regular prescription isn't being processed and my new dosage never got dealt with so. very cool situation #do you know how Awful it feels having to make phone enquiries every single month about my meds because there's always problems #i don't wanna chew them out for not being good because my gp has a budget of 50p but like. it's updating a prescription dosage #why is this so hard for anyone to actually do effectively............ #to make matters worse when i gave them the letter they said 'our other services are slow but we are still really quick with prescriptions' #like lol. lmao even #maybe they're withholding my prescription because i have bad vibes. maybe it's my destiny to just explode and die......

[byanyan]

ougghhghgg ok so the crisis didn't end there, ended up having to go to urgent care to sob out half my life story to a doctor who was actually super kind and helpful and I'm feeling a bit better now, we have a plan in action I am on my way to get some new meds and the despair is less immediate and overwhelming

#dude I was so sure I was gonna get admitted to the hospital lmao. we almost went straight there instead #but I reeeeally didn't wanna be stuck in the psych ward if I didn't have to be #this worked out much better. I got some peace of mind I got a new script I've got follow up appointments for the next 3 weeks let's gooooo #feeling less heavy. still shitty!!! but!!! less 'oh god I'm never gonna be able to fix this oh god' kind of shitty #I'm rambling I'm oversharing I'm sorry ajdgskg I've been HARDCORE dissociated to get through this and I'm finally feeling more present agai #it's been a fucking day man. it's been a whole fucking day and I'm just so relieved to just. NOT be so overwhelmed. #okok I'm sorry I'll shut up I'll shut up but don't be surprised if u see me coping w shitposts later sfjgksh #━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ ooc ⋮ don't @ me. #personal cw

[kitkat-of-doom]

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#lmao this is the worst #i just got denied my appointment for a formal autism diagnosis #after finally managing to send all the correct documents #their reason???? “oh your case isn't complex enough for us you should go see somewhere else” #like bitch i already have another fucking diagnosis that isn't even receivable #because no one fucking told me that you're actually supposed to go see a psychiatrist instead of a fucking therapist #and now you're telling me that i have to pay 400€ more to a psychiatrist just so they can tell me the same thing as last time #“oh we cant conclude anything cos adhd and autism are so close you're gonna have to go to the actual hospital to figure that one out” #just so i can come back in 2 years #like come on your creteria for taking people in was that they had to have had a diagnosis already #i fucking have one !!!! #im so tired of this #like i feel im never actually gonna see the end #why can't it just be easy for once #crying in class because of that shit was not on my bingo list for today

[beastking-golion]

FHR SPOILERS

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I avoided to Argent’s romance because I didn’t think I’d like it but I finally played it and I was so wrong I was so wrong, she is so girly pop murder fiend “I have morals but only sometimes” ass kicking nanovore-made cupcake eating god princess

#dex talks #I had fun with her romance lol #fhr spoilers #fallen hero retribution spoilers #fallen hero retribution #fhr #I love that she’s made of nanovores thats so epic I wish I had an option to call her badass in the hospital #also I got the highest relationship with her than I’ve had with literaly any of the other characters EVER #I think it was about 91? which I didn’t think was possible since I didnt booby trap her brain #Listen even in rebirth that felt too mean to do okay #I wonder if she can connect to out nanovores or if them being neutered ruined that #imagine you deploy nanovores on her and she just instantly intigrates them into her body lmao girl boss #I also like the idea of a sentient creature/ hive mind and am always won over by it so ahrhjfbgg #hive minds my loves my dearest loves #ortega is still my top and canon romance but argent is an easy second #sorry to danny but you’re my least favorite 😭 #chen’s just makes me painfully sad he finally falls in love again and its to the worst person possible #im so sorry chen #rambles #i wanna see a jake romance i hope i can get my puppet back cause flirting with him was fun af

[sundaytragedy]

My reaction to a paper prescription with snot on it: EEWWWW

My reaction to the ones with blood splatter on it: Wow cool...what happened, oh noo, no worries at all, we'll still take them

#lmao this woman was dropping off some paper prescriptions #with the slightest hesitation she asked if i could still fill them if she got blood on them #she shows me and yeah splattered dried blood on it. enough that i immediately was like “what happened?” #i wanted to be like wow thats fucking awesomee but i didn't want her to think i was weird or rude #she just came from the hospital those prescriptions were with her when her iv got pulled out and it splattered blood #even in her purse #we were both laughing because the way she was telling the story was pretty funny #my manager didnt know what to do and some of my coworkers would've definitely refused lol #some things you just don't consider until they happen #bloodborne pathogens training modules help me

[ethereousdelirious]

This is so stupid but like. There have been fics where I've wanted to go into more detail about the process of being admitted to the hospital through the ER, but skipped it bc I couldn't find any good in-depth sources to make it realistic. But there frustrating part is that I've BEEN admitted to the hospital through the ER, I just can't remember the important parts 💀💀💀

#i was more or less completely lucid i just have adhd #what i dont remember: who spoke to me or what they said. how i got into bed. what unit i was in. if i rode in an elevator (i must have?) #what i do remember: being made to fill out a form re: my 'religious needs.' marking 'atheist'. waking up alone except for a priest praying #over me. an unattended minor. without my consent. after i had specifically marked 'no' on that religious needs form #wow u guys are getting the ethereousdelirious deep lore lmao #anyway. in hindsight. that was deeply violating and upsetting. should probably speak to a therapist about that. #since im oversharing: i graduated at 17 and passed out from dehydration after my grad night. in the urgent care my ekg was abnormal enough #that i was admitted to the hospital overnight for observation. i rode in an ambulance and everything :) #my official diagnosis was: um yeah that kinda happens sometimes i guess /shrug #and ive been more or less fine since #sometimes caffeine TANKS my blood pressure though. it's the weirdest thing. #anyway. #ethereous speaks

[todayisafridaynight]

mine thing im crazy about today: the strained grin he gives when pretending like hes not about to attempt murder on his subordinate hes literally What did something good happen :)

in his defense (the only one he gets) kinda stupid to be talking shit about the chairman for being young when the chairman of the company YOURE in (whos 2 feet in front of you and known to be nutty) is younger lol

ITS LEGITIMATELY SOOOOO GOOD mine's the most valid person on earth for stabbing a wank right after his Cinnamon Apple (platonic) just presumably kicked the bucket and this twat's cheerin bout it. WHILE SAYIN HE WAS TOO YOUNG TO BE IN THAT POSITION OF POWER BUT THEN THE NEXT BREATH SAYIN HIS BOSS (WHO IS YOUNGER) SHOULD BE NEXT IN LINE ☠️☠️ absolute kissasses the lot of em..

#snap chats #omg i was thinking of mine today tho cause i was having one of my misanthropic monologues with myself again #overheard someone just casually talkin bout keepin certain dudes around just to use them for certain stuff #and i GUESS thats commonplace and. normal to a degree. but im still not used to hearing people so openly talk about using people like that #IN ANY CASE.... i love that scene tho lmao.... hes so cute.... when he's obsessive <3 #i was gonna say he'd burn down a hospital but bruh he destroyed an orphanage like. i think we know how serious he can be LMAO #HE'S SO WICKED I LOVE HIIIM #anyway need you guys to stop me from going to the city tomorrow to get more pork floss im finally just about out :( #fun news tho my evening class tomorrow isn't in person... hehe..... #i might do comm work with that time 🧍‍♂️maybe..... idk i can prob get two of them done tonight and start the last one in the morn #idk thats for me to figure out ANYWAY. i love mine <3 #i have to post about my other fave freakazoid hang on sorry everyone twitter got me pressed as per usual

[curly-cottage-girl]

Having a gorgeous and talented mom is the best thing ever, and I always feel so proud of her whenever people say how much they love her, but I also feel like a small gremlin next to this tall beautiful queen whenever we’re together lol

#I was so disappointed in high school when I realized I wouldn’t be as tall as she is 😔 #I am shorter and curvier instead #she is tall and thin and gorgeous and her hair is still totally free of grey #she is also renowned for her cooking/baking and classy fashion sense and hospitality and generosity #I love my mom #I’m so glad out relationship mended these past years #everyone always tells me how awesome/beautiful they think she is #and then there’s just this little gremlin next to her lmao #some of my younger sisters take after her more haha #AT LEAST I WAS THE ONE THAT GOT HER HAIR THO !!!!

[skelettflickan]

cringing so hard att all the times i tried too hard to be Normal™. just got weird in another way instead that made myself and probably other people uncomfortable. i wish i knew a was autistic earlier and that i wasn’t afraid of people finding out i’m autistic!!

#i am usually pretty good at masking but sometimes i overdo it and it's not a good time #rip me back in 2018-2020 when i was really mentally ill but still tried to be social #i feel bad for the people i met back then #i am much better now #although making an effort and being social did help me to get better #starting to play dnd helped a lot! #was gonna be admitted to the hospital like the week i was gonna play for the first time LMAO #ended up not going to the hospital bc of reasons so i got to play dnd! #before 2018 i was just mentally ill without trying to be social for a few years #don't recommend it #i kinda wanna reach out to people but i still have a tiny bit of social phobia left and i'm afraid they hate me lmao

[pessimisticprincess]

dramatic but i fainted for the first time in my life today lmao

#one minute i was cleaning the room for the next patient and i started feeling super dizzy #then it was like i blinked and i was just on the floor lmao #so me for that to happen and man it like really hurts to just hit the ground like that #luckily i work where i do i got checked out bc i refuse to go to the hospital my deductible is too high for all that #anyways its been a few hours my mom picked me up bc the doc at work didnt want me to drive so soon #of course she freaked out but idk i feel mostly normal besides really sore my body hurts but i just am having a hard time taking it serious? #like it didnt happen to me or something idk!! i just feel weird about that happening and wanna move on from it #weird vent post but what else is new

[caorl]

posting in ehre bc my friends are prob tired of me yapping about this on tt but i cant wait to get a neurologist appointment and got exams done bc im sure i have narcolepsy and have been for a couple years now yet im so so afraid of going bc what if i do have it. and worse. what if i dont have it and all my struggles actually have no explanation other than me being lazy and weak lmao i cant stop thinking about it im so anxious over this

#this is the year we get diagnosis DONE #but fr im so much more interedted in getting this sleep shit checked out #than i am on confirmingg my autism #bc at this point like. theres no way im not on thr spectrum lmao #like if my autism avaliation comes out negative it will be shocking to me #but i'll live ive spent 20 years thinking im just a freaky creature before i found out it could be autism so it eont weight as much ig #but the narcolepsy slash hypersomnia shit..that fucking bothers me.sm #it explains everything ive been having since i was about 13 lmao the peak was the last years of high school #and then living alone in college and getting sleep apralysis every day i got to the point i wouldnt even br frightned anymore #i still have it about like ojce every two weeks now but nowadays what bothers me most #is feeling my muscles go numb when im walking home from college bc i want to sleep #and having hallucinations when im waking up or falling asleep although im also used to these so they dont scare me bc i know im hallucinatin #yk.. #but yea the sleeping all day everyday fucking sucks #even when im having fun lol there are couple of videos of me playing the guitar for fun and just sleeping in the kiddle of it #also . when i got put on wellbutrin i had multippe convulsions #that tookme to the er and i dont remember a thing from that week so idk if it made some damage #bc they didnt make any exams at the hospital #they literally said i had overdose although i took the right dose #then injected some muscle relaxant w me #that made me convulse and go unconscious again #and then got me stable and sent me home like Yeah that happened idk just sleep it off #and i have migraines since i was 12 so liek #i hope the neurologist i get sent to takes me.serious #i feel like there is something going on yk #anywayssss #personal #narcolepsy #idk if theres a commujity here on the tags but lmk i feel all alone on this

[jewishfalin]

I fucking hate Oregon it's filled with white goyim who pride themselves on how progressive the state is, when in reality they are just ignoring, speaking over, and driving out minorities.

#filled to the brim with performative activism #its fucking sinister #did yall know its also rated rock bottom in states regarding the treatment of mental health for young people? the 51st. below 50. #and I have first hand experience of that lmao. twice. and I can tell you its fucking awful for jews especially #twice hospitalized that is #literally got abused starved neglected drugged with g-d knows what #definitely not just something 'for anxiety' it was a fucking heavy ass sedative #anyways i hate it here and i have got to get out

[katpurrccino]

if anyone who’s in school or starting school ect ever decide to take a non-academic course as a break, just don't unless you got rich parents paying your way or access to money or something then go hog wild do what you want I found out that wind ensemble didn’t ever count for full credits and now I'm 3 credits off from graduating and I am so displeased by this that I could rip my tits clean off

my degree’s basically being held ransom behind 1(one) dumb and silly option course. So yea Don't be me ever my life is frankly in shambles and I am losing the game Hard rn.

#I was briefly homeless and in the hospital earlier this month bc I was starving and my health is in the dumper I can't afford this bs rn #genuinely I am so mentally checked out over school #and noone told me non academics are half the credits lmao. #literally I got all my degree requirements for both my bsc and minor i just need grad credit. i can take anything but I dont WANT to #you feel me?? id still be like adios 🚶‍♀️ over this even if I did have the money not having the money is just an extra gut punch

[avocado-frog]

hey! this is chance & here’s the prompt for week 6. what are your oc's bedrooms like? messy? neat? carefully designed? or a collection of their favorite things? you can verbally describe or use photos, whatever you think is best.

Hii this came a little earlier than i expected. chance jumpscare

(cw for implied alcohol at around leo's part)

Logan- He isn't big on decorations, and he's a little too busy to make his room look nice, but he tries. He has a desk and a swivel chair, and a PC. He keeps pens and paper and other assorted items- gifts from the others, little photographs, etc etc- on the desk as well. He also never really was comfortable decorating it, since he kinda stole the house from the triplet's dead mom

Leo- Gray sheets, maybe one blanket, but an atrocious amount of pillows. She has a collection of VHS tapes, a radio, and a bookshelf full of dozen of little dumb trinkets. Tarot cards, board games, books, matchboxes, yeah. She has stuffed animals hidden somewhere. Five unfinished puzzles on the floor

-Dahlia Leo- She wasn't expecting Ryan to go with her after her fight with Jaxon, so she didn't bring enough stuff for the both of them. Because of that, and being a lil guilty for kinda kidnapping her brother, she let Ryan have the air mattress, as well as her blanket. She sleeps in the room across from Ryan in the school, the second-grade science classroom. She sleeps on a pile of clothes, using her backpack as a pillow. She never bothered to buy anything new for herself or Ryan, while they were missing. A lot of empty cans of. ""soda"". She stole a baseball bat from a dumpster nearby, which ends up coming in handy when Dylan and Ryan and Elliot possess everyone

-Rosemary Leo- White floor, white ceiling, white walls. The door is metal, and doesn't have a knob to open. The windows are opaque, and can't be broken. The bed has a metal frame, with white sheets and a foam, rectangular pillow. There's a white bookshelf, with only a few books, and a stack of papers and crayons. On the opposite side of the bed, there's a TV and remote, it only has a few channels and it doesn't work very well. There's a circular table in the corner with one chair. Leo still hasn't finished her puzzles

Cass- Fairy lights are strung up on the walls, wrapped around those fake vines. Light green bedsheets, matching curtains. Plants line the windowsill. She has a bowl of candy beside her nightstand with her lamp and hand sanitizer. Very cozy :)

Kai- He keeps his room very neat. Painted dark red, he's got a beige carpet. One wall is just a big bookshelf. He has a canopy bed and a chandelier and a bed for his cat Muffin

Lily- Painted pink. She has a white, shag carpet on the floor, and those sequin decoration pillows that kinda hurt to sleep on. A lot of little plants. Fairy lights hang from the ceiling. She has a lot of family photos on her desk. She's got a vanity table. A lil messy

Jaxon + Dylan- Very messy on account of Jaxon never cleaning and Dylan firmly believing that, at this point, it's a health hazard to touch anything. Life forms are prob growing under their bunk bed. Jaxon has the top bunk, and I'm looking in chapter 7 because I described their room there. His bed looks like it hasn't been made since he was nine years old. He keeps empty chip bags there. Dylan's is much neater, lot of blankets and stuffed frogs. There's two bean bags in front of the television, one green for Dylan, one blue for Jaxon. Eventually, Leo gets a red one. Posters from various cartoons and video games overlap each other. Also, Jaxon has a hamster on their desk

-Rosemary Jaxon- Small. Around the size of a walk-in closet. The floor is just straight up dirt, and the walls are concrete. It's dark, one, dim light in the corner of the room, and a metal bench held up by two chains. There is also a rat named Jeremy

Marcy- Kind of like Leo's, but a bit more purple-themed. She's got an electric guitar hanging up, with some band posters covering the walls. Her room is painted gray

Ryan + Sam- They have a bunk bed. Ryan's is the bottom, with his bed covered up with stuffed animals of various sea creatures. Sam has a little less stuffed animals, but the wall and his ceiling, where he can reach, are covered in stickers. Sam's green army men and Ryan's plastic bugs are scattered on the floor, which is great for them, terrible for anyone who tries to get into their room. Sam has a lot of Hot Wheel sets along the walls, Ryan's got a lot of Legos that are in immediate danger of being broken by his brother

-Dahlia Ryan- The kindergarten room of the small school he and Leo were staying at. The paint was scratched, the lights were broken, but Leo let him have the air mattress she was planning on keeping for herself, as well as her blanket

-Dahlia Sam- Ryan's got him locked out of his room for the first two chapters, so he has the last remaining guest bedroom, and he couldn't really get any of his stuff. He steals Elliot's nightlight. The picture Leo found in forget me not is on his floor. He couldn't stay in Ryan's room after he left, so he kept the guest room. He's got his sports equipment in an orange bag

Elliot- Solar system rug covers his floor, colored lights hang from the ceiling, keeping the room usually purple. His toys are kept up on shelves hammered into his walls. He and Dylan painted styrofoam spheres to look like planets, and the two of them hung up glow star stickers to look like constellations, and they spent a while hanging them up. He's got a telescope by his window, and neon signs In Rosemary, he shares this room with Ryan, Sam, and Dylan, with Dylan's mattress closest to his bed, Ryan's next to theirs, and Sam's next to his

#jaxon got fucking arrested dawg he's in JAIL #let him out he didn't do anything #leo deserved to get pushed off that building. he was totally in the right #like i love leo but she is just awful. the fall knocked some brain cells back in there #i really wanted to describe a hospital room for leo lmao but she technically has a Different one #it wouldve been mean of me to describe the triplet's rooms pre canon tbh #elliot really just likes space which honestly good for him #logan is afraid that someday he'll have to up and find a different abandoned house for the kids to live in so he doesnt wanna get attached #writing #original work #writeblr #wip: forget me not (series tag) #thanks for the ask! #rambles in the tags