You very have that thing where you know something is objectively amazing and you can’t fucking stand it despite the fact you know it’s great?
I’m not talking about media I’m talking about my absolute hatred of vegetables
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Every day I want to smoke and every day I don't because I know that beyond the arch of juvenile, relieving self-abandonment, is actual self-destruction, and there's nothing good about fracturing your ability to enjoy being alive (let alone, like, stay being alive). But when it's already difficult to connect with the 'enjoyment' part (to feel it at all, to feel you deserve it or to even believe it exists, sometimes), and you *also* take away the self-abandonment, you sort of have... nothing left going for you except the effort of self-betterment. And that's, y'know. Hard.
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ok but i can't handle black coffee drinkers bc like
while i dislike both coffee and tea, tea drinkers just feel so Out Of It when talking about real tea and proper brewing and shit i can't really take it all that seriously
coffee drinkers are always those dude bros who actually only drink one kind of coffee ever and god forbid you add any cream or sugar to it it's this puritan who has been dating his girlfriend since high school and they don't love each other anymore they both know they cheat on each other but they don't want to break up because they don't want the change
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woke up this morning feeling like i'd been beaten in the night and almost immediately got a frankly unkind email from my boss. so as you can imagine the day went great! only cried twice!
she asked why certain things hadn't been done and i countered by asking when, exactly, i was supposed to get them done when watching 20+ kids by myself, especially when some of those kids straight up refused to listen to me. or answer honestly, apparently, bc i did ask if they had homework, okay, and they said no. and not a single parent asked me why it wasn't done. not one. but they did email my boss! who was out of town! and she didn't forward the emails or email me herself about it or text me or anything so i only found out today! so that's nice
also her beef with a local woman seems likely to escalate bc now i'm in the middle of another disagreement and the local woman, who goes to my church and has been very friendly with me, said that i said things that i know i did not say. so now what. how do i deal with that.
the other librarian did back me up tho. when i was trying to explain why planned activities didn't happen and trying not to cry and failing, the other librarian said "she's been working her ass off" so that was encouraging. i'm glad someone noticed
not a word from my boss about anything i did right while she was gone. not a thing. just a general air of "i'm not mad just disappointed." and a "oh, you're leaving? okay bye abbieweloveyou!" when i picked up my stuff and left while she was still talking to the volunteer who's basically the only reason i'm still as close to sane as i am
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i have been experiencing a near-total loss of appetite for three full weeks now and if this issue does not magically resolve itself within the next 12 days i’ll be going without cake on my birthday for the second year in a row. sad!
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