#i have screamed at about your fic

[spinjitsuburst]

good. morning.

#i'm buzzing with adrenaline i need to finish this fic before i go insane #what the fuck what the FUCK #i can't believe chapter six contained everything from jay getting the rib bone to..... #um #that #how the fuck did all that fit in one chapter #I WAS SKIPPING AROUND TOO CUZ I DIDNT WANNA READ THE DETAILED PARTS OF THINGS #WHAT THE FUCK!! #IT WAS SO MUCH #im in shambles I WANT JAY TO GET RESCUED SO BADLY NEVER IN MY LIFE HAVE I BEEN SO DESPERATE TO GET TO THE COMFORT ASPECT OF A WHUMP FIC #NOT EVEN WITH WYTYAA NOT EVEN WITH RIGHTS OF A NINDROID NOT EVEN WITH LFLS FROM ROTTMNT hi glitch youre probably not gonna see this I'M SO #HOOOOOO #lies down on the floor #im a wreck yall #on the bright side i was worried nadakhan would show up in my dreams given how late i was reading and was not thrilled about that but inste #d i dreamed that i worked at walmart???? #so thats something #im a mess guys im such a mess help #spinjitsu screams #spinjitsu reads

[galehautstomb]

life in the top gun fandom is slow progression from “i refuse to do any research on the military for fics” to “knee deep in navy’s history of aircraft carriers trying to figure out home ports so the blorbos can fuck in the canonically correct place” and now your computer is poisoned with recruitment ads

#hELp mE #like i’m 15k in #and it’s not stopping #i have more tabs open on my computer about various aspects of the Gulf War than is appropriate #*me screaming at my computer* NO I DO NOT WANT TO JOIN THE MILITARY #but i would like all your data on scramjets plz #and still this fic is gonna be innacurate #plz know that y’all #top gun #icemav #sereshaw #top gun maverick

[thatgirlonstage]

sometimes a show throws a scenario at you that you could see coming a hundred miles off but that in no way is gonna prevent you from going absolutely feral over it. Anyway I binged all of Link Click in like three days and I'm going to start chewing furniture about the end of S2

#link click #am I SURPRISED that lu guang is without question on board to #go against all his own rules and break reality for cxs? #not really. it's kind of what you expect just from the premise #am i still screaming into a pillow about it? #OH ABSOFUCKINGLUTELY #FUCKING MADOKA SHIT. HELP ME. #fellas is it gay to fuck with time and disregard all possible consequences #because the alternative is letting your Best Friend die and that's simply not an option #i want... to write... bed sharing fic so bad #they really made CXS For Me like #you have the absolutely perfect excuse to just drop this boy into a trauma blender at any given moment #anyway i think he should get like. trapped in a cave-in or something #anything that makes him terrified of being left alone #and when he comes back out he just desperately needs lg to hold him and not let go

[catboyolli]

the situation with the RV sounds like a nightmare tbh, but it does open a door for some delulu discussion about, say, Olli and Allu both drawing the short straw and ending up with no bed for the night, so they're forced to sort of sit in some corner and cuddle under a blanket to try and make themselves at least a little more comfortable 🥺

hellooooo 💕💘💖💘 honestly yeah, it's fucked up that they had to tour in those conditions, but at the same knowing those fuckers, they would've said stuff like "remember those years back when we weren't famous? and slept seated in a smaller van? we can do this again, it will be worth it if we became known in the US market" or something like that

buuuuut speaking of cuter things, omg yessssss 😭🥺😭🥺😭🥺 i'm gonna bring this one thing for reference and put everything under a read more because there's a lot of text lol

so these are the plans for the RV lol don't ask how I found them but trust the diagonal positioning of the sink 💀

I imagine them sitting opposite each other in that place labeled "dinette" (bottom right space next to the copilot's seats) trying to keep the other awake because they don't wanna fall asleep over the table (Allu has quite the Experience Working Until Late and doesn't want Olli to suffer as he does each morning when he wakes up in his studio)

they cannot talk because there are two other people sleeping in the sofa bed next to them, so they find another way of communicating, either by using whatsapp or through the notes app on their phones

then Allu takes quite the time to reply, maybe because he's remembering one meme that reminded him of Olli but now he can't find it, so when he looks back at Olli he's already asleep while sitting, with his head resting on his hand and that's a big no for him

so in a moment of 'fuck everything' Allu steps over the table and towards where Olli is, sitting next to him and pulling him into a "comfortable" position (where Allu is sitting with his back against the wall, and a sleepy Olli is sitting between Allu's legs) kinda like this?

Olli, of course, doesn't remember anything the next morning, and suddenly finds himself cuddling with Allu under a blanket 🥰💘💖 his heart is racing because this is one of the things he has been thinking about for a while, but he's afraid of waking up Allu and chooses to enjoy the moment to make it last longer

once they are waken up by their bandmates they don't speak about it, Allu too embarassed because he thinks he crossed a line, and Olli too busy remembering how Allu's hands felt wonderful resting on his tummy and how much he wants this to happen again and again and again

maybe someone in the band volunteers to do the soundcheck for them, just so that they can have a little nap and feel well rested before playing that night's show

Olli drags Allu back into the van, making a beeline for the bedroom, and once they're laying in bed he thanks Allu for keeping him comfortable last night, and apologizes for falling asleep 🥺🥺 Allu says that he would like to sleep next to Olli this time, cuddling again, and who is Olli to deny him such a simple request?

when they wake up, a few hours later, the first thing they see is each other and oops, maybe they realize that they have some Feelings for each other, so it's only natural for them to finally lean into a sweet kiss 💖

(or maybe Aleksi asks for a massage because his back hurts like hell and Olli gives him that and so much more, who knows 😏)

and well, for both Olli and Allu, it doesn't matter where they will have to sleep the next night, as long as it's next to each other 🥰💖💘

#asks #theflyingfeeling #cute kittens 💖 #i am always open to delulu discussions even with the most nightmarish topics tbh 🥰💖💘💖💖 #but yeah you gave me brainworms for these two being absolutely adorable even when having such a terrible time thank you 🥰💘💖 #excuse the shitty diagram lol i tried ⭐ #btw i read your christmas advent fic over lunch and i 🥺💘💖 i'm setting up a nice shippy sideblog to scream about it on the tags 💖

[cornerful]

Sméagol and the Gift

'Now!' said Sam. 'At last I can deal with you!' He leaped forward with drawn blade ready for battle. But Gollum did not spring. He fell flat upon the ground and whimpered.

'Don't kill us,' he wept. 'Don't hurt us with nassty cruel steel! Let us live, yes, live just a little longer. Lost lost! We're lost. And when Precious goes we'll die, yes, die into the dust.'

Devastated by this. Just a little longer, he begs. Even though his existence is a torment. Even though the will that holds him to life is barely his own anymore. He has long outlived his time but it's such a cruelty that now the only freedom for him is in death. I'm glad Sam didn't kill him but the whole scenario is awful.

When a mortal keeps a ring of power he does not gain more life, he continues, denied natural mortality as the fear of death is amplified and twisted into fear of separation, nothing matters anymore but the keeping, the continuing. In that miserable existence there is no peace, and at its end there is no graceful goodbye to life, there is only dust. Sudden, empty, and final.

It would take murder to spare him that. Or falling with the ring into the fire.

Bilbo let it go in time (did he feel anything when it was destroyed?) Frodo is freed of it now, though the toll it extracted for the separation was at very least a finger. It was too late for Gollum for the price to be anything other than it was, and that's brutal.

If you live long enough, death is no longer the enemy. What Sauron did to Gollum ensured that it would always be the enemy, to be feared and avoided for ever, once time and the ring had fashioned it into the only escape left. Evil.

#lotr newsletter #suicide mention in tags #haunted by the au in which gollum goes into the fire with the ring On Purpose #bc he still couldnt separate himself from it but frodo's compassion had somewhat released him from its evil #in a way an honor to frodo's quest and in a way an act of mercy to be able to give up the self-torment #which gives me shrimp feelings bc of the everything but also back to the original point that it is so tragic that death is all that awaits #bc death is natural and that was taken from him. what is the will to live in the absence of natural death? #smth deeply horrible about that #matt bugg screaming we'll be dust. so famous and rent free #lotrn325 #damn it im having more thoughts #wraiths vs gollum: discuss #the nature of the ring kept affects the nature of its possession no? those rings were made FOR thralldom #sauron has power over gollum but not That Much and his own ring is all abt the domination #what would a 2000 year old gollum even be like ._. #the wraiths are probably even more tragic bc at this point they're like...undead. even death isn't freedom #on that topic what happened to the witch-king's spirit fr #I'm pretty sure he isn't ever actually called that in the book but it's epic and gender and way snappier than lord of the nazgul #anyway shoutout to i think yambits for breaking the lore and giving them peace that was sick #where's my gollum rehab fic #i know he's a horrible little man who is constantly trying to murder my boys but i love him so #the au...gollum gaining the willpower to destroy himself because he was given trust and kindness and companionship for once. FUCKED UP. #fucked up horrible i need a minute. being shown compassion and then becoming more self-compassionate. epic #that compassion entailing seeking the freedom of death your soul was denied bc this is fantasy and somehow the exact #arc that usually leads to fighting to live is now flipped. HUH. #yeah jirt alluded to his motivation being For Frodo but i maintain that the willingness to die is HUGE there and extremely relevant #me and my red string keeping me company #ugh tag championships i win i think but at what cost #who wants to spin around miserably in a pool like franknfurter with me as we listen to gollum's song #tam you're already invited i have a floaty for u

[twistedappletree]

i’m crying I just thought of an Alice in Wonderland AU with the junior trio where Jin Ling is Alice, Lan Sizhui is the white rabbit, Lan Jingyi is the Cheshire cat, Lan Wangji is the caterpillar, Wei Wuxian is the mad hatter and Jiang Cheng is the Red Queen

except Wonderland’s creatures and environment are all based on Chinese mythology, flora/fauna, ancient architecture, etc.

like the absolute chaos of this situation, i’m gonna s c r e a m

#the thought of LSZ constantly running around with a fluffy tail and bunny ears while screaming about being late is so fucking funny to me #ahhdajhdAHDAHD #LJY as Cheshire annoying the crap out of JL everywhere he goes lmaoooo #LWJ just trying to meditate on his goddamn psychedelic mushroom #but this whiny Jin kid won’t leave him alone #WWX being an absolute chaotic hatter giving everyone the most whack advice that somehow always ends up being good advice #Jiang Cheng is red queen bc he’s a moody bitch lmFAO #mdzs au #fic ideas #apple babble 🍎 #I’m sure the other characters would fit in somewhere I just can’t remember all the other ones rn ajdhajhdja #god now I wanna write this ngl LOL #would be funny as shit if it was just JL having a fever dream #he wakes up to see LSZ taking care of him at the cloud recesses or something #and he’s like #‘where tf is your tail’ #ajdhaAJDHAJD

[iwoulddieforienzo]

Something that makes reading TOA so devastating is how fucking much Apollo feels about Everything. There’s so MUCH. Like I don’t even know how to describe it to you if you haven’t read the books yourself. He has so many complicated thoughts and emotions about just about everything and he cares about everything so much and there is just SO MUCH going on in his head. And yet none of it ever reaches his mouth!!

He almost never says what he’s feeling. What little comes out of his mouth about his thoughts barely even scratches the surface of what he actually means. Like he’ll be having a long ass monologue about how incredible someone is, showing a deep understanding of them as a person and empathizing with them so hard you’d almost think it’s projection but it’s not he’s legitimately just mind melding with this random person he met like a week ago and he’s thinking the softest, kindest thoughts about them like he knows they’re fucking incredible - and what comes out of his mouth is just like, “you’re a wonderful friend :)” AND ITS LIKE. THERES SO MUCH MORE UNDER THE SURFACE. the sheer admiration and adoration he has for everyone around him……… UGHHH!!! But he never VOICES ANY OF IT!!!!!! He never tells anyone about what Zeus did to him……. He never tells anyone except the reader about his realization that Zeus is abusive…. He never even tells commodus about how much he adored him, not then and not now… he refuses to tell anyone when he’s in pain or tries to justify the things he does when he actually had Decent Reasons for why he did something… I’m. I’M. AUGH. AHHHHH

HE DOESN’T EVEN TELL US ALL OF HIS THOUGHTS IS THE THING. THERES EVEN MORE THAT HE IS NOT TELLING US!!!!! THE FUCKING OCEAN OF FEELINGS AND THOUGHTS HE HAS ABOUT EVERYTHING IS THE CLIFF NOTES VERSION. I AM IN DISTRESS.

And YET…. Even what slips out of his mouth is so fucking devastating it is SO devastating. He’s so fucking kind and gentle with Harley and Meg and and other younger Demis and his kids… he’ll act like an obstinate idiot and then turn around say something that drags the core of the person he’s talking to into the light like nail on the fucking HEAD like he reached into their soul and gave them the words to express something that they were struggling to say aloud or that they didn’t even realize about themself. Around the 2nd book he starts putting voice to some of his feelings and thoughts about others and even that tiny fucking sliver is overwhelming to the people he’s talking to bc he’s SO. AUGHHHH

#this is why ‘reading the TOA books’ fics fucking slap btw. because as embarrassing as his thoughts can be #so many of them are just incoherent screaming about how he loves everyone around him. devastating #like imagine helping out ur loser deadbeat dad who you don’t really know much about bc he’s flighty and hard to read #and finding out ‘wow he cares about us a lot more than I thought’ #bc he literally almost dies to save you/your siblings and keeps following you all around everywhere #but he’s still like. your weirdo absentee dad. u don’t know hardly anything new about him other than an apparent suicidal streak #and then u find out that the whole time he was whining about chicken nuggets or whatever he was internally sobbing abt how much he loves u #and every time u were nearby he was going ‘MY BEAUTIFUL PERFECT BABY… JUST AS INCREDIBLE AS THEIR MORTAL PARENT!!!! BEAUTIFUL LIKE THE SUN! #HOW DID I EVEN MAKE SUCH A BEAUTIFUL PERFECT BABY. UNREAL. THEY CANT BE MINE!? BUT THEY ARE!!! LOOK AT THEMMM!!?!!! IM SO PROUD…… #my beautiful perfect angels… all of their parents best traits and none of our worst…. I am Barely restraining myself from sobbing #i would give u the WORLD if my father wouldn’t kill me for it :(‘ #and it’s like. wow. okay dad. um. would have been nice to know that when we were all dying in The War #Please Hug Me Though. #imagine being a Random Ass Demigod who didn’t go on a big special quest or something like you are literally just Some Guy #and finding out that this weirdo loser god u gave a sandwhich to or something thinks you are so fucking cool #your own parent doesn’t know ur name but Apollo knows u on sight and read ur soul within the 2 seconds yall talked and he thinks you rock #how are you supposed to respond to that. #snack time #toa #longpost

[formosusiniquis]

things i know/things i want to learn

also on ao3 if you want the full smut experience, otherwise this stands on its own

He knows it's crazy. He knows it borders on batshit even. He knows it's weird and obsessive and, frankly, a little unhealthy.

But Nancy Wheeler started it.

Nancy Wheeler who is scary and prim and proper. Nancy Wheeler who had his hand in her lap last week, painting his nails a regal navy blue because it was the closest Nancy Wheeler had to black. Nancy Wheeler who spent the time their nails were drying chatting at him, like the Upside Down had spit him out solely so she would have a gal pal she could talk about boys with -- a first, he imagined, if his memory of Barbara Holland was at all accurate. Nancy Wheeler who said, "Jon is sweet, and he tries so I feel bad for even thinking it, but he just doesn't have as much fun when he's down there and you can tell. I mean, you know, when Steve did that thing he does with his tongue-"

Eddie has been running that particular sentence fragment through his head for the last week.

That thing with his tongue.

Has fun.

You know.

You know.

You know.

Cause the thing is, he decidedly does not know. He has never come anywhere near the realm of knowing. He would love to know exactly what he has done to make his new sort of friend, sort of nemesis and obvious flame of Steve's still burning affection think that he has any fucking inkling of a clue what kind of shit Steve 'always goes down' Harrington does with his tongue.

It's all he can think about.

Eddie is but a man. A man who has been forced by the fascist government and their pet doctors to stop smoking and give up most of the other addictive substances that he partook in for the sake of his admittedly shaky health. A man who has had these demands enforced by the much more effective puppy eyes of one Steve 'stop calling me mom, remember I was cool once' Harrington. A man who has an addictive personality, comes by it honest, and having given up smoking and drinking and the occasional bump -- anything from nature's bounty stays of course, he's not a total fucking loser -- has needed something new to latch onto.

Thank you Nancy 'I can only orgasm from oral' Wheeler for helping him straight onto the high that is staring at Steve Harrington and his pretty pink mouth.

I can tell he isn't having fun, not like Steve.

This thing with his tongue.

You know.

He wants to know.

The second thing, and it's barely a thing at all these days, is he does technically have some of the same shit going on that Wheeler does. A little bit less now. If there's a silver lining to this whole bat thing it's that, though he may be a nipple short, he lost enough of one tit to sweet talk his way into government funded top surgery, just to even things out. A just as silver lining, he was saved from the awkward 'guess what I'm trans' conversation thanks to the bat induced blood loss. When the older teens found him and Dustin, one of them in hysterics the other clinging to this mortal coil with both fists as best he could; and used the remains of a shirt that had seen better weeks to staunch the bleeding from his neck only to reveal that his own rippling pectorals had a different bounce than Steve 'at least I got to see his chest before I die' Harrington's. There wasn't any time for anything other than 'if he's still bleeding he's still alive let's move.'

They haven't talked about it.

He is fine not talking about it.

Prefers his acceptance this way actually. He knows he has a heating pad with his name, literally, on it at the Harrington abode, along with some other necessities. The only acknowledgement of his situation at all, that heating pad that's tucked away in the same drawer as Robin's -- also with her name on it like Steve doesn't trust them to share.

He would like to talk about it a little now. Now that he's been cleared for moderate exertion by a very mean physical therapist who enjoys inflicting so much misery on him that he's thinking of scrapping the black hanky all together. Cause he'd really, really like to know about that tongue thing.

Actually, first he'd really, really like to know why Nancy thinks he would already know. Maybe that's what eats at him the most -- second most the bats had actually eaten at him a lot, so he figures he can obsess about this for at least another week before it risks overtaking the literal eating -- that the woman who having had it all, having had Steve 'I know I saw you yesterday, but I missed you' Harrington in her pocket, and gave it away somehow sees something that makes her think Eddie is having sex with her ex-boyfriend on the regular.

She's supposed to be a detective, a real dateline NBC type. How on earth can she be looking at him and not see a starstruck virgin who, yes, is admittedly very, very in love lust with her ex.

And how is she okay with it?

Isn't there a best friend code or something? Not that Eddie would lay claim to that title, and it definitely feels weird ascribing it to Nancy when he's got the hellfire boys; but surely the regular friend code or the we survived a traumatic experience together and now we're inexplicably bonded for life code also has a byline about not sleeping with your compatriot's ex-boyfriends.

Even if she already thinks you know about how he gives good head.

So he just watches instead.

Watches him smile. Watches him pout. Watches him bite and lick and worry. Watches how they shine with something that's definitely more than just spit some days. Watches even closer to see if he can catch what Mabeline magic must be going on them.

He watches and watches and watches.

He has, by virtue of obsession, become the most studied observer of Steve 'absolutely wearing cherry flavored lipgloss' Harrington's mouth. He has also, by virtue of necessity, become the most talented reader of Steve 'seriously, Eddie, do I have something on my face' Harrington's lips.

Which provides him with a very interesting opportunity as he's browsing through the Family Video, looking for his pick for the weekly Big Kids Only movie night and not at all stalking Steve Harrington and his mouth.

"I'm going to ask him."

And Robin says something that involves an eye roll and a finger jabbed into a green polyester vest.

"I know I said it last week, but I mean it this time."

Her eyebrows are raised, so unimpressed she goes back to the counter to do whatever work stuff they supposedly do while they're here.

"I do mean it,” those cherry flavored lips pout, a dignified hand on his hip in the face of Robin’s clear disbelief.

She doesn’t open her mouth to answer this time but the arched brow and quirked smirk are clear enough that even he can make a guess at her response.

“I know I said that too, but I only kind of meant it last week. I actually mean it this time. “

She rolls her eyes, spitting out something quick and no doubt sharp and cutting with a slash of her hand.

“Just watch this.”

By this point Eddie 'hopelessly devoted to Stephan Richard Harrington’ Munson had actually stopped even pretending to be browsing the movie offerings of the sainted Family Video. He had in fact been standing with his hands wrapped around a copy of  The Last Unicorn watching Steve ‘does this thing with his tongue’ Harrington and his stupid mouth while he gossips with his stupid friend -- sorry, Buckley. A fact Steve must have already made note of, since he’s locking eyes with Eddie from across the store and shaping those soft pink lips into, “Go out with me?”

And that’s…

He does this thing with his tongue, you know.

You know.

Maybe he didn’t then, and maybe he doesn’t know why Nancy ‘shit we might actually be friends, I can never let her find out about this’ Wheeler thought he already would.

But if he plays his cards right, he might find out very, very soon.

#steddie #steddie fic #my fic #trans eddie munson #if you do pursue the smut be warned author is ace and a virgin #author is also not cis but not on t #so i feel like those may be their own content warnings of a kind #sometimes you just have a bunch of dialogue you want to use #and then when youre using you realize the hard way there has to be sex to transition between them #this is a nancy and eddie friendship blog #i do think nancy needs someone to talk about boys with who isnt her exbf or her current bf #but also nancy needs someone who will force her to have fun and act her own age #eddie is dragging nancy kicking and screaming toward confronting her trauma about having age appropriate fun #and i did accidentally just give myself a new plot thought in the tags of my own fic oops #eddie forcing the original monster hunter trio who have all grown up to fast to enjoy the teen years they lost? #now im turning my tags into my notes app

[sophieswundergarten]

I Am Once Again Losing My Mind Over minotaur By @bi-demon-ium

Please Everyone Go And Read It Right This Minute. Please. I Don't Care If You've Read It Before. Do It Again.

#Screaming #Just #I am always screaming about this fic #It's so so so good #So so beautiful and clever and mindblowing and majestic #Anyways #I have to go pretend I'm a normal human being now #Gert in case you read this your floorboards are gone <3

[apocalyptic-byler]

how we touched (and went our separate ways)

But they have time— not much time but time regardless —until the plan commences, so Will decides to humor him.

“Then…the whole world will end,” he says, his own light yellow makeshift mask hiding his small smirk. “I don’t think the others would like that very much— Hawkins going up in flames because you wouldn’t let me go.”

or, Will and Mike before battle.

#WHY IS PROMOTING YOUR WORK SO EMBARRASSING #but yay fanfiction!!!!! #byler ao3 #this is literally so scary i sat here for a good 30 minutes debating whether or not i should post this to tumblr 😭 #also i changed my user it was orginally prxmised but now it’s superached so if u saw me screaming in the comments i will still be screaming #just under a different user 👍🏾 #also i have no idea how to format or tumblr so i am so sorry about that #mike wheeler #will byers #stranger things fanfiction #the grammar mistakes in my tags are so. #byler fic

[bucksbisexualawakening]

A list of things that should be proof of buddie and would be if one of them wasn't a guy Part 14

Season 4

nothing in 4x07

4x08

Buck babysitting for Eddie except Buddie are more domestic than Eddie and Ana on their date. (Also they specifically framed the Eddieana date to be a misdirect and show that they were taking it glacially slow)

Chris has his priorities straight lol he doesn't want Eddie to have a gf

AND THEN CHRIS RUNS AWAY TO BUCK'S PLACE

This entire episode is just screaming that Eddie, Buck, and Chris work best as a family unit (*whispers conspiratorially* 'THE UNIVERSE IS SCREAMING AND YOU REFUSE TO LISTEN')

nothing in 4x09, 4x10, 4x11

4x12

Eddie being jealous that Buck was looking for the treasure with Taylor and not him :( ('i'll just be over here then. thinking. by myself. go team')

4x13

eddie reaching for buck

buck crawling under the truck to get him

eddie waking up just to ask if buck was okay

I've only seen buck this distraught at the well

4x14

Buck breaking down when he's telling Chris (specifically after finding out that Eddie should be okay)

Buck being the one to look after Chris (second. parent.)

Ana called Buck first when Eddie woke up?? did Eddie ask for him?

Eddie making sure Buck is okay

"you were there for him when i couldn't be. That's what matters"

"If i die you become Christopher's legal guardian" NOW WHY WOULD THAT BE HERE FOR ANY OTHER REASON THAN BUDDIE, HUH?

"But no one will ever fight for my son as hard as you"

BECAUSE, EVAN

the fact that Buck was the one to take eddie home from the hospital

in that scene, we focus on Eddie, Buck, and Chris, there's no hug with ana or anything until later.

Oh, that was a shorter season. Welp, that's all for now because I can't access season 5 in my country and there's so much in that season.

#911 spoilers #911 show #eddie diaz #buck x eddie #evan buckley #buddie #buddie 911 #lynn's buddie list #i hate that this is the covid season #i think i'm gonna make a separate post about how the issues that buck and eddie has with their respective partners are issues #that they don't have with each other #ive committed to this tense and i'm sticking to it #RAVI'S HERE #everyone go and read the ravi fic by archerincombat #this show goes from intense trauma to crack fic in 5 minutes #and then back to intense trauma #who else screamed when the whatched ep 13 the first time? #omg i thought taylor said you can't go see YOUR son like that #buckkkk you are so traumatised

[seventh-district]

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#it is 5 hrs past my bedtime and i am awake listening to Two Hearts by Dermot Kennedy on loop and crying over Rotating Shifts. again. #i couldn’t resist the urge to read the latest chapter any longer but i knew when i did i’d get like this #so Why did i wait for my period to roll around. i have made. a silly decision lmaooo #i’ve complained abt it before but i’m conflicted about how much more sensitive it makes me #my nightmares usually don’t make me cry but oh i was a Wreck this morning #so why i picked tonight to read the fic that always makes me cry is beyond me #i have never met a fic before that had me in such an intense emotional grip #and it’s fucking hilarious bc it’s not that intense of a story!! like yeah there’s been devastating parts but i’m out here having to- #-take a break every single chapter bc i’ll read one line that hits my inner child like a truck and i have to take a minute to recover #but the whiplash this fic gives me is so fucking funny and the range in the storytelling from comedy to tragedy is just.. *scream-cries* #it has my favorite characterization of Sun and Moon that i have ever seen #this chapter wasn’t even that sad i’m just Making myself sad about it #but on another level it also makes me sad in the sense that i don’t think i’ll ever be able to write something that good.. #all that i want out of my writing endeavors is to make one (1) person feel as strongly and as much as RS makes me feel #and i don’t know if i can do that. i don’t know if my writing has what it takes bc i can’t even describe exactly what it is #i don’t think it’s a science that can be replicated. things either connect with someone or they don’t #the way Sun goes from worryingly innocent ‘wdym we can’t invite strangers to live with us?’ ‘wdym we can’t adopt an adult that needs help?’ #to fucking. tearing an animatronic in half in a fit of protective rage and blocking access to all dating apps to prevent you from- #-finding anyone else bc he’s your Special Friend and he can’t have his Daydream falling for anyone else!! no no!! #it’s not a new concept but i eat it tf up when Sun is actually the one you should fear the most #like no i don’t think he’d hurt Reader but i dread to think of the things he would do For them #the back and forth between childlike innocence and terrifying intelligence possessiveness and physical capability is just mmmmm 100/10 #and don’t even get me started on Moon. or i Will start crying again #he’s ​like yeah dumbass of course i’m gonna save you every time some POS man tries to **** you. of course i will you fucking crater-head #but i will complain at you about it the Entire way home and then i will steal your fucking toilet paper and pack you a raw egg for lunch #because i hate you 🖤 but Sun loves you and we would both kill for you 🖤 also i drank all of your chocolate milk 🖤 also i hate you :) #anyways i am paraphrasing obviously and dear god i hope no one who actually reads RS sees this bc i do not want my 2am ramblings taken as- #-any kind of Official Thoughtful Analysis of the story ok pls pls pls let me be insane abt my favorite fic without having to be articulate #i just have so many fucking FEELINGS about them. i am unwell. #i’m not even tagging this i’m just hitting post and going to sleep goodnight

[the-darklings]

Hey lovely Kat, wrote this little song inspired by today I bury you in me. It's such a beautiful, delicate, poetic work of art and I could not help but allow my heart to become fully invested. I wrote it from the point of view of wanderer and I wanted to depict her's and dream's very unique relationship, the feeling of being close but not close enough, the tension, the devotion, all the words left unsaid. I hope you enjoy it and also that I've gotten their dynamic at least half right, if you like it and aprove of it I could also make a tiktok singing it and send it your way so you'd know the melody.

Seriously your words have enchanted me, thank you so much for sharing not only your work but who you are with us, sending along with this all my thoughts and prayers that you'll feel well, rested and ready to conquer to world very very soon. Much much love xx

P.s. English is not my native language, so please excuse any mistake

Endless Waltz

My dear, I'd dance with you an endless waltz

Take your hand, accept your guidance, and forgive your faults

My existence was gilded by your faint touch

Who would've known the meaningless to some could mean so much

A life to wander with nothing to call my own

I was a blank slate you turned me into a home

You're not my lover you're my fate

The poison, the antidote, the skin and the blade

They warned me you'll cut me open someday

If you are to do it then let your hands guide me by the waist

My dear, I'd let you keep swirling me around your halls

Holding me tight, hearing your breathing, I forget I'm so small

Embraced by your shadow I'm nothing but a teardrop to the sea

But when your stare holds mine I know you truly see me

A life to wander with nothing to call my own

I was a blank slate you turned me into a home

You're not my lover you're my fate

The poison, the antidote, the skin and the blade

They warned me you'll cut me open someday

If you are to do it then let your hands guide me by the waist

I'm running down your fingertips

I beg you don't let me slip

Your name's a prayer on my lips

Say you want me and I'm yours to keep

Don't let me slip, don't let me slip

You're not my lover you're my fate

The poison, the antidote, the skin and the blade

They warned me it's a matter of time these days

I think you should do it, let your hands guide me by the waist

#submission #KAT’S NOTES: GOSH THIS IS SOOOO??? BEAUTIFUL??? I’M IN LOVE #SCREAMING AND CRYING TBF. WAILING AT CLUTCHING AT MY HAIR #GOSH. BRAINROT #‘you’re not my lover. you’re my fate’ I’M????? HELLO????????? #how does one stay normal about this?? #‘your name’s a prayer on my lips’ 😭😭😭😭 okay chief you didn’t have to go THAT HARD #GORGEOUS. STUNNING. AMAZING. THANK YOU SO SO MUCH. #I’m honoured fr 🤧 #also English is not my native language either so I would be the LAST person to ever judge you please never worry about this #fic: today i bury you in me

[mariana-oconnor]

I must not compare myself to others. I must not compare myself to others. I must not compare myself to others. I must not compare myself to others. I must not

#Sometimes you read a thing and you just know you could never do that or think of that #and the crushing weight of your own inadequacy threatens to bury you forever #and you have to remind yourself that everyone is different and just because your style is not the same it is not worse #and no one else could have come up with that story and told it that way because every story belongs to its author #and you might write differently but that is not a value judgement #because the stories you write could only be written by you #but still #*incoherent screaming* #and no I will not specify #because this is universal and happens to me at least once a month #Cleaning out my drafts #I Qd #also don't remember which fic this was about anymore

[eddiegirls]

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#to preface this is not about b/ucktommy it's about racist 911 fans - anyway #i am.............fucking screaming #someone is doing a fic fest for b/ucktommy (censoring bc i dont wanna be annoying in the search lol) #and they have a list of rules with a specific racism section that details how you can't be racist in your fics. #(which. of course the 911 fandom fucking needs that lol) #but they have received a couple different asks from ppl who are literally like throwing a tantrum over the racism rules #like literally being like ''so ummm who's gonna decide if my fic is racist??? bc this fandom calls everyone racist for everything nowadays' #one of them said ''racism has become a buzzword in this fandom and it has lost its meaning'' #YOU GUYS SOUND LIKE YOU'RE ON FOX NEWS. PLEASE BE AWARE OF THIS. OH MY GOD #LIKE YOU LITERALLY SOUND LIKE MY GRANDMA AND HER FRIENDS

[imminent-danger-came]

"I can't handle the fanon depictions of anyone", this is so true it hurts 😭

I‘ve never been so hyperfixated on a piece of media, without being able to read anything about it. The way every character get‘s flattened like a pancake and forced into a archetype is unreal.

I have like- 5 stories I can read and don‘t really engage with with the fandom in any way.

It‘s all just:

Monkey King is depressed and MK has to mother him and kiss all his boo boo‘s.

Macaque never did anything wrong in his life, it‘s all Wukong‘s fault. He is also secretly a mom.

What is Mei? Do you mean the month? Bitch can‘t even spell right.

Red Son‘s parents are still assholes, because parents changing for the better is impossible and children can‘t have decent parental figures I guess.

-Casually bastardizes everyone into an asshole so my fav has a reason to be sad-

"What is Mei? Do you mean the month? Bitch can‘t even spell right." IS THE FUNNIEST THING. HOLY SHIT. I'M CACKLING.

"I‘ve never been so hyperfixated on a piece of media, without being able to read anything about it" is also so relatable. I've never had my fandom experience be so self-generated before. I'm just kinda stewing over here, having fun, making my own gif sets and analysis posts. Maybe I reblog some fanart from time to time.

#and you know that's alright by me #Maybe some other folk want to scream with me #oughgh but your summaries are so accurate it hurts #At least canon is fucked up. #I should really finish my Red Son and MK fic. I have never written a fanfic before but hopefully it'll be palatable #the summary: it's post s4 special during the beach party. Red Son notices MK sneak off and follows him to Monkey King's cave #There is some convos about like. Idealization and living up to legacy and grieving a person that never existed. #MK is sad. Red Son does his best to provide some insight. #Tis a fic spawned from "hmmm DBK V Red Son and SWK V MK parallels are kinda interesting'' #And I thought it'd be fun if Red Son was like ''Look MK i've been there. But you gotta accept the reality and keep moving'' #Cause like. I think Red Son slowly realized who his father really was. And while he loves him obviously #Perhaps...there wasn't anything to live up too. And the Great Demon Bull King failed just as much as anyone else. #And post ''A Lifetime of Mistakes'' I think it would be cool if MK started to realize that too #aw beans I ranted too long in the tags again #oops #asks #lmk #lego monkie kid #imp's a little feisty