#i hate vacationing <3

[venusqq]

when you don’t know how to pack a suitcase for your vacation, so you just take a bag and THROW IN ANY ITEM OR PIECE OF CLOTHING YOU HAVE EVER OWNED

#that’s what i just did #i denied the fact that we’re leaving tomorrow until just now because i don’t want to #and then i didn’t have a list on what to pack #to i just took everything #i have three bags now #whoops #i got literally every shirt i own #six books for around ten days (i am most definitely not going to have the motivation to read all of them but it’s nice to pretend i will) #end me <3 #summer #random stuff #i hate vacationing <3

[sysig]

*You give him a laptop (Patreon)

#Doodles #UT #Handplates #Gaster #W. D. Ghoster #I don't have the time/energy at the moment but gosh does the idea of turning these into fake screenshots appeal to me so much lol #Maybe at some point >:3 #These are what a lot of my scratch projects look like btw lol - ''I want to finish this but Not Right Now but I need to it at least exist'' #Poof existence lol #Also the fun of this potentially existing someday but not yet: My handwriting keeps some spoilers intact lol #I can't tell how many since I can read my handwriting but there must be some right? #I gave it one go to do the text box over my scribbles and hated it so lol - full version or nothing! Haha #Does make wonder if posting gives it more existence cred? More complacence about not finishing since /a/ version exists? #Thoughts for later lol #Just ike the full version! Lol ♪ #Anyway a lot of this was fun to spiral around the thought of if he could actually have a moment of ''I could do my work?? While here????'' #Vacation-work spot lol #He complains so often it seems like such a nice gift to give him for all of five minutes lol #And he seems so interested in human technology really makes me wonder how much if any electronics survive the trip down #Or if they're all fried - or get fried falling down lol #There's gotta be a Nokia that made it right something that didn't have to be completely gutted and refurbed haha #But right from the source has to be a tempting offer even if it is a bit behind the times hehe

[transmechanicus]

Kind of hard to ask as anon

But you doing ok?

Need to vent?

Hi very kind and thoughtful of you to ask, i am doing mmmmm suboptimal but i do not need to vent to a person per se, so much as i need to say absolutely insane shit in my tags and have everyone pretend not to see <3

#my stuff #asks #this is the problem with using tumblr as a multi-role platform bc when i want to talk about my fcuking metnal illness i stress- #about my online friends judging me for it #not in like a mean sense but just that it feels like it would change their opinion of me #like on tumblr u can say you have adhd or autism (i have the latter and likely the former) #but anything more intense is regarded as sketchy #so when i’m having symptoms disease of an additional metnal illness it’s like hmmm i don’t think i’m supposed to talk about that #mostly because the majority of the time it’s something i mask over #and do subconsciously until i get particularly tired or stressed or fatigued #so when i get to those states i’m trying extra hard not to blindside everyone with what a fucking mutant i am under the surface #like yippee hooray more ammunition for some transphobe to use in 3 weeks next time i get anon hate #anyways im. tired. i need more tattoos. i need a vacation. i need a forever hug. i need to feel cute. i need things to just be okay #i need to not be fractured into so many snapping pieces i need to know what is expected of us #i need to not feel like an adult babysitting a child who’s actually controlling me #i feel weak and undisciplined but i know fixing those won’t fill the hole gnawing my heart #im going to bed. blegh.

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#sorry im thinking abt death again #because it's weird to think that ive been in the room. maybe a meter away from someone as they died #that someone being my mom. its just weird. the time in the hospital feels like it happened in some dark little pocket universe detached from #time. a calm room and then the soft blips of a monitor then the nurse rushing in to say she'd passed #i dont kno y ppl use that phrase: passed on. i mean i do. it softens the topic. makes it sound peaceful. ive yet to use it. i just say she #died bc thats what happened. is that insensitive? i dunno. when i was home i realized that i come off as much stranger than i think. the way #my family see me doesnt fit how i see myself. i dont kno what to do with that. i dunno. theyre all together today #for an early easter. and im halfway across the country again. nose so stuffy ive had to mouth breathe for the last 3 days #and again. everything feels the same as it did before but also profoundly different. sometimes i cry in the mornings. or when i think abt #future vacations she wont be there for. bc in the end she quickly slipped away in a way that couldn't be described as peaceful until her #last half a day. and all i can think about in that tiny room is how scary it would be to lose control like that #and how its not fair and she didnt deserve to die only halfway through a lifetime. but its not about fair and its not about deserving. #sometimes bad things just happen. that's life. and now i own a book called motherless daughters. and now im standing with the countless #others who've lost their moms too early. ive already become aware of 3 ppl in my daily life who are in the same club #i keep thinking about this moment that happened between my parents at the hospital. apparently my dad was helping her get cleaned up and her #stomach was so bloated she looked like she had a bby in there. which my dad said. and my mom apparently said: but it's a baby no one want. i #dont kno y that upsets me so much. all the things i heard abt her being in the hospital before i got there upset me. and the rest of my #family was there to see it. so i have the least traumatic version of the story. and i got almost 27 years with her. except my sisters #probably got more time with her bc i spent so much time away. or maybe not. i dunno. #i dunno. im just sad that shes gone and sad that it was drawn out even a little bit. 6 days isnt long but im sure it felt like an eternity. #again not fair. nothings fair. 53 years of unfairness culminating in a tragedy. she would hate me characterizing it like that. she lived a #full life as they say. full with an asterisk on account of length #unrelated

[cephalonheadquarters]

this feels so surreal theyre BACK this is real i cant believe it

#splatoon #splatoon 3 #busy vacation #damp socks #sorry i dont hate that translated name i think its the funniest thing ever. Damp socks #off the hook #pearl splatoon #marina splatoon #marina ida #pearl houzuki #pearlina #my art

[limelocked]

3rd: i hate this fucking planet i want to leave pronto this exile sucks

3rd: i hate this fucking planet i want to leave

3rd: okay this planet doesnt suck that back but i still want to leave

3rd: okay i can leave now... but this trash heap is kinda nice actually

3rd: hey! stop attacking my stupid shitty planet!

#classic doctor who #i love the 3rd doctor he really went from hating the very concept of earth to being like Yeah this is my vacation home <3

[s-ccaam-era-crepe]

where is that 'i was raised by a woman who hates me' post. i need it

#camera talks #i need to get out of this house !!! #i fucking hate vacations im in this house too much with my parents #i might actually die #this is insane #augghgh /neg #anywayyyyys. hows everybodys day been? #i genuinely hope they've been good and if they haven't i hope they get better <3 #hmmm. this feels like a vent post also #vent

[yellowocaballero]

DONE DONE DONE with the latest motherfucking behemoth. I still have to write the epilogue and fill in a few gaps, but the newest monstrosity will be published early next week!

It's not the longest work in the Trigun tag but it's certainly up there.

#my writing #“you said you'd post covid puppy where's -” #DON'T ask I decided I hated it. #about 3/4ths of this story was written tin about three weeks i think #and then i went on vacation and got spiderbrained and i only just came back to it lol #man i know stamp finished a while ago I hope ppl aren't like #over trigun? hopefully? idk #it normally isn't too important when stuff doesn't get much hits but when it's 100k #you ARE wasting a significant bit of mental energy posting the thing every week. #it's a commitment. #oh well i don't have to care

[listening505]

these pictures screams boyfriend

#i hate pinterest #bc i go for looking just for 1 pic and i leave the app with at least 50 saved pictures #james hetfield #metallica #acillatem #jaymz <3 #papa het #going to sleep #and when i wake up im gonna catch up on everything #idk after 10 days vacations are tiring #and its day 20 i guess?? #i dont even know at this point

[dilsdoes]

incredible: this dyke is terrible at taking sims screenshots.

anyway my sim got engaged! they went to mt komorebi bc her fiancee has the extreme sports aspiration so i figured shed like to be proposed to there :]

#dils declares #theyre on vacation for another 5 days. and then they have a wedding to plan! #i have my wedding stories because i hate myself<3

[dadralt]

ah yes good someone made a post highlighting all the queerbaiting tw//n did re:gertrashkier so i don't have to - wait that's not what that was?

#i hate all 3 of those ships alfdjsfkldsjfs #i have ONE WEEK of vacation and this is what y'all make me look at #sick and twisted #txt #anti geraskier #did y'all miss me being mean on main? 😂 #shout out to kate <3

[sakuhai]

#hyde #hideto takarai #l'arc~en~ciel #l'arc en ciel #larc en ciel #laruku #vamps #larc #jrock #vkei #quotes by haido san #quotes #i hate summer because of all the bugs #who loves summer? cockroaches #if i had 3+ months vacation without any bugs i'd love summer #otherwise its a no from me too #my gifs

[ashenberry]

damn was replaying ieytd1 and Jared mason has gotten way more comfortable in the handler role it’s nice to hear

#i FINALLY beat hot water’s speedrun so I have ieytd3 100% lemme tell you I hate hot waters speed run #anyways me n my buddy realized we never 100%d one so we were playing through mostly squeaky clean until the headset died and like #there’s a million little things that’s like. idk fun to see now that they’ve got it figured out #favorite quality of life thing the mission tapes are in a reasonable order WHY ARE THEY ORGANIZED LIKENTHAT #WHY IS WINTER BREAK (mission. idk 4 or 3) IN THE FIRST SLOT #WHY ARE THE CREDITS IN THE MAIN SLOTS BUT MISSIONS 5 AND 6 ON THE TABLE. I CAN UNDERSTAND THE VACATION ONE JUST SITTING ON THE TABLE THAT W #BONUS WHO ORDERED THEESE #anyways. uhh squeaky clean Reginald is like “well. I think the sandwhich was good before you toasted it. picky ass bitch” and it’s like oh #look who’s talking mr i Like my frankfurters cooked to a specific degree #BUT ITS ALSO LIKE FUNNY LIKE! obv they didn’t have either of these one of jokes in mind while writing either of them! it’s fun and silly #ieytd #ashen.rambles #in da tags

[lanshappycorner]

im gonna meet my new roommate this weekend........i hope that they r normal

(ramble in the tags)

#for context last yr (or this yr . but last school yr) i had the most insane roommate #she was like an insane clean freak and she was also really loud and kept moving my stuff and I SUSPECT she even stole smth but idk #she also lied to me a lot and attempted to gaslight me to turn me on our other housemates . she made me cry multiple times </3 #i lived in an apt of 5 ppl and everyone all hated her but i shared a room with her. and the thing is that they all liked Me but not Her #so whenever there were arguments id end up having to be the middle ground like even when i went home for summer vacation #i was called over on the phone to solve household disputes bc yknow she only listened to me and i was the only person capable of not- #-like blowing up on her bc she'd say some pretty unreasonable things sometimes and my other housemates r all pretty hotheaded #(my roomie included) but i . i do not get angry like ever so im able to calmly deal with things #when i tell you i do not get angry ever im so srs i know i say shit on here but my housemates have never seen me angry even once in 2 yrs #but anyways sometimes my housemates take me out for drinks and theyre like are u sure ur okay lan how do u live with her 💀💀 #anyways yeah last yr was a shitshow i hope my roommate this yr is normal like just the bare minimum is fine #ive only ever had insane roommates like my first roommate was a party animal and shed come home drunk at like 4 am #there was even a pregnancy scare once but anyways at least i got along with her rly well #i miss her actually :((( #my second roommate tho. she scares me

[celestial-sapphicss]

flexible hours just means work 24x7 and i hate that actually <3

#i have not had a moment's rest since 2nd week of March #id like to think its because im still learning most of the things #but the way my manager HAS ZERO time management skills like???? #his ass is going on a vacation and he wants to transfer work for his project to me while im already leading two separate projects #not to mention i did already assist with 1/3 of his work #and the other 1/3 he's getting it done from other coworkers #and its not that much work but the excuses UGH #and the stupidest decision to make 3 day in-office mandatory like it has literally no point #i legit worked for 12 hours today just like everyday these past few weeks and i hate everything even more than i thought was possible ksksks #vi.txt #capitalism suxxxxxxxxxx

[lepetitfruit]

There's this ad that plays over the local radio station all the time that just drives me crazy because it's SO UNREALISTIC and nobody even knows...

#its a scrap metal company and the ad is this guy suprising his girlfriend with a vacation and engagement ring bought with money from scrap #and the line i HATE is the gf going WOW a 3 carat diamond?? and the bf goes 5 but whos counting? #ME. IM COUNTING #do you KNOW how expensive a 3 carat diamond is??? #and how much MORE expwnsive 5 carat diamond is??? like!!! #like!!!! what the fuck!!! #and like!!! its clearly a joke!! #but they ALSO clearly have ZERO FUCKING CLUE just how much money a 5 carat diamond is worth #anyway. thats my pet peeve #people throwing around carat number without having a clue #petit talks