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Notes on Towers of Midnight

Starting with the penultimate book, the one with Egwene as full Amyrlin, with Rand post-Dragonmount, with Mat's katabasis to rescue Moiraine! I am vibrating with excitement!

"Mandarb’s hooves beat a familiar rhythm on broken ground as Lan Mandragoran rode toward his death." - happy to see that 20 years have taught lots to emo prince Alan.

Of course, Nynaeve's work paid off and now he's picking up Borderlanders.

Lan, you dunce, refusing to take Bulen because Nynaeve had tricked him is petty. Just accept the help without having him beg.

How nice of the book to remember Perrin actually had a rather neat arc about wolves before whatever leadership arc happened.

Glad we are properly addressing the Aram issue and Perrin's guilt.

"And yet you use them the same way." - and the penny drops. Even if this is war, violence is always worth questioning, especially after the last book and the new weapons emerging.

So the True Power is essentially the Dark Lord's Power?

Aran'gar, too busy making out with Delana to notice the impending disaster, is the true bisexual representation.

So the ravens and rats are used as spies through a weave that allows whoever compelled them to see through their eyes?

Graendal is by far the most clever of the Forsaken for putting together Rand's stratagem and an escape so fast. At least, Rand did get Aran'gar, but at the cost of Delana and everyone in that palace. 

Rand now thinks Graendal won't be a problem...

Hats off to Galad for stopping Asunawa's Children using their own rhetoric.

Galad/Egwene parallels now... That's especially interesting as it positions the Children as a mirror to the AS.

I didn't find that prologue particularly exciting tbh.

Not a good sign that the farmer that almost made me abandon TEotW is back.

Rand is sprouting flowers in his wake? That's cute. He seems much assured now, at peace. Which I am not completely sure about. He seems like a whole new character.

So we won't know why Annoura was meeting Masema because Jordan didn't write it down and Sanderson didn't know.

Well, Galad's power arc was over fast. No sooner had it started that the Children already rebelled and freed him. It's a bit disappointing.

Awwww Siuan likes Saerin now that she is freer to form bonds with all sisters. Her arc means so much to me.

Siuan hoped Egwene would name her Keeper and regrets the little time Egwene has now for her. My heart. Their relationship is everything.

It is so nice to see Siuan eager to continue what she started with Moiraine freed from the entanglement of power. I love that she still feels a pang of regret because the Dragon in the Tower should have been the culmination of 20 years of her work.

As much as I love seeing Siuan reflect on what she could not do as Amyrlin, I still think Sanderson is bungling her characterization with this quippiness and gruffness; Jordan wrote her as someone who suffered no fools, always one step ahead, but it translated into action rather than conceits.

Rand's acknowledgment of Siuan's help feels so satisfying. Yes, Egwene and the Tower united owe much to Siuan, as much before her fall as after. I hope the sisters will recognize her work more. She was a pivotal player.

Siuan showing such pride in Egwene... My heart.

"She must never forget that there was an entire world outside the White Tower’s walls. The purpose of Aes Sedai was to serve that world." - I am extremely curious as to how she will achieve that because the Tower is still wounded and people remain extremely distrusting of Aes Sedai.

"I’ve been struggling to avoid Aes Sedai strings of control. And yet, I allowed other strings – more dangerous strings – to wrap around me unseen." - Yep, I am at least satisfied by this acknowledgment even if I don't grasp what Sanderson is doing with Rand's characterization.

So Egwene is also immune to ta'veren pull?

I'm tentatively hopeful about the Egwene/Rand opposition. I've been saying for books that Rand should be as careful with the AS as he was with the Seanchan and now we're going to see why he should have played a long game with them. It will hurt.

“The same empty words over and over, Hopper sent.” - I am with Hopper. When will Perrin stop wallowing?

Perrin finally accepts that maybe he needs to learn how to work with his wolf self, Galad encounters Basel Gill's Caravan, and piecing together it's Perrin's army, Gawyn investigates what's obviously Mesaana's victims... It's too much dithering.

"Aes Sedai, for all of their cunning, sometimes seemed to have remarkably underdeveloped senses of self-preservation." - I continue to be extremely surprised by how prevalent a belief it is in this world, not only for AS but in general, that people should all be capable of killing and defending themselves.

Gawyn is a fool for believing that Egwene, the Amyrlin, owes him any explanation. The audacity of this man.

"Light, a Forsaken in the Tower seemed more plausible than Egwene being the Amyrlin Seat! " - Egwene, ditch him, please. Also, his argument for ordering Aes Sedai to take warders... He has the emotional intelligence of an oyster.

Perrin is infuriating. Thirteen books in, and he's still doing the whole “I don't want to be in charge thing”. Even Mat accepted he had responsibilities toward his people. 

I don't trust Bawler for peanuts.

How refreshing to be in Morgase's POV.

The Aes Sedai suggested they link with the Asha'man to give them strength. That's a really sensible idea that would save us a great deal of time.

WO: we're not like Aes Sedai

WO the next sentence: act exactly like AS

"For a man who claims he doesn’t like being in charge, you certainly do like giving commands." - Thank the Light Morgase called out Perrin for marrying her off with Tallanvor like that. Her agency has been constantly trampled for months.

Interestingly, both Gawyn and Perrin seem to resort to pairing off women to tie them up to men using excuses that sound an awful lot like preventing waste. I don't like that at all. Women are not loose ends.

Okay, but Lan is a bit ridiculous with his insistence no one should follow him. They will follow him whether he wants it or not. It's their nation too. They have a right to fight for it.

A Mat chapter! This will-they-won't-they-fight between Perrin and Galad was tedious.

"Of course, Mat did not look at women anymore, not like that. He did not think about her for him to kiss. Maybe for Talmanes" - Mat, you're bi. You don’t have to pretend.

"Light, he hoped that she had not left instructions for him to help someone in trouble."- That's hilarious. He is incapable of not helping people in need.

Mat is planning to deal with the gholam for real. That's good. It's time to conclude the various plots and this went on for long enough.

The description of Thom performing is exactly what we got on-screen. I am in awe of the writers' holistic approach to adaptation.

"We can’t leave her with them. Those snakes and foxes" - light, this makes me so anxious about the state they will find her in. Moiraine, please be okay. Mat was messed up after a visit with them and Moiraine has been held for months.

"but for an Aes Sedai, I kind of like Verin. And I’m a good judge of character, you know that." - awwwwwwch, too soon. I am emotional again. Mat is also taking his promise seriously.

Psst, if you need someone to open a gateway to the Tower, what about Siuan? She could help, even if she isn't strong enough anymore. Link with Leane?

The Mat and Teslyn scene was so wholesome, and her immediately helping him fight the gholam felt so satisfying. Wouldn't it be thematically relevant if he did free all the damane from the Seanchan? He may hate Aes Sedai, but he certainly earned their respect and trust.

"'I need to write a letter to Her Royal bloody Majesty Queen Elayne the prim.’

Joline sniffed. ‘Are you going to swear at her too?’

‘Of course I am,’ Mat muttered, turning to go back to Thom’s tent. 'How else is she going to trust that it’s really from me?'" - I laughed. I seriously love him.

Mat is such a dynamic character. He is dealing with Verin's instructions, with the gholam on his trail, with Moiraine's rescue, all at once. He interacts with many different people from different groups in a way that feels completely natural.

I don't understand: is Tam with Perrin now? He witnessed his son clearly breaking down, ready to kill him, then Rand disappeared and we're supposed to believe that Tam went back to Perrin in the meantime? Or were Perrin chapters before Dragonmount?

Lovely to see the Asha'man experiencing the joy of saidar through linking and having hope for a future now that saidin is clean. But I am now afraid Grady is a goner. That conversation feels ominous.

I honestly don't care for the Perrin and Galad plotline. I don't even think Perrin's Whitecloak arc needed resolution.

The writing for Elayne's pregnancy remains atrociously caricatural. I have no words.

I still feel so sorry for Cairhien. Elayne has 0 ties to Cairhien apart from a father who died young. Saying she is a legitimate choice for the throne is technically correct but so unfair to the Cairhienin. No self-determination allowed here, she's just another foreign leader seizing a land ravaged by famine and war.

Elayne thinking Mat and the Band are just mercenaries and forcing them to camp outside is excellent.

Mat's letter and Elayne's reaction were so cute! I am looking forward to their reunion. They need the support.

I like Sanderson's writing for Elayne better? I prefer the way he shows just how unconventional a ruler she is, and the increased snarkiness serves her character rather than breaking it like Siuan. The closer he writes her to Mat, the better her character works for me.

I far prefer Nynaeve's caution regarding Rand to Min's confidence.

Alanna vanished without a trace? Could she have been taken by a Forsaken?

Okay, it is ironic that Cads suspect Nyn of being BA even for a second. I doubt we will have much more big DF reveals after last book.

"Facing the end of the world with the Dragon Reborn completely out of control was one of them." - you don’t say, Cads.

"'As persuasive as you can be, Nynaeve,’ Cadsuane said dryly, ‘the Shadow has means to make people more forthcoming.’" - I would still bet on Nyn.

Yeah, I was suspecting it last book but the way Veins of gold unfolds is all the more frustrating now that this new Rand undoes every single obstacle created previously for Rand to surmount. It's an extremely convenient resolution.

"‘I thought I was being forged into a sword,’ Rand said, eyes growing distant. ‘But I was wrong. I’m not a weapon. I never have been.’" - excellent. I love the way this calls back to Moiraine's words about people being tools in TEotW.

"‘I am not only one of those fools, my friend, but I am their leader. Queen of the fools, you might say.’" - Egwene, I love you, with all my heart.

Her mastery of tel'aran'rhiod remains one of the elements I await the most eagerly.

I like the idea that Accepted should learn with the Wise Ones but I continue to find heinous the belief that WO training is better because it is even more brutal.

At least, Egwene sees that the WO would benefit from working with AS as well.

"'Do I really have you, Nynaeve?’ » - ooof the conversation between Nyn and Egwene is probably my favorite moment of the book so far. Their friendship never recovered from Nyn trying to assert authority over Egg after her captivity with the Seanchan and Egg threatening and hurting Nyn in reaction. This is proof of how frail that relationship still is. It doesn't mean they don't love each other, but what was lost can never be recovered, because their life followed different paths and some wounds, even unwittingly given, healed in a way that closed off an entire range of intimacy between them. It's a very real, adult, and raw sentiment and I love that Sanderson struck that balance of affection that's uneasy without being resentful. Egwene does need Nynaeve, and Nynaeve will always try to heal things. But this is as best as it can get.

Elayne's pregnancy is whatever in itself, but the way it's written so that Elayne becomes a liability who can't properly channel and a caricature of a pregnant woman is just so sexist, I am fuming. How the hell was this published recently?

Hurrah for the Wonder Girls meeting again though. 

(Don't worry Nyn, you'll get the Malkier throne) 

And I am super excited if Alviarin becomes Egwene's foil. She's one of my favorite antagonists.

The Asha'man's madness not going away after the cleansing of saidin is fitting, somehow.

The bubble of evil turning people into husks crumbling to dust reminds me of La Nuit des Temps. I love that body horror and I hope they keep this on-screen.

"Anything should be Healable, she told herself. Anything but death itself." - oh, Nynaeve... The fact she's probably not going to end up as a researcher in a brand-new medical institute is A Tragedy.

She cured the Madness!!! Hell yeah Nyn. I would have loved to see her work at it more beforehand, but I feel so relieved for the Asha'man. NYNAEVE.

No chance the AS are ever going to turn Nyn into anything she doesn't want to be. She's like Cadsuane in that regard. Rand doesn't have to worry. That's her thing; from the start, she's the one who changed the least and stayed true to herself.

"To be Aes Sedai is to be what you decide it is,’ Rand said, his stump still held behind his back. ‘Moiraine cared. You could see it in her, even when she was calm. The best Aes Sedai I’ve known are the ones who others complain aren’t what an Aes Sedai should be.’" - I agree with Rand, but he hasn't been in contact with enough Aes Sedai to make that judgment? I mean, that's the heart of his opposition to Eggy; they don't know each other. Also, it would have been nice to say that to Moiraine's face.

It's interesting because Nyn is also an unfitting mentor in the sense that she is very much a carer rather than a guide. Rand acts more like a guide to her than she does. She is too close to him to teach him, so what is left is essentially a position of minder.

It's a good twist and I'll be curious to see if the narrative doubles down on it or subverts it. Still, it creates this lovely intimacy between Rand and Nyn that makes Rand's trust in Nyn to defeat the DO all the more genuine and tender.

I had a suspicion the madness was closer to cancer than mental illness. It cannot always be healed. In Rand's case, it has spread too much.

I have reservations about Sanderson overexplaining the madness to the point of contradiction though.

"The Shadow’s Amyrlin.’" - that made me laugh. It's a cheesy line, but then the Forsaken are very Grand Guignol so it fits.

Glad to see Egwene is still working with the BA hunters and now they're preparing to sniff out Mesaana, hell yeah. I love that spy stuff.

Siuan is completely MIA though. I am distraught. If we don't get a scene where Egwene and Siuan make up, I am going to add this to the list of missing scenes I don't have time to write.

How much of Faile regretting her behavior is character development and how much is it Sanderson not vibing with her prior characterization? As much as I understand captivity would change her, it doesn't explain how she forsook a culture that required of her this jealousy. I'm not saying it's impossible, but that's why it would have been better to focus more on Faile's side of the story during the Shaido captivity. It's that character connective tissue that Jordan was skilled at and that was denied Faile strangely.

Faile and Perrin communicating? Sharing trauma? Faile compromising? Perrin accepting he's been running away from his issues? Is this a dream? More seriously, they grew a lot, even if it seems a bit sudden. The change isn't unwelcome.

Everyone is leaving Mat, including my man Juilin. Ironically, they feel safe in the Tower, but given that from Perrin to Rand the heroes are strangely tolerant of the Seanchan, I get it. 

So Mat does intend to convince Tuon to free the damane? Right? Right?!?

The gift to Joline was cute. He does care about them. It's awkward and his inner thoughts remain childishly sexist, but he did improve.

I wish Mat wasn't making so many fat jokes at Vanin's expense. I don't see the point. We already know he's callous and kind of a jerk.

Still not a fan of Mat's lack of empathy for women though: Thera is not a mouse, but someone who's been enslaved and traumatized. And Sul'dam are not like Rand: he never enslaved people and tortured them into obedience. I get the point he's making but the parallels only reinforce the fact he feels more empathy for the slave masters than their victims, which has been a recurring theme with the Seanchan.

Yes, I love Mat. Yes, I think this writing choice is callous.

Seanchan slavery is 100% slavery: the fact it is part of their culture doesn't make it less so. In Mat's culture, it should be abject and he's just uncomfortable with it? Does it reflect the North/South attitude toward slavery before its abolition in the US?

I talked too fast about the gift. He now goes back to pranks? That was something he did in book 1, ages ago. Why?

I am not sure about the way Sanderson writes Mat.

"And what about the people around you? Give you no thought to the danger you could cause them?’" - Birgitte is right to point out the flaws in Elayne's reasoning. I despise such dismissiveness of the people in danger for Elayne: it isn't kind or smart.

It's bugging me and bordering OOC for her: there's a difference between being protected by people willing to die for her and taking fool risks. The BA fiasco happened because there were risks that Elayne dismissed ON ACCOUNT of her invincibility.

Am I supposed to cheer for Elayne as she manipulates the Kin into accruing more power and tries to monetize channeling? Like Faile and feudalism, this is not a political improvement at all. What is going on with her?

"And they liked to pretend the entire world could be polished up and cleaned the same way, people defined and explained in one or two words." - they're white conservative Christians, what do you expect?

Strange purple walls in the wolf dream now?

At least Perrin is taking lessons from Hopper. It's been books since I've cared about him and it's genuinely disheartening. 

I don't care for battles unless they're written in a very specific literary way, but Ituralde being rained on by Draghkars is kind of a horrifically grotesque image that I appreciate.

So the Blight is overflowing with Trollocs and Ituralde is the only thing keeping them out? Tarmon Gai’don needs to come now!

"Berelain pursed perfect lips. Light, but the woman was beautiful!" - just kiss her and be done with it

"Faile could only guess how much juggling, political double-dealing and sheer cleverness that must have required." - make. out. with. her.

About the Faile/Berelain showdown: a) I love that Faile is smart enough to realize she cannot outsmart Berelain and that the solution will come from Berelain, b) I loathe that we are still in this silly sexist love triangle beneath both women, c) why do I feel like getting Faile to pretend to be her friend is exactly what Berelain wanted but she was waiting for any opening to work Faile, d) they should make out and start a ménage à trois with Perrin.

"Well, there’s this rumor that says you stepped into death’s domain to challenge him and demand answers to your questions" - I like the way Sanderson is using stories around Mat, there with the extremely detailed cover stories, here with the extravagant and sometimes horrifically exact rumors.

Awwww, Mat doesn't want to be embarrassed in front of Talmanes! Talmanes and Tuon are his special nobles.

I've missed Birgitte and Mat's friendship. They're genuinely so wholesome together and if the show doesn't give us this relationship, I'll riot.

Elayne could attack the Two Rivers, bargains to keep the dragons for herself, and hires the Band to use against Cairhien?!? Is she a belligerent ruler always looking to expand her land? This feels like A Turn in her character and not an organic one.

Nynaeve Aes Sedai testing! I wasn't expecting it to come this soon but hell yeah!

"'To show that I am worthy,’ Nynaeve said." - you tell them! Of course, she's already AS

The test itself is ridiculous and brutal but we already knew from NS. It's just even worse because no AS respects Nyn.

"But I would never be myself again if I abandoned him. The world changed when I married him." - Feeling ambivalent about this line. On one hand, a lovely line about her devotion to Lan. On the other, the context and phrasing give off an unfortunate "I don't need a career when I have a man" aftertaste to it.

"And yet, so many of us do it without families. Without love, without passion beyond our own particular interests. So even while we try to guide the world, we separate ourselves from it. We risk arrogance, Egwene. We always assume we know best, but risk making ourselves unable to fathom the people we claim to serve.’" - Partly excellent line that feels like the culmination of an arc for Nyn except we didn't really see said arc so it's underwhelming.

And again, the suggestion that Aes Sedai are cold, frigid women because they don't have family: they do?!? But Nyn is obviously thinking of a straight nuclear family here, not found families.

It's bizarre this is the argument used, with so many other things wrong with the AS.

"Do not press me. In the morning, I swear the Three Oaths. I’m free of them for one more night." - that was a rad threat and At Last Nynaeve has Lan's bond! It was a bit sudden and I thought Lan would be more involved in the process given what happened last time. I hope we get at least a conversation about it when they meet again.

Seonid is so cute with her report to Perrin. The AS are efficient civil servants when they have actual good leadership. 

I am both relieved and pained Morgase is learning just now about Rahvin. That's a cold way to realize one has been under compulsion.

Bawler has something up his sleeve, good or bad. I wish Perrin was more cautious around him.

Ituralde's chapters are genuinely demoralizing. He and his armies are merely cannon fodder to slow down the Trollocs. Neat indictment of war still.

Oh Morgase, that poor, poor woman. She never felt truly loved by Thom or Gareth, and Taringail was a manipulative jerk. The way Tallanvor talks to Morgase is a bit too insistent and self-pitying though. Give her a break.

I admit that knowing how much of a jerk Taringail was it's good to know Gawyn has a father figure in Gareth.

I loathe the way Sanderson writes Siuan. She lost all of her sharpness and power. I want to weep. She acts like mid-books Min toward Rand.

Gawyn exasperates me but I have to admit he is an interesting character in the way he knows and understands so little about what is happening around him. He is pursuing a grey man or something incredibly dangerous, not knowing what it is. He disobeys Egwene and destroys her plans. He's an idiot whose actions always amount to anything.

At last some Moiraine rescue planning!

"No trades, Thom, no bargains. We go in fighting and we don’t leave until we have her." - this made me emotional. Truly, why does he care so much and talks about her as a friend now?

Hell no, Birgitte died in the Tower of Ghenjei!?! 

"They can’t all end in victory. Gaidal and I don’t deal well with happy endings anyway. Better for us to burn out in glory" - this is some ominous foreshadowing for certain stories. Also, there is a real risk that Birgitte's cycle of rebirths has been broken by her being pulled into the real world. Loving this thread of memories fading or being injected into different characters' minds with death as a threshold.

Mat and Birgitte's friendship is genuinely the loveliest.

"They feed off what we feel. They like Aes Sedai in particular, for some reason. Perhaps those with the One Power taste like a strong ale." -I am going to be sick. What are they doing to Moiraine?

Meanwhile, Elayne is onto another chaotic plan without backup AND invoked Min's viewing? She's going to be captured again and people will die, am I wrong? 

Like clockwork. 

I don't even know what to say about what happened in the dungeon.

So, Elayne nearly died, lost the black sisters, nearly lost Mat's medallion and Mellar left with a partially working copy. Impulsive is an euphemism at this point.

Elayne deserves all of Birgitte's ire. Pretending to be a Forsaken is a skit, not a plan.

This is the chapter where Gawyn, Elayne, and Lan are competing for the most bullheaded.

Birgitte has a tough job: she's losing her memories of Gaidal (and possibly of childhood) and taking care of Elayne is harder than walking straight into Shayol Ghul.

I've face-palmed so much about Elayne that it circled back to admiration. I get it: she's the clown queen, the M. Hulot of the monarchs, the Jacques Clouseau of the rulers. Her buffoonish recklessness is so daring it has morphed into wisdom.

"Or was it some part of him? Was it possible that that was what caused him to become a wolfbrother in the first place?" - he's doing the math at last.

I mock him but it feels good to have a chapter that's purposeful with Perrin's arc. No tergiversation, minimal poetry. Just a character coming to a conclusion.

"Bandar Eban has suffered enough beneath the hands of outsiders. Today, she will not know the hand of a conqueror." - I am loving Rand coming to terms with the fact he's been acting like Napoleon for the past few books under the guise of stabilization.

I do wish he would realize that the Seanchan's orderly ruling comes from enslavement and slaughter of a minority. That's why fascism is attractive to some, with promises of empowerment and security for a selected few.

Not terribly fan of the overtly messianic slant of Rand using his ta'veren abilities to uncover unspoiled grain and rousing people as if they were unable to organize without him, but it is comforting to know he is inspiring people.

"Who was he to forbid those who wanted to fight?" - at least Perrin stopped patronizing women for learning to fight. 

I spent the entire time of the Galad-Perrin meeting wondering when Morgase would be uncovered: the reveal did not disappoint.

As fun as the reveal was, the Perrin-Galad standoff is nothing but stalling. The trial with Morgase undead as a judge feels like padding so that Perrin has something to do before the LB. And Morgase has no authority. It is silly.

Darlin is a smart, careful ruler, and I appreciate that. I do wish Egwene would not go behind Rand's back like that, but he isn't leaving her much of a choice.

"Aes Sedai would, unfortunately, be Aes Sedai." - this is why seeing Egwene handle them is so satisfying.

"They were busy reacting to things she’d done months ago." - Clever girl. She's Siuan's girl through and through, playing 4D chess when everyone is squabbling. 

Egwene deftly lets the Hall vote her in charge of the DR alone. She's so sharp.

"Traditions that hitherto have been used only for treachery, backbiting and division" - YES honestly between Egwene and Nynaeve, if the Aes Sedai cannot reinvent themselves, they're a lost cause.

Eggy set another trap for Mesaana. I live for that spy stuff.

Seeing Perrin in the wolf dream again reminds me that the fight with Slayer reads like something out of Dragon Ball Z.

Light, the Perrin and Ituralde plots are not doing it for me. So close to the LB, it's plot fluffing.

Berelain is defending Morgase because she's a real one and understands people underplaying the damage done by patriarchy.

The gag of Alliandre being attacked by her three knives, and Berelain by the dagger hidden inside her dress during the bubble of evil is perfect.

The Galad and Morgase conversation is interesting: on one hand, I appreciate Morgase's input about justice; on the other, it is written like Sunday school morality. Perrin did kill those men for killing wolves and for them, wolves are only animals. Good luck trying to explain to them, without sounding like a DF that wolves are sentient creatures. It’s still the law of retaliation.

"How often did Guardsmen get the honor of carrying their queen, anyway?" - oh yeah, Sanderson is fully taking the mickey out of Elayne. I think he's exaggerating her traits to make her seem too ridiculous, but that's just me.

"'The world just changed, Elayne,’ Birgitte said, shaking her head, long braid swinging slightly. ‘It just changed in a very large way. I have a terrible feeling that it’s only the beginning.’" - Birgitte lived through so many wars. Witnessing Elayne enter what's obviously a belligerent path as a ruler must be crushing.

Perrin facing a nightmare in the shape of the Dragon Reborn, telling himself it isn't real: not subtle, but potent.

Rand looking like a statue on top of Dragonmount is a sweet allusion to Rand seeing himself as a story now.

Wth happened with that Rand vision in the Wolf Dream? Was it a flashback to Veins of gold? A flash forward? Why has Tam gone? Can we get a Rand chapter? 

Mat threw away his medallion and ashandarei to save Talmanes?? It's love, I tell you.

The fight against the gholam? The battle cry in the old tongue for the fallen? The Kin's gateway for the gholam to fall through? Epic. 

"The white in her hair did not detract from her prettiness at all." - Mat never disappoints when it comes to appreciating older ladies.

I hope Ituralde still takes on the Seanchan after the LB because he's skilled at guerilla warfare and using him as cannon fodder here is a shame.

So Cads retrieved Alsalam! Love the irony of someone with her reputation saving a ruler for once.

The tragedy of all these battles is that the most important fight will be between the Dark One and Rand. The rest is a distraction. It's a necessary distraction to allow an after, but it's still a consequence of a lack of unity and planning beforehand.

Ahhhhhhh Siuan is back in action, meeting the Sea Folk, teaching tel'aran'rhiod, setting the trap for Mesaana... And she's gone just like that.

Why can't we have longer Egwene scenes and particularly longer scenes with Egwene and Siuan?

"I am a tool that the White Tower must use" - Curious how the EF5 integrated differently Moiraine's words from TEotW: "A tool is not demeaned by being used for its intended purpose" 

And by curious I mean she's profoundly haunting the narrative and still affecting the main characters.

"She’s so concerned with being strong, with being the Amyrlin, that she doesn’t have room for anyone who won’t bow to her every whim." - he is so allergic to having a girlfriend who has more authority than him, please grow up.

Gawyn proved useful by discovering the assassin is a Bloodknife and then immediately after turned incredibly petty toward Egwene. He's nothing if not consistent. 

I hope we see Bloodknives on-screen: they have the potential to look horrifying.

I was hoping Perrin would reveal his nature during the trial. With Mat's legendary reputation growing, it's gratifying to see the three boys being out in the open with their abilities. 

Curious about the trap being set around the camp.

Hearing Perrin talk about what it feels like to be in someone else's shoes: he too fails to step in the Whitecloaks' shoes when it comes to defending his killing. In the eye of the law, it's not an argument either.

Also, the whole TGH road trip with Moiraine where Perrin’s single-mindedness was particularly egregious.

Okay, the trial was fun. I liked the testimonials and they didn't go the easy route with the sentencing. And Morgase got to rule a last time, while Galad got to take on her mantle for a moment, rather than Elayne or Gawyn.

I doubt Galad will sentence Perrin to death though: a lot of characters (his siblings) have been telling us how hard or cruel he is and so far, aside from joining the Whitecloaks, he hasn't done anything as bad as Gawyn, on the contrary.

"'We’re not children, Mother,’ Siuan said dryly.

‘No, you’re Aes Sedai – nearly as bad at following directions.’" - I love them.

"'See to your safety tonight,’ Egwene said. ‘I would not lose you.’" - and Siuan's smile in return. Their relationship is everything.

"Holding Nynaeve back from attacking, that would have been the difficult task." - Nyn's grin at the prospect of blasting some Black Ajah had me hooting. Let Nyn kill people.

Egwene bloody al'Vere, schooling the Wise Ones and the Sea Folk, leading the Aes Sedai, uniting them all and helping the AS forced to teach SF in the same breath. Why in the world would she choose the Green with negotiating skills like hers is beyond me. HER MIND.

"The women you thought you would find are nothing more than a dream, Amys. Real life is often more disappointing than dreams, but at least when you find honor in the real world, you know you know it to be more than a fancy." - I love this so much. The "adults" are as much at risk of glorifying experience as the youths. And the Wise Ones especially who have positioned themselves as grownup AS are not immune to this bias. Accepting change applies to them too.

"I will not tie you in bands of steel. I’ll use lace instead." - her lucidity regarding what she is doing is so enjoyable to read. It echoes the profound sense of justice AS have that got twisted with time into empty reverence toward punishment.

Perrin is bringing the ter’angreal that disrupts Traveling to tel'aran'rhiod Tar Valon of all places while Egwene is fighting Mesaana in there? I am screaming. He's generally quite careful and this is such a risky move.

"I can’t leave her to do it alone, he thought. I have to help her. From within her shadow." -

Gawyn is a fool but he did give the singular best description of why I would want to be a Warder. It's about service and reverence, being a rock.

Perrin being more experienced than Egwene at ter'aran'rhiod, despite having far less training, and stopping balefire is utter bullcrap though. 

"It seemed she’d managed to become an Aes Sedai. That was good; she deserved it." - okay, I forgive Perrin for trapping everyone in tel'aran'rhiod. That was sweet.

As an Egwene fan, I hate she's been collared again, but as a parallel lover, I adore that she is caught by a Forsaken, given she controlled Moghedien for a time.

Egwene bloody al'Vere: unbreakable doesn't begin to cover it.

Egwene neutralized Mesaana, Perrin tricked Slayer and destroyed the dreamspike, Graendal has a Hail Mary. Light, these chapters are so exciting.

My greatest complaint is that we never saw Siuan and Nynaeve fighting. Let them obliterate BA!

Oh, and Gawyn is bonded to Egwene. If his change of heart concerning Egwene's rank keeps, I'm okay with it. He's a misguided and lost youth, which is why he pretty much enrolled in a militia, but he can redeem himself.

Better keep away from those rings though. More Chekhov's guns.

Tom Bombadil, excuse me, Nakomi, raises a good point about Aiel hardness and punishment as a way of life, but the Aiel are not only war and a hard life? It's a culture. People live in hard climates everywhere and their culture is built around. The loss of a culture would rather come from their displacement or an invasion, not from losing the original purpose of their nation? So yes, Aiel in the Wetlands risk losing part of their culture. But not those in the Waste.

Uh, they made a power-wrought weapon. I don't like this. I prefer Le Guin's approach to war.

The Galad-Berelain thing truly comes out of nowhere though. Good for them and I actually like Galad. This still wasn't well prepared.

The Perrin's come-to-Jesus moment regarding leadership took so long to arrive, it doesn't land for me the way it could have two books ago. Although AT LAST he's accepted his role and we can be done with this arc and go back to the Wolf Dream.

Did Berelain and Faile really think Perrin would attack the WC after going to such great lengths to avoid a fight!?? They're both smarter than this.

Hot take: the Trakand siblings are like that because they manage to have both mommy AND daddy issues. Galad is like that because he's just mommy's boy.

Bukama mention! I didn’t write about New Spring but I LOVED that book. I should re-read it.

"He’d been outmaneuvered. Curse Nynaeve. And bless her, too." - The thing is, Lan's commitment to death is so entrenched, has been for so long, that he has to be maneuvered around to be kept alive. If there was more time, he could get help and heal. That's why I am so invested in seeing onscreen Nyn grasping the depth of Lan's trauma and Moiraine's actions a little better after their marriage. Nyn obviously sees Moiraine’s view now, but I want more about the minutiae of their relationship.

To me, Lan's trauma was way over Nyn's head when she married him, although being Nyn she adapted quickly and came up with this alternative to keep him alive. Nyn coming to terms with the reality of her marriage with someone of Lan's baggage would be such a compelling arc for the show.

Hopefully, he'll start therapy after the Last Battle: he's been traumatized when he was a kid, a teenager and a young man, and 20 years of a long war alongside Moiraine, who's equally FINE, didn't leave him time beyond surviving. It's a process.

Lan is making progress: he sees reason and accepts to lead the Malkieri to battle at last. This book should have been called "Men accept their responsibilities."

Perrin got Galad pledging for him? I like that. It's a neat tie to his conflict with the WC. 

Sanderson is not that much better at romance honestly. The marriage between Morgase and Tallanvor felt rather rushed and insincere to me. She also deserves better.

Elayne sees her move for the Sun Throne as uniting nations rather than conquering: sure Jan. Light, I pity the Cairhienin.

Mat and Perrin's reunion is so moving: we got little of the EF5 as friends. They are still kids, no matter how burdened by responsibilities.

Elayne reuniting with Morgase and Galad was so cute and what a reward after everything they all went through. I am so happy. 

Does Morgase feel flatter? Same issue as with Siuan. Less sharp and more cardboard Morgase than actual Morgase.

I snickered at Dyelin's reaction: my gal was ready to strangle Morgase to stop Andor from toppling into another war of succession.

Aviendha remains so pure of heart. It's worrying that so much of Aiel culture is centered on Rand indeed.

Androl seems like a cool dude. If he is the way to flesh out the Asha'man, I am curious, even if I have doubts about introducing characters so late in the game.

Eh. I wanted to see the BT given more substance but this division is just rehashing the WT plot.

About the long-awaited Perrin and Elayne confrontation: at least the Two Rivers will get some autonomy from Andor? It feels like politics distracting from the Last Battle, even if it's well-done politicking. It should have happened sooner.

Each time I am reminded Tuon enjoys breaking damane I want to weep. And now they have Traveling. Fuck Beonin so hard. 

"The White Tower was doomed." - you wish. As long as Egwene is standing, she's gonna eat you.

Now Perrin knows about the Moiraine rescue mission. It's happening lads! SOON.

It’s easy to forget Moiraine was also present for the encounter with Noam, which caused Perrin so much trauma. They all have ties to Moiraine.

Wait, Avi is seeing the fall of the Aiel and the Seanchan victory over the Wetlands, the White Tower fallen, Cairhien burnt (again), the Seanchan using Elayne's weapons, the Aiel cast out and defenseless? WHAT. Avi's descendants broke the Dragon's peace and engaged in an all-out war with the Seanchan, and their endless war eventually broke the Aiel as people? What. Please tell me Avi will change the future. This is too bleak.

Wait, didn't Moiraine also see different futures in Rhuidean? And she said they were not certitudes, only possible paths? 

Also, did Rhuidean just stop working? Or are the columns not responding to Aviendha as a symbol for the decay to come?

Bribing the rich is better than killing the poor in an invasion, but it's still conquest, Elayne.

Glad to see the Cairhienin nobles are still as corrupted as everyone else. Nobles!

"Tell them that I was wrong. Tell them that we’re not weapons. We’re men." - I love Rand and I love that he is realizing this now, but Light, was the way Rand did (not) deal with the BT truly one of his greatest mistakes.

Rand Sedai! I love that!

The implication of the title, rather than Dragon Reborn, is so juicy: he chose the path, he passed the test, he took the vows.

Interesting that of all the people he credits for helping him be who he is Moiraine is here and Egwene is not. They’re going to clash hard.

The Borderlanders slapping Rand because of his imperialist approach to leading is understandable. He is saving the world, but to pretend the way he is doing it is the right one is ridiculous. Although much like wielding saidin, there was no map.

"But … well, she was proud of him. Grudgingly proud. A little." - Oh Cads, we know. You don't have to hide.

Now, it is extremely interesting that Rand sees the Borderlanders' prophecy as risky given all the other prophecies and viewings he HEAVILY relied on.

Elayne: I'm not a conqueror

Also Elayne: talks about Cairhien exactly like a conqueror.

Light, I genuinely dislike everything Elayne stands for politically. Rand at least has moved past the imperialism, Elayne's arc has been about embracing it. Please, tell me she grows out of it soon. Is her belligerence the Damodred "taint" Moiraine was so worried about?

Setalle and Mat are such a good duo. Mat's begrudging affection for AS is quite endearing.

Mat saying he doesn't like Aes Sedai because he doesn't like women telling him what to do is a) very Mat, b) frustrating, and c) very meta.

Pevara is completely trapped because Travelling is impossible and the Asha'man did something to Tarna, everything's fiiiiiiine.

I still really like Pevara too. She's the definition of a brave fool. Can she be played by Alex Kingston?

"Light, but he wished he could let them stay behind, on their farms, to live in peace while the storm raged elsewhere." - And now he's in Moiraine's shoes: there are causes that require EVERYONE to take responsibility in the world.

"’Her’ meant Moiraine. But what had the snakes and foxes done to her?" - DON'T SAY THAT I AM ALREADY DREADING/ANTICIPATING ZOMBIE!MOIRAINE

The Eelfinn world reminds me of the library's description in The Name of the Rose. So twisted and odd.

"The Aelfinn were for questions; the Eelfinn granted requests. But they twisted those requests, and took whatever price they wanted." - So Moiraine had already encountered the Aelfinn in Tear. I am taking notes.

MY GAL IS HERE SHE'S HERE AND ALIVE

And half-naked, of course.

What do you mean the show isn't a faithful adaptation? It already managed to get Moiraine naked twice in one season, which is an improvement on the 0 naked or walked-on while brushing her hair half-naked Moiraine we got in TEotW.

"Unapologetic, unyielding. And selfless." - I am crying. She is such a force of nature. I have missed her so much and she was gone for so long. I don't even care that she is a damsel in distress here. I am such a sucker for katabasis.

"Noal had tossed his torch aside and gotten out a drum to try to soothe the Aelfinn. That had not worked, and so Mat had turned to the exploding cylinders and nightflowers." - The image is frankly hilarious. When music doesn't work, explosives will do.

"‘If you ever meet a Malkieri,’ Noal said, ‘you tell him Jain Farstrider died clean.’" - Ah! I love this. Mat is surrounded by people of legends come back to life or raconteurs. And Moiraine was already a legend among the Aes Sedai.

I love Mat's thoughts on honor. It's a foolish notion but if it allows some people to live, let them have it. 

Also, do those chapters feel different than the rest of the Sanderson books? The writing reminds me of the Ways.

Seeing the way Egwene leads in comparison with Rand... If he just explained his plan about the Seals, the alliances wouldn't need to be this fraught on the eve of the Last Battle. I guess that's something he also picked up from Moiraine.

I was right, Taim is doing something to his detractors. Is it compulsion or something more sinister?

Oh, Mat remembers Moiraine as far more cold: he was a self-centered boy, he's just seeing her as a human being now.

You bet she's a bloody legend like Birgitte and Jaïn. Aes Sedai were convinced she was still alive and disguised as a Green in LoC.

Of course, Moiraine is depowered like Siuan, and Leane, and Morgase... I hate this.

Give it to Moiraine to recall her torture, voice completely even, unflappable mask on. I want to scream. Why is she like this?

"Sometimes I wished that they would drain me quickly and end my life." - I am in pain.

So she asked for the angreal as part of the deal with the Eelfinn. What were her other two requests? Could she ask to get out, to survive, to die? 

Oh, I am already losing it thinking about Rosamund Pike taking hold of this in the show.

"Light! She had known what she would have to go through, and yet she had still pulled Lanfear into that ter’angreal? Maybe Mat was not the hero here, and maybe Noal was not either." - several people can be heroes at once in different ways but yes, yes Moiraine is a bloody hero

"'Moiraine blinked in surprise. ‘You did what?’

‘It was an accident,’ Mat said lamely, hunching down.

‘You accidentally married the Seanchan Empress?’" - I want Moiraine catching up on everything she missed to be a running gag.

"'Ta’veren,’ Moiraine said.

Somehow, he had known she would say that. Light. Well, it was good to have her back. Mat was surprised at how strongly he felt that. Who would have thought it? Affection for an Aes Sedai, from him." - I have missed her so much. Also, Mat and Moiraine are now the unexpected begrudgingly fond relationship I was needing.

Is Moiraine in shock? Throwing away an angreal? Moiraine "not being able to channel is worse than death" Sedai? Asking Thom to marry her? The last time they met they had a rather aggressive battle of Daes Dae'mar? Is she okay?

"You think they can make one of those color-changing cloaks with some patches on it?" - I laughed. I honestly like Thom. The groundwork for a relationship, let alone a marriage, is just not there. Also, don't make decisions like this after months of torture.

Also, the reveal that Thom and Moiraine had feeling all along for each other - with very little build-up but tbh on par with Lanaeve in book 1 - would have MUCH more impact with Siuan in the show since there's a reason their relationship is secret.

"Moiraine would get her tea after all." - That's a cute closing line.

Honestly, Perrin meeting with Noam/Boundless and understanding his becoming a wolf was a choice is far better a resolution than anything on leadership we got for him.

So Verin was warning Mat about the gateway in Caemlyn in her letter. Cool cool cool

And Rand now knows Lanfear lives. I am looking forward to another confrontation with Rand more experienced and mature.

So, the prophecy of the shadow explicitly talks about Mat, Perrin, Rand and Noal but who the hell is "the First Among Vermin"? Padain Fain?

I vastly preferred TGS, but it still was fun. It definitely belongs to the lower half in my ranking, mostly because some plots feel like they’re here to give characters stuff to do before the Last Battle (the stand-off between Perrin and Galad). But it concluded Perrin’s arc and set up some interesting stuff for the Last Battle, mainly between Egwene and Rand.

The gender dynamics in terms of plot were rather disappointingly on the nose: the men fight incredible battles, described at length, the women meet to talk about scheming or have catastrophic fights where the men teach them how to do the stuff. It's not great, especially after the last book.

Rand was also conspicuously absent, and Mat, Nyn and Eggy stand out quite clearly again. The best part was hands down the Moiraine rescue mission: the urgency of the chase, the oddness of the Tower of Ghenjei, the thematic convergence of so many elements for Mat’s arc and finally, the glee at having my gal Moiraine back on the ring. I still can’t get over the fact that Mat, whose arc has been all about luck, tactics, stories, Finn and fleeing AS, ends up rescuing an AS from the Finn using his luck and wits with the help of two legends made flesh and a storyteller.

I do think it’s hilarious that we finally get to infer who killed Asmodean from a throwaway line by Myrdaal HR.

Onto the Last Battle!

#The wheel of time #wot book spoilers #wot first timer #towers of midnight #wot book review #wot book journey #remblai #and I am done with the notes #I can now start A Memory of Light!

[hailqiqi]

2019 Fic Round-Up

Writer buddies, let’s do this (as in, if you haven’t yet, do yours too!)

Stats:

(I’m going with a random quote from each one because I’m a fan of long summaries.)

Fics Posted (Gen): 3

A Little Taste of What Should Have Been

And that was how Pidge found herself kneeling sideways on the couch, face inches away from Lance’s shoulder as he disinfected first two sewing needles and then the earrings with a professional air.

Wriggle, Jiggle, Bake!

“Okay, so you’ve been magically de-aged — because apparently that’s a thing. Why is that a thing? Whatever. Of course it’s a thing out here."

Here

“Don’t make it weird, Lance,” she huffed, already tugging him into the room and closing the door behind them. “C’mon. I’ll help you wash all that off.”

Fics Posted (Plance Oneshots): 7

2 x 100 word drabbles

(Domestic Fantasy & Kabedon)

The Advantages of Being Small

“I couldn’t help it! It was just too tempting!”

Untangle to Wait, Unravel to See

Of course a fortune teller would appear as soon as he started talking about one. They were on a magical world with magical aliens and Lance was like, the hero of the story, so it made sense that events would be tied to his dialogue. Most importantly, it was not creepy at all, and anyone who said Lance was creeped out could go suck it.

the world is out there, my dear, but we're in here

Pidge froze. The reaction was so subtle that Lance would have missed it if he hadn't been watching for it -- she relaxed herself almost immediately, eyebrows raised in casual challenge -- but she'd reacted, all the same.

so it turns out I kinda missed you

Grumbling, Lance crossed his arms and sunk back into his seat. “I could’ve come to get her on my own, you know.” “Yeah, but then you wouldn’t be able to make out in the back seat on the way home.”

The Stars Aren't the Same for You and I

Dancing with Pidge was fun.

Fics Posted (Plance Chaptered): 2 (1.5?)

Skirting Katabasis

"So... Do you think you could put it back together?" Pidge tilted the tablet towards her and looked at him hard. His expression was hesitant, but his eyes were soft...almost pleading. She smirked. "Who do you think I am, Keith?”

The Future in Snippets (Chapters 3-5)

In truth, she had no idea what was fine. Her brain had switched off several heartbeats ago, but she couldn’t really find it in herself to care.

Fics Posted (Plance Collabs): 2

Smack, Kiss, Fall in Love (even chapters)

The prince doesn’t ignore the princess for the nerdy sidekick. Even if that sidekick was a badass fighter who’d saved his life countless times. Or a genius who constantly left his head spinning. Or totally into the same video games that defined Lance’s childhood, and the owner of a smile so blinding it made the stars look dim.

(shoutout to @sp4c3-0ddity​, my co-conspirator who made Pidge’s star so bright!)

It's Beginning to Look a Lot like A Christmas Carol  (Prologue & Chap 1)

“An intervention?” “Sure. Have you ever seen A Christmas Carol?” His mind freezes. “You mean the Dickens book?” “Uh…” Keith’s dad trails off, blinking. “No, the movie. With the little green man? I think they made a version with the grouchy duck, too.”

(shoutout to the awesome @rueitae​ and @sp4c3-0ddity​ who brought both the crack and the tears essential items for any Christmas party all we’re missing is the food fight and divorce)

Total Fics Posted: 14

Oooh wow. That’s more than one a month!

 Ship/Character Breakdown:

Ship Breakdown: Plance, with over 75%

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Character Breakdown: Pidge and Lance are in 100% of my fics. Hunk is next in 5 (with 1 POV!), then Keith and Allura both get 3 (both even get POV parts and Keith’s a major focus in Skirting Katabasis), then Shiro, Coran and Lance/Pidge’s families are more bit players.

I only just realized that the chapter in Smack, Kiss, Fall in Love is the only time I’ve really written Shiro. And now I’m horrified because Shiro was my first love.

Characters that had the Main Focus: 6 +1 Lance POV, 4+2 Pidge POV, 2 Switching POV fics and then the drabbles don’t count.  I actually started out the year tearing my hair out because I related to Pidge so much more, but now I really enjoy writing Lance. It’s actually a little tricky to get into Pidge’s headspace to work on my chaptereds sometimes.

Specifics

 Best/Worst Title?

Best Skirting Katabasis. C’mon. That’s like, literary (Katabasis being hell or destruction in Greek mythos). Worst Untangle to Wait, Unravel to See. I had help with it but this fic was just so hard to name.

Best/worst last line?

Best I tend to structure my chapters/one-shots around the last line so…this is hard.

"What took you so long? I've been waiting for you."

(Untangle to Wait, Unravel to See)

My personal favourite, though, is from so it turns out I kinda missed you:

Luis laughed. “Hi, Not-My-Girlfriend. I’m Not-His-Brother, Luis.”

Worst

Hunk just laughed. “You can’t fix that right now, so you might as well have some fun!”

(Wriggle, Jiggle, Bake!) So cheesey.

The last line that gives me personal arghs is from Here:

He buried his face in her sodden hair and cried.

...because a day after posting I realised that I should’ve written wept, dammit, and now it annoys me every time I see it.

Honourable mention to The Advantages of Being Small for winning the no-context award:

“Reckon I could fit three fingers up there?”

 General Questions

 Looking back, did you write more fics than you thought you would this year, less than you thought, or about what you predicted?

Way more than I thought!  I think I had planned out about 8? Of those I wrote two (zine fics), started but haven’t finished 2, and the other 4 are still pending.

What pairing/genre/fandom did you write that you would never have predicted last year?

None, my obsessions are long-lasting and constant.

What’s your favorite story this year? Not the most popular, but the one that makes you the happiest.

Skirting Katabasis or It’s Beginning to Look a Lot like A Christmas Carol. Though TBH I enjoy re-reading most of the stuff I posted in the last 6 months.

Okay, NOW your most popular story.

In every single metric on AO3 it’s The Future in Snippets. Y’all like your porn (even if there’s not much of it).

On tumblr it’s Wriggle, Jiggle, Bake! by like 100 notes.

Story most underappreciated by the universe?

If this is a roundabout way of saying ‘What’s your LEAST popular story?’ it’s The Advantages of Being Small, but TBH that’s a very short crack-ficlet so it doesn’t bother me (same with the drabbles).

If the question is “What fic do you think people should like MORE?” the answer is Skirting Katabasis. It’s fifth on the list for bookmarks and 9th for Kudos, and I’m not sure why?? Does it sound too gen? Do you not like Platonic Adventure Kidge? Honestly y’all are missing out it’s like the best thing I’ve ever written. Hands down.

Story that could have been better?

The Future in Snippets. Hands down. It was started on a whim, as a practice fic for another idea I’ve been nurturing for even longer, and back when I was newer at this writing thing. It wasn’t very tightly plotted – in fact the plot was expanded upon and changed multiple times before I settled on what I have now, several chapters in – and certain things that should have been seeded were left out of earlier chapters because I wasn’t experienced enough to figure out how to work them in and foolishly thought ‘oh, it won’t matter! Such a small detail!’, so now I’m scratching my head trying to figure out how to compensate.

I tend to work off very tight outlines, but Snippets was missing that for a large part of the process and I think it shows. I do think I’ve done a good job nailing the emotion in it, though, and that’s like 95% of the fic so as long as I keep that up it’ll all be fine.

Sexiest story?

The Future in Snippets is smut so… First place for SFW sexy goes to the world is out there, my dear, but we’re in here.

Saddest story?

I think The Stars Aren’t the Same for You and I wins because it’s a heartbreaking situation with no good resolution. There’s no comfort to be found there.

Most fun?

A Little Taste of What Should Have Been. It’s just…fun!

The most fun I had writing was Smack, Kiss, Fall in Love, because it was challenging, and I’d wake up every day excited to find out what had happened in the last chapter overnight.

Story with single sweetest moment?

The Future in Snippets (Chapter 4) 

“Um…” She turned the brush in her hands over again before holding it up sheepishly. “Do you remember how you said you’d braid my hair?”

Lance’s whole face lit up like a Christmas tree. “Really?!”

A giggle escaped her lips and she smiled, nodding. “Really.”

Hardest story to write?

The Future in Snippets. The emotions in this fic have become a convoluted mess and it is growing exponentially harder to write as I continue. I simply don’t have the level of skill required, but by God I will find it so that I can finish it properly.

Easiest/most fun story to write?

Skirting Katabasis!  The outline for this fic is tight, and I freaking love writing this fic. Like I just feel like smiling the whole process. I don’t know why. It feels like the wrong answer because it’s a fairly involved fic, but I just enjoy everything about it.

Did any stories shift your perceptions of the characters?

Smack, Kiss, Fall in Love actually gave me a much better understanding of Lance. Skirting Katabasis made me really look at Keith and realise that hey – the dude is actually very emotional, very chatty, and very soft (he’s so often typecast as the ‘moody loner’ because that’s what they call him in the show but he really doesn’t act like that).

Most overdue story?

Uh. The Future in Snippets was originally scheduled to be finished in January 2018, so… I also have a soulmate WIP which was meant to be for V-Day 2018.

Did you take any writing risks this year? What did you learn from them?

I started to play about with other POVs, and discovered that I can write other POVs? I also did two collabs!  The first one I discovered that Reem really is a sweetheart, and with the second I discovered that either I’m really bossy or really persuasive or both maybe I should go into politics.

I also did a couple of events and zines and exchanges. I discovered that piece-writing – like writing with a target/deadline/outside expectation – does not agree with me, and I will no longer sign up for events/zines/exchanges.

What are your fic writing goals for next year?

1.     Finish my WIPs.

2.     Write my Pidge Makes Bad Decisions fic!

3.     That’s about it really. Can you take over the world by writing fic? If so, that’s going on the list.

#fic round-up #writing stuff #this was fun to do #i had never noticed how little love katabasis gets #WHY DON'T YOU LOVE IT

[fantasticworldoffanfics]

CREDENCE/GRAVES

                                              ——— (part 1) ——–

Fandom: Fantastic Beast and Where They Come From

Just an extended must read list of awesome fanfics that is in no particular order :) ...

top favourites

Katabasis

Author: nerdygaycas

Summary: Graves is the god of the Undeworld and Credence is the boy he falls madly in love with.

Lots of Bad Ideas

Author: anonymous

Summary: Credence's entire family has been murdered, all because of a mistake his mother made, and now, he's out for revenge.Unfortunately, he's just a kid, and he's gonna need the help of his neighbor, a hit man, to get said revenge.

Let's Die a Little

Author: whileyoustillcan (L_M_Biggs)

Summary: “You’re going to have so many others like me coming for that scent, Credence.” He groaned softly, slipping the pad of his thumb into the boy’s slack mouth. Credence shivered, sucking gently on the digit out of pure instinct as he stared up at the man before him. “You smell... So ripe... Like a fresh peach.” The thumb gave a soft, shallow thrust into Credence’s mouth and the boy whimpered, his lips parting slightly so that the man could press down on his tongue and see inside his mouth, those dark eyes fixed on the sight as if mesmerized.Graves leaned forward, eyes shifting so that staring down at Credence’s own eyes. “A man’s got to look out for his business... And you’re my business now, sweet boy.”

Magnificent

Author: superagentwolf

Summary: Sometimes, it is easier to understand the world- and what lies beyond the physical- through another. Credence and Graves are very different, yet somehow, despite everything, they are transcendent. They are more together.

Spare the Child, Spoil the Lover

Author: archea2

Summary: "That hag said wrong. And I would never beat a child, Credence. No more than I’d take a child to my bed. This, my man –" Mr Graves sighed a little, but the smile had gone to his eyes, glistening like the dark sweet cherry in Madam Picquery’s cocktail glass, that always stood on her desk "– is called spanking, and the line between the two is as wide as the line between No-Maj and Maj."

Devil's is Comin' For Your Soul

Author: writingramblr

Summary: Credence is surprised to find a man staying in the Brewster's house, and he says he's a friend of the family's.He goes over hoping to find his friend but instead finds something entirely unexpected.

If Thou Must Love Me

Author: ClutchHedonist, writingramblr

Summary: “You brought on new staff?” Graves finally asks her as the dinner dishes are being cleared from the table. “Oh! Yes.” She reports, “Miss Wakefield, in the kitchen? She was married over the winter. Avery recommended Mrs. Blair in her place. Scamander, to care for the garden and the stables.” “There was a boy I saw earlier-” Her eyes flick up to him, and she watches him for a long moment, “…Oh?”

Boy Next Door

Author: writingramblr

Summary: Officer Graves has a late night visitor. Offering medical assistance goes awry.

Modern 24/7 BDSM AU Series

Author: ClutchHedonist

Part 1: Notes on a Lifestyle

Summary: Three times that Percival Graves doesn't speak to Credence Barebone, and one that he does.

Part 2: Anima Mea

Summary: He barely makes it through the Gloria before his eyes begin to linger on the man, his broad, square jaw and the hint of grey at his temples. His hands tighten instinctively on the missal.

Part 3: Lux(uria)

Summary:  Graves’s voice is low, gentle, “I don’t plan to tell her about any of this. Do you?” “She’ll know. She always knows.”

Part 4: In My Sky

Summary: But when it’s ugly, really ugly, it sneaks into the cracks of his consciousness, sharp migraines and tense, breathless sleep. It’s never pictures – Graves finds that he rarely dreams in outright scenes. It’s all tight sensations, strangled and voiceless. It jerks him, gasping, out of sleep until he can catch his breath. It’s ugly.

Lead Me Not

Author: writingramblr

Summary: Incubus Graves accidentally gets invited into Priest Credence's church late one dark and stormy night...

Don't Judge a Book By the Cover

Author: StrawberryLane

Summary: MACUSA has a staff that loves to gossip, if nothing else. So these rare visits from Graves' husband keeps the rumor mill churning for days on end afterward. The biggest, most stubborn rumor right now is that Graves' young man is a squib, because no one has ever seen him do magic.

Where It's Better

Author: writingramblr

Summary: Credence had made a mistake. Dealing with a sea warlock to escape a life of confinement to one half of the world had seemed like a good plan at first, until he’d felt his throat empty, seen his voice as it appeared alone, red and glowing, as it floated out his mouth and into a jar the warlock placed on a shelf. “Go on then, you’ll drown if you stay here too long. Ah-ah-ah, but don’t forget, you’ll only have three days, if you can’t find someone to give you true love’s kiss, you’ll grow a tail again, but you’ll belong to me.”

Deserving of Love

Author: writingramblr

Summary: Credence has noticed the handsome man who lives across the street before, but knows he shouldn't.After a year of living by the boy with the pretty face and constant bleeding from a new injury, Graves is decided he's done keeping his distance.

Craving Series

Author: kamikaze43v3r

Part 1: Hunger

Summary: The hunger is black; a void and consuming. It takes everything inside him and it’s killing him slowly. He wishes it would stop. But it doesn’t.

Part 2: Desire

Summary: Credence Barebone dreams of Mister Graves. He imagines nightly, how his saviour’s large, warm hands would feel over his body.Percival Graves fantasizes about Young Credence. A beautiful, innocent boy who stole his attention. He wants to mar that pure beauty and taint him with his touch.

Part 3: Madness

Summary: The boy is a beauty like no other.Percival does not want to approach him. He dares not, lest he sullies the boy's sublimity.He only dares to dream.

Part 4: Faith

Summary: “What is your wish, Credence?” Graves asks, soft and gentle like a lover’s embrace. The young man named Credence is fading fast, but he proves to be much stronger than his delicate features.“I want -” Credence’s voice hitches from a sob. His eyes gaze deep into Graves’. “I want to live.”Graves answers him with a smile, and the young man dies.

Part 5: Amity

Summary: In which Graves hires an escort.

Part 6: Allure

Summary: The pale boy is hunched and curled up in a dark corner, hidden by shadows. His hands are shaking, long spindly fingers wrapped around the bloodied kitchen knife. The knife reflects the light and one could mistake the whole visage as a shadowy creature with glistening fangs.He is terrifying, and he is beautiful.

Sweet Boy

Author: derekmorgan

Summary: Credence is getting off by grinding against a pillow. All is great, except it gets unmistakably greater when Mr. Graves stumbles upon the erotic scene.

Like a Sunrise

Author: writingramblr

Summary: “He can stay with me as long as he needs to. I’m his only relative now.”Uncle Percy had looked so angry that day, in a suit that was probably borrowed just for the court appearance, and with bags under his eyes. He was still the bravest and handsomest man Credence had ever seen. Like a prince in a fairy tale.

The Weeds Grow Up

Author: FeoplePeel

Summary: Missus Margaret Graves, we regret to inform you of the death of your brother, Mister Perciv Clippy, I know it’s been a long time but please come home. We need you here, more than ever. I miss Margaret, I have your brother’s wand and the personal effects of his office. Come pick them up at your leisure. Seraphina Picquery, Madam President, MACUSA P.S.-I’m terribly sorry, Maggie.

FBaWtFT Kink Meme and Prompts

Author: Udunie

Summary: This will be a collection of short kink meme (and random prompt) fills for Fantastic Beasts and Where to Find Them. Not gonna lie, it will mostly be Credence/Original!Graves :D

^sidenote: individual completed oneshots

The Only One Who Could Ever Reach Me

Author: hannanotmontana

Summary: Credence and Graves meet almost a year before Grindelwald takes over. This is how they meet, and how Graves learns the son of a preacher woman is much more than a boy beaten into submission. Credence learns the Graves, in a world full of magic, is the most wonderous thing he can ever find.

Fantastic Bond-Mates and Where to Find Them Series

Author: cheshirecat101

Part 1: Boys That Glitter Love The Dark

Summary: Percival Graves has been on the hunt for an Omega powerful enough to collapse every Alpha in a five mile radius when it goes into heat, and finally finds it in the form of Credence Barebone, an 18 year old Omega whose only protection comes from a supernatural allure and another Omega by the name of Newt Scamander. Rather than backing down and abandoning the immense power that Credence holds, Graves decides to bond with them both.After all, what's better than two for the price of one?

Part 2: Better A Bow (Than A Collar)

Summary: Newt and Credence surprise Graves with quite the Christmas present; both Omegas tied up like presents, all for the Alpha to unwrap as he pleases.Series

Part 3: Operation Stung By A Serpent

Summary: Newt has a thing for double penetration, Credence likes to hold hands during sex, and Graves just wants to get somebody pregnant.

Part 4: 5 Times Graves Dommed His Bondmates

Summary: Graves likes to thinks he has his Omegas under control. Well. At least most of the time.Series

French Maid Costume

Author: Shreiking_Beauty

Summary: Credence feels bad for not paying rent, so Mr. Graves says he can cook and clean for him instead. And he needs a uniform to clean in, doesn't he?

Like a House On Fire

Author: writingramblr

Summary: "There was no obvious sound whenever Mister Graves would appear at the end of the alleyway, but Credence would swear the air itself always crackled, and maybe time even stopped, as the man came from nothingness to walk right towards him, and every time, no matter how hard he tried, he always shrunk away."

Broad-Shouldered Beasts

Author: bygoneboy

Summary: In which Percival Graves receives a letter, and a proposal; in which Credence Barebone hears something he shouldn't, and comes to all the wrong conclusions.

Our Little Secret

Author: anonymous

Summary: Boy Scouts was just another way to pass the time, to avoid the belt, and Credence didn't even mind that the other kids hated him. But everything changed when the regular Scout Master got sick, and the replacement came in the form of a scowly dark haired man named Mister Graves.

This Thing of Darkness

Author: maggiedragon

Summary: Percival Graves knew he would have to pick up the pieces that Gellert Grindelwald had left of his life. He didn’t expect Credence Barebone to be one of those pieces.

If You Like Your Coffee Hot...

Author: thenightpainter

Summary: He’s there every day, always sitting by the window reading a newspaper. His hair always perfectly slicked back, the reading glasses sitting low on his nose fogging up as he brings the cup of coffee up to his lips.Credence has only been working at the coffee shop for a couple of month, ever since Tina had helped him find the job, but Mr. Graves had been there every day he had a shift, as early as the shop had opened.In other words: Graves is a regular at the coffee shop where Credence is working. Credence can't help but has a crush on him.

Resilience

Author: Bearslayer

Summary: Percival initially regretted the promise he had made to Tina to check up on the Barebone boy, but when information is revealed about Credence implying magical heritage, it pushes forward a series of events that change both of their lives forever.

Midnight Special

Author: writingramblr

Summary: Graves finally makes a move on the checkout counter boy who he's been eyeing for weeks.

The Real Story

Author: writingramblr

Summary: Somewhat famous screenwriter Graves has to watch over Credence for a bit of time between school semesters.

What Pitiful Things are We

Author: writingramblr

Summary: Credence needs to be given permission for things.Graves tries to take care of what his boy wants as best as possible.

Gratitude and Forgiveness

Author: TheHedgehogSong

Summary: Credence holds his body rigid, trying to stop shivering as the cold wind cuts through him. He keeps his eyes glued to the sidewalk holding out the leaflets to passersby. A momentary relief is granted when a man comes to stand in front of Credence blocking the wind, he holds out a leaflet without looking up and the man's gloved hand takes hold of the paper but the stranger doesn't move on. After a few moments Credence's eyes flick up to look at the man's face and Credence feels his heart kick in his chest, he quickly returns to looking at the ground and hopes that his cheeks are flushed enough from the cold that the blush spreading across the face isn't noticeable."Tell me, do you believe these leaflets?" The man asks, he has a stern voice to match his stern appearance – dressed in dark and formal clothes he holds himself tall emitting an air of authority.

The Beast Beneath the Skin

Author: morwrach

Summary: Hidden under Mr Graves’ smart shirtsleeves is an enchanted tattoo of the wampus: a talisman for strength and a reminder of Ilvermorny. It rages and pounces and prowls. Credence is fixated with it.

To Kindle a Glowing Spark

Author: morwrach

Summary: MACUSA runs on hot gossip, and the presence of Director Graves' rumoured lover in the Wand Permit Department is fuelling the fire.

Color Blind Alone

Author: writingramblr

Summary: Graves is an alcoholic workaholic who tends to distance himself from anyone the second they act like they might care. It doesn't mean he is incapable of caring, for the right sort of person.

Lucky Charm

Author: anonymous

Summary: Graves lives next to a boy with sad eyes and pink lips, and normally, he wouldn't even bother with a mere mortal, but after seeing that the boy's mother beats him, he decides to step in, and ensure it never happens again.

Conventionally Belongs to Yesterday

Author: StrawberryLane

Summary: As it is, Percival's partner of choice isn't Camilla Truewood, nor is it any other pureblooded witch, like his mother so desperately wants.His partner is not only a half blood with a no-maj upbringing, but also a man. Add to the facts that Credence Barebone is an obscurial and you've got yourself a tremendously uncomfortable Thanksgiving dinner.

Over the Edge

Author: writingramblr

Summary: Credence is kept at home safe while Mister Graves gets tries to focus at work.Luckily, there's more fun to be had when Mister Graves gets off the clock than usual.

A Wild One

Author: writingramblr

Summary: Something is stalking Credence in the jungle.It might not be as dangerous as he thinks... or is it?

Feel the City Breaking

Author: LucyBrown45

Summary: New York, 1977 is a troubled city. In this damaged and dangerous place, Percival Graves is a weary cop dealing with a lot of demons: an estranged wife, difficult friendships and most recently the arrival of Credence Barebone in his life.

Out of All the Clubs

Author: writingramblr

Summary: It was just supposed to be a simple one night stand...

What's Mine Is Mine

Author: myboybuildscoffins24

Summary: Graves is the most feared Mob Boss in New York and Credence is his lover.

Of Cats and Dogs

Author: theescapist99

Summary: The next few days went like so:

1. Percival would wake up, and sneeze about twenty times. 2. He would go to work, sneezing about twenty more times. 3. He would spend much of the day practicing what he was going to tell Credence how this was his house, and he absolutely, positively, could not have a dog there. 4. But then Percival would go home, and Credence would be in a great mood, smiling and -- good god, since when did the boy blush so much? 5. And Percival would lose all determination until at least the next morning. 6. Rinse, and repeat.

Seven Words

Author: writingramblr

Summary: Credence lives in fear of those seven words that can turn his world upside down.

Toying with the Faithful

Author: MischiefHowl

Summary: Credence is a church boy and the blood of the pure is always the best for a vampire that can smell his sadness. Thus the little game of faith begins.

Foreigner's God

Author: GreenJewel

Summary: Each year, Graves, Lord of the Underworld would visit Mount Olympus once to fulfill the promise he made with his brothers. However, since that Winter festival, Mount Olympus had one more interesting thing to keep him return. Credence is his name, who was taken by Grindelwald from the mortal world to serve him on the Olympus. It's a complicated relationship because whatever Credence had with Grindelwald, it was not what it seemed. Graves should have known better.

Birds of a Feather

Author: Emmel, intravenusann

Summary: “Years ago, I wouldn’t have ever thought that pigeons were magical,” Credence says.“No one’s supposed to think they’re magical,” Percival tells him. “It would completely defeat the purpose.”

Case39: The Orphan

Author: anonymous

Summary: Officer Graves takes in a young boy accused by his former adoptive mother of being the devil. The claims are ridiculous, but there is something that's a little, off, about the boy.

Something this Wonderful

Author: JokerzPrincezz

Summary: Percival Graves was turned into a vampire by his twin brother in the 17th century, and has spent the last 400 years waiting for his mate, the person to whom his white string leads, to be born. In 1996 Credence Barebone is born to a bonded couple. The day he is born, Percival sets out to find him. In the mean time, Credence's parents die, and he is thrust into the arms of Mary Lou Barebone. Nearly two decades later, Percival and Credence find each other, but neither is what the other expected. Percival is determined to save Credence from his abusive home life, and Credence? He just wanted to be normal.

Bare-Stript Heart

Author: alamorn

Summary: Six months after he's pulled from the hole Grindelwald stashed him in, Graves is doing his best to drink the nightmares away. At a No-Maj speakeasy, avoiding everyone he knows, he spots a beautiful young man.

Illecebrous

Author: kovu

Summary: Percival wants to throttle whatever idiotic vampire that thought it was a dandy idea to let a mere fledgling, who was hardly a few days turned, run amok. Unsupervised. On his territory, no less.

Suppression

Author: becameapasttime (mitslits), Corvin

Summary: Credence lusts after the idea of being penetrated. At first it's a directionless want, it creeps into his mind as he lays in bed at night. Men he's seen throughout the day, the broad ones with big hands and mature eyes, run through his mind as he tests himself with his fingers.But one day, he sees a man that stops him in his tracks.

A Soft Epilogue

Author: writingramblr

Summary: Graves' Incubi nature has lead him to death's door from his capture, but the recently rescued Obscurial Credence volunteers to save him, not quite knowing what that entails....

The Stray

Author: jeahtastic, pineapplebreads, writingramblr

Summary: Graves never had an affinity for animals, having spent the last two decades living in a city where the only wildlife consisted of pigeons and the occasional owl. And memo rats, if that counted. But to see a pitiful little creature like this get abused, well, it stirred up a protective instinct he didn’t know he had in him.In which Graves accidentally adopts a stray cat and wakes up to a boy in his bed instead.

Mine

Author: spunknbite

Summary: An old, favorite game, played between him and countless partners. Partners past were in on the game, knew it was game. This boy though - an oblivious little squib starved for praise, love, any sort of parental affection - this was decidedly real.

Not Broken Just Bent

Author: Miralana

Summary: His mother had always said that soulmates are something that only happen to those, who are cursed by a witch. Credence has known for years that the name on his skin is only there to pull him away from the light and into a life full of witchcraft and misery. But when he meets Mr Graves, it isn't at all like his mother told him. Instead, there is something odd about the connection between them. Something that doesn't feel right.

Eternity in a Heartbeat

Author: writingramblr

Summary: Credence is an anti-social werewolf who has a chance encounter with a vampire, late one summer night, but instead of simply killing him, and preventing loss of life in his current town of residence, he agrees to a parlay of sorts, in return for a favor.Graves is a vampire who's been living the quiet and good life for over two centuries, and he can't believe he let himself get lured into such an easy trap by a goddamn werewolf. However, the werewolf makes him an offer, he really can't afford to refuse.

Curious as a Cat

Author: writingramblr

Summary: Credence gets rescued by Mister Graves just as he's decided to run away from the Second Salemers.

Giggle Water

Author: spunknbite

Summary: “My dear Credence, I wouldn't have taken you for an affectionate drunk.” His voice is soft and when Credence opens his eyes to see if he’s angry, Mister Graves is smiling at him, amusement apparent on his face. Credence smiles and presses his face into the crook of Mister Graves’ neck, nudging.Or, Grindelwald plies Credence with wine in the hopes of learning more about the Obscurus.

And in His Hand, I Found Peace

Author: TeaSippinSpirit

Summary: Credence is cornered in an alley by a stranger, who has an unusual fever.

Angel on His Shoulder

Author: writingramblr

Summary: Credence has been a man of God nearly all his life, and nothing and no one could cause him to stumble.....Until a man in a perfectly tailored suit walked in, and turned his world upside down.~Graves isn't a religious man, but he could almost believe in a higher power when he meets the young priest with a face like an angel.....How is he to go about turning him away from the light?

Shooting Stars & Silver Moons

Author: writingramblr

Summary: Credence is used to seeing everyone around him in some form or manner of a relationship, but overall tends to shun that sort of thing himself...until one day, a handsome stranger enters the coffee shop and snags his attention.Percival has always thought himself too busy to allow for any sort of connection beyond a one night stand, but when he encounters a barista with more than an interest, he decides he can bend his rule...for him.

Centonis

Author: avidita

Summary: "centonis", Latin: made of old rags sewn togetherThat small fizzle of burning obscurus darkness that flit away as Newt glanced to the rubble, it escaped through the obliviating rain, and reformed into Credence - weakened, injured, amnesiac, furious and tired. At least Mr.Graves is with him.

Almost Missed You

Author: writingramblr

Summary: Percival Graves hears someone singing one night walking home, mere days after having caught and apprehended Grindelwald, and he decides to investigate.What he finds will change his life forever.

Warmth

Author: GrotesqueEnchantment

Summary: She warned them of the dangers of New York City in the night. Told them about monsters with sharp fangs and a thirst for blood.

The Silver and Golden Boys' Toy

Author: writingramblr

Summary: The Graves Brothers have been in competition since birth, but never like this.When Joshua takes Credence in after the Second Salemers are exposed for the cult they are, he finds his own brother flirting with his new foster son, and instead of trying to end it, he tries to one up him.

Burgundy Whirlpools

Author: butterymagicalprince

Summary: In which Credence is a vampire, and Newt offers to save him from himself.

^sidenote: this is Newt/Credence XD

The Reward of A Well-Spent Youth

Author: jeahtastic

Summary: Credence is rewarded by finally getting fucked by Mr. Graves' enormous cock.

The Holy Father Made His Mark

Author: writingramblr

Summary: Guardian Angel or not, Credence Barebone has a mysterious benefactor, and slowly begins to suspect the handsome stranger who watches him from across the street of being said gift giver.

Shadow Dreams (Against My Skin)

Author: oppisum

Summary: Percival isn’t blind. He knows how Credence feels towards him. He’s also aware how those feelings eat him from the inside, how every flash of happiness at Percival’s touch is followed by an even stronger expression of guilt.Percival shouldn’t be so obsessed with the boy. He knows better than this, he really does, and he has no intention of adding himself to the list of people who have abused Credence’s trust. Or, in which there’s a lot of rain, and Graves can’t let a sad, drenched Credence catch his death in the cold.

Necessary Precaution

Author: anonymous

Summary: Poor Veela Credence accidentally sets off an alarm in MACUSA. Obviously, this calls for a strip and cavity search in front of all the employees. Or something. With his Veela allure, no one can be bothered to thing straight.

The Darkness Within

Author: StrawberryLane

Summary: After close to a week in the hospital, he'd finally been able to return home, to his own place that he hadn't actually seen in close to two months, because Grindelwald had held him captive in a basement somewhere in Brooklyn – Graves doesn't quite know where, nor does he have any desire to find out. He hates that basement more than anything else in the world.The point is, he'd returned home after being forced to stay in the hospital for almost seven days, cautious of any nasty surprise Grindelwald might have left behind at his arrest.He really hadn't been expecting to be met by a dark haired, naked boy half his age lounging in his bed.

Teacher's Pet

Author: eatingcroutons

Summary: Credence is a 17-year-old student at Ilvermorny, and asks his favourite teacher for a favour. Unbeknownst to him, the Percival Graves he thinks he's talking to is Grindelwald in disguise. And Grindelwald doesn't hesitate to take advantage of the pretty, vulnerable opportunity that's fallen into his lap.

Of Plenty

Author: brittlelimbs

Summary: Credence is not unfamiliar with being the means. When Mr. Graves asks him, politely, on a Sunday afternoon, to help him with a project, he says: yes, sir.Or: Graves needs copious amounts of human semen for a potion and Credence is helpless to supply.

Horrible and Terrible and Good All At Once

Author: Mellow_Yellow

Summary: Graves was a lead Auror, and as such prided himself on his ability to stay calm in a crisis, to keep his head, to remain even-keeled and articulate no matter the situation. So no one was more surprised than he was when he opened his mouth and heard himself blurting out, “Excuse me, ma’am, but I would like to purchase your son.”Seemingly without hesitation, and before Mary Lou had the chance to respond, Credence burst forth with his own, “Yes, sir, you may have me.”Then they both fell silent, equally shocked at their words. Merlin’s balls. Somewhere upstate, Graves was sure his father had just burst into laughter and had no idea why.

What Grace I Have

Author: gothyringwald

Summary: An AU based on the 2002 film Secretary.Credence is a shy young man who gets a job as the secretary to Mr Graves, a demanding lawyer. Mr Graves finds Credence's willing obedience irresistible and the two begin to forge a relationship that is not strictly professional.

Two Man Share One Face

Author: writingramblr

Summary: Credence finds out the truth about his hero, and the truth is ugly, far more than his scars, and while his life might have improved when Mister Graves took him home, it also got worse, much worse.

^sidenote: you need an AO3 account

Flagrate

Author: case

Summary: At a branch of Ilvermorny devoted to squibs and delinquents, Credence goes into heat. Mr. Graves devises a punishment for him.

more fics: part 2

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If you're still taking questions (you don't have to if you don't feel like it!💕) but 1-10, 17, 19, and 28?💓

[Fanfic Writer Asks!]

OH my gosh this is like a bazillion!!! Thank you!  (But also what the hell XD)  Post-Edit: seriously though thanks for these, answering them made me realised a few things!

So this is long. CUT.

1. favorite fic you wrote this year

Um, I actually kinda like all my fics? Like I hope I’m not the only weirdo who re-reads her own fics for fun. (Sure on the reread I’ll notice things I could’ve done better but…it’s also really enjoyable? And I notice and feel proud of the things I’ve done well, too?)

I’m particularly proud of 

Skirting Katabasis

,

The Stars Aren’t the Same for You and I

(I was so nervous I’d screw up Allura but I think I did well) and

the world is out there, my dear, but we’re in here

(that atmosphere was so vivid in my head and I think I did a great job making that come alive on the page).

But I had far and away the most fun writing Smack, Kiss, Fall in Love with @sp4c3-0ddity (I used to wake up super excited to see what Reem had written, let my jaw hit the floor and then go OMG NOW WHAT DO I DO, then I’d get to giggle over whatever I wrote while waiting for her response) and planning out the It’s Beginning to Look Like A Christmas Carol crack collab with @sp4c3-0ddity and @rueitae (I remember spending about 2 hours on the floor of my sleeping kid’s room just laughing silently).

2. least favorite fic you wrote this year

I’m not very pleased with how this drabble I wrote turned out tbh.

3. favorite line/scene you wrote this year

I answered this here!

But if we’re fishing for another line, it’d be this part from a Plance WIP I’ve been struggling with.

The rest of him is trembling with anticipation, entranced by the thrill that’s running up his spine as he realises he’s never seen Pidge like this before. Every muscle tense, her dark eyes focused on him and only him, looking for all the world like a lioness about to pounce on her prey.

Lance swallows.

Pidge’s eyes drop to follow the movement, her tongue darting out to wet her lips before meeting his gaze again.

A breeze blows through the savannah, and the lioness pounces.

4. total number of words you wrote this year

Published? 85728 + 2 drabbles (200) + 3 articles (2,523) = 88,451! 

holy quiznak

Unpublished… Uh… (counts) 26,836. holy quiznak again.

5. most popular fic this year

Answered

here

! (TL;DR:

The Future in Snippets

)

6. least popular fic this year

On tumblr it’s

this little domestic fantasy place drabble

On AO3 it’s

Here

by Kudos and

The Advantages of Being Small

by Comment Threads.

7. longest completed fic you wrote this year

So I haven’t completed either of my chaptered fics, and that means it’s one shots or collabs…Oooh. It’d be

Smack, Kiss, Fall in Love

, since the total word count is 19,589 which means my part is over 9,000 words.

8. shortest completed fic you wrote this year

Not counting drabbles, yeah?

The Advantages of Being Small.

I was projecting with this one okay?

9. longest wip of the year

Far and away the soulmate AU I’ve been working on for the Valentine’s Day exchange, at over 13,000 words. Uh, yeah, that’s V-Day 2018 ;_;

10. shortest wip of the year

I answered this (with the WIP pasted in)

here

!

17. fics you’ll continue next year

Skirting Katabasis, The Future in Snippets

and

The Stars Aren’t the Same for You and I

19. any new fics to start next year

I answered this here!

28. longest fic you read this year

Ooh. There’s quite a few in the running for this.  Only counting fics written entirely in 2018…

I thought it was gonna be Six Times, Together which…honestly, i haven’t even finished because each chapter emotionally destroys me. It’s incredible. 80,173 words. read it. Gen, kinda whump-y.

But it is, in fact, A Beginner’s Guide to Mindreading (NSFW, bg pining Sheith) by someone who very quickly lodged themselves in my ‘very favourite authors’ list (despite me avoiding that fic for a while cause the title is mehhhh like i can talk tho) at 82,408. Plance, fantastic, if you’re mature enough go ahead cause it’s great.

#fic rec