#i guess I need a pet that's all

[murobrown]

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#it's Friday and I'm in my pyjamas since like 4 PM...what a life. #now my stomach decided to kill me so I just collapsed on the couch and then my brain started to be self destructive too and now I'm sad #feeling kinda lonely #i love isolating myself and solitude more than anything but sometimes I just want those small things #like someone who would take me for a walk like I'm a fucking dog #or watching movie not on my own #cooking or baking for someone #and I'm trying to get over it because I'll probably never get this stuff in my life #i miss being around my family because those are the only people i feel comfortable with #all friendships i have feel like chores or job interviews #i feel like I can't feel this connection with anyone anymore #i don't share same interests or opinions with my friends anymore #i don't have same life experiences as them #and it's still alright to see them from time to time but I just don't feel the need to be intimate with them #i mean intimate like vulnerable #and I don't fucking know how to make new friends when you're 25 and introverted and little ugly #and I don't even know if I want friends #i guess I need a pet that's all #no I think I just need less free time so that I don't have time to think those things #but you know what I'm still doing good like overall I'm happy with my life #i still feel so fucking grateful for everything i have right now compared what a mess it was just few months ago #not even speaking about one year ago #and two years ago doesn't even feel like me an my life anymore #it feels bad saying it but I'm proud of myself because I did this all by myself #I'm here doing good only because of myself #like I gave myself all this stuff i always wanted #I'm making myself happy for the first time in my life #for the first time in my life I don't fully hate myself... just a little :) sometimes #sometimes I can even feek sorry or forgive my past self but that's still work in progress #i don't know what am I saying anymore this is what happens when I'm with no chores or responsibilities for more than one hour

[hadesknockedupintheunderworld]

Read Fang the Hunter after catching up on idw Sonic and like

Wooo!! Return of Fang, his pursedog jester boytoy, and said boytoy's big buddy!

Also ajsjsjsn I'm this close to retitling this mini series "How to Lose One's Bitches: A Cautionary Tale as to Why Team Hooligan Isn’t a Modern Era Team"

#fang the sniper #fang the hunter #nack the weasel #team hooligan #bark the polar bear #bean the duck #bean the dynamite #beanack #beanbark #fangbean #fangbark #barknack #fangbeanbark #beanbarknack #idw sonic comics #sonic the hedgehog #fang the hunter issue 1 #fang the hunter issue 2 #i just be ramblin #absnnsjs yeah I still need to figure out better ship names #but like?? #The suggestive position? Bean using pet names on Fang? #Bean being like “the only reason we stick with you is because it's fun. you need us. get us a good job or we're gone' #All in all I suppose I kind of expected Bean to have more power in this group partnership than he seems (given how he acted in Archie Sonic #and how he got when Nack wouldn't give him attention) #But I guess it didn't fully hit me until Bean made it clear that he and Bark are the forever duo that only take Fang as their third as long #as Fang gives them attention and excitement #And 'big buddy'? #The big buddy effect is now the spiritual twin of the little buddy effect. Largely the same as the little buddy effect except the 'buddy' in #question is clearly the protector and the muscle

[sillysealfan]

so dash tag came back this month

#everyone in sparky's wiki comments are making fun of him for liking fidget spinners FUCK all of you he's safe with me #i get to use animal jam tags because it takes place in same universe probably im into the lore i KNOW THINGS shut it #ive never done any “rendered” art before it was scary but his head lightening bolt was AWFUL since i headcanon him as a #patterdale terrier x pug #i guess this also counts as a slight redesign because the original needed a little work i think #can anyone tell i wanted the style to be like littlest pet shop esque #special interest for almost 9 years she is in every breathe i take #animal jam #animal jam classic #animal jam art #ajpw art #aj art #aj #feral art #sparky #jamblr #my art #redesign #ajpw #dash tag #dash tag art #lps #littlest pet shop #lps art #furry art #furry fandom #furry

[kedreeva]

We had a wind storm this weekend and these two took offense to the wind making Sounds and injured themselves. Artemis (bottom) bruised one side of her face up, but she's acting fine otherwise so she'll probably be back to normal in a few days.

Stan, on the other hand, bruised his left eye socket and was acting Off with a capital O. He's normally not very active, his legs don't work all that great and he can't catch a deep breath because of his messed up ribs and stuff, but he was lethargic and not eating/drinking normally, so I swapped him into Joslin's appt slot today and took him in.

It wasn't my normal vet again, and I told her that Stan is a hot mess, and she felt him up and told me well his abdominal cavity sounds weird, I said yeah he's got messed up air sacs. She goes well, one of his legs is atrophied more than his other, and I said was it his right one because that's the one that was worse as a baby and doesn't work right, and she goes yeah it was the right one. She goes, it feels like his kidneys are too big, this could be a case of gout, we can xray to look for it. Now, I know it's not gout, but an xray will either enlighten her on the fact that I'm not joking about how messed up this bird is, or it will show her what's actually injured, or both.

So she does the xray and she calls me into the back room and she goes well. it's not gout. his kidneys are actually small and I was feeling his messed up air sac. there's a lot wrong here, but I'm looking at his last xray and there's a lot wrong there, and most of it is the same. he got a little better in some ways and a little worse in other ways, but the issue is that it looks like he jammed his hip joint and injured it a little, possibly from landing wrong.

you know. an injury. like from the ultimate panic of the Wind Making Sounds.

Anyway he got some antibiotics against infection and some pain meds and we'll give him a couple of tube feedings until he's not feeling crappy. For now he's asleep in my room on a roost.

#stan the peachick #artemis #peafowl #peacocks #peahens #birds #my pets #animal medical #it always cracks me up to take my birds to the vet #I delivered him to the xray room #set him down #and said if you need him to lie down just #you know #put your hands on his wings by his shoulders and tip him #he'll just let you tip him into lying down #and as I left I heard them doing so #and a quiet 'I wish all birds were like this' #this vet is being trained by my vet I think #I miss my vet she was almost always right #this one is 0 for 2 on her guesses vs mine so far #I adore the techs though #the one came to get a photo of stan for his son and #I said find me a clipper and I'll give you a feather tip for him #and gave him one of Stan's baby eyes

[electoons]

guys this "keeping myself busy with distractions so I don't get sad" thing isn't working

#my mom is basically scrubbing the house of all traces of her bc thats how she copes. thats what she did when dad died #like two days later she was cleaning out all his medical equipment and stuff #i guess thats a way of dealing with it :( just doesnt really work for me because it makes me feel their absence even harder #like for me i personally wanted to keep Dad's stuff around for a while because. idk i guess it just felt like he was still kind of there #in a way. i guess. i dunno #obviously losing a pet is easier to deal with than losing a parent but it still blows dude i hate this #(* a parent that you had a good relationship with. i know that im very fortunate in that regard. not everyone had that and i need to count #my blessings) #idk this feels harder than losing my childhood dog because jojo was basically my constant companion for the past several years #after dad died i got suicidally depressed and didnt leave the house and was unemployed for a good chunk of time and she kept me company #taking her for walks and hikes was the only thing i enjoyed doing and the only thing that got me out of the house. she was always there #(also there's probably some psychological component to the fact that we adopted her specifically to be a companion for dad #when he was wheelchair-bound and couldnt go anywhere. so she kept him company. and then after he died she did the same for me #so. idk. like.... i feel like theres something there lol) #mia.txt #animal death

[mermaidsirennikita]

reading Thea Harrison's Dragon Bound and

a) the first true contemporary urban fantasy PNR that has REEEEEALLY gotten me to sit up and listen since IAD

b) have realized that I have a weird thing for the "big scary monster man provides food for his less scary captive and watches her eat" thing, and I didn't actually get that it was a thing until now

#romance novel blogging #like the heroine of this book is a vegetarian which the dragon shifter guy finds DISGUSTING #but he just gave her elf bread or whatever and is sitting there like O_O as she eats #she's not even eating erotically i think it just makes him happy like when you pet a cat while it eats #and one of my favorite minor scenes in lothaire is when he watches ellie eat waffles #and is like well guess WHAT i can ALSO eat WAFFLES #and then almost vomits trying to choke down the waffles #we need more of this #(is this all just a pet play thing. is that what this is.)

[luvsavos]

i am once again apologizing for my lack of activity/responsiveness

my childhood cat passed away a few days ago which has just been more stuff on top of everything else for me to deal with to stress me out and upset me

i'll try to get back to stuff. Eventually. as soon as i can</3

#mar.txt #still very much upset about losing him，but it's kind of faded for numbness now #still not holding up great though especially considering how sudden it was #he was all fine and healthy and then just suddenly started to rapidly go downhill and within like. two days he was gone #he was so weak. couldn't move almost at all，his meows were barely just meow-sounding exhales. the last two things he did were #getting my attention so i would come to him，then attempted to crawl onto my lap and despite me being less than a foot away he couldn't make #it. so i brought him onto my bed on my lap with me. and then at some point later after another sudden onset of diarrhea (which seemed to #take absolutely all of his remaining strength) and i'd brought him back to my bed after cleaning the poop off of him he got my attention to #move his head so he could look up at me. and that's how he passed. looking up at me. #despite everything，he was purring. so weak and faint i could hardly feel it，but. he was purring，maybe until the moment he finally passed. #he was obviously suffering. and we couldn't afford to get someone to put him down so we just did what we could for him. #i'm glad that，at least，he was happy in his final moments. he wanted to be with me and i'm glad i could give him that. i HAD needed to go out #that day but i opted to stay home because i was worried he'd pass while i was gone. sure enough if i had gone out he would have. #i'm glad i could give him the comfort and company he wanted in his final moments. i'm glad i made him happy enough in them to purr even #despite how weak he was. i'm glad he didn't pass alone and possibly in pain. #ive lost a lot of pets in my life. but amos? he's only like. three years younger than me? we practically grew up together. ive known him his #entire life. no amount of being told it hurts to lose a childhood pet will ever compare to the reality of it happening. #i buried him outside my window. so he's close to home. #vent post? i guess?

[nyxronomicon]

Haven't stopped thinking about a threesome w Choso and Yuki for like a week...

#like Yuki is telling Choso how to breed me while I'm eating her out #and she's praising me for being such a cute and obedient pet. letting him use me like a toy while I'm focusing on her #idk. for some reason I'm embarrassed?? embarrassed to want a man there at all i guess lol #i just. need to be dommed by Yuki #and i need Choso to be there. i can't explain further

[prototypelq]

....while I haven't played the ubisoft avatar game myself, or more accurately, I have obsessively played the x360 one, I doubt it could be better than the Ancient Forest of Monster Hunter World.

I have. Never seen a jungle location be this layered, vertical and complex, while also remaining extremely readable. Like, there'a and easy route around the map and insides of a giant tree in the center of it, to act as a crossing or shortcut. However, the actual map is... so much more detailed than just this.

There are vine swing-jumping sections which open up new pathways for you, there are less noticeable vines to climb, which reveal new arboreal pathways ahead. There is an entire 'jungle-catwalk' section right near the dragon nest at the top of the giant tree. You cannot navigate these additional paths with map, it is much more simple and natural just to remember them and trust your memory on this.

It's just I have spawned in a rainy weather for the first time, and started exploring these vines, and this has been THE Avatar experience. Honestly no other game has ever made a more natural and interesting forest to explore than this one.

I genuinely did not anticipate this level of detail, beauty and meticulous attention to everything from a game about exterminating dinodragons. I picked it up for the Monster Hunter part of it the title, but let me tell you the World part is the actual gem of the game for me, I am in love with this.

#the joy i felt when getting through the jungle vine-swinging and exploring all while it was raining is hard to properly convey #i am super glad this is the time i stumbled into this game cause i needed exactly that #weapon upgrade tree is still stupid tho #but yeah otherwise im loving this game very very much #i want to spend an entire day petting jagras i love them #pukei the trashchild i despise and love hunting you #also that one riverbed near barroth with the flowers? i want to spend my vacation there it is so peaceful and gorgeous #thankfully the mudmonsters didn't trample the flowers #i succesfully stole a dragon egg yay i have no idea why i did it #this is very much a conquistador simulator you get to enjoy the unconwuered lands while simultaneously extracting them dry and bringing #extinction to everything living in there thankfully this is a game and it is fun but sometimes it still rubs me wrong #well learn the real monsters were humans all along #(ive heard that the lore suggests the mh organisations are actually very aware of ecological repercussions however this is not felt in game #monster hunter world #mh world #mhw #btw my cat squire is very stupid he always turns away from the camera literally always #guess thats what i get for naming him rootbeer i still love my little gremlin son he helps out a lot #unrelated - I would rather uninstall then game than ever change that skull helmet #i do really dislike that some elemental damage requires iron weapons because of that #i dont mind iron weapons but cmon insect glaive has my buddy on it he would be much more comfortable on a bone handle

[kissporsche]

I may physically be at work but spiritually I am playing every vegaspete scene on repeat in my head

#kp orig #kinnporsche #vegaspete #unless you want to share- ​looking for something?- so we’ll see each other in the next life- oh you got a tattoo?- I give up vegas- #when you suffer you’re so much more interesting- who’s a good boy- I’m not choosing I’m just not eating- hurt you so you remember- #you’re no fun- get up and laugh at me- you think it’s poison- why do you have to compete- they don’t beat us because we suck- nosy- #went out to buy it I guess- you’re in need of love- #everything I love leaves- if you’re sad it means it was important- but you like it- let it out- #do you know how sexy you are- you’re a fool- I’m a human I have feelings- let’s start all over again just you and me- #shoot me I don’t think you can and you know why- #could it be you who kills me what the hell does that mean I love you Pete #I can’t keep betraying my feelings like this- why did you follow me Pete- because I’m hungry #I’m your pet aren’t I- won’t you turn around to see me- #I don’t want to be your burden I just want to follow my heart

[spearxwind]

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#sorry cringe post #i have to find out whether this guy has washboard abs or not asap bc if he does ill be taking the piss. taking home a double L #but other than that OH NO HES MEETING ALL MY STANDARDS #me; yeah i hate it when people mistreat their fish bc they dont look up their requirements #him; people killing their pet fish from negligence makes me so mad #me; i think i need to marry you #(i didnt actually say that) #on the other hand hes someone who loves loves going out a lot and im more of a chill person and im a little houhhhg about that bc its like. #damn what if im too boring 😔😔😔😔 #do you think love can bloom on the battlefield meme but instead its #do you think love can bloom between a party monster extrovert and a weird little artist freak (me) #i guess we'll find out

[so-very-small]

hey so, really sorry but. another mini hiatus (pet death tw for this post)

my other pet rat Agent Smith passed tonight. his brother passed three weeks ago, and he wasn’t really the same since. they’re together now, though

there’s also. a lot of other stuff going on. i’m not in the best place, so i’m gonna hole up and focus on myself for a bit. take care y’all, see y’all soon

#turns out a chronic health flare + being evicted + two pets passing within 3 weeks is. not good for ur mental health #and im. always so so positive. so Im Gonna Make It Thru This !! type beat #i just want a few days where i allow myself to be miserable and sad and awful #anyways. i will survive this but i just. need to collapse a little first #and like. lately coming on here has just been stressing me further a lil #i just need a break all around i guess #i will be back tho. hopefully soon #pet death tw

[clits-and-clips]

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#txt #tw #dont read this and i may delete but i just need to say it #i do think about dying a lot #like i dont want to be here lol #people suck big time #everyone here is so nice and lovely and supportive #but you arent physically near me and i guess thats what i need #idk #and i cant just message randoms with all my personal shit all the time #unless i can? idk #the main reason i wont kms is cause my dad wouldnt be able to handle it hes lost too much #i think hed prolly follow suit #and i cant have that #plus other things like my pets etc #but what is the fucking point lol #i know eventually ill move on etc #but the world sucks man #it sucks #i have a good life but my brain sucks and i ruin everything and no one sticks around and i am just a fucked up friend and partner and i dont #see myself getting better #if i told my psych i think about this id get sent off and i think that would make me worse #i just want the future back that i thought i was going to have #that was ripped away from me without warning #no conversation #nothing #and he gets mad at me when i bring that up?????? #yeah its so fair you kicked me out etc but im the bad guy for airing my feelings #fuck everyone tbh haha #im just done

[lyrikmumare]

"message for scorpios for what to expect for THIS SOLSTICE 😆😆" do you want to trigger my ocd so fucking badly i don't take any potential advice you're going to give me bc you're scaring me more. fucking hate future-telling astrology and divination and witchcraft pls just leave me the fuck alone

#clyde.txt #they always say the same thing too like MAKE SURE TO START GETTING A MOVE ON ALL THOSE MAJOR LIFE PLANS YOU'VE BEEN COOKING UP 😋😝 #LIKE I KNOOOOOW BUT YOU'RE PUTTING ME IN FREEZE MODE A BIT AGAINCAUSE YOU'RE SCARING ME‼‼ I HAVE OCD AND YOU'RE SCARING ME‼‼ NOT HELPING #astrology is fun insofar as guessing and assigning fictional character's signs but good lord this is just evil and not helpful to me at all #literally don't tell me what to do or make me feel like if i don't do anything i'll die and live an unhappy life forever and have bad #things happen to me BC THAT'S HOW YOU'RE MAKING ME FEEL‼‼ YOU'RE MAKING ME FEEL LIKE I AM GOING TO HAVE TO KMS EVEN IF I DON'T WANT TO #IDK WANT TO HAVE TO FUCKING. LIKE MANIFEST OR CHEAT THE LIFE SYSTEM yes i'm well aware i'm responsible for my own success and happiness #and i do indeed plan to do something about that hopefully sooner rather than later but also like.... i already worry enough i'll never be #happy and will just have no option other than to kms like.... like? shut up. i eat good food and pet my cats and hang out and talk to my #friends i don't need to be on the fucking grindset. but fine i'll call the stupid healthcare provider tomorrow. MAYBE #if u want me to realize my potential than how about we stop having a world and society that isn't hell 🤔🤨 how abt i don't feel valid in #feeling scared to leave the house...? 🤨🤨🤨🤨 #the problem is i feel justified with the way i feel abt the world so strongly that idk what's gonna happen that's gonna prove me wrong #and then i can't cope with it either .... which is why i need Mental Help. or epic money

[piplupod]

oh wait this is literally just... the majority is Right and True and anyone who deviates from it is Wrong and Unwell. okay. okay. i've experienced this and observed this many times before but this one in particular blindsided me a little because I often forget how much people hate insects because the subject does not come up very often in my physical life

#i do not bring up the fact that i have isopods as pets bc it gets upsetting to hear ppl rant abt how they squish all bugs they see #okay. well. that is my beloved pet actually. who has stopped me from killing myself countless times. so uhm. thanks for that i guess. #i just live in a basement where i come across centipedes and beetles and spiders and earwigs #and i deal with them. catch and release as often as i can #and my mother scoffs at me but she is one person. she is not representative of The Majority of Society #as i often have to remind myself! #my sister is good about it and my dad is good about it so it balances out my mother irt to this specifically #so i forget that like... moooost people are the same as my mother. would laugh at me for doing catch-and-release w insects #would be disturbed or amused by me verbally apologizing to a bug when i have to kill it #anyways this is making it make sense in my head so at least thats smth i guess. it is just another instance of this whole thing #i think i didnt even consider this bc it doesnt feel that serious in my brain. its not like a diagnosis or Obvious Symptom or smth. #but then it makes the counselor laugh at me and tell me that i have to go against my values essentially so . it suddenly Becomes serious #pippen needs 2nd breakfast

[freaky-flawless]

Seeing the negativity towards the new Pretty 'N Punk Sasha doll is making me really sad.

#bratz #not mh #saw someone on insta insinuate that her hair needed to be straight for her to be ''punk'' which like okay sure that doesn't hurt at all #and overall people were just saying she wasn't really punk enough #and idk...im not super familiar with punk fashion so i cant say #her look is still alt #i guess i see it more as her mixing punk in with her urban fashion #her purple jacket was a big point of contention as if jade doesn't have a pink jacket lol #ughhh i need to stay outta instagram comment sections #anyway will def be getting her and jade #it is a bummer they dropped dylan and cameron i do really like that dylan doll #oh and the pets were dropped too