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yea!! not to spoil too much but it focuses on her grieving and finding friendship in dove who shes only just really met as it takes place after tigerhearts se and fills the gap before tbc begins, its sweet sometimes the novellas really hit sometimes they dont i have a friend who skips them completely and i dont get it they add so much NIGHTSTAR MY BELOVED </3 i first read about him in yellowfangs se and thought damn i wish i could read more about him and then his manga came out and i was so happy lol, hoping we get cannon merch of him someday i love how hes written, gonna make a note to make fanart of him aha, unfortunate how he was treated but it feels like it shapes who he is i suppose ohh that makes so much more sense now i thought i was just loosing touch with the fandom and not being able to keep up with names, i was never rly good at it. 💀 i was talking about that with a friend recently too tpb used to repeat backstory about characters so much that it became frustrating but the newer books cut back on it and now when they introduce a character you have to really sit and remember it because they arent explaining it EVER again yaaa!!! u get it lol i started reading other YA series i never read as a kid and thought id reread wcs with a friend for the hell of it (and cause i had so many of the books i never got to) and it was great but as soon as i got to new stuff id never read before it kinda lost its charm and i took a break, sometimes you just arent feeling it, tho the longer you wait the more there is to read when you come back to it who knows maybe holly will be back from the dead again or we will get a jay, holly or lion se, were getting an ivy one after all and theres holly and jay content in the bonus scene for tbc 1

that sounds so sweet ToT SOMEDAY ILL FIND THE TIME TO READ AND REREAD THESE NOVELLAS ive forgotten most of them LMFAO. i think the ones i remember most are hollyleaf's, leafpool's, goosefeather's and dovewings which is.. wow. i def dont have a preference

and yes ur def right that the way nightstar was treated added to how he is generally perceived and his character, it kinda reminds me of mudclaw too! (whos manga i have also still Yet to read rip) i feel bad for them both but their unfortunate circumstances are what makes them such interesting characters T-T

i feel like we are old men yelling at the clouds but in a GOOD WAY HAHAHAHA im glad that despite it, we are talking about the series either way so i guess that means we still feel quite passionate about it, whether in positive or negative manner lmaooo

i think whats stopping me from continuing in reading the new books is that i want to reread it from the very start first, so i am very much stuck in my own way khkjahkljf tbh though whenever i see snippets of the new books in socials i actually find them very interesting! but i def also had moments where i just grew tired and felt like getting away from it all. i am praying so fucking hard for more og po3 content i miss them SO damn MUCH WAHHHHHH

speaking of the bonus scenes, a few weeks back i found out i completely forgot they happened! MORE SPECIFICALLY W HOLLYLEAF, WHAT. I THOUGHT IT WAS JUST W JAYFEATHER AND HIM GRIEVING FOR LEAFPOOL. YOURE TELLING ME THERE WAS HOLLY CONTENT TOO??? what the fuck is my brain doing forgetting this information what the hell im such a fake fan TTTTTTOTTTTT

#ask #LITERALLY like i was watching videos about jayfeather and found out there were scenes about him dealing w the grief leftover from leafpools #passing and i was like WHAT. this happened in tbc bonus scenes???? WHAT WHEN.#and then i look through my old posts and there is literally one about me talking about it briefly #i just. completely forgot....#and the funniest thing about it is the fact that my initial reaction to finding out about the bonus chapter (again) was me being sad that #lion doesnt get to even be included in that.. and going back to the old post where i read it.... i have the same exact complaint LOL KILL M #I AM NEVER CHANGING I AM STUCK HERE FOREVER

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creacherkeeper · 3 years

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writer ask game- tagged by @loved-the-stars-too-fondly !! thank you!!!

What’s your all-time favourite ship?

horrible question to start out with for me cause i dont think i really have one???? i tend to not be as ship-focused as many people in fandom, and also unfortunately am the type of person to get REALLY into things and then many times my feelings dont stay super strong over time. so some Honorary Mentions are shules from psych cause thats probably my oldest remaining ship, ineffable husbands from good omens cause that was my first gay ship, and clintasha from marvel because thats the oldest ship i still have waves of strong feelings about

How many works do you have on AO3?

95, 8 of those being more than 1 chapter/a collection. i also deleted a good handful of fics from older fandoms when i rejoined ao3 in 2015 (i was an early adopter but then left for a while), as well as having a decent amount of fics on ff.net and a fandom specific site from Back In The Day

What’s your total AO3 word count?

just with the fics on there now, 348k. total fics i've written across sites/before deleting was probably closer to 400k. if we're including original fiction / fully rewritten drafts of the same books, i'm definitely over a million

What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

hello my old heart (3209 - she ra, touched starved catra 1)

wherever is your heart (1700 - she ra, touched starved catra 2)

you or your memory (1262 - she ra, catradora ptsd exploration)

the memories and scars (1115 - fullmetal alchemist, parental royai and elric brothers fluff)

time take us (773 - she ra, adora chronic pain au)

also shoutout to this untitled good omens ficlet that got 17.5k on tumblr but did not do nearly as well in the ao3 collection lmao

Do you reply to comments, why or why not?

yes, i always do!!! idk it makes me happy to acknowledge the kind things people say ;; and frequently they say stuff in their comments that i want to scream back about or give explanations/behind the scenes for. also i've made friends this way!!!

What’s the fic you’ve written with the angstiest ending?

im not super a person to leave off with angsty endings, so in recent memory probably this catra cuts her hair fic that takes place after save the cat. or maybe this fic that is almost entirely claudia thedragonprince whump cause i was really Going TF Through It at the time and had to take it out on someone

What’s the fic you’ve written with the happiest ending?

i tend to go hurt/comfort or bittersweet a lot, but probably the like. just absolute Happiest is heartlines on your hand which was the last in the touch starved catra series and was just. the sappiest sap to ever sap

Do you write crossovers?

the only crossover i've ever done was an agents of shield/air bud crack fic that we DONT talk about. i got fucking bullied into doing it okay

Have you ever received hate on a fic?

not that much honestly? i got a few kind of mean comments on the touch starved catra #1 but also like. that fic got so popular there were bound to be a few. nothing else to my memory?? if there were a few on older stuff i probably just dont remember it at this point lmao

Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

i really dont lmao. besides not writing a ton of shippy stuff in general, i dont tend to write anything too Spicy. probably the closest i ever got was one short scene in this ineffable husbands 5 + 1 kissing fic that did not do as well as i thought it deserved tbh hahahaha

Have you ever had a fic stolen?

not that i know of????? yall would tell me right lol

Have you ever had a fic translated?

i wrote a little ficlet about elena aos celebrating a colombian holiday with the team and a colombian friend translated it for their family! but i believe that is it. that ficlet isnt even on ao3 i tried to find it but was unable to. i dont believe anything has been translated for public consumption

Have you ever co-written a fic before?

i don't think so? but i have gotten fanfic for my aos adoption au series!

What’s a WIP that you want to finish but don’t think you ever will?

i pretty much write things in one sitting or not at all lmao. i dont tend to take on a lot of series and stick to one shots as well. unless its over 8k i probably wrote it in one day. even the ones longer than that usually took less than a week from start to publication (for example, paladin!aelwyn fic is 15k and took 4 days of actual writing over less than a week to write, edit, and publish)

What are your writing strengths?

i feel like im best at dialogue and tend to get a lot of compliments on in-character voices. dialogue is my favorite to write lmao. i also think im good at describing spacing and movements, because i tend to think like. almost exclusively verbally and like?? physically?? if that makes sense?? when i write i picture almost nothing but i can "feel" what the character is doing. like i imagine making the gestures and everything but dont necessarily see anything as a picture in my head

(fun fact: for actual play fic i actually uh. picture the players acting it out, not the characters in the world. lmao whoops. like the first draft of it at least is 'what does this look/sound like at the table' and then i make it into a fic)

What are your writing weaknesses?

coming from the last question, definitely description, again because i picture almost nothing when i write. i have a VERY VERY hard time thinking with visuals. even when im coming up with description, i just THINK WORDS that would describe something, not picture it. so a lot of time i have to base my description on something or im just like. pulling descriptive words out of my ass with no basis. and the visual of it doesnt always make sense to other people. the other thing i struggle a lot with is action scenes, rip

What are your thoughts on writing dialogue in other languages in a fic?

i think there's a time and a place and a right way to do it. i think with anything, it's not a "write what you know" but "know what you write". if youre writing someone multilingual, understand how multilingual people actually talk and use those languages. i think the closest i've gotten is "writing signs" for amaya from dragon prince. obviously thats not exactly the same, but for those fics i went back and forth between translating what she was saying, giving the exact signs without grammar, or just describing the movement of the signs. i dont know that i did it perfectly, but i did my best and learned from it. everything in those fics was knowledge i gained from my ASL classes in college (mostly taught by Deaf teachers)

What was the first fandom you wrote for?

technically digimon when i was like 7 years old lmao but first published fic was for avatar in 2007 on ff

What’s your favorite fic you’ve written?

it definitely changes depending on what i've written recently, but i'm really proud of paladin!aelwyn fic and am still really happy with the catradora ptsd exploration and this self-indulgent ineffable husbands mutual pining fic, but i also will say that writing humor is not always easy for me so whenever i feel like i pulled it off i am very proud of that hahaha

tagging @agentcalliope @floralprintshark @beatricexbenedick @marshmallsy @frenchibi @rizguks @strangetorpedos @labelleofbelfastcity

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apologies-in-advance · 3 years

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scene bucket #5(?)

marion: why do we never get percy with feeling

feelings*

kristin: ?

marion: this kid has problems

and

we never talk about them at all canonically

kristin: yeah, idk

like there are (that i know of) two instances of ptsd

in the entire series

which, okay, kids book, but still

he's like seventeen (and so are the rest of them)

they've seen who knows how many deaths. like...

marion: isn't it a YA book tho?

kristin: yeah

but

i think it was targeted to like 13/14?

idk...

marion: harry potter has death plots and people bleeding out and george being rightfully upset about fred

but like

pjo is just yes we have problems in the subtext

kristin: that is one thing i missed.

that i want.

(which probably makes me horrible, idk)

marion: no i kind of want it too

kristin: xD

are we bad people?

marion: no

i think we just want someone to finally be sad

kristin: yeah

marion: bc these kids are like

always happy

bar leo who canonically is depressed but they NEVER SAY IT

kristin: right

like, for example, i feel like with all those deaths (especially, for example, like Bianca and Beckendorf) and with Percys fatal flaw

he'd really beat himself up

like, more so than in the books.

and like Hazel literally was in the underworld.

and even though she was in the fields of asphodel. i feel like that would mess someone up.

marion: hazel faced discrimination

uhM

kristin: eurgh

i've always wanted to explore that, tbh

like, i have this thing that when she finally comes back, she asks Nico where a bathroom is, and he shows her

and she's like "that's not funny"

because there's different colored people in there, too

marion: oh

that's

that's kind of depressing

kristin: oof.

sorry.

idk, its just how i always imagined it going down.

marion: no no you're right

im just

kind of sad

that that would happen

kristin: yeah, ik

marion: to cinnamon roll hazel

kristin: (literally one of my favorite characters)

marion: *sob* i cant deal with this

:'(

this genuinely makes me want to cry

i dont-

how????

kristin: you imagine how hard it would be for her to have to adjust to like having a brother

that was

eurgh

sorru

*sorry

( i don't know if the term white is offensive or not)

marion: nah

kristin: okay, okay just checking

marion: poor cinnamon roll

kristin: D:

marion: i want to hug her and never let go

kristin: sammee

marion: ndfowendonwefon hazel is best

kristin: ikr

marion: hazel deserves best

kristin: yes

like she had to watch her mom die

in front of her

and she thought it was her fault

marion: hazel has angst, percy has angst, leo has angst

like her fatal flaw is guILT

angst budddiees

marion: :[

the angst trio

they cry themselves to sleep and pretend they're ok!

kristin: stOP

that's soo sad.

marion: everyone tries and subsequently fails to get them to talk about their problems

kristin: yeah, ik.

and they're just like, i'm fine.

Stop! Get some help!

marion: we're fine *sobbing*

kristin: through their tears

like, the rest of the seven can hear them crying through the thin walls of the Argo but nobody says anything

marion: *whispers* trauma? never heard of her

kristin: whose she?

honestly, though, like *sighs* it's so sad

marion: hahahaha...

kristin: haha.

*sighs*

like, the fates or whatever terrible being is in charge, just throw these kids and a satyr

on a flying boat

to destroy the earth

in order to save it

marion: and only one of them is mostly ok

actually coach hedge seems ok

kristin: yeah

maybe a little wack-o

but...

otherwise, fine

marion: so 2 out of 8

kristin: (unless we're counting nico)

marion: 2/9

kristin: Who, i think doesn't get as much appreciation as he should

reyna?

marion: 2/10

kristin: ooh, yes

oh, gods were making it worse

marion: 1/5

uhm that's pretty small

thalia?

2/11

kristin: sTOP i feel nico should get more recognition, though. like, he went

through tartarus.

alone.

marion: i think he and will are a focus in toa

but idk

kristin: (informercial voice Only 2 out of 11 demigods per year are mostly okay)

yeah idk either

marion: hey coach hedge isnt a demigod

kristin: CaUsE i HaVenT rEaD iT

oh no.

oops

...

marion: only 1/10 demigods are estimated to be mostly ok

one

out of

kristin: -that's-depressing-

marion: ten

kristin: one

out

ten

marion: low statistics

kristin: the weight of the worlds

*words

(like the weight of the sky on Percy and Annabeths shoulders)

marion: imagine the demigods making an 'into to chb!' video

kristin: uh oh

marion: and they're like so what's so great about being a demigod? and they all have fake cheery voices and blah

percy's just nothing. nothing is good about being a demigod. have fun dying before 18.

i literally barely made it.

they're like

can i quit?

no. no you can't

kristin: can i be fired?

marion: no.

please?

dang it

uhm

kristin: but you can die

have fun!

marion: how is that bETTTER

kristin: *whispers* it might be

nO WHAT HAVE I DONE

...

marion: i dont like the brutal honesty in this conversation

kristin: :/

i don't either, honestly.

*hA honestly*

*brutal honesty?*

*no? okay i'm sorry*

marion: *sob*

kristin: no, i'm fine.

they're all fin

marion: just fine.

kristin: loOK what i found

" The cab sped west. Every gust of wind through Death Valley sounded like a spirit of the dead. Every time the brakes hissed on an eighteen-wheeler, it reminded me of Echidna’s reptilian voice."

tlt

marion: i-

my dude

get some help

perCY

kristin: he doesn't need it

'member?

marion: YES HE DOES

HE FRIGGIN NEEDS THERAPY

kristin: " She made one more attempt to speak, but the sound was gone. Her image melted away. If it was my mother, I had lost her again. I felt like drowning myself. The only problem: I was immune to drowning."

" The last thing I remembered was sinking in a burning sea, knowing that Tyson was gone forever, and wishing I were able to drown"

marion: IJBUWFDWBJVH GCWDBIUWS

he wants

DrOWN

himself

and he would

kristin: " Thing is, as I was choking just now, I kept thinking: this is payback for Akhlys. The Fates are letting me die the same way I tried to kill that goddess. And … honestly, a part of me felt I deserved it. That’s why I didn’t try to control the giant’s poison and move it away from me. That probably sounds crazy"

that was blood of olympus!

marion: NO NO NO NO NO NO NONO NONONONO

kristin: yEAH

he was talking to Jason

after they were underwater or whatever

marion: and jason did nothing????

bRO

kristin: he said

marion: help hIM

kristin: Jason thought back to Ithaca, when he was despairing over the visit from his mom’s spirit. ‘No. I think I get it.’

THEN

they act like nothing happened

Percy studied his face. When Jason didn’t say any more, Percy changed the subject.

marion: :[

jASON

kristin: >:{

marion: jASON ASNd PERCY

kristin: D:

marion: iowahdnbxcunejwqzhs UGGYUSKNM

kristin: wonder how many more examples there are....

marion: oh no

my stars

kristin: ik

this is depressing

marion: wow

kristin: what about Frank though?

or PIPER

like he dad got kidnapped

*her

and then like she finally saved him

and he was like you're a hero

and then she had to ERase his Memory

marion: oof

true

kristin: like, it's obviously not as bad as the others

but still.

marion: yeah

kristin: *exhales*

DD:

im sorry

one more

" " She shook her head. ‘I’m not Caesar. After finding Jason’s note in Diocletian’s Palace, tracking you down was easy. I only did what I thought was necessary.’ Percy couldn’t help smiling. ‘Reyna, you’re too modest. Flying halfway across the world by yourself to answer Annabeth’s plea, because you knew it was our best chance for peace? That’s pretty freaking heroic.’ Reyna shrugged. ‘Says the demigod who fell into Tartarus and found his way back.’ ‘He had help,’ Annabeth said. ‘Oh, obviously,’ Reyna said. ‘Without you, I doubt Percy could find his way out of a paper bag.’ ‘True,’ Annabeth agreed. ‘Hey!’ Percy complained. The others started laughing, but Percy didn’t mind. It felt good to see them smile. Heck, just being in the mortal world felt good, breathing un-poisonous air, enjoying actual sunshine on his back. Suddenly he thought of Bob. Tell the sun and stars hello for me. Percy’s smile melted. Bob and Damasen had sacrificed their lives so that Percy and Annabeth could sit here now, enjoying the sunlight and laughing with their friends. It wasn’t fair. ""

marion: i-

sang it

dang it

kristin: you sang it

marion: a nice wholesome moment turned into angst

kristin: ikr

DID YOU

SEE

THAT THEORY

about Zoe and bob?

marion: ?no

kristin: HOLD ON

this is game changing

this is what i'm talking about

Bob's a titan.

He's related to Atlas, yes?

You know who else is related to Atlas? Zoe.

Bob=related to Zoe

You know what her last words were? She said 'I can see the stars again, my lady.' before Artemis turned her into a constellation.

Constellation=Stars

'Tell the stars hello'=Tell my cousin/sister/relative hello

marion: *SOB*

i cant do this

kristin: In Greek mythology, Iapetus was a Titan, the son of Uranus and Gaia and father of Atlas

marion: pjo and hoo have too much angst for my pathetic heart

kristin: s

so... bob is zoe's grandfather

marion: aw........

kristin: balling like a baby

marion: *SOBSBsbhsbejdbfeid*

kristin: YES

marion: you cant do this to me

kristin: i'm sorry

marion: i cant do this

this makes me so depressed

osinfdejnd

how

kristin: i have no idea

marion: bob and zoeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

kristin: D':

yo, imagine how Annabeth and Percy would react if they figured it out

marion: no nonOnONOnONONoNOn

kristin: I think they'd break

at least percy

marion: percy is sad

kristin: eurgh

marion: it's too much

kristin: you know what the worst part is?

marion: what

kristin: his friends don't even know it

they probably think he's actually fien

*fine

marion: i-

what...

hold up

nopr

kristin: they just think he's this upbeat optimistic sarcastic person

makes people laugh because it's a tension releaser

marion: ,'(

kristin: eurgh

marion: get some help, already

kristin: you know what they should have?

a camp therapist. like some Apollo camper, or smth

marion: something

kristin: yeah

for those who would be WILLING

*cough* not percy *cough

he'd be like I'm fiiine

marion: i dont need therapy

kristin: ha

yeah

marion: yup

kristin: Perce, you sure?

yep

marion: uhm

yeah just gonna

go now...

kristin: *shrugs* okay. whatever you say

*walks away*

marion: *sob* yeah im fine

kristin: they don't even turn around (cus they can't hear him [cause it was internal])

marion: *internal breakdown*

kristin: (meanwhile, on the outside) *grins at whatever dumb joke Jason told him*

*or Leo

marion: :')

kristin: just

fine

whAT ARE WE DOING

marion: poor perce

kristin: Dx

marion: percy is the type to get shot in the stomach and tell them to go look at annbeth's papercut

kristin: but, yeah srsly

Exhibit A

"‘You still claim him then?’ Zeus asked menacingly. ‘You claim this child whom you sired against our sacred oath?’ ‘I have admitted my wrongdoing,’ Poseidon said. ‘Now I would hear him speak.’ Wrongdoing. A lump welled up in my throat. Was that all I was? A wrongdoing? The result of a god’s mistake? "

Exhibit B

" ‘Your mother is a queen among women,’ Poseidon said wistfully. ‘I had not met such a mortal woman in a thousand years. Still… I am sorry you were born, child. I have brought you a hero’s fate, and a hero’s fate is never happy. It is never anything but tragic.’ I tried not to feel hurt. Here was my own dad, telling me he was sorry I’d been born. ‘I don’t mind, Father.’ ‘Not yet, perhaps,’ he said. ‘Not yet. But it was an unforgivable mistake on my part.’"

marion: ah and then the mr.brunner incident

kristin: Oh! yes

#pjo #hoo #scenebucket??#suicide #depressed

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shijiujun · 4 years

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[起承] Chris’ Mini Concert in Taipei 20191222 - Summary

As promised, the concert summary!!

First, let’s look at this gorgeous background and what Chris wore in his first song - Totally magical my god and GALAXY THEMED!!! Okay it was actually purple themed because he likes the colour and a lot of fans actually turned up in purple things.

Being the dumbass that I was, I did not do that because I didn’t even THINK OF IT HONESTLY so in my haste i had to go buy some purple cap that is really cute (unicorn-themed!) and yes turned up for the concert.

I went with a lovely new friend this time along with two other friends (all of who I met on Tumblr!!) and when we first reached the venue, there were so many other fans there already as usual giving out freebies - I have completed a set of five plastic fans with Chris and Jake faces printed on it, and now I have three plastic sheet 2020 calendars with Chris’ lovely face on it so amen. A lanyard also, and ooooh like they printed fake passenger tickets with chris’ face on it HAHA

Venue/Seating: 20 Rows, 20 Seats, 10 on each side with a row cutting down the middle and then a stage - In terms of venue I think it was a pretty cozy venue, definitely smaller than the venue for the Trapped Taipei and Taichung fanmeets so everyone got a much better view. This is the venue they used for the first History Party

I was seated in the 4th row, which was farkinggggg close. Ann and Elle were seated in the 2nd row, and we were technically all in the same area - BEST

So after we were seated, suddenly there was a lot of commotion from the fans, and that’s when we realised that ANDY AND KENNY WALKED IN!!! They came in with caps and face masks on, and they sat themselves in the first row on the right section - I’d like to mention that seated in the same row were also Chris’ parents, his brother (real or like bro I haven’t figured out yet), Diane and Director Lee from Trapped (ahhhh Diane is farking pretty) and yes, Jake was not there, BUT BUT BUT I do believe he was invited, but he’s just busy with work. Jake and Zhang Guang Chen (the guy who plays Andy in Trapped) both liked Chris’ concert photo on Instagram!!

Photos weren’t allowed, and they were damn fucking strict about this which I honestly DONT UNDERSTAND but am not surprised at - It’s like he’s thanking his fans for turning up and he’s really touched and everything and all fans want to do is have some really nice photos of him you know CRIES IN A CORNER - So it was like the Trapped fanmeet media mafia again, people standing at the sides watching and making sure you dont take photos

BUT BUT BUT in the first two songs they couldn’t control us all because we were ALL taking photos, which is why I have photos from the first two songs but NOWHERE ELSE, but tbh the first song’s visuals were so beautiful that those were all I needed for photos, seriously - Which is nice because I rented a cam for this and I REALLY WOULD HAVE CRIED IF I WALKED AWAY WITH NO PHOTOS

He sang a few Chinese ballads, and then he went to change clothes, and THEN HE TURNED UP IN THIS SHIRT AND DANCED TO THE WEEKND’S CAN’T FEEL MY FACE

At the beginning of the concert he told everyone that he wasn’t going to cry and we all called bullshit on that and hahaha lo and behold he cried halfway through and then at the end A LOT

Xiao Yi hosted it again!!! My god, I love Xiao Yi so much, he’s honestly the best and he’s way more handsome in person than he is on Instagram HAHAHA and I love how close he is to the Trapped boys

I do have more photos of this but they’re all half blur because I was trying to dodge the photo police, but hip thrusting moves? Check. Skin reveal? Four holes in his shirt, CHECK.

Anyway, the entire show was filled with like crazy good dance numbers and Chris sang songs such as A Whole New World, and also two of his self-composed songs!! I can’t remember what the first song was called but he did sing this at the Taichung fanmeet, and the second song is called 「不想分開」which means ‘Don’t Want To Separate From/Leave Each Other’ and they’re pretty good

Chris said that HE MIGHT have some album/single release activity next year and asked us to look forward to Jan 2020 I don’t know what to expect tbh HAHAHAHA

And Chris also sang Della’s song from Trapped - and halfway through the song DELLA APPEARED AND STARTED SINGING WITH HIM!! And he was so touched that he started to cry (as always, the crybaby), then the audience and Xiao Yi got Della and Chris to duet one of Della’s other more popular songs, and then SHE WAS THE BEST BECAUSE SHE led Chris down the stage and into the crowd and got him to touch everyone’s hands (okay not everyone, but whoever who could reach him) - Unfortunately I was literally two arms length away from him, so I didn’t even try reaching out for him but as always he came real close, and I got to witness that face up close for the fifth time this year, thank you god and all the higher powers above and buddha for giving me this excellent year

And everytime Xiao Yi and Chris asked questions to the audience Kenny would be like this absolute fanboy yelling from his seat - Gotta love the friendship between them

Xiao Yi printed like photos of him and Chris and stuck it on chocolate bars and gave them out to the audience for like question and answer LMAOOOO funniest shit ever - So XY asked how much do we love Chris, and the first fan was like ‘I left my kid at home to come and watch Chris’ and then another one was like ‘I came here on a TOUR and now I have left my tour group secretly for a few hours so I can come attend this’ LMAOOOO

And CHRIS’ attire was fucking on point that day, all his outfits were like fucking A+++++++++ like sexy and handsome and WOOOHOOO

Okay and now storytime - The one SHITTY thing that happened during the concert:

So there was this older lady seated in the first row, and in the beginning she kept getting up to talk to the staff and I didn’t think much of it - You know maybe she’s a hardcore fan or something and she knows the staff and has some special connections or whatever

And then, LITERALLY HALFWAY THROUGH A SONG, she stands up and she starts shouting. I’m not joking, she starts fucking shouting and pointing at like some fans in the second row saying, “Why is it they can take photos but I can’t?! You guys are too much!!!”

Mind you all, Chris is literally PERFORMING and she’s making a scene

So the staff get her to sit down, and then we think it’s the end of it right, but no she proceeds to yell at shout the same thing across like three fucking songs, and then at one point she stands up and tries to get attention from the staff to come and catch another fan seated behind her because she’s taking photos

In the end no one else in the vicinity dared to take photos or whatever and she was still being a bitch and yelling - And the dumb thing is that she wasn’t asked to leave. This crazy woman in the first row making a scene and she’s not being asked to leave wtf

And then she just keeps shouting throughout the entire concert, and at two instances Xiao Yi had to say “Hey guys, everyone, be good okay? Everyone, please be good”

Okay and then some point in between crazy lady brings out a decanter of like whiskey and chugs it down - Like so wild

So okay, she’s sitting in the first row, and it doesn’t take a genius to know that the risk of sitting in the first row or at the sides is that staff can easily get to you to ask you to not take photos - and she’s in the “because I can’t have it NO ONE ELSE CAN” mode, which is like... okay that’s one thing, but the other part is-

CHRIS IS LITERALLY PERFORMING WHY WOULD U CAUSE A SCENE FOR HIM?!!!

And she was just plain fucking rude she was honestly yelling and scolding like other fans, and I feel like that she doesn’t have a right to do that

Around me were ALL the major Chris fanclub/fanaccount fans and they were all like wtf is wrong with her?

Basically she was such a disruption and idk why she wasn’t asked to leave

Worst of all, in his every very last song, Chris actually sang half a verse to her directly, and IDK if he knows her, or maybe heard that she was being very enthusiastic, or didn’t know that she was being a crazy bitch, in any case, Chris effectively rewarded her bad behaviour

A lot of the fans were really upset about that, because this woman fucked up the entire experience for us (just imagine someone yelling like two rows in front of you and shouting and pointing throughout the whole like 45 minutes) and Chris basically signalled to her that it’s okay to be a nuisance to everyone else, even if it was done accidentally

Otherwise, A+ concert!!! So happy to be in Taipei again and seeing the boys!!!!! And Lisley and Kana were both there as well, and i have to say I really, really love Diane <3333

Concert was a little bit short imo but the tickets weren’t expensive so it’s alright. No fan benefits this time HAHAHA

#chris wu #wu chengyang #吳承洋 #mini concert #history3: trapped #kenny chen #andy bian #summary!

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smellycinnamonthundahfudge · 5 years

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Tag Game

Tagged by: @theslytherinterran haha thanks for this btw, i really like getting these things cus im just such a needy bish hahaha

Name/Alias: hahahahaha i dont think im ready to give out my real name on tumblr so i have this thing where like i kinda just wanna be called smells instead hahaha. yknow cus of my url? like yknow how mel is short for melody (pond hehe), i want to be called smells because it's short for smelly hahaha

plus i think it's hilarious to be called smells cus i actually am kinda gross irl hahaha

Birthday: Dec 20 🤟😘

Zodiac: Saggitarius... i think? is that even how you spell it? haha lol

Height: 5'5"?? tbh i aint rlly dat sure haha

Hobbies: bingewatching (tv shows, movies, yt vids), writing (fanfics, poems, analysis/posts/captions/thoughts), hanging out in tumblr haha, reading (once in a blue moon, i binge a couple fics on a list or a book that i kept on pause haha), and then lastly, hanging w/ meh doggos hehe 🥰😄🥰😊

Favourite Color: Pink (i wonder if that seems unexpected for me here or nah haha)

Favourite Books:

there's this author in my country, Bob Ong, i think he's pretty much the most mainstream author we have and i fucking love his books. i've only read 2 of them (so far) abnkkbsnplako?! and stainless longganisa but i fucking loved them. they are so relatable n honest n FUNNY n smart n truthful n emotionally resonant. they're basically memoirs n rando thoughts about school and writing. but i honestly really really loved them

Ugly Love by Colleen Hoover - whew holy shit this book was a doozy for me. one, she's like only the 2nd fem author i've read (i'm not much of a reader if i'm being honest, dont have the patience for it), it is such an emotional love story with great characters and it had me saying i love you to the loved ones in my life after reading it (but that may or may not have to do with the fact that i just have a lotta repressed emotions that this book, and sleep deprivation from binging it, managed to wring out of me haha). it's also pretty funny n quirky n cool n haha it's the first time i read a sex scene that wasn't on fanfic haha

A Series of Unfortunate Events by Lemony Snicket (aka Daniel Handler irl) - i. love. these. books. they are so freaking smart and funny and amusing and lemony snicket's voice is just so effing good. i havent read all of them tho. an unfortunate mistake that i still feel guiltyabout to this day haha lol

Last song listened to: when i first started answering this, it was Euphoria by uhh jung kook is it? tbh i only listened to it cus kat and ethan's romantic confession was literal goals haha. but then i listened to vacation by the gogos while writing this probs cus i was lssing to it after ffh haha

Last movie watched: i thought the last movie i watched was endgame too (every time i watch it is a memorable af experience) but i am just now remembering it's actually mamma mia hahaha. i've rewatched that film so many goddamned times already it literally just slipped my mind haha. and then after putting this on pause, i watched like 3 romcoms (10 things i hate about you, begin again, and half of flipped haha)

Inspiration for muse: hhmm well i think it usually happens when i read/watch something and then my mind fixates on how my ship could be applied to that as well haha dunno

Dream Job: comedian-writer-director haha

Meaning behind my URL: hahaha ngl i kinda feel like i've been waiting for someone to ask me this ever since i came up with it hahaha. like the explanation has just been sitting in the back of my mind for so long and now i can finally explain the quirky cute weird insanity that is my url haha.

each word is related to something significant from a fandom of mine

smelly is from smelly cat from friends, phoebe's infamous song haha

cinnamon is rajesh koothrapali's adorable lil dog (CINNAMON, MY LITTLE LAMB CHOP 😂😂🤣) from the big bang theory

thundah, i think, is from cat in the hat. where the cat has thing 1 and thing 2 and thing 2's nickname is chocolate thundah hahaha (overcompensating with the nicknames because of he's number 2 hahaha)

and lastly fudge is from how i met your mother because marshall erikson calls himself/is called big fudge and subsequently judge fudge hahahaha <3

and thus smellycinnamonthundahfudge was born. i have no idea what past me was thinking hahaha. i think i was trying to be all WEIRD AND QUIRKY YAY which i think i succeeded at haha cus i was finally going to join tumblr. i also have a hard on for references that i wonder if ppl will get or nah hahaha. plus i really like its flow, like you can say it really quickly despite it being long af hahaha

imma just tag familiar faces around here haha (yknow the gist, do wat u wanna do, im not forcin u or anythin)

@mytamakomysookee and @hello-em75 (the first pips i actually chatted with when i first got here hehe), @suplosers (the first one ever to tag me in something like this hehe) and then just a buncha pips i've seen around here somewhere... cant really place you, u guys just seem familiar enough haha lol @you-guys--are-losers @the-real-illi-vanilli @nicehandsfeet @justaleapoffaith @jennifer7585 @orntrnk @mllefangirl @dhallia @untitledandrandom @spiderman-homecomeme @kanakalala458 @xfandemoniumx @justanotherfangirlpassingthrough @justlookatthosesausages @bubbleuwu @timey-wimey-drew @ironchilddragon @walkingcherrysoul @sexylordpalpatine @ohthedreamsofeuphoria @mattsavocados @missjordie @across-the-pond

and finally @tare8chan even tho you've not just been tagged to this already (by the same person who tagged me for that matter), you managed to finish this before i tagged ya hahaha darn

this was so effing long and sharey i dunno maybe i was just bored or on a confident streak hahahaha lol

well i think the lesson here is that i'm a very intense person with a lot of feels. thanks to anyone who actually read this entire thing for some reason haha. i know my intensity can be really offputting sometimes but eh pips gon be hu pips gon be. dey cant help it

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I find it amazing how a single person can change your world drastically your perspectives and even in yourself. Doing things you have never done before. And actually enjoying it. I was never into love songs because i dont feel it, love stories because it is too cringey for me, I don't look at couple goals couz i think they're fake or something.

Then i found my self listening into love song hahaha, actually searching for a song that fits our story. Then in the latter part I'll try to learn the song so i can sing it for you, then your reactions. You made me feel like I won the lottery or I'm the first man on the moon or I won in a biggest contest. Your reaction makes me so happy. That's why I want to do it more often.

Mostly when it comes to movies I like the actions, fantasy or sci fi. Then I started liking the love story and even cry when they broke up hahaha I like the feeling when some part of the movie is something that you actually do with me hahaha specially the jealous part but you dont want to admit it. Every scene makes me miss you more and reminds me of us, our bondings, how you make me feel loved, how you appreciate me in everything I do, your efforts.

Thank you for coming into my life luvie, you have no idea how happy I am to be love by you.

Thank you for accepting all of the things about me to be honest I still can't believe that i have you, like I'm still asking myself do i really deserve you. I have a messed up family, I'm the black sheep, I'm not good at everything, most of the time i fucked up, I hove nothing. Why me? I cant remember any good thing that i have done good. Then theres you, kind, loving, thoughtful, honest, true friend, strong, beautiful, smart, selfless, god loving, pure hearted. Gashhh luvieee you're perfect.

How you make me feel safe. You have given me more than enough assurance. Now i fear nothing. I was able to love you this way, i was able to give my all again, and to trust fully again and thats is all because of you. You make me miss you every single day. My love grows for you every minute. Gunayuma mo ba ako? Hahahaha kasi hindi ko mapaliwanag how, why, when and how much I love you ng ganito kabilis.

How? All i have to do dati is to protect you tapos eto na boyfriend mo haha

Why? I don't know the reason why dati i just found out that I like you

When? Di ko alammmm hahaha tbh nagulat lang ako i was into you na.

How much i love you? Ohhhhhhh only god knows how much I love you ;)

So basically ginayuma mo ako haha nilagay mo ba sa shot ko? Haha penge lagyan ko din sayo hahaha

And all of the moments we had gashh priceless. List ko paba ? Baka mainlove ka sa sarili mo haha na bahala ka mahaba to sooooooooooo yu g iba or mostly alam mo na ehh haha basta

Things that i love, i appreciate, i like about you lubieeedubdub

When you call me luv, good morning & good nights, when you says i love you or i miss you first, when you're praning when I go out, when you get jealous when hearing a girls name, when you hold my hand tightly, when you says how much you love me,when you flex me, whe you touch my face, how you make me feel like i matter, how you make me feel wanted,that I am important, the way you defended and protecting me,for praying for me, when i do things for you, when you tell me your cravings, the way you laugh, the way you make me laugh, little staring contest the sudden outburst, when you want massage (mapilit haha), whe you want me to touch you face, you bites, the way you kiss, the tone difference, body language, sudden hug or unannounced kiss, when meeting you suddenly you throw your whole body at me, when you kiss me when i was asleep, the way you say i love you, secretly holding my hand.

I can still go on but baka di mo basahin tamad ka ehh hahaha i love youu

But to be honest you've made me a better person, For the first time in my life someone makes me open up to world once again, teaching me that there are more possibilities, thank you for opening my heart, You've made me realize that I'm doing something wrong, that there should be a door on the walls i built to protect my heart, because i was also blocking out the persons who actually cares for me. Thank you for introducing me you ely. I really don't know much about them but i like the way they care for you, and in make me feel at ease even if im not with you because in my heart i know that they will keep yo safe at all times.

I love you with all my heart

Pero right now I keep on thinking

How can make you smile?

How can i make you laugh?

How can i make you happy?

How can i keep someone like you?

That you're stronger than I think you are

But inside ?

You're fragile

You're delicate

That's why i want to protect you more

I just want you to know that i love you so much and i will never let you go. When you feel like the world is against you im always here for you.And will never leave your side

That I can be whatever you want me to be

I can be your friend if you want to open up

I can me you walking twitter if you want to rant something

I can be you boyfriend if you need love and affection

I can be your husband that will take and hold your hands

Until my last breath

Remembering how we started, all the chances we had, all of the sayang, all of the sana, all of the muntikan

We still ended up together

I love you soooo much

In this world full of negativity I can be your positive one

Ps not sure kung kelan mo mababasa to hahaha.

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fab912 · 7 years

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Blue (because you know), Orange, Yellow, Green, Sapphire?

Color Asks (Mystic Messenger) (Me tag later blah that again hahahaha)

Blue:Would I play V’s route? I mean…yeah, cause it’s there. Tbh I have no feelings for V in a “romantic” sense. I just wanna know more about him.

Orange:OKAY THIS IS HARD?! Because I would LOVE to troll Zen, but…I honestly can’t mess with his allergies like that. Curse me and my heart, I would protect Zen. And then he would be like “i knew you liked me~” No, you fool. I don’t like you as any more than a friend. I just don’t want you to be hospitalized or have troubles breathing.

Yellow:SOMEBODY ONCE TOLD ME THAT I CAN’T TRUST SEVEN. Honestly tho? I don’t really have anything on my phone but drawings and screenshots of stuff? No one really texts or calls me? I would kinda wanna see what Seven WOULD do? And people are so easy to trust Saeran but LETS BE REAL. I feel that boy can be just as mischievous as Seven. Like, theyre twins. They got that twin mojo. I KNOW he has it in him. Plus if he found anything on your phone you can bet he’s probably gonna tease you with it (like a light form of blackmail). But Seven would just flat out do something. Can’t I just get a new phone? Throw away this one and start fresh. Ok so proooooobably Saeran.

Green: Ah gosh who would I ship Jaehee with…that’s like so hard. Cause I would like to say Zen? (Plz dont throw anything at me if u disagree). But while I /would/ and see from her pov how they could be happy…it would all be on zen, no? Im terrible at “shipping”, thats why i barely do it haha

SPOILER SPOILER SPOILER

Sapphire:Ok so real talk here. I actually did cry on a part in Seven’s route. It was in the apartment but I cant remember what part it was exactly? And the reason was because what he was saying or the scene was alluding too hit a liiiiittle too close to home. And the fact that some of the things I feel was written and showed in the game hit HARD. Tbh it probably wasnt anything super impactful but that was like…wow.

Game story plot wise….this is spoiler? I guess? There were many moments where I reacted. Like that scream Rika does when V is shot and killed. That pained scream. And V’s words, gah. Like I couldnt believe it happened? Whut?

This last one was really hard cause most emotional i could see as sad or happy or angry. Lol im terrible at giving ONE answer

#anon asks #jacky replies

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takemetohelena · 6 years

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</2017>

Halloooo 2018! Time really flies fast when you’re wasting your life hahaha. 2017 was fun, definitely better than 2015 and 2016 hahaha. Eto ata yung year na pinakamaraming naging ganap in lifeu. First yung mga nacheck ko muna sa bucketlist ko hahahaha.

🌋VISIT A VOLCANO

Taal Volcano yas!! It wasn’t on our plan to hike it but we did, umuusok yung lupa amazing. Details: takemetohelena.tumblr.com/post/159747455034/041017-going-south

🏃🏻‍♀️ RUN A MARATHON

Night run at UPANG with Rose, Pine, Charm and Ali hoho. We didn’t actually run tho, more like night walk yan hahaha. I’m not sure kung may post ako bout that here, basta after that we drank wine and sleepover kila rose yay, late bday celeb ko din ata yun hahaha.

📅 NO ABSENCES IN SCHOOL FOR A MONTH

Basta nacheck ko to so it happened. Hahahahaha

💧WATERFALLS

Antong Yays!!! I should’ve made a solo entry about this pero wala di ko nagawa, it was so fun!!! Kasi hapon na kami pumunta so kami lang tao and umaambon pa kasi may bagyo ata that time. What a perfect time to have an adventure diba hahaha. Hindi ako nahirapan sa hike kasi similar to Quezon ung place haha pero si Alison, nyeaam hahaha nasira paperbag nya, naputol tsinelas nya, and naputikan af sya hahaha. Medyo creepy lang kasi may engkanto-ish feels sya nun kasi maraming kweba tapos malalim hhahaha. Merong pagtatalounan na mataas kaya lang walang G tumalon kaya di na din ako tumalon hahaha pero gusto kooo. Tapos ginabi na kami pauwi and we got lost, lowbat ang mga phones with kidlat kidlat pa. There i thought, ‘i like thisss’ nakakatakot pero i like like like hahaha. Imagine gabi in the middle of nowhere, i feel like we were in a horror movie hahaha, i loved the thrill talaga, tapos diretso lang kami sa lakad then pagtingala namin andun yung bridge na dinaanan namin nung papunta hahaha. May 1hr din ata kami nagwait ng bus padagupan then we bought soju, na si roselyn lang din ang uminom. Sleepover at rose’s again!!

🎥 BE IN A THRILLER FILM/MOVIE

Hikbi, directed by kuya desmond. Professional videographer sya kaya i was soo feeeling it hahahaha. Tapos kasama ko pa si anthony(HUHUHUHU), he was the killer, idk kung pano ko nacontain ung kilig and hiya ko everytime we had a likey scene like ung kaming dalawa sa bonfire while im holding a gitara, when he hugged me from behind while holding a knife(eeeeeek) nakamadaming takes unHAHHAHA. Tapos when he dragged me by the hair, he kept asking me kung nasasaktan nya ba ako. OO nasasaktan mo ako ngayon! HAHAHHA char only. Basta when kuya des’ says “action!” feeling ko artista na ako and hindi na ako si helena hahaha ganun ba feeling, try ko kaya mag artista tae joke ang papangit ng angles ko HAHAHAH. Pero nagawa yun! I’m amazed hahahha

📹 WATCH CINEMA ALONE

Guardians of the Galaxy!! Sad ako that time eh, i dont remember why, i was fighting na hindi mahulog ung luha ko kahit funny yung nangyayari hahahaha. Tbh i didn’t understand what happened sa movie, nung tapos na ung movie i texted alison and sumunod sya, we watched it again and un naintindihan ko na hahahaha. Naisip ko baka di counted yan kasi sumunod si Alison hahaha. Pinanood ko din ung Kita Kita alone because again, sad c acoe hahaha same shit naiiyak ako not because of the movie but because of my lifeu hahaha.

🍺 DRINK A BEER

Feeling ko dinaya ko to kasi sip lang ginawa ko. I therefore conclude na ayoko ng beer, or any hard drinks na akshelly. I think im past the stage na walwal is life because i already experienced that during my teenage years haha, walwal is not life, walwal is bad for your health, tapos pangit pa sa feeling the day after hahaha.

🚣🏻‍♀️KAYAK

I’d love to do this again! Details: takemetohelena.tumblr.com/post/165685032854/kayak-the-best-part-of-this-was-staring-at

So far, yan lang yung mga nasa bucketlist ko na nacheck ko last year(parang ang tagal ah hahaha) pero i swear marami pang magagandang nangyari! Hahaha like when i went to Quezon for holy week, sobrang ganda ng weather that time i could die there, the feeling of contentment ganern, i was sipping my coffee in the terrace while looking at the tall niyog trees, and it was cold pa. hay i love. tapos everytime magigising ako ng madaling araw, i could dieee.

Pati yung Baguio Escapade namin!!! Details: takemetohelena.tumblr.com/post/159745877114/022617-weekend-escapade maganda din ung feels ko dyan.

Marami talagang magagandang nangyari nung 2017, thinking about it now parang i hurt because 2017 was so good to me, i didn’t wanna leave there yet. Kung icocompile lahat ng mga posts ko dito this, majority would point to Anthony because he is my highlight. Tao kasi ako afterall and it’s in human nature na feel like love makes the world go round (not that it was love ha). I mean no matter how i believe na liking an opposite sex the special way is always the last in my favorite things, at the end it shows na he’s made his way to the top, see he’s my highlight nga. Afterall the wonderful places i’ve been too, all the harthart moments with my constants, and the feeling of contentment in my home, sya pa rin nagtop. The normal days spent with him inside and outside the school, the feeling of excitement everytime i see him like parang tagal ko sya hindi nakita, my tugudug heart evrytime he pops in my messenger, basta those little happenings crept into my brain and i feel like he’s so special, i hate being human. Siguro, maybe kaya sya nagtop because i knew that he’s not gonna stay in my life for a long time. The wonderful places i’ve been to, my constants, my home in Quezon will always be there, I can always go to them pero sya he has his own path to take and he doesn’t need me there. Aaaaah the tragedy of getting attached to someone who isn’t meant to stay. It makes me teary-eyed hays. I used to laugh at couples na 1month palang parang di na nila kaya mabuhay pag naghiwalay sila, now I kinda understand it (not like hindi ko kayang mabuhay ng wala sya lol). I mean kahit maiksing time lang, someone can be so special to you, it depends sa emotions and things na naiinput nila in your brain to cherish ganern. I think si Anthony nag input sya ng 8GB sa utak ko pero he put it with glitters and more kaya i’m left with “it-could-be-nice-kung” ganern.

2017 made me happy, too happy that i dont wanna let go of it pero life goes on, nung New Year, i didn’t feel the hype talaga tbh, it was like nagtotorotot lang ako para di nila mafeel na wala akong gana magnew year hahaha. Thank you so much 2017, parang blurred na sakin yung hurt ko nung 2016 because of you tho it still hurts, pero you balanced it. Marami ding hindi magandang nangyari sakin pero this time nangingibabaw yung mga mamagandang nangyari. I don’t wanna say goodbye pero I have to. Thank you sa life lessons, to the very nice people i met, they’re going to be a part of me for a long long time, to the new places i’ve explored, and the emotions i felt. You were so good to me that it hurts!

Yo 2018,

It feels foreign to type 201 with an 8 hahaha. Welcome uy. Tumatanda na ako, im one year closer to my death haha tbh that’s what i’ve been thinking since new years eve hahaha. feeling ko i’m getting numb like ‘ah okay’ ganern, it’s hard to feel these days at the same time feeling ko mas nagiging emotional ako, please dont make me cry too much haha im such a mess diba. Exactly last year i asked 2017 kung it has new failures, disappointments and heartbreaks for me. Failures and disappointments come together and i’ve had lots of them too. Yung heartache, i cant say na i have it right now pero parang ganun. I’m at this stage na tinatanggap ko na he’s not for me but knowing myself, few days later magbaback to one ako hahaha. I hope you make evrything good for me, atleast some things. i know that most of the things in my life are permanently broken, including me haha. I doubt na you can fix it but pls be light sa’kin. I’m trying to live here hahaha. Di ako ready sa mga mangyayari but i want to grow and move, the more i move the more na napapalapit ako sa death. Idk if it’s right but i think it’s my will to live lately, that whatever’s gonna happen it will only lead to one thing: my finish line hahaha. I could die this year, if i do then sayonara earth! 12 months, a lot can happen there, i’m curious. Make me feel ANYTHING, 2018.

Signing out @ 11:58PM, January 1 2018,

Helena

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takemetohelena · 7 years

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Crushlife Chapters

I really wanted to make an entry about the boys I’ve had a crush on since last year pero tinatamad ako haha. What triggered me today is a group chat with my grade 5 classmates hahaha. Basta pagkaopen ko ng messenger ko kasali na ako sa isang group chat. At first I was clueless kasi di ko kilala yung mga members, then I saw his name hahaha. My first ever legit crush hahahaha.

Okay this is a list of the boys, now guys, I’ve had a crush on and some details and stories na din haha.

1. I a n M a r w i n I just stalked his facebook kanina! And hindi sa pagiging biased but ang gwapo nya (pa rin hehe). I met him when I was 10-11 years old, grade 5, he was my classmate. It was my first year studying in Quezon, Province and sobrang naninibago ako with everything. I don’t remember how I noticed him pero I think nagustuhan ko sya because he looks mysterious, he’s quiet and he was a goodlooking kid. Siguro napansin ko sya because lagi ko syang nakikita kasi we were in the same neighborhood named Riverside (HIHIHI). I always see him in his bike tapos basta crush ko sya! I even go to the sari sari store near his house kahit na may mas malapit na tindahan samin para lang masilayan sya haha. Kinikilig ako just by remembering those days hahaha (ANG LANDI MO 11 YR OLD SELF HAHAHA). One thing about me na hindi nagbago siguro, when I crush on someone, iniiwasan ko that specific person haha weird. I barely talk to him as in. Isang convo nga lang naaalala ko eh, pang finale yun mamaya hahaha tapos pag nagkakasalubong kami hindi ko sya tinitignan. I remember my 11 yr old self writing cutting pieces of papers tapos I’d write song lyrics like ‘Ikaw lang ang aking mahal’, basta yung mga tagalog songs na may words na mahal hahaha hindi ko lang tho maalala kung may nasabihan akong classmate namin na crush ko sya oh well basta one day hindi ko alam kung anong sumapi sa'kin, basta I approached him nung mag isa sya idk if it was at the canteen or sa gym. I don’t remember how I said it pero shemayy I said something like “Hindi na kita iiwasan. Friends?” Hindi ko alam yung exact basta meron yun friends part hahaha. I even offered my hand holy sheeeeez!!! Feeling ko nawiweirduhan sya but he accepted it, we shook hands! Nagshake hands kami! Ngayon ako naaawkwardan ah hahaha. His hand wasn’t smooth but it was warm(ay wow hahaha) basta eeek! Yun ata yung first skinship namin HAHAHA, emegehd until now nafifeel ko pa rin yung kilig ko hahaha. Then after that day, iniiwasan ko pa rin sya hahaha nahiya siguro ako hahaha. I don’t remember how we parted ways basta lumipat ako ng school and house kaya ayun, di ko na sya nakikita. I saw him on facebook kanina and gwapo nya huhu he was so totoy dati na medyo chubby pa sya ngayon gwapo nya. That’s all hahaha.

2. I v a n d e l Grade 6, 11-12 yrs old. Eto. Marami akong embarassing moments dito hahaha. He was not my type(wow 12 yr old self, anong alam mo sa type type type hahaha), basta di ko sya gusto, maingay kasi sya saka magulo, tapos loko loko haha i dont know what happened bat ko sya naging crush, siguro sa pang aasar nya ganun. May scene akong naalala hahaha, he was holding a suklay tapos ako diba kulot ako tapos tamad akong magsuklay pero sinusuklay naman ako ni tita ema palagi saka nakahalf pigtails ako hahaha. Ayun bigla syang lumapit tapos sinuklay nya ako ng isang beses saka naamaze sya kasi walang sabit! Hahahaha kahit nasira yung half pig tails ko kinilig ako ng slight haha. Eto pa, feeling ko kaya ako sumali sa taekwondo club dahil sakanya hahaha i dont know i dont remember basta he was a belter already tapos newbie ako. While we were training I accidentally kicked his friend’s crotch huhu hindi ko sinasadya, he was laughing tapos inaasar nya ako kaya nahiya ako kaya I stopped attending taekwondo lessons hahahaha I even asked my lola to make a fake reason para payagan akong magquit, after that nagtransfer ako sa arts club hahaha. Eto pa, feeling ko din ah, feeling ko lang, kaya ako sumama dun sa mt. Banahaw camping namin kasi kasama sya hahahahahaha tho wala akong masyadong maalalang moments namin sa mt banahaw huhu ay meron pala! Kasi nung camping lagi kong kasama yung isang classmate din namin na nerd tapos inaasar nya ako ni ivan na “yieee” ganun ganun huhu yun lang, sayang naman yung mountain, ganda pa naman dun dapat nagmake ako ng memories with him(anudaw hahaha) basta siguro may kilig moments din ako dun pero di ko lang maalala hahahaha. I don’t know kung paano kumalat sa klase na crush ko sya pero umabot sa adviser namin tas inaasar na ako palagi huhu pati syaa! Dun ko nalaman na may girlfriend sya sa grade 5 hahahahaha yun. Kapag recollection kasi, magsasabit kami ng individual envelopes sa bintana with our names tapos pwedeng maghulog ng letter kahit sino. I think i made a letter for him pero di ko maalala basta meron yun haha. Scene i lost count: Fieldtrip. Katabi ko yung adviser ko, tapos katabi nya yung tita nya na teacher din. Another thing about me, mahina ako sa byahe dati, mabilis ako mahilo and magsuka lalo na pag aircon hahaha. Yun nga, alam nung teachers na crush ko sya so his seatmate na teacher asked me to switch seats with her. So ganito yun,

Him - Me Teacher1 - Teacher2

I didn’t talk to him the whole byahe because I was too focused on stopping myself from vomitting. He was offering me chips and etc pero di ko pinapansin, our other classmates were teasing us din. At yun na nga, dumating na pinakakatakot ko, nagsuka ako!!!! At walang plastic!!! As in sa damit ko!! I dont know kung may tumalsik sakanya basta medyo wala na akong pake kasi masama pakiramdam ko haha. Pero nakakahiya kadiri ko huhu. Being the funny guy that he was, hindi naman sya nagalit pero nag yuck yuck sya animal sya hahahaha tapos lumipat sya dun sa barkada nya huhu so embarassing. After fieldtrip, lalo akong inasar. Pati teachers namin sa ibang subjects huhu. Meron pang nagsabi “balita ko may nagkadevelopan sa bus” anong nagkadevelopan huhuhu bwisit. Just like the first one, i dont remember how we parted ways basta after graduation ng grade 6 i moved back to pangasinan kaya we lost contact. PS. I memorized their family car’s plate number hahaha.

3. D a v i d

Grade 6, 11-12 yrs old. I don’t remember kung sinong nauna sakanila ni Ivan na naging crush ko o sabay hahaha pero si david i liked him willingly, he was my friend saka mabait kasi sya sakin hihi tapos ang cute nya pa, singkit sya with glasses mukha syang anime hihihi. He’s from zambales ata o zamboanga basta letter Z hahaha. He’s very nice and goodlooking crushable talaga sya pero wala na akong masyadong maalala about sakanya hahaha isa lang. Ay dalawa pala. I remember his scent, yung pabango nya haha matapang kasi, I dont like it pero i like him hahaha di ko lang alam kung anong pabango yun pero sya lang kilala ko na ganun pabango haha nagpalit na kaya sya ngayon? Malamang. Hahaha the other memory na naalala ko is yung foundation day namin, again, nakalimutan ko na kung may sinabihan ako na crush ko sya haha pero blinind date kami nung classmate namin eeeeeek!!! Kinikilig ako ngayon HAHAHHAHA. Magkatapat yung armchair namin tapos may curtain, ang awkward pero kinikilig ako hahahaha. He was very david, he’s nice, nung una tahimik lang kami pero natatawa ako, sya natatawa ako kinikilig hahaha. He was asking kung ba’t kami blinind date, syempre di ko alam sabi ko. Tapos sabi nya “anong pag uusapan natin?” tapos nakalimutan ko na hahaha. Pero may pinag usapan kami ehhhhh <3 di ko talaga maalala huhu meron talaga yuuun <3. 5minutes lang ata yun huhu tapos lumabas na kami, syempre ako acting atat lumabas pero kinikilig ako hahahahuhu <3 gwapo nya. Bakit ang gwapo ng mga crush ko nung elementary? huhu. Siguro next week after finals i’ll post a pic, tinatamad pa ako ngayon eh haha. After graduation, di na kami nag usap nung ano nalang nauso yung facebook haha. Last year ko ata sya last na nakachat. Wait babackread ako tignan ko kung may kashare kashare hahaha. Ay wala, nagtanungan lang kami kung anong course namin hahahaha. Anyways, di ko pinagsisisihan na naging crush ko sya hahahaha.

4. J o s e p h Di ko masasabi yung age and time ko naging crush sya because I dont remember hahaha. He’s my kuya’s cousin sa father side. Honorary Garcia kasi ako kaya tuwing may reunion sila kuya sa father side kasama ako. I’ve known him since bata pa ako, pero nagkacrush lang ako sakanya kasi inaasar ako nina kuya hmp hahahaha. I remember making pacute tuwing pupunta kami sa bahay nila haha tapos magaling kasi syang magguitar tapos dun sya lagi sa terrace naggigitara kaya pag nadadaanan ko bahay nila andun sya hihi. Yung mga moments lang naman namin yung mga family get together nila na saling pusa ako hahaha. He’s nice, pero younger sister lang tingin nya sakin haha, he calls me ynataba ata dati. I play badminton with his younger brother tapos sya di sya jumujoin kasi busy sya siguro mangchix. He’s 2yrs older than me pala. I cant say na we parted ways kasi i’m sure magkikita pa kami sa reunion reunion etc haha.

5. J a s c h a

First year highschool, 12-13 yrs old. Hindi ko talaga sya crush. Our classmates and teachers were just teasing us tapos sinasakyan ko lang. Naiinis sya pag I'm acting like crush ko talaga sya tapos natutuwa ako pag naiinis sya hahaha pero di ko sya crush, di ko sya type (yan nanaman sa type type hahaha) kasi magulo din sya like ivan, maingay, ganun pero kapag ginugulo ko na sya tumatahimik sya tapos namumula sya sa inis kaya nag eenjoy ako hahaha. Somewhere between annoying him and entertaining the whole class, nagustuhan ko ata sya and I didn't like it kasi naging affected na'ko kapag naiinis sya sakin medyo nahuhurt nako hahahaha. On the last day of class, uso kasi yung autograph autograph, I made him sign my autograph notebook tapos ang naaala ko ang dun is yung

Likes: *insert girl from another class*

Dislikes: you

Hahahaha tbh tawang tawa ako. Pero di ko alam sakanya, pinunit nya yung page na yan. Feeling ko marami rami rin akong naging feels sakanya kasi I think I remember writing poems about him ganern tapos yung autograph notebook ko, I still have it and merong isang page dun na dedicated sakanya with his pic pa. May nakasulat na poem with lines like "when you walk into the room, the place became brighther blablabla i'm glad i met you" ata with doodles pa na heart heart haha

2nd yr hs, shiniship talaga kasi kami nung adviser ko so she made sure na magiging magkaklase kami sa 2nd yr. yun nga naging magclassmates kami. Ganun pa rin, I annoy him pag trip ko tas mabbwisit sya, pero bwisit sya may time na nagqquiz kami kopya sya ng kopya sakin eh lagi nya akong inaaway, naalala ko pa pagkaexcite nyang kumopya nun ah enjoy na enjoy sya hahaha. I have a close friend din, shes twinkle. Naging sila ni J. Syempre hurt ako ng slight pero okay lang i got over it hahahaha. Wala naman akong masyadong makkwento about this guy kasi wala naman masyadong ganap eh haha just that pagkukulit ko and pagkainis nya. It went on and on until I liked someone else. Nung may nagustuhan akong iba tumahimik na life nya hahaha. After graduation we didnt communicate na. And there I thought, the Jash arc in my lifestory ended there pero hindi pala hahaha

Sometime ngayong March, he messaged me and he said he wants to be friends hahaha he said something like, "namiss ko yung babaeng hindi ko makalimutan simula highschool" honestly i cringed hahaha tapos naisip ko baka pinagtritripan nila ako ng mga barkada nya or something like that, I asked him kung bat bigla syang nagparamdam sabi nya gusto nya daw bumawi sa pang aaway nya sakin dati hahaha. Basta I dont know kung anong meron but he's flirting with me. He messages me kahit wala naman syang sasabihin kaya nakakatamad replyan hahaha tapos may time na nag'muah!' sya and di ko alam kung matatawa ako o magccringe kasi ugh dont like dont like hahaha. Nung nagsleep over ako kay roselyn, pinapalabas nya ako ng bahay nila roselyn para makijoyride pero late ko nabasa kaya di rin natuloy haha. Ngayon ko lang nanotice mas marami pala akong nakkkwento sa present time namin kaysa sa past hahaha oh well. Di ko na sya pero like like that, and I don't think babalik pa yung pagkalike ko sakanya dati haha pero feeling ko astig syang maging friend!!

6. Y u r i

2nd yr highschool, 13-14 yrs old. Sya yung ginusto ko na magustuhan pero hindi ko gusto yung naging takbo ng crush life ko sakanya haha. Siguro kinilig din ako saka naging happy pero unlike the others pag nagrereminisce ako nung mga times na crush na crush ko sya di ako kinikilig and wala yung ‘i was happy that time’ feeling. Siguro kasi medyo di pa tapos yung kalbaryo ko sakanya, walang ‘we parted ways and we lost contact’ ganun. Anyway, I’m gonna try my best to deduct memories na hindi maganda hahaha. Sige, kunyari nag end nalang din sa ‘we lost contact’ yung samin hahaha.

I first saw him sa school supplies store sa magic, I was buying a gift para sa christmas party tapos nakita ko sya sa pila sa counter, I smiled at him even when di ko sya kilala (bat feeling ko magiging madrama to hahaha), I just know na schoolmate sya because he was wearing a uniform. That time feeling ko nacrush at first sight ako, nagtigidig my heart. I liked him agad. Tapos one day, nalaman ko na magkabatch pala kami, tapos nagpasimple akong magtanong sa kaklase ko kung sino sya, dinescribe ko pa hahaha. That’s when I found out his name, I like his name too haha pero ibig sabihin nyan sa japanese girl x girl haha. Di ko nanotice na marami na pala akong natanong, nalaman ko na he’s smart and mabait daw eh di crush ko na talaga sya haha. Napansin ni classmate na very attentive ako tapos naconclude nya na like ko nga si Y haha ayun ewan ko na.

Hindi ko na ikkwento yung ibang details so fast forward to 4th yr hs, 16 na ako hahahaha. A lot of things happened sa crushlife ko ft. him basta hahaha. Nung graduation day I gave him a laminated picture of us with a letter, sa robs ko pa sinulat yung letter sa foodcourt hahaha, nakalimutan ko na sinulat ko dun confession ata hahaha pero feeling ko hindi. pero feeling ko parang ganun na din. Akala ko kasi after graduation di na kami magcocommunicate kaya sinabi ko na ata lahat dun hahaha. I don’t remember if we hugged basta ewan hahaha. I think i told him na hindi na kami makakapag usap after grad tapos he said ‘facebook’ ata hahaha sabi ko hindi rin. Akala ko kasi malalaos na yung facebook hahaha. I wish we stopped talking after graduation pero nagkakausap pa rin kami eh (preno. nagiging emo na haha). Yun nga i’ll stop na here. Ayoko yung sakanya. Nextttt.

6. C a r l o

Di ko pa iniistart kinikilig nako kyaaaah!! Very goodlooking kasi sya mukha syang oppa and we lived under the same roof for two years!! HAHAHAHA charot. Iisang building lang kasi nirerentan namin near slu hahaha. Pero kahit na! Hahahaha. Napansin ko na sya agad nung una palang kasi gwapo sya, tapos nagpa introduce yourself si landlord jumar namin kaya nalaman ko name nya hihihi ang alam ko may blog ako about sakanya dito sa tumblr eh, wait hanapin ko link hahaha.

>> http://takemetohelena.tumblr.com/post/154633065329

Ayan with picture pa yan hahaha. Summary ng mga naganap dati hahaha. Pero gusto kong magdetail hihi pero wala akong matype because kinikilig ako hahahaha. Ang gwapo nya pa rin :( nakakamiss yung feels ko sakanya dati hahahaha huhu. Ang medyo highlight para ng crushlife ko sakanya was the cocktail rounds HAHAHA magkatabi kami diba hahahhaha indirect kiss! HAHAHHAHAHAHHA im keleg hahahahahaha. Tapos nung hinug nya ako he’s so warmedt huhu i like him talaga. Tapos he called me Ms. Chinita, eh yung alternate name nya sa facebook chinito hahahaha eeeek. huhu hart hart. We don’t communicate na. Yung pagview nalang nya sa ig story ko saka sa ‘my day’ ko yung interactions namin hahaha basta everytime nakikita ko sa socmeds kinikilig ako hihi.

7. M i k h a e l

Good looking din to hahaha. Kablock ko sya nung first yr ko sa slu hahaha. Wala akong masyadon makkwento sakanya kasi short term crush ko lang sya hahahaha. Pero he’s very nice din tapos very friendly, cute cute nya din. May picture kami togetherr, inistolen kami ni Tine because she’s a supportive friend hahahaha. Tapos ehem may call sign sya sakin, he called me LD short for LoveyDovey HAHAHAHAHHA JOKE! Ganito kasi yun, may tinanong sya about sa design tapos sinagot ko,

M: thanks LD!

H: whut LD?

M: Lena Dalope -_-

H: wow naman MR! (his initials)

M: Better :3

Eeek kilig me haha. Nagshift na sya after nun di ko na sya nakausap hahaha.

8. A a r o n aka Kuya Artist

here’s the story hahaha yan lang talaga yun hahaha

>> http://takemetohelena.tumblr.com/post/155109648389

The end! I had lots of crushes pero sila yung mga naghighlight hahahaha. This isn’t the really really end tho, I’ll update this pag may dumagdag hahahaha. From 10 - 20 yrs old, sila yung nagcolor ng crushlife ko hahahaha

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