#i don't know how coherent this all was but yeah

[a66-1]

I NEED DRUNK SIMON DRABBLE OR SMTH ALL OKAY BUT I NEED DRUNK SIMON AAAAAAA

thx in advance 😈

(btw ur rules and regulations link isn’t working)

- HalloHello

thank you king for the idea and for the heads up

I accidentally privated the post so it'll be working right after this.

ANYWAYS

Drunk! Simon x Not so drunk! Reader

TW: Very drunk Simon. I think that's it

A/N: fangirling really hard rn

semi-proofread

You stayed up a little later becasue Simon said he'd be home soon, on a little drinking night with his buddies. He's usually good with controlling himself while drinking, but after missions? Man gets shitfaced and is all hugs and kisses and I love yous.

He's a sweetheart when drunk. Not to say he's not always a sweetheart, but when he has no inhibitions and is actually calm and not tense, he's a big old baby. His inner child really plays out.

You hear Gaz pull into your driveway, as he's usually the designated driver for the after mission drinks. You open your door to say hi to Simon but..

You see Gaz get out of the car with Simon. You open your door, waving. Simon doesn't wave back, and Gaz laughes quickly. He brings him up to the steps, and helps Simon walk up the stairs to your front door.

"Hey, darling. I'm handing you your.. Uh.. Very... Drunk boyfriend." Gaz holds back a hard laugh when Simon, his big self, stumbles forward to lean half his weight on you. You support yourself on the door confused.

"How-What-When--" You look for words but they fail you. Gaz shrugs.

"Even we don't know. Johnny told him to slow down, but.." Gaz gestures to the mess Simon is, and tips his head.

"Don't mean to leave you with him, but I got to drop off Price. Just.. Update me, yeah? I don't know why he'd drink so much," Gaz gives you a nice smile, and walks back to his car to drive off. You take Simon's hand, and try to lead him in. Simon laughs softly, a laugh you rarely hear, and he kisses your face a few times.

He gets in the house, just to crumple to the entrys mudroom seat, and leans back back into some of his own work shoes.

"Oh my, ya'... Y'r such a sore for sight eyes.." He mumbles. You tilt your head, in an 'excuse me' motion. He shakes his head, before trying to stand, and falling back.

"No no, love, a-a sight for sore eyes.. Yea' a sight.." He sighs, "I wish I had a girlfriend tha' wa-was like ya'.."

You snicker, covering your mouth. You manage to get him to the couch, and then your bed, taking off his sweaty shirt and changing his jeans to PJ pants.

"'F I ev'r 'ad a girl, 'd wan' her like ya'.." His words seemed to decline in coherence as he got more tired. You nodded slightly, smiling crookedly.

"Like me, you say? Why's that?" You kiss his temple, and he smiles warmly. His smile is the prettiest you've seen, and you love when he's even slightly drunk because he flashes it so much more.

"'M safe with ya'.. Why wouldn't I wan' a girl like ya'," he smiles, and takes your hand, and holds it.. Like a baby. His big ass hand is wrapped around your thumb.

You softly rub his scalp, as he moves himself onto your chest. You have the TV playing, watching your favorite show. Simon is mumbling.. Something, your sure, but he's just putty in your hands. Imagine: a big burly man, drunk, and infatuated in his girlfriend (but he apparently doesn't know) like a small school boy. It's adorable seeing him defenseless for once, relaxed shoulders, and his gaze is just as strong as he gazes up at you. You peck his forehead, and rub the bridge of his previously broken nose.

"Hey, Si, guess what?" You smile softly, your hand holding his jaw. He hums and tilts his head. "Did you know that I'm actually your girlfriend?"

He stares dumbfounded for a moment, before shaking his head.

"Can't be, mm... Y'r too pretty for me." He kisses your palm, and smiles.

"I promise. 2 years strong, honey." You kiss his lips softly, smiling at his cluelessness. His hands grip the sides of your shirt, looking up at you. He doesn't believe you, crazily, he's still got his insecurities.

"No no, ya'... Ya' shouldn't be.. Wasting Y'r time.." You shush him with another kiss, before his head falls onto his chest. He sighs.

"Wasting my time? Si, honey, I love spending my time on you." You kiss the crown of his head, and scratch his head. He mumbles more incoherent thoughts. He's lights out very quickly, and you follow suit a few minutes later.

The morning comes, and so does a very hungover Simon. He groans, sitting up, and wiping his jaw harshly. You were awake, on your phone when you feel him shift.

"Oh, hey baby." You smiled, and out your phone down. He groans, and nuzzles into your neck, complaining about how his head hurts.

"I know, I know. I got some advil for you." You grab the bottle from the side table, and feed him 2.

"God.. I'm.. Was I..?" He rubs his eyes and gives up, seeking comfort in your arms. Your rub his head some more, and move your fingers to rub his temples.

"You gotta stop drinking so hard, baby." You whisper, "I know you don't do it often, but.. Are the mornings worth it?"

He nods, to your surprise, and leans into your hands. "Mm.. Yeah.. It's worth it.. Cuz'.. Ya' rub my head and kiss me and.. Mm... Hug me.."

You kiss his head, and shake your own.

"Next time, just ask okay?" You get a nod as a response from him. He whispers a thank you into your neck, before drifting off to sleep until 1, like usual.

ahh this was so cute to write and I fell asleep writing it so. thats why I'm posting it in the morning.

by babes!!

-a661

#simon ghost riley x you #simon ghost x reader #simon ghost x you #simon riley x you #simon riley x reader #simon fluff #simon ghost riley #simon ghost riley x reader #simon riley #simon riley call of duty #cod x reader #ghost cod #call of duty #cod mw2 #cod #a66-1 #a66-1 asks

[the-hydroxian-artblog]

Are Merch Mimics capable of using assimilation offensively against humans, for self-defense and otherwise? Like, if someone tried to break a toy/game/etc they were inhabiting, could the Mimic instead pull them in?

To a degree, yeah. I should mention though that Victor isn't "in" the TV in any magical sense; spoiler alert: he's the controller Vance is holding! Hence, the eye on the controller reacting to the dialogue. The Victor on the screen is actualy a model he rigged for a homebrew game he coded the old fashioned way, which responds to whatever inputs the controller sends to the Wii.

He actually is an active member of the homebrew community, and loves to mess with electronics the old fashioned way. Almost no one on the forums knows he's a toy bird, but are impressed nonetheless with his little projects, various rail-shooter games, and weird obsession with snarky anthropomorphic birds.

Victor could technically "jump into a game" on a tv screen, but it'd be a bit of a weird process if he doesn't know how to mod the game, so it'd look more like a shitty greenscreen effect rather than anything coherent. He'd need to learn in real time how the game is coded, how to inject arbitrary code into the system while it's running, etc etc. He CAN do that because he's a fucking NERD, but it wouldn't be a quick process at all.

I should also mention, mimics have an inherent ability to create dreams, since they come about from processing the thoughts and ideas of humans. If a human bonds with a mimic, such that the mimic now knows how the human thinks, they can pull a (somewhat) willing human into the dream when the human sleeps. So to wrap this all up: what Victor could do for a game he understands inside and out is pull a human into a dream that happens to match whatever he himself experiences as currently going on in the game. Basically the ultimate VR experience, with the mimic as a middle-man. Which might be something that'll happen in the comic soon....!

So that all seems a bit convoluted, right? Here's even more worldbuilding about matter assimilation by mimics below the cut. Stop here if you don't want a headache.

The reason so many hoops would be needed to pull a human into a game world is that assimilation is much easier on inert, inanimate objects that are not currently "in use" by a thinking thing, or something that relies on constant electrical signals to function. This can be something with brainwaves, or some other kind of animation like a normal robot. A mimic can convert a CRT TV that's turned off somewhat easily, but a TV that's turned on, with particles of every kind constantly moving into and out of it, is much harder to convert.

This means that humans and biological creatures in general are also trickier to convert, though it can still happen if done gradually enough. Hence, Victor wouldn't be able to rapidly convert Vance in one fell swoop, it'd be a whole process. It's easier to just pull a human into a dream instead, and if a mimic undersrands a video game, or a story in a book really well, they can basically make the fictional world into an extremely lucid reality for whatever human tags along with them.

I often describe mimics as just "jojo stands if they were corporeal and could just get up and move around on their own with no user"; you know how in jojo stand battles or old stories about magic curses, if you break the curse or kill the stand before its effect becomes permanent, all of the damage is magically undone? Like if you kill Green Day, the mold stand, all of the molding just instantly stops?

Mimics who use their powers of assimilation offensively work similarly; they can project their influence to a certain range, and partially assimilate matter in that range. If you knock out or kill the mimic, however, everything reverts to normal. A human who doesn't want to get converted can basically just turn around and walk away most of the time, or shoot the mimic, so the mimic in question needs to pull off some trick to get the human to stay within range for the assimilation to fully stick. A human can still break free and get out of range even if fully converted, but it's much harder, as assimilation usually means the mimic gaining greater control over the converted object in question. The exact range and effect mimics have is again like jojo stand ranges; it varies.

Different mimics have different affinities for different things. Victor can assimilate cheap electronics fastest because he likes them and understands how they work (it's why he's a toy bird mp3 player). Az can assimilate guns, and turn ammo into weird anomalous ammo with weird effects. Zachary is a genius who can assimilate any matter, including biological matter, faster than anyone... but he's also extremely picky and hates the sight of blood, so he only uses assimilation on things he really, really likes.

If I could somehow make another read more at this point, I would. It's gonna get messy:

What a weird power and setup though, right? Why? The true nature of mimics is unknown to most of them, but the deepest lore is that the first mimics were constructs made by a people long ago, who first made them as highly advanced machines that'd recognize the thoughts of their masters to fulfill any practical desire. Need a road built? Done. Need a ship repaired? Done. With physical needs all met, the people began to turn inward, and use the mimics to illustrate their own artistic ideas. Eventually, the will and consciousness of these people were assimilated and inherited by mimics, who themselves became people. Mimics spread, altered themselves, duplicated, deviated, fused, split, and wandered around. Getting into recreational wars, manifesting horrors and delights into reality because they could.

Somehow, after the dust settled, the strongest mimics, the angels, decide to set their sights to the stars, and observe other lifeforms develop technology and their own art. Did mimics come to earth millions of years ago, and simply watched humans grow, evolving with them in-tandem? Or did humans make the first mimics, and somehow became undone and set back to the stone age? The answer to this mystery is currently known only to the oldest of mimics. Except Zachary. He's old, but didn't care to remember.

This is generally why mimics seem so compatible with humans; they were made by either them, or people who were, for whatever the reason, very much like them, flaws and all. The ability to assimilate is basically the conversion of matter into a more malleable state of information. A virtually magical power, but this was achieved not through prayers and spells, but a very human-like obsession with developing technology to the point of exerting control over molecules, then atoms, then the lowest planks of matter. The obsession with scaling every mountain and crossing through every valley. To rip the natural world apart, and hopefully, put it back together before it's too late. Angels seek to ensure humanity walks the right path there, but with human's own desires and intent honored, for better or worse.

To answer your question: yes. A mimic of Mario can pull you into the game and you can jump with him and eat shitty low poly spaghetti with him.

The process for doing that is just convoluted and complicated, and you need to get to know each other a bit first. If he tries to use it as an attack though, it either won't work, or it might just wind up giving you mild brain damage.

#Victor #Merch Mimic #worldbuilding #Character Design #Fantasy race design

[anarcho-masochist]

It really is like my brain went, "Wow, those are powerful intrusive thoughts you've got there. You know what's more powerful? Your desire to see this guy traumatized. Have 1.5 days of maladaptive daydreaming about them."

#I'm predicting this will continue for what's left of today #'pulled myself out of it' now but just enough to do things like post online and eat #I predict I'll return #I got up for the first time today (it's 7pm) and was suprised at how weak and shaky i felt #thought 'it is almost as if I experienced everything from the daydream. the power of one's mind over their physical well-being truly is #exceptional isn't it?' and then realized since I hadn't gotten up today I hadn't eaten and 'breakfast' was in the daydream #(was having trouble remembering whether it was or wasn't) #and of course knew I hadn't yesterday save for breakfast #which was real. I ate it outside and it was nice. #oh yeah and yahto fronted for like 10 minutes earlier but all he did was respond to our friend on the main blog and then we switched again #So it really has been a solid 1.5 days of nothing but daydreaming #Not about Cedar this is about the other one #Cedar also featured prominently. He just wasn't the main draw. #It was a coherent plotline but I wouldn't tell not-cedar the details of it on pain of death #I need something to call this person other than “not-cedar” or just using pronouns that WILL NOT communicate to them that it's them #And it's technically people not person but I don't know which they prefer #100% of people I've gotten obsessed with are also plural (all 2 of them) (or 14(?) depending on how you count it) #(Actually. Since I'm specifically obsessed with Cedar not his whole system it's more like 6? people) #(I'm not sure if there's a particular alter I like the most in the second system)

[running-in-the-dark]

(:

#someone please explain to me why I had a damn meltdown every time I had to sit down and write shit for my thesis #and now I'm sitting here writing three damn pages of (I don't know what the hell it is) about the leverage team #no it's not fan fiction no it's not anything coherent it's literally just all the stupid words in my brain puked out via my keyboard #who cares about sleep who cares about doing anything productive I need to talk about how much they love each other before it makes my heart #explode #that was supposed to say head but yeah heart fits too I guess #I was beginning to think I might be getting slightly more normal about them but haha no guess I was wrong #maybe it's the sleep deprivation maybe it's the mental illness maybe it's just life but damn I am really not okay about them #anyway I have to go write more unhinged shit about them. #and maybe also sleep at some point but nah who needs that when there's characters to cry about #literally and figuratively

[threadsun]

Oh WAIT more silly Secret Sun Lore™: I didn't suspect I was bipolar until my roommate in uni watched me go into a manic episode and clean our entire dorm room top to bottom in half an hour (like fully scrubbing the floors and all) while rambling at top speed about how I'm probably immortal for the third time in like a month and was like "hey bro, you know that's not normal, right?"

#sunshine #he was very chill about it but was just like 'you know that's weird right man?' #and then I talked to a psychiatrist and she was like 'oh yeah you hit every criteria for bipolar type 2' #and now I'm on meds that mostly help :3c #but sometimes I still get a lil manic and then you get me rambling in the tags and thinking about everything way too much way too fast #but it keeps me in control of my impulses now #so I don't do or say things I regret later during manic episodes anymore which is nice! #now I'm thinking too much and too fast about social stigmas around mental illness #and how people worry about interacting with me when I'm manic #which is annoying because I'm still Me when I'm manic? What are people so afraid of? #like people will listen to me talk/watch me post when I'm manic like 😬 cause they expect me to feel embarrassed about it later #or like... not feel the same way as I do when I'm manic and therefore no longer mean what I said/posted? #but nah that doesn't happen when I'm medicated #I'm just Sun but like 5x speed and that's okay #I can be interacted with safely when I'm like this #like listen if I'm coherent enough to format things and correct all my spelling errors and stuff then I'm fine #if I wasn't okay then my posts wouldn't be readable #secret sun lore

[kyouka-supremacy]

@ Kunikidazai shippers y'all should really take in consideration Kunikidazai The Good Place AU because it'd be perfect fit for them!!

#bsd tgp au #Really fascinated by the concept of Chidi! Kunikida... Kunikida is far more confident and decisive than Chidi– #but there's something about being true to their ideals that makes Chidi's role so perfectly fitting for him #Kunikida would be all like “I CAN'T report Dazai (as much as I'd want to) I MUST be coherent with my kantian ideal of keeping my word” #(Btw Dazai would totally take advantage of this. He'd totally scheme to make it so that the only person to know he doesn't belong there– #is also the one that is the only one perfectly incapable of reporting him) #Also I like how Kunikida's far too idealized profile of soulmate we know he has in canon– #translates in him not having a soulmate in heaven... Except he does but it was not how he expected it (if you know you know) #But it does relate to Chidi's grief for not having a soulmate in episode 5 of season 1 very well #Meanwhile Eleanor's evolution towards becoming a better person can be fairly paralleled by Dazai #It would work pretty well with sskk too though!! #Differently from Kunikida Atsushi would perfectly match Chidi's perpetual anxiety and nervousness ahah #And intellectual university professor Atsushi is so cool... #And I just want. Atsushi and Akutagawa helping each other become a better person. Yeah that. That would be good #Akutagawa very reluctantly having to ask Atsushi for help despite he'd rather die again than do so I'm screaming. Atsushi being there like. #dude I don't understand do you want my help or not???? #Akutagawa is perfect foil for Eleanor because he's literally all about hating people better than him #Great now I want to read this so bad 😭😭😭 #Please watch The Good Place if you haven't it's SO good #bsd #doppo kunikida #osamu dazai #kunikidazai #atsushi nakajima #ryūnosuke akutagawa #sskk #bsd au #mine #My problematic trait is making tags three times longer than the post #q.

[wheeler-things]

Alright, I previously alluded to the fact that I have some opinions regarding the OTHER two unaccounted for D&D antagonists as foreshadowing, so here it is (this is sort of just me rambling at 2 AM but I needed to get these stray thoughts out of my head before I could sleep):

(Note: this is a spin off from this post where I was speculating about the possibility that Vecna foreshadows something other than Henry Creel, and I'll be referencing my conclusions from that in this post as well because that post inspired/brought about this one.)

So, in terms of the Thessalhydra, I highly suspect that it's foreshadowing for the creature with the gaping mouth that Nancy saw in her vision. Like, we're definitely seeing whatever that creature was in s5, because they wouldn't have brought it up otherwise, and Will's painting makes the Thessalhydra relevant again so... yeah, I'm pretty confident about this one.

Regarding the Juju hoard... well.

Okay, so, I'm of two minds on this.

Because it's introduced in s3 and it's a hoard of basically zombies which are attacking a town, which Mike's PC self sacrifices in a fiery explosion to destroy. And in s3, we have the Flayed who are basically a hoard of zombies attacking Hawkins, which Hopper (who has so many narrative ties to Mike I swear to God, Hop is literally just Mike, but straight, a more bitter adult, and good at sports rather than science) self sacrifices in a fiery explosion to destroy. Of course, Hopper improbably survives, but imo that also makes sense, because what does Mike do when Will shows his frustration? Offers to walk it back and "finish the campaign for real". It all fits.

But...

Okay, so here's the thing.

We all know there's something up with the spores.

I've seen lots of people expressing irritation about them, as well, because they used to be treated as very serious/dangerous when the Lab was sending people into the Upside Down in s1-2, and the characters (especially the Party) took precautions when they went into the tunnels in s2, but as of s4, that seems to have gone out the window.

However, I actually don't think this is inconsistent at all. Because what happened in s1-2? Nancy went into the Upside Down without a mask and came out fine. Will certainly didn't have a mask all s1, and he might not have been totally fine but there was never any implication that the spores did anything particularly harmful to him. Hopper went into the tunnels without a proper mask and came out fine. Joyce and Bob went in without masks and came out fine. Mike went in with a mask but it fell down (I believe? Sorry, I'm not going back to 100% confirm this right now), and he was fine. Dustin's mask fell down and he got sprayed directly in the mouth with a bunch of spores, and he was fine.

Why would the characters bother to waste time with figuring out masks on top of everything else in s4 when they have never seemed to be necessary?

Sure, the government insisted on its agents wearing full protective gear when walking into the UD, but that's easy enough to rationalize, given that the local Hawkins monster hunters arguably have the most experience with the UD at this point, and... government rules are not always put into place because they're necessary. Sometimes, there are added precautions just in case.

I think it would be really easy for the protagonists to have come to the consensus that all the masking and protective gear was there because the government didn't yet know what they were dealing with/because it helped cover the butts of whoever was calling the shots, on the off chance it turned out the spores WERE dangerous. But our crew knows better! They may not have a massive sample size, but they do have a sample size that consists of most of their group, which seems to suggest that breathing in the spores is harmless. So, why bother with protective gear if it's just going to get in the way while you're running/fighting/if it's just going to slow you down while you're prepping for a fight, when you "know" there's no benefit to it?

...However. I've been thinking about Hopper's story about his exposure to Agent Orange, and...

"I used to think I was cursed. Ever since I was eighteen. Got some letter of induction in the mail. Uncle Sam wants me to go fight some war in the jungle. Charlie's moving South like a plague because of commie bastards like you, and... You know, I'm happy enough to go. Prove to my old man I'm not the piece of shit he thinks I am. I get over there, I must test well, and they put me in the Chemical Corps. There I am. I'm just a kid, you know? I'm eighteen years old, eight thousand miles away, and I'm mixing up these fifty-five gallon drums of Agent Orange. With just these kitchen gloves, you know? We used to clean out these buffalo turbines after a run, and just be inhaling the stuff. No masks, nothing. 'It's not chemical warfare; it's just herbicide to kill plants.' Harmless. That's what they told us."

Except, of course, Agent Orange was not harmless. Not in real life, and not in the show.

And the writers/producers connect it implicitly/narratively to the Upside Down, because Enzo (I cannot remember his real name to save my life rn) listens to this story, and then immediately starts talking about the Demogorgon. And then the scene cuts, and the next thing we see is the government agents inspecting Wayne Munson's trailer and deciding, upon realizing that a Gate has begun to open in his ceiling.

And what I find really interesting is that Hopper's description of their protective gear ranges from makeshift (like the masks and goggles the Party and Steve use in the tunnels in s2-- an attempt at safety and better than nothing, but nowhere near the level of protection they should have) to nothing at all (like all of s4 and many of the instances in s1 and s2 when the Lab isn't physically forcing someone into properly protective gear).

And now the spores are falling over all of Hawkins. Everybody in that town has been exposed.

And I'm just saying... "apocalypse scenario where if you've been exposed to the spores and you die in the UD/near an open UD gate, you come back as part of the UD's army/transform into something mindless and hungry and tied into the hivemind"? It seems like we could be going there.

Which would potentially build something of equivalence to Will's Juju hoard.

And... look, it's me. I can't not link this back to my developing Mike-as-Vecna theory. Excuse me while I take a break from theorizing and write a mini bullet point fic about this concept, I guess:

I can so clearly see a hypothetical scenario in my head, where Mike throws himself in front of a deadly blow that was meant for Lucas, and he's lying there dying with the Party all around him absolutely horrified, presumably gathered up in Will's arms lbr, and, like.

Essentially (unknowingly) trying to recreate his sacrifice in the s3 campaign just, like, ever the strategist, begging them to burn his body as soon as he's dead (I assume they'd have fuel and lighters on them if they're neck deep in an UD-based apocalypse scenario), because he can't come back to hurt them if his body is burned to ash.

And, like, Lucas having to steel his jaw to try and follow through on just that (because I can't imagine Dustin doing anything but freaking out/possibly having Eddie flashbacks, and Will... yeah, no, that's not happening, so it's really just up to Lucas to follow through).

But Will's having none of it.

I say, while my brain wildly chants "s2 Halloween parallel! Will's grasping onto Mike's corpse and desperately calling for him, begging him to wake up and just hold on until help gets there, until Will can take him home! Lucas reaching out to touch Will's shoulder, to take Mike's body out of his grip, and Will shoving him away and clinging tighter to Mike! Lucas trying to gently but urgently talk Will into letting Mike go, and Will absolutely refusing, maybe even suggesting that Lucas and Dustin should get out of there just in case, but this is Mike and Will's staying."

And then there's movement from Mike-- who was definitely dead a moment ago-- in Will's arms. Movement, and everyone's flinching back/Lucas and Dustin are hauling Will back. But, somehow, Mike's coming back to life without any of the usual changes most corpses go through before they become part of the hivemind. Maybe not 100% healed, maybe still very much in need of medical attention and lots of rest, maybe still in pain, but alive again.

Somehow, impossibly, he's still Mike, and the instant that's obvious, Will's ripping out of Lucas and Dustin's grip to go back to him, while Lucas and Dustin are left looking hesitantly between each other and Mike, because this isn't how it's supposed to go, and they're glad Mike's alive, somehow, but also, this can't bode well.

Spoiler: it does not bode well, because the only reason he wasn't turned into anything is because Mike is already tied to the UD, and at least his repressed emotions in the shadow monster are already hooked into the hivemind so he's needed alive but not as a drone, and it's the weirdness of him being Fine that pushes everyone (or maybe just a select few at first) to start to understand what's going on with Mike and how it connects to the UD.

ANYWAY, with that mini fic-adjacent detour out of the way...

I also think if the spores have the ability to turn people into hivemind-linked monsters, then this could link to the idea that Henry is actually slowly being turned into a Demogorgon or something similar (my beloved-- I love that theory so much you don't understand). AND might actually be able to explain a bit about how Will ended up developing his powers (assuming, as this theory tends to do, that Will developed his powers, in whatever capacity they end up existing in s5, from exposure to the UD rather than via experimentation or spontaneous development).

Bringing this back from my previous post...

^ link to the source site

I'm just saying... it says some wizards who want to gain "godlike supremacy" (it's Henry it's Henry it's Henryit'sHenry) are turned into these monsters. Some. Not all.

I'm just saying... Henry as a "wizard" wandering the UD, seeking to control it, being hooked into the hivemind and slowly (so slowly he doesn't notice what's wrong) being turned into yet another piece on the Mind Flayer/shadow monster's chess board vs. Will as a "wizard" (I mean, it's what he plays in D&D) wandering the UD, just wanting to go home, being hooked into the hivemind, but through that being gifted abilities he has yet to fully understand/utilize. Idk I can see it, that's all I'm saying. Plus, s2 Mike, who may be connected to the UD, identifies Will as a cleric when he actually plays a wizard... I don't know, something something Will was given the tools/the power to "fix"/"heal" the UD all the way back in s1, but simply hasn't realized his potential yet? I don't know. That's probably a Bit Much to actually happen in canon, but I find it so interesting to consider.

Anyway, that's all the rambling I have in me for the evening. Glad I got it out of my head, even if it's maybe-incomprehensible.

#my analysis #<- barely coherent analysis but yeah I guess #mike as vecna theory #I don't know how else to tag this lol so that's all it's getting I guess #no but seriously I really love this theory because like #Mike as the Paladin who unintentionally “strayed from the path” of righteous and light expected of his class #breaking down in front of Will because it's all his fault-- everything that happened to everyone it's ALL on Mike #everything that happened to WILL is all on Mike #and Will forgiving him because of course he does because Mike didn't know and didn't mean to #Will as the cleric giving Mike that first breath of “absolution”

[astrxealis]

i think haurchefant deserves the world. he deserves absolutely everything.

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #⋯ ꒰ა ffxiv ໒꒱ *·˚ #dear god i don't think he's even in my top 10 or even 15 but i love him with all my HEART ................... #just so happens my way of favouriting characters is like mhmmhmhmhmh yeah your vibe fits mine frfr #ANYWAYS i will one day write him just talking to my wol. w hot choco #my wol is like me and so smiles and happiness are central to her and important to her but she keeps giving #and doesn't really know how to take. in a way. like me haha. and it connects to how she's a Hero. the warrior of light #and shes light. she's joy. she's a star. but she's also just an adventurer and she doesn't know who she is anymore #outside of her being the warrior of light ... hence i should insert drk in her lore somehow. idk how. but somehow #and that's why her meeting zenos AWAKENED something in her. and that's why fandaniel did too. and. reaper #but in the end she's a summoner and astrologian! she heals and she accepts like. ig help. from others #and i think g'raha and haurchefant both are really a big help in that. and i think my wol is pretty alike to raha #but since shb she's been more assertive ............... man wtf my wol is so similar to me sobs </3 ANYWAYS. ANYWAYS. yeah #i love my warrior of light vv much and all my xiv ocs even if i don't have coherent thoughts #i was thinking making uhmm . i still haven't decided a name for m viera. BUT. i was thinking of making him have a twin #but like. Opposite. then i rmbr i already have twin warrior of lights bcs me and my irl twin like to yeah oops. so yeah #I FORGOT THE LORE I WANT FOR MY OCS NOOOOO aside from their ancient counterparts SOBS #anyways i'm just rambling abt my ocs now so whatever hi. 2 minutes to 4 am goodness me #so my wol is romantically involved w raha ever since arr! don't wnt to make her poly even tho i think poly is very valid bcs ya #BUT i think yeah aus maybe. but also no. i'm so attached to raha that idk tbh #raha's gone for some time so in that time she kinda has stuff goin on w others ..... like lyse and magnai! zenos! idk who else..... #but then uhmm she canonically at the very least has stuff going on w themis and hyth. and zenos. man idk how to do fandaniel though #themis and her get along really well in pandaemonium but i forgot how i was gna go about w it all eeeee #and w hyth! i know the whole thing going on w azem wol hyth themis at least hehe yes. + raha. #idk yet how i'll be able to insert zenos in canon tbh. and i want to put fandaniel somewhere at the very least but nah nvm #i have au ideas too tbh like if wol joined zenos's side. idk how i wanted that to go. just thought it'd be interesting #oh shit it's 4 am GOODNIGHT

[britneyshakespeare]

ok but like do i wanna know by am coming out ten years ago is craziness

#ten years TODAY (6/19!!!) #didn't post about it till late in the day but whaaaaat the fuck #IVE BEEN HERE SO LONG #ive had a lot of thoughts about arctic monkeys and the am album cycle a lot lately. i might make a post about it might not #i haven't been very coherent at forming my thoughts lately #not that 'coherent' is the best word for how i usually am but you know what i normally am? i can get shit done #text post #tales from diana #6/19/2013 arctic monkeys released their best-selling single to date with over a billion youtube views on the music video etc etc #on 6/19/2023 i had a doctor's appointment and was diagnosed with hashimoto's thyroiditis #and of course juneteenth on this day in 1865 #an historic day for everyone really #also other news at the doctor that is bittersweet but im not ready to talk about it all in detail #as i've mentioned in passing on here these past several months i am NOT McFreakin Okay #and my lab results very much confirmed that in a lot of ways #yeah in some ways which i don't think i'll publicly name on my blog which is available to any stranger w internet access.... yeah no #these cards i will mainly hold close to myself but hashimoto's is quite common so i don't feel ashamed of that at all #i got referrals to several specialists though yaaaay

[snurtle]

The weirdest thing to me is Orihime is so... Seperate from everyone else. At first she got her powers from Ichigo, same as Chad, but then wait, Chad's actually just a fullbringer, shuffle him off to a different category, so Orihime's very unique and yet... It's unexplored? I know she has like two fights she REALLY gets to participate in (and one's in the FILLER) but she's made so special and so unused it makes for the weirdest vibe. Honestly all Ichigo's human friends get wasted but her case is special to me.

Oh god, don't get me started on the rest of the human crew. My tears, endless. And yet! Ripe and fertile grounds for plenty of fanfiction/ fan speculation! So it's not all bad, i suppose.

Anyway, I believe??? We get a crumb of validation vis a vis Fullbringers and their generalized weirdness in the novels...

[ lore spoilers for CFYOW and TYBWA if you're invested in keeping up with the anime + extra canon novels in order. Light spoilers under this note, heavy (picture/manga) spoilers under the cut]

I think that it's in CFYOW that Fullbringers are explained as actually having Tiny Mincemeat Pieces of the Soul King in them, which is what makes them so deliciously enticing to hollows. It's also said that you can have bigger/smaller pieces, leading to differentials in power.

And yet. Aura has a full organ (the soul chain/ power amplification organ) , and while she can put Kisuke Urahara on the back foot, that's still not quite the same as what Orihime does. Even for a fullbringer (if she does actually fit into that category along with Chad), she's pretty weird.

I don't beef super hard with her not participating in fights; it's cool that by the fullbringers' entrance, she's not afraid to get into the down and dirty of it, though. I mean, she does this to Ginjo:

and that's just some regular-degular boundaries and self-defense in in the day of a lady who can--

tank hits from Ywhach by the end of TYBW???

After he's absorbed the Soul King, no less. Her shield doesn't even crack.

Like. What's up with that? Weird vibes in fucking deed.

Husb also added an interesting aside, to the tune that souls in Bleach can be overwhelmed by spiritual power that far supersedes their own. It crushes them, renders them sweaty and unable to breathe- lays them flat out on the ground, in the case of Nanao with Yamamoto, or pulps them into paste outright (sometimes without them even being aware of it), such as Hyogoku! Moth-Aizen and that poor random human in Karakura.

It's not that Orihime is going to get 0hko'd, or that she couldn't sense Ywhach's reiatsu. If that were the case, her shield wouldn't be able to block a blow. Which leaves another scenario open to possibility....

So yeah. Weird vibes!

#asking for a friend: what filler arc is that again? I do love the filler with my entire heart i just don't remember it very well #me- tearing open my shirt to reveal a gay little croptop that just says MURAMASA on it #anyway i'm not going to get into pure power scaling nonsense #because i believe that 'power scaling' and 'narrative function' can't actually be separated from each other #and that the camera-man/visual narrator of bleach is neither omniscient nor objective #but that's a whole nother topic for a whole nother ask LOL #suffice to say orihime is weird as fuck and! despite supporting main cast position #yeah- kinda underutilized LOL #I would actually kill for an extended Orihime/Unohana interaction #that would be so fucking juicy you don't even understand #THE CONFLICTING IDEOLOGIES ALONE could knock out power in a 100 km radius #orihime #orihime inoue #bleach #spoilers #i don't even know how to categorize this tbh but it's fun to talk about it! #i feel like i have nothing coherent to add except 'you're so right bestie' to all the guys coming into my inbox today

[iniziare]

/breathes calmly. Tifa—

#[ tifa lockhart. ] she had buried the twinges of guilt beneath the narcissism of self-sacrifice. beneath the belief of 'the greater good'. #[ one day i will go at that water tower scene one line at a time on here rather than in discord. ] #[ and i'll do so coherently and logically. ] #[ touching on the word choice of teenagers-- their physical reactions. these voice actors' performances of these lines. ] #[ gestures-- everything. there is so much here but it infuriates me because so much is overlooked. ] #[ and then i'm asked to look at an analysis and i truly feel like i'm told to walk through a dense set of woods with two lit matches. ] #[ or like twenty. ] #[ i've been listening to a tower; a promise for the last hour after having watched the scene for almost 2 hours on the 2nd monitor. ] #[ feral. /feral/ i am about this scene. square enix is nothing short of incredible at depicting human nature. ] #[ the spot where she chooses to sit; what not seeing his facial expressions is indicative of. ] #[ when we keep in mind that they haven't actually genuinely spoken before that moment-- ] #[ like remember-- nojima specified (i will find this back i swear) that cloud's recollection of even younger tifa... ] #[ going 'are you ignoring me?!' during that flashback? is not a genuine memory. it didn't happen that way. ] #[ can we stop forgetting that cloud is an /unreliable narrator/? ] #[ but any way-- /stop forgetting they don't know each other/. not beyond being familiar faces. ] #[ but even just in the moment. she can't see him and /he can't see her/. ] #[ can we talk about how... her 'sadness' initially isn't just aimed at cloud leaving? she specifically says 'all the guys are--'. ] #[ i can touch on every line but lemme focus on a few here-- cloud's little attempt at getting a reaction from her... ] #[ 'yeah. so i won't be back for a long time.' the cool guy. not only does it fail-- 'guess not'. immediate. no thought. no hesitation. ] #[ and then immediately goes to 'think you'll be in the papers?' ] #[ this is the first moment she smiles. you can see it amidst the blur but you can especially hear it in her voice. her tone brightens. ] #[ she looks up; wistful. and it's still there when the camera focuses on her and she mentions the wish. ] #[ and her phrasing is interesting-- 'and when you're a famous soldier'. that on its own can be seen as just phrasing but... ] #[ the inclusion of 'please? just once'. just once. it's not about cloud in specific. it's about being saved. ] #[ and ALSO; can we talk about how it isn't cloud who talks about SOLDIERs being heroes? ] #[ she talks about a 'hero'. not him. he doesn't mention heroes at all; can we talk about that for a second? ] #[ u g h. tag limit again-- i keep counting. don't mind me. i'm not saying tifa is 'selfish'. but i'm saying tifa is being selfish. ] #[ and that makes her an increeeeeedibly interesting character. but i need people to realize and talk about this? u g h. ] #[ also-- ALSO-- did this scene even happen this way? nOMURA AND NOJIMA?? ]

[apollo-cackling]

I just realised. under a specific interpretation of her lore, hornet's transfem.

like all the children of PK are genderless bc they're all void right like hornet's specifically pointed out to be "the gendered child".

so one interpretation of her could be "hornet was assigned genderless at birth but who's female, thereby being a different gender, female, than the one she was assigned at birth, thereby being transfem"

#I don't know if this is coherent at all hakdjlahdf #like I haven't brushed up on hk lore for a bit #but like I'm *pretty* sure this doesn't outright contradict anything #also to be clear the interpretation part is that the thing this is hinging on - hornet being assigned genderless at birth - #isn't confirmed either way iirc #also quirrel is trans that one's just outright true I don't have textual proof but c'mon you *cannot* say he doesn't have transmasc swag #also I love how everyone I show hornet to just sees her and goes. oh yeah that's definitely a lesbian #like I can't explain it! but you just look at her #and you just see #she's lesbian shaped???

[rheineorshine]

had a gender moment today where I was like. oh. I'm a baby butch.

#not sure how much sense that makes typed that way #bit more of an explanation it's like... I'm NOT a butch! not yet! #but? I maybe could be? I could maybe get there? #and it's neat to think about all the butches I've seen and realize that yeah I want that I want that so badly #and who knows if I'll ever get there #but it's alright and its ok because I am currently just #a fledgling butch #a maybe butch #butch potential #and I don't need to be a butch already its enough that i could maybe be one someday #and that moment and realization is the most i have actively wanted to live in years #not in a wanting to die way but in an actively being excited about aging way #not sure this is coherent to anyone else but also this is for me? so? #rheine babbles #gender

[royalberryriku]

I'm not very far through it, but 'The Library of Broken Worlds' by Alaya Dawn Johnson is delightfully new and inspiring.

Maybe this is a little pessimistic to say, but I always figured that most stories have already been told to some degree, in the sense that we will all inevitably write using a pre-existing archetype in world building regardless of if we intend to, and only different variations on these archetypes were left to tell, but this book is proving me wrong left and right; showing a world that is so thoroughly unique and beautiful in its creativity and world building that I can't help but reevaluate that mentality. I have yet to know more of the story or the overall theme, but so far this book has proven to be wonderfully delightful in its handling of a whole new and distant world and incredibly original. It's written in such a compelling way that reveals its lore and rules spectacularly and uses a very unique method of writing that, while has been done before, feels fresh in its delivery. It's one thing to tell a story, but another to tell it to a god. I highly recommend it even if I'm only going from the first one and a half chapters; that was all it took for this book to blow me away.

#alaya dawn johnson #the library of broken worlds #I need to get into more of her(?) novels and short stories #what an incredible writer to be able to reveal such a refreshing new world in a way that is understandable and coherent to the audience #it's such a remarkable skill to be able to go down the show as is route rather than conveniently translate #which isn't to say the latter is at all bad in fact I love it and it's very helpful #but it's an amazing skill to be ABLE TO show a world and its rules without using translation and simply SHOWING a world so different to ours #it's actually very effective in showing readers how little we know and much more we can learn of a new culture and world(s) #it's so interesting and compelling #idk how to even word this in a way that gives it justice #but it's just so good #actually tangent but it's part of why I love the writing done by some friends of mine who do similar things #esp when they incorporate old folklore into fantasy and sci fi?? Like esp from their own cultures and incorperate it I love that sm #Amd the way they disgard translation to SHOW that culture in its beauty rather than try to water it down?? I love that so much #And it just takes a really skillful writer to be able to pull people in who don't understand or may even refuse to leave what they know #That's such a wonderful skill and I will always love it when a writer takes us from what we're used to into what we don't #and what we SHOULD learn if only we had the courage to leave the comfort of what we know and understand #Anyway yeah don't mind me I'm jusy gushing again

[chaotic-history]

I'll never get over how much I love this book

#catcher in the rye #it's all goddam[n] fun and games one page; and then the next page rips your soul apart and puts it back together #legitimately this is The book that saved my life. because Holden isn't a terrible person; he's a kid who's suffering. #and maybe if I don't think he's a terrible person; then I don't have to think I'm a terrible person #he doesn't hate people and he doesn't hate the world but it's so much easier to pretend you do #the easiest response when you're falling and falling and falling is simply not to care. if you don't care about anything then nothing hurts #but you *have* to care about something no matter how hard it is; because he's right; the idea of family you fucking hate at your funeral is #- shitty. so living is the only option and finding things you love is the only way to do that #it's late and i don't know how much of this is coherent but. yeah.

[rubysparx]

Honestly I don't think I'm qualified to make this post, I just don't know if I can make coherent enough words man. But the thoughts are in there and I will try to articulate them. This is probably going to be mostly images though. anyway yeah KABRU POST.

A couple nights ago (at approximately 2:30am, lasting a little over half an hour) I had a bit of a moment about Kabru. That, too, was mostly images- most of what you see in this more concise post were presented then as well. I think my main points of the "moment" were about Kabru's trauma + self hatred, his autism and/or general otherness, and also a little labru if you'd like..

I think something easy to start with is I wanna point out Kabru's constant back and forth and conflicting opinions of demihumans and how, I believe, thats a reflection of how he goes back and forth on what he believes his purpose of living is- and the general worth of his own life. I've said it before and i've just kinda shown it in images; Kabru is "i think im a monster and it disgusts me" where Laios is "I know im a human and it disgusts me" (i could go more into the latter on another post)

the above are both from the world bible, with the left being from the section on kobolds and the right being from the section on Kuro specifically. Utaya was very near to the desert where most of the kobold population is, this is likely why Kabru is able to speak Kuro's language- he grew up around demihumans. (chapter 48 cover, kobold chapter in the world bible) I won't try to speak for how his mother or the rest of utaya felt about the kobolds but I can say that Kabru was very much othered as a child, as was his mother, purely for the way her son's (kabru) eyes looked.

I feel like its fair enough to say that both kabru and the kobolds were othered, and possibly for similar reasons (villager's seeing them as nonhuman, as monsters) and the fact that Kabru learned their language probably didn't help his case. I think his perception of kobolds (and all demihumans, subsequently himself, as he probably still views himself as nonhuman or not human enough.. deep down) was damaged by the Utaya incident. at 2:30am when I first started this ramble my main comment was that "had the utaya incident not happened kabru would have little reason to feel ashamed for his connection to monsters. and may have ended up similar to laios in that he couldve had otherkin swag" which is just a sort of silly way of saying Kabru could've learned to love the thought that he is possibly nonhuman or at least not hated himself so much for it.

in the original ramble I said, and quote, "he has been STALKING laios. laios is his hyperfixation to learn how he can ever be loved. he keeps going back and forth so harshly on wether or not he wants to kill Laios and he clearly sees his survival from utaya not as an unfortunate trauma [*] but as a necessary, deserved fate. a punishment for his mother's witchy sins, and for his sin of being non-human. to atone for it all, to apologize for being alive, he tries to better the lives of all humanity. He was set on his way to dethrone the governor of the island . do you understand? im going insane" *i also said somethings about the way he processes other people's traumas and not his own. He's able to understand and even help some people, but he struggles to process his own issues and see himself as worthy of love and life.

^some examples of Kabru being understanding of or helping others who have suffered greatly. I think its also worth mentioning that with Rin (called "Lynn" in that translation) he says "I wish there was a way to get her out of this" though he's insisted and pushed for himself to go into a dungeon;

In chapter 94, Mithrun says "The desire I had left wasn't revenge. All I wanted.. was for it to finish devouring me." and I don't feel like it's a stretch to say Kabru was in a similar situation. Mithrun sought out the demon with no plan on how to kill something like that because deep down he wanted it to end his (Mithrun's) own life, to finish the trauma it caused and kill him. I think Kabru went into the dungeon in part with the hopes that it'd kill him. That the same thing that destroyed Utaya and caused him so much trauma would just.. finish him.

I just think Kabru is a beautifully complex character, I have a lotta thoughts on him and I don't see nearly as many analysis posts for him than I do Laios (despite labru being such a popular ship)

there is no tldr for this post idk how to summarize it. do what you will with this collection of images. have fun. go crazy

fun fact the woman in the bottom left corner is his mother, she is labeled here as "witch"

#dungeon meshi #delicious in dungeon #dunmeshi #kabru #kabru dungeon meshi #kabios #labru #yeah its a long post i dont care. read it #also i only mentioned it briefly but i do think kabru is autistic . #yk that post thats like 'no im not autistic i know all the social cues etc etc etc. hey wait a minute' yeah. that #ok whatever. starts making another laios post