#i cant be the only one who thinks of this stuff

[strangestofthings12]

This is going to be a very rambling and venty post cause im tired and annoyed and honestly am just using this to vent my anger/hurt. there is going to be stuff that can maybe be seen as anti tommy/bucktommy (please dont tell me a ship name to put i dont care about if they do have an agreed upon ship name right now) so if you dont want that please just move on. i dont want to fight i just want to yell into the void on a stupid throw away account so i dont bring my negativity stew and come out on my main blog where i just want to enjoy my stuff and just keep happy energy. I dont normally post and try and just find someone who explains it better because im not great and getting what im saying across or understood the way i want, so please bear with me. With that said i will move on to what i want to say

Okay so i have been watching 9-1-1 for years and i love and adore it. Its characters and dynamics and i have always loved found family. Now i will admit that i started watching it thinking that Buck and Eddie were a couple and had a son so i was kinda watching for it. Do i think if i didn't start watching thinking that i would ship them still yes 100%. I have always loved their relationship and i have loved watching both Buck and Eddie grow and start to be happy while also having each others back even at the worst times. Sometimes if i think to hard about Eddie and start crying cause I'm very normal about this show and it characters. Now Eddie is my favorite character in the show and at least in my top five overall favorite characters. I love him and his development and i adore seeing how much he does to just do right by Chris even when he messes up you can tell how much he adores that boy and how badly he wants to give Chris the best life possible. I could write essays about Eddie Diaz trying to explain how much i love him and why and i think words would run out before i could finish making people understand. Buddie is my favorite ship (sometimes second depending on my mood. i would say sorry but Henren and Madney will always be amazing ships and sometimes i just cant stop think about them)(Sorry Bathena i love you too i swear i just cant decide if i wanna kiss athena or be adopted by bobby and athena:( Its confusing) and has been for quite awhile and is one of my overall favorites and its one of my comfort ships.

With that context when bi Buck happened i was so insanely happy and i wouldnt shut up about it. it made me sick. i was so happy for Buck and while i think a part of me will always be a little sad Eddie wasnt his first kiss with a guy i dont think either of them are ready for that. i also understand that it wouldnt make sense for how the story is going right now. Now i have nothing against bucktommy in the show. I have watched the kiss scene and sobbed to much to pretend like i hate them or even dislike them. However I genuinely dont care about Tommy. Hes kinda bland and i forget about him half the time and before they brought him back i completely forgot his name. in my mind he was the one that wasnt as much of an asshole to chim and hen as the other two assholes which wasnt saying a lot. Now I dont dislike tommy nor am i going to act like hes irredeemable because neither Chim nor Hen seem to think hes still that guy and while they dont seem super close they seem to get along so clearly, he's not like that anymore. I have nothing that makes me dislike him nor do I like him. He's just there. He's just the guy buck kissed. Thats all he means to me. I would give up his screen time for Ravi or May or Karen in a heartbeat. because i love them cause they mean something to me. I don't think i thought about the fact that people might actually like him especially not more than EDDIE.

This is where the context matters cause i am to my core a one ship per person girly. I might see a ship and people who like it and even think thats not a terrible ship but i will still only look at content for my ship for that person (ie. i ship Destiel (dont say anything bad about them ill cry<3) but i can see the way someone would also ship Dean and Benny or crowley or Cas and Crowley or Mick but i will ignore the ship and move on and look at more Dean and Cas). normally i will just ignore the ship and move on because im not who its for. If it gets annoying in my tag or anything like that ill block it or whoever is annoying me cause its not a them problem that i dont want to see it. When i start to have a problem is when multiple people arent tagging right for whatever reason or people who are being rude about the ship i like because of their ship. When I started seeing Bucktommy stuff more and more in the 9-1-1 tag i went to the buddie tag cause i dont want to see them. my problem is that when im reading on AO3 and click on a fic tagged Buddie where bucktommy get married. it was literally just hurting Eddie. There was stuff before like id be scrolling though the buddie tag here and see someone saying that Tommy is a better character then Eddie and saying that they hope bucktommy is endgame. Whatever block and move on. Just like always but then people who have shipped buddie for years who ive seen talk about them are suddenly saying that they like bucktommy better. People who started watching because of bucktommy saying they dont like Eddie. People are going to have different opinions but it still bugged me. and then i read that and i was just hurt because it was tagged happy ending and i cannot fathom ever thinking Eddie hurting and pining is a happy ending. So i started to get more annoyed and i hate when that happens especially with a show i love and a character i dont dislike so i tried to just move on but more and more people are taking about it then i saw someone saying that they wanted eddie to die so buck and tommy can have Chris.

I just hate that so many people are jumping on the bucktommy train and saying that they like it better than buddie something that is so good and sweet or saying that they like Tommy more than Eddie. I just dont get it cause Tommy is boring. like yeah we now some about him and he flies a helicopter but hes forgettable he could be a completely different person and next to nothing would have to change. We have seen Eddie at his worst and claw his way back up and hes finally letting himself be open and honest and soft. Eddie couldnt be replaced. Now im not saying Tommy can't be an interesting character but as he is right now?? He just isnt. Hes just as bland as every women (minus Taylor and Shannon) Buck and Eddie have dated and been hated on for no reason!!! Like i get that Tommy is a guy and we got canon Bi Buck and people are happy but those same people turn around and shit on Marisol from what ive seen(I could be wrong cause again i have done my best to avoid). Buddie fans arent safe from that either, cause we all know that Buddie fans do that but so many of those people who hated on them and said they didnt want them with anyone else suddenly decided that they were okay if Buck ended up with any guy. I dont know its just weird and i hate how many people are acting like Eddie isnt always going to be better then Tommy. Part of me wanted Tommy to stick around and help Buck and Eddie figure it all out but now?? i honestly just cant wait for him to be gone cause I want to have fun and read fics for my comfort ship and just chill where i can see all of my ships in the show without buck and tommy being everywhere or people saying crap about Eddie.

I have more to say but most of its about how gratifying waiting and seeing where this whole thing goes(Buddie season 8 PLEASE!!) and this is already why to long and i think im just going in circles and none of this makes sense so ima shut up for now and hopefully this will help it not fester and drive me insane and become a tommy hater

Edit: but i also hate that Tommy calls Buck Evan so he already had some stuff against him rip

#911 #buddie #anti bucktommy #i guess?? #i dont know #i dont know what to tag this and just hope i dont upset anyone #anti tommy kinard #again i guess #but not really?? #let me know if i need to add any tags:)

[yarrayora]

post-canon where magic is revealed and vampires try to integrate into human society while the aliceins, hugh, tsubaki, and perhaps even gear probably have enough funds to help the subclasses when necessary, it doesn't solve one fundamental problem that even money will have trouble buying: a stockpile of blood

buying and selling blood is usually limited for healthcare organizations and scientific reasons, and although feeding vampires would count as healthcare you can just hear people saying we should prioritize the living but only because there's a new subspecies to oppress. lmao.

anyway i tried googling whether it's legal or not for an individual to give/sell blood to another individual and as expected i can't find shit so i'm making stuff up now

after all manga is a world where you can pay for vampire host's services with blood

and that's exactly what they're gonna do in japan: opening a host club where you can pay with blood. with that said it means they won't push for their guests to buy alcohol for the sake of sales because their goal isn't for monetary profit but for sustainable food source.

not to mention an alcoholic blood cant be good for a vampire's health lol

outside of japan i think some vampires will organize to target health nuts by opening gyms where they advertise their trainer as "a war general who survived thousands of wars" unfortunately it attracts white supremacists so they have to change the tagline BUT ANYWAY they claim that they will check how healthy the human is by tasting their blood. jury's out on how reliable that method is but it makes the gym popular.

some subclasses accept interviews from historians in exchange of blood donation and some teach long forgotten crafts to modern day craftsmen and so on and so forth

money can't buy everything, but humans' needs to connect with each other will make up for it

#servamp #as you can see theyre scrambling for idea

[hozaloza]

Um

Why does Ben have Aiden's last name, isn't his mom related to Aiden's mom??

Like, we all know how surnames work in America; Wife typically takes the husband's last name, or they take both (or she doesn't take it at all, idk). Aiden's dad is obviously the one who had Clark as his surname. However, Ben also has this surname, but the dads aren't related, the moms are, how'd he get Daniel's surname??

Note that the Clark moms are sisters, because Niaomi literally said "I think what my sister is trying to say..."

So... how did Ben get the surname Clark? Either Red wasn't thinking about the parents (sorry no offense 😭), or he changed his last name...? Idk, I just realized that while thinking about a possible Thomas Aiden duet with 'Stayed Gone' (Rainbow factory au real??)

alr ty for joining my ted talk

bye bye for now

#school bus graveyard #webtoon #mr. thomas #aiden clark #ben clark #surnames #how #hmmm #did red ever answer this #actually why didnt anyone else mention this #i cant be the only one who thinks of this stuff #come on #pls #tell me im not alone #well damn

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Game night results (from this poll)

Character selection inspired from extraterezi's post!

#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #wei wuxian #lan wangji #jiang cheng #SVSSS #shen qingqiu #luo binghe #TGCF #hua cheng #xie lian #You guys know that one image of the cat getting rolled into bread? #that was me the entire time I had to draw all these carts. #I messed up and only had the poll run for a day but the community response was still wonderful! Thanks to everyone who participated! #there were so many funny comments and tags that I *had* to save #I honestly cant think of funnier stuff to say than what ppl already wrote on the OG poll #The Xie Lian sweep was hilarious. He can win by losing. #BTW SQQ 100% says he's picking Rosalina 'for the stat spread' and not because he wants to play as a princess #(he wants to play as a princess) #Please go read extraterezi's post its very funny and well thought out

[nibbelraz]

When your brother wants to betray the powerful demon king you both work for but you know that's NOT going to end well so you try to convince him not to do it but he's also seen those LUSTFUL gazes you do to said demon and calls you out

#svsss #shang qinghua #original shang qinghua #Shang Twins #Shang twins AU #scum villian self saving system #scum villains self saving system #scum villain's self saving system #sqh #implied Moshang #OG Shang Qinghua: You just love his chest thats the only reason you want me to not do it #Shang Qinghua: THERES MORE REASONS BUT I CANT DENY THAT IS ONE OF THEM #I think they'd get into some insane stuff together #mobei also is put off by the twin he prefers the wimpy scared crying one over the one that just point blank stares at him #I also like to think in this au Svsss Shang Qinghua is still scarily great at managing his peak/ the kingdom #maybe they both run the peak together #who knows #my art #nibbelraz

[sledz-z]

i'm not sure if anyone else has done this

#i cant be the only one who thinks that blade looks like the emo version of max from the lil mermaid o(-( #dont ask how i came to that thought it just suddenly pop into mind #anyway haha hehe shitpost(?) for yall 🫶 #theyre divorce since dan heng erased him from the data bank indefinitely and now i can no longer here his voicelines #dont judge me blade just has that nice edgy emo voice #taggimg stuff from on out so ignoreee #renheng #dan heng #blade #hsr #honkai star rail

[tricoufamily]

oc evolution tag, thank you @sikoi :))) <3

i randomly posted their real evolution a few days ago before we were doing these should have waited lmao. i did remake this edit at one point though!!! very cute

#racking my brain for sims who i've had long enough that they've had a big evolution i'm honestly coming up short #my villareal characters and other townies like only ever get skin details changed and we don't talk about the heavy blush phase #do i even have other sims. i cant think of any rn. they are the first ocs i ever posted on simblr ever i think. which is CRAZY #anyway even this edit's kind of old i never do beckett/connor couple stuff anymore do i it's weird #their romance is really really not the main focus of the story at all so ig i just am always thinking about other parts of their characters #their romance is one of the least developed things about them to be honest. which is weird for me i love an unhinged romance #beckett #connor #ts4 #blood sports

[bbq-potato-chip]

I hate this stupid copyright ad-filled internet. 5 years ago i could look up an anime episode on youtube and watch it (although it might be dub and grainy quality). now when i look up anime on youtube its all youtubers "live reactions" with the actual anime footage censored so they wont come under copyright. The one account that had all of the botw soundtracks on it was taken down and the only way i can listen to them is via CD. i hate it here

#its so stupid too why would i want to watch some guy watch anime when . i want to like. watch the anime myself #why when i look up anime wanting to watch it is it all LiVe ReAcTiOns like who is even watching this???what is even the point???? #i can make funny coments when im wathcing TV...i dont need to watch another guy do that i think i've got that covered thanks #i wanted to post screen shots of a gintama ep i watched bc i wanted to you know. talk about it because i want to but like. whatever #really ticked off though. so tired of this damn society cant a guy watch anime for free without getting a virus on the computer. #like its one thing to talk about anime and stuff thats what im doing but why is that the first thing that comes up when i look up an episod #why is that the ONLY thing thats there. like i know why (copyright) but stilllllll

[sonknuxadow]

sorry but im like the worlds biggest hater when it comes to future/next gen au stuff for sonic characters . and its not that i have an inherent problem with people doing those types of aus/stories its just that i havent seen many people do it in a way that isnt boring and also actually fits the characters. like they either make almost everyone cishet and go with all the "default" ships and/or put most if not all the characters in a married with kids situation even if it doesnt fit them or something else would be more interesting. and they also just completely ignore the concepts of adoption or single parents or people who just dont want to get married or have kids . and its like why are you all so boring with this why do you insist on shoving everyone into little nuclear family boxes even if it doesnt work for them as a character especially when non traditional family situations are such a common thing in sonic come on

and i think that out of all the characters sonic is one of the ones who gets it the worst with this sort of thing. with the way he acts in canon having him "settle down" into a "traditional" married with kids lifestyle once hes an adult feels like the most forced and out of character thing ever. he would not fucking say that etc etc

#especially if its with amy . mandatory disclaimer that i love amy #but sonic eventually agreeing to marry her in the future is like the worst possible ending to their whole situation #its bad for both of their characters i think . for multiple reasons #also if its with shadow . like im not saying him and sonic could never date or anything . #just that i cant see them living together and getting married and all that super serious and committed stuff #i guess you could argue that sonic not caring about romance and stuff could change when hes older since hes only 15 #but . i kinda Dont Like the implication that growing up/becomign more mature = suddenly wanting to get married and stuff #also am i the only one who thinks its unrealistic for everyone in the existing cast to end up marrying someone they already know right now #like im not saying its impossible for some of them to end up getting with eachother #its just that . most of them are teenagers or otherwise really young and they have so much time to meet other people #what if rouge's future wife is some random person we've never seen onscreen before huh . ever thought of that

[ninja-knox-ur-sox-off]

I love Monkie kid and the way they tell stories but oh my GODS this unreliable narrator stuff starting to stress me out

(Note: i've only seen up to ses 4 ep 8 no spoilers in the tags please)

#knox rambles #LOVE THE SHOW #BUT ALL THIS 'THIS IS WHAT HAPPENDED' BUT ITS NOT ACTUALLY WHAT HAPPENED IS STRESSING ME #CAN WE GET A STRAIGHT ANSWER FOR ONCE #ALL WE'VE GOT IS UNRELIABLE NARRATORS WHO TALK TRASH ABOUT MONKEY KING #EVERY TIME I TRY AND COME UP WITH A THEORY I HAVE TO CHECK WHO SAID THE THING IM BASING IT OFF OF TO SEE IF ITS PLAUSABLE OR NOT #AND HECK NO MATTER WHO SAYS IT YOU CANT TAKE IT SERIOUSLY #I JUST WANT A STRAIGHT ANSWERRRRRR #WE HAVE LIKE NEVER GOT ONE AND NOW THAT WE'RE INTO LORE ABOUT MONKEY KING ITS STRESSING MEEEEE #LIKE AZURE (spoilers for ep 8) MAKES IT SOUND LIKE WUKONG NEVER GOT THE MOUNTAIN OR RAN INTO BUDDAH #AND ITS POSSIBLE HE DOESNT KNOW BUT ITS ALSO POSSIBLE THEY JUST TOOK THOSE BITS OUT #BUT THERES NO WAY TO ACTUALLY TELL #AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA #i mean whatever the outcome im not gonna stop writing monkey king with his usual furnace buddah mountain stuff #just gotta add on him being low-key used by azure and fun stuff HDHDHFHHFG #also heck off topic suddenly but thinking suddenly about how Azure and Macaques perspectives of monkey king are opposites #FACINATING #mac: hes selfish he only cares about himself get out while you can he always wins and gets what he wants and leaves you behind #azure: hes selfless hes great he cares so much about his people and puts them before himself but he failed and keeps failing #azure: he doesnt know what hes doing #mac: he knows exactly what hes doing #SORRY SUCH A SIDE BAR THERE I MIGHT MAKE AN ACTUAL POST ABOUT IT LATER GOOD DAY

[whumpshaped]

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#so im working on some disabled whumper stuff #bc i got many good prompts for it #and i keep thinking abt this one guy who i think highlights how “prosthetics can be useful but overall theyre clunky and bothersome” #i used to play tabletennis right #and this guy was missing a leg #so he'd wear the prosthetic leg when walking around bc it was easier #then take it off before he came to play #he was a MEAN fucking player bro i love him #i remember my doubles partner saying 'ive heard theres a rule for not dropping the ball right behind the net' #'bc wheelchair users cant reach it' #and he grinned and said 'oh dont worry abt it. hit the ball wherever u like' #him and his doubles partner OBLITERATED us😭😭 #to be very fair these were men in their 40s and we were like 12 #but like we have been competitively playing at that point for years and years and years #i lost soooo many matches to this man ok #AND I ALSO MUST HIGHLIGHT. DO U UNDERSTAND HOW MUCH MOVEMENT IS NEEDED WHEN U PLAY DOUBLES #U NOT ONLY HAVE TO REACH THE BALL #UR CONSTANTLY TRYING TO AVOID CRASHING INTO UR PARTNER #WHILE ALSO LETTING THEM REACH THE BALL #THAT MAN WAS NIMBLE #i think abt him a lot #also one time when i was like 9 we were sharing one changing room in the sports centre #and i didnt know that #(we were usually all afab so it wasnt unusual that the other changing room stayed locked when we had like one (1) man there) #(we'd just take turns it was no biggie) #(especially at like 8pm) #and i go into the room and theres a Leg #BRO I ALMOST SCREAMED AJSJDKSKSKSKSKSK #anyway..... back to writing. but i think abt him every time i question whether a disabled person would be able to do A Thing #irlshaped

[astranauticus]

really not beating the brainrot allegations but genuinely this line has been haunting my brain for ages

#rolling with difficulty #vrla rwd #mrsn rwd #well not technically but close enough #asto stop drawing the same two goddamn characters challenge (difficulty: impossible) #technically the original line was 'i see mr-sn' but this way .. works better? flows better? its 4am words are failing me #also took some artistic liberties with the hypnagoug design bc i think austin's intention was that only its face changes #to match your nightmares #but everyone started describing stuff thats much more elaborate and he didnt stop them so #specifically he says the clawed arms and 'a large gaping mouth' stay constant but i am just gonna Choose Not To See that part #look theres no way for me to fit that into the design and make it work. its just not happening #i mean thank god for mr-sn's cape or else id have to figure out the logistics of attaching bony clawed arm to robot torso #(also why i strategically placed the rips on the cape so you cant see the arm underneath LMAO) #yeah after a certain point i was just like. ok how can i make the mr-sn hypnogoug as nasty and unpleasant to look at as possible #so please let me know if this made you upset/lh bc im the one who drew it and *i* was very upset when drawing this #in hindsight hypnagoug mr-sn has lowkey nightmare animatronic from fnaf energy and i've been fully over my fnaf phase for like 6 years so #not sure how to feel about that #art I made

[httpiastri]

#im about to FREAK OUT bcs of my boss #like yes i'm so thankful and happy to be employed. really. #but my boss is so #it feels like he's never doing anything.... he's only in the office max 2 days per week and idk #hes just very strange #but the worst thing is that he just takes his own work and dumps it on me #which is fine in some ways! like i sometimes just sit around with no work to do #so then it's good to have something to do #but today... not only did i already have a shit ton of work to do but #he tells me to book a hotel for a conference they're having ?? and that's not even near what's in my work description?????? #(i basically just do numbers rn. i sit with spreadsheets and move numbers around and stuff like that) #and the worst part is that he told me i cant email them... i must call........ #and i get that this sounds super silly to those who don't have a fear of speaking on the phone but #it makes me freak the f out #i cant even talk on the phone with my parents. or my brother. or a friend. like genuinely just no i cant #it brings out so so much anxiety in me #i get dizzy just thinking about it #and again this is really really not even similar to anything in my job description ???? i wouldn't have signed up if i knew i had to do thi #and when i have things that i need to do but i physically cant then my brain just goes into pause mode and i don't do anything at all #instead of doing one of the many things i *could* do (like write an email anyway) #there's just no way im gonna be able to call but idk what my boss is gonna think if i mail.... because he specifically said that i must cal #rrGGG im just so frustrated!!!!! #and i needed to get this out.... soz for the rant #i just think i would cry (genuinely) if i were to make that call #alSO BECAUSE THE INSTRUCTION IS SO UNCLEAR LIKE ALWAYS WITH THIS GUY #I DONT EVEN UNDERSTAND WHAT IM SUPPOSED TO DO #gonna go drink a lot of water so i dont cry now 👍 sorry bye

[stinkrascal]

if i dont finish the sopranos soon my brain will crawl out of my skull and finish it for me i think. this is a threat

#i told my bf i would watch it with him but he only wants to watch one episode a day #the struggle between someone who binges tv shows vs someone who paces their watch time #i’m gonna watch it anyways idc… i love rewatching stuff so it’s fine if i’m way ahead #my favorites are tony and carmela and christopher! i think carmela is soooo funny and lowkey briecore like just vaguely #tony is a fun mc too. actually everyone’s super fun #even junior and livia i think they’re fun even though they’re shitty #AUUUUGH oh yeah that scene where dr melfi describes livia as having bpd that was shitty too #dr melfi literally described bpd as being manipulative and abusive and incapable of love. like! ok! thanks for that? 😭 #this show came out in 99 like what i had no idea ppls perceptions of bpd has always been this bad. am i just naive or something #dont answer that. anyways. im literally tony soprano #words of affirmation im literally tony soprano #im sorry i cant wait any new tv shows or movies im busy catching up w shows from before i was born #i was born in 99 but still

[nilesmoon]

infinite wealth if sawashiro said "who gives a shit about ebina im going to hawaii with ichi" and then the rest of the game is a family vacation

#Ok so here's my dream scenario. It starts w kicking kiryu out of the narrative bc girl. I love the guy but he does not need to be here!! #kicking him out of the narrative also banishes the ebina stuff. I'm still keeping him around but #he'll be basically built up to be the main antagonist of 9. We're ONLY focusing on the cult stuff for 8 #the way 8 closes him off is already sequel bait so give him a proper focus game w 9 #Anyways now that that's out of the way. My worstie sawashiro does indeed become a party member. #His moveset is mostly blade damage w some blunt damage mixed in. YES I'VE THOUGHT ABOUT GAME MECHANICS #His singular elemental move is him flicking a cigarette at the enemy. Yes this is based off of that one scene w ichi in 7 #ANYWAYS I HAVE MANY IDEAS I CANT TYPE THEM ALL OUT RN BUT. FAMILY VACATION ARC. PLEASE #ITS INSANE TO ME HOW KASUGA 'I LOVE MY FAMILY' ICHIBAN WAS NOT ALLOWED TO PROPERLY INTERACT W HIS FAMILY??? #AND THE MAJORITY OF SAWASHIROS CONFLICT INCLUDED CAST MEMBERS WHO DIDNT GIVE A SINGLE SHIT ABOUT HIM???? #I keep thinking back on that scene where ebina shows him passed out on that chair and THE INTENDED AUDIENCE FOR #THAT SCENE WAS AN OCEAN AWAY LIKE GIRL. WHAT WAS THE POINT??? #well another perspective of that scene would be that sawashiro would be glad that ichi wasn't the one that came to rescue. which is. Misery #me when characters are defined by their guilt 💥💥💥💥😵💥💥💥😵‍💫💥💥💥😱💥💥💥💥😫💥💥💥 #Well. If y'all read all these tags. thanks. If anyone is curious about this self indulgent au that I've created feel free to hit me up #(Please hit me up I'm desperate to talk abt the arakawa family misery and I deeply wish this game was even more miserable) #rgg #nile talks

[asbestos-11]

huhu the struggle of finding blade fics that are about him and his struggle with immortality and whatnot. huhu pleaseeee there's too little gen fics about him.

#fei's talking corner #i filter the living shit out of ao3 but by god i cant find anything #i refuse to read any renheng fic (i am a fixed dynamic person) and thats probably where one could find interesting stuff #but i find that romance annoys me more than not in these sorts of character exploration fics #its also a struggle for other characters too. like on god dr ratio is worse in this department. like hello i love all the aventurine angst #but can i pls get crumbs of ratio character study too? #surprisingly neuvillette and furina have a couple of genuinely good gen angst fics #tho most have either wriollette as a ship (and i cant find myself to like the ship or wrio as a character) or theyre nvfr #or its a cursed combination of character angst + ship angst + good lord this is beyond awful characterization #and i think the cherry on top is trying to find alhaitham character studies that dont involve kavetham or romance #like so far there's only been 1 fic thats been a character study i enjoyed and resonated with me but it still featured kavetham in the end #sighhhhhh why am i doomed to like characters who are so interesting and yet people only care about ships with them?