#i am def in a better place mentally

[nobodynobodyno]

Hi :) how are you doing? How is your day so far? Are you doing alright? I see a lot of dan and phil on your blog. As usual probably 😂 but im glad that you (still) enjoy them and even though all i know about them is basically through you i like seeing you having fun there with reblogs and all. So yeah keep that up 😊 Since when did you even follow them? And how come? Like how did you find them the first time? Also im curious is that your main fandom currently? And if you dont mind me asking is there stuff like shows movies etc that you recently enjoyed watching or are you simply consumed by dan and phil vids these days? :D i hope its ok i just came in here to ask you all that. Dont feel obligated to answer this though. So either way thanks and have a wonderful rest of the day 🤗

Oh god I'm so sorry if you followed me for one of the thai dramas I was blogging about 💀 Yeah, right now I am fully engulfed in dan and phil content because they're doing this thing where they post a video every day in december up to christmas! And I am very excited about the return of their gaming channel which was on hiatus for like 5 years. I think I discovered them back in like 2015? But I was pretty much a casual fan then and I only started watching more of their videos during the peak of the pandemic and they brought me a lot of comfort during a period of time that was really hard for me (I mean, not just for me, more like the whole world) Anyway yeah, right now they're the only content I consume as I'm also quite busy irl (uni + job 🥲) I'm not watching any shows at the moment, but I do intend to watch some of the thai dramas that are coming up! And I'll probably post about them when I do. I've had this blog for so many years (too many) and I've never been in just one fandom, I always just reblog posts about whatever I am into at the moment and that's probably not going to change, like I said I am sorry but I'm not really 🤣 everyone is allowed to unfollow me whenever they want! (I hope this doesn't come off as an attack towards you or anything, you were really nice and I really appreciate your ask, I love ranting about stuff I like 😁 and I'm glad you like my posts even if you aren't into them!) Anyway, thank you for this ask and I hope you're having a lovely day/night too!

#d rambles #anon #asks #i kind of fell off the dan and phil wagon like 2 years ago when i got into thai dramas and now i am back to posting about them go figure #but yeah i am probably going to watch the cherry magic remake which is coming up soon #because a friend wants to watch it and i am curious #and then i will probably watch all the gmmtv gls when they air because i mean women! #but i am not interested in any shows that are airing rn #i mean i do like last twilight but i am a bit behind on it i'll have to catch up at some point #also i am doing quite well rn despite having a lot do do #i am def in a better place mentally #than last year #thank you for asking 💛

[mielgf]

wishing you all comfort, love, and contentment in 2023, whatever that may look like for you ✨❤️ happy new year!!

#talk time #just gonna take these tags to reflect on my 2022 if you’re proud of something from your year PLEASE let me know #this year i completely stepped out of my comfort zone and moved to a new city (a BIG city) #i grew mentally and emotionally so much during the first half of the year working and the final quarter back at school in a new place #i have become so much more confident and content with the person i am i have opened myself up more to others #my friendships grew stronger as i became a better communicator and less guarded with my affection #i made two new amazing friends (my roommates) and am so excited to see where those friendships go in the coming years #even in the lowest of times i coped and handled it so much more healthily than i ever have and that was how i knew i’m really getting better #i am so passionate about what i study and about my hobbies and interests #i worked hard on setting boundaries better and while there is def room for improvement i’m celebrating the victory nevertheless #i am the healthiest i have ever been both mentally and physically bc i truly prioritised my own well being this year #i have become much more gentle with myself #and while there are obviously fallbacks and bad points: i am so so proud of the progress i made in 2022 #i love my family i love my friends and i love myself #i did my absolute best this year in every domain and for that i am grateful to myself #this is the first new year in a while that i have been coming in so unbelievably hopeful #and dare i say even happy… damn

[honeykaes]

…2 years today

#I’ve just been reflecting on things (like I shouldn’t lmao has I over analyze everything) but… #I’m genuinely happy with the content I produce #the people I get to interact with daily #my beloved mutuals who care and understand me #etc #I feel like I can be me without any gear or judgment in a way #and I’m so used to putting up a mask irl expect to a select few #I wanted to create a safe place on my blog for myself and in turn I think I also made it a few others safe places #and that makes me really happy #my younger self I think would be proud of where I am too both in terms of my mental health (ehhh still but def progress over the years) etc #I mean I didn’t even think I’d live long enough to see this if I’m being totally honest #but even in some of the darkest moments of my life I come on here and write about Kaeya and some shit and life gets a little better #a little more bareable #and that’s enough for me to keep going and eventually shining #shievejrkorfj forgive my rambling #I saw a picture of myself in the height of my depression #and another picture of me when I well relapsed badly a couple years ago #even tho I went through a serious low in February I don’t think anyone knew about #I’m happy to say I’m 2 years clean it today #of* #tw sucidal ideation #tw self harm mention #onto hopefully better mental state chai

[scatterbrainedbot]

I AM SPINNING I AM PACING I AM FULL ON FROLICKING IM SO EXCITED

@d1sc0rd1a THANK U FOR THESE TAGS

okayokayokayokay so pretty much all of these questions will be Officially Answered properly in the character design/intro pages im working on but also i am physically vibrating with excitement about the fact that you noticed all these details and i have very little self control so! lore dump time!!!

(minor tw for mentions of leos self-harm/self-destructive anxious behaviors and unhealthy coping skills)

- mikey does indeed have curly fur! i believe he would be considered a 'rex' rat (pictured on the left) for this trait? though the curls can be more easily seen on mice (pictured on the right). or, at least it seems that way. have not delved too deeply into the details of rodent genes and husbandry, but id assume its the same sort of mutation considering curly haired mice are also referred to as rex sometimes? either way hes a extra floofy bby 🧡

-as for raphie, unfortunately being more fluff and less shell than the average rapheal comes with its downsides. especially if you and your brothers occasionally encounter things like territorial dogs, hungry cats, or sewer crocodiles while exploring places ur dad said not supposed to go. (most of his scars will have more ninja related stories, but his ear i think got messed up from something very animal. probably around age 11 ish? old enough to sneak out from dads protection but young enough to not fully know how to handle himself alone against real danger. thankfully his ear injury looks worse than it actually is for the most part, as the damage was largely to the outer ear. his hearing wasnt super affected, except that he now has a bit of a harder time being able to track/pinpoint noises origins if its on his right side.)

-also yep! dons got some glasses that just clip/rest on the bridge of his nose! theyre mostly just for home use, as they do fall off if hes knocked around. in the field he has some goggles he tends to use (theyre helpful as they have multiple additional functions like heat-imaging, extra zoom/telescoping, and recording capabilities. but also theyll give him headaches if he wears them for too long without breaks). contacts are theoretically also an option but he absolutely hates the sensation of putting them in. so sometimes when hes tired he'll just not bother with either clips or goggles and just squint and struggle. leo hates when he does that lol.

-speaking of leo, he is def an anxious baby :) he has a few patches of fur missing on his hand cos he has the tendency to tug on it while hes thinking. he yanked and chewed on his own tail a lot when he was younger too, which is why when hes older he usually wears some wraps to cover the scars left from that behavior. he finds those scars specifically to be kinda embarrassing and shameful because they werent from any battle or life-lesson, just his own 'inability to control himself'. all of his brothers have repeatedly called him out on the fact that that is not a healthy way to think about his anxiety or mental health, but leo insists hes fine. hes kinda convinced himself that a proper warrior always has control over his own body* and his own thoughts, thus he should be able to just like willpower-brute-force his way into 'being better'. (this line of thinking pisses raph off so much he has to leave and go hit something)

Splinter also tries to talk him through some of that internalized guilt/shame/everything, but splinters very metaphorical, poetic, and indirect when it comes to talking about Big Things, which combined with how much leo gets caught in his own head, makes it kinda hard to gauge how much these talks actually help

*this is made extra fun considering leos also ftm trans, so he is faced with a body that fundamentally disobeys him perhaps more than the average rat-man.

-and im still going back and forth between a few species for splinter, but im leaning mostly towards an African Spurred Tortoise! they have these beautiful if kinda subtle geometric shell patterns and are the third largest species of tortoise in the world. the only thing that doesnt fit perfectly with Splints is that (allegedly) their lifespan in captivity is around 50ish years, whereas im p sure Tortoise Splinter is well over 75, probably closer to 90 when the boys are born and hes mutated into Old Man Papa.

but maybe hes just a particularly long lasting African Spurred Tortoise.

the Hamato family has taken very good care of him for many decades after all. :)

(well. until everything all fell apart, that is.....)

#tmnt #rat sons #my art #tmnt au #literally bouncing around the room thinking about this all #my downstairs neighbors are gonna hate me #ask reply #sort of??? #pats leos fucked up lil head #this bad boy can fit so much projection #get out of ur head idiot ur family loves and wants to help u #also looking at the chaco tortoise and ploughshare tortoise for splinter thoboth of those are smaller species than i think he is

[suskz]

Heyyyy

so if you’re not busy I was just thinking about a fic or Drabble abt Chans teeth. Okay that sounds weird, but like biting. He has such sharp lookin canines. OML and He’d be so proud the next morning too! And I feel like he’d def manhandle you. Bud probably had a size kink too. Like am I mental. Probably. Am I giggling kicking my feet like a middle schooler. Also yes.

Kinda just had to talk abt it!!! Have a good day/night

MINORS DO NOT INTERACT

pairing: Bang Chan x fem!Reader

w/c: 1,2k

tw: jealousy and possessiveness ; smut ; dirty talk ; Chan leaves marks even tho reader told him not to, but she likes it too ; painful but also pleasant bites leaving ; (subtle) size kink.

a/n: my first ask!! ^^ Initially I was thinking about writing a shorter thing, about like 300/400 words, but it turned out longer. Hope you like it anon!!

I think Chan would love to leave marks on you, yk, "marking his territory". He’d be so proud to see you covered in marks that he himself left. If your or his friends saw them and pointed at them, his ears would turn red, but deep down —not so much deep— this thing turns you both on and just pushes him to leave more of them.

୨♡୧

Overall, the evening went well.

You had fun, you had a nice time with your friends and that new dress you bought last week looks so good on you.

Maybe a little too good. But that won’t be the reason why your friend, sitting next to you, placed a hand on your thigh while laughing. Must have been a mistake.

But Chan didn't see it the same way. His steady gaze on that filthy hand that grabbed your naked skin that way, and the way he firmly grabbed your thigh when, a few seconds later, your friend’s hand moved, indicate that he was trying his best to restrain himself.

And that sent thrills of excitement through your body.

The way he held you for the rest of the night, putting his arm around your shoulders, grabbing your hips so tightly, the way he looked at your friend and the way he ate you with his eyes, they made you wet so much that for a moment you even thought of leaving with him in the middle of the evening to do better things.

Chan isn’t usually possessive, or at least not that possessive, but who wouldn’t be in front of a scene like that?

And that’s why, back home, his lips are on yours, and his hands are all over your body, from your thighs to your breasts, soon naked.

He takes his time with you, worshipping every part of your body he can reach, from head to toe. He licks every flap of your skin and leaves hickeys first on your breasts, then on your thighs, and bites on your asscheeks, making breathy moans escape from your lips.

"Don’t leave visible marks." you quickly warn him. You have to go to work tomorrow, and it would be very awkward to walk around with your neck covered in marks that clearly speak of the night you had.

He leaves only wet kisses on your neck, but once his cock gets inside of you, you both lose every crumb of thought you have.

It’s the first time he fucks you so hard. His movements have a little faster pace than usual, but they are deep and aimed as much as possible at your most sensitive spot.

All the things you might want to say come out in moans as your legs shake.

"You’re mine," he groans, "fucking mine".

And your mind is too fuzzy to understand that his teeth are sinking into the skin of your shoulder.

And he feels like he can cum just from this, from knowing that he’s marking you as his and you can’t do anything right now to stop him, because you like that too, and he can tell by the way your pussy clences around his cock.

In the heat of the moment his mind can think of nothing but how fucking beautiful you are, spread like this under him, leaving him in control of everything, of your body; how you have totally submitted to him and his touch. How small you are under him and how your little cunt swallows his dick.

His hips falter for a moment and a higher moan leaves his parted lips.

His teeth bite your neck and he moans at the arousing feeling that this causes him.

His hands now grip your hips tighter, "You will show that friend of yours these marks tomorrow, yeah?". His tongue licks the flap of skin that his teeth have just bitten, "He will finally understand who you belong to; today it seemed like he still hasn't got it." his jealousy finally shows, but you’ll rethink his words tomorrow, now the only thing you can think about is reaching your imminent orgasm.

"C-close." you warn him, and at your words he brings two of his fingers to your mouth, which you suck, wetting them with saliva, and brings them to your clit, pressing hard —but not enough to hurt— and moving them in fast circles.

"I should register you— send him the video, so he can s-see what he’ll never have," he moans, "You'd like this, yeah?".

And you’re so close, so fucking close. All you need is…

His teeth graze your neck once again, giving you a bite that's both intense and pleasurable, despite the pain, and you both moan loudly, finally coming. His fingers stop moving and his hips give the final thrusts to ride out your highs.

It’s only the next morning, when you stand in front of the mirror of your bedroom’s bathroom ready to brush your teeth, wearing your underwear and the first tank top you’ve found lying between all your clothes on the floor to cover yourself at least a little, that you really realize what he did last night.

Your eyes widen, "Chan!" you call him and he can clearly hear you, being awake and the bathroom door being open.

"Mhh?" his voice is muffled by the pillows.

You sigh, looking yourself in the mirror and touching the various marks on your neck and shoulders, hissing at the painful feeling that runs through your body.

He reaches you silently and wraps his arms around your waist, hugging you from behind and burying his face in the crook of your neck, breathing in your scent.

You sigh again, "I told you not to leave visible marks; I have to be at work in an hour, how do I hide these?".

He leaves a sweet kiss on one of the marks he left on your right shoulder, and you hold back a slight sound of pain. "I wouldn’t mind if that dear friend of yours who was with us yesterday sees them," he says, raising his head to lock eyes with you in the mirror, "there are a couple of things that he seems not to have understood." his grip tightens just a little around your waist.

"Are you jealous?" you smirk turning your head in his direction. He looks at you for a few seconds in the eyes, then tilts his head slightly back to give you a playful bite on the nape. You moan in pain and pull away from him, putting a hand on the slightly painful bite and looking at your boyfriend, who wears an offended expression.

“Good luck hiding them." he teases you and is about to leave, but your words stop him.

"You little…" you stop in mid-sentence, looking at yourself in the mirror and starting to think about how to hide the bites, but he turns in your direction.

"You little… what?" he urges you to finish the sentence.

"It doesn’t matter." you answer without paying attention.

You don’t notice, in fact, that he’s getting closer to you until he scoops you up in his arms like a princess. You instinctively cling to him as he carries both of you back into the bedroom, spinning around first, nearly making you scream from fright and surprise, and then throwing you on the bed.

He then goes to the closet as if nothing had happened, "That’s what you get". At his words you stick your tongue out.

#bang chan #bang chan x reader #bang chan smut #bang chan fanfic #bang chan fluff #stray kids bang chan #stray kids smut #stray kids x reader #bang chan x reader smut #anon ask ♡

[syddsatyrn]

Chapter 1 ⛤ Chapter 2 ⛤ Chapter 3 ⛤ Chapter 4 ⛤ Chapter 5 Masterlist

⛤Pairing: - Eddie Munson x FemReader

⛤Warnings: Swearing, drinking / smoking, fluff, friends to lovers. This is probably gonna end in smut.

⛤Words: 1.4k

⛤Song: "Photograph" By Def Leppard

⛤Summary: Moving away from Hawkins was the biggest mistake of your life. You left your best friends and forgot to stay in touch. Years later, you decide to hit up your good friend Steve. Its time to make a plan and make amends. The one thing you didn't expect was feelings to resurface when you saw your old highschool crush.

⛤Notes: This series is 18+ Minors scram. Special thanks to @hellfiremunsonn, I am a wreck without her, lol. This chapter is a little short. We are doing a slow burn, ladies , gentleman and nonbinary friends. Next Chapter will have Eddie in it I promise! Please check out Chapter one before you start this one. Thank you!

⛤Chapter 2: Pulling Strings You walk into work early and meet up with your manager. You explain that you need a week off to visit family in Hawkins. They calculate your vacation time and approve it, it's official! In two weeks you're going back to your childhood hometown. You asked a couple of coworkers to help cover your shift and got lucky, they both agreed they could use the extra hours. It was the longest two weeks that you've ever experienced. You passed the time with some shopping for your trip. You made sure to get all the essentials, and a couple of new cute outfits to bring too. You visited your mom and told her all about your plans, she's excited for you! She even sent you off with a little extra money, just in case.

Everything appears to be falling into place. The anticipation is killing you. But you start to find yourself thinking about Eddie quite often. You thought about his dark brown eyes, and how shockingly cute he was when he smiled. Back when things got difficult with your family, Eddie was always down for some late-night talks, listening to you vent for hours sometimes.

The night before you left, you spent time packing, calling Steve, and confirming some minor details. You took a shower before bed and watched some late night TV. When you finally decide to turn in, you crawl under the comforter and try your best to get some rest. Even if you still feel a huge pit in your stomach.

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You're beginning to think you should have packed lighter as you hauled your bags down to the car. You load everything into the trunk and settle into the driver's seat. You take a deep breath and start the car, the engine roars and you hit the gas. There's no next time, it's now or never. Time to take a leap of faith and do your best to be a better friend. You might not get another chance. The sun shines through your windshield as you turn the bend, the fresh Indiana air is crisp and clean. As you see the “Welcome to Hawkins” sign, your body starts to tense up. You try to recall the directions Steve gave you in the correct order. You turned onto main street and kept on until you saw the blue apartments named “Hawkin’s Heights”. You pulled into the parking lot and backed into a parking space carefully and cut the engine. 

It took you what felt like forever to get out of the car. But after a few deep breaths and some time to mentally hype yourself up, you are ready. You walk upstairs and follow the numbers until you find apartment 106. You knock on the door and it instantly opens.

“Y/N! I’m so glad you made it!” Steve looks completely thrilled to see you. He scoops you up into a hug and pulls you inside the apartment, shutting the door behind you.

“Hi Stevie” You laughed “It’s so nice to see you!” Steve finally lets go and you recognize the other familiar face in the room. It was none other than Dustin Henderson.

“Oh my god, Dustin?! You’re like…all grown up!” You can't believe how mature he looks now. You give him a massive hug, he's taller than you now. Time sure does fly, kids sure do grow up fast. The boys head downstairs to help you lug your bags inside, thank goodness you didn't have to do that alone.

Once you get inside you notice the boys are taking your stuff down the hall, and you follow them. Once you walk through the threshold you immediately know whose room this is.

“You’ll be staying in Eddie's room. He comes back from tour in two days so you’ll see him then. I’m sure he won’t mind at all.” Steve explains so casually like it's no big deal.

“Oh god, I couldn’t just take his room. I would feel so bad. What if I take the couch?” You ask with a nervous laugh.

“Can’t, Dustin is on the couch. His mom went on this singles cruise. Even now I’m still somehow babysitting.” Steve laughs and Dustin scoffs at him. Your face turns a little red at the thought of sleeping in your high school crush’s bed.

“Don't listen to him, Y/N, my mom is just paranoid.” Dustin retorts as he follows Steve to the kitchen.

They both leave you to order some pizza and give you time to settle in. The room is truthfully very clean, there are Metal posters all over the walls, along with flyers from shows he’s played. He has some Christmas lights hanging for some ambiance. You take a seat on his queen-sized bed, it feels really comfy. The back comforter and black pillow cases were so him. There are guitars hanging on the wall, a couple of guitar stands, and amps off to the side.

I guess it can't be helped. You'll have to deal with it for now, maybe you can crash at Robin’s later. You shut the door and find yourself some lounge clothes to wear, settling on a pair of shorts and a large Metallica t-shirt. After brushing out your hair and setting out some clothes for tomorrow, you decide to join the boys in the kitchen.

“We got two large pepperoni pizzas,” Dustin announces, Steve opens two beers and offers you one. You gladly take it and grin as you see the label.

“Did you buy my favorite beer on purpose?” You ask, poking fun at how much of an accommodating host Steve can be. When the pizza arrives you all settle down in the living room and watch some late-night sitcom. Steve tells you all about the lengths he's gone to get everyone to gather here.

Nancy is coming to visit with Johnathan, they are staying with her parents. Robin has no idea you were here, Steve had to come up with some ridiculous excuse for her not to show up today. Eddie called to tell him when he would be returning in a couple of days and Steve had to play it cool like nothing was going on. He told them we were throwing a get-together at the Hideout but didn't mention you in the slightest.

“Wow…Look at you pulling all the strings.” You clapped softly and Steve took a little bow. You were truly impressed with his ability to put all of this together. “Thank you, Steve. This is so cool of you.”

“It was nothin’ really. You called and I had to make it happen.” He shrugs with a half smile. You hug your friend and decide to excuse yourself. You had a long drive and it was exhausting. You walk back to Eddie’s room to turn in for the night. When you look over at the nightstand you see a pack of cigarettes, half empty. Eddie used to bum you cigs when you hung out at his trailer. You flash back to the time your Dad was drunk and acting out, arguing with your mom. You ran off to Eddie’s place and your mom almost called the cops.

You grabbed one out of the pack and used the lighter next to the ashtray. You opened up a window and placed the cigarette between your lips and lit it. The taste was like shaking hands with an old friend. It was smooth and you almost feel bad for breaking your 3 year streak but also, one won't hurt…probably. That same nostalgic feeling you felt opening those boxes came flooding back in.

We were just teenagers, there were so many signs that he was head over heels for you but you were naive, oblivious, and it hurt you a little. Neither of you had the guts to say anything to each other. A regret that made you feel shameful to say the least. You’ve wondered if he still has feelings for you or is he off having the time of his life with his groupie fangirls?

When you try to define this feeling it's next to impossible, you feel a sense of anticipation. It's like you’re eager to relive some feelings, or longing for a simpler time. You take a few drags and try to wave the smoke and your insecurities out the window. You can't wait to see Robin tomorrow. It's time to get some sleep, you have a feeling you won't be getting much for the rest of the week.

You put out your cigarette and shut the window, turn out the light, and finally crawl under the covers. You have to admit, his bed smells really good, like fresh linen and men's cologne. It made you feel especially comfortable, and it didn't take long to ease into a deep slumber. You could get used to this kind of contentment. 

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[quitealotofsodapop]

thinking of cicada lilly au and how tense things between "mr. moonlight" and "mr. sunshine" must have been in the beginning.

not only would they immediately recognize each other, but i can just imagine how they'd both be mentally freaking out the first time they saw each other. in an instant both of them are mentally screaming "what the fuck is he doing here!??" "holy shit he's alive!??"

and even after the truce incident things are still tense, less outright fighting, but a hell of a lot more awkward I'd bet. they're mostly talking about the kids they pseudo-adopted then themselves, but it's better than them fighting all the time. progress is progress, I suppose.

that is until how they found their respective kids comes up in conversation, and Wukong nearly has an aneurysm when he learns about Macaque getting tangled up with the bone demon and Bai He's "True Purpose"

referencing.

Oh def. At first the two "pets" were able to chalk their suspicions up to paranoia, but after one of them (likely bird!Wukong) witnessed the other un-glamour - it made things more overtly hostile.

Cus' like you said; "tf this guy doing here?!"

Especially from Wukong since in his memory, Macaque sorta died.

Even after their temporary truce to protect their respective "owners", they mentally weigh their options before getting chummy again.

Macaque in particular tries to leave entirelly one night, only to hear Bai He running around town yelling for Mr Moonlight for hours, tears and snot rolling down her face. He simply could not leave her knowing that he'd be depriving a lonely little girl her best friend and protector. Mr Moonlight calmly appears back at the restaurant's dining area that afternoon - pretending like nothing had happened. Bai He cried into his fur and held him tight, begging him never to scare her like that again. In his cat form he pretends Mr Sunshine doesn't exist.

Wukong considers flying away a few times just to get away from the awkwardness, but his successor is right here. And he's not entirely sure if can trust him alone with Macaque yet. So the bird occasionally screams into the certainly not-deaf cat's ears when he's feeling angry.

Eventually they do sit down on even terms to discuss what brought them to the same home.

Wukong: "Me first cus my kid is older." Macaque: "Fair." Wukong: "He's one of us." Macaque: "...you're kidding me." Wukong: "Yup! Nuwa made him directly and dumped him on me." Macaque: "That's pretty wild... how come you didn't raise him yourself?" Wukong, eyes sad: "I wasn't in a great place. All my friends were gone, our kingdom is non-existent, and I'm too much of a target to give the kid a normal life." Macaque: "As normal as a stone monkey could get." Wukong: "Yeah... so I sought out anyone from the old days that could give him a good childhood. And I found piglet's decendant." Macaque: "What made you choose him?" Wukong: "Honestly? Most of it was gut feeling. Then I saw him help calm down a toddler crying in the resturant and I just knew he'd raise MK well." Macaque: "I suppose you weren't entirely wrong. He is a good father." Wukong: "What about you? Why are you hanging around the little bug?" Macaque, hesistating: "...I'm protecting her." Wukong: "Why?" Macaque, glares: "Wukong, hav eyou not considered Why I was able to come back to mortal world?" Wukong: "I have, but what that has to do with Bai He?" Macaque: "She's not a normal child either Wukong. Not us, but something else... When I was in Diyu, I was approached by someone offering my life in exchange for raising a baby girl to be their host when the time came." Wukong, aghast: "You didn't." Macaque: "I did. I accepted... but I sure as hell am not gonna let them get to her anytime soon. I sniffed out your old master's soul since I knew his power could protect her. Plus I saw him manage to wrangle MK and knew he could handle it." Wukong: "So... what now? Are you just gonna pretend to be a cat for the rest of her life? Or are you going to tell her when this demon comes knocking at the door?" Macaque: "I should ask you something similar. When is MK going to find out his cockatiel is the legendary Monkey King?" Wukong: "We will learn one day soon. Just not right now." Macaque: "You keep telling yourself that. And I'll keep to the tuna if it means the little bug stays safe." Wukong: "Looks like we agree on one thing though." Macaque: "And that is?" Wukong: "We can't stand the thought of anything happening to them." Macaque: "Hmm." *looks away and nods silently*

Note: this convo most definetely occurs on the roof of the restaurant building. Or else Pigsy would be smashing into the conversation with a broom thinking there's burgulars.

Macaque deliberately keeps it quiet on "who" he made the deal with cus he knows Wukong would freak if he knew it was the Bone Demon.

#cicada lily au #lmk aus #sun wukong #six eared macaque #liu er mihou #lmk bai he #lmk lbd's host #lmk #lego monkie kid

[cyeayt]

whats ur tim headcanons :)

oooh i have so many i can sort them into appearance, character arc, and sillies, a lot of these are lifted from fics i like fyi,,, ty so much for the ask, this is very rambly lol

i tend to think of Tim as Malay mostly because of Head in the Lion's Mouth and renwhit's other works with the stoker bros which rewrote my brain although in my mind he has short hair instead of long like he has in those series. i also have fallen to the fanon of him wearing colorful button ups but i don't really like him in aloha shirts just cause i think he has better taste than that, i also think he has his ears pierced and i am not immune to the idea that he wears a shark tooth necklace he got from Danny. I do also think that he had his hair shorter and dyed purple on the ends in season 1 that he then stopped taking care of in season 2 so it was washed out green and all messy by season 3, by which time i also think his fashion had deteriorated and to me he was at the unknowing in the rattiest hoodie imaginable and jeans he had been wearing for at least 4 days. he can have a graphic tee as a treat but he was def greasy.

in terms of his character i have a lot of stuff that i think are headcanons that are actually just canon (like that he knew something was up with sasha before not-sasha was revealed or that he felt comfortable in research before getting drawn back into the horror) because i have a really shitty memory but heres some stuff im pretty sure isn't plain stated in the text: he and Jon bonded in research and were very close before Jon became the archivist, and part of how they bonded was that they were both overworking themselves looking for their answers and also they're really good at breaking into places together. i am also a sucker for the idea that jon and him were involved or dancing around something but had to break it off when jon got promoted. speaking of hcs with high angst potential, i also think a lot about subtle rituals of intimacy between him and sasha and the small ways in which he would have noticed that there was something off with her. i also see him as being estranged from his parents/ them suspecting him of having something to do with Danny's death, which is not helped by the box of photos n such i think he keeps hidden in his closet/under his bed. in terms of his mentality Tim is really relatable to me i think he really struggles to be trusted in meaningful ways and that Jon suspecting him of murdering Gertrude brought back a lot of bad memories of police and his parents thinking he killed Danny. he gets stuck into patterns of though and mindsets esp when hes depressed and has trouble thinking of things in different terms in s3. also he did nothing wrong but thats neither here nor there

sillies! hcs that have little support but i think are funny, shipping stuff, and like whatever.

It's not really supported by canon unless you think he was playing 4d chess with Basira in s2 but in my mind Daisy and Basira were the ones investigating Danny's disappearance and they have a bad history. i like to put this one in my aus/ give him and daisy and basira a weird antagonistic relationship whenever i can because i think its funny when people are bitter with each other.

while i do agree that Tim would enjoy outdoorsy stuff like rockclimbing or kayaking, i don't think he's that good at it. i def see him as like the nerdier brother and think that he got into stuff that he and Danny did together, but it would be like Danny trying to convince him to go on the black diamond while Tim zigzags his way down a blue square. idk what the rock climbing equivalent of that is but i do know that tim cannot do bouldering.

i also see tim as being aro-spec like demi-romantic bisexual or somewhere in there idk im aflux aroflux its all soup to me but he and sasha are queerplatonic to me. also don't @ me i think he at the very least flirted with elias a few times either pre-archives for funzies or at some point in s2-3 when he stopped giving a shit.

hcs are so fun bc they're like little outfits you can put your character in like not every fic i write will have all of these and some of my more minute ones contradic each other but they're like ships to me anywayyy

#tim stoker #timothy stoker #tma #my hcs #man i need to start writing tma fic again #polyarchives #i kinda wanna make a uquiz that assigns different tim ships or something #asks #thatforgottenbasilisk

[iwriteureadsblog]

The wrong tent.. neteyam x gnreader

this is just a little brain rot but think about the sully family walking in on you and neteyam being…lovey dovey

now first i think it would go like this

it would be mid-day and you and neteyam decided to have a cuddle sesh in a private tent (as in private i mean the tent his grandmother stores her herbs and medical care)it’s not the best place due to the weird smell of dirt and mint and the not so comfortable space in there to fit the two of you but hey anything to have intimate time with your loved one am i right? it’s not like anyone would walk in on you…or so you think

jake

he would need to go in there to get wraps and medicine for loak who got in trouble again and got hurt (he’s also in the process of looking for neteyam to scold him for not looking after his brother)

when he walks in he only see’s neteyam since he’s laying on top of you his bigger frame blocking ur smaller one

he starts to go off about how he’s supposed to keep an eye on his brother until he sees neteyam rise up showing you under him he freezes and just stands there awkwardly as you both stare at him

“what the fuck”

he than quickly grabs what he needs and walks away leaving you both confused but scared

later he will pull you two aside to talk about it

“i don’t know what’s happening between you two but just answer my one question”he says quietly but stern

you both look at each other

“yes sir?” y’all say in unison

“have you..”

he pauses not knowing what to say giving you a slightly confused face

“have you guys mated?”

if you both had a drink you would spit it out rn

“WHAT!?”

let’s just say you guys took a weight off his shoulders that night though he still did give you a talk about responsibility and the time to “do what you do” he was relieved you guys didn’t mate and was still happy for your growing relationship

def went crying to neytiri about how his “baby boy is all grown up”

Neytiri

i like to think that you and neytiri have a wonderful relationship she adores you and always gives you advice about anything you need or want (your basically her 6th child)

she has always thought you and neteyam would make a great couple,so when she sees you and her son hugging each other tight on the ground and looking into each other’s eyes lovingly she bursts with excitement-def doesn’t show it

she would go into the tent to get her favorite tea that helps with migraines (jake and loak are stressing her out!)

she walks in and acts like she doesn’t see the two of you stepping over your stiff body’s from being caught to get to her tea but before leaving she would turn back looking at the both of you and softly smiling

“you have my blessings to mate before ewa”

leaves you both shocked but happy knowing you could be together with no inconvenience

loak

he has to go into the tent to get medicine for kiri because him being around her while being sick wasn’t helping

he tried to make jokes to lighten up the mood but that only angers kirk at how corny they are so neytiri sends him to get the meds

ALSO! he loves to tease neteyam about his huge crush on you(he doesn’t know y’all are together)

so when he see’s y’all propped up together inhaling each other’s air he knows it’s game time

he runs out of the tent ready to tell the whole entire clan but little did he know as soon as he turned to run neteyam leaped up and dashed after him with you following short behind

he jumps on top of loak rolling together in the grass playfully fighting each other 

“get off of me you simp!”

“you better keep your mouth shut”

neteyam said pinning him down by the arms

“is this what u do to y/n?”

stunning neteyam by his words he pushes him off and runs towards the family tent bursting into the room

“neteyam and y/n!-“

SHHHHH

they all glare at him and he mentally slaps himself, realizing his sister was trying to rest from sickness. He slowly walks out of the tent bumping into neteyams chest

uh oh…

kiri

you and kiri have a deep understanding for each other oddly your not half ewa or have any of her powers but you both instantly clicked when y’all first met so when she sees her brother rubbing up on her best friend she doesn’t know how to feel

she had to go into the tent to sneak eat the sweet treats her grandmother try’s to hide from her and her siblings

when she walks in she sees neteyams hand going places and you making faces (bars)

she stands there in shock while u two are unaware of the girl standing behind you

since you don’t know kiri is behind you things get heated neteyam ends up between your legs giving you light but firm kisses on your neck

hearing your mewls of his name makes him wanna kiss more of your body just to hear your voice softly say his name over and over he keeps going until he feels your body stiffen and tap him on his arm

he looks you in your eyes to see ur shocked expression than turns around making eye contact with kiri as

 she slowly walks away and y’all would probably never speak of this moment again unless you bring it up

although she will tease you on your relationship with neteyam sometimes might join loak and tag team both of you making it equally embarrassing

tuk

she is literally so clueless and sweet

she would go into the tent because she was playing hide n seek with kiri loak and spider(more like she hides and they find her) so than when she walks in and see’s her brother touching and moving all over you she thinks your fighting and bravely she hits her brothers calf in order to protect you

“get off y/nn!”

she whispers screams still not wanting to give away her hiding spot

you both freeze turning around to see tuk watching the both of you as u scramble to get away from each other

“why were you fighting!”

“we weren’t…we were um..”

the silence was loud as tuk looks at the both of you with a confused and curious look

“we were having a wrestling match”

neteyam says quickly

you look at him like he’s crazy and tuk looks suspiciously before hearing kiri say her name and hiding behind the two of you

that’s when kiri busts into the tent breathing heavily

“have y’all seen tuk?? we’ve been looking for her and we can’t find her and we’re worried”

neteyam not want tuk or the other kids to get in trouble for “losing her” he tattles on tuk

“wow neteyam” you say as tuk looks at him with shocked offended eyes

let’s just say tuk makes sure everyone knows you and neteyam were wrestling in the tent including jake and neytiri

which overall equals to a family talk about “privacy”and a embarrassing talk between you neteyam jake and neytiri about relationships

during the talk you and neteyam stayed 2 feet away from each other as his parents lectured you both but your tails were still touching at least

i hope that was good guys this is my first time writing and english isn’t my first language 😅

#neteyam x reader #neteyam #avatar x reader #avatar 2 #gender netural #gn reader

[em-harlsnow]

I'm taking a break from my essay, so I thought I would go over my opinions of Fiona.

The thing is, most of the time I understand her. I understand her wanting Debbie and the others to stop relying on her so much, I understand her leaving, I understand why she tried to convince Debbie to get an abortion and most importantly I understand why she wanted to avoid blame for Liam's coke incident. I'm not saying any of it is right, but I get her.

I'll go over my main points with her, good and bad.

The stuff I defend her on:

she supported Lip thru his alcoholism and he did not do the same for her, instead yelling and blaming her when if anyone, he should understand

she tries to convince Debbie to get an abortion because she fully knows Debbie is not emotionally mature enough to handle a baby (no hate, no 15 year old is) and doesn't want to have to deal with it, which is fair because she's accustomed to dealing with kids that aren't hers. I have friends who have to essentially parent their siblings, and I know they would definitely stay away if any of them decided to have kids of their own.

she tries to convince lip to go to college or at least stay in school because he can, despite how he's so adamant against it. despite how it means she has even more burden over the children

she leaves because she needs her own life (there's more on this later, don't worry)

However, I'm against her on these:

Fiona, babe, stop using being a Gallagher as an excuse for everything you do it's getting tiring. "I'm a Gallagher" I KNOW.

Fiona, if you dole out advice left right and centre to all your siblings, take some as well. she should have heeded people's advice about all the property stuff, she should have been more careful, but at the end of the day people make mistakes.

Fiona, take responsibility for your shit. You were Liam's legal guardian, I know she didn't intend to, but it was her responsibility to look after him. It's her fault. If Frank or Monica did the same by accident, I have no doubt she would blame them

Tell me, why does she hate the Milkoviches so much. Actively hating on Mandy, when she's just as much of a slag??? Not hating on slags, I am a proud one myself. But don't hate on others, don't be so fucking rude when Mandy simply wanted a place to feel safe. Also, I don't accept her Mickey-hate AT ALL. she didn't know him, told him he needed to admit Ian to a psych ward because that's what she knew, when realistically there can be other, better ways to help those with mental illness. Psych hospitals are for those at risk to themselves and others, but Ian hadn't become a risk until he stole Yevgeny (we don't know enough about whether he was suicidal or not). Also, let's not forget Molly. I can't comment on whether Molly was actually trans or not, because it's suggested that her mother just forced her to be a girl. Even so, no fucking need for the amount of transphobia.

Finally, she was Liam's legal guardian. For all her talk about how Ian's like Monica, she abandoned him which is a 'full on Monica move' to quote Fiona. She agreed that she would take care of him until he was an adult, and didn't make sure someone else would take over if she left. Also, she could have taken him with her.

Anyway, very mixed feelings about Fiona. I'm never sure how to feel about her, because like I say half the time I understand her. I get why she didn't want to admit to being responsible for the coke thing, because it made her feel guilty and worse, it made her feel like her parents. I def prefer her pre-season 4

#shameless #fiona gallagher #shameless opinions #opinion

[mirkwood]

i know u didn't rb that post, BUT I WANT TO KNOW what u think of ur melkor and feanor :)) so !!! 18, 13, 22.

Well I actually just did 👀

Thank you for the ask, you're too kind and thank you for your patience again <3

Let me put this under here :

For Melkor :

13. What's an emoji, an emoticon and/or any symbol that reminds you of this character or you think the character would use a lot?

When I think about him these emojis come to mind: 💥☄🌒😡🌫❗🕳👺

Listen there's no in between with him, he is either not big on emojis OR he overuses all of them. it doesn't matter the context. he puts them everywhere. he's talking about sth serious? he will put the crying laughing emoji. followed by random emojis (mairon can't stand it). that depends on his mood though.

But if he knows that you have one emoji that you hate, he's gonna use that ALL. THE. TIME. Everywhere. hes annoying.

18. How about a relationship they have in canon with another character that you admire?

Well i really like his dynamic with Mairon, even if we're not talking about it in a romantic way.

I think it's interesting because look there's this big bad guy who has a lieutenant and they both only like each other. I also think they balance each other out well, they are similar but not so much that it makes them clash this is more feanor/melkor.

And Melkor definitely needs the order and everything Mairon has to offer. Look at him, the chaos is everywhere. They both have a lot to offer to each other and I think that's the main key for their dynamic here.

Also. "The corruption of Mairon" yes okay but i think he WANTED to be corrupted, Melkor just offered him this opportunity. It's another version of them that can be pretty interesting, it all depends on how you want to see their dynamic/relationship.

My thoughts are all over the place about them but I have to sit and ponder more to give you a better answer tbh.

22. If you're a fic reader, what's something you like in fics when it comes to ths character? Something you don't like?

I really like when people write him as ruthless and relentless, but also. let's not forget that this guy is a loser. so I like it when people add that side of him in their fics. Because he's literally just fucking around and finding out most of the time. Let's be real kfjsdkdjfsd

Something I don't like. Well I don't really know. I haven't read anything that I didn't like. The only thing I would like to see more of is melkor who is just a wreck tbh. Like emotionally and mentally i just want to read about him dealing with those feelings (even though he doesn't really know how to do that!!!)

I'm currently writing a piece that kiiinda resembles what i said above and I have to say it's very interesting to explore that side of him.

For Feanor :

13. What's an emoji, an emoticon and/or any symbol that reminds you of this character or you think the character would use a lot?

Emojis that remind me of him : 🤬💎🔥☄🌪

BRO USES THIS 💀💀💀 EMOJI ALL THE TIME!!!! CONTEXT BE DAMNED

Also he's such a dad he uses 👍🏻 this one too. Like. Whatever the convo. He will send it.

AND THIS "........" DAD MOMENT!!!! OK.....👍🏻

I feel like he'd also use "lmao" too but only in a sarcastic way. like when he gets pissed off he uses it TOO MUCH.

18. How about a relationship they have in canon with another character that you admire?

Listen....... basically I can talk about him w melkor here since this question doesn't specify the kind of relationship.

So i think it's SUPER interesting bc i've seen people saying that they are the two sides of the same coin (and it's def true. they both follow their emotions more than being logical. boh of them also go against the Valar for their own reasons etc.)

I think feanor ofc has every right to hate melkor but at the same time. it's like you are hating a part of yourself bro bc they are so similar. Also they both have a passion that is unmatched. like I am not even seeing this from a shipper perspective, that's right there.

Their dynamic, even though it's barely discussed is sooo good and I think if melkor wasn't such a fuckass dipshit and feanor wasn't so impulsive it would be sooo interesting to explore another side of them where they could work together or sth. Think about it.

Then again, you can also see them exactly as Tolkien intended (feanor, who hates melkor for sooo many valid reasons. melkor who just loves manipulating and lying and being a bitch) and still enjoy their dynamic idk i think it's very promising.

I AM RAMBLING. DOES THIS MAKE ANY SENSE.

22. If you're a fic reader, what's something you like in fics when it comes to ths character? Something you don't like?

I will admit i haven't read many fics w feanor (yet) so I wouldn't know.

But I'd love to see him portrayed as very soft and gentle with his family because he definitely IS!!!!

Need more soft dad feanor in my life fr.

#kinda went off there #answered #mutuals #sauronpilled

[alwaystuesday]

Ok so I'm still here.  Apparently. Floating around in all your art and metas and fanfic. And it's wonderful and angst-inducing at the same time. 

Some thoughts I'm mostly writing down and sharing to try to help them escape the confines of my tired, tired head. Maybe then I can have some peace? Probably not but still.  

1. I dont like assigning blame or taking sides between our ineffable idiots. Love isnt a competition. People are what they are and sometimes choice doesnt come into it. Sometimes everyone loses. Sometimes people can be absolutely made for each other - absolutely 100% destined and perfect, and just what the other needs. But their pasts and their presents and their emotional needs and external ties are just too far away from each other in a moment in time. It doesnt - cant - happen. Incompatible operating systems. Sometimes things work out later. Sometimes never. That's a real life outcome people have to live with sometimes, folks. 

2. Those guys are dorks. Look them both. Look at their hair style choices. Look at the angel's magic show and tartan compulsion. Crowley's ridiculous snake belt and fondness for ducks. I love them so much. I bet almost all of us can see a bit of both of them in ourselves. I'm an Aziraphale operating system with Crowley software. 

3. I'm in team they both consciously know they're in love with each other at least as far back as 1967. Probably in 1941 (I really hope there's a part 3 to the London Bliz meeting in s3). Maybe Crowley knew by the time he was asking for holy water. Maybe much earlier. In some ways I think the exact moment of realisation matters less than the fact that by S1 they def know and are both already used to repressing it. Pretending has become so second nature as to be everything. Part of their lived "us". And where do you even start unpicking something that's part of "us"? 

4. Whether they both have the same concept of what it is to be "in love" is an interesting question. My own concept of love has changed so much over time just during my couple of decades of adult life that I imagine 6000 years could take you to a lot of places, especially layering in the complexities and realities of queer love through history.

5. I am certain they're both living in a state of absolute terror at the implications and risks that such love creates - but in different ways. Crowley's experience of losing God's love, and the reality of the physical and mental torture that came with that and what that's done to him as an individual will hit much differently than the angel's maybe more abstract, but perhaps more encompassing fear for himself and for Crowley. Aziraphale has lost less and so has more still to lose. But the demon understands, anticipates the reality of loss much better. Perhaps it's not surprising that Crowley's default is to run away and defend what he has while Aziraphale's is to reach desperately for the outcome that maximises what he can keep (i.e. please can I keep heaven/God/Earth and Crowley?!)

6. I'm looking forward to seeing how S3 gets them through all this and to their happy ending. Because I dont believe Terry and Neil would leave those two with anything else in the end. 

Kudos to anyone who managed to read to the end of this nonsense!

#they really need to put an addiction warning on this show #repeatedly taking pyschic damage #good omens #ineffable husbands #go2 #aziracrow #aziraphale #crowley #good omens s2

[mogai-sunflowers]

y'know, i've been visiting your account for awhile.. and this isn't limited to your most recent post: if you're struggling that much with your weight and it feeling like a "gut punch" in regards to your transition and how it likely won't be available, try exercising, doing runs, going to the gym and going on a diet? it's not easy at all, it's harder than it should be, especially with your present disorders, which will difficult your path all the way through: but it def will help, even if just a little bit. you've got to try, or atleast attempt yourself doing it. ik it's kinda repetitive knowning that somebody has (probably) already told you this, but believe me— it's worth it. this world also doesn't care for anyone who is genuinely fat, which doesn't necessarily mean you should lose weight for that- it just means that the world is unfair and even the biggest differences affect everything/nothing. promotion in positivity towards individuals of these sizes will be ever so slightly affective, especially towards those whose health is at risk (for their eating methods). i'm just worried abt you, sorry if this seems disrespectful. i genuinely hope you get better, sending my love to you. ❤

hey anon, i'm not particularly upset with you because i can tell how genuine this was and believe me, i do appreciate deeply how you care.

that being said, it's generally pretty disrespectful to tell someone to do those things to lose weight, for whatever reason, especially when they're in the middle of a mental health crisis. i'm not saying this to make you feel bad, just saying that i and many others don't particularly appreciate being told these kinds of things when we already feel bad about our bodies.

for me personally, all of the things you mentioned are not feasible for me for many different reasons. i can't do most, if any, diets, because I have really bad ARFID due to my autism, so most of my diet is literally the only foods i can eat without constantly throwing up. i can't eat most vegetables for that reason, and i also tend to get very anxious with diets because they feel restrictive, which is actually the number one trigger for my binging episodes.

i cannot drive most places because i get too overstimulated on the road that it's legitimately dangerous for me to be doing so, so i can't drive myself to a gym, because the nearest gym to me is only accessible via highway, and i have inner ear issues so i get carsick at highway speeds so wouldn't be able to drive myself there. additionally, my executive dysfunction is so debilitating that many days, it can feel like climbing Mt. Everest just to make myself a bowl of cereal- working out is about 100 times harder than that on my executive dysfunction- and that's not even getting into how workouts make you sweat a lot, and I have really bad sensory issues with getting sweaty (and can't really shower on my own, which would pretty much be required after every work out)

i also very likely have an undiagnosed physical disability, because i cannot stand or walk longer than 10-15 minutes without my entire body hurting like hell, so consistent runs and exercise would be quite difficult for me.

i know there's no way you could have known any of those personal details about me, so i'm not in any way faulting you for that. but they're my reality and i have to live with the reality that almost all conventional modes of weight loss are not an option for me. my best bet is to stick to my current personal eating disorder recovery plan which has actually been a blessing, and work harder than ever on accepting who i am without having to change myself to do so. i won't lie, it's a steep uphill battle. but i actually have many more good days with my body image than i do bad ones, so that keeps my hopes up most of the time.

so yeah, for future reference, it's a bit insensitive to give fat people unsolicited weight loss tips, especially if they're in times of crisis (believe me, i've heard enough of those tips from doctors who never even bothered to ask my opinion /lighthearted). but i do truly appreciate your caring and hope you have a great day /genuine

#🌌written in the stars ; asks🌌 #ask to tag #the world may not care about fat people but the solution for that isnt fat people losing weight #its just making the love louder than the hate

[annieqattheperipheral]

Could it really be this way though?! that McConnor woke up to the text, the same way everyone else did? how many times had it happened before so far? 🤔 cause i am seeing a pattern... People on tumblr love to downplay the agency of the players, saying that they are servants to the narrative, to the management, and to the whatever... But picture this: you are David McConnor, and hockey is the only thing that matters or ever mattered in your life, by wide margin. And you want to win. And still... you can't win by yourself. Hockey is a team sport. And you can't do everything. You are a forward, and you need to give it all to this one job, because no one else can. You are a captain, but how much is the title really worth? You see that the team is ran badly, poorly, and that it actively brings down your game... what do you do? And then you think... what if you were in charge? What if you had a say in how the team is ran? What if you stopped being a glorified paid laborer and instead were making decision on everything that happens? You are a generational talent and the owners of the team want to keep you at any cost. You have leverage and you can make things happen... if you so desire. Is it not exciting?!

Oh def exciting! The little man placing himself as de facto CEO of his little corner of the world

But i think from the outside we really don't get how much the hockeys, as compared to any other sport or profession, do not think of themselves as individual employees each on their own corporate ladders, but a team collective. (Like so much so that they should be better at the union side of things...)

And it extends to their mentality off the ice too. Don't make waves, don't stand out, let your playing speak for you, get a girl who looks like the standard of beauty in your circles, etc.

The bits of personality we get to see of davo, obviously he's a competitor and perfectionist in attaining his elite skills-- but he's clearly a worrier, actually kinda has a pretty negative outlook on what he can accomplish, like goes "oh no, i don't think i can do that" (that colby interview/skills challenge) but then drai or his mom and maybe even lauren (who comes off as an extremely confident individual/ringleader of every social circle she's been a part of) has to talk him down from the negative overwhelming self-talk and break it down for him or just go "no you can do it, let's go" (drai's 60+ goal challenge for him for 22-23 season)

So i don't feel that kind of a person is someone who sees himself as "oh this is MY team to run" and "i know what's right". He is still very much a hockey player who relies on his coaches and trainers to steer him and push him.

But y'know that's just my thoughts. Thanks for the ask!💕 Enjoyed thinking about this one.

#connor mcdavid #edmonton oilers #annieQ hockey thoughts

[arugulalover]

the thing about developing better coping skills and improving your mental health is that when something happens and you experience anxiety its like how the fuck did i used to live like this 24/7. my stomach has been so fucked up and ive had a constant headache for the last 5 days probably bc ive been tryingg to cut back on my caffeine. i really hate transition periods bc the lack of structure truly kills me. i have no idea wtf im supposed to be doing at any given time! also after fting s last night ive come to the conclusion that i need to text that guy and let him know im not interested but i feel guilty because he was really nice. i was reading this essay about how the urge to break things off w ppl "nicely" is really just selfish bc its coming from a place of wanting to control their experience in order to view you in a more positive light and make yourself feel better. which i was like damn true. idk i just feel like the worst person in the world for saying yes to a second date AND inviting him back to my house if i wasn't actually into him. and then when he was leaving i was like "we should def hang out again!" IDK WHY TF I SAID THATTT. sometime feel like i am a bit broken and not fit for human interaction lol.. its like a self fulfilling prophecy bc for the longest time i was like i need to not date bc im too mentally ill for that but then the longer i go wout having those experiences i start to feel like im "behind" and then feel more pressure to date and have sex. even though i dont think i even care a lot about it or want to in the first place. anyways..

#honey.post

[syncopatedid]

Much ado about 買う食い

Random post and yes I am finally revisiting S1 of Haikyuu!! like it's 10 years ago (and it kinda is, since according to my old posts I first read the manga in 2012, whoa!) But also it's quite a feeling encountering scenes you've forgotten about and making that instant link to another running anime that you haven't forgotten about that Prod IG had gone on to produce later and noticing all the similarities! But this is not a Haikyuu!! post, just a thought about a school rule specific to Japan that I wasn't aware of until recently. The rule of Kaigui [買う食い] or "the spending of one's pocket money on sweets" (def: source).

Apparently, in many Japanese schools, it's against the rules for students to snack on their way home. (Fun fact: I asked my JP colleague about it and she confirms it's a rule that exists but not every school enforces this rule, but imo it's widespread enough to be a thing people who attended schools in Japan are familiar with). My first thought was: isn't it a silly rule to deprive growing kids of food? Like, what if they get hungry?! And my colleague's reply went something like "then go straight home and eat", haha. But come to think now, it's not that crazy a rule if one were to view it as an extension of the "no loitering" rule that we may be more familiar with, the same way students in uniforms are barred from entering gaming arcades, bars and the like. But the "no snacking" rule would imply that students are kind of barred from stepping into convenience stores while in uniforms too, right? Since they can't use "I was hungry and went in to grab a bite" as an excuse to hang around those places either? Although I don't think combinis actively ban uniforms from their premises since it's not required by law, so it's on the schools to enforce it? Hmm. Mental note to observe this when I am in Japan again. The point is, knowing the ban on snacking on the way home really lends so much more context to such scenes as above, as well as my head theory of why we often see "delinquent-type students" in anime hanging outside convenience stores (and it's not just because convenient stories are everywhere and... well, they're a safe and convenient place for students to meet up). And Ukai feeding the kids here while simultaneously reminding them not to skip on dinner does have that added layer of context that Ukai was bending the rules for the kids a bit and the kids better not get themselves into trouble with their families or the school for that. Just something to think about.

#and now for something a little bit different #*thinks too much about cartoon plots* #brb having one of those “I should know this but why don't I know this” moments #Just gonna leave this tldr here while I roll around the floor #All these years and I still know nothing #We'll be right back with your regularly scheduled programming