#i also know im a fucking nobody talking about this but fuck if i dont who will ugh

[anxiously-sidequesting]

I personally love and obsess over disillusioned and self-isolating protagonists which is one of the reasons why I advocate for a Young Wizard who just leans so much into their role as the Savior that they're now just this broken down individual who now genuinely shares everyone's fears and legends of them of being this Ultra Powerful, Non-Human, Above-All-The-Peasants Legend Amongst Men. Being picked apart and analyzed (INCORRECTLY might I add) by strangers and people who fear/hate/revere you, no matter where you go or what you do, over and over and OVER it just literally whittles away at who you used to be, what used to make you happy and now you're replaced with what everyone made you into. Not You, but a Hero.

But you know what's even better 😈😈😈 a wizard who cracks in a different way and is now just baaaareeely holding it together. A wizard who just is not All There anymore. A wizard who's Good Maybe, but someone who genuinely gives you a GOOD REASON to fear a switch in allegiance. Someone who reminds you that your entire life depends on their mood

Give me Harley Quinn YW, give me a YW who cackles and shrieks in joy as they batter the evil to the ground, give me a YW who pushes at the very edge of the EXTREMES even when they don't need to. I want a YW who doesn't carry around a gleaming sword, or a mystical staff, but a bat with nails studded inside or a rusty machete; I want poems and songs of not a Hero but a wolf in sheep's clothing who just barely gets by in masquerading as the Commoners. An unhinged YW is the second to best Bad Ending you could ever get from this situation and I want everyone to think about this actually

#aka: my oc JALSBDID #no but i want an Almost Villain yw so badly. like full on villain yw is transcendent dont get.me wrong but i want THIS #all that fucking PRESSURE. that nobody could even BEGIN to describe in any post and the yw has to LIVE IT #this post was also inspired by wallaru's very last line in dialogue. no spoilers but you guys Know exactly what im talking about #also funny thought: dyvim would absolutely still support us and not be afraid of us if this ever happened #just like “aww look at them go <3” nobody can tell me dyvim would not support this. Nobody. #AU WHERE DASEIN AND THE YW ARE UNHINGED TOGETHER #dasein standing up for himself is hot but dasein who knows when to reign it in but DOESN'T anyway? 🥵🥵🥵🥵 #like super confident in himself. knowing EXACTLY who he is: a menace. and he takes (misguided?) comfort and solace in that shit #and then the yw being the same way......... bro #i got off topic but anyways JALSNDOESJ #wizard101 #w101 #wiz101 #text posts

[the-kipsabian]

a quick hot guide for people that struggle commenting on fics aka things authors love to hear and youre just over thinking it and its actually really simple to leave comments on stuff!!

key smash/emoji spam/reaction image/etc (it conveys emotions way more than you might think)

drop a line you really liked

say how much you love a ship/character and how happy you are that theres content about them

ALL CAPS ANYTHING

"i liked/loved/enjoyed/whatever it!" its better to say the most basic thing than saying nothing tbh; writers appreciate hearing anything over nothing 💜

"thank you for writing this" its short, sweet, and very powerful

think what kind of feedback you'd personally like to receive on a piece of art you made. try to translate that want into comments you leave for other people too

you dont have to be critical or constructive or anything, even if the author asks for that stuff in their notes. they'll get it from someone else, you just do you

i feel like people make leaving comments too hard on themselves, so really just make it simple. if you really dont come up with anything, just say thank you. youre there reading for some reason, tell the author what it is. fic comments dont need to be book analysis essays (tho those are. incredibly appreciated as well if you want to write one!!), writers publishing their works for free online appreciate any kind of feedback regardless if you consider it good or well written. a comment is a comment

bottom line is, leave comments on fics and other written works. its whats keeping this game alive

#feel free to add these are just the two cents in my brain rn #also absolutely reblogs encouraged #listen im not just speaking for myself i want to see every fic writer get more comments. more feedback #and dont even get me fucking started on getting reblogs on this goddamn webbed site im gonna blow up otherwise #just. fucking. support your friends. support your favorite creators. say nice shit about them and share their work #i cant believe this needs to be said in fucking 2023 god #im tired can you tell lmao #i also know im a fucking nobody talking about this but fuck if i dont who will ugh #as someone that tries their best to always leave at least a word in everything i read (which admittedly isnt a lot but still) #this is a very important topic to me. okay? okay #again feel free to add to this and its absolutely rebloggable if for nothing else than to remind people to COMMENT ON FICS #night is an absolute mess on main

[dullahandyke]

i look at some of u guys talking abt a new show u watched or a new thing u read and im like. holy shit thats a thing u can do. im in awe of u. i spend my time slowly ping-ponging between several interests whose base componants i can never experience because i get scard

#right now its danganronpa again grin. did u know ive been into it on and off for lets say 7 years at this point #and ive never once played it myself. i have it installed on this laptop ready to go and i just! never open it! #because if Im the one playing it then i have to pay attention and i get scared #but if im watching a lets player i just naturally pay attention without the pressure #ive talked before how i always feel i need to have the smart cool takes on shit #n this deep plays into that #idk boti was good for me bcos nobody fucking knew what it was so nobody could judge me for pardoning anotsu's crimes bcos he was hot #so i probs need to do that again #yknow a thing where i disconnect from anything that anyone knows about and get really really into some dipshit manga from 2008 #but also like. i get a lot of my media recs from people talking abt what they like #which then means i defacto have someone who is gonna know if my takes are shit #and like even now. im watching mop cycle w dri and im having fun w it #but i feel bad bcos i see so many ppl like This Is The Best Anime Ever and i just like. dont get it #like i can actively feel the messages and shit whooshing over my head #its a fine anime! i'm having fun watching it! but i don't get all the commentary abt pacifism or whatever #idk. something something my need to be The Smart Kid The Bookworm Kid that went unchecked too long without peers to challenge me #so now im here like Uh Oh #and like this wouldnt be the end of the world (save for its impact on my mood n stuff) #but also like. i am an english student. i should know this shit. but i stragiht up do not feel smart enough to sometimes #i keep coasting by on the assumption that im a smart kid and i'll automatically be better than my peers #and im being disproven #i got an english exam back tonight and i got like 63% #and i like college! i just dont like. college. #anywho its approaching 3am and i have a 9am tomorrow morning which means bedtime

[apple-os]

ppl who like making friends solely with one-note cardboard boxes who will hang out with them when it's convenient and never open up about who they are as people and what their lives are like dni

#the salt just caught up with me and now im pissed #hi welcome to what i like to call a friendly reminder that hanging out with someone just because its convenient is kind of shitty #and a less friendly reminder that talking about yourself to connect with people is an autistic trait #and an even less friendly reminder that not telling someone if theyve done you wrong and then proceeding to blow up on them is ALSO SHITTY #ESPECIALLY. WHEN. THEY THINK. YOU'RE ON GOOD TERMS. BECAUSE YOU ACTED LIKE IT AND THEY CAN'T READ YOU. #IM REALLY FUCKING MAD #I THINK I HAVE EVERY RIGHT TO BE. #the people who actually somewhat knew me and hung out with me and were on good terms with me think the same #so like BLEH MYEH :PPPPPPPPP #like okay youre entitled to your opinions but sometimes you need to keep those to yourself #did u see me insulting u to ur face #nope i have not done even once #and thats on getting better communication skills instead of lashing out at someone for trying to fit in with your own vibes #like yeah oversharing is my deal. anybody who sees me here knows that #i bond by being open with people about who i am and what i like in the hopes that theyll do the same #if u think im just around for gaming and making silly jokes u would be wrong. #but of course nobody told me people weren't there to bond like that which in my opinion shouldnt be on me #and once again i am outcasted over something honestly kind of fucking stupid #some of the jokes i made were stupid yes but thats solely because i severely misjudged the vibes #and checks notes oh yeah nobody pulled me up for it even once. #okay so let me get this straight you barely know me and have been making assumptions about me since day one #pretty much let me believe you liked me for two whole weeks instead of asking me about things or cutting me off #and im the one who gets treated like im in the wrong? okay #this miscommunication was not my fault in the slightest and i KNOW that #if you hadve just talked to me things would be fine but theyre NOT. #if you hadve just looked at my gosh darn profile and seen im the queerest fucker around making gay and homophobic type jokes maybe you woul #have had half the mind to ask me if i could stop making those jokes!!!!!!!!! #i am not transphobic!!!!!!! I AM TRANS!! I WAS MAKING A MOCKERY OF SOME TRANSPHOBIC CULTURE I HATE!!!! #i mightve vented on main ONE TIME under the guise of a silly joke but oh my god guess what?? that was an attempt to see if anybody related. #you never liked me in the first place dont lie to yourself

[totentnz]

if johnny only sees what v sees, does that mean he cant see them? it does right? or does he see them the way they *think* they look like? does johnny see who v sees in the mirror? in photos?

#sammy says shit #listen i still dont fully describe to 'i only see what you see' #HOWEVER #if any of the above does apply imagine the first fucking time he sees them for real #aka happy au #does johnny ever comment on vs apperance? aside from the not my type comment #im thinking about things and this just crossed my mind #is johnnys pov just him in a world that doesnt see him? doesnt react to him? #ofc sometimes people stop to look in his direction but they arent looking at /him/ #in the beginning does he reply to questions directed at v bc he thinks that person is talking to him?? #MY GOD someone send help him going insane over this #been thinking about johnny having no autonomy #nobody to talk to besides v #and how v knows this and tries to give him said autonomy as best as they can #see: the sharing meals post my queue spat out earlier #anyway im raving in the tags again... old habits do die hard huh #also i do think there is a difference between what own body johnny sees compared to what engram johnny sees #(talking about what v looks like) #but if my above thoughts are true... GODDAMN the potential

[anaalnathrakhs]

ghezikjfjekzjkezn i cannot fucking WAIT to move out

#my mom went in my room while i was gone AGAIN #and she threw out stuff AGAIN #it wasnt even the guest room i squat in. i wasnt even gone 24 hours. it was MY room the one nobody else ever has to interact with. #she threw out the carboard boxes i wanted to keep to see if i could craft smth with them #and i knowwww i have a hoarding problem but man. it was a couple of packs of cereals. it was nothing. #i want to throw out everything i've ever fucking owned i want to live in an EMPTY APPARTEMENT i want to own nothing but a mattress #im going to try to talk to her reasonably about it #and like. i feel like a monster because theoretically it's lovely and in credibly nice of her to clean my room #but i did not fucking ask!! holy shit i think i'm old enough to have some fucking responsability over how my room is #it was rank but it's MY room it's out of the way nobody else ever HAS to go in #and i understand i understand yes age is a factor but also as long as i live w my parents (or anybody else) ill have to compromise some #but holy shit!! what if it's filthy? let me live in my filth until i learn to clean it up properly #you could at least fucking ASK. or WARN me. or i dont know. mind your fucking business. #jesus christ im starting to remember why i dont ask for help #broadcasting my misery #vent

[kelprot-old]

everyone needs to be a little bit transgender or else what is even the point

#i love thinking of like. pretransition stuff and going ''ohhhhhh kill yourself now'' #and also just HOW CIS PPL TALK..... #i dont mean that in a nerd emoji ''wow cisheads r so cringebased'' or whatever the fuck #i mean like the littlest of things. that nobody fucking notices #like ''wow boys r so'' or ''and i know she acts like that because she's a girl'' #basically assigning personality traits and negative behaviors to gender. and ect. like kill yoruself maybe boy!!! #like wowwww u want to recognize that we as people are not defined by our bodies? and there is no correlation between penis and hate #YES u can talk about how certain demographics are more prone to certain behaviors but claiming it to be a biological fact means im killing u #there's a wall that i hit when talking to a lot of cis people that just. you can't do anything about. #something it doesn't even have anything to do with gender it's just this Wall. this lack of understanding of bodily autonomy and. so much #i could go on butim not. educated enough to really know how to make my point

[almosteverythingnerd]

frobin is poetic cinema

#frobin #one piece #in this essay i will- #listen. listen. #man w the blueprints to the weapon and woman who is the key to the weapon #'your existence is not a crime' #starting out as antagonists to the strawhats #i was just thinking about how important stories about not 'getting it right' (in narrative sense if that makes sense) until youre older are #like ofmd #and that led me to thinking about frobin bc franky and robin are so true and real #they are poetic #maybe someday ill make an actual post about it #and like im not qualified to talk about the older thingy but its reassuring to know i dont have to have it all together now #that its entirely possible to take time getting to good places and also fuck shit up along the way and come back from that #if that makes sense?? im just having ofmd and frobin thoughts they are rotting my brain #i think about 'nobody is born into this world alone' a lot #did oda know what he was doing when he created water seven? did he know how much he could alter my brain chemistry #with the utter great story telling of it all #did he?? #almosteverythingnerd posts

[vraska-theunseen]

im genuinely so frustrated right now the way i always am about this one thing but i can't even sustain the misery right now because i've never been able to come up with any kind of answer no matter how many miserable drafts i write and hours i stay up thinking so it's just making me laugh how the posts im writing to keep in my drafts keep turning into my fucking. autobiography. "...i remember a stage kiss with a tall girl in theater camp (her name was ashley or jennifer or something she could do the splits)" that's literally so funny. jennifer or ashley do you remember playing spin the bottle at the arden theater camp in 6th grade it's apparently pretty core for me

#guys its just literally so stupid bc i have a concern but i don't know if i even want it solved or explored it just makes me feel so fucking #lonely! so im stuck in this place where i dont want to go out and figure it out i just want things to happen to me but i also am scared of #things to happen to me and i also know that its not just a happening to me thing it's a thing i have to feel and pursue but man how am i #supposed to know how to do it if i can't like. literally so dumb i don't even know #i want to have already experienced things i and i want to already know things and how i feel about them because it feels too embarrassing to #be having a go at it now like im a little kid because i'm not anymore but man what am i meant to do just shoulder the whole weight now when #im an adult why couldn't i have it before. why couldn't i know how to do it. and no matter how many tv shows and movies i watxh i'll never #get anything like that bc that's not real. that can't be my bar that's not real! this is so stupidnobody read this nobody read this #alex talks

[bittwitchy]

see the reality is i post on my rps usually when nobodys been there a bit and nobody is probably online, but the mental illness in me keeps saying its bc everyone secretly hates me and i dont deserve love, and when i tell a gov doctor that, they basically just say ‘take your antidepressant’s and shut up’ which is also funny when said gov doctor wont refill my fucking antidepressants in the first place

#what i need is smthn for my anxiety and PROBABLY the obviously worsening ocd #but anxiety meds and antidepressants dont mix well #just like adhd meds and anything else dont mix well #which is why i just have a redbull if i need to focus bx it works for a few hours and then i pass out #which isnt healthy but its better than going through the diagnosis process AGAIN bc they dont have my info anymore #its early sad times rn w brina who hasnt gotten an ounce of treatment at all hi #see the other thing is #if i talk about my mental health at all #people will either hate me for being annoying which is what my brain will pinpoint #or feel sorry for me which i also dont want #all i rly wanna do is vent but thats never really an option at all #like yes i know its not normal to want to have a breakdown and cry bc your fucking pillow isnt the correct fluff and wont dluff #i know its not normal to feel like you should die because something wasnt in fhe spot you put it in and was moved slightly #im aware. and the reality is nobody who can do anything about it cares #i have to get an authorization to see a therapist or get meds at all even tho the card claims i dont have to #and the doc tbey gave me wont give me one #they dont allow email so i cant leave a paper trail when bitching at them and my calls go ignored #im losing my mind steadily #and thats not even onto the physical problems #but also the sheer fucking audacity of the website being all ‘oh just go to ERs and UC snd we’ll cover it’ vs hospitals specifically saying #‘we will refuse you if you have Gov Ins unless you have the money to pay out of pocket #if youre on gov insurance you dont have fucking money thats the entire fucking point. you creedy fucknuts go shove tour nepotism in your #fucking eyes and die if anyone doesnt deserve to fuck its you fuckfaces #sometimes i just want to scream esp when this doesnt seem to be most other ppls issues #but then i talk to other women and it is #it just doesnt make sense and i hate it #but i never rly got help on private insurance either so #tbd #depression cw

[uniformbravo]

witch hat atelier is hurting my feelings

#just finished vol 7????? LITERALLY illegal?????????? #i dont even wanna go into detail bc it's such a massive spoiler but JUST KNOW that last chapter gave me a thousand yard stare instantly #U CANT HIT ME W THE DOUBLE BAIT & SWITCH THE TWO TIMIN HIGH FIVIN ASS BLASTIN SQUARE DANCIN SWITCHEROO #UNETHICAL. LITERALLY FUCKED UP. WELCOME TO SHIRAHAMA'S TWISTED MIND #retag later #manga blogging #i thought it was about the whimsy. i thought we were having fun #THE PART IM TALKING ABT ISNT EVEN THAT BAD IT JUST GOT ME SO GOOD I WASNT READY #no u know what it IS that bad actually qifrey owes me 5000 dollars right now #ALSO can i stop being so EXCRUCIATINGLY PREDICTABLE KGJLAKGSLKDJK #four wonderful well-rounded female main characters and all i care about is the stinky MAN #sobbing at myself in the shower GIRL HES LINESSSSS #nobody should be allowed to draw a man hot anymore. well if it's olruggio it's fine actually. U KNOW WHO I MEAN #this IS targeted #putting up the anti gojo barrier from jjk but for qifrey #(btw that was a lie i would probably lay down my life for aggot #like if she was crossing the street i would get hit by a random car for her. like on principle)

[soggypotatoes]

I hate oversharing so much on here but god. I don't know who I can message just to say. hey I'm walking constantly for my job and my impulse self harm cut from earlier has been bleeding for hours and it's making me nervous. anyway what's up

#bc how do i say that without worrying anyone haha #ed mumbles #self harm ///// #i don't rly want anyone to say anything or do anything about it #i think i just want someone to know whats happening #also sometimes ill be talking to all these people and suddenly im like #why did i do that? lol why the hell.. do i even have this problem #im so silly!! #nobody else i know has this problem!! so why do i do this!!!!! #edit also i find it weirdly funny #cause i present an extremely happy energetic personality #which is why im so good at this job lmao #but im interviewing people and having all these jaunty conversations at a fun event #and in my mind im like :) they dont know im bleeding thru my pants rn cause im clinically fucked :)

[bl00dw1tch]

the way i have absolutely no business being the way i am

#horse.txt #vent // #sort of. too high to be sad abt it im in anthropology mode and listening to music that makes me feel sexy so its fine yk #anyway i typed a whole bunch of other tags talking abt how and why i feel this way by going through a few of the events i can remember #from my childhood that Might explain why im so emotionally guarded and struggle to open up anymore. #bc i Wanted to say they all felt dumb and juvenile esp since ive actually like #made peace with most of the ppl who were involved with them #but the Anthropology mode was just tearing it all down as i typed it bc that Is just a ridiculous way to look at it no matter how you cut it #doesn't matter that nobody involved really Meant to deal that kind of harm and i dont need to hate or blame anyone in order to acknowledge #that it still just Happened. like thats a Memory already babe no do overs. #which is kind of just accidental therapy so sick. love that fir me genuinely! #but also yes theres the bitch part of me that still wants to discredit it bc acknowledging that it happened =/= Fixing My Issues #so im still at square one technically. ive just been pacing in circles on it for a while ig #EVEN WORSE that the Scale of my issues is so incredibly mundane compared to so many of the people i seem to meet. #sitting in bed crying abt not having friends for a few days in elementary school when other ppl have jojos bizarre adventure levels of Lore #i know im not technically invalid for feeling the way i do or anything but god. if it doesn't feel fucking Embarrassing to open up about😭 #its impossible NOT to feel stupid and sensitive for having these first world ass problems. And letting them hold me back #bc ppl not liking me for any reason makes me sooooooooo fucking scared So fucking scared its not even funny 😝 #at least. ppl in my Circles. im pretty ok about being assertive with randos #still some work to be done on it but its better than whatevers going on with my personal relationships rn #sincerely to my mutuals and loved ones who see this i swear to GOD i love you so so so fucking much and im so. im trying to figure out this #the stuff thats got me so distant and bad at keeping in touch. its a whole slew of feelings about how i see Myself--not yall #i double pinky promise cross my heart im extremely serious #thank you for being patient with me you mean more to me than im capable of putting into words right now #alright theres a shot of tears in the hollow of my collar bone time to wrap up this post #daily reminder that i love body hair. there's some honesty. #😎😎😎💪💪💪 #the Quaritch under the cut is just to make me feel better bc i love him and i think hes so pretty. hes like a security blanket

[engagemythrusters]

my General Akiyi Tonn and Commander Hilt, heads of the 116th Battalion. She is prim and poised and all things proper, and he is stoic and silent and would rather take on twelve B1s weaponless than talk to anyone. And they are fucking and don't even bother trying to hide it. At least they command well together...

#EDIT: THE PNG DIDNT WORK I DONT KNOW HOW TO FIX IT GIVE ME A SEC #they fuckin like nasty and everyone fucking knows it #however shes so Proper Tee Em and he's so scary in his silence that nobody talks to either of them about it out of fear #and a bit of confusion #Mace Windu may know. but he is also too awkward to bring it up bc they FUCK DIRTY and its embarrassing to bring up in a council meeting #ahem. anyway. #her lightsaber is yellow. yay! #jedi oc #clone trooper oc #116th battalion #star wars: the clone wars #star wars #its not perfect in the slightest--it's really just a texture practice thing! i'm working on that more than anything else rn #i still have no set 'style' im just trying everything out #and im not sure his metal jaw is very metal (yes the minimal teeth is intentional) #and his stupid lil pocket thing is stupid and i hate those things and wish i could get away with not drawing them #but i did have a fuckin blast distressing his paint #it wasnt easy to make 'random distressing' look real but. yeah. #my art #mimse art #mimse ocs

[crunchchute]

me itching to post some cosplay pics i just found because i look good there but also fighting for my life to Not post them cause i dont want my face online

#plus it feels like cheating cuz i do not look that good irl. idk the spirit of a prettyboy twink posessed me during taking those photos #i would post them on instagram but they would drag me for my cool emo hair and cool emo clothes and #im talking about the time i cosplayed glitchtrap but it was hot so i went a dawktrap route with just head and gloves #and paired it up with the classic ourple guy outfit with the purple shirt and black vest and badge so it was very silly #nobody knew who i was at the con btw. except like 2 kids literally awful #you dont know purple guy???? #also found some that were from a project that i fucked up on. i still feel bad about it but oh well. was meant to collab with someone for #an edit and i had to take some videos for them to cut and edit but i suck at taking videos and am terrible on camera in general so i hated #every single take and they also didnt like it iirc. told me to take more and i had enough. and then i got locked out of my account so i was #like fuck it. and i didnt get back to them later so i am the AH #i got some screenshots from it that are cool but i cant post them as that would be mean and lame and whatever #oh well i dont even remember their acc anymore but i should have apologized and explained that i wont do more takes as they wont be better #do not ask me for a cosplay video ever #made me think of how many times people recorded me at cons only for the footage not be used in the aftermovies lol

[pawphin]

ABSOLUTELY DECIMATED BY THIS PANEL. I LOVE THEM SO MUCH HE SHOULDERED SO MUCH BY HIMSLEF AT SUCH A YOUNG AGE HE DESERVES ALL TH HUGS CRYING FOR A MILLION YEARS

(Im almosy done w the manga!!! Thank you for bearing w me so far :] )

#I NEED TO BLOW SOMETHING UP #HE LOOKS SO GROWN HERE #a year apart and theyre finally back together.. #i dont talk enough about how awesome phil is but if there is one character in tpn that nobody is allowed to hate on its him #and it just makes me think about how fucking well written his story is #tpn truly boggles my mind like even the THOUGHT of the themes makes me sick they are SICK for this #ALSO BLOO. SAW YOUR OTHER ASKS. IM SCARED TO POST THE MOST RECENT BECAUSE IDK IF MY FRIEND HAS TPN SPOILERS TAGGED #BUT HOLY GOD DAMN. i dont think i have ever cried harder at a scene than the most recent one you sent me #except for chapter 181.5 #when you get to 181.5 PLEASE let me know i will truly lose my marbles